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I swear, the Pale King just organized a conveyor belt for the production of minions from the void and delegated his duties to them
In my understanding, Lurien and the Collector were the two most reasonable specimens, so the King made them work. For free, of course, only out of a sense of love for its creator. And less autonomous samples became his kingsmoulds
Lurien was obviously entrusted with overseeing the City of Tears, but I think the situation is more interesting with the Collector
I think the King originally appointed him as a scientist who was supposed to study the effects and consequences of contact of living beings with the void. Is it possible to defeat the infection in this way or reduce its impact? It would be easy for him, since he himself is from the void
After all, he has his own tower with a study. But to be honest, the Tower of Love reminds me of one big room with soft walls for a madman, and it stands literally on the very edge of the city, isolated from it. I think the king initially saw that the Collector was not quite adequate, but he needed research, so he simply provided him with a tower with access to the Edge of the Kingdom so that he could catch unreasonable beetles there for research, and not cause problems in the city
The bug with the void flowing out of its eyes, in which we find the key to the tower, thinks that they have been together with someone for too long, and have become one. I think it was one of the assistants or workers in the tower who escaped when the influence of the void on the inhabitants of the tower became obviously detrimental. He locked the Collector up and took the key with him so that he could no longer "protect" everything he could reach
#And Lurien at the same time#“Why do I have to deal with the crazy scientists in this city”#Between loyal but obviously autistic creatures and normal living workers the King chose the former#Probably because their work is free#By the way#in the city and beyond you can find many portraits and beetles with void flowing out of their eyes#I think it's because there were rumors about research on this topic in the city#and many citizens were really sure that contact with the void would protect them from the plague#Well they really don't look infected#Just painfully dead#or maybe it's like with lead whitewash in the Middle Ages#Void treatment just became fashionable#Fashionable black eyeliner and pale mask#hollow knight#hk#hk pale king#hk collector#hk lurien#hollow knight pk#hk pk#lurien the watcher#hollow knight collector
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Edwin's ghostly double-age is so important to me. He's 16 and spent 70 years in hell. He's 124 and navigating the issues in his first real friendship. He's 16 and he helps ghosts move on to the afterlife like a mystery solving psychopomp. He's 124 and coming to terms with liking boys. He's 16 his hellfire-forged soul was used as a living battery. He's 124 and he's wearing his stupid little schoolboy uniform collecting trinkets with his bestie. He's 16 and he died over a century ago
#i just.#something about growing up far too much and not enough at the same time#something about being stunted and strange and painfully seperate from most of your peers simply because of how you are#something about how the scary parts are when you're the youngest and the social parts are when you're the oldest#dbda#dead boy detectives#Edwin Payne
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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.
#Better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.
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percy needs to be haunted by bianca's ghost more
#percy jackson#bianca di angelo#she doesn't even have to do it herself#he is just trapped in the horror of watching someone die and never recovering from the guilt that follows#like i thin we should talk more about how she was the first permanent death of the series and the first death he really witnessed#i think he should be more deranged by it tbh#painfully devoted to nico's health and happiness in a way that skips the border of unhealthy and jumps straight into fucked up#even better if bianca doesn't care. and nico has moved on. so the only person who is stuck in this void of misery about it is percy#and he can't emerge. no matter what he does no matter the time that passes she is always there in the back of his mind#a reminder of the first time he failed to protect someone else.#a reminder of his selfishness. his inability to follow through on promises. of his powerlessness. his uselessness.#in tbotl he finds out that nico doesn't care about him or his soul. he doesn't want percy dead. and percy is weirdly gutted by this#he needs nico to hate him and it freaks him out that nico doesn't. he's clearly upset but percy isn't centered in it the way you'd think.#nico has his own mission and percy is barely a side note in it and he's so bothered by that. it drives him up the wall#how selfish is it to be upset with someone for not hating you because you got their sister killed?#he hates himself so much. he wants to die so bad. but he can't. he has to keep going. for nico. for bianca. he doesn't have a choice#happy talks pjo#okay it is 3:36am and i am. going to try to sleep now
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I haven't read The Queen's trilogy yet, so most of my knowledge of Sabé comes from Wookiepedia and fanfics, and I know the fandom consensus is that she and Anakin can't stand each other for Obvious Reasons, or at the very least in a "I hate my best friend's boyfriend" way, but as someone that always found the last trope kind of annoying and boring, I actually think they would bond very well while waiting at the ER.
