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#Ive been into this game for a few days ago#thing is i forgot to post this doode here sorry 😔#i like sebastian solace#pressure#pressure roblox#sebastian solace#ibis paint art#artwork#digital art#my art#my artwok#fanart
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if we could stay connected, just like this
#ok last orbit niigo post im emubrained again and also i miss leoneed#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#mizuki5 spoilers#proseka#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#nightcord at 25:00#hurray !#meltdown released an amazing translation of the event so i read it and had my final cathartic transgender cry about it#and now i have ~4 assignments due on friday so i have to stop drawing mizuki. sad.#i recommend everyone watch meltdown's translation#please. its very good and better than the mtls floating around#i Get why people wanted to see it translated asap like i Get it i didnt understand half of the wordplay or kanji but like . wah#its so crazy how this event breached containment n how many people are rooting for mizuki even tho they dont play the game so i just#think its a shame that the translation everyones reading isnt really accurate/lacks the nuances.. Ok sorrynits a good event.#ive just been thinking abiut that for a few days and i love talking in tags. Adios#real Orbit heads will know this is an Heartorbit reference (that tarot card sketch i did almost 2 years ago and said i would finish)#(i havent finished shit)
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#pinterest#tag game#i was thinking about a friend who i was speaking about pinterest with a few days ago and then i suddenly had the urge to download it again#cuz PINTEREST YANNO#so anyways pls intereact dont let this flop PLS 😭#also the way all my searches were so accurate#pinterest knows me too well dawg 😪#I LOVE THE WALLOWS#tho haven't heard them in a while#in my punk rap era but still live their music regardless#and also#the cat is so me#😭#also trying to interact with some mutuals who ive never interacted with before or been really long since we did#and the regular ones always there lol#pls lmk if u dont wanna be tagged :)
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so, bendy
#bendy secrets of the machine#bendy: secrets of the machine#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#heard about this game a few days ago#and its just like. hey#if a game free#i play#(im poor lol)#this was just a funny moment i wanted to share#ive also been scared real good#so good game so far!#heard the game keeps updating throughout the day#so i might pick this up again later
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my mom keeps saying she has a question for me later all serious but then not asking it and i am in such anguish... i m so Scared
#my anxiety was already pumped but then she woke me up saying that nd am. only fear#only more overthinking#i was already so overwhelmed w so much of that o(-<#i was getting better at talking more but my anxiety has been getting worse . its like i get random slightly better days n then it Drops#i just replay moments that should b ok over n over in my head#that Were okay. for over a year now ive been fine w that type of stuff#and find every issue in myself#in what i did in what people are thinking in what theyve said#i was kinda beating my avpd and actually interacting w moots but now every time im back to just burning embarrassment at the back ofmy head#the second i speak and constantly feeling humiliated and like i should delete what i said#even now i cant remember what i said a few days ago but i can feel it in my stomach#but im gonna get real high n listen 2 music n play racing game#fortnite did successfully infect me w karol g i listen 2 her in my own time now apparently#but shes good 4 racing. ..#upbeat.. .#and im not familiar with any of her music so it doesnt harm me like most#i can just vibe
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I've got too many games I want to play and not enough free time 😭 I still need to finish my BG3 playthrough but since Endless Ocean: Luminous came out I've been playing a lot of that instead. Also just got back into Wizard101 last night. Started playing House Flipper again last weekend. Still need to finish BOTW so I can start a TOTK playthrough and finish Pokemon Shield so I can start on Pokemon Violet. I've been fighting off the urge to start up a new Skyrim playthrough for weeks. My brother just told me that Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door is getting ported to the Switch. And now I'm suddenly feeling inspired to replay DAI... And throughout all of this I'm also playing the hell out of DragonVale on my phone. Someone just pay me to play video games all day please
