#Jesus I need therapy.
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hello, it's me again. so i saw you mention on my prompt how jason would be jealous of rose's healing factor when it comes to fucking kara and the jaycass you wrote and i thought why not combine them? in young justice jason and kara are part of the light and cass was in the shadows before defecting and joining the bats. what if she doesn't? childhood friends/lovers jaykara but kara becomes a red lantern after jason's death. after a while jason heals and goes on a mission with kara and they recognise each other. they cry, fight, fuck, all of that before breaking free of the light and run into cass. maybe cass and jason fucked a couple of times in the league to release some stress, and kara would be attracted to cass, so all three of them have a threesome inside a lazarus pit. just a cycle of fucking and breaking and dying and soul breaking healing. you can get really kinky with this too, like kara could ride jason to death, jason could fist cass until she needs the pit, cass could ride jason's face until he chokes on her juices, could even have kara bring a strap and her and jay could fuck cass at the same time (regular dp or anal dp) or peg jason until he can't walk. maybe they force kara to take a kryptonite shard up her pussy while jason fucks her and cass rides her face. technically the lazarus pit would boost their stamina every time they dip, and kara's a kryptonian, so they'd fuck for actual days or weeks. maybe they fuck so long they don't realise it until a team associated with the justice league walk in on them on a mission to rescue cass or something
HELLO YOU. YOU GET ME. it's my favorite thing EVER when the Laz Pit is utilized for a vicious cycle of fucking, dying, and fucking again. the altered mental state, the violent levels the sex can be taken to when dying no longer matter and longterm injuries aren't an issue... it lives in my brain.
i'll be honest, i don't know or care much about the Young Justice tv show so you'll have to forgive me for this being divorced from that world bc it's just. foreign as fuck to me so my apologies for that but as for the porn. (decided to put this headcanon/concept under a cut bc i feel like what could be considered snuff is probably a jumpscare for most ppl so. click at your own warning)
i just. i adore brutal dead dove sex that is destructive. like the whole "i want to crawl inside your chest" but it's *literal* and no one takes advantage of Laz Pits enough to do just that. like sex where you just physically can't hold yourself back from tearing open the flesh of the person you love bc you need to see their blood, you need to hold their heart in your greedy fist type shit. and if this is an AU where Jason and Kara were close but got separated by Jason ended up with the League, i do think their reunion could bring about just that. for once Kara isn't holding herself back and she's clawing at Jason's skin until he's bloody. i think it's fun if sometimes she just fucks him *in* the water bc it's quicker that way and Jason is constantly on this edge of death and rebirth at the same time. and with Cass in the mix too. JayCass you get me anon <3 Jason loves Kara still but it's clear he and Cass are a sort of package deal now and Kara might not know Cass well but if Jason loves her, she can trust that. so she gets to know Cass in the only way she cares about at the moment, pinning Cass down and fucking her. with a strap, with her own fist, anything that she can get inside of Cass to feel her body. maybe she pushes in too far and fucks Cass bloody until Csss needs the Pit sooner than even Jason did. and for Cass, who has no benchmark for real love but this dizzying feeling of being revived over and over, this is all she can ask for. devotion.
them suffocating on each other is so good- Kara doesn't care if Jason or Cass need to breathe, she cares about getting off and feeling whole again. she holds them down until their body gives out and forces them into the Pit again. maybe at some point she gets curious and holds one of them down facedown in the waters just to see if it's even possible to drown in the Lazarus Pit or not. she breaks bones just because she can and she wants to see what level of pain it takes for Cass to actually react to. how long it takes for a human body to bleed out. exploring their bodies means memorizing the limitations of them. it means she learns what them getting close to death looks like the same as getting close to an orgasm and whispers filthy dirty talk about how she can hear Jason's heart about to go out as he's trying desperately to come before he dies again. she counts how many minutes it takes before they die from lack of oxygen and compares who can last longer.
