#LIKE WHAT??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDNT NOTICE???

[glitchxinthematrix]

IRREDEEMABLE

Part 4

Love, a concept so complicated to even grasp and yet, every single soul in the universe end up craving it. I have had my share of the cravings, but, news flash, it all resulted in me being left alone stranded. So the concept is now hid safe inside a box. buried deep down somewhere inside, and at times like these I hear the faint screaming it does from the suffocation, all for some acknowledgement. And now, Geto, Love? The one minute he stared longer? Gojo's words kept replaying in my head on my way to find Suguru.

I wouldnt run my thoughts any deeper into this, i mean why should i? what did he do about this? how long has this been going on, and ,oh fuck , thats a pillar and my head is gonna raamm into-, wait no its soft, wait its a hand, a familiar one, shit-

I slowly raised my head to see geto by the vending machine with one can of his favourite drink and the other hand as a barrier to my head and the wall. and yet he doesnt frickin spare me a look, why te hell is his head stooped so low.

Walls are everywhere these days huh?,the audacity to joke around right now without even meeting my eye.

"So youre not even gonna look at me?" I blurt out, unexpectedly helpless in my delivery.

As I see him lift his head up very reluctantly and struggle, i find myself doubting everything gojo previously said, miutes ago.

"Whats up y/n". THE NERVE.

"Didnt take you to be a fuckboi Suguru Senpai, following your best friend's steps is it?"

With a confounded expression I saw him squint his eyes and , well that should be a question then.

"You never called, Geto".

His eyes bulged a bit like he wasnt expecting me to care about the things that we did yesterday. I saw him mumble something under his breath while maintaining the good old strained eyebrows.

"What, you dont care about how i feel now that you slept w me?"

I see his expression waver into immediate shock that desperately needed to set some things straight.

"Y/n..you don't know what you're talking about.. please".

No amount of strained expression from him is helping this mixed signal facade that's happening to me. He takes a deep breathe noticing my baffled expression.

"I do. i do care, more than I've done for anyone else. its just.. by the time you were asleep in my...in my arms, gojo had texted. Soo..it worked. Everything worked out. As intended. Or it didnt, and he came to his senses maybe,finally,else, it doesnt make sense. it makes zero sense. i mean why the fuck would someone not know how to treat you? to treat you shouldnt come as a chore or a result of some challenge, its as natural as breathing air, and idk what was with him all this while, but im sure he realises now, so give him a chance, he'll treat you better I'm sure."

"Is that what you want?"

"What..why..why would it matter, what I think" he visibly gulps, confused.

"It matters to me geto, if you care about me, to know that you like me, I don't know geto you messed with my head, I can't get you out of it...i broke up with gojo."

"What..wait. what?" His face couldn't contain the emotions that rollercoastered through his mind.

"Just say it geto, fucking say it. Do you or do you not like me. Shit, why am I even doing this? " I steer away on my heel as an attempt to hide the tears that are about ruin my mascara, until I feel an immediate grab on my wrist, the same soft hands.

"y/nnn, y/nn....how do i tell you this...you have no idea. not a thing. the way i have craved for you, to be with you, the way i have literally felt my blood boil seeing the way my bestfreind treated you. you have no ideaaa. please dont torment me any more than this, shit im sorry, i know, its not your fault. hell you had no idea how i felt. its just. all you had to do was exist ynnn. the way you aree, the way you smile, hold the hemm of gojos shirt when he failed to pay you the attention you more than deserve, the way you gently hit shoko on her shoulders when you laugh, the way your eyes crinkle when you smile, the way and fuck the way, the way i saw you yesterday, every inch of you, its etched in my memory, by choice. Fuck, I need some water"

I couldn't contain the happiness that bloomed inside me and I had to do something crazy because he looked just too cute.

" for now i can help you moisten your lips I think", I stand on my toes to reach his open mouth, so confused and wary and place the timid but hungry kiss on it, but within seconds he makes sense of things and grabs me by my waist only to land a kiss that lasted longer than the hourly bell that rang twice or thrice after that.

"Aaargh, this...you're tempting me to do something irredeemable again" he breathes with a glistening red lips messy with the stray tints of my lipstick.

"Let's redeem through it this time then."

The smirk on his lips right then looked more promising than ever.

[thetorturedbolter]

my mum forgot about my existence and left me out in the rain (literally) earlier tonight and then she got mad at me for being upset about it? like girl what

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

[deoidesign]

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[ad-hawkeye]

[vibrating at speeds unknown to man] hey guys. i just finished alkaid's level 17 affinity event. i'm so normal right now. like so normal. extremely normal. no girl has been more normal than i am right now.

thinking about how alkaid does extreme sports because he yearns to be free and see everything, and how he would specifically push himself to do dangerous things just to feel untethered for even a moment. which is most likely how he wound up passed out on that snowy mountain (which mc STILL thinks about to this day)

and mc worrying and almost asking him to stop doing dangerous sports, but instead realizing to not only trust alkaid, but to try and see things through his pov by trying an extreme sport herself. and she winds up LOVING it

and how it was a give and take of mc expanding her views on things, but also alkaid realizing to not just recklessly throw himself into shit to feel something. its the mutual growth. [i start shaking you] are you listening to me. AND. And.

and how this all ties into the fairytale event?? where the modern world alkaid appears in the fairtytale world via his dreams and mc gets to finally give him his wish: the chance to fly freely and oh my god that part makes sense now

[surreal-duck]

wanted to redraw their 7th anniversary homescreen before the next anni comes along o7

[skitskatdacat63]

I feel weirdly compelled by this

[syxnewt]

the ability to change fate... that's the power you were fighting to stop.

redraw of something i made at 14!!! wild how time passes

no effects vers and original under the cut

dated august 3, 2020. so i was actually 13 but I don't feel like correcting it. basically 14

the little caption i put is the one i made for this in ibis paint lmao

[widevibratobitch]

do i really want this relationship to continue tho if i genuinely feel worse after every interaction with her and she is in 89% responsible for my already precarious self esteem crashing and plummeting most severely in the span of just three years?

[pinkyjulien]

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[starswallowingsea]

having thoughts about what makes an interesting idol rhythm game

[gece-misin-nesin]

I sometimes genuinely think abt how weird my relationship w english is. I think in my head in english like 68% of the time. I forget turkish words and use the english one bc it comes to mind first and ppl think I'm showing off. I talk to myself in english randomly. I don't even live in an english speaking country. Sometimes it's easier to express myself in english. I have(not to brag but) stupidly good english. All this despite not:

-having relatives who speak english as their mother tongue

-having lived in an eng speaking country before

-having stupidly good teachers(besides that one time)

Basically next to 0 external influence besides stuff required for school.

Whats funny is that it wasn't even intentional. I got really into reading fanfiction like 5 years ago. My english improving was simply an unintended side effect.

[raytoroapologist]

nothing either restores or kills your faith in strangers like looking at letterboxd reviews of your favorite movies

[neapenning]

Feels like everyone decides character/ship weeks in a secret cult. Why is everyone else in the cult? How do i enter the cult? Am i not cool enough? I promise im cool enough

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

[sonknuxadow]

i think that what archie sonic had going on with its portrayal of the werehog was really interesting but also it kind of bugs me that sonics first transformation was built up to for so long and they had this big dramatic moment of him going apeshit but said problem of him going apeshit was immediately fixed in one issue and nothing like that ever happened again