#LOSING NY MIND RN

[luvistqrzzz]

ENHYPEN OH MY FUCKING HELL??? THE TRAILER??? IM GONNA SCREAM??? IT WAS??? EVERYTHING???????????

[rickybaby]

[threeoffucks]

NOOOOOO DUDE NOT BETRAYED SVETLA

Dude the hallucinations of her dad’s mad eyes and her owl tears BRO NOOOOOOO

AUGHHHH THIS ONE IS MAJOR DAMAGE NO

Also YESSSSS I LOVE HARPY SVETLA???? E D A I N S P I R E D H A R P Y S V E T L A!?!???????

SOME WORK FAST BUT I ALWAYS WORK FASTER

I also took some inspo from harpy Eda (if anyone has seen the owl house) to make a little harpy design!! Or bird person more like lol and as always @threeoffucks created this lovely being

enjoy!!!

[pumpkinsy0]

I was in elementary school when he was first elected President. I’m now elected in college and he’s ONCE again been elected.

It’s weird because when your younger you don’t necessarily think about politics. I didn’t. It felt like a big adult thing that affected me.

But I’m a Hispanic queer women and I realize just how much politics impacts us. And low key? I’m absolutely stressing out now. I didn’t realize just how strong hate and specifically how strong hate against women was.

SORRY THIS IS RLLY HEAVY IK!! 😭it just sucks to be American rn.

im black in america, never apologize for how ur feeling ik exactly what u mean😭😭

and ik i live in ny so im not exactly facing the BIGGEST brunt of it all, but im still very worried for everyone else!!! and look i already didnt have the biggest want to travel, but it sucks that instead of it being like a CHOICE, its like im being pushed into HAVING to stay here for my own safety/sound of mind

and then looking at the race demographics for the polls, i dont wanna hear jack shit about allyship or poc solidarity, ill love yall from the sidelines instead but i rlly dont wanna b referred to as a poc, only black!!! i do not support u hoes some of yall r DUMB!!!! to everyone who voted for that guy i hope u face the biggest issues that stem from his plans and i am not joking!!! i wish u the worst!!!

and then to b haitian and have the ppl who spread false rumors about ur ppl b president/vice president???? yea im losing it over here!!! i am scared for multiple things but i will live through this only to see both of them die

WHO WILL B TAKING THAT THIRD SHOT!!!

[sleepdeprivedsimp234]

Wholesome NY hc’s cuz nobody asked:

-NY actually really enjoys watch sunrises/sunsets and will sit on top of high up building in the city and watch them

-He’s really good at singing, and he kinda sounds like a mix between a gender bent version of Mitski and Cody Fry

-speaking of Mitski, he listens to her and his favorite song is "I Bet On Losing Dogs” (literally listening to it rn and it’s so good omg- especially the intro 😭😭 It hurts so good-)

-(TW: drug mention) One time (okay it was defo more than once-) Colorado snuck weed in York’s coffee and everybody nearly died to cuteness because York was acting very playful and cuddly

-he doodles on literally any piece of paper he has with him, even some of his state work will have little doodles of cats riding skateboards in the corner.

-he really likes oversized clothes. They just make him feel safe.

-York really loves hyper-pop and how it bounces around his mind like a ping-pong ball

-he has a fluffy rug in his room that he’ll just lay on top of whilst listening to music and staring off into space when everything gets too much for him.

If y’all have anymore NY hc’s, feel free to hand em over to me :3

@stawpny I think u might like these :]

[le-very-weird-goat-09]

Wholesome NY hc’s cuz nobody asked:

-NY actually really enjoys watch sunrises/sunsets and will sit on top of high up building in the city and watch them

-He’s really good at singing, and he kinda sounds like a mix between a gender bent version of Mitski and Cody Fry

-speaking of Mitski, he listens to her and his favorite song is "I Bet On Losing Dogs” (literally listening to it rn and it’s so good omg- especially the intro 😭😭 It hurts so good-)

-(TW: drug mention) One time (okay it was defo more than once-) Colorado snuck weed in York’s coffee and everybody nearly died to cuteness because York was acting very playful and cuddly

-he doodles on literally any piece of paper he has with him, even some of his state work will have little doodles of cats riding skateboards in the corner.

-he really likes oversized clothes. They just make him feel safe.

-York really loves hyper-pop and how it bounces around his mind like a ping-pong ball

-he has a fluffy rug in his room that he’ll just lay on top of whilst listening to music and staring off into space when everything gets too much for him.

