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#LMAO BYE I HATE MYSELF#mdzs#the untamed#mo dao zu shi#mdzs crack#mdzs meme#mdzs shitposting#mdzs donghua#jiang cheng#jiang wanyin#jiang fengmian#apple memes 🍎#i know i’m going to hell it’s ok
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the funniest thing that always happens to me is that every time we have a customer who doesn't speak polish and they ask me if i speak english i'm like "no, i don't think i do" only to realize a few minutes later that i do, in fact, speak english
#maybe it's because i'm just always super anxious about my skills#or maybe it's the fact that it barely happens so i don't have many opportunities to talk to people in english#so when somebody asks me about it i'm always like “um i do speak english but just a little”#and yet here i am running a fucking blog where i write a lot of shitposts every single day#all of them in english#it's so funny to me cause obviously no one knows this#and i had a customer today and he bought diamond earrings for his girlfriend and our entire conversation was in english#and he even complimented me at the end which was very nice#and my manager was like “oh you speak english? i only understood him when he said bye bye” LMAO#YES LOOKS LIKE I DO SPEAK ENGLISH AFTER ALL#jdsfjewhif i'm sorry i never really talk about this but today i feel like i want to#like every single time i have a conversation in english i'm so fucking proud of myself for being brave enough to speak another language#in front of a stranger#i know i make a lot of mistakes but still#i'm always so fucking proud of myself. for no reason. i just am#anyway the guy was really nice and i guess it's safe to say he made my day#which doesn't happen very often i usually hate my customers#so yeah#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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Current Ninjago *wip* Projects List
Ninjago Arena: Ninjago but a Mortal Kombat game animation project
NRB: Ninjago but i wrote a bad rap battle or like 3
Darkleys Graduation: I made darkleys more serious and whatnot
Animatics: Dont be Sad -Tate McRae (Morro) Rockstar - CallmeKarizma(Jay) Thot -Tokyo's revenge(Llorumi critical/joke)
Art Projects that will take me 20+ hours to finish feat: Overjay au, Overlord Possesion type study??, Post-Possesion au(art and writing) Ninjago: WhatIf (art+writing). Other long ass art starts
For all the people who didn't ask why i keep disappearing or why i mention a project you've never heard of. There's a lot. And I'm not even including the 17fic backlog. Ufkbfkabfakb.
Feel free to ask about any of these, I just answer asks slowly because of anxiety around disappointing people or just not having an immediate response. Or if they're compliments i just save them for encouragement.
#ninjago#coffee speaks#coffee doodles#sketch#coffee wips#ninjago au#This post is fucking massive buts its interest how i manage to not juggle any of these properly#arena is the most fleshed out its just time consuming and i think i hate the animation process but like animations yknow??#same with the animatics...i pick them up once every 2 weeks but with the exception of 'thot' they're all like 1200 frames#and i animate on 8 frames a second for my peace of mind#the rap battles are coming along slowly...they rhyme they just don't burn the way i want them to. I wanna make a server but social anxiety#the last group project i was in Ninjago: Master of abridgedzu fell apart because there wasn't any real order to the thing.#the writing team vs the VA team was vastly different. And i loved every fucking session even the ones never posted#maybe ill di them out of my files and post but most of the mods from that server became inactive like a year ago so i don't know#if im allowed to just post that yknow.#I wanna bring it back but it needs structure that i can't provide by myself.#If you made it to the bottom of this wall of text comment one of these ^-^ so i can be your friend lmao bye#coffee art
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OKAY thats it for real bye
