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Mikoto's amnesia, denial, and the order of events in MeMe
So my theory about the memories detailed in MeMe, as per Milgram's record of Mikoto being the "guilty one," is pretty simple. The events in the outerworld are completely jumbled, and I believe the bulk of them take place right after Mikoto's "first" murder if there were indeed multiple victims. This is gonna be a very basic look at the "flashback"/"real-life" sequences in MeMe. I feel like this may have been done before but I mostly just see analysis on the headspace/symbolism in the video and not the implications of the real-world bits, but this video has been discussed to death so I can't be the only one who's thought about it lol
In the first part of our timeline, we see lots of static and Mikoto swinging a bat at someone as the train goes by. I imagine the tracks were where the body itself was disposed of. Mikoto's "dream" shows faraway 3rd-person angle and it's almost as if he's watching "himself" commit the crime. However, the face of the victim, his own expression, and the injuries inflicted are obscured from his view the whole scene.
It abruptly cuts to him entering his house after this, which is where I believe Mikoto's memory starts to get patchier. The moments after a trauma are when the brain is still reeling from shock, after all. After his first dream sequence where he expresses confusion, I believe the second verse is filling in the gaps of what happened between finishing the crime and changing his clothes. You can't lie in Milgram though, and sharing a brain means sharing memories, no matter how deeply they are buried. The memory gets more detail as he is examined more, and it's already common for brains to remember things out of order. Mikoto is shown to be in-and-out of his headspace in MeMe; the memories of how "he" saved "him" (the other alter, likely a big part of who John would become) are not all his own, even if the choice to kill was.
I believe that chronologically, this is the next scene.
Presumably John, processing what they've done, recognizing himself as "not Mikoto" for the first time. Mikoto, then, is seeing "himself" from yet another angle, completely upside-down.
It abruptly cuts again, his jacket having been taken off. His face is once again obscured, like Mikoto remembers doing it but not as "himself."
The angle here is more first-person, implying that Mikoto clearly remembers "dreaming" this part.
This is right before he goes home. He's disposed of the beanie, and presumably the jacket and bat.
Mikoto walking in his door immediately after the confrontation is likely exactly how he felt at the time. I believe this next line of dialogue is an alter, likely John or pre-John, speaking to him. "You don't have to keep it in and hide it away, 'I' will save 'me."" (Worth mentioning that "Boku" is used both times here.) It's the first time in the song he refers to himself as "you," which I feel like is pretty common for alters to do to each other even before they realize that they're completely separate ego states. This cut from the first verse, where it jumped right after the murder, shows him in the same pants and shirt he took the trash out in. This implies that Mikoto blacked out most of the way home, which tracks for an event as traumatic as killing a guy.
This part abruptly cuts to him on the couch, in new clothes and no longer covered in blood. As I said earlier, I believe Mikoto's memory begins to come back in bits and pieces as Milgram scans it, which is why the second part is where we actually see him getting cleaned up.
Just as he realizes he's fading in and out, and there seems to be someone on the other side who "doesn't care" that they've killed someone, he gets kicked back into headspace. Since he's in Milgram, that space could be defined as the present moment, while the memories themselves are reflecting more like flashbacks than a linear story.
That's why we see this next part so early, even though it happened after his clean-up work.
Here we see Mikoto's alter, either John or "Midokoto" (plausible 3rd alter show urself challenge impossible likely literally impossible look at that trauma-holding sonofabitch) banishing Mikoto to the shadow realm /j. No blood, new clothes, numb to the world and very clearly trying to forget. "That had to have been a dream" type shit.
Ironically, alters who the host doesn't notice know when they're controlling the body better than the host, who takes it for granted like they're supposed to. If you don't know what DID is, it's easy to be aware that you are technically "working together" with yourself but not understand why it feels that way.
We're also shown this scene where he comes home from work, in the instrumental between Mikoto's Denial choruses. This is the answer to his question of "why?". He was running himself ragged and literally watching himself fall apart from the stress. Assuming he threw out that jacket, this could be interpreted as the days leading up to the murder.
Given that he doesn't have his beanie despite retaining the rest of the outfit, it could also be him continuing to go through the motions and act like the event didn't happen in the days after. I sure wouldn't throw out that shirt, it's a cool shirt. (Actually, it's such a cool shirt that I personally think it further proves the lack of pre-meditation, but like he still did it lol)
I think that in Mikoto's case, the farther away the camera is, the farther "our" Mikoto is from the front. It all happened so fast that his decisions were carried out for him, despite Milgram and his own sense of guilt determining that he himself was the one to take that path.