If y’all have anymore NY hc’s, feel free to hand em over to me :3

[star-sim]

OH MY GOSH you’re going on a date soon?? tell us all about it when u get back (if ur comfortable ofc!) because i like vicariously through other people’s romantic interactions 😔😔

did you know today we were covering the most mind-boggling skull-shifting lesson in calc and i had to go into full delulu mode and pretend that jungwon was at the empty desk next to me so i would not absolutely lose it… times were BAD

can’t wait to see when ur next work drops + don’t forget to take care of yourself too!!! hope everything goes amazing for u muah 😚

HAII ASH SORRY FOR MY LATE RESPONSE

yes i’m going on a date, im SO excited oh ny lord. honestly he’s all i’ve been thinking about and i feel like im going straight up insane

funny story, on valentine’s day i had two other guys ask me out… but they’re not him so like…. sorry boys ☺️

pretending that jungwon was next to you is SO real, ive been hallucinating jay in my day to day life because that’s the only way that you’ll ever catch me being motivated ☠️

i’m cooking so hard rn in my drafts i hear cannons and gunshots in my head

thanks for stopping by ashy washy tashy!!

[frogs00]

like im kinda freaking out m, i cant even confront her because its so late rn and she lives in another state and had flown here to see family, im losing my mind???

like why would she talk badly abt ny body after we hooked up????

my situationship just like… okay i just got sent screenshots of them insulting me?? Like, froma friend, that they are in a gc with.

They called me “too skinny” and “just a pretty face” which doesn’t sound like them but holy fuck, ouch??

[nulltune]

@tenkoseiensei replied: DO YOU -WANT- HIM TO WEAR A SHIRT AROUND YOU!!??

          what she wants is   . . .   whatever makes him happy.    therefore   —-

          ❝⠀ that's your choice to make.    do whatever makes your comfortable   ——   oh,    and answer my question as well.    it's rude to ignore it and just bark out a question of your own,    you know ? ⠀❞     

[uniformbravo]

tanuma “catboy” kaname is such a tongue twister if ur trying to pronounce it right

[gumdecay]

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[buttybarnes1917]

the man who cant be moved

You had been off tour for weeks at this point, helping some friends on another tour, and Bucky was getting antsy.  Sure, you weren’t together or anything—Bucky didn’t do girlfriends, or dating, or being exclusive—but there felt like there was something missing when you were gone. Maybe it was the way he missed your perfume as you hurried past him to fix something going wrong at front of house, or the way you laughed when Natasha teased you about watching the show from the rigging above the stage, like she did every show.  Maybe it was the way your fingers felt so soft against his cheeks as you kissed him, somehow knowing instinctually how he liked to be held, or how you breathed softly into his chest the few nights that you accidentally fell asleep in his hotel room.

He never wanted you to leave.

But Bucky Barnes wasn’t interested, of course.  With dating came control, and Bucky hated being controlled.  He was a rockstar, for god’s sake.  He was the definition of uncontrollable.  

Then why did he want to be near you so badly?

It didn’t help that this week was absolute hell on earth.  Bucky had been in a constant battle with the lead singer, John, to change up the whole play style two years into being in a rock band.  Sam, the lead guitar, and Bucky had been vehemently opposed, but John pushed relentlessly, and it was causing a lot of issues with the band.  Bucky had been looking at other offers, and he knew Sam had already been headhunted by another rockband.  

He was already losing his safe space,  his best friend, potentially his career, and on top of it all, he might lose you too.

Not that it meant anything, of course.  You weren’t dating.

Bucky checked his phone again for any text from you, but still nothing.  He wasn’t sure why he was thinking you would text him.  It’s not like you were dating.   He didn’t want to date you.

Right?

He sighed heavily and opened your chat.

When’s your next stop?

Your response came almost immediately.

Buffalo—I finally have an off day.  Why? What’s up? You okay?

Wanna meet up?

Buck, you’re in LA.

I’ll fly to NY. He bit his lip.  You weren’t dating. You weren’t dating. You weren’t dating.  He watched the three bubbles go up and down for a few minutes.

You know you can fuck someone else, we’re not exclusive.  You don’t have to fly across the country if you want to fuck me.

That’s not it, I just .  Bucky’s fingers hovered over the letters to type “I just miss you”, then he backspaced. That’s not it.  I’m bored.  Buffalo’s cool.  

It’s snowing here rn. You hate snow.

Do you not wanna see me or something? Too busy with your other big shot friends?