#me reviewing this:#man this shit is still too long 😭#i had something else i wanted to add but i cant remember#eventually ill get to a point where i just list shit down and wont explain myself#actual Proper bulletpoints#anyway im doing this bc im going to be posting shit here and i wanna warn the like#[REDACTED] new followers ive gotten since my last pinned post#and no one reads that shit willingly so im putting it on ya dash#OH I REMEMBER. ITS THE SHIP STUFF#im going to add that hold on#actually. no…#i feel like the fandom has been alive long enough that people expect that shi#*shit…#so funny. i went to correct it and i wrote *this…#like my hands are working too fast for my brain#i guess i could add that i dont bother w ship hate; something i did not think i would experience in the funney pizza game#so like u will just see any and all ships here. ill tag it for my own convenience#but if ur like ‘dni if u ship[perfectly fine and funny ship]’ then maybe u dont want to follow me LMAO#okay thats it bye mwah
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Hey diva idk if you’ve seen, but Marcia like. Acknowledged RAWNSYF on Twitter
???? I’m literally gonna delete my account this is my worst nightmare 😭
#I’m so serious guys do NOT send this stuff to the queens!!!!!#I do not want them seeing this this is not for them#I just know my friend is gonna text me this#anyways#should I private the fic lmk 🤪🤪🤪#whoever put this on twitter ya moms a ho and so are you#thank you for letting me know about this I’m killing myself and deleting all my accounts bye it’s been fun#idk if I can express just how much I hate this lmao
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hai guys :3
#my video lol#my audio lol#vocaloid cover#synthv cover#synthesizer v cover#genbu#genbu synthv#evil food eater conchita#i am forcing everyone to look at this. look at my guy ehehehhkjnjkhgmlb AFTER TWO WHOLE ASS YEARS FINALLY#i couldve probably put more effort into this but ITS BEEN IN HERE FOR 2 YEARS i wanna be done w/ it already 😭#so regardless if it kinda sucks a little bit; its wayyy better than the covers i made like ~4? years ago when i was first starting out#was the iku drawing i posted before this foreshadowing?? not necessarily but its rly funny to think abt in hindsight#also rip genbu in a dress that i was gonna draw for this originally 😔✌️ i'd really love to draw more stuff for these covers i make#but it usually never comes out the way i want it to and i figure editing some sorta visualizer like this is better#than keeping some things trapped in my files for so long purely bc my extra ass wants a cool pv. some day maybe but not now#some sick fuck unsubscribed from me after i posted this BYE BITCH i dont miss you at all. live laugh love genbu in this house /j#im not the most obnoxious genbu stan i'd say but you WILL respect him in my house i do not tolerate genbu slander i love that man your hono#yes im extremely based bc he (and eleanor) were THE very first vsynths i ever actually fucked around w/ programwise#but WHATEVER!! idc he is so dear to me i do not regret buying his full version at all (it was impulsive)#the only synth i'd actually consider myself kinda good at tuning LMAO ik people hate how he sounds and have issues w/ him but not me...#these tags are too long girl stfu. anyways tldr; look at silly thang i made w/ my silly man#i love genbu and i love songs about cannibalism <3#Youtube
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sister saw me wearing the puffer that i use for my daigo cosplay since im cold all the time and sweaters arent enough and she was just like 'i really like it :) you look so. 👊💥' and after going What she was like 'you look real cool :) is what i meant :)' like thank you sister of mine youre too silly for this life
#snap chats#like she punched the air and made a punch sound effect fwrjflkjle#i mean she is not. WRONG with miming that about this jacket so 💀💀💀💀#also funny im wearing my own cross necklace and a black shirt and pants. lmao#also yeah i have two puffers- one's meant for the rain and REALLY cold weather and the second one's just. Casual/Daigo#'why are you like this' cause the other puffer's way too buiky fr casual wear and daigo and the interior isn't black like his is#this one's more slim and has a black interior. which is so funny cause when i was looking for a puffer for daigo years ago#it was impossible finding such a thing specifically but i got bored and decided to look again recently and i found it on the first page#for like. three cents basically too fejLRKjELj so thats cool. cant wait to show it off at animenyc#no im actually so excited bout animenyc ... hopefully i can actually. attend a meetup unlike last time 💀#i also didnt get to go last year so itll be fun going to a con again ..#im just stoked in general bout the small-but-meaningful-edits-to-me ive done to the whole look#s'gonna be fun .. AND im gonna try tweaking my mine one too since i got compelled to do That with all the mine talk lately#idk when id show that one off if ever. UNLUCKY that i hate taking pics of myself no one ever gets to see my cosplays unless its video form#ok im done rambling i have some stuff to do before i take an exam bye