Like they will just sit there trying to be normal while Padme gets checked by the doctors, like they are just quiet angrily looking at the wall as someone that was bitten by a radioactive tooka passes first and as a whole man-size tank of water for a mon calamari gets pushed, and then Anakin just off-handely passes Sabé a nutritive bar thing, and Sabé just passes Anakin a bottle of water because they will be hours there, then he brings caff, and then she brings him one of these books with puzzles and find space -waldo because she knows that guy absolutely has ADHD, like that's camaderie buddy.
"I told her to not try that"
"I also told her to not try that"
And they just nod because of course they did. And that's it, they bonded over bitching about "She never listens to me but I kinda into that tbh, but also it's bad for my blood pressure".
They probably would enjoy to share a space beer and talk about the most strange and random yet normal thing ever like "did you know the Crafuxeratus billis is so acid it can effectively melt away wood and enough of it some metals, so its stomach tissue has been used in armor wear" And then never share a word again for like a year.
#rambling#star wars#anakin skywalker#sabé#silly posting#the reason why i find that 'i hate my bestfriend's bf“ so annoying it's because not only has been overdone to dead#but its also extremelly shallow and how do i put this like one of these type of jokes that feel so painfully heteronormative for some reason#like idk how to explain but it's like right there besides the trope of 'haha marriage is jail' idkidk it's just usually handled very very eh#but nothing of this is on topic lmao
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there's something sadly funny about the way that Kaladin goes into literally every situation thinking "Too bad I'm not cool anymore 😔"
I mean. I get it. Depression fucks your brain up and you feel detached from yourself and any skills you have or had. The PTSD and chronic fatigue are keeping him from doing things he once managed with far less effort. And it's rather impossible to feel like you can just... do things like you used to when you're struggling at a basic level to simply be.
Still, literally everyone who knows him is like "Kaladin you're so storming cool" and he goes "They're referring to the person I was, who is dead. I'll never be cool again. I'm sorry."
The most hilarious thing? He walks into these moments, thinking 'too bad', and then he does the most objectively amazing thing possible while everyone else just watches in awe.
Kaladin, three seconds after absolutely changing everyone's outlook on life: Aw, it's too bad the person I just was died again. Guess I have to find something else to be cuz I sure can't pull that off anymore.
#this ramble brought to you by the scene near the end of ROW where Kal is about to defend the last node and is like#“would be cool if I was here. too bad I'm dead. I'll try to pretend one last time”#meanwhile everyone adores him just for still trying. still daring to fight.#I guess the point is you're not dead and you're not useless and you're not failing to measure up as long as you're still fighting#Just Brando writing writing painfully accurate mental illness as usual#kaladin is fr me every time someone says something nice about a fic I've written#I act like it was a one time thing and I'll never pull it off again#me three hours after publishing a fic: yes thank you but it's too bad I don't think I'll ever write again. I know.#like oh you were emotionally impacted? what a funny coincidence; I'm sorry for tricking you into believing in me; that was rude of me#meanwhile the 509k ao3 word count and repeat readers: 💀#kaladin stormblessed#stormlight archive#stormlight archive reread#rhythm of war reread
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Can you imagine how much worse the Thunder Saga would be if Polites was still in it.
#epic the musical#epic the musical thunder saga#the thunder saga#Polites#At least your memory isn't tainted with betrayal#at least you never knew what would become of the crew#I know it's not the main point#But Epic really reads like a media of dead character#How much did your death change#was it the actual reason why crew lost its faith#or am i just tripping#I don't know but it's so painfully sad
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It's so interesting how everyone is openly accepting Laudna giving herself up to Delilah in exchange of power.
It's like they must understand at this point that she's going to lose herself.
But they accept it, they kinda have to, she asks them to. They pretend they're going to figure it out, a problem for later.
Imogen spoke so little when Laudna joined back up in the room, because she also has to accept it, she's going to respect Laudna's wishes, but she's realizing that there is very little hope to save her.
She's going to miss their little cottage, miss something that could have been, please Laudna, it could still be, I need you to choose to fight still, I need you.
