#Just... thoughts
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I was trying to fall asleep last night at 12 AM and I swear I was struggling bc I kept thinking about how right before dying, Snape- in trying to explain why Harry should trust him to go to the forest- gave Harry the memories that showed his entire process of being indoctrinated into a cult from childhood and his process of getting out of it. And I don't even think he did it on purpose.
It's as if he was like- "Here are the memories that will explain my life" and they happened to also chronicle his whole dang process. I mean, he even gave Harry that memory where he claims that he thought using Dark Magic was funny. His indoctrination was fking included and none of it paints him in a good light. And yet.
If those are the memories that spilled out of him on purpose- like his life literally flashing before his eyes- it absolutely stuns me that all the memories he immediately thought of AND the ones he vulnerably gave Harry (with no choice, mind you) were the ones that revealed that he was a kid indoctrinated into a cult, was actually into it, and still got out of his own accord (idc why, he got OUT).
And for some reason- even though he actually got out- I get the sense that from how badly he's shown in those memories, he's still angry at himself for getting into the Death Eaters in the first place. His process of getting out is pathetic and sad and ugly because that's what happened and somehow, he doesn't choose to show it any other way (he's dying ofc but still). It's even in character for him to just...show things as they are or how he thinks things just are (a flaw at times).
But that memory of Dumbledore implying that perhaps Snape should have been in Gryffindor stuck with him despite how damn ugly and selfish his act of leaving the Death Eaters looks. And it's almost like he never really knew how to deal with that implication even while dying.
I am not a fan of the name 'Albus Severus'. But...it's like Harry saw Snape's whole process when Snape himself couldn't or did and was unable to forgive himself for being indoctrinated in the first place. Harry, who spent his whole life hearing that once a wizard goes Dark, they don't care about anything or have no chance of coming back.
It does say something to me that Harry seems to have forgiven Snape for things Snape could never forgive himself for.
#just... thoughts#i had#at 12 am#does this make any sense#harry potter#severus snape#snape#book analysis#long post#character analysis#bookblr#tw cults#snape is a cult survivor man#and i dunno if he gave himself enough credit for that#but Harry sure as hell did
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I don't understand why so many people, especially people who read and loved the books, and especially men, fail to understand Moiraine in the show.
The kids don't trust her, people see her as a witch, and I guess that goes for most Aes Sedai but most Aes Sedai either reside mostly in the Tower, Tar Valon, or a couple of other places where they are respected, or don't travel as much to get that attitude from random people. Moiraine has to deal with all that, half of the time simply because she is a woman and doesn't reveal her status, or she is seen as evil and hated.
They somehow fail to see how people from outside her circle, which is a very small space to maneuver at that, treat her and see her. And why her response is the way it is.
This is a person who is extremely isolated due to what her sole mission is, she can't be honest and talk to pretty much anyone, aside from Siuan and Lan. She is afraid to talk to people because she knows how the politics of the Tower works and how everyone is either trying to extract information or can be an enemy. Half of those people either see her as too secretive or downright awkward, they either mock her behind her back or don't trust her. And she probably feels all that. Liandrin, one of the very few who actually knows her has unresolved feelings for her, and is hostile and aggressive to her.
Then she gets to hold terrifying secrets and she gets through an event that her Sisters consider their worst fear, she can't or doesn't speak about that, she can't go and share it with someone who has been through the same, because no one has been through this for ages. She gets to live through it alone, and that rot within her for months... which probably evokes even more isolation and fear, resulting in her being even more alone and cold to everyone...
She goes to her sister, and her sister is rightfully angry with her, which makes her look even worse. She treats her on and off, Moiraine either doesn't speak or answers badly... Logain is an ass to her, as expected.
She is ashamed to tell Siuan, she never actually speaks it out loud and even freaks out a bit when Lan only mentions it. She never utters the words, in her mind this probably seems like a nightmare that doesn't stop, because she is afraid to face reality.
And people are Oh, she is awful. She is evil... Like you are so mature and kind when something bad happens to you? As if all of a sudden you become amazingly wise and sweet, while you are in pain, confused and terrified. Superhumans... Hospitals are full of people who are in pain but are great at socializing and oh-so nice. We tend to become angry and bitter. And this is normal. Fear speaks. Anger too.
The only people who seem to understand are Verin and Adeleas. And that woman's perspective, that motherly attitude from Verin feels like something that almost makes you cry. And it's not the pity one needs, but understanding and being kind. There is a difference, that most people tend to mix. And when you are hurting or going through something this attitude from people around you tends to be even more annoying. Verin sees her and understands. I doubt Siuan as it was in E 7 does. There is... some sort of pity and someone mentioned disgust. Which is the worst possible combination in such a case. When you crave acceptance and understanding, love and kindness, just a bit, to see that in someone so close to you, doesn't feel good at all.
