#LIKE.... the attachment might not last tbf but

[guardiandamned]

suddenly i am thinking about transfem mizael??????? why am i suddenly so attached to this concept?????

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt my nuggets again. Explodes them.

[the-galactic-dragon]

Also I dont see many theories or stuff about it's lore so ima take a crack at it

Nameless cat follows generally the adventure of a silent protagonist kitten that's trying to get back home to it's owner

You meet several npcs which- if they aren't Nora or Jellyhead or The Caretaker, they're kinda...one note

Anyways, something i keep seeing on like the few handful theories in the game is just- about the Caretaker being a demon???

Which i highly doubt

So with my own piece of mind i think The Caretaker (aka also called "the traitor" and "the orb" by the mini pinch of a fandom) is actually an animal that died by the hands of a human

One thing with the game is that it does have a plot slightly themed around both death, longing, and animal abuse

Its why The Caretaker turns out to be a twist villain; They hate humans, and they want to rid everyone's rememberance of them

Its also KEY to note: Every anthropomorphic animal in the game was once a normal animal

Or at least, in theory that the realm you get sent to (which i like to dub as some sort of purgatory or Limbo) morphs those in it over time

After all, every animal except the Slime guy with the cross are animals- just different morphs. Some appear more humanoid than others, so i can only assume the longer you've been there the more morphed you become?

Anyways, I think The Caretaker was a crow at some point. Somehow someone confused owlvin for a crow when...you know...OWLvin. And during the fight against The Caretaker theres a LOT of crowing

And ofc, back to the theme of death, Crows.

Nameless Cat is underrated

[fadingdaggerr]

hello :] i had an idea / req for you!

melissa/reader where r is new around (new teachers aide, teacher, anything rly), they’re just new so melissa isn’t exactly head over heels yet. but then maybe smth happens to r where they’re in trouble or hurt and melissa ends up being to one to find and take care of them, and melissa realizes how quickly she’s growing attached OMFG THIS IS SO LONG AND SUCH A RAMBLE SORRY! run with it however you’d like xoxo -🧛🏻‍♀️

blush to ruby

pairing: melissa schemmenti x gn!reader

summary: request above! think i stuck pretty true to it, i went with r getting hurt rather than an altercation just bc my last fic was more that route

warnings: hurt/comfort (but literal hurt. like pain hurt), mentions of blood and a non-serious injury, r should’ve had a that’s so raven moment tbf, kinda short oops

note: title is light to darker shade of red to show deepening feelings, in case u were curious. i wanted to call this “unfortunate foreshadowing” but it’s a little on the nose

melissa hates lunch duty. everyone does really, she wasn’t alone. but what no one ever really talks about, recess duty. the worst part was the screaming, the occasional crying, and the constant whining when it was time to go back inside. somehow after running around at top speeds for twenty minutes straight, the children the even more hyperactive.

maybe it wasn’t so bad. ever since you started at abbott last semester, melissa found herself enjoying the extra time with you. she liked the little one-on-one conversations with you that this time allowed her. melissa thought it was rather sweet how you interacted with the little eagles. she’d watch as you ran down the line of swings, pushing each student as they giggled and yelled higher, higher! but this week was a blessing to the children, mr. johnson finally inflated the sad looking dodgeballs in the recess bins. four-square is a very, very serious matter.

“alright little eagles, huddle up,” melissa shouts with her hands cupped around her mouth.

“time for the rules,” you say, getting a collective groan in return, “don’t give me the uuugh stuff, half of you break them before the game even starts.” you hear melissa chuckle beside you, making you visibly struggle to hide a smile.

“no hitting the ball when it’s not you’re turn. only hit the ball with your hands, not your face. i’m looking at you, tyler,” you give him a playful glare, he sticks his tongue out in response. “hit the ball out of the bounds, you’re out. if it bounces more than once in your square, you’re out. catch the ball, you’re out.”

the kids create their teams and start playing, you and melissa are really only there to stop them from literally butting heads, and to grab the ball if it rolls out. four rounds in and everyone was laughing and having fun. melissa particularly enjoyed being gifted a dandelion flower crown that you helped one of her students make, gently laying it on top of her hair.

“last round, then we’re heading back in!” you call to them. when they change players, it’s all fourth graders, only one of which was from your class. melissa could recall that when yasir had been in her second grade class, he mentioned his sister played volleyball at the high school, and she taught him all about it. melissa turns to give you the heads up right as the game starts. the ball bounces into yasir’s square, to which he smacks with all his might. the sheer speed of the ball gave you no time to duck, smacking you straight in the face.

your hands fly over your nose, eyes already watering from pain. melissa can hear the muffled string of swears under your hands and immediately jumps into action, although shaking a bit with need to help you. she ushers the kids back inside the lunchroom to get them to their teachers. she runs to janine and asks her to watch her kids, and teacher lee to watch yours, while she takes you to the nurse.

