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Deleting this app! Might be back one day. Peace

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12/04/25

Anxiety over nothing….

Today has been a wonderful day and turns out I was anxious and nervous for nothing in the end. So, I got to meet the most important person in my partners life, her son and it’s been an awesome day ♥️ Spent the day at Legoland Discovery Center with them both, playing and making stuff! Its been a blast, despite me being super hot, sweaty and self conscious over it😅 To top it off we had some lovely food after….them cauliflower wings were 😍😍😍

So yeah, I was super nervous for today but turns out I had nothing to be nervous over! Her son is wonderful, an absolute joy to be around and I look forward to meeting him again!

Roll on next weekend when my partner is coming to stay at mine for two nights ♥️😅😍🥰

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Life post re new job…

When I went for this job I was full of confidence in my skills and abilities, I believed in myself and my knowledge… 5 weeks in and I'm shattered…

I don't feel confident at all with the processes and systems, I'm struggling with learning them in the training format we have (a big teams call and reading a powerpoint/sticking to a traini g brief with no real world examples)! I’m overwhelmed with the amount of info we are having to take in on a daily basis and my head feels like its gonna burst. To top it all off I'm not gelling with my training team, people have formed friendships and connections, then there's me who just feels like a nuisance.

I was talking to my partner recently about how I'm a nervous anxious guy (especially in new/foreign situations) and its so much more evident when I look back and analyze things. Like in the early days of this job I sat on my own because of my anxiety, I ate lunch on my own (I still do now), I didn't engage or go for wanders with the group on my lunch. I opted to ostracize myself because that's what my head told me is best and now look at it. No wonder no one really talks to me unless its a question or technical help. I can say its because they are younger or just different but reality is its my own doing! I really am my own worst enemy and don't blame the team for not replying or engaging with my messages.

Its all just getting to me this week with the training load, the lack of support in work, the shitty thought that maybe all I was good for was being in my last role. That I should have continued to stay there like I had for the last 9+ years, miserable but at least I knew whats what, people wanted my help and I was needed. Where as now, I feel lost and alone in a sea of training packages and powerpoint presentations… I know i’ll bounce back from this and I'm sure I can do it, but right now as I sit here welling up, I just want to crawl in bed and hide from the world😔🙃

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When week 4 of my training has been information overload, my heads battered, I'm tired and just drowning in information, there's nothing better then getting cuddles from this fluff ball!

Ughhh this weeks just been draining and battling with the constant doubt I can do this new job is taxing my mind! Like this week needs to be donezo 😅🤪🙃

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Everyone is fighting a tough battle so reblog to give previous a sword 🗡️

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It’s not your job to be likable. It’s your job to be yourself. The right people will gravitate.

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#I survived March

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When I can't sleep so use my time to be productive! Currently looking at ways/options for donating my hair as I'm considering getting it cut after 5 years🤪😅. Figured if I can donate it to a charity who makes wigs for cancer patients, then its better then it going to waste 💕

Plus working on my to-do list of things (finding a hotel for my girlfriends birthday weekend away, cancelling my BT contract and tracking my finances etcand yeah, just being productive while my insomnia acts up 🙃

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Sun was blinding me in this, but I thought I would post a weekday selfie 😄🤳

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People need our kindness and understanding more than they need our criticism and unsolicited opinions.

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Anyone got any tips for getting spray paint off the skin? Tried washing it off with no luck and don't fancy seeing my girlfriend with an arm with black spray paint speckled over it 😂😂😂 I mean it could pass for a shirt tattoo 😂🤪

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Somewhere between who I was and who I’m becoming, and I don’t think either of them would recognize each other.

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you don’t owe people an explanation of your boundaries.

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showing that you care is everything

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