#Jaden Dont Look

[criticalglitch]

Pulled From The Brink

Callar and Saint Trina near the end of their journey. Sandoval, slain by Leda's blade, offers one last service in death, carrying his beloved goddess to the Gateway. With the discarded sacrifices of Miquella the Kind in their hands, only one obstacle remains in their path to returning the Empyrean to himself.

Callar wiped the blood from its mouth, shoving Leda off its stinger. She was deep in slumber now, heavily wounded, but there wasn’t time to finish her off. They were so close to their goal now, just one more staircase away. Sandoval, or Trina (it wasn’t quite sure what was piloting his flesh now) walked, vines holding his abdominal wall together like stitches. His wounds burst with flowers, petals falling behind every step, a determination in his movements. He… They held stakes of soft gold in their arms, ascending the steps.

Callar ran to catch up, blades in hand, something akin to terror and reverence on his face. It was almost time.

Together, they passed through the gate, stepping onto soft ash and sand. The platform was positively swarmed with desiccated bodies, the sacrifices of the hornsent and Marika herself from long past.

There stood the abomination – all edges and imperfections carefully blended away. The idyllic lord, for a gaussian age, a composite of strength and honour. He was speechless as he drew his great swords, approaching the two.

Callar could scarcely comprehend it. The light at the gate, the horror before them, the utter despair of it all. This was not the Miquella that saved it. This was an empty shell, void of love, void of kindness. It glanced at Sandoval – what was left of him, and beneath the petals and the blackened blood, there were tears in his eyes. An agony it had seen once before, only recently, at the bottom of the fissure.

“Miquella. Stop.” Callar heard her voice, soft, but clarion with the amplification of Sandoval’s dead lungs. “Please.”

Callar braced its hands on its blades, its muscles rippling beneath its skin. The air was thin here, and it found itself light-headed, as it narrowed its focus. This was paramount. This would be the end of everything if they failed.

The spectral form of Miquella the Kind was nothing but refracted light, stepping down from the gateway. His eyes were closed, serenely, as he descended the steps, resting a ghostly hand on his Promised Consort’s shoulder.

“You should not be here,” he said softly. “This realm… this rite, they were never meant for your eyes. Callar, return home.” He seemed to turn his attention to Sandoval, despite not truly seeing him.

At the recognition of the gold, the petals, he seemed to shift in and out of focus. “These things I have abandoned for the greater good. For a kinder world. To bring them here is to sully my sacrifice.”

His voice felt empty. That hit Callar where it lived – the mirth, the exuberance, the yearning to live and to learn and to grow – it was all gone. The golden radiance that once eclipsed everything else in the room, that drew its devotion out like gravity, circling the joyful, beautiful, seismic mass that was the Empyrean Miquella – it had bled away.

“He won’t listen,” Trina’s voice echoed across the sand. “He can’t. Not like this. Callar, help him. Please.”

“She couldn’t understand it,” Not-Quite-Miquella continued, and Radahn’s form seemed to bristle, held back only by a few ghostly fingers. Callar could smell the thirst from across the pathway, the desperate hunger for war, for bloodshed. It recognized it intimately, and it set it on edge. “The weight of it all, what it would require. This world is dying. Those who suffer are left to rot. I would see it flourish, with life, with love. I would grow gardens over graveyards. I would mend all that was broken. And for that… I would sacrifice anything.”

Callar shook its head, fighting the uncomfortable heat in its face. It had been a long time since it had felt terror – true terror. And it stared him down with closed eyes and an empty face.

“A world without you as you were… that’s none worth defending,” it said, its voice breaking. “You don’t know what love is anymore. How could you possibly preside over something you’ve lost?”

That gave him pause. Pause enough for Sandoval’s feet to step forward. “We return to you, your doubt.” His flowering hand drove the golden shard into Miquella’s heart, an explosion of light blinding Callar as it tried to rush forward. Radahn seemed to recoil, almost as if in pain, the sympathetic tether between the would-be God and his Lord tenable.

Miquella’s form flickered and sputtered, like a candle flame below a breeze. White light formed between cracks spidering across his chest.

Callar gripped Sandoval’s arm, keeping him upright in the stunning weight of the reaction. It held onto him, the coalescing scent of his hair, his blood, and Trina’s bloom giving it strength it had forgotten.

“The harm you’ve caused in the wake of your sacrifices,” it was difficult to distinguish the sound now, between Trina’s and Sandoval’s voices. “What was it for? What does it serve? You’ve stolen General Radahn’s honourable defeat. You’ve desecrated Lord Mohg’s body, a man who so fervently opposed the Golden Order that failed him so, by supplanting Godfrey’s most loyal supporter within. This injury is an antagonization… to both of your brethren.” Miquella’s eyes opened slowly, irises empty of colour. His lips parted, as he glanced at his creation. “Our vow… We were to right it all. Every wrong, every sin, every curse… I… I couldn’t do it alone. You don’t understand- “

Callar gripped Sandoval’s hands, another shard within his palm. He drove it into the cracks, which widened, splintering further.

“We return to you your fears,” it said, refusing to avert its gaze from the light.

Miquella revulsed back, barely maintaining his grip on Radahn’s tensing shoulder. Glittering, incorporeal tears fell like shooting stars down his cheeks. Callar stared at Sandoval’s trembling hands in its claws. Trina was losing strength. But Radahn wouldn’t hold. Horror was dawning in Miquella’s expression now, seizing his countenance by the throat. It fought against itself. Seconds were spilling away, while it held on to the corpse of its lover, inhabited by a dying lily.

It had to let go.

Sandoval crumpled to his knees, slumping forward slightly. Miquella recoiled like a wounded animal, the hand slipping from Radahn and bringing his knees to himself. Radahn bellowed, the blades raising as the bloodflame coursed through his own half-brother’s body. It writhed, unfamiliar to him, agonizing against his battle rage, and he flared it outward, an explosion bathing Callar in scorch marks. The fire made it frenzy, losing all sense. It remembered Aeonia and the bloom, the terror in that moment where Malenia abandoned herself and scarred the world. It remembered the arrows raining from above, scattering its comrades and pinning them to the ground like butterflies in cases. The sheer force of him, the indomitable will that was Radahn, fighting for only the sake of violence.

Callar screamed as it launched forward, its blades flying into him, every cut made in desperation, in bloodlust, in fury. They clashed alone, lost in a battle coalescing from a decaying age. Sandoval crawled forward, streaks of black left in his wake. The petals were losing their firmness, draining of colour. Miquella shrunk from him, his hands covering his face.