“nurse alayna isn’t here today, but her office has the same key as the conference rooms. just leave her a note if you take anything other than tissues,” lee says as they wave your students over to their group.

melissa settles on guiding to the office with a hand on your lower back, quietly telling you she’ll help you and that you’re okay. she sees more tears form in your eyes when your pull your hands back, blood covering your palms. her hold on your waist tightens with reassurance, your tears making her protectiveness over you grow. when you get into the office, she holds tissues to your nose as you wash your shaking hands.

you cringe when you sit on the paper covering the bench, the sound of it making the pain in your head worse somehow. melissa noticed and watched as you stood up to rip away the paper violently, muttering asshole under your breath. even when you were in pain and crying, you were still you.

she replaced your hold on the tissues as she carefully wiped away rogue tears and blood with a tissue, apologizing when you winced. “okay hon, i’m gonna have to look at it for real now,” she speaks softly, as if you’re a scared animal.

you shake your head and ramble, “no, no, i can do it. you don’t have to look at it, it’s probably disgusting.”

she drops the tissue to hold your hand, “i’ve seen worse, i was married to a man,” this makes you chuckle, then wince from the laugh. “i want to help. i’ll be careful, i promise,” she holds her pinky out to you. she feels your smile under her hand more than she can really see it, but her heart rate quickens when your pinky wraps around hers as tight as possible.

“what’s the damage, dr. schemmenti?”

pulling back the tissues, melissa can see that your nose and the area around it was swelling a little. she used a featherlight touch to graze her finger up the bridge of your nose, checking to see if it had been broken. a hiss of pain from you has her hand retracting, apology hot on her tongue.

“sorry, sorry. i’m a wuss with pain and blood and all that,” your hands have a vice grip on your knees as you rush your words.

melissa’s thumb caresses your wrist, “don’t apologize, it hurts like a bitch. i just need to lightly pinch the bridge to feel if it’s broken, okay?” you grimace at the question but nod. “just squeeze my hand if it hurts, don’t worry about hurting me,” she reassured you, holding your hand, interlocking your fingers.

only about three second later, with an almost broken hand, melissa concludes your nose is not broken. she gently cleans off the blood from your skin, so gentle you can barely feel the touch except for the fabric of the towel. your hand stays in melissa’s, the looser grip allows her to feel the anxious vibrations still running through you.

she decides she has to make you feel better, “once we get you all patched up, how about we raid the lollipops? i know she’s got some around here, she saves me the bubble gum ones.”

you laugh a bit, careful not to disrupt the last of her work, “bubble gum? what’s wrong with you?”

“they’re horrible and i love them, okay? what do you even like? strawberry or something else boring?”

“root beer. obviously.”

“you don’t even like root beer, you’re a diet coke purist. you told me root beer tasted like minty iced coffee,” melissa says as she throws out the tissues and disposable towel, making a note of them and the future candies.

your free hand rises, “listen the lolly version is better than the soda. and there’s no diet coke lollipop, now is there?”

melissa relishes in your laugh for a moment, “you got me there.”

you’re able to run out to your car to grab a sweatshirt to replace your stained shirt, melissa standing guard as you changed in the backseat. she held back a cackle at seeing a delicately embroidered cursive, reading bon fromage, with a small stitched image of a wheel of cheese on a boat beneath it. you try to hold back your own laugh as you say, “don’t even start, it’s all i had in the car.”

“no, it’s cute. it’s ridiculous, but very cute,” she responds with a stifled laugh.

“if you’re done laughing, i’ll take that lollipop now,” your say, holding your hand out.

melissa drops your root beer lollipop in your palm, but you quickly switch them. her eyes never leave you as you unwrap the candy and place it in your mouth. her heart rate picks up and her skin warms, she blinks rapidly to erase the totally platonic thoughts she was having.

intent eyes watch as your tongue moves the candy to the side of your mouth to speak, “okay, maybe it’s not so bad. but root beer is still better.”

“i told ya,” she mumbles as she unwraps her own lollipop and tries it, “dammit. you were right.” you laugh and give yourself a little round of applause at her response.

you clear your throat, suddenly nervous, “thank you. you didn’t have to, even if you say it’s fine. just, thank you anyways. i really do appreciate it, melissa.”

she wraps an arm around your shoulders, leading you back into the building as she thinks about how to respond, “and i’d do it again in a heartbeat if i had to.”

the rest of the day has melissa has this nagging need to check on you, even with only two and a half hours left in the day. she had to wrangle with herself to not rush to ask how are you or peek through the window and see for herself. the deep-seated feeling to protect you only quadrupled in size after seeing you in pain, feeling you grip her hand for support. taking care of you had felt second nature to the redhead.

when the kids cleared out, she quickly grabbed her things and walked to your classroom. she lingered in the doorway as she watched you pack away your planner and a couple folders for grading away into your bag. she knocked lightly on the doorframe to announce herself before she was caught staring, only to be met with soft eyes and a smile, a hand motioning her closer. as if she’d ever stray far from you again.

on the nose. get it :D i’m sorry.

feedback appreciated, love y’all big time

[angelthemanspanker]

If Buffy found out Angel kicked out Connor she would also be told why and, I think, maybe cut Angel some slack. I don't believe Angel throwing out Connor was, in fact, the same as Joyce throwing out Buffy. There is a quick, easy-to-miss scene towards the end of Angel season 3 that supports this viewpoint, one where Connor throws Angel in the ocean in a box with the intention of leaving him there forever to shrivel up in eternal agony and insanity

Now Buffy might have done that to Joyce at some point tbf it's been a while since I watched the high school seasons but I feel like maybe there's a difference between removing your extremely strong and dangerous son, who tried to put you in the Torture Nexus last time you saw him/the surface world, from your home (AND with an important "You can't be here yet" attached), and telling your daughter that if she leaves she can never come back because you demanded an explanation and then refused to accept the truthful one she gave you even though she's saying she slays vampires and thirty seconds ago you saw her slay a vampire.