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#making eye contact w the devil b4 a bj#bye i hate myself#i’m funny#me#face#hi#selfie#face spam#hiiiiii#i have the munchies#but my diet starts tomorrow so i am gonna eat the leftover pizza o she. today and then not worry any wasting it#sup#new yugioh card -red eyes white throat goat-#what the fuck is wrong w me#lmao
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well you know what i'm gonna do the theory driving test tomorrow after work and maybe i'll pass and if not i'll go on friday anyway because you cannot do 2 tests on the same day
#like honestly i got to a point where i need a driving license and i hate myself for taking my time with it for years#instead of actually getting one at 16 or 17#not that my parents could've paid for it anyway but lmao#i'm just hate it that i need to always stay at home on weekends because i can't drive anywhere or have to use public transportation#i hate it that i need to ask favors of people and be like “oh you do something this weekend? cool fine nice”#maybe i just feel like i'm stuck in life and my life going nowhere and i know i will get a driving license i'm not dumb#i just hate the situation#im just rambling in the tags okay bye
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ouch haha i might have gotten my first fracture today
#🔮rambles~#vent beneath pls ignore i need to get it out#everytime someone asked me i always replied with a dont worry im fine ill be better soon#like ouch. i have been. smiling through the pain the entire day.#acting as if im not in agony inside lol#i mean im probably making like a huge deal out of it im kinda embarassed lmao#but it hurts.#its in my foot too so like i cant even walk. literally.#ugh i cried a bit too wtf#and a tear or two slipped out IN FRONT OF THE TEACHER gosh i hate myself for that#thank god the lights were off so i dont think she noticed#but still#ugh.#i hate thissss the last time i experienced acute physical pain was around 3 years ago when i fell from the cycle haha#dhdhdgdhhdtdhsjsjshd#ik my mom thinks its probably a fracture bc the skin around has like swelled up. but shes trying to make me feel better#tysm for that mom#we'll be going to the doctors in the evening probably#sigh lets see how this works out bye#delete later
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wahhgrgrr
#feeling very. ougghhh . in my head#want to write badly but convincing myself I’m not allowed bc I have too much homework. but can’t do the homework bc of aforementioned brain#feeling and also it’s midnight I’m not doing mf homework rn lmao I’m going 2 beddy-bye soon !!!#anytywayyyy felling . grrrrr >:( . need 2 take my meds right when I wake up too so I can actually get stuff done 😔😔😔#i hate having to take meds 2 do simple tasks sometimes but !! it is what it is 😔✊#frog.txt
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hi, calling all fanfic writers and readers and also people who have Made Videos for a little help with a potential project.
disclaimer: this is, as i said, very potential and still in the Shiny New Idea stage, i’m trying to determine feasibility at the moment.
so, you know speedpaints, right? as in, timelapsed drawing video with music or narration laid over it. consider the same thing, but with writing.
(the tentative term at the moment is speedfic, which has some precedent being used this way, because speedwriting means something else. but i digress)
the idea is that i would post timelapsed videos of me writing short fics and explain my process, probably focusing on specific elements like worldbuilding, character voice, plot, etc. i could also talk about planning, editing, and maybe some other general fanfiction topics.
this leads me to several questions. the main one, of course, is “would anyone else even be interested in this sort of thing?”
but assuming that answer is yes—there are some logistical issues inherent in doing this with words that aren’t caused by doing this with art, namely the “speed” and “narration” bits, and lots of other fiddly little things.
