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I swear, the Pale King just organized a conveyor belt for the production of minions from the void and delegated his duties to them
In my understanding, Lurien and the Collector were the two most reasonable specimens, so the King made them work. For free, of course, only out of a sense of love for its creator. And less autonomous samples became his kingsmoulds
Lurien was obviously entrusted with overseeing the City of Tears, but I think the situation is more interesting with the Collector
I think the King originally appointed him as a scientist who was supposed to study the effects and consequences of contact of living beings with the void. Is it possible to defeat the infection in this way or reduce its impact? It would be easy for him, since he himself is from the void
After all, he has his own tower with a study. But to be honest, the Tower of Love reminds me of one big room with soft walls for a madman, and it stands literally on the very edge of the city, isolated from it. I think the king initially saw that the Collector was not quite adequate, but he needed research, so he simply provided him with a tower with access to the Edge of the Kingdom so that he could catch unreasonable beetles there for research, and not cause problems in the city
The bug with the void flowing out of its eyes, in which we find the key to the tower, thinks that they have been together with someone for too long, and have become one. I think it was one of the assistants or workers in the tower who escaped when the influence of the void on the inhabitants of the tower became obviously detrimental. He locked the Collector up and took the key with him so that he could no longer "protect" everything he could reach
#And Lurien at the same time#“Why do I have to deal with the crazy scientists in this city���#Between loyal but obviously autistic creatures and normal living workers the King chose the former#Probably because their work is free#By the way#in the city and beyond you can find many portraits and beetles with void flowing out of their eyes#I think it's because there were rumors about research on this topic in the city#and many citizens were really sure that contact with the void would protect them from the plague#Well they really don't look infected#Just painfully dead#or maybe it's like with lead whitewash in the Middle Ages#Void treatment just became fashionable#Fashionable black eyeliner and pale mask#hollow knight#hk#hk pale king#hk collector#hk lurien#hollow knight pk#hk pk#lurien the watcher#hollow knight collector
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Edwin's ghostly double-age is so important to me. He's 16 and spent 70 years in hell. He's 124 and navigating the issues in his first real friendship. He's 16 and he helps ghosts move on to the afterlife like a mystery solving psychopomp. He's 124 and coming to terms with liking boys. He's 16 his hellfire-forged soul was used as a living battery. He's 124 and he's wearing his stupid little schoolboy uniform collecting trinkets with his bestie. He's 16 and he died over a century ago
#i just.#something about growing up far too much and not enough at the same time#something about being stunted and strange and painfully seperate from most of your peers simply because of how you are#something about how the scary parts are when you're the youngest and the social parts are when you're the oldest#dbda#dead boy detectives#Edwin Payne
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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.
#Better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.
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percy needs to be haunted by bianca's ghost more
#percy jackson#bianca di angelo#she doesn't even have to do it herself#he is just trapped in the horror of watching someone die and never recovering from the guilt that follows#like i thin we should talk more about how she was the first permanent death of the series and the first death he really witnessed#i think he should be more deranged by it tbh#painfully devoted to nico's health and happiness in a way that skips the border of unhealthy and jumps straight into fucked up#even better if bianca doesn't care. and nico has moved on. so the only person who is stuck in this void of misery about it is percy#and he can't emerge. no matter what he does no matter the time that passes she is always there in the back of his mind#a reminder of the first time he failed to protect someone else.#a reminder of his selfishness. his inability to follow through on promises. of his powerlessness. his uselessness.#in tbotl he finds out that nico doesn't care about him or his soul. he doesn't want percy dead. and percy is weirdly gutted by this#he needs nico to hate him and it freaks him out that nico doesn't. he's clearly upset but percy isn't centered in it the way you'd think.#nico has his own mission and percy is barely a side note in it and he's so bothered by that. it drives him up the wall#how selfish is it to be upset with someone for not hating you because you got their sister killed?#he hates himself so much. he wants to die so bad. but he can't. he has to keep going. for nico. for bianca. he doesn't have a choice#happy talks pjo#okay it is 3:36am and i am. going to try to sleep now
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I haven't read The Queen's trilogy yet, so most of my knowledge of Sabé comes from Wookiepedia and fanfics, and I know the fandom consensus is that she and Anakin can't stand each other for Obvious Reasons, or at the very least in a "I hate my best friend's boyfriend" way, but as someone that always found the last trope kind of annoying and boring, I actually think they would bond very well while waiting at the ER.