the Kryptonite shard is also enlightened- eventually Cass and Jason want to be the ones in control bc fair is fair and they deserve to do the same to Kara so they find some stash of Kryptonite and hold Kara down until it's deep inside of her and she's weak and in pain but still getting fucked. and she gets to taste the Lazarus Pit too, which i think would make her absolutely feral. Kara deserves some Pit rage for fun, i think even if she only gets to taste it while Cass is holding her down so Jason can fuck the Kryptonite deeper inside of her. every now and then Kara actually manages to strike one of them hard enough to injure them and it doesn't matter bc the Pit is right there.
all of it lasting for Days is just. good. like the haze the Pit has on the mind, being used over and over? almost like a spell none of them can break. they'd live the rest of their lives like this if they could and there would never even be a realistic end. it takes someone else walking in and managing to separate them before they actually calm down. and days before all the Lazarus Pit wears off and it finally sinks in just how fucked up what they did together was. and how fucked up it is that they don't even regret it. they're already trying to figure out where another Lazarus Pit is and how they can get control of it. i think it's fun if they spring it on each other too. like Jason will fall asleep in his bed but wake up to Cass and Kara holding his head under the green waters as he thrashes on instinct. Cass will be minding her business until Kara literally grabs her at superspeed and just flies her off to the waters to spread her legs and fuck her at superspeed until she's a bloody mess. they never know peace with each other and they irreparably damage their psyches over this. ty and gn.
#necrotic answerings#jaykaracass#jaycass#karacass#jaykara#dead dove do not eat#darkfic#anon it's like your connected to my brain bc i've been thinking about this concept for months#I might write this fic. I'm so serious#or just a fic with some ship with this concept.#anyway this one is so dark i've had the “can I even post this” question hit me#which of course means it's a favorite of mine#this is a reminder that I take the necrotic in my username seriously. it's not an aesthetic it's a promise.#I just adore Kara being so disgustingly feral in sex#and having a laz pit that lets her stop holding back. god bless.#I don't pick favorites but if I had a favorite anon. I think you'd be in the running I won't lie#bc yea. just. yeah. also your rarepairs are ELITE thoughts#does it count as snuff if the death isn't permanent and all characters understand that? unclear.#I feel it needs it's own word atp.#ALSO you could add cannibalism to this concept#Kara literally biting chunks off of both of them.#just bc she can.#or Jason and Cass eating at each other as she watches.#good thoughts all around#Jesus I need therapy.
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Katsuki fucking LOVES that you’re smaller than him, he drools over the thought.
He goes feral over your hips being swallowed up by his rough grip while he pounds into you mercilessly from behind. He looms over you, caging you in his embrace, as sweat drips from his forehead down your back. He fills your senses, he’s all you know as he shoves you into the sheets once more.
And he’ll be damned if that doesn’t make him fucking animalistic 😳
#I still need therapy#I still need jesus#bnha ao3#bnha bakusquad#bnha kirishima#bnha sero#denki kaminari#denki smut#poly kiribaku#bakusquad smut#hanta sero smut#kirishima smut#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakusquad#bakugo smut#bakugo x female reader#bakugo x you#bakugo x gender neutral reader#bakugo x male reader#bakugo fluff#bakugou x reader#bakugou fluff#katsuki x you#katsuki x y/n#katsuki smut#katsukibakugou#katsuki fluff#katsuki x reader#bakugou katsuki#katsuki x male reader
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im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:
videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.
and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.
this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.
there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.
there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.
for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.
i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.
here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."
eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.
we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.
"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"
thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.
it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.
an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.
and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."
#and there's something else in there about like ....#tbh once i got over something like 1k followers#i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON.#yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc#but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about#in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers#bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like#jesus christ lord almighty#every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me#each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!!#their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was#fucking cottagecore !!!!#like girlie this person needs THERAPY#again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc#bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this#and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!!#aND THEY ARE!!!#something something something they know this content makes them money#they don't give a SHIT about u babe
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saw ur grower or shower hcs,,,, as an extension to that, what would their sizes be? (sry if u’ve alr done size hcs,,,,if u have can u link them to this ask pls)
Gonna kill two birds with one stone and say both size and hair :)
Grower:
Simon Riley : 8 inches, decently thick + buzzes the hair down real short but does not shave it all off :).