“No… no no no… I… I was going to fix it all… I…”

Trina choked on the Tarnished’s dry tongue. “My beloved…” her voice was agonized, longing, with a sorrow deeper than the fissure itself. Sandoval’s metal hand pulled the four palms away. “Your heart…” With a trembling motion, Sandoval pressed another shard within him, feeling a staccato drum in his form. “So that you may know your terror, and name it…”

Callar’s swords braced in a cross, the bearing strike from Radahn’s weapons digging its heels into the sand as it skidded backwards. Their eyes locked, flame to flame, burning them both from the inside. But where all that was left of Radahn was love of war, Callar could not afford to lose. It fought with a fervor unmatched.

Blood seeped into the sand – Radahn’s, Callar’s – it didn’t matter. The strength and savagery painted their steps and strikes in crimson.

“It’s… it’s too late,” Miquella said, recoiling from Sandoval. “I can’t stop…”

“It’s never too late to be kind,” she whispered, directing his eyes to the scene across the arena. “Let him rest. Save Callar. Don’t let it lose itself here.” Sandoval’s hands proffered the shards, but in an offering, not a delivery. “Your compassion. Your joy. Your sorrow. Your strength and your weakness, all that you were.”

Miquella glanced at the battle raging nearby, and hesitantly took the broken pieces. Himself. All that he was.

Light seared through the sky, brighter than the sun, stronger than the gravity of the stars. Callar stumbled backward, and Radahn fell to one knee, slumping over. An eternity seemed to pass, Callar trying to ease its eyes open, its retinas nearly burned out. Small steps sunk into the ash, the scent of honey and nectar sweetening the air. Tiny hands pulled the swords from Callar’s grip with ease and pulled it down into a tender embrace.

Miquella was crying, his tears and form solid against the knight. He held it for comfort, his and Callar’s; he buried his face against its arm, his hair billowing in the breeze. “Wait… stop. I’m sorry. Callar, I’m so sorry.”

Callar squinted, and looked down at the Empyrean’s small, golden form. Real. Solid. Unharmed. That warmth it knew and adored, radiating like a lodestone under the sun. It slowly wrapped its arms around him, eclipsing him in size, squeezing him gently. There weren’t words. He was returned. Moons upon moons of agony and strife, the sorrow of their travels, and he was finally returned. Only the soft sounds of his sobs and the wind whistled through the empty gateway.

Behind him, the small form of Trina waited patiently, her expression soft. She cocked her head, ever so slightly, and glanced back towards the steps. Sandoval’s broken body, split open and lifeless, sprawled across the sand in a pooling sea of black. He who had carried her, and believed so firmly that this impossible mission would succeed – and yet, he wouldn’t survive to see the culmination.

So she waited. She knelt in the sand, her greatest gift the space needed for Callar’s and Miquella’s long-awaited reunion. The pang of loss stung in her chest, the bright hope that burned in Gentle Sandoval’s chest now only an ember, lost adrift in the sea of death. That most beautiful, wonderful part of him, that he shouldered heavily through their journey, and it was nearly gone. But she waited.

Miquella looked up, his wet face shining in brilliance. “Are you hurt…? Callar, are you alright?”

“I’m fine,” it murmured, its voice weak from exhaustion. It wasn’t – not quite, but none of it mattered now. Not now that it was finally over. “It was the only way. This… this wouldn’t work.” It looked up to motion to the Divine Gateway, when its eyes fell on Sandoval’s discarded corpse.

Time seemed to skid to a stop. Seconds stretched to hours, as it left its own accursed body. Callar saw its hands, folded over Miquella’s – it’s greatest joy, it’s most solemn duty. It peered at itself in this ageless span of space. Sound had deafened to silence. Colour seemed to drain from the world, everything in hues of white and grey. It could feel tears sliding over its cheek, but they didn’t feel like its own.

“…Callar…?” Miquella’s voice was trembling, and uncertain. It flooded back like a tidal wave.

Sandoval’s hands in it’s hair. The gentle peal of his laughter, the light in his lips when he smiled. ‘I love you. All that you are. All that you have been. And all that you will be.’ The scent of his skin, the way he would curl into its abdomen in the cold of the night. The way he loved. The fierce, uncompromising way he refused to stop loving it.

Its hands fell from Miquella’s, its fists clenched. It wanted to scream, hellfire in its throat, but it was soundless. Miquella turned his head, his eyes widening at the horrific sight before them. “He… he’s gone…?”

Trina kneeled by Callar’s side, gently grasping its trembling fist. “All death drifts here,” she said softly. “He gave us all a gift, did he not?” Callar did not respond to her, despair clutching its insides like a claw. Everything felt tight, as if its organs may implode from the pressure. It sucked air between clenched teeth, a hoarse, wet sound escaping its throat.

Miquella glanced at his other half. His love. “What’s possibly left of him?” His voice trembled as he asked, eyes still shining with tears.

“His Hope,” she said gently. “Dearest Callar… Miquella, my Heart… Help me find it.” She urged it, tugging delicately at its arm.

“How.” Callar’s voice was hollow. It couldn’t quite bring itself to believe any of this was real. Not anymore.

“Remember him,” she whispered. “Remember him with all your might.” Her small hands carefully closed its eyelids. She took Miquella’s hand, and reached forward, grasping through the intangible sluice of death. Searching for the soft glow of Sandoval’s last ember.

When I get you home, you’ll rest like a champion. Now get your legs up and march, darling. We’ve a demi-god to save.

Will you be there?

Wherever you are is home to me. Of course I’ll be there.

Callar choked down a sob, burying it. It could see the moonlight in his golden hair, shining brilliantly in the night.

Lotuses! They’re lilies that grow on the water’s surface. They’re quite stunning.

Flowers that grow inside water?

You’d love them, I think. I’d cultivate them for you. Whatever colour you fancy best. It’ll take some time, but… well. Anything beautiful is worth waiting for. Like you.

Shut up.

You’re beautiful, Callar.

Shut up.

You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.

When it opened its eyes, Trina and Miquella grasped a small bulb in their hands, just beginning to sprout. Deep blue petals were just barely visible from the parting base.

“Hope cannot die if you feed it,” Trina said softly. Miquella took the bulb, prying open Callar’s fist and placing it inside. “It is the strongest part of him.”

“We’ll sustain it, Callar,” he said, smiling meekly. “All you have to do is tend to it. Let it flourish.”

Callar stared at them, its gaze questioning, confused. “What… what did you do?”

“Returned a favor,” Trina said, grasping Miquella’s hand. “The rest is up to you.”

It looked at the bulb in its hands and rubbed its eyes incredulously. There was a coolness to it, that same easy, gentle ebb and flow he recognized as the man it’d learned to love. The one it thought it’d lost. It clutched it to its chest, and Miquella raised it to its feet. “Come. Let’s take him home and bring him back.”

[nyukyusnz]

Do I confront him do I not..

[poptartmochi]

ah. hm. ykw important context for that last post would be that the oracle was heavily involved with the light infiltrating her world + sowing a million seeds of ruin which lead to her friends 🧐 who once had a bond of steel turning so intensely against each other + taking the world down w them if it meant the other would fall

[gassydumbjocks]

Filthy Animals

Shawn sighs trying to focus on his algebra book again to study as he hears all the noise coming from the living of the apartment he shared with his roommate.

