So today is my 33rd birthday and I've spent it alone, in bed with little to no contact with anyone 🙃🫠! I'm not one to make a big fuss over my birthday, it's just another year and I have no one special or any friends to celebrate with really! I wish I had a big friend group or even just someone to celebrate it with but i don't, Its crappy but it's life!
Bless my mum tho, she's making me come over to theirs for some food and company tonight! Think she's worried about me living alone and being alone on my birthday!
So anyway, happy birthday to me and here’s to getting older 😂😅🙃🩵
I was always lonely mentally physically. no one ever made me feel like their presence were permanent . I tried to change their mind by trying to make them fall in love with me but all it got me was hurt honestly. I don't deserve all the pain I got build up . the trauma people caused me I'm noticing the fear of being alone has allowed me to put up with anything . when I say I'm going to be strong I mean I'm going to be strong for me . I'm the only one that cares about the way I feel I'm the only one that haves to feel this way and deal with these voices in my head telling me to give up . I will forever be broken because no one knew how to cherish me
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