Like they will just sit there trying to be normal while Padme gets checked by the doctors, like they are just quiet angrily looking at the wall as someone that was bitten by a radioactive tooka passes first and as a whole man-size tank of water for a mon calamari gets pushed, and then Anakin just off-handely passes Sabé a nutritive bar thing, and Sabé just passes Anakin a bottle of water because they will be hours there, then he brings caff, and then she brings him one of these books with puzzles and find space -waldo because she knows that guy absolutely has ADHD, like that's camaderie buddy.
"I told her to not try that"
"I also told her to not try that"
And they just nod because of course they did. And that's it, they bonded over bitching about "She never listens to me but I kinda into that tbh, but also it's bad for my blood pressure".
They probably would enjoy to share a space beer and talk about the most strange and random yet normal thing ever like "did you know the Crafuxeratus billis is so acid it can effectively melt away wood and enough of it some metals, so its stomach tissue has been used in armor wear" And then never share a word again for like a year.
#rambling#star wars#anakin skywalker#sabé#silly posting#the reason why i find that 'i hate my bestfriend's bf“ so annoying it's because not only has been overdone to dead#but its also extremelly shallow and how do i put this like one of these type of jokes that feel so painfully heteronormative for some reason#like idk how to explain but it's like right there besides the trope of 'haha marriage is jail' idkidk it's just usually handled very very eh#but nothing of this is on topic lmao
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there's something sadly funny about the way that Kaladin goes into literally every situation thinking "Too bad I'm not cool anymore 😔"
I mean. I get it. Depression fucks your brain up and you feel detached from yourself and any skills you have or had. The PTSD and chronic fatigue are keeping him from doing things he once managed with far less effort. And it's rather impossible to feel like you can just... do things like you used to when you're struggling at a basic level to simply be.
Still, literally everyone who knows him is like "Kaladin you're so storming cool" and he goes "They're referring to the person I was, who is dead. I'll never be cool again. I'm sorry."
The most hilarious thing? He walks into these moments, thinking 'too bad', and then he does the most objectively amazing thing possible while everyone else just watches in awe.
Kaladin, three seconds after absolutely changing everyone's outlook on life: Aw, it's too bad the person I just was died again. Guess I have to find something else to be cuz I sure can't pull that off anymore.
#this ramble brought to you by the scene near the end of ROW where Kal is about to defend the last node and is like#“would be cool if I was here. too bad I'm dead. I'll try to pretend one last time”#meanwhile everyone adores him just for still trying. still daring to fight.#I guess the point is you're not dead and you're not useless and you're not failing to measure up as long as you're still fighting#Just Brando writing writing painfully accurate mental illness as usual#kaladin is fr me every time someone says something nice about a fic I've written#I act like it was a one time thing and I'll never pull it off again#me three hours after publishing a fic: yes thank you but it's too bad I don't think I'll ever write again. I know.#like oh you were emotionally impacted? what a funny coincidence; I'm sorry for tricking you into believing in me; that was rude of me#meanwhile the 509k ao3 word count and repeat readers: 💀#kaladin stormblessed#stormlight archive#stormlight archive reread#rhythm of war reread
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Can you imagine how much worse the Thunder Saga would be if Polites was still in it.