#and before anyone suggests it: no i cant try to get into streaming#the way i play video games is extremely frustrating for other people to watch ahdjsksl#no one is going to give me money for producing a video where i spend two hours checking every barrel in the map while juggling my inventory#and then immediately give up on a puzzle and just sit in silence for 30 minutes while i look up a walkthrough instead#i need a situation that pays me $200 a day just to be autistic at the screen alone in the comfort of my own home#rambling#a few years ago i made it a mission to play all of the dragon age games and dlcs in order and i did not complete it#i got all the way to inquisition before i quit#i had already played it on ps3 but i wanted to replay on my new gaming laptop and unfortunately my computer decided it was too complicated#and also i just wanted to play as an elf again and i was resisting that urge bc i played as an elf the first time and wanted something new#so i didnt connect to my character as much#BUT ive learned a lot about optimizing my games from getting bg3 to run on my computer#so i think i could get it to handle dai now. especially if i upgrade to ssd like ive been wanting#and i just saw a dai post on my dash that made me daydream about possible characters and i was struck with inspiration#when i first played through on ps3 i didnt know anything about da lore. it was my first dragon age game#i was just doing whatever i thought seemed coolest#so i basically modeled my inquisitor after my dnd oc and then just picked a vallaslin i thought was pretty#and then when it came time to pick a specialization i was just like 'i mean my hand has rift magic right? seems obvious enough'#but now i know the LORE. and the dalish really interest me. and i want to make an inquisitor thats their own character#i didnt want to replay another elf mage bc i thought it would be too similar#but at the same time i wanted to re-experience dai (and experience trespasser for the first time) now that i knew more about the dalish#(with mods that fix the annoying bits where your character seems to not know about their own religion of course lol...)#i was thinking about that and i just got hit with some inspiration#instead of 'my dnd character but with a cool tattoo and rift magic and they kinda roll with the inquisitor stuff bc idk whats going on'#what if i made a more intentional character with a much different personality and their own backstory#theyre still the first of their clan but i know what that means now so theyre not really into the herald of andraste stuff#theyre a devotee of falon'din with his vallaslin and fittingly choose necromancy specialization (tho theyre annoyed by all the maker talk)#they can look cool and goth and maybe they even make some different choices about the well of sorrows 👀#i could keep rambling but im running out of tags gah#anyways ive got lots of ideas now and i think the playthrough would be unique enough to be worth it
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{so your post about sun and moon's endo faces moving under the faceplates made me think more about the logistics of 'how do these guys work'. they have such in depth and dynamic voices (the other animatronics as well but sun and moon feels especially important since their faces plates dont move so they need to have really dynamic voice work to get across what theyre feeling to children)
it makes me wonder 1) why were they designed w moving endo faces that are then covered up. what was the point of doing that? do they simply have the same base endoskeleton as the other animatronics? i think that would make sense but still makes me wonder what the design process is like. and 2) how were those voices made to begin with in universe? is there a person who voiced all the soundbites needed to make sun and moons voices? or was it all computer generated since it seems to be a universe w really advanced robotics? i wonder what thatd be like for them to meet that individual that essentially is their voice. was the soundbank made a long time ago or are they still walking around?}
[[ see but those are SUCH good questions tho man idk why but i think about it every now and again
ESPECIALLY the fact about their endos mouths and things moving around... like with the glamrocks or something?? makes sense! they have mouths that open and close when they're speaking. but with sun and moon it's almost like MAYBE, just maybe.... they were ORIGINALLY planned to have faces that DID emote, but got rushed towards the end.
i'm a firm believer in the whole "fazbear got the idea of a daycare to make extra money, came up with these silly jester characters to be the faces of it, then fucking RUSHED that shit to have it opened on time"
like why else would u put two VERY distinct and different AI's into ONE vessel that switches out with the lights?? who thought that was a good idea??
it may have been good on paper, but if u really sit and think about how advanced their programming and stuff is... that is ABSOLUTELY like sticking two hands inside ONE puppet. that shit was not gonna work out efficiently.
but anTYWAYS- NO YEAH, ive thought about that too!! while i'd love to believe sun and moon have their own voices,,, it's clear that with ai generated voices, you can only get a little bit of emotion slapped in there most of the time without it sounding weird. so i'd like to think they probably have people who either worked willingly with fazbear to VA for them. or fazbear just stole little clips here and there when they could and let ai do the rest..?? bc if i remember right, freddy and the gang have a whole bunch of old vhs tapes with cartoons on them from back in the day... so maybe fazbear corp has a whole cast of people that do the voices for these characters, maybe thinking they're only doing it for the films or short episodes. but then the corporation uses them for the actual animatronics as well to give them that lifelike but also animated vibe???? ]]
#accidentalhollowingofthewind#dont you want a puppet show?? [asks];;#the one in control [ooc];;#i could blab all day about these fellers#while i only made this blog back a few weeks ago?? maaaybe its almost a month now idk?#i have been a BIG RABID fan of them since the game was first released#they scratch something in my brain fr so ive had a lot of time to think about things
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New Tales Ep 4 live review!!
