#LET THE PAIN BEGIN

[iunctura-arch]

Why... was she back here? As if the memories weren't enough, returning to the place that took everything and left her all alone wasn't something she'd thought she'd ever do.

It takes her a few minutes to stop standing in place, instead moving forward and trying to lose herself in the crowds. Nothing can do. Nothing...

"Karma-"

Her name leaves her lips when she sees her. Karma- Her friend. Friend...?

"Uh, hey, Karma! Long time no see, it's been a couple months!" Wait, wait-- no that wasn't right! How did she address people again? "Aaah, Akagi-san, sorry, I forgot myself for a second!"

@bxd-kxrma // you get pain

[mystreraes]

hearing her dad come home finally gave amity the motivation to move from the comfort of her bed. walking tentatively down the hallway of their home, it was like all the energy had been drained from her body. her chest had been aching non stop since her text conversation with ley had finally come to an end and she knew what it meant. that she wasn't the girl isley was choosing. it hurt, so fucking much. this is why she wasn't this kind of girl, she didn't want to feel this kind of heart ache -- it didn't feel worth it.

amity found her way to where her dad spent all his time; his stoner den. she needed that comfort, the safety that she felt when her dad held onto her, telling her it would be okay. even when it definitely didn't feel that way. puffy eyed and tears staining down along the porcelain skin of her cheeks, she knocked softly before opening the door. "d-dad?" her voice broke through the silence as she started to close the distance. making her way over to the person who was always safety net. "daddy--" a loud sob fell from her lips as she finally felt her arms move around his waist and her face collided with his mid-section. she didn't even know what to say, all she could do was just cry into her fathers arms.

@jem-writes

[sapphiredhearts-a]

@wylmn | closed starter

the early afternoon air was brisk through the window - causing a chill to course through the room . eddie himself could barely feel it & had sweat beading on his tanned skin as he dropped to the floor for the fourth time - falling into a roll that ended with him springing back to his feet brandishing his seraph blade at an imaginary foe .

satisfied that he had done the move as smoothly as possible , the blonde pocketed the blade before wiping the back of his hand across his forehead . blinking into the light he realized how late it had become & felt his stomach grumble . when he had woke it had still been dark but he had felt he couldn't continue to sleep . he had dreamt of mason again . they had been too young to be out the night that he was killed & for the millionth time eddie had found himself pacing his room wondering how the situation could have been different . the feeling always dragged him to the training room & hours would fly by in what felt like seconds as he pushed his body to the limit .

the fire that fueled him had basically burned out and he meandered down to the kitchen - prepared to filter through whatever they had to hopefully make a sandwich & then maybe jog along the beach to cool down . he was stopped in his tracks as he rounded the corner , though , by the sight of a certain messy haired blonde standing with her back to him .

he is frozen for a minute - halfway out of anticipation, halfway out of admiration . he knows their interactions are heated at the best of times but he can't help but watch her before she notices him there - she is so unguarded and ... beautiful in a natural state like this . it lasts only a few seconds at most ( he knows he doesn't have much time - shadowhunters are trained to feel someone lurking ) but he treasures it just the same .

finally, he clears his throat . ' sorry - I didn't know anyone else would be in here . '

[vaggieslefteye]

HUSK, Hotel Bartender & Concierge | 1x04 - Masquerade

"Oh, I FORGOT — you're the wise-old bartender who's seen it all! Get the fuck over yourself and pour me a real drink."

[speakofcompersion]

[livingfandomly]

Since the last episode ended, has “family Luke, you promised” been reverberating in your head over and over again or are you normal?

[unspokenstydia]

✰ ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, GOT THE WRONG INSIDES. ✰

THEO RAEKEN: THE KINTSUGI KID “Real pain is emotional pain. That is the kind of pain that lasts.” 

[ask--star]

[enden-k]

You’re cursed prince Kaveh wearing mourning flowers in his hair is so,,,, so,,,, so,,,,,

Like. He’s always displaying how much time he has left. Constantly. It almost feels like a Warning for those around him to not get attached.

yes 💔

[novadreii]

rewatched arrival for the hundredth time. this movie never fails to gut punch me with its approach to determinism. louise embracing her future that she knows every moment of, despite the tremendous loss and pain it contains, with open arms. she doesn't hesitate, or ruminate on how she can try and change it. she accepts it all, the good and the bad, because what she gains is worth it, so many times over for her. she steels herself against a certain future and runs forward to meet it all, to love, learn, and lose, and trusts and leans on herself to live through it all. because that's what life is; it's the joy and the suffering. to try and isolate the joy alone is madness, futility in its purest definition.

comparing her line of thinking to a palindrome (how she named her daughter, hannah), the movie kept emphasizing, "it's the same backwards as it is forwards." it doesn't matter if you can see the end; life is the same whether you live it "forwards" (without knowledge of the future) or "backwards" (with foresight). it doesn't change the significance of your life experiences; to try and avoid certain future pain just because you have the knowledge of it is a zero sum game. you think you win because you avoided pain, but you also avoided the joy that preceded it. the metamorphosis. so you still lose if you try to win, and vice-versa.

all you can do is rush forward and take it all head-on. see this whole beautiful mess as your one most precious gift; this one life, this one chance, a laughably miniature blip on the colossus that is linear time, to experience all there is to feel before you return back to an eternity without perception. it's all worth it, because only in living a full-fledged life open to everything it has to offer does the experience of living turn out to be greater than the sum of its parts; it's in trying to beat the system (avoid pain) that we actually lose.