He couldn't have any worse luck than living with the most sexist, grossest, filthiest, and DUMBEST guy he've ever met, Jaden was watching the football match with his bunch of good-for-nothing bros again, or apes, like Shawn liked to call them, filling the house with the obnoxious sound of their dumb laughs and bodily functions, Shawn swore he couldn't pass five minutes without hearing (or smelling, even from his room) a belch or fart those ogres would let out, and then giggle like toddlers cuz it was so much fun for them.

"BOOOOOUUUUURRRRRPPP" the jock lets a fat bassy belch out after drinking a whole can of beer "Woooh Broo! Hahaha, that was a fucking BEAST! ah?" He says joking with his slob peers as they all agreed while watching the game or commenting about the breast or butt from the cheerleader girls they were dating on.

It was already enough for him, as he made his way out of his room decided to confront him, he found him on the couch wearing nothing but his nasty underwear and a hand under it as he scratched his balls casually, Shawn grimaced.

"Y'all will never behave?! I can hear your disgusting noises from my room, You animals!" He said, almost red from rage, but Jaden simply letted a goofy laugh with the dumb smile and look he always had, same with his dudes.

"Lil bro, relax a bit, we're bonding as we men should do, you afraid to cut the cheese or what?" he smirked as he lifted one of his legs and pointed right at Shawn, he grunted and before the poor guy could do anything "Protein fart bomb!".

PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPRRRRRRRRRTTTTTT!!!

The putrid stink of the protein combined with the beer and all that food he and his friends were eating hitted Shawn almost immediatly, making him gag and feeling nauseus, wanting to run to the bathroom and throw up, while Jaden was having a good laugh and fist bumping with his all his bros, some even responding with another fart just to bother Shawn more "Damn i fucking stained my briefs with that one hahaha" Jaden said smiling, and it was no joke as even Shawn could see the brown mark on them, horrifying him.

"Ewwww! STOP YOU BRUTE!" He covered his nose "You are an ANIMAL" he hissed giving him a killer look.

"What is your damn problem?" It was then when Jaden got done with his whines and looked at him "Why dont you fucking relax and start acting like a man? You could even join us if you wanted" He offered, for Shawn's surprise, but the nerd was so mad that he made a disgusted face at the idea of it.

"I wouldn't join a group of slobs without manners who only know how to think with their cocks and fart or belch non-stop like fucking pigs, You are so dumb that you cant even count past 10 or say your own names correctly!" He stated, The jocks made overexaggerated gasping sounds, seeming offended by it, Jaden just stared with a neutral expression, his 'you're dead already' look perforing him deeply. Shawn quite started to fear him once he lost his sudden dose of courage.

"We'll see who ends up being the animal here, lil bro" was all the jock said before focus on the game again, leaving Shawn with a bad feeling running throught his spine as he rushed back to his room.

"Idiot... He just wants to scare me" He said as he seated again in his chair to continue his studying for the rest of the night, A little worried tho, for Shawn he just said the truth, but he didn't know what the immature and stinky athlete could do to him, time after overthinking about it he decided go sleep, unaware of the plan the Jocks at the living were making in that moment.

During the next morning, Shawn woke up around 9 am, so he supposed Jaden would probably be at the gym before his training, he got out his room and walked to kitchen to have some breakfast, but to his surprise he was there, still in his undies as always when he was home , eating some brownies from a plate that was in the table, before smiling at the nerdy guy "Brodaah!, you want some of these? My girlfriend brought me brownies cuz she made some for the annual campus event tomorrow, but i can share" he said, as innocently as he could sound, Shawn narrowed his eyes at him and then at the brownies

"If you farted on them i swear i'll throw them to you" he threatened, Jaden rolled his eyes, grabbing another "Bro, grab some, i didn't put anything nor poisoned them, ya paranoid" He said "I left the white chocolate ones for you, i ate the rest"

The pale guy doubted for a sec, but then he thought that Jaden maybe couldn't even be that smart to think on something to ruin the food, he was the last of his class and his IQ didn't pass over 65.

He slowly extended his arm, and picked up a brownie, he sniffed it before "Smells a bit rare... What did she use to bake them?"

Jaden simply proceeded to shrug "they tasted good to me, just try one bruh! You wont regret" The jock said once again, Shawn looked at it unsure of what to do, after some eternal seconds, he sighed and finally bited the brownie, gulping it down his throat once finished

"Eh... Actually it wasn't so bad-" He got interrupted by a huge growl, coming from his deep gut in his stomach, he held it in pain with a hand, and somehow for some reason he started to feel a bit... Bloated.

"What the hell was in that?!" The nerdy guy looked in horror the taller jock, who just dedicated him an evilish and satisfied grin.

"You'll see, lets just wait it does its effect" He said, Shawn tried to run, but he couldn't move neither "This is bullsh-..SHIOOooOOOUUURRRRPP" a wet then deep and smelly belch made its way out of him out of nowhere, but instead of feeling ashamed, that burp seemed to take all the worry out of him and leaving him on a slacking and relaxed state.

"Cool haha" Jaden approached him, seeing the scrawny boy with a lost look standing there "Now we can start... Where should we... You said we were animals, but what if i tell you you are one too? Man, you even smell worse than me, just sniff your pits!"

Shawn proceed to lift his arm and sniff deeply, he showered daily, but now his armpits immediatly took a fetid and rank odor that could make even the strongest faint.

"And you also said we dont have manners, remember? You dumbass, we both know your fumes are deadly, you love to let it rip bruh hahaha"

PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPRRRRRRRTTTTTT!!

That blast made Shawn's pants vibrate at the bass from that fart, with each gas he letted out, his expression seemed more and more relaxed and drool scaped from his lips.

"You forgot you are such a dumb jock" Shawn made a goofy laugh at that as he scratched his butt.

"Such a dumb and gross jock"

"BOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUURRRRRRP" was Shawn's response this time.

"You truly are an animal, dude, so dumb and filthy i cant imagine how you are even able to talk haha"

"Du... Dumb hahaha" A new deep voice came out of his throat, and then he belched again before grinning stupidly.

"Oh and, for the record" he made a pause "I did farted on those brownies, but just yours man, and Bryan could possibly rubbed them in his ass... And Wesley maybe burped on them too, i dunno, just enjoy the extra flavor haha"

Shawn never felt more dizzy or dazed in all his life, not that it mattered now tho, his life now was being a hot dumb and smelly jock, blasting burps and farts as if it was his own breath, it felt good to be dumb, it felt good to act like a man.

