#MITSKI THE WOMAN THAT YOU ARE

[cutelilrat]

when mitski said “i’m sorry i’m the one you love. no one will ever love me like you again. so, when you leave me, i should die. i deserve it don’t i?” SHIT WAS FUNNY ASF 😂😂😂😂😂😂 SHE MAKIN ME WANNA KMS FR 😂😂😂😂

[pastasauceandmoms]

YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO DO AND I HAVE NOTHING AHEAD OF ME🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥

[loverboywambles]

I've been listening to Mitski all morning I'm so cooked today

[whinlatter]

i MUST hear your thoughts on "im your man" by mitski and how it's the ginny/harry/sirius trio anthem in "beasts"...must hear

what have you done asking me about this...... a great and terrible mistake........ the air is thick with sirens...........

basically i'm your man is an absolutely perfect song about feeling unworthy and undeserving of the love someone gives you, and a feeling of great dread that one day the other person will realise it and leave. it is - for this reason - so eye-wateringly ginny-sirius-harry coded i simply cannot bear it. that whole album (the land is inhospitable and so are we) is heaven and there are so many songs on it that have been absolutely dynamite for getting the juices flowing with this fic (the frost and star are my hinny anthems for chapter 12  👀)

so i am taking a short dissertation writing break to offer an entirely unhinged rant about i'm your man complete with some mild beasts spoilers because apparently i care a lot about this inexplicably. thank you so much for humouring me!

you're an angel, i'm a dog or you're a dog and i'm your man you believe me like a god i'll destroy you like i am

the first verse plays with the idea that there are three tiers of being - dog, man, angel/god - that all exist in relation to each other. the narrator sings the song to put themselves down. you're an angel, i'm a dog - meaning, i'm lowly nothing compared to your pure divine greatness. in the next line, a twist and advance on that idea: you're a dog (faithful, honest, loyal, loving easily and with such trust) and i'm your man (the one who is responsible for you, who you look to protect and sustain you, who is unworthy of that kind of adoration). you believe me like a god - you trust and believe in my power and ability to take care of you and guide you. but then: i'll destroy you like i am - the only real godlike power the narrator identifies with is the capacity for destruction and ruin.

ok partly it's... you know....... the dog thing because i am very on-the-nose. (obviously sirius as padfoot, but also the distinctions in the wizarding world between beings as the moral civilised entities vs the beasts, the wild and lawless and violent magical creatures). but it's also this suggestion of hero worship and adoration from one character to another, and the object of that kind of love struggling to feel worthy of it and fearing the power it has given them over the other person. it's such a huge vibe for how i'm thinking about these characters !! i feel like it works both for harry and sirius' relationship as well as harry and ginny's: the love and reverence harry has for sirius, when sirius is filled with so much self-loathing and guilt and awareness of his own failings as a parent figure, and the way harry comes to love ginny and think of her as this pure singular light and symbol of all his hopes for a bright and good future, which (i think!) would be a lot for ginny to take on and live up to and feel deserving of. there's even shades of it in how i imagine ginny feels about sirius in the flashbacks - little ginny looking up to sirius like he's a god, hanging off his every word, sirius backing away from being responsible for this child's admiration and desire for guidance from him.

i'm sorry i'm the one you love no one will ever love me like you again so when you leave me, i should die i deserve it, don't i

i mean this is a pure sirius verse imo also with such harry shades to it ('i deserve it don't i' pure ootp harry angst). but i see some of ginny in this too ('i'm sorry i'm the one you love' - her wish that she could just be such cool and chill and easy and trying to live up to this idea harry sometimes as of her as so strong and stoic and able to deal with things, and then her feelings when all that comes crumbling down....)

i can feel it getting near like flashlights coming down the way one day you'll figure me out i'll meet judgment by the hounds

the feeling of being hunted! sirius and harry as wanted men! ginny getting found out and caught in her secrets and half-lies! 'i'll meet judgement by the hounds' god. god

people always gave me love others were never to blame after all you believe me like a god i'll betray you like a man

i think of this verse as the sirius and ginny verse. here the narrator locates the source of their unworthiness internally, not in being deprived of love by others, but in something fundamentally broken and tainted inside them. sirius as a character can't blame a total absence of love for what he's become - he was loved, he blames no-one but himself for the loathing he feels for himself. ginny, too, could not have been more loved, both before the TMR ordeal, but also thereafter - she comes from a family that adores her, she is widely liked and admired; but still, there's something missing in her sense of self. i do not wish to spoil future chapters but yeah this is bit is a Big Mood as we come closer to understanding ginny's war and what it asked of her

in chapters 10 and 11 of beasts, i started to play with this idea of the traitor, of a person who has made a great and terrible choice to betray the people close to them and in doing so revealed a true self that was there all along but lay dormant. so far in the fic, i've tried to thread in a lil drip-drip-drip of questions about the self, who a person really ever is, and about the choices characters make because of their sense of who they are, especially moral choices, in a war and under a regime that must, ethically, be resisted.

