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religioused · 3 years ago

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The Emmaus Heart

by Gary Simpson

Luke 24:36-48 CEV

While Jesus' disciples were talking about what had happened, Jesus appeared and greeted them.

37 They were frightened and terrified because they thought they were seeing a ghost. But Jesus said, “Why are you so frightened? Why do you doubt? Look at my hands and my feet and see who I am! Touch me and find out for yourselves. Ghosts don't have flesh and bones as you see I have.”

40 After Jesus said this, he showed them his hands and his feet. The disciples were so glad and amazed that they could not believe it. Jesus then asked them, “Do you have something to eat?” They gave him a piece of broiled fish. He took it and ate it as they watched.

44 Jesus said to them, “While I was still with you, I told you that everything written about me in the Law of Moses, the Books of the Prophets, and in the Psalms had to happen.” Then he helped them understand the Scriptures. He told them: The Scriptures say that the Messiah must suffer, then three days later he will rise from death. They also say that all people of every nation must be told in my name to turn to God, in order to be forgiven. So beginning in Jerusalem, you must tell everything that has happened.

Reflection:

This interesting passage is sandwiched between Luke’s account of Jesus' resurrection and Jesus appearing to the disciples on the Emmaus Road, and Jesus' ascension. I will briefly review the Emmaus Road encounter. Jesus joins two disciples. Using the Torah and the writings of the prophets (Moses and the prophets), Jesus explains to the disciples the real role the promised Messiah. Our pandemic experience might feel to some people very much like the Emmaus Road. We are so consumed with the loss that we experienced during the pandemic that we do not realize that the Spirit of the Risen Christ is walking with us on the road of loss, that we are not alone in this difficult time.

John Giel is currently serving as the Chancellor for Canonical Affairs and the Vicor General for the Diocese of Orlando.(1) He gave a sermon broadcast on Catholic Television for Central Florida. In his sermon he indicates that the Road to Emmaus is located in our hearts.

“The Road to Emmaus is that time when we have the hardest time believing. The Road to Emmaus is when we have . . . difficult moments and we say, ’I'm out of here.’” He observes we are more likely to feel this way when life is not going the way we expect it to go.(2)

This encounter in the room is probably recorded in Luke's Gospel, because it helps establish the reality of the resurrection, the need for the cross, the urgency of the task Jesus was giving His followers, and the power of God. (3)

Jesus was crucified and died. Jesus' followers were overcome with fear, anger, and grief. They were having a hard time believing. They could neither comprehend Jesus’ Messianic role nor the fact that Jesus was alive. Those in the room may have been just searching for proof, for something that could comfort them. Jesus supplied the proof they needed. Then Jesus taught them from the Scriptures, showing them that it was necessary for the Messiah to suffer and rise from the dead on the third day. Jesus also explains that through Him, the Messiah, comes forgiveness.(4) He helped shift their theology.

Many people are spiritually uncertain and troubled. They live in fear of an angry, harsh, judgmental God. On an intellectual level, they get the fact that God is loving, but, like the disciples on the Emmaus Road, fear keeps them from recognizing the presence of God’s Kingdom when it is right beside them. Not recognizing and comprehending the Kingdom is a theme that continues in the room. Because the hearts of those in the room were on the Emmaus Road, I titled this reflection “The Emmaus Road Heart.”

The Emmaus Road Heart is seen when Christians want other people to prove they are Christians unless they act, walk, talk, and worship in a specific way. So we put people to the test.

My Grade 12 year was spent in a religious boarding academy. Then I progressed to a Christian college. The expectations of how Christian young people were supposed to act were really something.

• No long hair. And this was during the late 1970s and the early 1980s. Almost all young males were wearing long hair. Our hair could not touch the collar of our shirts or cover our earlobes.

• No jeans or t-shirts. We could wear jeans and t-shirts at the gym, in the dorm, or when we were working on a job. The rest of the time, the male students had to wear button-up shirts and either dress pants or corduroy pants.

• No ripped or torn clothing.

• No makeup and jewelry.

• Females could expect to have their dress length measured.

• When I was in Grade 12, we were expected to attend 11 devotions a week in our dorms, 4 church services, and a chapel assembly every week.

That was a grand total of 16 religious services a week. Things were slightly better when I was in college because we were only expected to attend 6 devotions a week in our dorms and the 4 church services and a chapel assembly. For college, we were down to only 11 religious services a week.

• Radios, stereos, and TVs were not allowed in the academy. At college level, radios and stereos were allowed as long as they were played so quietly that nobody could hear them outside of your room. No rock, no Christian rock, and nothing with a strong base beat was allowed.

Zooming forward a few years. I noticed a Christian boarding school that had the following standards of behavior for their students:

• No reading science fiction.

• Minimum length dresses.

• Pants cannot be too tight or too loose. Pants are not to have holes.

• Underwear is not to be seen.

• No hats or dark sunglasses in buildings.

• No bandanas can be worn around your head.

• No clothing with messages about alcohol, tobacco, sex, and occultism.

• No tank tops or sleeveless tops.

These rules are largely cultural, but they were used to define Christian behavior. Cultural elements of Christianity can pose a problem in our understanding of the Kingdom of God. Some of the rules defining Christian behavior, defining the expression of God at this Christian academy feel dated. They seem fixed in time about two generations ago.

Will Willimon is a professor at Duke Divinity School.(5) He makes the point that Jesus is “a body in motion,” seemingly to be ahead of the disciples. He observes that there is something about humanity that is “uncomfortable about the risen Christ in motion.” Will Willimon continues, “We want to fix Christ, we want to stabilize, to take his presence and define it and confine it.”(6) And I believe that we have confined Christ to doctrine, to specific expressions of the Christian life. We confined Christ to the point where we struggle to see Christ working in the lives of women, of non-binary people, LGBT+ people, and in the lives of people with olive, brown, or black skin.

The risen Christ is too big, too loving, too expansive to fit into our White male, European sense of Christ. We should expect expansiveness from the Risen Christ – after all, Jesus was a brown skinned Jewish radical. As wonderful as the ancient creeds, the new creeds, and the old doctrine of the church are, the risen Christ is bigger than all of those things. Christ is big enough to work through those who we find unsettling, because of their race, ethnicity, socio-economic class, religion, ability, gender, gender expression, political affiliation, occupation, and sexuality.

Christ is telling us that it is time to unbolt the pews we've been sitting on, that is time for us to grab a light folding chair and to follow the Risen Christ. Our Christ, the Risen One, is walking through closed doors, going into rooms full of people hungry to be with a community filled with hope and with God’s love. The Risen Christ is prepared to bring those who are in rooms closed by the fear and hurt of the Emmaus Road Heart to McDougall United Church. Christ is bringing them to us and is inviting us to keep up as He moves in Emmaus Road Hearts.

Notes

(1) “Staff Very Rev. John C. Giel.” Holy Family Catholic Community. n.d., 11 April 2021. <https://holyfamilyorlando.com/staff/john-c-giel/>.

(2)“CCTN Homily-Third Sunday of Easter (05/08/11).” Catholic Television for Central Florida YouTube Channel. n.d., 11 April 2021. <https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=swMqVH9T240>.

(3) William Barclay. The New Daily Study Bible: The Gospel of Luke. Kindle ed. (Louisville: Westminster John Knox Press, 2001), e-book.

(4) Barclay (2001), e-book.

(5) “Will Willimon.” Wikipedia. 09 April 2012, 12 April 2012.

<https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/William_Henry_Willimon>.

(6) Will Willimon. “May 4, 2014 – Third Sunday of Easter.” Duke Memorial UMC. 13 May 2014, 12 April 2021. <https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RfJhnwuaWMw>.

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sadmmann · 5 years ago

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Life lost in the club Pulse

Today and every day we remember 49 innocent victims lost 3 years ago in Orlando, June 12, 2016. part 1

Edward Sotomayor Jr, 34

Edward was a caring, energetic man known for wearing a silly top hat on cruises, Edward worked for a company that held gay cruises and often travelled to promote the company’s events.

Stanley Almodovar III, 23

Stanley worked as a technician in a pharmacy, he was described as “good, but impudent” and a person who is not indifferent to his own sexual identity. "He was so proud of who he was."

Luis Omar Ocasio-Capo, 20

Luis described himself as a dancer on his Facebook account. Following the terrorist attack at the Bataclan theatre in Paris last year, he showed solidarity with the victims by adding a tricolour filter to his profile photo. A former teacher described him as a ‘ray of sunshine’.