Just because two scenes would look real symmetrical if you put a few lines out of context next to each other in a gifset does not the same thing make

[party-time]

I'm having so much thoughts about Chainsaw Man part 2 rn- dunno what else to do with them other than dump them here after the latest chapter just dropped.

Also this is all just MY thoughts and how i see it, is okay if you don't think i'm right or if you want to add your own take, it keeps things interesting tbf.

Spoilers for Chainsaw Man part 2 under the read more!

Yoru, the war devil.

I just gotta say after this chapter i loved Yoru's character even more, even though i am still pretty resentful for what she did to Denji on that alleyway — which i am not going to talk about here btw—, i gotta say that Yoru being the Gun devil's mother is something that really got me thinking.

We all know that in part 1 the main focus was the Gun devil to a certain point before it all went downhill because of Makima, which only adds another layer of significance for Yoru being the Gun devil's mother.

Yoru clearly CARES about the Gun devil and Tank devil, she cares enough how to NOT turn them into weapons to fight Chainsaw Man at first even after constantly insisting of wanting to defeat him. Sure you could argue is a different type of care and not an actual attachment, after all the few horsemen of the apocalypse we've been introduced to were all pretty much selfish and apathetic to others who didn't had any kind of usefulness to their plans.

Makima wanted Pochita so she used about everyone that Denji cared and got rid of them, Famine most likely helped kill Nayuta to get Denji to snap so Black Chainsaw Man could appear. These were all acts made out of cold blood for their own benefits one way or another, even more we could add that Makima basically killed part of her family, the Gun devil and forced them to become a fiend just for Denji to kill them again. And if Fami really had something to do with Nayuta's death she also killed part of her family without a hesitation.

It's enough to say that Yoru turning her children as weapons now and not long time ago is more of a last resort than out of care for them. But let me also add something to the picture:

She said it. It requires guilt to create a powerful weapon. I don't think is just how powerful the devil might already be but also the amount of guilt Yoru might be feeling for turning said devil into a weapon, in her conversation with Asa she also states that her comrades were all eaten by Chainsaw Man with a look that to me just says that she cared for said comrades to an extent, just enough to make Chainsaw Man vomit them back.

But then again she said the way she could beat Chainsaw Man was by creating two powerful weapons, more than the ones Asa already makes: because they are made out of sheer guilt and attachment.

Even if there was a possibility she wasn't using ALL of her children's body for the weapons there was still the risk of them never recovering from her actions, so it adds up to the guilt for Yoru. We could also make it a possibility that in part 1 the reason why the Gun devil attacked Pochita in the first place was to protect their mother, since we already know that Chainsaw Man ate part of war before in order to weaken her and probably that's when her children come into the scene. Plus we know Makima was also trying to fight him for his attention at that time, so he was basically just jumped by a good bunch of powerful devils.

Sure he gets back up everytime but we already know he's not able to entirety win right away when there's more than one powerful enemy going against him, so at some point he must have been actually defeated and that leads to the whole beginning of part 1.

Probably from that point on when Pochita mets Denji a whole bunch of stuff was happening that we don't know, like probably Makima deciding to use the Gun devil as a way to get close once more to Chainsaw Man or Yoru having to take time to recover while thinking of a way to defeat Chainsaw Man.

You could also say that the reason why the War devil might feel guilty for using her own children as weapons is because she's using Asa's body at the moment, since Yoru already stated that she could feel the same things Asa feels. There are frankly many valid points to believe Yoru doesn't actually feel guilty or attached to her children in any way other than just ownership, after all another requirement for her to turn things into weapons is that Yoru has to believe they are hers.

But would you really look at me and tell me that she doesn't actually feel anything to her children at the moment of this conversation?

Even Asa calls her out asking if she couldn't just have turned the Gun devil and Tank devil as weapons before, even more she brought up the fact that Yoru could just chose to not fight Chainsaw Man at all, after all everyone already started remembering war enough, right? No need to keep chasing after a goal that probably won't make her happy in the end, with a bigger repercussion...

Except that she doesn't. This is a mix of competitiveness and survival, the War devil KNOWS that Chainsaw Man could easily defeat her if he actually wanted to and almost did so, he managed to eat part of her and weaken her once. Nothing could guarantee her that she is "safe" from him, besides it already is pretty obvious she wants to win against him for real, she wants him down and gone not just kill him once but the next moment he's alive again.

She's a horsemen of the apocalypse, yes, one of the most powerful devils there is. But she's not safe either way, i'd say one of the other main factors for Yoru to feel the need of fighting Chainsaw Man is because of the Gun devil.