Fucking hell, you’re so dramatic dude.  Of course I wanna see you, I just don’t want you to waste money flying out here to see me for one day and then hating it the whole time.  

Won’t hate it when you’re there.  Bucky sent that one before he could change his mind.  Maybe we could meet halfway? Get a hotel in Chicago?

There was a pause. Those damn three bubbles went up and down again.

Yeah, sure. Tickets to Chicago for the day are like. 100 with my discount.  You’re paying for the hotel though. The three dots again.  Horny bitch.  See you soon.  

*****

Bucky’s heartbeat picked up, and he grinned softly as he opened his travel app.

He paced the hotel room nervously, checking his phone for texts from you.  Your plane landed over an hour ago and he still hadn’t heard from you.

Maybe you hadn’t come, and this was all some fun prank on him.  He was so stupid, theres no way you would fly so far just to see him, you were probably busy with all the friends you were making on your new tour, and then you would just leave on that tour and leave Steve and Nat and Loki and him, because the other tour wanted you more and no wonder, you were so smart and funny and kind and so good at your job—

There was a knock at the door and Bucky rushed forward to look through the peephole.  

There you were, bundled up in that blue puffy jacket he always teased you that hated, a red beanie pulled over your hair, just your nose and eyes sticking out from behind a thickly knit scarf.  He pulled the door open grinning down at you.

“Why is it so fucking cold,” you complained as you stepped into the hotel room, shaking off your coat and hat as you pulled them off.  “I cant believe you flew to Chicago in the middle of January just to get a quickie—” you squealed as he cut you off, wrapping his arms around you, just breathing you in for a few minutes.  You slowly slipped your arms around his neck, pulling him closer as he took a deep shaky breath.

“Missed you.” He breathed out, and in that moment, your heart broke for him.  You slipped your fingers through his hair gently.

“Missed you too, Jamie.” You whispered and he almost instantly relaxed into your touch.  You swallowed hard as you shut your eyes, just holding him close.  Too bad we aren’t dating… crossed your mind briefly, but you pushed that thought away.

[alucart]

literally losing my mind rn over the fact that i didnt even know nova twins had a north america tour until like yesterday and they have a show in ny during spring break

[justwenchthings]

good bye 2019

IM GOING BACK HOME!!!!! LOL WOOHOO

Plans for Vegas fell through and I lost money but it’s okay, that’s life!! I basically just used my Christmas money to buy my ticket back home so all is well. i’m super happy going home because I was not about to spend NYE alone LOL. 

Let’s recap what happened in 2019. this may be long.

Education: I finished capstone which was lowkey a pain in the butt but I made it. I graduated college! I got my NRP certification. 

Work: I finished my time at 24 Hour Fitness. It’s crazy because it was the longest time I’ve ever worked at a part time job. I’m so surprised at the friendships I made there and the drama I caused there HAHA. I am still in touch with Christina and Tyler since they were my closest friends at the gym. Even though they can get on my nerves sometimes, they are good friends to me. They listen to my problems and vice versa! My manager Bre still keeps in touch here and there. We text eachother on holidays haha. I completed my temporary job at Stanford which was very interesting. Did not expect much drama from a temp job but oh it happened. Overall, it was a good experience and now I am not afraid of giving injections because it’s literally so easy. I was supposed to start working at the hospital in December but my license did not go through on time so now it’s March. I am still upset at the BRN for this but I try telling myself that I will eventually start and everything will be okay. It just kind of sucks because it delayed my plans to move to NY by a couple months.

Family: I guess I got even closer to my family? Kind of hard to say but yeah I guess I can say that. i am closer to my sister even more. She knows about my septum piercing lmao. My mom knows about my nipple piercing and surprisingly did not beat my ass about it. I still want to tell my sister about my abortion but there just hasn’t been a right time so it will happen when it happens. I guess I’m closer to my grandparents as well. Since moving to Seattle, I have not answered my grandpa’s phone calls because I am super nervous talking to him in Korean. But I realized I shouldn’t be. We video chatted yesterday and I showed them my apartment. It was nice! 

Fitness: For a while I was pretty on top of my fitness. I think working at the gym helped me since I was always surrounded by people who loved fitness and having a free membership helped. I worked out a lot with Christina and I think having someone to keep you in check is good. However, since moving to Seattle I havent worked out as much as I want to. I did work out almost everyday for the first month and then kind of stopped. I think it’s just a slump that I always go through. I know I will pick it up again.