Kyle Garrick : 8.5 inches, average thickness + shaves completely.
John Price : 6.5 inches, definitely the thickest in this category + trims his bush.
Alejandro Vargas : 7.5 inches, thin but VERY curved upward + does not shave, does not trim, the man's been rocking the same bush since he first started growing it in puberty.
Alex Keller : 7 inches, average thickness + buzzes it down like Simon does, right after he's done trimming his mustache :).
Shower:
Johnny MacTavish : 5.5 inches, THICK, thick, thick, beats everyone + does NOT shave on the field... but shaves it all off at home :).
Rodolfo Parra : 5 inches, average thickness + shaves it off fully just like Kyle and only ever lets it grow a little before he's shaving it off again.
Philip Graves : 4 inches, but he's the second thickest in this category + shaves it all clean off because if his face is shaven, so will his balls be.
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what type of op sibling issues do you have?
the: "depressed older sibling who still manages to look after the younger one despite thinking of themselves as unlovable and is thankful for their sibling's love because they were each other's only support for a long time / younger sibling that feels guilty for all the burden the other had to carry and blames themselves for everything and ended up being too mature at a young age" ace and luffy type?
or the: "caring but emotionless distant older sibling under an abusive household that did what they could do to protect the younger one but it was never enough out of fear of being targeted too / younger sibling that holds grudges against family and understands that the other tried their best but it was never enough and chose to only save them whenever it was safe for them and wants to run away from the family line" reiju and sanji type?
#because me and my brother are both and it's so fucking funny hahahahahaha i need to go to therapy jesus christ#the things kinning luffy and sanji makes you write huh#sorry this is kind of vent ??#i'm just in a very ace/luffy and reiju/sanji siblings dynamic mood today#don't let me be sad i'll post shit like this#okay so it's never actually said that sanji resents reiju for her behavior but y'know what i mean#this is just me projecting ngl#one piece#black leg sanji#vinsmoke reiju#monkey d. luffy#portgas d ace#asl brothers
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HOW THE FUCKITTY FUCKING FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO BE OKAY AFTER THIS?! LOOK AT HIM OMFG LOOK AT HIM I LOVE HIM THIS DORK SO MUCH MY GOD 😭🧡
#Hori you're one hell of a motherfucker#Ilysm#fucking hell#baby with the cutest smile#jesus christ#no way I'm surviving the end of this series#like fuck#that smiiiiiile#someone help#I need therapy#bnha#bakugou katsuki#mha#mha 405#bnh 405#mha leaks#bnha leaks#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#katsuki bakugo#bakugo katsuki#he's absolutely gorgeous#I love him
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Just finished season 6 of the Dragon Prince
(More coherent thoughts in tags)
#tdp#the dragon prince#tdp spoilers#the dragon prince season 6#the dragon prince season six#Jesus where do I even begin#it was so profound#so well written#so raw and emotional and yet so triumphant in some parts#I already related to Soren because of who I am and my relationship with my father#this season was like a stab to the heart#and then it has the gall to make me cry tears of joy#because of the queer wedding and just. all the love#this season had a lot of death and destruction but also so much love#love for partners#love for family#love for friends#it was all so gut wrenching in how it could be both hopeful and tragic#anyways the writers cooked#however I will be asking them to pay for my therapy#someone please talk to me about this season#dms or reblogs idc I need to RANT#also I saw so much symbolism and motifs in the backgrounds and so on FUCCCKKK#please please someone let me ramble about the beautiful writing decisions
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Y’all don’t even know I need more toji x male reader shit I eat that shit up way too quick✋🙄
Scratch that I need more x male reader in general who tf am I kidding I’ll read like almost anything
#toji x male reader#im gay as fuck#gay#x male reader#im starvin#holy bible#i need him#i need jesus#i need therapy#please please please
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#saw one that said semesters and it was close but i needed more of the ben affleck smoking vibe#this has been my philosophy since i was probably 16 and it hasn't really served me at all 🫶 but this year it might#(it really might what with the meds and the therapy but jesus christ i cannot do this anymore)#a post#anyone who attempts grad school has my respect forever
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wow everyone here is insane and/or mentally ill
#my post#giggling a little bit about it. holy shit you all need therapy. for the most part#reading through character summaries to try and find smth and jesus fucking christ#you are all so strange. /aff but christ#you could put like tsukasa or rui in here and they would be completely normal in comparison to most of the cast i think
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It's happening. I'm being recommended things again and I have no idea why/j. Take a guess of what it could possibly be? You're not prepared for this:
Frog Underpants
They're on Amazon btw if anyone is curious. Amazon both gets me and shames me for my investment in fictional characters.