[cerealmonster15]

OH MY GOD!!!!! they should kiss. they WILL KISS.

what if our ocs went to a carnival together. What then they could share snacks together. Perhaps ride a ride or two. Set them free let them frolic

[ilwonuu]

Heello🧡 can you do one where the reader (also a famous singer) and Jaehyun are secretly dating but fans find it out, and realize they were giving signs like posting the same day, same places, wearing same hoodies, same bracelets.. thanks

yes of course!! i actually had an idea like this!! thank u sm for your request!! i hope you enjoy<3

ू♡ pairing- idolbf!jaehyun x singer!reader

ू♡ summary- you and your boyfriend are not exactly subtle. but people don’t usually catch on. or do they?

ू♡ warnings- kissing, secret relationship, lmk what else

ू♡ a/n- i loved writing this!! thank you so much <3

you and jaehyun have been dating for around 7 months now. happiest you have ever been.

no matter the nervousness of the situation you two got through it. you both having a break after touring. you finally finishing your first tour of your career.

him finishing his group summer tour. you and jaehyun finally want to take time together. you two traveling together.

you both documenting your trips you two knew it was kind of risky. but you always posted couple pictures. not showing his face of course. so your fans knew you were in a relationship. they had no idea who he was. that was your goal.

the two of you in europe taking you time together. love every second of eachothers company. your fans knowing the two of you are friends. you telling your fans about the friendship you have with all of his members.

you don’t understand how your fans dont piece it together by now. your matching bracelets. your matching rings. your matching pfps on your music app. your pictures always showing off a little. maybe a little too much this time. you and jaehyun taking pictures at the cafe you’re at. you posting a picture of the two of you on your story without showing his face. him posting something from the same cafe a couple days later.

you guys are going home shortly after. you’re seen in one of the hoodies jaehyun was wearing at the airport. bracelets still on both of you. you were practically prepared for people to find out. you and jaehyun arriving back in your house. you deciding to go with him to korea.

you still surprised about the amount of people at the airport. you and jaehyun getting there successfully. immediately crashing with your boyfriend into bed. “finally home with you. i’m exhausted.” your boyfriend says into your neck.

“jaehyun-“ you laugh a little. “me too.” you two getting comfortable in bed. him smiling a little kissing your lips.

“baby i need to show you the pictures of you i took.” you say to jaehyun grabbing your phone. he shifts to look at your phone seeing you go to instagram. reading comments well just a few. “jaehyun- people are commenting about you on my posts-“ he moves to read them.

“fans finally know? they see all the same places and the bracelets… im literally in your hoodie.” you laugh. “i’m happy people are finding out. i want everyone to know you’re mine.” he kisses you. smiling a little taking a photo of himself for your story. might as well tease them now. <3

[mobiused]

is it too late to ask for said actual nuanced statement about your feelings on the way loona has split up and how you feel about supporting each of the factions as a fan

No :0 Okay well this posted early accidentally come back when I've edited it with the answer you seek; edit here it is

As anybody who follows me and actually listens to what I post knows, yes, I was disappointed with the choice that the 5 members in modhaus made.

The reason is of course Jaden Jeong's involvement in the conditioned that caused the members' suffering. I honestly do not care to "respect" the members' choice when, firstly, they're public figures, which means they're in a position where they open themselves to judgement, having surpassed what it means to be a regular person into an overman; hence, idol (no this isn't lore) (yes it is) and it is parasocial to think we as fans owe them the kind of blind devout respect that is reserved for people you know and are close to. We, of course, need to respect them as people even if they are idols which leads to my next point. Secondly, they're adult women who are capable of making their own choices. It is only patronizing, infantilising and self delusionary to cheer them on for every choice they make void of criticism. If I respect them as a person, that means I care about the decisions they make enough to be able to disagree with them. The only decisions you respect unconditionally are from your God (if you have faith) or someone who has got you fucked up.

of course all of this is only my opinion to be clear ^^;

So to continue, I don't respect their decision to join modhaus. However I do accept their decision and think of them no less as people - that's very important to me for people to be aware of! That may have sounded harsh but I only have strong feelings because I care.

When it comes to modhaus vs ctd, to ME it feels like a faction of people who are willing to ignore a history of mistreatment to blindly follow their idols because that's what idolatry is versus a faction who are distrusting and reluctant to give a second chance to a man (and his company) who have done them wrong. And of course bias vs bias.

Regarding why I don't hold ctd to the same standard as modhaus; one is an established company with another group under their belt and the other is a company that formed because Hyunjin asked really niceys. The "mistakes" that modhaus are making, like having Jaden and doing NFTs and having loss of the members' autonomy to give fans control as a business model (to be frank, I don't care about missing english subtitles or those small things, its whatever) are much more severe to me than CTD fumbling the bag in ways that only affect them financially. Sorry I don't care about them picking venues that are too big for them on a concert, I don't think it's that big a deal.

In this way, I think cloo vs ourii, ctd vs modhaus, is much more than the preference people have for the idols actually in the companies but rather an ideological thing. Can you put the past (that isn't yours to begin with) behind you to stan a group with no guarantee of being completely safe and in control, or are you going to be wary of a company that has done little to demonstrate how it's protecting the girls' best interests. At least that's how it looks to me.

And it's weird how we dont see Chuu & Yves akgaes right? And I think that's because the companies are such unknown elements that it's nowhere near as polarising to support them, like there's no reason not to.

And I do think there is a lot of us vs them going on. (some) People who are artms member stans who have become full-blooded ouriis have made it their mission to find any excuse to bring CTD down - maybe out of a guilty conscience vengeance for the criticism that modhaus has been getting. And the same can definitely be said about cloos who just want more reasons to shit on modhaus even though the problems are inconsequential (see? I'm not wholly biased)

In summary I just think it's sad that it's had to have been this divisive. If the loona members weren't in the position that they were - that no company was willing to accept them bar modhaus, and the members who got out first didn't feel obligated to go to modhaus, since CTD - and other places - weren't an option, things maybe would've turned out differently. Or maybe they wouldn't have, and there will always be fanwars regardless.