Juan Ramon Guerrero, 22

Guerrero worked as a telemarketer, and was in school at the University of Central Florida. He was attending Pulse with his boyfriend, Christopher Andrew “Drew” Leinonen, who also died in the attack. “Juan and Drew were soul mates, and they were great together,”

Eric Ivan Ortiz-Rivera, 36

After moving to Florida from Puerto Rico for the chance of a better life, Eric , a merchandise manager, was said to have ‘sacrificed himself a lot for his family’, the Orlando Sentinel reported. ‘Eric was always willing to help everybody. He loved his brother, and he was always being generous.’

Peter O. Gonzalez-Cruz, 22

Peter worked for logistics company UPS in Orlando after graduating from Colonia High School. Originally from South Africa.

Luis S. Vielma, 22

Luis worked on the Harry Potter ride at Universal Studios, according to author JK Rowling, who said she could not ‘stop crying’ after hearing the news. Friends told the Orlando Sentinel that Mr Vielma was a ‘true friend’, and he had hoped to become an emergency medical technician. One, Olga Glomba, described him as ‘a funny, sweet, nerdy guy without a mean side. He just wanted to make people smile.’

Kimberly Morris, 37

Morris, a bouncer at the nightclub, was a former basketball player at Post University in Connecticut. “She was tough and played hard on the basketball court but off the court she was all smiles.” “She always had a smile on her face,”

Franky Velazquez, 50

DeJesus was a professional dancer who had danced in Puerto Rico and had traveled the world. “Jimmy was lovable, outgoing,” his sister, Sarah Lopez, tells. “He was one of those guys that you wanted to be friends with, you know? One of those people who brightened a room when he walked in.

Xavier Emmanuel Serrano Rosado, 35

Rosado was the father of a 5-year-old child and also a professional dancer, specializing in salsa. Close friend tells that he used to dance for Disney and Universal Studios. “He was a great, great father,” she says. “He was just the most fun, happiest guy you could ever know.”

Javier Jorge-Reyes, 40

Jorge-Reyes had a passion for life, according to friend. Ortiz met Jorge-Reyes, who was originally from Puerto Rico, through her practice, and says, “He was so funny and so alive and savvy.” “He had an extreme talent for the arts and was very creative with makeup,” she shares.

Shane Evan Tomlinson, 33

Tomlinson was a lead singer in Frequency Band, a local cover band that performed top 40 songs, according to longtime friend Jai Saint. “He has a great voice, he is so popular around here. Honestly it’s hard not to enjoy his voice,” Saint tells of his best friend of 10 years. “He’s extremely positive, he’s all about life and living it to the fullest. He had amazing energy, which is hard to come by these days.” Tomlinson graduated from East Carolina University in 2003 with a Bachelor of Science degree in Communication with a minor in Business Administration.

Eddie Jamoldroy Justice, 30

Justice worked as an accountant and lived in downtown Orlando. He loved accessorizing with flashy jewelry and loved making others laugh. Justice’s mother Mina received texts from her son throughout the shooting as he hid in the bathroom. At one point he wrote, “He’s coming. I’m gonna die.”

Darryl Roman Burt II, 29

Burt was a member of the Jacksonville Jaycees, a young professional’s group in Florida. “He was personable, social and easy going,”. “Both socially and professionally he was always interested in making positive impact on people’s lives and in the community.” A hard worker, Burt had recently been recommended for a position on the Jaycee’s Board of Directors.

Deonka Deidra Drayton, 32

Drayton, had been through rough times, a friend tells, but was pulling herself together and was happy living in Orlando.

Anthony Luis Laureano Disla, 25

Disla was a talented dancer, who excelled in a variety of styles including salsa, mambo, tango or ballroom was in Orlando to pursue a career as both a dancer and choreographer. His mother, Olga M. Disla, tells: “He was lovely, kind and respectful of others all the time. He liked to help anyone who needed help.”

Jean Carlos Mendez Perez, 35

Perez, born in Puerto Rico, was obsessed with fitness and loved testing out new fragrances, Agudelo said. He met his longtime partner Luis Daniel Wilson-Leon at the store. Wilson-Leon was also a victim of the shooting. Friend Marisa tells, “Nicest guy you’d ever meet. Both of them, actually. They were magnetic. They’d walk into the room and everyone would turn to look, because they were just so handsome.”

Luis Daniel Wilson-Leon, 37

Wilson-Leon was the manager of a shoe store and longtime love of fellow victim Perez. “They faced the odds, Luis came from Puerto Rico and being gay isn’t totally accepted, obviously here, but it’s not totally accepted there as well,” his cousin Luis Wilson tells. “He is an inspiration. He grew up conflicted but found peace with himself and those around him and he finally had found acceptance and love. Finally found it. And now look.”

Amanda Alvear, 25

Alvear was attending school to be a nurse, and has recently been promoted to the lead pharmacy technician at the pharmacy where she worked, Shannon Marie Baxley, her sister-in-law, tells. “She loved the gay community, the LGBT community. She was straight herself but those were her people, those were her family. She was a magnetic person,” Baxley shares. “She was the loveliest girl, just the sweetest girl.”

Martin Benitez Torres, 33

Longtime friend of Torres, tells that he just had moved to Florida at the end of the last year to continue working for Hertz. He was also studying marketing at Sistema Universitario Ana G Mndez. “He was one of a kind,” she shares. “He was always a person that you could talk to. He was our confidant. He was always surrounded by all of us. We were all women where we used to work, so we used to laugh with him, we used to cry with him. He was a good friend.”

Jerald Arthur Wright, 31

Wright worked in the Magic Kingdom at Walt Disney World. Another person who worked with him added that he was “hard-working” and “loved his job.” “He was one of the first to say hi and make us smile and laugh,”

Cory James Connell, 21

Connell enjoyed playing football and basketball and had dreams of becoming a firefighter. While still in pursuit of that dream, Connell studied at Valencia Community College in Orlando and worked stocking shelves at the Publix in Orlando’s Edgewater neighborhood.

Brenda Lee Marquez McCool, 49

McCool, was battling leukemia when her life was cut short, her niece, Neila Rodriguez, tells. At Pulse with her son Isaiah, McCool was shot in the back and told him to “just run, go.” “She was a cool mom. She was really down-to-earth and open-minded.”

#pulse #orlando #Shooting #memory #club Pulse #victims

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siryouarebeingmocked · 5 years ago

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A Democratic candidate for a Florida House seat in Seminole County told an audience at a gun safety town hall in March that she worked as an emergency room physician on the night of the Pulse nightclub shooting and removed scores of bullets from dozens of shooting victims.

“It was one of hardest things to work through in my career,” C. Elizabeth McCarthy says in a video of the March 21 forum posted on U.S. Rep. Darren Soto’s Facebook page. “That night of Pulse, I personally removed 77 bullets from 32 victims. ... It was like an assembly line.”

But according to the Florida Department of Health, McCarthy has never been issued a license of any type by the state agency to practice medicine in Florida.

Officials at Orlando Health — the parent company of Orlando Regional Medical Center, where nearly all of the victims from the June 12, 2016, Pulse shooting were treated — said they have no records of McCarthy working there. [...]

Florida House candidate claims she removed 77 bullets from 32 Pulse victims but can’t prove she’s a doctor - Orlando Sentinel | http://archive.is/RTCwJ

http://www.watermarkonline.com/2019/06/26/florida-house-candidate-elizabeth-mccarthys-credibility-questioned/

Watermark reached out to McCarthy to clear up the questions about her history with Orlando Health. McCarthy replied with an email, stating “No thank you, appreciate you asking.”

Several notable members of the LGBTQ community who have taken to social media to call for answers from McCarthy include Florida House Rep. Carlos Guillermo Smith, LGBT+ Center Orlando Executive Director George Wallace and prominent LGBTQ physician Dr. Rafael E. Pinero.