I don't think he's just talking to Es when he becomes more intense/angry about "why am I here?". I think he's speaking to his alter(s) as well. But I'm only allowed 10 images so I'll post about that later. The line "You don't have to keep it in and hide it away" from when he walks in his door contrasts directly with "Hurting it, holding it down, it doesn't change a thing does it?" Says a lot about how he dismissed his own stress and desire for change, unwittingly dismissing the pain of the people trying to help him.
He literally knows not what he does grrrrrr how dare this project be so fucking cool and good
#milgram#mikoto milgram#john milgram#mikotoposting#haha#again!!#meme milgram#milgram theory#possibly plate-of-corn type post#but like#the out-of-order memories about what could conceivably take up all of 1-5 hours of time#is so real#bitch got Unstuck in Time#me when slaughterhouse v changed my brain chemistry regarding how memory works
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#and so milgram was born#milgram#meme#Jackalope#hope no one has done this already#this post broke containment. if you're here for tma this is about a music project called milgram where prisoners in a panopticon sing song#about their crimes . anyway . the warden is a talking jackalope .#which was edited into this post. so uh. he is on your blog now#i thought it was very obvious that this was an edited icon and display name but apparently some people think Twitter op was a milgram fan#I'm sorry to disappoint#this was supposed to be a 3 note post for niche jp music project fans#if you're reading my tags look at my Cosplays
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MeMe piano cover done by me!
Im sorry i messed up so many times but ignore 😓😓
make sure to unmute!
#mikoto kayano#milgram#milgram mikoto#MeMe milgram#piano music#piano cover#fanwork#kayano mikoto#I love this song#gyat#artwork#kazcassette
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Milgram is rising, we are waiting for the next stage)))
#arting#art#digital illustration#art style#drawing#illustrator#digital art#digital drawing#illustration#mikoto kayano#milgram mikoto#milgram#milgram memes#john kayano#john milgram#kayano mikoto
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i made this as quick as humanly possible. ive been waiting for this moment for days
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milgramblr is this anything
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#milgram#milgram project#kashiki yuno#yuno kashiki#es milgram#mahiru shiina#shiina mahiru#kazui mukuhara#mukuhara kazui#merci néo mon epoux pour cette œuvre d'art#milgram memes#🦗
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Okay so Like a Dog doesn't really fit Mikoto and John at all except for this one line maybe, but I really wanted to draw them in the pose.
Plus I wanted to make myself a new phone wallpaper that incorporates PAFL in some way.
No filter and text version under the cut
#milgram#milgram fanart#mikoto kayano#john kayano#john milgram#iris draws#fun fact: mikoto's eye was opened in my sketch but i couldn't make it look right#but hey it could represent mikoto willingly being in denial and refusing to open his eyes or something#~ symbolism woooooo#oh and the background is an edited screenshot from MeMe#anyway after drawing this i somehow fucked up my tablet#now it keeps drawing even when i'm just hovering/not even touching the screen#idk what to do#it's a veikk 1200 tablet if that helps#so i won't be drawing until i figure out how to fix that
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Idiot codependent teenagers aka She has never had a thought in her life and he has the self esteem of Nagito komeda
#I love Muu she is insane#never once considered someone else’s feelings type girl#I need to put them both in a mental hospital#milgram#milgram fanart#haruka sakurai#muu kusunoki#milgram haruka#milgram muu#milgram memes#fanart#art#milgram project#meme redraw
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Doomed system yaoi
#mikoto kayano#john kayano#john milgram#orekoto#milgram fanart#milgram#meme#sorry john your little meow meow won’t accept your existence#0909
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MeMe is split between the part of Mikoto who knows what he did and why, and the part who doesn’t think he could (host who masks), and the part who can only ever think of protecting the host.
Double is between said newly-split protector and said unaware (thus in a way “ungrateful”) host Mikoto.
That’s my theory anyway thank you your honor
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I say save me even though it's going to make things worse
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im obsessed with whatever the fuck is wrong with these two
#wow a theo original#milgram#milgram project#muu kusunoki#haruka sakurai#milgram haruka#milgram muu#milgram memes#0104
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i was looking through my gallery and saw these things i made a year ago. these are golden
#milgram#milgram project#milgram es#es milgram#muu kusunoki#kusunoki muu#mikoto kayano#kayano mikoto#kotoko yuzuriha#yuzuriha kotoko#haruka sakurai#sakurai haruka#milgram memes
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I got bored so. Joever memes but Milgram.
#perry the fucking platyplus godammit#drywallisedible#milgram#milgram project#milgram memes#haruka sakurai#yuno kashiki#fuuta kajiyama#muu kusunoki#shidou kirisaki#mahiru shiina#kazui mukuhara#amane momose#mikoto kayano#kotoko yuzuriha
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