In part 1 we were already shown that the Gun devil was incredibly feared at those moments due to their attacks, since they're War's children then that also want it or not contributed to Yoru's recovery to be able to go search for Chainsaw Man in part 2, but then we got Makima defeating the Gun devil and everything that happened after that with Aki. My best guess is that the Gun devil appeared in hell again but far weakened after everything that happened, sure people still feared him but i don't think nearly as much as they did before the whole fight with Denji since the Gun devil isn't mentioned anymore in part 2 (as far as i am aware, feel free to correct me if wrong.)

Which if Yoru did cared for her children then that makes her recurring to such lengths as to share bodies with Asa have a lot more of sense, she thought that with all of Asa's guilt over almost everything would make her powerful enough to defeat Chainsaw Man plus people remembering War's terrors, so no need to use her children and enjoy the victory.

Yet that didn't happened, she had to use them anyway and that's what happens.

Even she asks this question to herself before doing so: Would i really go that far?

The answer for more heartless that it seems is not too out of character, after all in wars sacrifices are inevitable just think about the many people that die because of them, people that really have nothing to do with the beginning of said war. That's why Yoru went with it because she wouldn't be the War devil without making sacrifices for a victory, even if the sacrifice was using her children as weapons for a fight that probably won't make her happy in the end.

A mother often has to make sacrifices for her children, in war sacrifices has to be made too. In this case? Yoru just had to make the biggest sacrifice a mother could make in a war that she alone decided to continue.

[a-moth-called-mof]

Throughback Thursday aka I go over my mains during the dsmp

Many of my followers might not know this but i have swapped through multiple "mains". I still wouldn't say I have a dsmp "main", because I've always had phases and even when I did, I've always tried to follow people who "mained" characters I didn't follow as much so I knew what was up. My original "main" was actually C! Fundy. I fucking adored him. I was a big C! Fundywastaken shipper and if you look through my fundywastaken tag you can see the whole ass wedding canonicity saga. I loved C! Fundy so much from late season 1 (when I joined the fandom) (aka before November 16th) to early season 2 (aka post November 16th) and I was really hoping he'd get to be in a spot light for a bit with Ghostbur. I also really likes C! Niki and C! Bad around this time.

After that, I orbited C! Tubbo a lot (although I've always kept up with C! Clingy to some degree) as well C! Ranboo, C! Eret and C! Puffy (IM STILL MAD ABOUT CC! PUFFY RETCONING HER CHARACTER BEING A MOM BECAUSE THE FANDOM FORCED HER INTO THE STEREOTYPICAL MOM ROLE. i really likes c! Puffy as a mom because even though she was a maternal figure. She had such wine aunt energy and felt like such a fleshed out person to me) (also got really into c! Puffychu for a bit)

And then exile happened and C! Tommy maining began (<- FUN FACT I USED TO FUCKING **HATE** C! WILBUR 😭 I thought he was pretty abusive during Pogtopia and I still do think that C! Tommy scape goated C! Techno a bit because he didn't wanna acknowledge how badly Wilbur missed him up <- that being said even though i didnt like c! Wilbur. I was still always of the opinion, he had the potential to get better and i always felt like he'd come back later eventually).

After exile, I became a pretty big C! Techno main and (c! Emerald enjoyer) even if I didn't always agree with what he was doing (<- tbf I've always watched C! Techno, probably helped he didn't stream as much as the others). Around this time and after Doomsday, I got pretty into C! Sam and Ponk as well. And post C! Tommy dying and lore slowing down, I got really into C! Quackity (although I've always been attached to him because a close friend of mine at the time basically mained him). And then the C! Wilbur revival happened and I started getting more into him and I think he was my last proper "main" before the lore dropped off and the CC! Dream stuff started coming out

Overall all the dsmp characters hold a special space in my heart because I was pretty into almost all of then at some point (I didn't mention this because I don't consider this long enough to be a phase but I did have a week or two where I fixated a lot on C! George and C! Hannah). And idk, all of them hold a place in my heart and I also think half of them suck ass as people but I think that's the appeal for me

[thelaurenshippen]

I’ve recently begun passing down the tradition of listening to podcasts to my little sister. (TMA was first, now she’s on TBS, next is Wolf 359)

But she’s on the last episode of season 4 and we’re approaching The AM Archives rapidly and she is Very attached to Owen. (as am I, TBF, he’s my favorite and always has been.)

I just thought you might enjoy knowing that your podcast is being passed on!

It’s been nice to share a podcast i’ve relistened so many times with her, seeing her react for the first time where I know the story almost beat for beat by now

oh gosh, I LOVE this! I have an older sister and so much of my taste in books, movies, tv shows, and music was formed (and still is formed) by her and what she shares with me. so the idea of my podcast being part of a relationship like that makes me enormously happy!!!

[solradguy]

Looks like I caused the apocalypse asking about the removal of that statement lol. Tbf on the afterstory "where babies come from thing" it seems to me to be euphemisms for what actually happened. I remember someone pretty much equating the "eye" that Sin was born from to the egg that he was born from.