“It seems like we all have been deceived. She should be asked to step down from any political and leadership position at this point,” wrote Pinero.

http://www.watermarkonline.com/2019/06/28/elizabeth-mccarthy-suspends-campaign-for-florida-house-district-28-seat/

#guns #gun control #liar #politics #Florida #Orlando

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beatrice-otter · 5 years ago

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Longfic Recs, part II

Yet more recs, mostly longfic

Something Like This (285755 words) by emmagrant01 Chapters: 47/47 Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eric Bittle/Jack Zimmermann, Eric Bittle/OMC, Kent Parson/Jack Zimmermann, Kent Parson/OMC, Alicia Zimmermann/Bob Zimmermann, Larissa "Lardo" Duan/Shitty Knight, OMC/OMC, Jack Zimmermann/OMC, Camilla Collins/Jack Zimmermann Characters: Jack Zimmermann, Eric Bittle, Shitty Knight, Larissa "Lardo" Duan, Original Characters, Adam "Holster" Birkholtz, Justin "Ransom" Oluransi, Taylor Whitton, Kent "Parse" Parson Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, canon-typical alcohol use, Angst, Demisexual Character, Slow Burn, Jack is oblivious, Bitty dates other guys, Anxiety, Jealousy, Coming Out, not hockey rpf but real teams and real people make appearances, Canon-Typical Drug Use, Happy Ending, Pining, so much horrible pining, and SMUT, so much smut omg, Fluffy Smut, Infidelity, Hockey, Not-totally-an-asshole Parse, flangst, really long fic, goes AU after sophomore year, Consensual Infidelity, You Can Play, a year in the life of Jack Zimmermann, Inspired by Real Events, The 2016 Orlando Shooting Series: Part 1 of Something Like This Summary:

Jack thought his first year in the NHL would be 100% about hockey, but the reality is so much more complicated. (AU where the Goodbye for the Summer comics didn’t happen, because I had already written 80K words of this. But just because it’s canon doesn’t mean we can’t still enjoy long, angsty, get-together stories, amirite?)

Alternate summary, courtesy of Dracavia: What if Bad Bob didn't say anything at graduation?

of the nature of the wound (33936 words) by decinq Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Eric Bittle/Jack Zimmermann, Larissa "Lardo" Duan/Shitty Knight, Jamie Benn/Tyler Seguin, Jack Zimmermann & Kent Parson, Hockey Ensemble - Relationship Additional Tags: Jack Knew First, athletics and mental health, media relations, Closeted Character Series: Part 1 of the messes of men

Summary:

His first year in the NHL isn't easy, but Jack has spent his entire life playing through the hurt.

Pass It On (9241 words) by thefourthvine, knight_tracer Fandom:Hockey RPF Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin, Jamie Benn/Tyler Seguin Additional Tags: Podfic, Audio Format: MP3, Audio Format: Streaming, Podfic Length: 45-60 Minutes Summary:

Ninety percent of everyone's problems could be solved by a robot that just texted NO to hockey players on a regular basis. Unfortunately, Sidney didn't have a robot.

taken by the sea (100495 words) by notamagnet Chapters: 2/2 Fandom:Hockey RPF Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Patrick Kane/Jonathan Toews, Danny Briere/Claude Giroux, Duncan Keith/Brent Seabrook, Sidney Crosby/Original Male Character

Characters: Sidney Crosby, Evgeni Malkin, Kris Letang, Marc-Andre Fleury, Patrick Kane, Jonathan Toews, Jarome Iginla, Danny Briere, Claude Giroux, Colby Armstrong Additional Tags: Pittsburgh Penguins, Chicago Blackhawks

Summary: Sidney wasn't looking for love, he was just looking to play hockey again, but he found Ryan anyway. (Sidney Crosby/OMC)

All For One (121996 words) by ironychan Fandom:The Avengers (Marvel Movies),Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Laura Kinney

Summary: While tracking down a weapons-smuggling operation in Florida, Steve Rogers stumbles across a dead body - HIS dead body. When he, Sam, and Natasha investigate, they discover a conspiracy bigger and more bizarre than anything HYDRA has thrown at them yet.

The Not-Christmas Not-Truce of 1944 (1416 words) by dropdeaddream Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes & Howling Commandos, James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: A Cow Additional Tags: untimely off-screen animal death, Actual New Yorker Steve Rogers, Actual New Yorker James Barnes

Summary: Bucky stabs a man in the neck.

The cow moos.

Badgering the Lawyers (6053 words) by Shrewreadings Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:The Avengers (2012) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, Clint Barton/Phil Coulson Characters: Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson, Clint Barton, Bruce Banner Additional Tags: Team, Original Character(s), Badgers Series: Part 1 of Badger-Verse Summary: All that’s unusual about the Tuesday is the badgers. Everything else is pretty normal for SHIELD.

Sure Movin' Down the Line (20173 words) by circ_bamboo Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe,The Avengers (Marvel Movies),Captain America (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Maria Hill/Sam Wilson Characters: Sam Wilson (Marvel), Maria Hill, T'Challa, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Natasha Romanov Additional Tags: Canon Character of Color, Male Friendship, Latina Maria Hill, Race-related themes

Summary: Sam Wilson needs his wings fixed. Steve Rogers thinks he knows a guy who can do that, but as it turns out, Tony Stark didn't make the wings. He knows who did, though: T'Challa, the king of Wakanda and the genius behind the Wakandan Design Group. Sam, along with Rhodey and Maria Hill, goes to London to meet T'Challa . . . where unexpected dangers await them.

The Night Has Seen Your Mind (105030 words) by bomberqueen17 Chapters: 11/11 Fandom:Marvel Cinematic Universe,Captain America (Movies) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers/Sam Wilson Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanoff, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, OCs Additional Tags: Memory Loss, Memory Alteration, Panic Attacks, Epistolary, Public Relations, Pining, Social Media, modern life adjustment, OT3, OT4, Selfies, self-redemption, Bucky Barnes Returns, Bucky Barnes Remembers, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, Natasha Feels, Protective Natasha, Steve Needs a Hug, Awesome Sam Wilson, Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Ensemble Cast, close 3rd person POV, POV Alternating, winter widow - Freeform, Freebird - Freeform, Pop music, strong OCs, Bucky Barnes Feels, Bucky Holds Himself At Gunpoint, bucky has opinions on rap

Series: Part 1 of Choice Is Not A Word A Bullet Knows

Summary: Steve and Sam return from a futile tour of the globe on the heels of the ghost of the Winter Soldier to find a pile of postcards with the names of confirmed-killed HYDRA agents waiting at Stark Tower: mission reports from the ghost to the only commanding officer he still feels he has. All of it is set to culminate in New York City... if Bucky can remember what he set up.

With some Clint/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha, Steve/Sam pining, a whole bunch of friendship dynamics, gratuitous pop culture references (Bucky is obsessed with pop music, as a coping strategy), slash, het, and a lot of cussing.

I Came to Win (13718 words) by Philyra Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Pepper Potts, Melinda May, Christine Everhart, Maya Hansen, Maria Hill, Natasha Romanov, Victoria Hand, Carol Danvers, Bobbi Morse, Jessica Drew, Tony Stark, Nick Fury, Darcy Lewis, Betty Ross Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Hockey, Women Being Awesome, Female Friendship, Podfic Available Series: Part 1 of Get ready for it

Summary: Pepper Potts inherits a failing hockey team at 25. She builds her staff and team her way, screw what anyone else thinks. She wants a Stanley Cup.

Known Associates (294881 words) by thingswithwings Chapters: 9/9 Fandom:Marvel Cinematic Universe,The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers, James "Rhodey" Rhodes/Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers/Sam Wilson, Steve Rogers/various OCs, Bruce Banner & Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov, Maria Hill/Natasha Romanov (background), Tony Stark/Pepper Potts/James "Rhodey" Rhodes (background)

Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Peggy Carter, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Natasha Romanov, Sam Wilson, Bruce Banner, Nick Fury, Maria Hill, Arnie Roth, Pepper Potts, Tony Stark

Additional Tags: gender performance, queer 1940s Brooklyn, Fairy!Steve, femme!Steve, stevefeels, Union Organizing, Protests, Socialism, superhero ethics, queer ethics, queer friendships, queer communities, Found Family, collective action, Polyamory, Genderqueer Character, Pacifism, Makeup, Pretty Clothes, dressing up, Drawing, Portraiture, Military Kink, Food Kink, coming out stories, staying in stories, joyful sex work, degrading sex work, Homophobia, Heterosexism, Racism, gender essentialism, Femmephobia, Ableism, Racial slurs, LGBT slurs, Body Dysphoria, canon forced masculinization, non-consensual experimentation on people, Experimentation on Children, children in peril, child death (offscreen and brief), Eugenics, Police Brutality, criminalized homosexuality, military segregation, Canon character deaths, OC character deaths, Everyone Is Poly Because Avengers, everyone is queer because Steve, Steve Rogers: Cartoonist of the Revolution, Steve Rogers: power bottom, Steve Rogers' Fighting Queers, bad becomes worse-good becomes great-queer becomes superqueer

Summary: Steve Rogers isn't a self-made man.

Or, how a tough little Brooklyn fairy got turned into Captain America, and then turned back.

Brooklyn Boys (8332 words) by SleepsWithCoyotes Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe,Captain America (Movies),The Avengers (Marvel Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Jotunheim Beast, Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Friday (Marvel) Additional Tags: Gen or Pre-Slash, Not Captain America: Civil War (Movie) Compliant

Summary: The stray picks up a stray.