- Before the intro sequence, I thought Anu didn't know Octavio friends? I don't know the timeframe in all this so it does feel a tad bit weird though, in this run I had killed Juniper so...
- Dear God Octavio not noticing it's Fran's Frogurt is so stupid 😭😭 literally no words. Till this exact moment, I could excuse a lot of the writing... Please.... He's not this dumb, right,,,, ouu,,
- "SAY UNCLE" "You're my sister and I'm your uncle" - I want to know the story behind this sm
- Fergus looking saved it with L0U13 free labour dance but.... Why did we even have the the mental worry, and then the stupid hitting Fergus butt,,, I know the games have this humour but this whole bit felt like not so well timed break
- This game cannot get where it is standing with the killing hmmmm, like no character in this run had a constant (though idk why L0u13, after his crisis, gets once again pro killing,, gonna try replaying better version)
- BROCK BACK AND HE JUST STRAIGTH UP SHOT ANU-PLEASE OFAIHFAS
- GUYS U HAVE THE GUN THAT HEALS 😭😭😭I know they wanted to make this joke but PLEASE
- I feel weird about FRAN being seen as newbie in business. Sure, she only knew one but she kept it going for a long time so I feel she knows a tad bit more seeing it's a fam business for years. Esp after that Susan talk in ep 1. She feels she should know sth more
- Bivington showing up,,, I did expect him to but I wonder. I can tell this is some setup but I wonder what type (future me I say hi) (hi past shina - dear god not one i expected, diluted elon musk oifashfiaos)
- can I propose an overpriced drink AS SIGN OF SUCCESS IS KILLING ME
- it's weird that any didn't realise she could use the lab for their project cud they need
- Anu from being a Newby to being a big fan of Maya Vaultfinder mega ultra player,,, I'm so proud
- JABBER PUBLIC PEEING AND SOOTHING MUSIC PLEASE WHAT WAS THAT WHY DID I STUMP UPON
- Anu being seen as genius and then most the work is just,,,, the goggles,,, the slapping,,,,, it's all so silly
- I was curious what would be Fran's wish and the synth sad music in there reminded me of Hyer Light drifter soundtrack. But Rita,,,
- BADASS SUPERFAN IS MY FAV character beside Rhys and all Tediore soldiers wjjwh
- Foopy PLEASE??? FOOP POOP??? The only thing broken is you HELLO - WHY WE GOT BOTH PISS AND POOP THIS EPISODE
- I wonder if Fran's focus on sexuality is a trauma response, too,, future shina here, but based on what you can tell LOUI3 I think that is the case
- 😭 Why did so many people know and could reference before Fran's traumatic experience tho??? Like it puts her so down and others just know it
-VVIP IS MORE LIKE WIP WORK WORK WORK and i got Octavio to sniff the substance cus I imagine he would try it sjshhehe
- VVVIP,,, WHAT'S NEXT A VVVVIP CUS I HOPE TO SEE SOME WWIPS,,, Also I made Octavio dance
- BADASS BEING FIRED NOOO I hope I will see him in fifth episode :0
- Susan having a gun. You go girl boss actually
- HELLO UNPROTECTED DATA STDs??? dear GOD I EXPECTED THIS AND YET I AM STILL BAFFLED
- THE FACT THERE IS A TRANSLATOR FOR YALL TALK
- I get why people like Susan, I love the translator bit, the bitchy high atittude, she gets it
- BRO THE FACT KATAGAWA SR IS NEXT TO RHYS IS LIKE 'haha remember how my son wanted to kill you well now another person does'
- "dangerous, yes?" girl it's a glowing rock
- I took around 20 screenshots of Rhys alone 😭😭😭I'm down BAD
- I wish got control of Octavio if he would say Susan is the boss... I feel it's a wasted potential
#my review#review#spoilers#new tales from the borderlands#ntftbl#anu#octavio#fran#l0u13#(i have been typing his name wrnog)#(wrong)#(can u tell im tired)#(FAihofhsaaois)#(these are from few days ago already but posting the slowly for those few who read them)#(thank you for your time spent on this)#(idk what is it about this game. it has great moments)#wait i dont need the (). anyways#its been a long time i wanted to play a game in one sitting for so long#ive been replaying it for the good run too#mostly to get some videos#it has some great moments - and i really feel people give it way too bad name#its not perfect#but it did make me smile#and sometimes - thats enough#After my exam tomorrow - which i hope i pass - i plan on writing rhys post from this game#i hope people will like it#if not#its ok. i like rhys#its just been a while. EDIT: tumblr didnt tell me i got over the amount of tags i can make so quick - thank u sm for reading all this
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#high ive been on a wee bit of an art block#the only thing ive been able 2 draw rn is v simple game sprites#take these from a few days ago tho!#:^)#my art lol#sneep snorp#whack patty's pats#buster moon#sing oc#sing 2#sing 2016#sing buster
