#It's not in that great depth but there's so much to think about

[misc-magic]

Ohh thank you for the tag, Eden!!

Mwahaha I gave myself cat ears because why not, right?? Also there were no freckles, so I went with those little diamonds instead lol.

how do you spend your free time?

I spend what little free time I have writing, doing a couple other hobbies, and trying to keep on top of my house, chores, and errands. And you know, trying to do it effectively despite the adhd lol!

what are your hobbies and how did you get into them?

I don't usually list writing as a hobby because it's more like my life's blood. I get irritable if I don't write. But my other main hobby is music. I play the piano almost every day. My guitar and ukulele are collecting some dust recently, but I will get back to those, too. Playing music is the most relaxing thing for me and I always end up wanting to pick instruments back up even if it's been a minute. As for how I got into it, I started playing the piano at the tender age of 9 and just never stopped lol. Reading is another big hobby of mine. I turned the formal dining room of my house into a library so I could have a place for all my piles of books. I'm in a reading slump currently, but I've learned to just let it be and eventually I will be consuming books like crazy again. This is another one I don't know the origin of, it's like I've been reading books as long as I can remember. (Other hobbies include crocheting, video games, DnD, journaling, and then there's a section of what I call "dead hobbies" as in I did them obsessively for a while but haven't done them in ages but might pick them up again in the future let us not discuss it adklfjkfj.)

what book or movie left a lasting impression on you?

This might be a really dorky answer, but... I read A Midsummer Night's Dream by good ole Billy Shakes when I was like twelve and it changed my brain chemistry forever. I don't know what it was about that play... I read a bunch of others around the same time and like I loved Macbeth and Othello and The Tempest. But there was something about all the fairies and fantasy that I think was the start of my obsession with all things magical lol.

what kind of music do you enjoy?

Ohhh it's constantly changing. When I'm listening to stuff with lyrics or that I want to sing along to, I'm really into folk, indie, jazz, neo soul, and k-pop, but like I also used to listen to a lot of alt rock and punk rock so I know a lot of those songs, too. I'll kinda switch between stuff, especially 90s rock is something I'll play when I'm feeling ~nostalgic~ lol. But when I'm listening to music for writing or concentration, it's all instrumental or in a language I can't speak. So I'm listening to a TON of piano music, classical, and lately my other obsession has been mandopop. I actually really love k-pop for this, too. It's like I can listen to these up beat poppy songs without getting distracted by the lyrics. And yo Mandarin is just a beautiful language to listen to. Anyway, I tend to like most music and I'm always looking for new stuff.

who is your favorite character (atm or all time) and why?

Because I couldn't hope to choose one for all time, I'll go with at the moment and that is none other than the time traveling demon butler Barbatos.

(Assuming here that we're talking about characters that aren't mine because they top the list every time lol. Though actually even if I listed the ones that are at the top, nobody would know them because they aren't my OM OCs and I've never posted about them here lkdfjkfj.)

Barbatos is just such a great character that was horrendously underutilized in his source material. They kinda made him the end all be all solution for when things got out of hand. He could fix any plot hole with a bit of time travel or ancient demon power. But he has so much more depth than that. And maybe in some ways, he reminds me of myself. He's quiet, but observant. He notices everything, keeps track of all the details about someone, remembers everything. The main difference between us is that my adhd makes me scattered, so Barbatos feels like the type of person I have the potential to be if I could keep it together. It's less about the fantasy of someone taking care of me and more about the fantasy of being competent lol. What does this say about me? Let us not look any deeper.

He's also just really cool and mysterious and who doesn't love a guy who can cook, right? His demon form design is top notch in my opinion, with those cool wing like horns and the tail. He's just great in every way and I've written several essays about him on my side blog al;kdfjkdlfj.

Weee that was fun and as usual I wrote too much lol.

OPEN TAGS~ if you are my mutual consider yourself tagged because I want to see all your answers!

tag + q&a game ₊˚ෆ

hello! i thought it would be cute and exciting to do a tag game with all my mutuals to not only talk about themselves, but have fun! so here is my short little game:

alongside this picrew, share 5 things about yourself!

• how do you spend your free time? • what are your hobbies and how did you get into them? • what book or movie left a lasting impression on you? • what kind of music do you enjoy? • who is your favorite character (atm or all time) and why?

i will start first!

my name is rurumi and i enjoy spending my free time writing!

some of my hobbies (outside of writing) includes: drawing, building gundams and keyboards, and fashion! i got into most of them on a whim and became instantly hooked. aside from self-expression, being into fashion also helps with making friends in college because you always have something to talk about!

a book that left a lasting impression on me would have to be either kafka on the shore by haruki murakami or before the coffee gets cold by toshikazu kawaguchi. both stories have kept me up at night thinking a lot about the 'what ifs' in life.

i enjoy soul/r&b alongside anything of jrock influence, but i will basically listen to anything that sounds good. i am currently listening to 'so what' by lucy!

my favorite character at the moment is rin itoshi from blue lock because hes so ridiculously edgy, but at the same time i sympathize with him a lot. on the other hand, my favorite character of all time is suletta mecury from the witch from mercury series, she's an absolute ball of sunshine that i aspire to be.

tagging (+ no pressure) ₊˚ෆ

@kaiser1ns @naenaex0xx @shomatoriashi @choccorin @ryescapades

@rindreamery @soleillunne @kissxcore @rainswept @mitsvriii

[tangosyourtek]

So I see you often on Twitter and on here ranting about Ranchers so I got to ask. Why do you love em so much as a fellow romantic rancher shipper?