Orbit (35580 words) by Primarybufferpanel Chapters: 22/22 Fandom:Mad Max Series (Movies),Mad Max: Fury Road Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Furiosa/Max Rockatansky, Furiosa & Max Rockatansky Characters: Max Rockatansky, Furiosa (Mad Max), Cheedo the Fragile, Toast the Knowing, The Dag (Mad Max), Capable (Mad Max), The Vuvalini, The Ace (Mad Max), Keeper of the Seeds (Mad Max), Bolt the three-legged dog, Miss Giddy (Mad Max)

Additional Tags: Post-Movie(s), Max is not good at having Feels, Slow Burn, Boltcutters are the new symbol of the Citadel, Recovery, Healing, Past Rape/Non-con, Sexual Content, Miss Giddy is the tattoo artist of the Citadel, Keeper of the Seeds is Max's newest ghost, Worldbuilding, Forehead Touching

Summary: Max thought he'd never want to see the Citadel again. And yet here he is and he isn't sure why. Furiosa greets him like this was always the plan, like he is one of her scouts. She looks strong and healthy again, recovered from her wound. Perhaps that is what he came to see?

He tells himself: 'One day. Supplies and water and food'. And then 'Maybe a night rest'.

Three days later he drives away, determined not to return.

(Three months later the Citadel comes into sight again)

Wizardry By Consent (61991 words) by Sixthlight Chapters: 5/5 Fandom:Rivers of London - Ben Aaronovitch Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Peter Grant/Thomas Nightingale Characters: Peter Grant, Thomas Nightingale, Cecelia Tyburn Thames, Abigail Kamara, Original Characters Additional Tags: Future Fic, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, the Senior Officer Peter AU, also featuring, Lesley May - Freeform, Beverley Brook - Freeform, Molly - Freeform, and the rest of the Usual Suspects Series: Part 1 of The Senior Officer Peter AU

Summary: Fifteen years after a headless body was discovered in Covent Garden, Thomas Nightingale is still the last wizard in Britain, and Peter Grant, newly appointed Commander for Community Engagement in the Metropolitan Police Service, has just learned the truth about the existence of the Folly.

He has one or two questions.

Like Ephraim and Menasheh (2921 words) by Starlightify Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:DCU Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jonathan Kent/Martha Kent Characters: Jonathan Kent, Martha Kent, Clark Kent Additional Tags: Alien Biology, Trans Character, Autism, Disabled Character, neurodivergent character, Parent-Child Relationship, Jewish Character, martha and jonathan kent's adventures in raising a space baby Series: Part 1 of repairing the world

Summary: There's not exactly a manual on how to raise a space baby. Martha and Jonathan do the best they can.

All the Roofs of Uncertainty (70065 words) by Kieron_ODuibhir Chapters: 12/12 Fandom:Batman (Comics),Batman - All Media Types,DCU Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dick Grayson & Jason Todd, Jason Todd & Leslie Thompkins, Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Jason Todd, Dick Grayson, Wally West, Leslie Thompkins, Tim Drake, Damian Wayne, Bruce Wayne, Stephanie Brown, Cassandra Cain, Sasha | Scarlet

Additional Tags: Brothers, Blood, Reconciliation, Red Hood - Freeform, Nightwing - Freeform, Hurt/Comfort, You were always the Golden Boy, appearances by Superman and Impulse II, cameos by Static and Bulleteer, Everybody loves Dick Grayson, Angst, Rage, you made a choice, parenting, Wally West is the worst combat therapist, also featuring cameo by Shazam!, Families of Choice, Alfred and Leslie taught Bruce how to be a parent, which might explain a lot, gratuitous canon, Now with added Batman, now with possibly too much Batman, what even is an antihero anyway?, insufferable big brother jason todd, the girls are sadly only in the epilogue

Summary: For all the blood on his hands, Red Hood was never just a villain. And Nightwing never gives up on family, not for good.

(Or: The one where Dick bleeds a lot and Jason argues with everybody.)

In all your wanderings (16073 words) by MirandaTam Chapters: 11/11 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Shmi Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker, Qui-Gon Jinn, Padmé Amidala, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Yoda, Mace Windu, Darth Maul, Dooku (Star Wars) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Slavery, Jedi Shmi, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, that's the plan at least, Shmi is the best jedi tbh Series: Part 1 of Jedi Shmi AU

Summary: Passion, yet serenity.

Shmi leaves Tatooine with Anakin and goes to the Jedi Temple.

Hindsight is Not Perfect (61864 words) by DAsObiQuiet Chapters: 13/13 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy,Star Wars Original Trilogy Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, onesided - Relationship Characters: Anakin Skywalker | Darth Vader, Luke Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Shmi Skywalker, Watto (Star Wars), Qui-Gon Jinn, Padmé Amidala, Yoda, Siri Tachi, Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Finis Valorum, Panaka (Star Wars), Mace Windu

Additional Tags: Time Travel, Fix-It of Sorts, Time Travel Fix-It, Redemption, Well he tries Series: Part 1 of Force of Many Sights

Summary: Paved with good intentions or not, the road back from Hell is a difficult, slippery slope for those who choose to walk it as Anakin has. Now he has to face the consequences of his choices, avoid suspicion of everyone from the Jedi Council to Palpatine and try to prevent the future from turning out as badly Before all while somehow finding a way to balance the Force... again!

have you heard (42166 words) by peradi Chapters: 8/8 Fandom:Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Poe Dameron/Finn, Poe Dameron/Finn/Rey Characters: Poe Dameron, Finn, Phasma, Hux, Kylo Ren, Stormtroopers, Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Rey, Han Solo, Snoke Additional Tags: stories, Revolution, The First Order Sucks, stormtroopers - Freeform, Propaganda, finn is the patron saint of revolution, fn-2187 was a storm trooper Series: Part 1 of once there was Summary: "I heard FN-2187 was a Stormtrooper."

Finn sparks a revolution.

Fundamental Force Carriers (87796 words) by tanarill Chapters: 13/13 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy,Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types,Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker & Ahsoka Tano, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker & Yoda

Characters: Anakin Skywalker | Darth Vader, Ahsoka Tano, Obi-Wan Kenobi, The Son (Clone Wars), The Father (Clone Wars), Yoda, Mace Windu, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Padmé Amidala, CT-7567 | Rex, CT-5597 | Jesse, CT-6116 | Kix, Aang (Star Wars), OMC, OFC, Jocasta Nu, Quinlan Vos, Asajj Ventress, Pong Krell, Ki-Adi-Mundi, Plo Koon, R2-D2, Dooku | Darth Tyranus, Grievous | Qymaen jai Sheelal, CC-2224 | Cody, Saesee Tiin, Oppo Rancisis, Adi Gallia, Even Piell, Han Solo, Kit Fisto, Agen Kolar, Shaak Ti

Additional Tags: Time Travel, Alternate Universe - Time Travel, Fix-It, Time Travel Fix-It, Lightsabers, Meditation, Feels, Training, Jedi Training, Lightsaber Battles, The Force, The Dark Side of the Force, BAMF!Anakin, Clones, News Media, Mental Health Issues, Therapy, Mathematics, Quantum Mechanics

Series: Part 1 of Probability Matrices

Summary: The Sith Lord Darth Vader lived his life. He probably didn't live it well, but he lived it as well as he knew how. At the end there, he'd even managed to woman up and kill Sidious. But he was dying, and at peace with the past.

The past wasn't at peace with him.

Brooklyn Boys (8332 words) by SleepsWithCoyotes Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Marvel Cinematic Universe,Captain America (Movies),The Avengers (Marvel Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Jotunheim Beast, Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Friday (Marvel) Additional Tags: Gen or Pre-Slash, Not Captain America: Civil War (Movie) Compliant

Summary: The stray picks up a stray.

4 Minute Window (24127 words) by Speranza Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Natasha Romanov, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Peggy Carter Additional Tags: Surveillance, It's Like Grand Central Station In Here, Brooklyn Boys, Power Couple, People Are Sick of Conceptual Art Series: Part 1 of 4 Minute Window

Summary: "Look, if they catch me," Bucky muttered, "they're either going to kill me or they're going to put me in a box with a little window and—Steve, I can't."

