bipolarme1

[bipolarme1]

worse

nothing feels worse than, a heart. becoming cold, they tossed it in the freezer after it lost its life. someone trying to bring life back unto it, the owner has lost the touch the feeling the heartbeat. I'm lost. my heart is cold my body is forced to remain heartless. thieves stealing the one I had. and damaging it, I can no longer love.

[bipolarme1]

Touching my belly

No feeling

No movement nothing

Reminiscing about that one mistake

Changing my life for ever

My dreams so real

Your 3 asking me one question I can’t even answer

Instead being physically here your haunting me in my dreams

Mommy was too young

Mommy was a dumb teenager

Mommy was being way to fast

Race cars couldn’t match her speed

Listening to other soulless bodies

Mentally not prepared

Mentally undone

It was a choice

Manipulation couldn’t fix

Guilty I chose him guilty it wasn’t a choice to keep you warm I turned you cold in a matter of seconds

Mommy was young but mommy new better mommy is sorry mommy understand if her apology is never forgiven

Mommy wants a baby now

[bipolarme1]

Not Every mistake, is a mistake , it’s a lesson

[bipolarme1]

I love the place I’m at right now

[bipolarme1]

Y’all hurt me , made me feel like I was nothing made me feel like I wasn’t meant to be here, now I feel like I’m worth something I feel like I am at peace , because he made me feel worth being here worth waking up every morning and going on with life while y’all out in the world hurting someone else the trauma y’all caused me I’m kicking it’s ass y’all will not win and karma will fuck y’all up

That’s on self love and finding someone who love me for me and not seeing me less than a person someone I know for certain is my husband

[bipolarme1]

I can’t hold back the fact that you deserve someone better someone who’s not damage who hasn’t suffered. You deserve someone that can be happy no matter what. I fail at love all the time but this is for most the love I failed and it was actually my fault I wish I was perfect for you but I just turned into those who hurt me I’m sorry….

[bipolarme1]

I found love but still a part of me hurt , not from the present, not from my past, fear of being alone and being loved by the right person and being there worst nightmare

[bipolarme1]

I am not a poet I am just a person who share my feelings and my thoughts and opinions on how pathetic and nice or disgusting and beautiful and hateful and amazing humans can be at times

[bipolarme1]

Cheaters read this ……:

I want you to know they could have better

They could do better

They could have anyone they want

But instead

There glazing there eyes at you

Opening there door for you

Breathing air for you

Holding on to love for you

Loosing sleep for you

waiting for the sun to rise for you

You chose to take what’s left of them and break it into millions of pieces

You are a coward

Your feeling guilty yet

Wait until you find out

They closed other doors to open that door for you

Sat up all night crying at the thought of thinking they messed up

They thought they were at fought

They thought they were the problem

But instead

You decided to open your hands and guide your fingers through someone else’s hair

Ashamed you should feel

Disappointed you should feel

Pathetic oh that’s how they will see you

You are there biggest mistake remember that when you begin to blame them for your actions

[bipolarme1]

I was still holding on to the memories of you

Holding on to the idea of you being here

The way you smiled

The way you comfort me

But didn’t care for me

The way you breathe down my spine

Making me feel like I was the one and only person

You are my lesson

The tears I shed

The lies you told

The way you disrespected my body

You will not receive this access

You are no longer accessible

This is your denial 🤞🏼

[bipolarme1]

It’s weird falling Inlove because most of the time the person doesn’t love you back but because you love them they will take advantage of it 💔and use it to there advantage

But they fail to realize 1 thing KARMAS A BITCH!!!!!

[bipolarme1]

I’m done crying ❤️

[bipolarme1]

You win I hope that makes you happy

Breaking news there’s a killer

You stabbed the knife right through my back

Tossing me in the trash

Throwing all your garbage on top of me

Because I’m your eyes I was worthless

I meant nothing that’s fine

I grew the power to love me

I cry at night because I’m disappointed in me

Disgusted that I allowed someone so belittling around me

You are the trash 🚮

[bipolarme1]

Removing you from my life

Escaping you before you dragged me down

Feeling broken , you don’t even care , you never cared about me

Your broke me even more now I’m numb

I have no clue how to fix me

I’ll be ok tho

[bipolarme1]

I just don’t know anymore

[bipolarme1]

I’m numb

I’m trimbling

Fumbling

Broken pieces

You turn me into dust

You will be the death of me

Pain in my chest

Breaks me down into liquid

Contaminated I’m no longer safe

I don’t know how to love anymore

I give up

You broke me

You win

[bipolarme1]

I’m done crying over you

I’m done letting you make me feel low

Draining me until I’m empty

Your smell no longer lingers around

You smile no longer stay in my head

I’m over the thought of you

Over that feeling were my feet lifted

And butterflies were on 100

You not mine

You’ll never be

You never make me feel secure

I feel unsafe 💯