"if you could see your whole life from start to finish, would you change things?"

"maybe i'd say what i feel more often. i...i don't know."

[buttercup-art]

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH OMG OMG OMG-

[miniagula]

no but you don't get it suchan trying to save hanseong and identifying with his helplessness and despair is EVERYTHING I wanted to see!! the progression of Is that the face of a senseless murderer? to when they were in the mind domain and suchan found him and broke through his emotional wall and pleaded you AREN'T alone, there is love right outside waiting for you; you have a place to return to, i will be right here just...easily my two favorite chapters atm

[hopeswriting]

[Gifs description slightly expanded upon alt text: gifs of Amelia Pond and the Eleventh Doctor, from the TV show Doctor Who (2005). They’re in a baby’s room, with Amy being heavily pregnant.

She kneels next to Rory's ashes, slightly rocking herself, looking up at the Doctor. She says, "Save him. You save everyone, you always do. It's what you do."

"Not always," the Doctor says, standing and fidgeting with his fingers. A close-up on Amy's face shows her tearful eyes and the tear tracks on her cheeks. Her slight hopeful smile disappears, her face turning cold. "I'm sorry," the Doctor says, looking down, and the close-up on his face shows his regretful expression.

Amy turns scornful and accusing as his words sink in. She leans forwards, saying, "Then what... is the point of you?"

The Doctor looks down again, staying silent.

The camera goes back to a wide shot of Amy, showing her tenderly grasping onto Rory's ashes. The camera still does a close-up on the Doctor’s face, showing him mouth something as he makes to move forwards and closer to Amy, but hesitates to do so. /End GD]

This is the dream. Definitely this one. Now, if we die here, we wake up, yeah? (in bold) Unless we just die. (in plain text) Either way, this is my only chance of seeing him again. This is the dream. (in bold) How do you know? (in plain text) Because if this is real life, I don’t want it (���it” is italicized). I don’t want it.

[harteatiing]

//when i say that a ship with my alastor goes hand in hand with obsession, it needs to be understood that the full extent of what i mean is that he's the type to twist himself into something cosmic and unrecognizable at any and all costs, an unspeakable abomination beyond even his own darkest imagination in grief if your muse perma-dies before him just to claw their soul back from rest. that in a time travel au, if your muse died he would completely destroy every timeline and cause untold paradoxical upheaval to save them. that if there was ever a 'this one person' or 'everything in hell, heaven, and earth' scenario and he had to sacrifice one, it would NEVER be 'that one person' he sacrifices even if they wanted him to.

[aheathen-conceivably]

bro I know literally nothing about your story (I mean, I'll definitely be going back and reading it) but from the three (3) posts I've seen in the past like 24 hours I very much ship the girl with the short brown hair (Zelda?) and the guy playing the guitar also the visuals are beautiful

Oh HELLO new Darling!! Welcome to the mess. We are glad to have you here 🥹🥰🫂

I will say, you’re already in luck with your very first ship. That would be Zelda and Antoine, and yes, they’re married and so very deeply in love. Now the journey to get there? Oh boy, that’s a ride. So if you do go back and reread it Godspeed to you. About rereading though, I do like to tell everybody you’re welcome to start at whichever decade suits your fancy/time availability. Of course starting from the beginning will get you all the info and backstory, but you can also begin in the 1910s, the 1920s, or even the 1930s.

I would say that out of those three, starting at the beginning of the 1920s makes the most sense. It’s really the beginning of a new chapter (Zelda’s two decades as heir), and while you’ll miss Zelda’s upbringing, personality development, and core memories/tragedies, it does get you right into the core cast of characters that we have going on right now (amongst whom I think you may find a new ship or two 😏).

But either way, have fun with it! And just know I love this ask. You’re a treasure for sending it after only three posts ♥️

[themthistles]

something about the way guilt is portrayed in beyond evil. guilt as a state, guilt as a place you're condemned to. 'i will go to hell' 'life is hell' 'you shouldn't even set foot in that hell' but it's not really the hell we think of, not in the traditional sense. hell is where you're supposed to be sent to suffer and repent forever but all of them go there willingly. (that's why han kihwan will never end up there as juwon wants because he feels no remorse over his actions) they choose to stay and let it scorch the life out of them until all that's left is someone hollow and brittle, real person buried beneath the surface in a grave they themselves dug. in that way it's not lee changjin or the water that killed nam sangbae. it's guilt. that's what doomed him in the end. that hell of his own making he never managed to escape. and as he drowned, he probably thought he deserved that too. jeongje's still there until the end but so much of him died long ago. he's a ghost haunting himself. he tells juwon 'if you don't get out quickly, every breath, every moment of your life becomes a nightmare' if you stay that hell alone long enough, that's what happens. at a certain point you can't wake up anymore. you forget how to leave