This, You Protect (64326 words) by owlet Chapters: 33/33 Fandom:Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Tony Stark, Jarvis (Iron Man movies), Pepper Potts, Clint Barton Additional Tags: Humor, I hope humor anyway, cursing, Protection, Strong feelings about coffee, slightly off-canon, Steve is sassy, sam is sassy, Bucky is sassy, Everyone has their sassy pants on, just accept that grilled cheese is the perfect food, old people are Team Bucky Series: Part 1 of Infinite Coffee and Protection Detail

Summary: The mission resets abruptly, from objective: kill to objective: protect

Ain't No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) (107076 words) by spitandvinegar Chapters: 10/10 Fandom:Captain America - All Media Types,Marvel Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Original Characters, Pepper Potts, Matt Murdock, Franklin "Foggy" Nelson, Claire Temple

Additional Tags: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Drug Abuse, Homelessness, Jewish Bucky Barnes, Catholic Steve Rogers, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Artist Steve Rogers, Identity Issues, POV Alternating, Not Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie) Compliant, because I am a desert pony that runs as wild and free as the wind, Period Typical Attitudes, Masturbation, Past Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers, original kid characters, a coupla goddamn kids, Pinkberry, Past Rape/Non-con

Series: Part 2 of Ain't No Grave

Summary: It's six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone.

For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don't. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It's very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters.

I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU.

Steve sits down hard on the steps.

Don't Stop Believing (205901 words) by kianspo Chapters: 11/11 Fandom:Star Trek (2009),Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James T. Kirk/Spock, Christopher Pike/Spock, Spock/Nyota Uhura Additional Tags: Action/Adventure, First Time, Angst, Drama, Ensemble Cast, Slow Burn, Enemies to Friends to Lovers Series: Part 2 of Don't Stop Believing

Summary: The story follows Spock from his own days as a cadet at Starfleet Academy to the ‘present day’ when he’s Kirk’s first officer and the Enterprise is on its five-year mission. Essentially, the story of Spock’s first real love followed by the story of him finding the love of his life. Ad astra per aspera.

Kal'i'farr heh T'naehm (11198 words) by sixbeforelunch Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Star Trek, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Original Female Character/Original Male Character Characters: Original Vulcan Character(s) Additional Tags: Vulcan, Vulcan Culture, Alien Culture, Pon Farr, Marriage, The Dominion War - Freeform, world building, action takes place over a single day, tight focus, tight 3rd person POV, Ordinary People, Little Brothers, Big Sisters, architecture nerds, linguistics nerds, Sherlock Holmes fans, Clans, alien ceremonies, Arranged Marriage, Alien Food, Food, Cooking, Telepathy, Mental bonds, Telepathic Bonds, Parents and Children, Communication, no canon characters Series: Part 1 of Pi'maat Summary: A meditation on marriage and war, from a Vulcan perspective, on the eve of the Dominion War.

Stubborn Mouths: Humans In Translation (62940 words) by Hannah Chapters: 23/23 Fandom: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Julian Bashir/Elim Garak Characters: Julian Bashir, Elim Garak, Jadzia Dax, Odo (Star Trek), Kira Nerys, Quark (Star Trek), Miles O'Brien, Keiko O'Brien, Benjamin Sisko, Minor Characters

Additional Tags: Disability, Disabled Character of Color, Autism, Canon Character of Color, Neurodiversity, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Alien Cultural Differences, Judaism, Jews In Space, exploring replicator limitations, Literary References & Allusions, Neko Case - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Autistic Character

Summary: If you’re sending yourself out to the edge of civilization, people expect it to be done for fame and glory – but then, Julian Bashir has never been what’s expected of him. He’s quite happy to agree with the reasons other people provide, because he isn’t sharing the private whys and wherefores when people are more than happy to fill in the gaps themselves. There are other, better things to worry about, work to be done and friends to be made – possibly even a lover, if he’s lucky…

...all while fighting to maintain his worth, and remain exactly who he’s always been.

A Bit Too Much Good Work (96074 words) by a_t_rain Chapters: 25/25 Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Rish/Byerly Vorrutyer Characters: Byerly Vorrutyer, Rish, Ivan Vorpatril, Alys Vorpatril, Tej Arqua Vorpatril, Donna Vorrutyer | Dono Vorrutyer Additional Tags: Politics, Case Fic, Class Issues, Book: Captain Vorpatril's Alliance, Imperial Security, Spies & Secret Agents, Cultural Differences

Summary: Behind the scenes of Captain Vorpatril's Alliance, Byerly grapples with bomb threats, Council of Counts politics, fallout from a previous case, and the difficulty of maintaining a romance when one's profession blurs the lines between lovers, colleagues, witnesses, and suspects.

Rise Up (2711 words) by hollimichele Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Sleepy Hollow (TV), Hamilton - Miranda Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Ichabod Crane, Abbie Mills (Sleepy Hollow), Alexander Hamilton Additional Tags: RPF, sort of? technically? Series: Part 1 of Don't Be Shocked When Your Hist'ry Book Mentions Me Summary: “I call bullshit,” Abbie said, ten steps into the secret crypt beneath Trinity Church.

Honor Among Thieves (225021 words) by Bracketyjack Chapters: 8/8 Fandom:Honor Harrington Series - David Weber Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Additional Tags: Alternative Universe - Canon Divergence Summary: An Alternative Honorverse Novel.

I know the extended story-arc is one of the great glories of the Honorverse, but haven't you ever, ploughing through the latest best-selling doorstop, wanted radically to short-circuit the whole thing, and see those morally defective, small-souled Manticoran aristocrats taken down hard? And all Detweilers and Kolokoltsovs whatsoever fed to a vengeful passel of treecats, with BBQ sauce? I know I have ...

Going Native (151814 words) by Rap541 Chapters: 67/67 Fandom:Battlestar Galactica (2003),Star Trek: The Next Generation Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Felix Gaeta, Kara "Starbuck" Thrace, Lee "Apollo" Adama, Anastasia "Dee" Dualla, William Adama, Laura Roslin, Jean-Luc Picard, Saul Tigh, William Riker, Beverly Crusher, Worf (Star Trek:TNG/DS9), Reginald Barclay Additional Tags: Crossover, Fix-It Summary: What do you do when you're a lost Starfleet officer in the Beta Quadrant? You blend in and hope for the best.

Digging for the Bones by Paganaidd (203178 words) by Paganaidd Chapters: 62/62 Fandom:Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Characters: Severus Snape, Harry Potter Additional Tags: Severitus, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt, Panic Attack, Depression

Summary: Rather than allowing Harry to stay at Diagon Alley after he blew up Aunt Marge, the Ministry sends Harry back to the Dursleys. Harry returns to school after a terrible summer, to find that he's not the only one with this kind of secret. A student has been killed by his family. New screening measures are put into place by the Ministry: Every student must be given a medical exam and interview to look for child abuse. With Dumbledore facing an inquiry, Snape is entrusted with the task of making sure EVERYONE receives one.

The first chapter contains a character death and the whole story is quite dark. It begins at the beginning of Prisoner of Azkaban and is AU thereafter. Also note: this story is a "Snape is Harry's biological dad" story. This is not supposed to be the central theme of the story, but people have gotten annoyed that I didn't tell them at the beginning. D.S.S. Requirement by esama (30k) Harry Potter AU/Stargate The Dumbledore's Army use the Room of the Requirement to get themselves a spaceship.

The Best Revenge (and it's sequel) by Arsinoe de Blassenville, 213k and 108k Harry Potter AU. Yes, the old Snape retrieves Harry from the Dursleys formula. I just had to write one. Everything changes, because the best revenge is living well. T for Mentor Snape's occasional naughty language. Supportive Minerva.

There was an Old Woman Who Lived in a Shoe (77571 words) by Shoshanah-ben-hohim Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Hockey RPF Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin Characters: Evgeni Malkin, Sidney Crosby, Mario Lemieux, Sergei Gonchar Additional Tags: Ensemble Cast, Kid Fic, Original Character(s), Pittsburgh Penguins, Washington Capitals, St. Louis Blues, New York Rangers, Columbus Blue Jackets, 2018 Winter Olympics, Homophobia, Xenophobia, Child Neglect, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Mutual Pining Series: Part 1 of There was an Old Woman Who Lived in a Shoe

Summary: Amidst rising political tensions between Russia and NATO countries, the KHL and NHL failed to renew their labor agreement this summer. Due to the failed agreement and intense political pressure at home, the Russian NHL players do not return to the NHL.

By March, Geno has played almost a season in Russia, and accepts this is his new reality, no matter how much he misses Sid – until he finds the first child. This sets him and everyone he involves down a dangerous path of international intrigue. Flightless Birds by RedandGreen, 94k words Hockey RPF genderbender Sid's hair is a thing. It's her thing, and she's always a girl even when she's a hockey player. (tw: sexual assault)

Fastening One Heart to Every Falling Thing (51519 words) by thefourthvine Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Hockey RPF Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin, Evgeni Malkin/Alexander Ovechkin Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Soulbond, Trope Subversion/Inversion, Spacetoaster, Podfic Available, No Miracle Cure

Summary: Geno can't. Sidney won't.