It's ok, you didn't start it haha I joked about it on Twitter a few days ago and I guess a lot more people were attached to the idea of it being canon than I realized and now it's followed me home. It's not even the biggest wildly accepted GG thing that isn't actually real. Toshimichi Mori didn't create ABA, for example. Why do people want Ky putting a baby eyeball into himself to be canon so bad? Do they think that's the kind of man he is?? I feel like I've typed the same post about it like 10 times across the last 4 days lol

Another fun one is that Aria wasn't even Sol's wife; she died before they could get married. It might be funny just typing up a huge list with citations of things frequently passed off as canon that didn't actually happen, post it, and then sign out for a few days

Eyes and eggs do look pretty similar though. It's almost definitely a euphemism and that might have been the inspiration for it

[lokiinmediasideblog]

I know its cliche. And that both thor and loki are messed up because of odin. And they srent innocent. But i thought big brothers were supposed to be there for their little brothers. The last episode really makes me mad at thor right now

So I get into HC territory here.

TBF, I don't know what their age difference is equivalent to in Earth years because Marvel is inconsistent as fuck when it comes to world-building and writing. It's only confirmed that Thor's the older one because Ragnarok (and EG claimed there was a ~500 year age gap). I'd assume they're around the same age or twin-like. If the difference is under the equivalent of 1 year, I don't feel comfortable saying that Thor should have his back as an older brother because it's negligible. And, this is the time to state that I don't consider Throg cannon.

Still, while Thor loves Loki and , while Thor's not the only guilty party and there's others more at fault, I do think Thor contributed to Loki's fears, and I don't think he had his back in group settings or with Odin (whom Thor was also afraid of). Add in the whole warrior-based militaristic society, plausible child-soldiering (I am convinced they killed at a young age), and Odin pitting them against each other. Loki being lower in the pecking order of Odin-> Thor -> Loki. (Thor has anxiety and anger management issues, and Loki had a lot of repressed anger that came out in Thor 1, is vindictive, and of course, manipulative (the whole coronation ruining)). Granted, as Asgardians they probably have a much higher threshold as to what is acceptable as an injury from a sibling spat.

So personally I blame a lot of Loki's behavior in Ep. 5 on the trauma of being abandoned as a baby to the elements. Loki might not remember it, but it's still there. And modern psychology and neuroscience has shown that bad experiences as a baby often cause trauma. His core fear boils down to not wanting to be alone. The way Loki clings to people he barely knows to avoid being alone just feels like a manifestation of some attachment disorder, and it's concerning. LOL

[lotus-mirage]

Trigun Stampede Episode 10 Liveblog

I guess we're kind of getting close to the end now. Huh. It feels like we should be still at least 4-5 episodes away from any climax, so I wonder how this is gonna go down.

Okay. Okay yeah looking at JuLai, 150 years seems more reasonable. I'd kind of assume they'd still be mostly living out of any surviving wreckage, bonus if still functional. But I think this might be the same ship as the one we last saw Knives on in the flashback, but didn't they kill all their plants? How did they support this kind of growth, long-term?

I was not expecting the cyberpunk elements. Particularly the common trope of having it paired with either kanji or hanzi. That's just been entirely absent so far, so it appearing now, this far in, is kinda funny. The music in particular keeps making me crack up.

"Put a sock in it, asshole!" "Okay!" lmao

Why is this doctor/priest guy giving them information, anyway. His attitude keeps flipping between 'mad scientist' and 'decently amiable' and I don't know what to think.

Why are there red lanterns hanging in the ceiling of a room that's otherwise sheer steel and strips of light. (And pipes, I guess.). Who designed this. Like, in universe, was someone just like "yeah this needs to be livened up a bit, but we can't disrupt the fact that this hallway only has two colors. I know just the thing."

Is that what he was trying to do?? It seemed like he was focusing a whole lot more on their combat capabilities. And single-mindedness.

Okay yeah that's some really interesting patchwork on Vash's back. Huh.

Wait actually. Do they not clean up the bloodstains between trials? That seems counterproductive and unsanitary.

"They were all doomed to die of illness or poverty." Sure, bud.

"My surgeries helped make them tougher. But that was all. They still hungered and thirsted" If they all have the same results, I don't think that trying the same thing is gonna be the answer here. Even setting ethics aside I think you might be the problem.

Ah. The bubble-wrap hoodie.

Oh alright what's this now. Tree of life? Yggdrasil? What's happening here.

Oh nevermind he is trying different approaches. I don't know. This might be worse.

I have been instructed to add that I have been interrupted. "Keysmash seven"

"supply gate" okay there are different types of gates now!

Nails????? Okay, but. Why??

Sidenote, JuLai is spelled as "July" on the map. Huh.

Oh oof I saw Roberto clutching his side but I did not think it was that bad. Yikes.

Oh shit he might actually die here.

Not confirmed yet, but yeah I think decent chance he's actually dead?? I did not see this coming at all. Man.

aaand back to Knives at the piano. again.

So. question. is that an actual dead plant mounted on the piano, or just a really morbid statue.

Oh she's going back up! :0

I mean this is kind of logical story progression tbf, but at this point I'm kind of just along for the ride.

Yeah closer look at the statues/bodies(?). That is incredibly grotesque. Bleh.

Oh! Confirmed! Bodies! Wonderful!