#hello im so normal#crit role#cr3#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#critical role#imodna#she has to accept it. she has to respect her choice. she cant push her. she shouldn't. she's just going to leave her.#dead end. promise you'll move on. is she gonna??? move on?? ahhhhhhhhhh#nothing quite like your anchor starting to pull you painfully as it asks you to let go and you cant you cant you cant
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my sad angry wet cat of a son forced to play dress up with his fathers clothes
#rdr? I think you mean Marston boys dress up game#do you guys think after John died he went through John's clothes and kept things? Things that uncle Arthur used to wear that John had?#guys listen.... Imagine Jack finding Arthurs shirt or neckerchief and going “My dad never wore this? huh... why is it so familiar?”#I have so many thoughts about Jack Marston he's so special to me#it's probably because he is painfully just like me fr but shhh#origins drawing... again#jack marston#rdr#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption
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Sillies...... will post the full thing later :3
#just started chapter 2 again#they're so stupid#(insane rambling coming)#john is so oblivious to how much javier is in love with him its crazy#javier is trying his best to flirt with john but he's failing miserably everytime#he's giving him his stew#they would probably compare hand sizes#and john would still be painfully oblivious to it all#cuz they've been friends for so long !!!#and who says friends can't compare hand sizes !!!!!#and everytime javier tries to be a little more forward and obvious he gets shy#im normal about them yall#jovier#javier escuella#john marston#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#lucasolikos art#fanart#red dead redemption
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mind can rarely crack his joints bc his bones are metal and whatever and usually run pretty smoothly. but on the rare occasion that he can crack them. it sounds like the entire house is being torn apart by fireworks and violent explosions. his back snaps like a godsamn whip and his neck cracks so hard it's a surprise he didn't break his own spine. every single joint in his body will pop louder than anyone in the house has ever yelled, without fail.
he'll always make sure to do this in direct vicinity of both heart and soul because as he rearranges his internal structures they will stare on in sheer, absolute horror, especially considering that once he's done, he just continues on with his task as if it never happened and as if every atom in his body hasn't been split in two
Headcanon #632
#chonny jash#submission#cj mind#chonnys charming chaos compendium#okay canon to me#maybe more soul since i connect him to the bones but either way ONE of these mfs do this#why? 1. its funny 2. i am the same way#one time in school. i was taking a computer class & it was dead silent in the room. i pop my neck & shoulder which made a hella loud noise#this poor girl next to me just turned and was like “are you okay????? did you just like snap youre neck????”#idk why they can pop so loudly for some but mine do as well#i can see all of them having smth like this#speedrun list time#heart: almost constantly pops or cracks their knuckles. never really loud but just frequently [kinda how he fidgets sometimes]#mind: this post#soul: 1. doesn't rlly like the sound it makes. makes him uneasy or uncomfy 2. mainly his hands n wrists pop a lot. semi painfully too#whole. why not: Mainly just his shoulders & spine#sits down in the same place for too long a lot so his entire back just sounds like pop rocks.#not as loud as minds but still p loud & takes like 5-8 minutes to fully crack everything in his back n shoulders
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I have, once again, made fanart for @batbitesthebat 's Frankenstein au!
//TW: blood, open wounds, stitches, death//
Here's the full completed version!
Here's the version without shading (I worked FAR too hard on this for all my little details to be obscured by shadow)
And here's Bat as she creates The Horrors™
I'm SUPER happy with this piece, it's gotta be my fav!! I also get the bonus of Bat having a seizure whenever she gets fanart, lol :P
#when you do everything in your power. going as far as breaking the very laws of nature. Just to bring back the one you love most.#only for everything to become so much worst#now he has to grieve him all over again. as he slowly and painfully dies once again#now shellington has to geieve someone who is both alive and dead. kwazii is a sort of schrodinger's cat. both alive and dead#and. honestly? i think thats a lot worst#imagine being in such grief that you take things into your own hands#imagine being denied the peace of death. to instead suffer in agony as you slowly rot#grief can make people do crazy things :] 👍#octonauts#art#octonauts fanart#kwazii#shellington#kwazii x shellington#kwazton#frankenstein au#ibispaint#ibispaint art#gore#furry art
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I am at the stage of trauma recovery that feels like reattaching previously dead limbs.