of sirius, harry, and ginny, so far it's sirius who knows most about what it is to be a traitor: someone who spent the bulk of his life assumed to be a turncoat, who is consumed by his hatred of wormtail and the memory of his treachery, who can't even begin to grasp the layers and dimensions to his own brother's betrayal, and who fundamentally still thinks of himself as a traitor to his best mate, believing himself to having 'as good as' killed lily and james. harry is the one who's full of trust, throughout the war:

'“No,” Harry said out loud, and they all looked at him, surprised. The firewhisky seemed to have amplified his voice. “I mean . . . if somebody made a mistake,” Harry went on, “and let something slip, I know they didn’t mean to do it. It’s not their fault,” he repeated, again a little louder than he would usually have spoken. “We’ve got to trust each other. I trust all of you, I don’t think anyone in this room would ever sell me to Voldemort."'

“No, I think you’re like James,” said Lupin, “who would have regarded it as the height of dishonour to mistrust his friends.” Harry knew what Lupin was getting at: that his father had been betrayed by his friend, Peter Pettigrew. He felt irrationally angry. He wanted to argue, but Lupin had turned away from him...'

ginny, of course, knows what it is to be betrayed - by her first real friend, by her own brother. but i just think these two final lines, the twist on the first verse, are such a huge huge mood for drawing some of these ideas to the surface as the plot inches (v slowly lol) forwards - the idea of a character who has had every faith put in them by someone who loves and believes in them, who fears that they wll buckle under the weight of it and betray that love and trust in terrible ways. to betray you like a man - for the great moral sin to be something inherent to no other creature or being but man - is just such a powerful cool as shit line that is really gettin me going for writing the next bit of this fic.

wow i didn't even know how much i cared about this song but turns out it's a lot???? troubling for me!

[gaygirldoodles]

Mine is Bury Me At Makeout Creek partially bc i read an awesome oneshot named after ot before i got into Mitski

[eisenrosen]

“You have so much to do and I have nothing ahead of me” Is so goddamn Germany and Prussia-core it makes me sick just flat out sick

THE ENTIRETY OF “I BET ON LOSING DOGS” TOO ACTUALLY when I have the time I want to do something with that

[iamnotmitskii]

Mitski for Under the Radar Magazine (2018)

[bedforddanes75]

me when if you need to be mean be mean to me i can take it and put it inside of me if you hands need to break more than trinkets in your room you can lean on my arm as you break my heart

[cutelilrat]

sadly i relate to pomegranates

let me explain

whenever you start to open a pomegranate it spills all over its messy some will find it disgusting

so sweet but people never get the chance to taste

will anyone ever be gentle enough to give me a taste?

stop paying attention to the mess for once

see how sweet i can be

[pastasauceandmoms]

Me when we drive out to where dust devils are made by dancing ghosts as they kick up clouds of sand

[person4924]

why am i crying over a song abt humpty dumpty.

[xuanhttps]

YOURAN ANGEL IM A DOG OR YOUR A DOG AND IM YOURRRRR MAN YOU BELIEVE ME LIKE A GOD ILL DESTROY YOU LIKE I AMMMMMMM IM SORRY IM THE ONE YOU LOVE NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE ME LIKE YOU AGAINNN SO WHEN YOU LEAVE ME I SHOULD DIE I DESERVE IT DONT I

[pjharvey]

i could take or leave chappell roan but it is also rlly special to hear ur cishet male coworkers singing good luck babe while they do the dishes… like i’m guessing that post was inspired by recent asinine discourse around straight ppl not being allowed to listen to music by a literal extremely popular pop star bc she is a lesbian but if anything it’s literally a good thing for our experiences to just be treated as normal and in general for people to be able to relate to and enjoy art made by people who are different from them

[borderlesbian]

in fact mitski once said 🤓☝🏻aaand i was so young when I behaved twenty five yeet now I find i've grown in to a tall child

i used to be a mature child

now i am just a childish woman

[stillwithmeisonlyyou]

Im truly born to listen and obsess over music and nothing else