#i am now a young man who needs therapy and jesus#according to my recommendations and ads#i also have dog#which is probably due to Pupnetto#irl i only have cat#also I'm an artists#even though i can't draw a line#fictional bingles have overtaken my actual life
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Y’ALL, I-
KATSUKI FUCKING BAKUGO ALWAYS STUFFING YOUR PRETTY PUSSY FULL WITH HIS RING FINGER CAUSE HE GOES ABSOLUTELY FERAL OVER THE THOUGHT OF TOUCHING OR KISSING HIS WEDDING RING LATER ON AND REMEMBERING YOUR JUICES FLOWING ALL OVER IT 🫡
#i need therapy#i need jesus#bnha ao3#bnha bakusquad#bnha kirishima#bnha sero#denki kaminari#poly kiribaku#bnha bakugou#mha bakugou#bakugou x reader#bakusquad smut#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugo smut#bakugou katsuki#katsuki x y/n#bnha bakugo katsuki#katsuki x you#bakugou#bakugou fluff#bakugou x you#bakugo katuski#bakugo headcanons#kirishima smut#denki smut#hanta sero smut#mina smut
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➼ Shadow and Bone (S2E6) + Crooked Kingdom, Chapter 16
#shadow and bone#crooked kingdom#jesper fahey#aditi hilli#sab edit#soc edit#my edits#ck spoilers#HI YEAH I NEEDED THIS TO EXIST#AND I HAVEN'T SEEN THIS DONE YET SO HERE WE ARE#sorry I'm not a GIF maker I know it could be prettier but alas#I just need to yell about this because I read CK after watching S2#so when I read this part I literally gasped aloud#thinking back to this scene in the show#and how much HARDER it hits when YOU KNOW you know#jesus christ#leigh bardugo pay for my therapy challenge
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[this post is about the succession SEASON ONE finale bc I’m ten years behind]
anyway like the way denial was the emotional undercurrent of everything in this episode…. starting with tom telling greg to shut up so he can block out the truth of shiv’s infidelity, to roman and the launch and just immediately shutting it off and pretending like it didn’t happen, and us as the viewer feeling the absolute horror realizing that people could have DIED, and seeing the utter disconnect in Roman, watching a livestream on his phone like it’s a video game, going back into this huge fucking party, the party itself being the physical place to symbolize the utter isolation and social disconnection of the filthy rich from the rest of the world. the tension building while we’re like jesus christ did he fucking kill people?? and then he finds out oh no, it’s just two thumbs and an arm, what a RELIEF, and we as the viewer vicariously accepting that relief as a lesser horror while still seeing the horror. the way it mirrors the horror of the first episode when roman rips up a fucking MILLION DOLLAR check in front of a poor kid. reminding us that while we might relate to their human foils and emotions, the absolute SCALE of their faults and ignorances have such massive, unfathomable consequences by virtue of their power. and then you have. fucking kendall. and the kid in the car. and it’s the exact same situation. and the thing that makes it so fucking VISCERAL is that it doesn’t jump cut to the next day. we stay with him the whole fucking time as he walks away from that scene. we watch him break back into his hotel, wash himself like fucking lady macbeth. make his way back to the party. dance with his fucking kids. the dissonance is so fucking strong. it’s like coming back to omelas after seeing the tortured child. what can you do but pretend? and tell me you haven’t fucking been there before. tell me you haven’t been at that party, where something horrible and unspeakable is happening inside of you but you have to dance and smile anyway. we all know what it’s like to be in denial. it’s human. and yet the consequences of these people’s denial, by virtue of their power, is so vast and sickening, that it becomes inhuman. they’re not inherently evil people, but the circumstances of their wealth and privilege takes their shortcomings and corrupts them into poison and bombs. all of that accumulating to logan psychologically exploiting kendall in his moment of trauma, kendall breaking down and crying like a kid, and of course he would, ANYONE would, but he’s not anyone, these people aren’t anyone. I don’t mean they’re not human, I mean the opposite. they are human children playing an elaborate game of pretend with the