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venting so much i ran out of tags lmao
#i think im hallucinating ?????#i have my headphones on (listening to boyfeel on repeat n choppin up some paper)#and keep feeling / seeing shadows in my peripheral vision#im probably just dehydrated and having bad floaters but i dont like it :)#today has also been bad dramatically awful#life isn't serious there's no reason to feel this heavy#oop very emo thoughts incoming#life can't be meaningful or ill miss my parents too much but can't be meaningless or im living without them for nothing#im just. struggling very hard this year. idk#i had so much health bullshit going on for months that i put off going to a psych n now im so busy that it feels bad taking time off for it#and im also scared of getting on meds bc the idea of being dependent on something that i might not have access to is.. auuughhh#idk dude my adhd has been debilitating lately and i feel so stuck and sometimes i think i have ocd bc my compulsions are so fucking bad and#all my mental bullshit with my breathing has slowly been driving me wild and peaks my anxiety#and sometimes i worry abt being bipolar bc my mom's mom is and my mom's best friend told me she thought my mom might have been#bc the way my moods are so low or so high is exhausting it feels like i haven't had a “normal” day in so long#but also atp when im happy i feel manic bc idk how to healthily experience happiness anymore#idfk y'all !!!! im also very nonverbal these days#ugh and still going back n forth on telling my therapist ive been suicidal again bc i dont want him to have to report me or anything idk#a few months ago i made a joke about offing myself and he got rly serious n said he'd have to take action if im serious so im leaning no#like. i wouldnt actually kill myself. i just don't want to exist sometimes in this life#its just been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very hard lately without my parents or grandma#and even after all these years it's still heartwrenching to think about continuing to live this life without them#like. i just want to make them laugh. i just want to feel their arms around me in a warm hug. i just want to dance to their favorite songs.#i don't want to think of them and see their dead bodies anymore. i want to remember them healthy and smiling.#i would take care of them again in every lifetime but fuck dude. i just want to remember their good days instead of the end. can i please#please fucking invision them at their best. i want to remember the dad that played baseball and video games and whose laugh filled the room#i want to remember my grandma who was so sassy but kind. whose button nose crinkled when she smiled. who taught me to happily be dramatic#i don't want to remember them being frail. i want to forget the frustration i saw in their eyes. i want to forget seeing them struggle#(insert sadness about not remembering my mom at all)#just. fuck dude. my life is simple and i am safe so i shouldn't complain. but things feel so fucking hard sometimes. i feel so heartbroken
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"My chest dysphoria isn't that bad" i say to myself.
My chest dysphoria contributing to the depressive rut i'm currently in: F̸̙̹͉͚̔̎͆̆u̸̩͈̖̫͑̌̃̂c̷̩͚̈́̔̊̒k̵̊̈́ͅ ̷͚̘̜͓̈̉y̵̫̣͋͌̇̂ͅͅo̶̢̟̗͝ų̵̘̯̖̒̽͝͝
#Its not the only thing. Theres quute a few other things#I havent been able to do stuff i like and messge my friends back#Usually i would watch anime i like thats coming out now but i havent for a few weeks now. I had enough motivation to watch the few#Episodes of dungeon meshi i missed a few days ago but thats all#Ive had that problem with video games. Bar one short play of botw a while ago i havent played anyrhing for at least a year*#*im not including mobile games here like pokemon masters. Although thats the only mobile game i have. Plus its easier bc of login rewards#Trans#Transmasc#gender dysphoria#tw gender dysphoria#cw gender dysphoria#gender dysphoria tw#transgender#chest dysphoria
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life updatez:!!!!! im still alive, all my new art professors are really nice :), aaand im still gay.💛 I mean um straight
#lem text#i’ve been using that podcast as primary distraction/entertainment and i like it lots the dm is really good at making npcs i like <333.#<- WHEN I CATCH UP ON ALL THE SEASONS IDK WHAT I’LL DO but a game im excited for comes out in a few days so.!.!!!! <33#i will try to get back to being normal soon ive been like ‘*likes one post* ok that’s my social limit for the day’ hkfndn <3#i also designed that oc f/o i mentioned wanting to make a while ago maybe i will post him sometimeee <3. ok BYE <3.