Friendship: I can say that I have gotten even closer to Michelle, if that’s even possible. It’s so crazy how there is someone in this world who understands my humor... like thank you Michelle. I got closer to Julie and I’m really happy we are living together again. She is so reassuring and someone I can count on. I got closer to Michael. I don’t know exactly how but it’s amazing to see we still have a strong friendship! i am thankful to all of you guys. I can 100% count on you and I know you are always there for me. thank you for listening to my problems and annoying rants and cringey stories. Know that I will do the same for you guys!! I met a lot of new friends through Julie, which I am so grateful for. All her friends are so awesome. I still feel weird calling some of them “my friends” instead of “Julie’s friends” but I think I can say that Albert is my friend. Perry is my friend. Miles is my friend. But all thanks to Julie :)

Relationships: Lol is there even anything to say about this? I feel like this is all I talk about. I am glad I got over Henry, but I won’t lie he comes to mind sometimes. Not often, not everyday, but like maybe once a month? I call that progress. Something about him just makes it stand out so much. Like I liked him for like 10 months and he strung me along the whole time. I don’t have any positive feelings towards him but he was a lesson. He wrecked me emotionally lol. I think I am traumatized from the events that happened and how he destroyed me emotionally. Even after my breakup with Raymart, I didn’t really have my guards up- like I almost fell for Aldo. But after Henry... my walls have been bUILT. I am scared of telling anyone that I like them, even though they may like me back. I am scared of getting attached emotionally, I am scared of going crazy/obsessive over one person. I will not allow myself to get that way anymore. I hated myself when I liked Henry because I was definitely depressed. I learned that if you don’t show interest through your actions, I am not doing the same. i will not chase you until the end of time because I WILL BE THE ONE CHASED GDI! I still really like Jason and I think he does too (even with receipts, it’s hard for me to believe). It makes me sad that nothing is happening but it is what it is. i’m glad we are still friends and it’s just the distance I guess. A part of me says that I am willing to do LDR, but another part of me really does not. I just wished I was in NY right now living my life with Michelle. It’s so crazy how one person can make me be okay with giving up that California RN salary lol. It’s a compromise that I am very willing to make if it means that I can be with him in the long run. And if things don’t work out, I can always move back to CA if i want! So i don’t think there’s anything to lose. All I can say is, I super duper like him but the feelings are becoming numb because not much is happening. Back burner.

Self: Overall, I think I grew a lot as a person. I see it in myself as well as others. I went through a lot of things that really helped me shape into who I am currently. I learned how to play the uke. I got really into fitness. I am less cancer-y and more capicorn-y. I hope I can continue to grow in 2020 and become an even better person than who I am right now. Here are some of my 2020 goals that I wrote for myself:

- Do well at the hospital :)

- continue to make more friends

- learn something new

- continue working out consistently

- start meditation

- do yoga

- strengthen family relationships

- be financially smart

The first half of 2019 was ASS and the second half was less ass. I hope 2020 is badass.

[queencryo]

I went to office hours, finally, for like the first time literally in my time spent at college. (because my prof literally required all of us to, but... still)

it was. not bad, not scary? I kind of want to cry but that just happens like. almost all of the time when I am stressed and talking to people who scare me (he seens like a jice man im just. double-baby...)

but. Yeah my prof was nice and like. Helpful. This is me trying to make sure that I know that going to office hours is good and not bad. I did not feel stupid, or anything like that.

That said, I AM failing yhis course. lmao. But! maybe I can do better. If I study and learn the material better, my time on homework and labs will be more efficient, so i shouldnt lose too much time.

Mind, this is the claas that, this morning, i got up at 1230 and Worked, like without eben gettiing distracted, for 6.5 hours. And i got a singlr qu3stion done. part if that, tho, is that i didnt know how to do it, and it turns out theres a much MUCH easier way to have done it, I didnt need to use the small-signal model at all.

I feel invigorated, maybe i can do this. i doubt it, but i am going yo try so i might as well try hard.

That said, Im fucking exhausted and I do still kinda wanna get very inebriated so as to stop having thoughts. So. could be better. I'm getting curry with a friend later tho, so... despite being nervous about that im excited for curry at the least.

I've been... *really* anxious lately. I don't think that I was previously a person to like. retreat into myself a little when theres a loud / surprising noise nearby, but now I am. and i keep seeing things out of the corner of my eue that arent real i think. Partially due to sleep deprivation im sure, but also I think part of it might be the... pretty significant amount of stress and increasing depression I'm having i think. Anxiety/depression combo are getting worse and worse i think, hopefully thats like. temporary. and hopefully umproving ny standing in this class will improve that.