so i guess i’m just asking what writers/readers would want from a project like this, any preferences as far as video structure/length/content, just anything, really. before i go chasing the Shiny New Thing, i want to know if it’s worth it
#bird noises#fanfiction#ao3#fanfic#this did not come out as coherent as i wanted#i’m just like#trying to balance words going fast but still readable vs not having a 30 minute video#unless…..#idk idk!#and the issue of reading words vs listening to different words#one of the things i’m considering rn is speeding up some parts and slowing down the relevant ones#or something#i also dont know how to edit things beyond the very very basics but i can learn#and then theres the secondary issue of the fact that i hate listening to my own voice SO much it’s hellish and can i get someone else to do#that part for me lmao#but its probably good for me#since it’s fanfic also i thought about doing a segment in the beginning thats just context for the fic but idk is that?? good??#also ofc we have the imposter syndrome. am i qualified to do this??#well! maybe not! but no one more qualified is doing it and so i might as well#i’m gonna post this before i second guess myself anymore okay? okay. bye. thank you
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Not me giving Felix an absolutely fucking tragic, heartbreaking backstory of being one of the most fierce and notorious fighters in his country’s history [I’m cheesy and thinking of making his origins in/near Sparta]. Aro, after hearing the tales of this great warrior, approaches him with the allure of power. After Felix rejects it, Aro orchestrates the massacre and absolute destruction of Felix’s people. Aro approaches Felix a second time and when he says no again, he bites Felix, knowing he’d run to the mountains nearby to not hurt his people, and while he was turning, Aro mounted a full scale attack so that Felix wouldn’t be able to save his people or his family. He would have nothing to come back to. And that was the true story of how Sparta’s reign ended.
So when Felix gets his thirst under control and he returns home, his entire village is burnt to the ground and the bodies of men, women, and children lay scattered and in pieces everywhere. Days later, Aro returns and acts shocked over the situation and then uses Chelsea’s power to bind Felix to him and uses Corin to force Felix to feel okay to be with the Volturi and to not have any suspicions.
My OC Elise is going to have some gripes with all of the atrocities Aro has committed and I’m excited to see what I’ll have her power to develop to be in order to take Aro and Caius out of the equation. Aro is going to end up hating her because she’s bringing out Felix’s memories and emotions he nearly completely forgot centuries ago and it’s going to make him angry and it’ll be too late for Chelsea to sever any bonds because Elise and Felix will be too romantically bonded by then.
Ah, the struggles of trying to figure out general history of a certain area to give an already existing character a history because the author couldn’t be fucked to give any god damn information about them lmfao thanks Smeyer
#i literally am sobbing as i'm writing the outline for this#holy fuck#why do i do this to myself lmfao#i don't necessarily HATE the volturi#i don't particularly like them either#lol#well kinda#i mean my issues lie with caius for obvious reason and also aro for way more obvious reasons#the others i cannot and do not blame so heavily bc aro is literally using chelsea and corin during recruitments#to force bonds to break between their targets and then force bond to be tied to volturi#and then forcing members to feel content enough to stick around#as im typing this im realizing this is basically mind control forced slavery and now i hate aro even more#if you cant create a space people (or vamps in this case) to WANT to stay then youre toxic lmao#bye#reblog#own post#my post#future fanfic#fanfic#felix#felix new moon#felix volturi#volturi#twilight#new moon#eclipse#breaking dawn#short second life of bree tanner#wow this got way dark huh lmao#ope
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#i hate i hate how all i rly even want like 90% of the time lmao is to b held and taken care of and feel safe and like. let go of the 700#walls and protection mechanisms my brains got up. but. id actually rather butcher myself than actually b even remotely half vulnerable w#someone ever again like ever#;;_;; u kno like i actually never chose to b like this lmao i never chose to b this fuckin looney and deranged in the head i never chose#most of this. like you know - i wish i was remotely normal or sane. ever..about anything. ever#either way lmao im just like <3 literally never gonna b actually vulnerable or close w anyone else like ever again ever bye like im signing#myself up to a life of solitude and celebacy and ill adopt 15 more cats
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may disappear from the internet entirely for a bit, i am so fucking scared for this country guys. fellow queer and poc usamericans i am holding your hands
#or i may end up being even more online to distract myself. WHO KNOWS#i hate it here 👍#<- here being the usa#i hate that he’s even on the ballot at all after the things he’s done.#anyway. bye (unless i come back lmao)#will.txt
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