To Bear is to Conquer Our Fate (106365 words) by Shem Chapters: 34/34 Fandom:Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen ating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Kitty Bennet/Fitzwilliam Darcy Characters: Kitty Bennet, Fitzwilliam Darcy Summary: The day after the Netherfield Ball, a simple walk through the countryside has wide reaching consequences for Mr Darcy and a certain young lady from Longbourn.

The Brighton Effect (74644 words) by Shem Chapters: 29/29 Fandom: Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen ating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Catherine Bennet/Other(s), Elizabeth Bennet/Fitzwilliam Darcy, Jane Bennet/Charles Bingley Series: Part 1 of The Effect Summary: Kitty's chance to go to Brighton with Lydia may just change everyone's fate

Fair Winds and Homeward Sail (49011 words) by Ione Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Persuasion - Jane Austen Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Admiral Croft/Sophia Croft, Anne Elliot/Frederick Wentworth Characters: Sophia Croft, Anne Elliot, Admiral Croft, Frederick Wentworth, Louisa Musgrove, Lady Russell, Mary Musgrove, Charles Musgrove, Captain Harville Additional Tags: The Royal Navy, References to Jane Austen, Regency Summary: Sophia Wentworth was devoted to her brothers before she found happiness. Then she wanted the same for Frederick . . .

Lydia, still (2719 words) by tree Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen, Star Trek: The Next Generation Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Lydia Bennet, Data (Star Trek), Jean-Luc Picard Additional Tags: Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Epistolary, Holodecks/Holosuites, I Don't Even Know Summary: Rocks fall. Everyone dies.

Except Lydia.

Square Peg in a Round Hole, or Junior Year of High School, Revised, A Clones Tale (42497 words) by MarbleGlove Chapters: 13/13 Fandom:Highlander: The Series,Stargate SG-1 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Methos, Clone Jack O'Neill, Daniel Jackson, Teal'c, General Hammond, Jack O'Neill Additional Tags: post Fragile Balance, Crossover Series: Part 1 of A Square Peg in a Round Hole Summary: Methos was just spending a year as a high school teacher; Jake O'Neil was just trying to be someone other than Jack O'Neill; neither are simple individuals.

Change Is Only The Beginning (78449 words) by ivorygates Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stargate SG-1 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jack O'Neill/Danielle Jackson Characters: Jack O'Neill, Danielle Jackson, Charlie Kawalsky, Ra (SG-1), Skaara (SG-1), Sha're (SG-1), Catherine Langford Additional Tags: Stargate the Movie AU, Girl!Daniel Summary: The One Where: Catherine Langford hired the wrong archaeologist for Project Giza, Dani Jackson joins a lesbian rock band, Jack isn't quite sure what he wants, and Gary Meyers gets a makeover.

AKA: Ivory Writes A Harlequin Romance...

Warning: incipient babies.

Said the Joker to the Thief (41898 words) by ivorygates, greenbirds Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Stargate SG-1,NCIS ating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Series: Part 1 of Joker'verse Summary: If this isn't the absolute worst Monday Gibbs has ever experienced, it's certainly in the top ten.

And do my spiriting gently (1478 words) by thinlizzy2 Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:The Tempest - Shakespeare ating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Characters: Ariel, Prospero, Miranda Summary: All is not as it seems on Prospero's island, but that is no coincidence. The island is Ariel's domain, and zie is the one who shapes the reality there.

World Ain't Ready (185796 words) by idiopathicsmile Chapters: 16/16 Fandom: Les Misérables - All Media Types Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Enjolras/Grantaire, background Courfeyrac/Jean Prouvaire - Relationship Characters: Grantaire (Les Misérables), Enjolras (Les Misérables), Éponine Thénardier, Jean "Jehan" Prouvaire, Courfeyrac (Les Misérables), Bahorel (Les Misérables), Marius Pontmercy, Cosette Fauchelevent, Joly (Les Misérables), Bossuet Laigle, Musichetta (Les Misérables) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - High School Summary: Enjolras presses his lips together. He already looks pained, and Grantaire hasn't even opened his mouth yet. That's got to be a record, even for them.

"I need a favor," he says at last.

"With what?" says Grantaire. "Ooh, are you forming a cult? Can I join? I'd be awesome at cults, I just know it." He ticks off his qualifications on his fingers. "I love chanting, I look great in robes—"

(High school AU. Grantaire the disaffected stoner is pulled into a cause bigger than himself. Or: in which there are pretend boyfriends for great justice.)

Admit Me, Chorus to This History (35091 words) by Morgyn Leri Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: 15th Century CE RPF,Henry V - Shakespeare Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Henry V of England/Blanche Stretton (OFC) Characters: Henry V of England, Henry IV of England, Thomas Beaufort, Henry Scroop, Katherine of Valois, John of Lancaster: Duke of Bedford, Humphrey of Lancaster: Duke of Gloucester, Blanche Stretton (OFC), James Stretton (OMC), Robert of Stretton (OMC) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, GFY, Don’t copy to another site Series: Part 1 of Mistress to Queen

Summary: An alternate history or alternate reality, if you will, wherein what some might call a romance is played out between a prince whose passions are power and war and a girl who wants nothing so much as family.

Hail Mary (191627 words) by galaxysoup Chapters: 23/23 Fandom:Supernatural Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Mary Winchester, Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Missouri Moseley, Jody Mills, Ephraim (Supernatural), Joshua (Supernatural), Malachi (Supernatural), Theo (Supernatural), Crowley (Supernatural), Ezekiel | Gadreel, Cain (Supernatural), Tara (Supernatural: First Born), Garth Fitzgerald IV, Charlie Bradbury, Dorothy Baum, Muriel (Supernatural), Jim Murphy, Ellen Harvelle, Jo Harvelle, Tamara (Supernatural), Isaac (Supernatural), Kevin Tran, Linda Tran, Rufus Turner, Deanna Campbell, Victor Henriksen, Caleb (Supernatural), Annie Hawkins, Bartholomew (Supernatural), Original Characters, Bela Talbot, Hannah (Supernatural)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, BAMF Mary Winchester, BAMF Castiel, POV Mary Winchester, Human Castiel, Male-Female Friendship, Post-Episode: s09e03 I'm No Angel, Angst, Action/Adventure, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Castiel, Canon-Typical Violence, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Sick Castiel, Minor Character Death, Apocalypse Series: Part 1 of Hail Mary-verse

Summary:Take one newly human ex-angel on the run from Heaven. Combine with one mysteriously resurrected and increasingly pissed off Mary Winchester. Add overtones of Apocalypse. Shake well.

she's gotta be strong to fight them (25476 words) by stars_inthe_sky Chapters: 7/7 Fandom:Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles,Terminator - All Media Types,Terminator (Movies),The Terminator (1984),Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Savannah Weaver, Sarah Connor, Lauren Fields, Sydney Fields, James Ellison, Martin Bedell, Jesse Flores, Original Characters, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Families of Choice, Unconventional Families, Mother-Daughter Relationship, Episode: s02e22 Born to Run, Training, Survival Training, Bechdel Test Pass, Apocalypse, Pre-Apocalypse, Alternate Timelines, Alternate Canon

Series: Part 1 of tell me where your strength lies

Summary: Sarah rises and hugs her so tightly that Savannah’s wet towel soaks through her sweater. “What did you mean, before, I saved your life?” Savannah asks, voice muffled by Sarah’s shoulder. “I didn’t do anything.”

After “Born to Run,” they’re just a kid without a mom and a mom without a kid. But a storm is still coming. (First in a series)

Through An Open Window (75068 words) by LMA Chapters: 34/34 Fandom: Babylon 5 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Valen (Jeffrey Sinclair)/Catherine Sakai, Sinclair & Delenn Characters: Valen (Jeffrey Sinclair), Catherine Sakai, Delenn, Draal, Zathras, Kosh Summary: Recounts the story of Jeffrey Sinclair's early years as Valen and his reunion with his fiancee Catherine Sakai; Delenn learns what happened to her friend by using the Great Machine. Originally published in 1996.

(The sequel is Summoned) Legend by ShayneT (100k words) Buffy/Star Trek TNG Summary: Trapped by an alien collector, Lieutenant Commander Data discovers an early 21st century android excavated from the ruins of Sunnydale and a capsule containing the frozen body of one of the Eugenic wars most notorious figures...Buffy Summers.