.... okay technically I don't think "discriminated against" is quite the right term to describe what's happening to plants, even trying to put things lightly.

why does one of those bodies not have a head.

"You don't want to save the humans because you love them. You just want to make up for causing the crash 150 years ago." Okay that's an interesting... I guess it's not confirmed, so it's more of a proposal than an insight. It could be true on a wider scale, and there's definitely some elements of truth in there, but I think Vash genuinely gets attached to people (and even kind of the concept of people) too easily for that to be the case.

Man, this guy is also doing the contract-fulfilling paperwork?

"Nicholas, were you able to lay down your cross?" I think that is a direct allusion to something specific, but I don't know what.

(...Is there cross-laying down in the bible? Like the whole thing was that prisoners had to lug theirs around themselves. Maybe when they got taken down? But that wouldn't be them laying down their cross, that'd be someone else doing it. yeah okay idk)

"How about you?" wait metaphorical is an option here too. Okay I think there's a saying/idiom about that but I still don't know what it is. joy.

Doctor/Priest has kid. Blonde kid. Hairstyle looks non plant-like, from what we've seen, and eyelashes aren't weird like the nails kid. ...did he experiment on his own kid? Is that the implication?

Okay I'm confused.

Okay that's the kid's eyes. Knives has them somehow? And the doctor/priest guy is responsible, but didn't know about it until that point?

wait. wait. lmao. was that trapdoor linked specifically to a piano chord???? That's so over the top omg

huh?????? remake him?????

yeah I think we're just lacking in context here I don't have anything to say.

okay. crack theory time. switched to eng audio to compare, and the last line "all shall be even again" just made my brain go 'even??? huh??? even? even? :0 eden!!' Doesn't make much sense, but I thought I'd record it lol.

End notes:

OH BOY THAT WAS A LOT HUH

okay we're escalated enough that having two more episodes in the season makes sense now. what I know about those two episodes: there's a gun fight (in space? with a cube?) that someone mocked up to look like a final fantasy game(?), JuLai might explode, and Vash gets separated from the group (and may or may not get amnesia? I don't know how much I trust this one lmao).

Man. Okay. Roberto seems to be dead. I sure didn't know about that one going in! I don't know how I feel about it other than the in-the-moment constant escalation of 'ooooh. oooooh no. ooooooh no.' (he is definitely a mentor figure, I don't know why I didn't expect this at some point)

Meryl seems to be reentering the scenario! At high cost, but with newfound determination and firearms. Wolfwood, meanwhile, may or may not be leaving for the moment. I know he rejoins eventually, but for now I could honestly see it go either way.

I'm just not gonna touch on Vash's situation. I think I've accepted that I don't know what's happening and that the information is just not available right now.

Fun cliffhanger, but I guess that's what happens two episodes from a climax lol.

[rysingsun-art]

I went from deciding “If I do any art tonight it will be the Queer Canyon title screen” to oh i wanna sketch

to “i wanna work on those vertigo and roga character sketches on my computer from months ago” (i added very little tonight)

to “oh i should remake that old unfinished pride ocs thing from 2016(?) using the above drawing file since i’m already doing two characters per layer as sort of dress up dolls for references and drawing different clothes” (the mentioned old thing:)

to “wait i never revamped pluto and nakir’s hair like i’ve been meaning to for years” (pluto is half-spotted hyena, half italian wolf and nakir is a lion— funny enough the first time i made human versions of the trio, laki was black and the other two were white. then i decided not long after to make appearance as humans match up with where each animal species is initially from so it swapped… it took a long time to slowly change hair textures since i was so attached to my old designs. especially for major characters. honestly thanks @chromaticroses for all the posts about drawing black characters. it was a push i needed to do this small thing that felt daunting. i definitely still need to practice but it’s a start)

to “oh hey i might as well start that redraw of pluto & co since i realized it’s been four years since last time and the first one was four years before that”

and now it’s 4:30 am and i’m tired so i’m done for the night but i just wanted to share because i think things turned out good and i realized i hardly post on this blog (though tbf i’ve hardly drawn in the last year)

i’ve had the trio as characters for almost a decade now. thanks for all the ocs, young teen me. many have changed over the years, but at their core, most of them are the same people they used to be and have very similar designs to back then as well.

let your characters evolve as you learn and experience new things, and let what you want them to be push you to learn and experience even more new things whether it’s falling down a research rabbit hole on a period in history or on a gender identity, or learning to draw a new body type

anyways the melatonin is kicking in. good night

[formulatrash]

Hi Hazel! Same question as previous but with FE drivers if that’s ok?

oh sure. this one is easier because I speak to them all the frickin time. or, I guess. I used to. ow.

so basically all the FE drivers are really nice. I can't really think of any of them that have been anything but nice to me apart from Sam Bird has a slightly aggro tendency that you can't read anything into. (he gets super stressed sometimes and will be snappy but there's nothing like, personal or bad about it. it's just like if a cat gets stressed and has a screechy moment. (he also for whatever reason just does not like being interviewed by me so I try to avoid it unless absolutely necessary)

JEV can be a pain in the arse to journalists (apparently) but he is absolutely an adorable kitten with me and has never been anything but extremely sincere and willing to discuss anything. he made me cry on the Saturday in Berlin because as we were leaving the media centre to go to media pen he hugged me and said he had to win the race for me tomorrow, if it was my last - he didn't but that's irrelevant. idk if drivers are attached to journalists like that in other series. tbf idk if they are attached to other FE journalists like that. oh no now I've upset myself, my stupid blorbos I miss them.

if you get Sam in a non-aggro mood he's also very sweet and patient (I totally understand the aggro-ness, definitely don't want to make him sound unpleasant because Sam Bird is A Genuinely Very Good Man) and has given me some really heartfelt answers over the years.