[iheartmomochi]

for the longest time i avoided ygo gx bc i saw multiple people online call jaden annoying and say that gx wasn’t as good as 5ds or the original ygo, so i just never bothered to watch it.

but last week i started it because i wanted to watch it for myself and WOW, everything i’ve been told and read online was so far from the truth. i personally am finding gx very enjoyable and judai is super likable! not at all annoying!!

im watching it in japanese because i just dont like judai’s eng dub voice actor and i think that’s definitely why im finding gx enjoyable because everyone ive seen call gx the worst and say jaden is annoying has only watched the 4kids eng dub which is.. extremely bad. im actually shocked by how bad it is. like im no stranger to bad 4kids eng dubs (winx fan) but i didnt think it would be THAT bad.

i tried watching one of the episodes in the eng dub and they just completely changed hayato’s character?!?! for some reason when sho is trying to wake judai so he isnt late, hayato says to leave him be that way they both have a better chance of advancing to ra yellow & in the next scene judai says something like “im late but chumley sure did cook a large breakfast today, im stuffed!” genuinely what was the point of having hayato’s character purposefully make judai late to nake it seem like he wanted to sabotage him??? in the original scene judai is just late bc he woke up late, not because of hayato. also why did they have to change hayato’s name to chumley of all names. i also just dont like how the 4kids dub doesn’t have sho call judai “brother,” like surely they could’ve had sho say “bro.” and by not having him say that, it just takes away from so much of their relationship since sho sees judai as an older brother cementing the fact that sho looks up to judai.

bad eng dub aside, im really looking forward to seeing how things play out! im only on ep 11 rn

[elemental-daddy-neos]

So a mutual put this on my dash, but I wanted to reblog this version to argue a few things here. Character design is very important, but if anyone actually bases their like/dislike of a character solely on that... That's just kind of dumb. I don't like Syrus, but it's certainly not because of how he looks.

We really need to start putting more words on shelves. Relationships can be bad without them needing to be "toxic" or "abusive". Like yeah, I don't think Syrus was a good friend to Jaden at all, but it's not really that deep. He just sucks. (That's my opinion, you can disagree with it, but it's not changing.)

I don't think it's accurate to say that people put Syrus on a pedestal, because no one was doing that. They certainly did with Jaden, but as for every other character? No one expected great things out of Syrus or acted like he could do no wrong/was some kind of savior. People sure thought highly of Zane because he was actually a great duelist, and yeah, it might suck to be related to someone more successful and feel like you'll never live up to them, but I can't think of a single person who pressured Syrus to try and live up to his brother's legacy other than Syrus.

As far as why I don't like Syrus... Listen. I did like him at one point in time, when I was a kid in middle school and had barely any knowledge of him outside of the handful of GX episodes I caught on tv and fanfiction. When I fully rewatched GX as an adult, I went into it with the expectation that I would like Syrus because I remembered him being written nicely in stories I couldn't remember, but that expectation quickly died. His greatest sin is simply being annoying, and I can safely say that there's no secondhand embarrassment on my part that comes with watching him. He just gets on my nerves for more than one reason.

As far as loyalty... Syrus is about the least loyal person in Jaden's friend group. The very first example is him leaving the red dorm the second he gets the chance to. It wasn't too long ago that Jaden had the same opportunity he did to advance to Ra Yellow, but he stayed in the end because red was where he belonged. You'd think that a loyal friend would at least consider doing the same, but Syrus didn't even hesitate or seem to remember how Jaden had turned down the chance to move up to stay with his friends. First chance he got, he left.

Of course, Syrus did still stick around as a friend, so him moving dorms didn't change much in the end as far as friend dynamics were concerned, and sure, if his goal is to be more like Zane, it'd make sense that he'd want to get to blue dorm eventually. I just think it's very telling how there was never a moment where he thought "What about Jaden?" before accepting the promotion. Even if he's got his reasons, you'd think that someone who considers himself the protagonist's best friend might think about him just a little before committing to Ra Yellow.

This kind of ties in to those comments about how "Syrus cowers in danger", which is a normal response to have, if you're not very brave, and he's definitely not. Those situations started to rub me the wrong way after enough times of watching Syrus continually doubt Jaden in every dangerous situation they found themselves in. I think it's kind of sad when new characters enter the show, become Jaden's friend, and have more faith in him than one of the characters who's been there from the beginning. He never believes in Jaden, he never has the slightest bit of faith in him despite seeing his abilities for himself time and time again, and every time there's a high stakes duel with our beloved protagonist taking place, Syrus is always standing on the sidelines fearing the worst and expecting Jaden to fail. This does not ever change throughout the course of the show, and it really just drives home how accurate that curse mark he received in season 3 was. His defining character trait isn't loyalty, it's doubt.

And for the aniki thing- Jaden never liked that. He was shown to be uncomfortable with Syrus calling him that because he didn't want to be an older brother figure for this guy, he wanted them to be equals. Syrus just didn't listen to him when Jaden said not to call him that, so he ended up letting it slide. It's not exactly a measure of how devoted he is to Jaden, just how eager he is to shove his brother problems onto the first guy that shows him kindness.

I know this is getting really long at this point, so I'll try to wrap it up: Syrus was never a good friend to Jaden. He used him as an emotional crutch for the whole show, leaned on him because he couldn't handle his issues on his own, and never gave anything in return for all the support he received from his best friend. Even as far into the show as season 4, when Jaden was struggling really hard with his depression over the events of season 3, Syrus (and everyone else) essentially ignored him unless they needed Jaden around to solve their problems for him. We never once saw Syrus try to reach out for Jaden or check in on how he was doing, arguably at the time in his life where Jaden needed his friends the most, but what we did see was Jaden still going out of his way to help Syrus. That episode where Syrus had to duel that guy who wanted to challenge Zane? Jaden brought him food to cheer him up. He was going through a hard time, and he still put in the effort to support his friends, and at the end of the day, what I really hate about Syrus is that all the effort Jaden put into being his friend was never returned by him.

Syrus isn’t a bad character, you’re just mean.

The way some gx fans just completely write off Syrus pisses me off more than it should, because you know they wouldn't be doing that if he was a little bit taller and a little bit more attractive. I have legitimately seen people argue that Syrus is an abusive, toxic asshole to everyone when most of the people around him are abusive toxic assholes to HIM. Syrus is just a little guy who was put on a pedestal because his brother managed to be an amazing duelist and all that people see in him is “Zane’s little brother”, completely writing him off and not seeing him as a person beyond that.

Syrus's entire struggle is that he'll never live up to his brother or be a great duelist, or even manage to play the card game he's going to school to study for, and he overcomes that as the seasons go by (ESPECIALLY season 4). Syrus starts off as incredibly cowardly, shy, clingy, and easy bait for stronger students, but he breaks free from that shell as the episodes go by.

I've legitimately seen people justify Tyranno and Chazz's bullying of him because he "deserves it for being a coward", when all he has done is be mildly annoying or a hormone-enraged teenager, as if those things are inherently horrible acts that require Syrus to pay for his sins.

Syrus is by far the most realistically written GX character and I personally believe that people do not like him because Syrus exhibits behaviors that they've done that they're embarrassed to death about. I've seen people get mad because "Syrus cowers in fear whenever there's danger" AS IF THAT ISN'T A NORMAL REACTION???

Syrus watched his teacher's soul get stolen and watched Zane have a heart attack and die right in front of him, give this poor boy a break and spare him of your massive hateboner.

Yes, it is wrong of Syrus to project his insecurities onto Jaden, but in NO way is he a bad friend or quote unquote “abusive”. He was ride or die, absolutely loyal to Jaden, why else do you think in the original japanese sub he called him "Aniki"? Because he cared. Jaden was like a big brother to him, and I hate that the fandom writes that off and claims he was horrible to one of his best friends. People hate Syrus for no reason much to the point people will literally pull shit out of their asses to Argue Syrus is a bad character, and I think thats very unfair.