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hey quick question... why am i (someone who never engages w true crime) being recommended content on youtube about christina grimmie’s murder? and also wtf? i guess 7 years is a long time for the internet but if you knew about christina grimmie before that happened, no it’s not. that news was fucking chilling and it’s never going to be normal and it feels so weird to make it like some retrospective true crime folklore. that feels really unnecessary to her legacy to just present her as a “murdered youtuber.�� stop!!!!!!!
#the video's from two days ago & if you've been recommended the video too... listen. idk the creator of that video#so im not gonna critique them too harshly. and i KNOW the youtube game is about engagement and getting clicks#they didnt even put christina's name in the title. they refer to her simply as a murdered youtuber#stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#am i being recommended this because i sometimes watch youtube drama/commentary? (i dont watch it as much as the algorithm wants me to)#(but yeah i do occasionally click on youtube retrospectives and keep up w a little scandal here and there... not so much)#(ive definitely tried to consume less of it over the years and i only have a few specific channels i really follow)#PLEASE dont reduce christina grimmie to 'murdered youtuber' i find that so offensive and distasteful#she was a really big legend on the platform in her lifetime and she did so much w her short life#seriously fuck that. call her her NAME and if you make videos about her in retrospect obviously you cant gloss over the tragedy#but you shouldnt make it the highlight of her story. seriously. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!#text post
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bitches be like “i dont get why people love french accent that much” until they play disco elysium with the voices on and hear kim kitsuragi, having their entire view changed
thats me. im bitches
#my posts#disco elysium#kim#all those for organization but#but i get it. i am listening to his vas music also#its the only thing ive been listening since i found out a few days ago i almost feel like i shouldnt have been made aware LMAO#its sorta getting to the point id like to learn the language help i dont have the discipline to learn languages by myself#english is different bc like. i had to learn a bit at school and my mom forced my siblings and i to go to this place that gave free classes#for a few years but also ill be honest my real english learning experience was falling in love with linkin park and mcr#and watching gameplays of old rpg maker games IUSHDUG#... man when i was watching them they werent old#ok so yeah music and youtube and videogames are what finished making my english better#ah and this hellsite ngl#anyways! id need. a stronger motivator to learn french so maybe the need dies before i even try which id be fine with it bc man#.... that was a ramble IUSDHGDIUG anyways yeah thank you kim for making me understand the appeal of the french accent
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I'm back, I've been playing Etrian Odyssey and then also tweeting about DetCo and Kamen Rider Ryuki over on twitter
So this is your reminder that if you wanna see what I'm up to I'm more active over on twitter at Little_Chibs
#julia wasnt kidding#etrian odyssey really is a game you need a specific flavor of autism to love bc man i love it so far#i got into the 2nd stratum a few days ago#ive also just been yelling about detco and rting fanart#and then also ive been watching kamen rider ryuki since i think the week or so before the new year started?#tbh i dont remember exactly when i started watching it#im on episode 20 rn though and im having a good time
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my millie+leap friendship thoughts except it's actually mostly about millie. i tried to make this readable (coherency-wise)... and it's not even everything i have in my head about them. just a few words:
I looove Millie+Leap friendship (in my head it's Millie'n'Leap like one word. It's fun to say) I think they are besties.
I also think that „Leap has my back as long as it's convenient for him.“ sure is A belief to have about your best friend!!! & I really like that!! (We are not even talking about LEAP’S Millie beliefs. Those are only like, borderline positive or negative. And I also like that. He’s kind of a bitch. This isn't about him though honestly mostly Millie & though I THINK I could write more, it would be wayyyy extrapolating than even this.) I mean like, those beliefs aren't/don't have to be the whole descriptor of/the characters whole relationship, but they are there for a reason! So. I’m simply thinking about it and turning it around in my head.