I noticed something in S1 E7 - when Moiraine sent Lan to go see his family and Lan introduced Nynaeve to them, they greeted her and called her Aes Sedai. They thank her for keeping Lan safe. They don't know her but assume she is an Aes Sedai who travels with Lan. Maybe I am wrong but...it seems that these people don't know what Moiraine looks like. They don't know her, so they confuse her with Moiraine. She never went with Lan. And these people are sweet and nice, but she never gets to experience that.
Even in Fal Dara, where people know who she is, they greet Lan warmly, and she is mostly ignored. That stings. Then Lord Agelmar is treating her as an annoyance, with cold formality, almost dismissing her. And she is almost on the edge here to snap at him.
This goes on and on, and people are oh why is she like that?! Because they treat her like shit, that's why!
And at the end, show Moiraine is called "a cow" by some people. Nice. Soooo they get to dig into 14 books, find connections, and hidden clues, but don't understand what they see right in front of them?! You don't hear what is said? A hell of a way to understand people.
Even when she attempts to protect Lan and make him leave, to be away from her because she most likely will attract danger. This is not only obvious, but he says it again and again. She is still seen as the bitch who treats him shitty, just because. Talking about superficial thinking...
But how this stupid man can't see through her when he has known her for so long and so intimately?! Why is he acting so dumb? If you treat someone like crap for months, especially when that someone trusts you and has tremendous respect for you, observe what that does to their self-esteem. Keep dismissing them, ignore them, and act as if they are a liability. And then tell them something slightly ambiguous, almost transparent, and observe how they would take it. Actually, no need to go that far at all. We all have seen it, one way or another.
Everyone else who knows them will never think twice about what she meant when she said "We were never equal." Her tone is harsh, her face expresses what would be read as contempt or something similar. And after months of bad attitude and a reveal of how many things she hid from him, how else he would see it? The whole foundation of their relationship was undermined by her, meticulously, for months, bit by bit, blow by blow. Refusing to speak to him, refusing to give him her usual trust and respect. The message is clear - you are no longer important to me, you are no longer of use. For someone who claimed that she gave him everything, a meaning, a reason to live and to die for... That seems like a pretty big deal. And now all that is gone. How dare he react like a human being! Almost like when she informs him in The Great Hunt what would happen to him in case she dies. And in the books, she is this serene creature, with a soft voice, who never do anything cruel or slightly shitty, like reminding him in TDR "Walk faster or you know who I am going to call..." FFS, even I was "WHAT the fuck, woman?!" and the people around them were like Damn, whatever that was, Lan got angry... You think?!
But the showwww!!! Yeah, the show did perfectly fine with this situation, it's the preconceptions in people's heads that stopped them from seeing what was going on. There are flaws. Many at that. But this wasn't one of them.
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Concept:
Everything that happens on screen in Star Wars is being performed by the stupidest mother fuckers that end up in significant places.
Everyone else in the Republic/Empire are quiet competent (have to be to keep the place running around the narrative dumb asses) and just don't do things the hard way on purpose. (You know, like the dumbasses.)
#not a headcanon just a concept#Anakin didnt HAVE to do it like that but he DID#so his janitors sigh and get to work being the best god damn janitors ever.#his tax adjuster has premature grays but he gets the best refund possible#etc etc#st tcw#tcw#star wars#tbb#just... thoughts
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Saw this tweet and it makes a good point. Sure Koichi's monologue explained they'll find out what happened to their loved ones but I really want to see how it would happen, y'know? They will go report to the police, news about this will be covered and they'll soon find out it's been Kira all along. But what if they mistaken him for Kosaku? Believing he's the killer or an accomplice to Kira.
But hey, that's just a theory. A film theory-
Oohhh interesting
I can only imagine how Shinobu feels about other people believing her husband was involved in so many murders. Maybe she even believes it herself. She didn't know much about him after all...
#jjba#just... thoughts#shinobu kawajiri#yoshikage kira#kosaku kawajiri#i actually had a thought at one point#of like what if people started being really wary around haru after everything came out#like they believe she was something of an accomplice (which she kinda was in her silence but i mean a more active one)#or that her exposure to the murders could lead to her following in his footsteps#and it just makes her feel worse about everything#poor girl :(
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i’m not sure i see cassian’s coat collections and constant coat wearing as a man who loves the cold but possibly a person who had never really experienced it as a child and was taken out of his homeland and is always, on some level, trying to keep the cold from coming back in
#just... thoughts#i do love the idea of him being the in universe clothes horse especially considering his.... everything and the general situations of his#life though it's really great to me#keeps working its way into fics but like yeah. subtropical bitches unite/
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Depot Agents are castle staff.
Maybe they take care of the coaches -- the Zebstrika and Rapidash that pull the coaches, too.
Josh and Hank have been there the longest. They remember when the princes were children, even babies. They supervised the boys when they came out to look at the Zebstrika and Rapidash, and let them play with the baby Blitzle and Ponyta -- carefully, of course.