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I have had two REALLY SHITTY days. First off, my parents wanted to talk to me about moving back home which is something I am probably going to have to do even though I really don’t want to and if I move back to Florida, I probably won’t end back up in Colorado once everything is said and done which means I’ll loose my friends in Colorado, my dance troupe, and the museum stuff I’ve done. Basically wasted two years of my life which I already fucking knew but it’s like rubbing it in more. And moving back in with my parents means I won’t have any sort of buffer because my sister is moving to California to do her phD. I have no money. I have no choice. No one has called me up for an interview and I’m not going back to king soopers or another grocery store. I can’t fucking get a job to start with because I burned so many bridges because of mental health issues which I didn’t tell my advisor or graduate assistant-ship supervisor about until it was too late.

My home town is a fucking desolate wasteland. There’s nothing there. I won’t be able to afford to take dance classes and will probably have to travel at least an hour to do lolita community events. All my friends are in Orlando or Tampa which is two hours away. There’s no lgbt scene whatsoever and no real museums outside of the nature centers. My mom thinks I should apply for a job in the area and I don’t fucking want to. So yeah I had a fucking breakdown last night and couldn’t sleep because the thought of moving back home and having no buffer is terrifying. I can’t fucking cut my parents out of my life because I rely on them financially again and they are going to hold it over my head and they don’t understand. Just because my dad is disabled and is stubborn enough to work doesn’t mean he understands when I can’t fucking get out of bed because the only thing that I can think of is dying and wanting to die. And not to mention my parents and I fight over shit they did in the past and they won’t fucking ever own up to their mistakes and blame it all on me.

And now my camera is effectively broken and I can’t even go and take photos, something I was looking forward to doing because I didn’t have time during grad school. I can’t afford to fix it. The lens died that I use for portraits and landscapes so I can’t even freelance after the pandemic because the lens doesn’t work anymore and I don’t have the $200 to fix it so I’ve been very upset about it all day and crying on and off because there goes one of my hobbies and the one that’s easiest to monetize. I tried to go hiking and there were so many assholes with dogs off leash and I was constantly being approached by strange dogs and I hate that.

And then I went to the grocery store and honestly it made me pretty suicidal and I cried in the aisle. And then the grocery cashier (behind spit shield) starts coughing as she checks out my items and takes off her mask and takes a drink and doesn’t fucking wash her hands or change her gloves and continues to check me out. I about wigged out. I went and cried in my car because I literally can’t deal with people doing stupid shit and my camera is broken and my life is effectively over because I have to move home to butt fuck Florida to live with my parents. I have right now probably like $250 to my name. I can’t even get unemployment sorted out so I right now am not receiving any income outside of tutoring which is $70 every two weeks and my parents are going to have to pay for me to move home and my rent and I just want to die.

Everything I have been terrified of being has pretty much come true. I can’t support myself due to health. I’m moving back home and being a burden on my parents who fucking don’t try with my pronouns so hell yeah I’m going to be constantly misgendered and I’m too tried to even try to make them use the right ones. It only causes fucking fights. They be like “You need to realize you have a loving family that wants to help you.”

And now my roommate wants her stupid boyfriend to live with us and we live in a 2/1 apartment and I have been having regular breakdowns.

I can’t fix my camera. I can’t afford to live. I can’t get a job. I’m just waste of goddamn space.

#true facts about erin #tw suicide #cw suicide #tw abuse #cw abuse

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3halfs guy here. I've been having a slow motion freakout for the last few days. I think I'm a trans woman. I'm definitely not a man. I don't know what to do with that. I'm 30 and I'm scared that I wasted the best years of my life (and a failed marriage) not knowing myself. I can't come out. I live in florida and Orlando's great until you remember pulse and a red state's dangerous no matter what. My family's conservative and super transphobic. I don't even know what coming out would entail.

It's ok not to know exactly what to do with the realization once that "oh shit, I think my gender isn't what I thought it was" moment hits you. I know that in my own personal situation, I more or less had sneaking suspicions...that eventually turned into The full blown realization moment..which immediately resulted in my catapulting myself through a seemingly endless sequence of "what if" scenarios over the course of a week like some shitty Evel Knievel knock off motorcycle stunt.

What I didn't realize then that I wish I had known, was that you don't have to do anything that you're not comfortable with once you realize your gender is different from what you once may have thought. It's perfectly fine to just turn things around in your own mind til you feel like you've reached a stable understanding of yourself, there's no rules or regulations out there saying you have to do anything before you're 100% ready.

With regards to living in a red state, especially in an area that has the painful context that Orlando now has for the LGBT+ community, what I can say is that you're not alone in that. I would be surprised if there wasn't already an established trans community in the immediate Orlando area, or at the very least across the state of Florida itself.

One thing that we do benefit from now that we didn't have access to in past generations is that we've got the ability to form strong community ties across all kinds of geographic distances thanks to the Internet (not that it was completely impossible before, but you get what I mean here). Having those connections and that support network can make it easier to deal with having an unsupportive or outright transphobic family, or living in an area whose politics are not LGBT+ friendly - it helps to know you've got a much larger family out there made up of people who have been through some of those same struggles, and who you know you can be yourself with.

We all grow up hearing that the years before 30 are supposed to be about finding yourself, having fun and really getting to enjoy the experience of living...but in reality 30 isn't that old at all, and there's no reason why our 30s, 40s and 50s have to be any less fun, or exciting, or any less a viable time for discovering who you are. So many people grow up in circumstances that prevent them from actually enjoying their teens and 20s as it is, and honestly if we're at the point where we're shucking off society's assigned notion of what gender we're "supposed" to be? then who's to say we can't toss all that shit about 30 being too old to start living your best life out a window too?

Your life is far from over, and this could be the start of a new and exciting part of it for you - but you're the one holding the reigns at the end of the day. You don't have to come out, identify any certain way, medically or socially transition...any of it, unless you decide it's what you want and what you're comfortable doing at the time. Til then, it's ok to not have all the answers, and to keep tossing things around a bit til you feel like you've found something to build off of - whatever that looks like for you.

I hope some of this makes sense (I kinda just unloaded a bunch of stuff all at once, sorry about that!) and I hope the bits that make sense help you to feel a bit less overwhelmed in general. Take a deep breath, or several, and remind yourself sometimes to keep doing that going forward while you think things through. One day you're gonna look back and you're gonna feel amazed at how far you've come from how bad things can feel right now 🧡

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inkspillspot · 6 years ago

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Hot and Cold

Sander Sides Fanfiction,

Ships: Princnxiety

Flags/Warnings: Trans stuff, mention of violence, touching, anxiety, possibly triggering thoughts/jokes, minor cussing, slightly sexual jokes, (If there is anything else I should include PLEASE TELL ME)

Human AU, Trans!Virgil

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I should’ve known better than to agree to hang out on a day like this. I looked at the weather and I knew how unbearably hot it was going to be, but of course I said yes. Because when Roman video called me with those pleading puppy dog eyes and the desperate begging for attention, I couldn’t tell him no. Well, I probably could have, but I would have felt bad about it for the rest of my natural life.

Now we sit in uncomfortable closeness in his apartment, from opposite sides of the room. Roman is laying on his back on the tile of the kitchen floor, his limbs thrown out in random directions. I sit on top of the counter with a strong fan blowing directly into my face. It’s perfectly clear to me now, that when my whiny boyfriend was begging me to come over, the statement about his amazing air conditioner was a complete and utter lie.

In fact, the air conditioning unit seemed like it was going to fall apart at any moment.It stopped every few minutes without fail. It made odd sputtering sounds that made me jump no matter how much I was excepted them. It was basically a ticking time bomb, and when it went off we would surely die from the heat. Our funerals could be held on the same day, identical causes of death and all. At least the newspapers would get some pretty good headlines out of my mistake.

Two Florida Men are Killed by Air Conditioner Last Saturday

Pride Dies this Weekend In Orlando, The Cause?: Heat

10,000 Degree Weather Murders Two Orlando Men

God Smites Down Two Orlando Gays by Zapping One Air Conditioner

As I stay perched on the marble and ponder what the journalists might write to announce our comedic deaths, Roman rises from his place starfished out across the tile flooring. A bead of sweat drips from his perfect hairline.

“Love?” I just had the most amazing idea of my short, yet very fulfilling life!” He sounded absolutely exhausted, but still as proud as ever. He always reminds me of a cocky fantasy bard. Charming, proud, attractive, talented, but also horribly over-dramatic and extra. I can feel a thin layer of blush spread over my face at the pet-name’s use and I know the new smile on Roman’s face is a reaction to that.

“Oh damn. Me too. How about we give up on this whole living thing, and just perish.” His prideful expression turns into one of utter confusion. I love how, even after knowing him for such a long time, my cynical comments could confuse his so fucking much. He was never expecting it and his confused expression was adorable. This was pretty much the only time he would let down the cocky bard show. I loved making him confused like he loved to make me blush.