#epic the musical#epic the musical thunder saga#the thunder saga#Polites#At least your memory isn't tainted with betrayal#at least you never knew what would become of the crew#I know it's not the main point#But Epic really reads like a media of dead character#How much did your death change#was it the actual reason why crew lost its faith#or am i just tripping#I don't know but it's so painfully sad
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my sad angry wet cat of a son forced to play dress up with his fathers clothes
#rdr? I think you mean Marston boys dress up game#do you guys think after John died he went through John's clothes and kept things? Things that uncle Arthur used to wear that John had?#guys listen.... Imagine Jack finding Arthurs shirt or neckerchief and going “My dad never wore this? huh... why is it so familiar?”#I have so many thoughts about Jack Marston he's so special to me#it's probably because he is painfully just like me fr but shhh#origins drawing... again#jack marston#rdr#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption
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Sillies...... will post the full thing later :3
#just started chapter 2 again#they're so stupid#(insane rambling coming)#john is so oblivious to how much javier is in love with him its crazy#javier is trying his best to flirt with john but he's failing miserably everytime#he's giving him his stew#they would probably compare hand sizes#and john would still be painfully oblivious to it all#cuz they've been friends for so long !!!#and who says friends can't compare hand sizes !!!!!#and everytime javier tries to be a little more forward and obvious he gets shy#im normal about them yall#jovier#javier escuella#john marston#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#lucasolikos art#fanart#red dead redemption
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A rare day has come, goobers. Teri has drawn some proper, honest to God fan art.
SURPRISE! IT’S OJV STYLE EVERYONE!!! ♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡

If you know me then you know I am a slut harlot whore for these two and the Situations their loving mother puts them in. They are THE Super Best Boyfriends and they make my heart so, so incredibly happy
Conveniently I’m posting this just in time for a fresh bedtime story to have dropped! You should absolutely go read it right here!
And hey! If you want some more consider reading other works by Riley (aka @1moreoffkeyanthem) on her ao3!
Love you queen thank you for keeping the Style girlies (gn) fed your hard work does not go unappreciated!!! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧
#I had a lot of fun doing these!!!#picking apart descriptions and interpreting them in my silly little style#handsome prince Stan is so lovely#and ethereal Kyle is *chefs kiss*#I fear even that I leaned too much into elven traits for him#but damn is he pretty#just two painfully hot dudes staring longingly into one anothers’ eyes#true love isn’t dead it lives on in OJV style#once again I scream it from the rooftops#if you arent reading pce what are you even doing#South Park#fanfiction#fanart#digital art#procreate#sp style#asteria’s art
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Day 17: Moon
#art#my art#artists on tumblr#jorm scribs#inktober#I know it's already over but I'm gonna finish this if it kills me#Also hello I'm not dead#oc#setting: mpc#dungeons and dragons#homebrew setting#these two were originally dnd gods but I'm extracting wotc painfully from my setting. So now they're my gods.#helps that their stories were already very different#I'm not gonna tag the inspirations but maybe you can guess lol#toxic yuri#wahoo#I don't have new names for them yet either so I'm not gonna write much on them just yet#dnd gods#they are both gods of fate/change (kinda) but White is the god of cyclical repetitive predictable change while Purple is violent or sudden#White is a tide or the moon phases or elections. Purple is a flood or an eclipse or an election. Ignore that eclipses are predictable#You get the idea#Purple does not follow the rut; purple is the forger of new paths and breaking free from fate and destiny. White is not stagnancy but.#fate isn't real in this setting anyway; I use it more as the idea of being set on a path; it's easier to follow the trajectory than#drop everything and walk away; walk off the path
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okay thinking about embarrassing moments of my life: done
now: anderperry
anderperry fic but it’s just a series of different moments of neil realizing he wants more with todd except he’s like, really fucking dumb
neil, getting to know todd: i want more
also neil: omg i must want to be his friend
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neil, tracing the shape of todd’s lips with his eyes: i want more
also neil: omg I must want to be his best friend
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neil, staring at todd’s hand, wanting to know how it feels in his own: i want more
also neil: hmmmm maybe i want to be his bestest best friend ever?????
and so on
aka neil not understanding what he’s feeling beyond a desire to be closer to todd and yeah
#i like my neil perrys to be painfully oblivious#just like i like my todd andersons to be painfully in denial#deadpoets#dead poets#dead poets society#dead poets headcanons#dps headcanon#dps fanfiction#dps fandom#dps fic#anderperry#anderperry AU
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Pain is being an ulquihime shipper but having to block/avoid most of them because they are weirdly anti-Orihime, anti-bleach ending, or "anti how Kubo wrote Orihime" even though she's one of the most consistently and well-written female characters in Shounen as well as the fact that they try to make Ulquiorra care more about Orihime than he actually did in the manga or even god forbid try to say that Ulquiorra cared more about Orihime than Ichigo did.