Lucas has never been anything other than hilarious and friendly and very kind to me. he's awesome to talk to and contrary to what his internet persona might project, really good at listening and understanding things that are new to him. asks a lot of questions.

Pascal once gave me a tour of his house on Zoom because he was, idk, just a bit bored in lockdown. Mitch is just an endless joy to interview because he gives incredibly long answers and is like, fervently sincere about them. Nick Cassidy gets super anxious about giving good enough answers - I did a podcast with him that I need to edit and put up and he was so nervous he wasn't doing well enough but so friendly and sweet, he's really lovely.

Edo is the genuinely most sincere man alive. Alex Sims is so nice, the absolute nicest man. all men should either be Alex Sims or Jake Dennis, ideally, who is also incredibly lovely.

idk, I could list all of them really? Seb Buemi is genuinely lovely, not at all the image you'd get from the infamous clip. the Olivers (collective) are all very down to earth, generous people. Antonio Giovinazzi gets in that goddamn travesty of a car every weekend and does it with a smile and with nothing but generosity towards his team and the fans. I mean, I literally could pretty much list all of them tbh. even Lotterer, who I had a bit of a conflagration with in season 4 and took quite a dislike to, has mellowed and is honestly lovely.

there is one of the drivers I have never seen anything but total mardiness from even when I told him he'd scored a point but I don't see any point in calling him out for it as he clearly has either no intention of or no ability to change and already has a reputation for it.

[iturbide]

Tbf, I can't even remember when New Heroes in Story Chapters have been plot-important since Book 1, maybe a bit of Book 2 that I'm forgetting. Like I think FeH writers forgot the entire reason the new heroes for story chapters were even in those chapters was that the whole thing of Embla opening gates to worlds and getting heroes to fight for them and Askr needing to go in and close the Gates to the worlds. If anything, that fact makes the whole plot of Book 6 with the sealed-off dimension stuff make less sense given Embla seemed to give royals the power to open stuff so why can Embla's power also be creating sealed-off places and whatnot?

It feels like they forgot the initial plot of Book 1 in the following Books, but maybe that's just me.

Book 1. It was definitely book 1 when they were last important in any way, and went on the downslope fast in Book 2 because while Veronica was attached to Muspell and implied to be providing the Heroes in their army, they never really got to interact in interesting narrative ways after Book 1; any relevance they might have had in Book 2 was relegated to Paralogues rather than actual chapters in the Book proper (and I legitimately can't remember whether the last of the plot-relevant interesting Paralogues were associated with Book 1 or Book 2).

One correction, though: Embla's not opening gates to worlds and getting Heroes to fight for them, and Askr's not closing them. It's actually the other way around: Askr is the one that opens gates, Embla's the one that closes them, and Embla is specifically not closing the gates so that they can go through and force Heroes into contracts, forcing the Order of Heroes to go in and break the contracts since they couldn't close the gateways themselves. It's why Book 6 has that element about the villages being sealed off: Embla's closed them away from the world using the overwhelming power the Emblian royal family wields a fragment of, which Ash as Askr's retainer can nullify and re-open. Askr is the opener.

with that said though they have definitely lost the plot and I'm just increasingly disappointed in the story, such as it is

[screechfoxes]

OC name ask game: C and V~

Ohhh, two of my favourites, Ciara and Valentine! Or possibly three of my favourites, since I have two OCs named Valentine. It's a good name which fits a certain type of character that I adore!

CIARA: Ciara da Neoma is a character I made for the Starforged solo RPG system, but haven't yet played -- and honestly, she's built herself into a full character in a way that resists being played with as opposed to just... written about.

She's formerly a diplomat/mediator in interplanetary politics, raised since birth to fill that role and possibly given an implant which reinforces her neutrality and/or loyalty. Empathic powers possibly augmented by cybernetics. Albinism, so she wears tinted glasses.

The only trouble is, I haven't figured out if/how her allegiance changes or what her actual goal is.

VALENTINE (no last name): My first OC named Valentine is an old one. His origins date back to 2013/14 from a roleplay chat which kind of got out of hand. He bears basically no resemblance to that at this point, tbf. He isn't attached to any particular project; I've never had an idea that works with him.

Essentially the god of bacchanalia -- wild dancing, with emphasis on the wild, and maddened romance. Not doing so well in the age of sprawling cities cutting into green spaces; he's subsisting off nightclubs but he's dying the slow death of a god, a painful fading into mortality. White hair, like Ciara, but it's just an aesthetic thing in his case. I think white hair looks cool on basically everyone!

