#Episodes of dungeon meshi i missed a few days ago but thats all

[drag0nalias0]

"My chest dysphoria isn't that bad" i say to myself.

My chest dysphoria contributing to the depressive rut i'm currently in: F̸̙̹͉͚̔̎͆̆u̸̩͈̖̫͑̌̃̂c̷̩͚̈́̔̊̒k̵̊̈́ͅ ̷͚̘̜͓̈̉y̵̫̣͋͌̇̂ͅͅo̶̢̟̗͝ų̵̘̯̖̒̽͝͝

[blueempty]

I'm back on the neurodivergent sleep schedule

Todays positive thing is Pokemon Legends Zygard wahoo. I'm actually a gen 6 enjoyer and a Legends Arceus stan so this is big news for me. I'm trying not to go too hard thinking about new mega evolutions or regional variants

I did end up bummed out for a while because Kalos reminded me of my friend Morgan who i was really close to from Pokken, Malamar and Diancie are her favorite Pokémon and she got really good as Aegislash in Pokken. She just kinda vanished one day and didnt say anything before completely expunging her online presence, even her switch profiles went inactive. But I finally asked one of our friends today if she knew what happened and it sounds like its as I assumed, she just couldnt deal with social media and shit anymore and on a whim completely withdrew from the internet. I truly envy her. But she doesnt like when people talk about her so i've said too much already, sorry Morgan. It just finally hit me how much I miss my friend. Shes doing well though I guess so thats good to hear

That also made me aware that my time dilation is a lot worse than I thought cuz my last message to her was in 2022 and I thought it had been like pre-pandemic. She gave me money for Pokemon Legends Arceus when it came out cuz I didnt have any at the time even though she thought it was cringe, but like, my concept of what has occured pre and post covid is completely lost, I do not know where I am in time

Except for how old I am cuz its my birthday todayyyy (the 28th) and I'm 29~~~~~~ and I'm not having a crisis at allllllllll hehee. Me and my partner are gonna go get boba and stuff but I dont have any real plan. I still kinda feel sick from the weekend before last so I've been too sleepy to think about stuff like that. It'll be nice to spend the day together tho. We watched the first two episodes of the Dungeon Meshi anime and its really well done. Marcille's english va is so good. I've been reading it all day too and the cat ninja has appeared. There was a moment when they were fighting the dragon that was so sick I almost stood up out of my chair at work. Liking that a lot

My kanji of the day I decided a few minutes ago is 飯, because well ya know. It means food, thats a good word to know regardless of what I'm reading currently right!! Looking up the stroke order helped me understand the whole kanji a lot better than I did looking at the like, text version of it from my keyboard. The rule of stroke order seems to get bent a lot. It must have to do with where strokes end as well as where they start. I know its top to bottom left to right but the way boxes are written seems to change sometimes if one side is longer or something. Maybe I'm misremembering the stroke order for 願. I probably am

Oh I found a vulture feather today too that was cool. Heres that and my plants shadows

Peace and Long Life