Sorry for ranting but I just HAD TO.

[cyberdragoninfinity]

Axel and Anna for the character ask thingy!!!!

MY MAN AXEL 🔥

Why I like them/why I don’t: TRULY ONE OF THE REALEST ONES axel really carries like a solid half of season 3 on his shoulders and then comes back swinging with the Angst Agonies in season 4 like HE DOES IT ALL. HE'S JUST A RELIABLE DETERMINED GUY WHO WANTS TO FIGHT FOR GOOD. AND his duel disk is a fucking GUN.

What I like about their appearance: i love his eyelashes, theyre a more subtle detail but theyre very charming. Also it's just always a small miracle to see a black anime character whose design isnt Um. Questionable. All Things Considered (looks at girag 8| )

Do I prefer their dub names or original names? i like axel brodie and austin o'brien probably about the same! it's just nice to see him mentioned regardless of name choice.

OTP: again, he and jim are married in my brain for all intents and purposes. they did Not go through all that in The Duel Monster War Zone to not have a little gay thing going on.

NOTP: hm. i dont think ive even SEEN enough axel ships to have one i dont really like??!?

OT3: mentioned when I talked about jim but axel/jim/jesse is pretty fun. hell throw jaden in there too

Favourite card they use: Blaze Accelerator and Tri-Blaze Accelerator are fucking crazy. FIRE GUN(S)!!!!!!!! #BURNDAMAGEMOMENT

Favourite moment they were in: god his duel with the supreme king still goes so fucking hard. i do also like the Psychological Horrors he got put through by mr. T in season 4 STOP STOP HE DOESNT DESERVE THIS

Least favourite moment: all of the early season 3 stuff with him and professor viper but thats less axel's fault and more. god Damn i find professor viper extremely boring lmao

Something I associate with them: combat heavy war TTRPGS... in college AU he likes to DM them <3

AND MISS ANNA KABOOM!!! 🚂🚂🚂💥

Why I like them/why I don’t: anna rules so fucking hard...like most zexal girls i wish the show did more with her but just like. the sheer concept of a yugioh girl whose deck isnt full of cards that are solely Pretty Lady but instead GIANT TRAINS and RAILGUNS is so obscenely kickass im so glad she exists. i love that shes tough and pushy and overconfident!!! LET YUGIOH GIRLS BE A LITTLE MEAN!!!

What I like about their appearance: she is so CUTE!!! i love her sporty hair and white + pink + red color palette and her FUCKING CANNON SHE RIDES ON. it's such a delightful yugioh girl design

Do I prefer their dub names or original names?: SORRY ZEXAL SUB BUT NOTHING IS GOING TO GO HARDER THAN "ANNA KABOOM" I MUST SAY.

OTP: your honor anna/rio is MY yuri ship with two girls who didn't interact you must understand i like them So Much. butchfemme couple... fire and ice....snowpiercershipping..... i need to draw them again

NOTP: anna/yuma is like. it's not even bad anna is just such a baby butch to me this ship doesnt even cross my radar. she likes women.

OT3: ok now rio/anna/tori might be cooking.

Favourite card they use: GUSTAV MAX MY BELOVED. MOST INSANE ACE MONSTER ESPECIALLY TO GIVE TO A YUGIOH GIRL!!! TANK-TRAIN-RAILGUN BLAST!!!

Favourite moment they were in: i do love her tag duel with yuma where she duels her grownass adult woman friend and her husband and said woman's ace monster is the fucking Titanic and her husband's is the Hindenburg. i think about that duel like once a month.

Least favourite moment: like it's cool she got to team up with the sparrow and duel mizar but it still does kind of suck ass that she died and went to hell like half the rest of the cast >:( SHE COULD HAVE STOPPED IT

Something I associate with them: LEMON_DEMON_MY_TRAINS.MP3

[splishsplashyouropinionistrash]

Kevin Day Character Playlist

#2, Kevin Day /// Character Playlist (link)

"Fuck all of them. Waste of time to be angry. They should be afraid."

This Is Love ~ Air Traffic Controller

Blood // Water ~ grandson

I Was Just A Kid ~ Nothing But Thieves

We Have It All ~ Pim Stones

Play Dirty ~ Kevin McAllister, [SEBELL]

Me and the Devil ~ Soap&Skin

Monsters ~ Seafret

The Crooked Kind ~ Radical Face

Begin Again (Taylor's Version) ~ Taylor Swift

The Exit ~ Conan Gray

Looks Red, Tastes Blue ~ Mayday Parade

Game of Survival ~ Ruelle

Little League ~ Conan Gray

Clean ~ Taylor Swift

Seventeen ~ MARINA

Without Me ~ Halsey

Burning Piile ~ Mother Mother

The Kids Aren't Alright ~ Fall Out Boy

Greek God ~ Conan Gray

Everybody Wants To Rule The World ~ Lorde

I Miss The Misery ~ Halestorm

I Wanna Get Better ~ Bleachers

Burned ~ Grace VanderWaal

Mouth Of The Devil ~ Mother Mother

The Truth I'll Never Tell ~ AS IT IS

god save me, but don't drown me out ~ YUNGBLUD

Angel On Fire ~ Halsey

Don't come over, i'm an a**hole ~ Jeremy Zucker

I Wasn't Made to Fall in Love ~ Miko

mirrorball ~ Taylor Swift

Bejeweled ~ Taylor Swift

The Sound of Letting Go ~ All Time Low

Are You Satisfied? ~ MARINA

I Can't Handle Change ~ Roar

Better Than Me ~ The Brobecks

Therefore I Am ~ Billie Eilish

Sober ~ FIDLAR

you should see me in a crown ~ Billie Eilish

Make Me Your Queen ~ Declan McKenna

Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea ~ Fall Out Boy

Glory And Gore ~ Lorde

Achilles Come Down ~ Gang of Youths

All the King's Men ~ The Rigs

Oh Raven (Sing Me A Happy Song) ~ Unlike Pluto

My Alcoholic Friends ~ The Dresden Dolls

Cure For Me ~ AURORA

Sex, Drugs, Etc. ~ Beach Weather

Drunk on Halloween ~ Wallows

Birds Dont Sing ~ TV Girl

SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK ~ Joji

Something in the Orange ~ Zach Bryan

Start a War ~ Klergy, Valerie Broussard

Don't Save Me ~ Chxrlotte

vampire ~ Olivia Rodrigo

What Was I Made For? ~ Billie Eilish

Winner ~ Conan Gray

the grudge ~ Olivia Rodrigo

la di die (feat. Jaden Hossier) ~ Nessa Barrett

Andrew's Playlist

Neil's Playlist

[drunklollipop]

(shaking you by the shoulders) YOU GET IT. YOU GET ITTTT. ITS LIKE AN EVIL SPECIAL INTEREST. LIKE A CAR WRECK.