rest of the fucking world as their dolls. they’re not masterminds. they’re toddlers demanding to be loved and blowing shit up in the process. and it’s easy to watch and say, wow that is so fucked up. but who am I if I act like I can fully separate myself from this story and be like “welp, anyway! back to bed!” without recreating that same denial? who are any of we to act like we’re not in some way complicit to the horror of the world when in order to function and live our lives we have to completely compartmentalize the part of our brain that comprehends the news? I’m not saying a normal person is in any way shape or form as responsible as a billionaire, nor am I saying there’s any moral answer to this. I’m just saying……….. fuck
#sorry but like. jesus christ. I need a therapy session#succession#succession meta#succession season 1
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there’s a progression in there, somewhere, of even going from ‘the master might kill me any day now :(‘ to ‘the master is going to kill me :) she’s not going to let someone else do it after all this time’
#i wouldn’t call it hubris exactly. more like this pretty secure surity that that’s how they’re going to die.#and to them that makes sense. they chose this. they keep choosing it after the doctor offers them a way out.#because this is. they understand this. and they feel safe in the reprieve before their death.#how do you control death? choose who kills you. the last defense of a prey animal.#something something dark mirror to clara’s ‘i am owed’ speech for even is if this ever. doesn’t work out the way they thought it would.#clara tried to threaten the doctor so that he’d reverse death for her. even would turn on the master if she tried to spare them.#i am owed better. i am owed the death you promised… i am owed the knowledge that you don’t care enough to save me… you know. something like#that.#even is. kind of. meant to mirror the doctor’s companions at the time. they are a martha who can’t leave him. they are a donna who has to#remember and never speak about everything they know. they are clara if during deep breath clara reached back and truly didn’t expect. truly#hoped. that no one would take her hand. because if they can be certain it will happen they can know never to reach again.#jesus christ. go to therapy boy. you have so many trust issues.#but that’s why they’re Like That with the master because at the end of the day. who is easier to rely on? the guy who comes in to put out#fires but only sometimes. or the guy who. really really fucking likes starting fires.#better to get burned hoping someone is coming or get burned knowing that’s what would happen. and even. chooses the latter.#AND ALL OF THIS. for me to say thats why i cant actually let the master ever kill them.#i think she needs to do something worse to even. i think she needs to abandon them.#and that will either set them free to go have healthy normal relationships or. lets be honest much more likely. completely fucking break#them. which would be fun :) for me.#dw oc
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gotta get all my LINCOLN thoughts DOWN while im relistening to this godforsaken podcast. here's just some stupid observations that i wrote a whole thesis about for no reason
here's two things we know:
- lincoln was raised to always be honest about his feelings
-- despite this, we consistently see lincoln distracting himself whenever big, hard feelings come up
after the grant sauce scene outside the classroom in episode 7, lincoln doesn't take the time to process anything that his father has said to him. he asks normal if HES doing okay after the conversation with Sparrow, and then immediately changes the subject and tells everyone that they should ditch school and go to Sonics so that he wouldn't have to think about it.
and hey, that's all fair; that was some heavy shit to lay on a teenager, and he'd need a lot of time to process it, but we see Linc consistently choosing not to process it.
later, during the grant arc on earth, linc chooses to drive specifically because it's easier not to think when he's driving. when he leaves a voicemail to Marco telling him that he might never talk to him again, a really hard conversation for linc to have, linc ends the phonecall saying, 'no, this was a bad idea, everything's fine-- prank!'