The twins once got one of the cooks to teach them how to make cakes so that they could give something to Josh and Hank for their birthdays. After all, the two men let them play with the babies! And taught them how to ride!
The twins were, like, six when the cakes happened. Spent all day in the kitchens both times, of course under adult supervision, and still had flour all over their very nice clothes when they presented said cakes. Aprons can only cover so much. It was very cute.
They also remember when, abruptly, Ingo shut himself in his room, coincidentally around the same time that Emmet came down with some sort of nasty lethargy that had him bedridden for days.
Ingo never came back after that, and Emmet was never as energetic.
Josh and Hank aren't sure what happened, but they were -- and still are -- very sad that the chipper little twins have changed so much. They miss them bustling around in the stables, offering to help and petting the little foals.
#iced tracks#depot agents#depot agent josh#depot agent hank#subway boss emmet#subway boss ingo#submas#< because they do be there#help I'm getting attached to the depot agents again#just. kiddos. being sweet little kiddos.#just... thoughts#lots of thoughts
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Talking about this here bc I glanced at jayvik on twt and immediately decided to dip out of that real quick but
I, personally, view Jayce's and Mel's relationship in a more friends w/ benefits way than anything else. They obviously care for eachother and we see that numerous times; we explicitly see Mel be protective over Jayce.
I was actually rly hoping to like Jayce's and Mel's relationship, but I was disappointed when I saw it on screen. They were just missing something that makes Jayce's relationship with Viktor so special to me.
#also for the love of god this is not Mel hate 😭#im just ruminating on their relationship and why it simply didn't scratch that itch for me#perhaps this is my maybe demisexual (undecided) ass coming back to bite me#bc i simply cant enjoy ships if i feel like theres no deep foundational bond or if i just dont think they immediately click well#part of me cant help but feel like if the writers wanted mel/jayce to be a romantic relationship on par with cait/vi that#they kinda did a disservice to them? but mel explicitly?#just... thoughts#i feel like jayce is a big puppy and mel is the parttime dogsitter for him when viktor is away and i mean that fondly JDJD#arcane lol#pina talks#jayce talis#mel medarda#viktor lol#(though hes just kinda mentioned)#jayvik related ig
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The Iron Bull | Beginnings
Looking back across the years, with hindsight casting clarity like sunlight on a mirror, it occurs to the Iron Bull that -- had he been a better Ben-Hassrath Spy, he probably never would have met Krem. More than that, might never have founded the Chargers, or met the Inquisition. Met Dorian.
And it's fitting, in a way, when the Qunari considers that Krem -- with his defiant eyes and his bloodied lip -- even now..... Krem was the beginning of the end.
Or maybe just a Beginning.
#just... thoughts#Krem Aclassi#The Iron Bull#Fandom: Dragon Age#c: The Iron Bull#Iron Bull: headcanon#hc
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I know what you're all definitely thinking. What if everyone from Gravity Falls was a chair. Well, I was bored enough at 3am to think about that too
Edit: part 2
#chair au!!!1!!#just saw an old ass lawn chair and thought “yeah. that's stan”#shitpost#gravity falls#gravity falls memes#stan pines#grunkle stan#mabel pines#dipper pines#bill cipher#ford pines#fiddleford mcgucket#soos ramirez#wendy corduroy
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Just Checking In! (aka Something About Red Triangles)
#well its 5 am but i DID IT#sorry i just thought about how bill turns red when hes mad and had a Vision#i actually really love how this came out. maybe i AM a good artist sometimes#doc talks#my art#bill cipher#gravity falls#the book of bill#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#book of bill spoilers#gravity falls spoilers#the axolotl#undescribed
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what doesn't kill you makes you stay on tumblr for 13 years and counting
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#this is what makes us girls#girlblog#hyper feminine#girl interrupted syndrome#lizzy grant#black swan#divine feminine#female hysteria#girlblogging#tumblr girls#2014 tumblr#just girly things#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#hell is a teenage girl#just girly thoughts#girlhood#just girly posts
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Hey you ever think about The Characters so much to the point where
#sp-rambles#This post was originally about TF2 qpr yaoi that I've written 170k+ words for already btw just thought I'd mention that
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im sure this has been done already but uh mimiku
#pokemon#mimikyu#hatsune miku#this is definitely so far from the various miku trends that have been going around recently but#i just thought of the pun and wanted to draw it lol#vocaloid
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me and my moots <3
#girlcore#girly stuff#im just a girl#just girly things#female hysteria#female rage#girlblogging#lana del ray aesthetic#lana del rey#coquette#coquette dollete#girly tumblr#tumblr girls#waif#coquette aesthetic#dollette#lizzy grant aka lana del rey#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#girl interrupted#femcel#feminine rage#female manipulator#nympette#this is a girlblog#girlboss#girlblog#just girly posts#just girly thoughts#girlhood#waif core
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