From an autistic person, Autistic Blaire is so true and real. I get she’s supposed to be malicious about gender but she’s deliberately written to want the best for people but not understand boundaries. If someone sat her down and told her (and the author wants to write her as anything but the ex-girlfriend) and said “hey, you’re cis. So am I.” she’d back off. But nobody can say what they mean despite the fact that they do nothing but talk at each other for 300+ pages. You’re right about the QT collective being more interesting/entertaining but they’re the same 1-2 personality traits as all the other side characters who show up to talk for a few pages and then disappear for 5 chapters. We know they’re not gonna get with either of our leads so they’re just “tall stoic one”, “mom and daughter”, “short buff one”, “misogynist” “crushing on misogynist” “trans guy who wants a boyfriend” etc etc. I get everything I need to know out of less than a sentence so I don’t care where their lack of arcs go. Anyway can’t wait for ballroom night in 2 years where all that happens is Blaire asks that DJ lady what her pronouns are, she doesn’t understand what that means, they all go home after 20 pages of filler dialogue and Riley cries alone or something. And Jaden can finally meet One member of the QT collective in maybe five more chapters if we’re lucky where she’ll continue to not understand gender and nothing will happen.

HELP YEAH she'll spend 500 more pages on edging the readers and introducing 10 new brave radfems who appear in one chapter and are never mentioned again and 5 on jaden and riley (the endgame relationship btw) getting closer (idk riley gets jaden a glass of water and jaden is like HOLY SHIT... I'M GONNA CRY... IS THIS WHAT FRIENDSHIP FEELS LIKE...) and the fans will eat it up.

also kinda unrelated but ive noticed a lot of lb fans like hcing riley as autistic and i dont get why. she is so nt its unreal. i guess its cause most of them are like 16-17 and only ever heard about autism from tumblr meme posts so now they think autism is when shy and awkward.

so funny how rusty is all like yeah im an ally and im chill about autistic riley but then when she accidentally writes characters with actual traits (blaire and jacob) its always a mockery. oh look this woman doesnt get boundaries haha its like shes in a cult. haha this kid struggles with empathy and has a rigid set of interests what an entitled moid.

babygirl also reads like that a bit cause while shes a skyscraper sized strawman i feel like her character is inspired by furry transfems on twitter who age regress to cope either with csa or inability to be a functioning adult by neurotypical standards (or both in most cases). also mad funny how lesbian male separatists used to be basically anarcho communist and now theyre a bunch of neoliberal assholes who think being communist is like the cringiest thing you can be (rusty basically implied this in her babygirl design notes. fucking lmao)

[msfcatlover]

I finished my Death Mask (Red Hood) Steph playlist, if anyone's interested.

Only took multiple months, am I right? So, if you've got... oh gods, like 6.5hrs... check it out?

(I also have the playlist with all the songs I ended up cutting in this one over here. So if you have even more time and just want a strong dose of RH!Steph vibes, open that up and hit shuffle.)

Full list under the cut, in case youtube decides to take some of the videos down or rearrange my list---or if you want to rebuild it in your playlist player of choice---broken up into rough time periods to make it easier to read.

Introduction through Death:

Trouble by CRMNL || Take It Like A Girl by Khamsin, Molly Moore, Win Woo || Giants by Neoni || That's My Girl by Fifth Harmony || Raising Hell by Kesha, Big Freedia || Make It Look Easy by Valley Of Wolves || Enemies by The Score || Oh My Dear Lord by The Unlikely Candidates || A Little More Time by Natasha Blume || Reflection (Hollow Knight OST)

Resurrection through Return:

Goddess by Cepheid [cover] || Secrets Kill by Ely Eira || Come Alive by Ely Eira || Be My Guest by Azari [cover] || Who Am I? by Besomorph, RIELL || World On Fire by RIELL || Gossip by Måneskin [cover] || A Good Song Never Dies by Saint Motel || Who Are You? by SVRCINA || Hanahaki Syndrome by Shiki Miyoshino || Shadow Shadow by Azari [cover] || The Devil Wears Lace by Steven Rodriguez || Pink (Freak) by Elliot Lee || Thumbs by Sabrina Carpenter || Feed The Machine by Poor Man's Poison [cover] || Make A Move by Icon For Hire || Dirty by grandson || Devil Inside by CRMNL || That's How You Make A Villain by emlyn

Return through Identity Reveal:

Ready For War by 2WEI, Joznez, Kataem || BURN by 2WEI, Edda Hayes || Know My Name by Tru Genesis, DJ Form, Corinne, Sean BE || Champion by Neoni, burnboy || Too Loud by Icon For Hire || Way Up by Jaden || Godsent by Smash Into Pieces || Paranoia by Neoni || Royalty by Egzod, Maestro Chives, Neoni || Good People Do Bad Things by David Thomas Connolly || GOOD FOR HER by MOTHICA, emlyn || Shut Down by BLACKPINK || You Were Wrong by Icon For Hire || Little Girl Gone by CHINCHILLA || All Eyes On Me by CRMNL || Pomegranate Lips by Derivakat || Night Of Your Life by WAR*HALL || Everything or Nothing by Willyecho || How You Like That by BLACKPINK || See You In Hell by Amy Harriet

Reveal through Tower fight:

I'm Gonna Show You Crazy by Bebe Rexha || I'M NOT SORRY by Neoni || One Woman Army by Porcelain Black || Calling All the Monsters by China Anne McClain || Monster by Willyecho || Choke by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME || They Don't Care About Us by Michael Jackson [cover] || The Road To Hell by TheUnder X Matthew Grant, Ellis Island || Villains Aren't Born (They're Made) by PEGGY || WONDERLAND by Neoni || Rituals by Jiovanni Daniel || Angry Too by Lola Blanc || Devil's Worst Nightmare by FJØRA

Tower fallout:

Go To War by Nothing More || Laplace’s Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!) by Will Wood || Motherland by REACH || Play Dead by Ellise || Aimed to Kill by Jade LeMac || Twisted by MISSIO || You Can Run by Adam Jones || Tomboy by Destiny Rogers [remix] || Whisper Whisper Whisper by Azari [cover] || Outlaw by Neoni || Wild Lands by Koethe || What's My Name by China Anne McClain

Spite-Flirting With Tim (Oracle):

Hot One by Leyla Blue, Baby Tate, REI AMI || Inferno by Bella Poarch [cover] || A Little Wicked by Valerie Broussard || DICTATOR by REI AMI || plot line by emlyn || you make a woman wanna... by emlyn || Here Come the Wolves by Lola Blanc

Fighting the family & Running the Alley:

Pretty Distraction by SkyDxddy || Stronger by The Score || Bloodshot by Sam Tinnesz || Let's Do This by Outskrts || Go For Gold by Autumn Kings || Hey Brother by Jakob Samuel|| Don't Stop The Devil by Dead Posey || Legend by The Score || What's Up Danger by Blackway, Black Caviar [remix]|| Welcome to the Party by Diplo || Do It Like A Dude by Jessie J || My Name Is... by Once Monsters || Queen of Kings by Alessandra Mele || Monster by Besomorph || I Like It Loud by Cash Cash || Confident by Demi Lovato || Looking at Me by Sabrina Carpenter || Immortals by Fall Out Boy || Up In Flames by Icon For Hire || Can't Get Enough by Jaxson Gamble || Do Right, Fear No Man by The Last Knife Fighter

Saving Jason, Having Hard Conversations, & Reuniting with the Family:

Deadly by Ellise || Cuttin' the Cord by Lunarcode || Soldiers by Sam Tinnesz, GoldTop || So Close To Me by Marc Boudreau || Dynasty by MIIA || Monster by Beth Crowley || It's Alright by Mother MotherGhost Town by Neoni, Layto || The Kid I Used To Know by Arrested Youth || Broken Boys & Bitter Bitches by Ellise || DDU-DU DDU-DU by BLACKPINK || Poison by LuLuYam || life's a bitch by TAELA || Give and Take by Poor Man's Poison || SHIT SHOW by UPSAHL || Lay Your Weapons Down by Ilse DeLange || Chasing The Sun by The Wanted || Hold Back The River by James Bay || Better Than One by The Score

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(Holy shit, sorting/fixing these took like 3hrs, and I started by just copy-pasting the playlist's text directly to tumblr...)

I’m actually super proud of a couple of these transitions, or how I chose to build the mood in certain sections

[captainshyguy]

4, 7, 13 for Jaden!

aaa tysm kat!!

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

hmmmm...depnds on the person...jaden is geneally quite open minded and curious, a little more than most jedi like, like, he questions things, he generally tries to see the good in people, and all that. he has also been brought up in a society that's very....black and whte, light vs dark, and he's had to find and carve out that nuance himself. and of course, he's been thrust into a war where its best to be vigilantand careful, in case letting ur guard down gets you killed.

but of course, his force empathy at least gives him an insight into people that most peopel dont get, so once he's cleared someone as not a threat (however right or wrong that may be. usually right), i'd say it's quite easy to earn his trust.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

ohhhh good question....i think, stuff from his earliest, scattered memories of his homeworld before being taken by the jedi would trigger such things. his homeworld a the grassy planet of dantooien and his parents were farmers, so i think brown grasslands and certain cooking smells, soft breezes might trigger that sort of feeling. i think its a slightly heavy feeling he's not sure what to do with.

i imagien its hard not to feel nostalgic about the jedi temple either, probably seeing little groups of younglings doing their classes, trainign sabers, the cozy corners of the jedi archives, that kidna stuff would be very nostgalic for him, and a more comfy, familiar type of nostaliga too! he enjoys it more there

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

i think he hasnt thought about it a whole lot honestly, whilst he's very contemplative, those tend to be more focused on stuffl ike history, ethics, outward art and media, rather than himself. he has enough mind to know he likes getting highlights in his hair, but i think thats the biggest extent to this thoguhts abt his outwar apperance. he likes blues enough, and i think that probably suits him the best too!

[triplexdoublex]

I also think music has saved Colson or helped him a lot, not only the music but the fans. He was living in a world where he felt like he didn’t belong so he created his own family where he 100% will always belong. Like imagine him without the fans support, it’s not only the fame he got from it but also how the fans showing constant support and love to him, how a lot of EST sees and treats him like a family member rather then just another celeb. Even to this day he gets so much hate and so many people disliking him for simply breathing imagine where he would be if his fan base wasint this supportive or if he went online and didn’t automatically see so much love from them. He has said there are times when the fans are the only thing that keeps him going obviously his daughter to but he said to have this many people truly believe in him and love him it means so much to him it’s why he’s so close to EST. It’s why when any allegations come to the public or any drama come out and his name is being dragged it’s so important for him to see he has his fans support, they are really wat keeps him going. Most celebs when they get accuse of stuff especially to the degree that Colson was they usually take a break but he was still doing shows and performances. Like multiple people in his inner circle are always saying how he’s constantly watching fan pages, he’s constantly going online seeing wat the fan base is saying. He’s constantly seeking validation from fans bc he replaced his family with them. There are even EST members who say they are more close to est then they are to thier own blood family and how estfest was just like a huge family reunion. I dont think we can fully save him especially if he doesn’t want to be saved. He’s proven that with the suicide attempts but I think they give him hope, it’s why it’s sooooo important that when he’s feeling that down he can go to his fan base online and see the love and support from everyone and see that not everyone hates him like he thinks. It’s not about “fixing” someone but more about giving them a reason to keep going, showing them that people care about them. Even with other est members it gives them a reason to look forward to talk to someone even if it’s just about music or looking forward to seeing other fans at shows. It gets them excited to live another day. It’s just right now Colson seems like he’s in a really tough place where he wishes that the people outside of his family would show love to him too, he’s trying to seek validation from the public and that’s where his self esteem issues come to play. Like my family loves and supports me and thinks I’m awesome so why doesn’t people outside of my family think that too. It’s like watching ur cousin go down the wrong path and watch as the world tears them down and all u can do is show them love and support and hope and talk about the good times and hope it’s enough to get them through it

Yes music it’s almost like its own form of therapy in a way and lots of artists find it very cathartic to put there pain down on paper, turn it into a beautiful song and release it out into the world. Even Jaden has expressed this in his music “you saved my life before but the music saved my soul”

[puzzlevision]

Alyssa "Ally" Forester (翠アリサ/アリちゃん)

(tagging only my moot @yukii0nna, i hope you like it)

i have this one yugioh gx oc which is alyssa forester (arisa midori in japanese; she didnt had an english last name (but her jp has) back then when i first made her). she is one of my first human yugioh oc i made and back on my yugioh phase and i adore making her.

this one is a redesign (i use picrew because i dont give a fuck about it)—her original design used to have longer, yellow green hair with some hair being tied into heart-shaped buns; more hair on side hair; lighter skin; no glasses; hot pink eyes; no hair accessory; and a different clothing. I made her as a cute anime girl (with pink as her primary color of her design), but coming back to this oc, i remade her design into "non-stereotypical" and matured-looking with more emphasize on the green color.

basic description: alyssa forester, aka ally, is a childhood friend of jaden yuki. she and jaden both used to study at the same school until senior high school, as they no longer meet together face-to-face. she has a cousin named melissa paradise (himawari kotobuki (寿ヒマワリ) in japanese) who currently woke up in a comatose post-gx.