VALENTINE (St. Clair): Or, to give him his full name, Silas Valentine St. Clair, but he goes by Valentine more often than not.

Regency painter turned regency painting. Trans. Had a run-in with the supernatural that left him turned into a blank canvas of himself, and he repainted himself from the ground up. Still holds a grudge. His paintings do strange things to people, some of which might welcome it, others might not.

He came to his gender later in life, and accordingly threw himself into social life with a boyish joy that was accompanied by a fair amount of scandal. Like both Ciara and the other Valentine, his flamboyant/charming personality and flirtations shield the emotional vulnerability within. I have a character type that I enjoy!

Formerly a TMA fan-OC. Possibly still one, but I have a couple of original project ideas I could transplant him into. Unfortunately, I think the story of his origins would come across as Problematic Trans Rep out of context, but I've also considered writing something set a century on from his becoming a supernatural being, if I can figure out the actual... plot.

I'd add pictures of all of them but this is long enough already.

[luffysbasement]

didn't realize my last one was that long. Geez (this one is also fucking long, bare with me)

I feel like ever since elementary, all our teachers liked to talk about how the opposite of love isn't hate (there was even a text during 6th? grade about this whole thing.)

Tbh I haven't looked much into lore so I only know the gist of it(I'm such shit, but I know I will have literally no time to study if I get invested in the dsmp) so there may be wild guesses here and there down below.

The way Quackity's expressions ranged from stoic to a weirdly kind smile to aggressively scary and ruthless, it's all just so.. *gestures wildly with hands because I have no words* ..angsty. The grip on Dream's hair like he wants him to listen carefully but he is losing all patience and sanity and sympathy for Dream. The crazed look from Quackity(his last block) is just so cold and bitter and kind of filled with self-pity, like he's been there before (I actually don't know if that's the case lmao) it's the look from textbook villians(I know he's not one) when they become insane and starts spilling all that they know in the most poisonous way possible.

Also, again, last block giving me chills. Sapnap's glare and George just walking away with absolutely no care and no desire to turn around sums it up beautifully. Good work, really really beautiful.

-✗

putting this on read more bc i will be ranting LMAO. buckle in, this will be long.

thank you!! :] i absolutely love seeing people see how i organized the colors and panels to be the way they are. and the expressions as well, i had fun making those!

i really like this one bc its short but it goes pretty deep into the lore. i had to think about the flow of the panels and the colors and poses of the comic since its only 3 pages and i dont have much to tell the message aside from those things asgssdfgh

i originally saw the concept (opposite of love isnt hate) from a tiktok HAHAH i dont think weve ever tackled that in literature or anywhere at school unfortunately :(( im a big fan of metaphorical/poetic statements too. tho its technically logical, but weve been so used to hate being described as the opposite of love that its just mind-boggling for me to hear that lol

i actually understand you lol im currently done with school at the present moment but a few months ago i barely even posted, even more drawn anything bc i was so busy with school. since youre still not done, good luck with that!!

but oh lord am i a hoe (a WH**E) for lore.

ive thought of this for a long time now but i just had to urge to get to drawing it when my twt tl starting going deep into c!dream's lore.

i just ABSOLUTELY love lore revolving around the dt. (maybe because im more attached to them whoops)

its just so fascinating to think about. (everything onwards is /rp and /character) also, you said youre not that caught up with lore so if you dont get these things or dont wanna bother/get spoiled, you can just ignore it lol i just really needed to rant about his character thats all, needed to get it off my chest phew

dream from the start had a plan: make everyone on the server hate him and build a prison for someone so strong it'll be needed. for me there is no way he was talking about tommy or techno then. no way.

he definitely had a fall to corruption. what he did with tommy during exile, that one is inexcusable ofc but the other things??? destroying the community house, siding with techno during his arrest, even destroying a whole ass country (this one might just be him reaching his limit against lmanberg, being the first and basically only country to defy him sm and stuff)

its weird and interesting in a way. what he did, the destruction, telling everyone he has no more attachments, not even sapnap and george, putting george on the throne then dethroning him not long after-- all these things just seems like it's part of his plan you know???

but like, what for? why? what does he want? earlier in the smp, he just wanted to build a home for them, one that will grow and be beautiful (theres a certain tiktok edit of this one, i am going to cry) he was such a good guy in the earlier days, he just wanted to take care of the server and take on the responsibilities expected of him but it just all... fell?

but even then, from the start, i cant help but think that he was already alone. sure, he had sapnap and george and the others but after everything: after sapnap was so quick to jump on tommy's side after ONE thing that dream said in the heat of the moment to threaten tommy (the 'i dont care about anything' bit), not trying to clear it up with dream and with george being so quick to side with other people's statement (dream dethroned him bc he hates him, etc) than dream's own (to protect george), its just so sad. not to mention even before everything, those two formed new nations without dream before; while dream was fighting for his own alone, they didn't really care enough. they did this again, with kinoko kingdom but tbf, the destruction of the community house felt like the end of the greater dream smp.

its just... sad and tragic, his whole character. his life is like the joker, baby. BAHAHAHA

anywaaaays

sorry about that, the c!dream apologist in me needed to breathe

glad you think its beautiful hehe <3