#I keep having this mental image of like. A girl who was sliced clean in two vertically#And one half exists independently as an almost-functional half-girl#And the half-girl looks like a complete girl from certain angles. And bloody raw mess from others.#Trying to live life. Frustrated a lot of the time that she can't do the same stuff as other people can#Because she's only half there!#The other half issss not quite dead but also definitely not attached. Dismembered in a box#Ah you know how it is. You're an opinionated and outspoken child in an abusive home. People are going to chop bits off of you.#And some of what I knew as healing was taking bits out of that box and slowly painfully sewing back on like. Chunks of spleen and lung.#But some of it was really just growing a callous over the gooey parts#Which did stop me from bleeding out! But now i'm on limbs and i'm having to cut through the callouses too.#Piecing the two halves of my head together. Great big ugly seam running right down the middle. Holding it while it heals#Once again. hugely recommend Pete Walker Complex PTSD book#Me Fein#I also recommend everyone who ever wronged you saying: i'm so sorry you were right the whole time.#But I understand i'm in a unique situation.#Its like#Really really really good#Trauma
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A rare day has come, goobers. Teri has drawn some proper, honest to God fan art.
SURPRISE! IT’S OJV STYLE EVERYONE!!! ♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡
If you know me then you know I am a slut harlot whore for these two and the Situations their loving mother puts them in. They are THE Super Best Boyfriends and they make my heart so, so incredibly happy
Conveniently I’m posting this just in time for a fresh bedtime story to have dropped! You should absolutely go read it right here!
And hey! If you want some more consider reading other works by Riley (aka @1moreoffkeyanthem) on her ao3!
Love you queen thank you for keeping the Style girlies (gn) fed your hard work does not go unappreciated!!! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧
#I had a lot of fun doing these!!!#picking apart descriptions and interpreting them in my silly little style#handsome prince Stan is so lovely#and ethereal Kyle is *chefs kiss*#I fear even that I leaned too much into elven traits for him#but damn is he pretty#just two painfully hot dudes staring longingly into one anothers’ eyes#true love isn’t dead it lives on in OJV style#once again I scream it from the rooftops#if you arent reading pce what are you even doing#South Park#fanfiction#fanart#digital art#procreate#sp style#asteria’s art
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okay thinking about embarrassing moments of my life: done
now: anderperry
anderperry fic but it’s just a series of different moments of neil realizing he wants more with todd except he’s like, really fucking dumb
neil, getting to know todd: i want more
also neil: omg i must want to be his friend
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neil, tracing the shape of todd’s lips with his eyes: i want more
also neil: omg I must want to be his best friend
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neil, staring at todd’s hand, wanting to know how it feels in his own: i want more
also neil: hmmmm maybe i want to be his bestest best friend ever?????
and so on
aka neil not understanding what he’s feeling beyond a desire to be closer to todd and yeah
#i like my neil perrys to be painfully oblivious#just like i like my todd andersons to be painfully in denial#deadpoets#dead poets#dead poets society#dead poets headcanons#dps headcanon#dps fanfiction#dps fandom#dps fic#anderperry#anderperry AU
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Wooooaahh what’s that i heard about goodtimeswithscar? Everyone should spam post every piece of scar fanart they have available immediately? You got it chief 👍
If anyone’s curious, the Scar in the green sweater vest is from an AU of mine that I’ve been working on here and there for a little while now (based off a video game called In Sound Mind) and i would LOVE to ramble about it if anyone would like to hear about it :3c
#I’m painfully aware my art style is hella inconsistent ok 😭#also the mer scar is a wip from a drawing page i was doing for a mer scar fanfic :3#the fic is ‘if you could understand me’ by chamomilewood on ao3#ALSOOOO tcd scar my zombie apocalypse scrimbly 🫶#plus the au ones i mentioned hee hee#hermitcraft#the crafting dead#goodtimeswithscar#goodtimeswithscar fanart#gtws#gtws fanart#gtwscar#gtwscar fanart#gtws hermitcraft#gtws jellie#jellie fanart#(i know there’s no jellie here just roll with it ok guys)#jellie hermitcraft#Joy’s art
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