(and it's not fair to say that linc telling scary that they should look for her stepdad first is also evidence that linc does this when part of it was a structural thing to mimic season 1's anchor order, but it IS consistent with linc avoiding hard emotions)
and all of this isn't even inconsistent with him being raised to always be honest! linc never had to deal with big, hard emotions like this, he's only ever been super sheltered and homeschooled and safe. if linc ever felt lonely or bad, his dads would find a way to accommodate him through some form of enrichment, and if the enrichment didn't help, matts made it clear that lincoln's favorite time of the day is when he can just be alone in his room in the space under his bed where it's calm and peaceful and he doesn't have to think about anything. linc is honest about his feelings up until they become so complicated or painful that he doesn't know how to be honest about them. linc is extremely blunt up until he doesn't know how to think about his feelings without getting hurt
grant talks about how he worries linc's relationship with soccer is an emotional distraction. he worries that linc is using soccer the way grant used violence to shut down his thoughts. and sure, linc genuinely loves soccer, it's a harmless interest to have (especially when you don't have the opportunity to have many other hobbies), but Grant recognizes that linc is using it as an emotional crutch-- or at the very least worries that that's what he's doing.
and thats the one thing that grant cant really explain to linc as a parent! if grant stops him from playing soccer JUST because he's worried, he'd have to explain WHY he's worried, and grant cant really do that. he can't talk about how much he likes killing people around his son if he isnt sauced.
and with the main big, scary emotion that lincoln faced in his backstory being mr. kicks, i'd bet lincoln dealt with that feeling by doing a lot of the same. distracting himself with soccer or zoning out entirely. i'd bet grant watched linc avoid any and all discussion about mr. kicks and instead focus on getting better at soccer. there's no way to prove that, but it's consistent with matt's character choices.
so here linc is, going through puberty, spiraling into apathy and avoidance and being like WHATEVER and WHO CARES to everything. this most recent episode was the biggest change in his character yet; he gave up soccer, said it was a waste of time, and broke that goddamn pick.
he doesn't really NEED soccer anymore now that he's learned that he doesn't need an excuse to be dismissive or avoidant anymore; he can just do it. he can just say whatever now. he can just brush people off. he can be abrasive and distant, just like scary.
and it's sad because man, he did really love soccer, even when he was using it for the wrong reasons. he really did love his family and friends. he had the strongest values and the strongest moral compass and he really, really believed in being a good person. but now he's having to deal with big, scary emotions for the first time, and he has no way to know how to deal with them, even with all the therapy his dads gave him. agughghhghghg lincoln li wilson
#talking tag#dndads#MATT IS THE JESUS OF CHARACTER WRITING... TO ME!!#ALLLLLL OF HIS DAD FACTS ARE SO CONSISTENTLY GOOD EVERYTHING HE DOES MAKES SO MUCH SENSE IN CHARACTER AND THE MORE WE HEAR#THE MORE MAKES SENSE ABOUT LINCOLN. WHICH IS CRAZY IN A DND IMPROV PODCAST#when linc is like 'i don't wanna think about it just tell me what i need to do' and anthonys like 'america needs more soldiers like you!'#like fuck........get myson some therapy#and thats not to say he runs from all bad emotions. his anxiety is so bad thatd be a ridiculous claim#linc wears his heart on his sleeve. he cries at the drop of a hat. it's almost always easy to tell exactly how he's feeling#but he definitely has the wilson curse of being very brave in an actionable way but shoving down the emotions that are complicated
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