Also, I got glimpses of a lot of other peoples' exams/t3sts. Km below average, but its still very encouraging to see other people are kinda... doing as haphazardly and sub-standardly as me. Genuinely its really encouraging.

God I'm hungry. I think the last non-candy thing I ate was an (admittedly pretty sizable) bowl of fried rice, that was like... 12 hours ago, though. Also I'm unmedicated rn, so that makes hunger and stuff wotse...

The homework for this class is due in like... an hour. I'm nit sure I care enough to even try and finish it. ... I should at least try and look at it...

[pekorosu]

Hi! I wanted to ask about the 'essay' by Toshio Okada featured in the latest release of BF Another Story. I guess there is no fan translation of it. But Okada mentions how he got to be featured in Another Story in a video on his Youtube channel. The video (entitled 'seminar 29 October...') is uploaded on 3 Nov 2017. He only talks about BF in general for a few minutes starting at 36:32. And I kinda got curious about what he says. If it's not too much trouble, would you be able to summarise it?

ooh interesting! uh, i have no idea if it has a fan translation… and i’m unsure if you’re asking for a summary of the video or the essay so i’ll just give a rough one for both? hope you don’t mind it being really really rough though :o

in the video:

- he introduces the manga, explaining that the one he hasthere is the bunko version. he briefly explains that “another story” containsside stories that come after the main series has ended.

- his ex-wife took all the yellow banana fish books with her whenthey got divorced lol. but he has them on kindle now.

- he brings up the scene where ash had to take anintelligence test and answer the questions by scanning bar codes. then he talks about how it’s been referenced in a veryrecent manga. in volume 1 of “the promised neverland,” there’s a scene where everyone is taking an intelligence test and the method it’s administered is exactly the same as banana fish.

- the idea of scanning the answer through bar codes is p unique, which is why he remembers it so clearly. so when he was reading that scene in “the promised neverland,” banana fishimmediately came to mind. there were so many other ways to go about it and yet.

“seriously. it’s looks like the same scene haha”

- so in a way, it can be said that banana fish is influential enough to be referenced all over the place.

- he mentions that it’s getting an anime on noitamina’s latenight slot next year. talks about how a section of fujoshi women are freakingout rn. but they are also saying things like, “don’t read banana fish like a bl!” or towards the anime staff, “don’t MAKE it like abl!!”

he thinks that story-wise, it feels very hard-boiled and aimed at men, kindalike Barry Seal from the 1980s (?? idk anything about this).

so some of those women are upset over how male readers who see the story that way might (or already are) complaining about the anime being “made for fujoshi” or “bl”

- but anyway, the manga itself is definitely good, so he thinksthat fact alone would make the anime worth checking out.

 - he talks about the plot and how yoshida akimi is amazing tohave come up with something like that during that time. it’s oneof his favourite stories and he was very surprised but also grateful when he was requested to provide a commentary for the last vol of the bunkoversion (there’s one at the end of each vol).

- he thinks it reads less like a commentary and more like a column… or a funny essay. what he heard from the editor is that yoshida akimi herself enjoyed it so he was really happy to hear that.

- “another story” is not on kindle though. he thinks they might release a special edition of the entire manga next yearto commemorate it getting an anime and all, so that book might finally get akindle version. “but my ‘column’ would probably get left out(laughs)”

- either way, it will remain a book that he can never throwout.

speaking of the commentaries… actually, i’ve not read them yet. well except his one bc i sorta accidentally read it lol. i’ve forgottenwhat it’s about though so i just did a quick re-read. 

basically, he discusses stuff like the possibility of bf getting a sequel and talks about how lots of famous mangas end up getting really disappointing sequels. he also speculates on the types of sequels it could possibly get, for example: 

a) side stories like the ones in “another story” 

b) a sequel where an ash look-like(his long lost twin?)shows up in NY 

c) a sequel where ash is actually alive but loses hismemories and becomes a heartless killing machine.

then he clarifies that even though he’s come up with so many ideas, he’s not actually hoping for a sequel. apparently there’s an old belief that if you say something out loud or think about something before it happens and pray that itdoesn’t happen, hopefully it just won’t? that’s what he’s doing. LOL.

here’s how it ends:

“it would be in bad taste to revive the leopard at thetop of mount kilimanjaro. banana fish is over. so let’s read it again from the very beginning, shall we?”

and then i yelled “NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!” at the book andtossed it put it back on the shelf :)