“No Love, no” He’s so fucking cute, if it wasn’t so hot I would get up and kiss him. Once again, I’m disappointed in the weather.

“Aww, is Princy confused?” As I speak I can feel a sly smile creeping over my lips. “Still not used to my humor?” A light blush covers his already rosy cheeks, and maybe, I like that just as much as the confusion.

“I am perfectly fine Virgil.” His reddened complexion doesn’t agree with his words. “Anyway, I have a great plan!’ He takes a few paces toward me and leans up against the counter. He blocks the relief from the fan, which is annoying, but I decide not to mention it.

“What?” The only good thing I can say about the heat is that Roman looks good exhausted and sweaty like this.

“You can’t guess? He seems legitimately disappointed that I can’t just read his mind.

“No, should I know?” My anxiety starts to act up. What could I have possibly forgotten about. It wasn’t his birthday because that was in the fall and it’s summer. Not one of our anniversaries because those are pretty much all in the winter. I’m missing something and I don’t like it.

“Ugh, baby,” Roman whines a little too loudly considering how close he is. “It was going to be a guessing game and it was going to be fun.” He hops onto the counter beside me, but he struggles to climb the marble. I laugh a bit, mostly because he’s the cutest person I’ve ever met, but also because he’s so cocky, yet he can’t get on a counter without help.

“Well, I’ve already ruined the game so you should just tell me.” I gently poke him in the side, earning a response in the form of rolling eyes.

“Okay, are you ready for the most brilliant idea of the century?” His hands are held out oddly in front of him. He looks like a forth grader really acting out their mediocre black cat costume at class halloween party.

“Yeah,” My answer comes out laced with slight giggling over his hand position.

“Where’s my countdown then?” He’s such a needy boy.

“3…2…1…”

“Swimming!” And I am suddenly bombarded with jazz hands. My heart almost stops, but not because of the sudden movement. “We can go cool off at the waterpark. And than I see you with messy towel dried hair after, which would be the most adorable thing in the known universe.” I know he’s trying to flirt and be cute, but he’s unintentionally made my perishing comment a reality.

I really should have told him sooner, but of course I just had to put it off. I guess I did try to tell him I’m trans once, but then I got nervous and he took that as flustered. He assumed I was trying to say ‘I love you’, which was true, but not exactly the first thing on my mind at the time. Also, that’s kind of a bad way to have your first ‘I love you’ exchange. Now, I’m either going to have to tell him the truth, or craft a convincing excuse.

“It’ll be crowded though…” My deception is apparently a -15 and I rolled a nat one because my tone resembled that of a terrified mouse. Probably because I’m close to crying. Roman, apparently has a zero in perception though because he doesn’t seem to notice the difference in my tone.

“So what? I’ll make sure that no boys hit on my lover, except myself of course.” He comes in for a kiss and when he gets close enough, he takes notice of the tears welling up in my eyes. A completely different look of confusion rises on his pretty face, and I’m not a fan of this one. “What’s wrong Love? We don’t have to go if you don’t want to.” His voice is steady as he attempts to calm me.

I feel even worse because of this. He actually thinks I’m crying on his kitchen counter because I don’t feel like going swimming today and I don’t know how to tell him otherwise without ruining everything. How do you go from jokes about perishing and complaining about the heat to coming out? How do you safely turn around a situation that’s surrounded by steep cliffs.

“That’s not- I’m not- That’s not the problem.” My voice is much less stable than intended and the words just don’t want to come out right.

“What’s wrong then?” He wraps an arm around me slowly, making sure that I’m okay with he contact by giving me the obvious chance to move away. I don’t deserve such an amazing man, especially when I’ve been pretty much lying to him for so long.

“I need to tell you something.” I keep my voice down, as if staying quiet will make the whole situation disappear. Unfortunately for me, Roman had always had perfect hearing.

“Alright, what is is darling?” His eyes are intense in a serious and caring way. I can’t help but to think about a different type of intensity in those eyes, an angrier one.

Here’s the thing about Roman. He’s always seemed to support the entirety of the LGBT+ community. He’ll wear all the flags to events, once including a trans flag colored bracelet that I loved. He’ll get into full on yelling matches with any protesters and aggressively praises everyone else. It was brave and amazing, but that doesn’t mean I can be sure he’ll support me. There’s a huge difference between supporting a community and having a partner in that community. I look up at him again and the tears fall freely from my eyes. I don’t think I could ever handle losing him.

“Sorry Roman, I just…” My unstable hands come up to wipe away the tears, Roman quickly takes over the job. I try to concentrate on stopping the sobs, crying isn’t going to help me if he ends up being mad. Pity isn’t something that would ever make him stay.

“It’s perfectly fine, what do you need to tell me?” His voice is calm and patient. This was the other type of situation that would make the bard act fall. He either had to be confused or his comforting therapist mode for me.

“I-I should have told you before he starting dating and now you’re going to hate me forever.” Any tears Roman managed to wipe away are swiftly replaced.

“How could I ever hate my perfect little boy?” He gives me a soft hug and pulls me into his body. This feels much better, but I can’t help to realize that this was a compromising position If he was mad and decided to hurt me because of it. I’ve read the news stories. I know the type of danger I could be putting myself in if I didn’t know Roman like I thought I did.

“I’m not Roman, I’m sorry, but I’m really not. I’m so sorry.” My breathing hitched and I lose the ability to form complete sentences for the time being.

“Oh, of course you still are baby. You could never do anything that would change that.” Another rush of shame courses through me because how could I have lied to such a supportive and loving person? What the fuck is wrong with me?

“I’m trans.” My voice is smaller than my self-confidence and that says a lot. Roman stays entirely silent and I know he heard me because of this. He’s not asking me to speak up, he’s not questioning me at all, and he’s defiantly not trying to comfort me anymore. He also hasn’t pushed me away yet.

The silence of moments like this always kill me. Roman says nothing for nearly two full minuets, but that one-hundred-twenty seconds feels more like years. It feels like the awkward length of time after you make a reference nobody understands. The kind of silence that’s as long as it is shaming. You know that the lack of noise is pure shunning. The stillness hanging in the air stings, as if it was actively giving me social frostbite without the warmth of words.

“Roman…” My former tears are suddenly just gone. Maybe my metaphorical chill froze them. Maybe the literal heat had evaporated them. When he finally speaks, I can’t bear to look at him.

“Which way?” Those were not the first words I was expecting.

“FTM.” The ‘F’ tastes bitter in my mouth, like one-hundred pecan dark chocolate.

“And you honestly though I would hate you because of that?” His voice still shows no sign of anger, actually he sounds hurt. What am I meant to say to that?

“Yeah, I-I guess that was dumb. I just- since you’re gay and I’m not…” I can’t finish the sentence.

“Don’t talk like that Virgil. You’re still my little boy. Nothing changes.” He sounds oddly cold, but not in a mean way. Cold as in like a computer. Like a machine still trying to process foreign information. Still, his words are comforting, and despite the heat starting to bother me again, I snuggle up to him more.

“You aren’t mad that I didn’t tell you sooner?” The fan’s cool breeze hits me as I put myself back into it’s range.

“No, I understand it’s probably a very difficult thing to do. Especially if you were convinced I’d hate you.” His hand rests on my leg, his fingers gently feeling the fabric of my shorts.

“Sorry anyways. I should have made sure that you were okay with this before we got together.” I feel Roman’s head fall sideways, resting on mine.

“I’m sorry if you felt like you couldn’t safely tell me.” His voice is smooth and at that moment, I remember exactly why I fell in love with him in the first place.

The room is silent once again, but this time it’s peaceful. We sit on his kitchen counter, holding each other and ignoring the heat as best we can. I know Roman will have a million and two questions for me later. I also know he understands that now isn’t the time to ask them. I feel a sense of blissful relief I haven’t experienced in a long time. It’s like I’d been holding my breath this whole relationship and now I’m breathing the fresh, free mountain air. The moment is perfect and warm, and not just because of the weather. I’m finally sure that everything is okay.

“Hey Ro?” My voice comes out in a purr of language.

“Yes handsome?” I can feel another wave of red wash over my features.

“I love you more than I love wolves.” I can practically feel the confusion spreading across his flawless face. Boy, does he have a lot of confusing trans related jokes to catch up on now that I can make them.

“I have absolutely no clue what you are referencing, but I love you as well.” He nuzzles against me, and everything is back to normal.

#sandersides #angst #sanders sides fic #trans!virgil #trans virgil #princnxiety #princnxiety fic

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