And it’s just good Millie characterization too for me (also for Leap, as the other person in this relationship, but I simply have thought about Millie more on account of She's My Favourite & can speak better to how I interpret this from her perspective). It's the first close friendship she's made after being on the run from everything she's ever known (which sucked. GLORY was bad but she did also have friends & people she cared about then... See Si’dra) & then she gets captured and forced to do the same shit AGAIN? Under someone like Clementine Kesh? This is a bonding experience. It's a bad one but it is nontheless. And they have similiar goals too (get the fuck out of there).
(An aside, but I really loved during the Post Mortem when Austin talked about something he’d do differently if he had the chance: asking the prisoner-PCs to get drives that weren’t about them escaping, and rather something where escaping would be a step towards that other drive. And how both Keith and Sylvi talked about the Being a prisoner and wanting to get out being very important to Leap and Millie’s characterization to the point they would’ve been played completely differently if that wasn’t the case. It was a cool discussion. That was a very good Post Mortem. Everyone should take notes for PALISADE Post Mortem questions-wise.)
And then they do get out. And they join Millenium Break. And then aside from wanting to leave prison and hating the people they work under they’re just also kind of different people with different motivations and wishes and it shows during the Kingdom Game and after… Like Millie is someone who throughout the Kingdom Game starts to believe that she can change something and help people (and not just via violence, the Strand Semaphore project is so important). And she makes more friends on Fort Icebreaker. She meets Si’dra again and that relationship is ALSO an important one (I like them I should think about them more. There is a bit where Millie describes them traveling together to set up the Strand stuff...). And she gets closer to Broun by working with them. Etc etc. People like her because She Is A Delight, and she hangs out with different people but Leap’s still there as a person that’s important to her even as they probably see each other way less due to Millenium Break business and having different missions and whatnot.
And in my head there's something special too about Leap really pushing for the attack on Vigil City to help that Equiaxed community and Millie backing him up bc 1) duh but 2) something vulnerable about it because he gets actually emotional about it (unusual for him). And do they talk about THAT ever I wonder? If they did it would've had to been before the mission because after. Well that attack is the one where Millie loses the squad she's been pretty much training & hanging around with. And like shuts herself off again except from a few people, one of which IS Leap (and then Si'dra and Broun and that's it). (Such a good Millie Moment btw. One of my favourites). But I would say that's much more of a 'let's get away from everything for a bit' kind of hangout not a 'hash out your grief' hangout. (Another aside but I am like. I mentioned this above but imagine if Leap had had a drive about this equiaxed community or something or even just the time to contact them (I think it just got lost with so much stuff going on. I know players can't follow every thread they are given and make choices but. Ooohhh well I'm just thinking about it).)
Like I really don’t think they’re the type of friends to talk about shit. There's since scene where Millie is like „Hey I'm bad at this stuff, but are we like, cool?“ that I love a lot. I love youuuu Millieeee. So they either don't do this OR it's very Rare and honestly mostly uncomfortable when they try (fun to me : D). And neither likes it all that much. So they‘re fine. It‘s fine. There’s so much going on all the time I’d rather just hang out with you and shoot the shit than get into Stuff. That type of deal.
So it's all of this BUT like... They're best friends. They DO care about each other (in whatever way they do or don't show that) & also continue to, I just think its complicated and weird, and that they grow apart a bit too! Expecially when Leap leaves and Millie stays, and then gets disillusioned with MB leadership, and then SHE leaves...
And I think. Well I'm of two minds on Leap asking Millie to come with when he leaves bc it's nice to think. Saying hey you have a place with me. Look I drew a comic about it once. I like that. But for me in the end the weird tension option wins out. And like she's a bit bitter about it. She wouldn't have come, not at the point that he left, before Valence died, before they got really fucked up in that Auspice mission and there was this kind of ideological split in the MB leadership. But he didn't offer in the first place, so it wasn't an option after she wanted to leave, either...
(There’s a line that’s like „I haven't been getting any better offers“ in PZN36 when Millie is agrees to leave with Broun et al and it made me go OH? (delighted). Like that has to be about MB generally too but. Well I can spin this. As a headcanon I do like to think maybe Millie visited Leap after leaving Oxbridge and then kind of wanted him to offer again & he didn't.) Because I think Leap is 1) practical type of guy and 2) just thoughtless sometimes and didn't ask because he thought well she's not coming we each have our own shit going on. Which makes sense then but also. Man!