#rainbow talking#bleach#orihime inoue#ulquiorra cifer#I'm tired i'm so tired this is suffering#this is what suffering looks like#i'm screaming into the void rn bc like#you dont have to woobify or babygirl-ify Ulquiorra#ulquiorra shiffer#Ulquihime works so well because it's someone who has no emotions and someone who wears her heart on her sleeve#He didn't truly care about Orihime until he was dying and realized what it meant to have a heart#that's also part of what makes the ship so tragic#he finally discovered the meaning and answer but wasn't able to appreciate it fully#idk if any other ulquihime shipper feels this way#probably just me considering the current state of the fandom but ugghhhh#its so hard to enjoy a ship when it is so painfully clear people don't like the other half of it#like many of them don't actually like Orihime with Ulquiorra they like THEIR IDEA OF ORIHIME with Ulquiorra#and I understand fanon =/= canon#and im not gunna sit here and say fanart and theories and analysis have to be fully lore accurate#but it is painfully obvious some of you are taking the worst possible interpretation#of Orihime as a character and twisting Ichigo into someone who didn't actually care bout Orihime to that degree#while at the same time shipping him with R**** and Orihime with Ulquiorra#i normally dont censor character names but I did this time since it ain't entirely her fans... but sadly a lot of them are#like “”Ulquirra tried to protect Orihime from Ichigo“” no he didn't#he knew about her powers for rejection and planted the seed of doubt that she couldn't heal him#hell EVEN HE questions who tf that is when Ichigo rises in his VL state#as far as he was concerned Ichigo was dead as a doorknob
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the witcher 3 is so funny. there are like 2 gay people in the entire game but the first area is full of people being period accurate homophobic about a dead guy
#got a strange urge to replay and idk why. i always enjoy white orchard despite the horrible combat then hate the open world#maybe this time ill get further and understand why it's so popular#to be clear i LOVE period accurate homophobia. i just wish it was more than some dead guy and ambient dialogue in the#opening area#this game is so painfully heterosexual. like vibes-wise. which is one of the things that puts me off so much#let gerald get fucked by an elf and be taunted about it idfk!
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I love Until Dawn (evidently) but omg everytime I play the game or think abt the game I end up feeling so gd sad. Like damn its bleak. Josh Washington genuinely has made me cry more times than I can count.
#until dawn#josh washington#joshua washington#its just the saddest thing ever#Id have it no other way of course#but like ow#its just tragedy after tragedy#theres no real comfort in any of the endings#josh always dies or becomes a monster#and he was doomed to that fate the second they made the choice to play that prank on hannah#theres literally nothing that could be done and it makes you feel so helpless#even in the best case scenario where the other 7 live they have to live with all that trauma and knowledge they cant share with anyone ever#their friends are dead. The Washington kids are dead and its all because of a stupid prank most of them played.#and with Sam she literally loses all her actual close friends#all of them just have to live with the guilt#UD has no happy ending for anyone and its so painfully depressing and thats why the story is good. It makes an impact.#god I love this stupid game sm
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As much as I enjoy the idea of Micah rizzing up naive city girls with (highly exaggerated) epic tales of his cowboy adventures, I know in my heart from watching his painful flirting attempts with Mary-Beth and Abigail that most of his experience with women comes from working girls
#PLEASE HE'S SO AWKWARD IT'S HILARIOUS#teenage boys on reddit will go ong he's so cool and i'm like HUH?#are we talking about the same guy? the guy who hesitated and stuttered when asking MB for a dance? who had clearly rehearsed what he was#going to say? who acts and sounds like an awkward teenager whenever he tries to hit on abigail?#i feel like people tend to overlook how painfully socially awkward micah is because they're just creeped out by him#which. fair lmao#but a recurring thing about him is that he comes off as really inept with other people whenever he's not being a dick#it's a bit sad really#like the only thing he knows how to do in social contexts is antagonizing others or manipulating them. never being genuine#red dead redemption#micah bell
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