(Just about Millie now) And after all that. The the whole shit in the finale. And her at the end of PARTIZAN... How much are you changed as a person after being kind of melded with the one True Divine and also being there when your rival (also a god) dissolves/comes as close to death as a divine possibly can? AND when someone you if not were expecially close to but worked with and got along and maybe admired died to help you get out? There’s a reason she left everything behind and ran and never stopped(well we don't know that. But. Well she's off somewhere doing something). Auh... Millie....
ALSO addition I don't wanna bother working in anywhere I think I'm jumping around too much already: I listened to Millies Pusher episode a while ago and Sylvi talked about Millie had trust issues briefly and I was so happy. Expecially when she & Austin were referring to Leap leaving Millie behind in the DESERT SQUIRE arc. And it's so fun because Millie clearly is mad at him for a bit after that but she just kind of chooses to get over it? (That's the scene where she approaches him like hey are we cool I mentioned earlier. And like wants assurance that they have each others backs, and she brings up Clem, etc.). That's where that belief I mentioned at the start comes from too, and it stays, since... I don't think THAT many beliefs get challenged in general, but Millie and Leap don't get there. And it's like... OK I actually still can't form a coherent sentence about this specific thing because the thing is Millie SAYS multiple times that Leap & she have each others backs and she acts like it, too (backing Leap up) and still with this in the back of her head. Millie as someone who wants better things for herself and isn't used to getting them in her life. There's something in my head I can't quite grasp & articulate. I don't know. It makes me think. It's why I wrote roughly 1900 words total here. I love her & anyways trust issues make sooo much sense for Millie in general ouhh I love to think about it. That's why Gucci et al (MB leadership) fucking up and letting the team down like that after the Auspce mission / Valence's sacrifice hits so hard and she goes back to leaving, just wanting to live a quiet life, claw your way out...
so. TL;DR
besties
it's weird and they're close in certain ways but not others and they like to hang out and relax around each other and/or cheer each other up but also dont open up to each other
I love fraying and/or complicated friendships. I think fraying and/or complicated friendships are soooo fun
Millie💙💙💙💙
a little picture : )
and lastly some fun stuff too. since you read everything else.
Millie sleeps at Leap's room sometimes either for a sleepover hangout type deal or when he's somewhere else & she just wants to sleep somewhere that's not... hm. In my mind she's sleeping in like a bunks-type situation you know like. How bedrooms for soldiers on a military vessel would probably be like. I'm not sure that's canon though. But you get the picture there it's a bit of peace and quiet
I dont know. the chost where Keith says Leap drinks any hot tea because she shows off by drinking boiling water keeps making me go show off to WHO. WHO is impressed by this and I'm not sure the answer is Millie but she'd probably at least think it's funny. So they do dumb bullshit. Like that's just canon I think they never stop throwing food but I think they get a lot better about it (not as in it's less annoying for everyone else but as in it's like a stupid party trick because they get really good at it)
re: that (showing off), they do the thing where you put your hand flat on a table and stab a knife between the fingers getting faster each time (I feel like this has to have a specific name?! Wikipedia just says knife game. alright) but to each other. And I think it goes almost very bad at least one or two times expecially because they also do this when they get drunk
Idk how good a job either does but they do wingman type stuff for each other for sure. I don't think Millie even needs it (she is a delight. And hot) but she probably also gets awkward and nervous sometimes & I'm going back to the same scene as before again sorry but after being like we're cool? she asks leap hey I'm about to talk to someone & I need you to pull me out if I start being strange. Which isn't quite the same as wingman-ing but it could get there. And I think Leap is confident that he says he doesn't need that but I also think he won't pass up a chance to by hyped up either. his ego...
#i wrote two thirds of this over 4 months ago and then the rest a few days back and then cleaned it up. a little.#i always say idk if this is coherent bc ill just skip writing stuff down thats obvious to me bc ive thought it so much. and not notice.#so i dont know. maybe youre missing a key detail i have in my head. i hope not#partizanposting#weirdly enough i have the most thoughts on kingdom game time... even though leap is in the bg for most of it#they have good scenes there. theres also more freedom to think about bc they are. not in prison & we have this wide timeframe#so there's definitly more to say about them becoming friends in the first place that i don't say here p much at all#(also just Millie in general but I'm sure other ppl have been millieposting I should go look for posts sometime. She's soooo 💙)#some other time perhaps.#this isnt a tag on my blog. it is for this post though!#rosa talk
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