Thank you so much for asking.

The most appealing thing about ranchers in my opinion, and it’s doesn’t have to be seen as a romantic thing, is how they both treated each other in Double Life despite how things went in their previous teams.

Jimmy in third life with Scott was treated horribly (and I’m so tired of fanon erasing their toxic & abusive aspects). Not only does Jimmy get bullied by the entire server, but his own teammate, deemed “flowerhusband”, was going around behind his back and trashing his builds. Not to mention Jimmy telling Martyn “If he (Scott) starts hitting me what can I do y’know”. And, maybe controversial take, but the southlands were not great either for Jimmy. Tango, never really had something stable in 3rd life, and he was constantly used in Last Life and betrayed by one his closest allies while his whole team did nothing and watched, sometimes even encouraging the behavior.

You’d think after all that they would have their own divorce quarter arc but they didn’t. Both of them were constantly apologizing for their deaths and things they did, while the other reassured them and stayed by their side. They uplifted each other and complimented each other’s builds. They were always making sure to hear the other out and get their opinion on things and allowed each other to go out and act independently, not trying to trap each other in a box to survive and not die first. In my opinion, they were the healthiest pairing in Double Life- and dare I say team-up in the whole life series. It’s a death game and yet they somehow made it sickeningly sweet and domestic.

After Double Life, it really looks like their partnership healed a part of the ranchers. Jimmy and Tango have both been doing amazing since, both performance wise and team wise- knowing what to expect and how to handle it. There might be some small hiccups here and there, but that’s all part of the healing process and moving forward.

I’ve actually been meaning to write a whole essay going into depth about their relationship & dynamic through the life series and explaining how healthy and beautiful it is. One day I’ll get it done…

[meanbossart]

Ask Compilation: Blondes, feet, bowl-cut guardian lady.

He did not, they never had sex. But he was in love with her.

For sure. I think she struck him more like a teenager with the black hair and bangs, after the change (both visual and in attitude) she became a far more mature AND attractive person in his eyes.

PFFT, well, if you're saying they meet ALL of the criteria, I assume you mean both in looks and personality and hence be damn near his soulmate. DU drow could overlook weird feet (and a lot of other things, actually) if he were in love with the person in question. He would probably gently request they take better care of them, though.

Nothing special there, I'm afraid! He just has human-like skin - perhaps a little on the oily side but completely within the bounds of normality.

He runs a little hot, if that's anything. Oh! His hair is shockingly soft.

Correct! DU drow only (arguably) looks like a drow. He doesn't have their usual bone structure, height, or associated magical proclivities. He has some dark vision but its nowhere near as good as a drow's either.

I don't necessarily think all Bhaalspawn are the same way, but the Dark Urge IS quite different from the previous game's iterations. DU isn't simply Bhaal's child conceived with a partner, he's a piece of the god that supposedly slobbed off and grew legs and a face, pretty much. So yes, I do think that the Dark Urge at least is it's own unique thing.

The reason why he looks like a drow, is because he was placed in the Underdark upon creation. The metaphor I always use here is that if you place something infantile in a biome that is alien to it, it may try to adapt to it's environment to survive as it develops, to different degrees of success. This is why DU drow looks the way he does.

[MORE UNDER THE CUT]

You're welcome!

I've received a few snippets here that you can find through the #gift art tag! There is also the fic I'm in the process of writing called A Novel Experience on AO3.

It was just something I was compelled to do when I first drew him! The facial scars felt like they should lead into something else so I just made up a pattern on the spot, minus a tiny tweak here or there, it has stuck basically unchanged. All and any lore relating to the scars came later.

I get a lot of sweet messages but "thanks for your man's penis size" has to be one of my favorites. Thank you!

HELLO!

Thank you so much for the kind message! And that sounds like a fun dream, I love that your Tav got jealous of the attention ASTARION was receiving instead of mad that he had to share in the first place LOL

DU drow is desperately monogamous. He doesn't care what other people do with their lives but he's very much a "one and done" kind of person.

He would be willingly to participate in a threeway/have group sex with a partner, assuming the rules and regulations of said encounter were laid out clearly before or at least mutually understood between them. He would never want to see these people again after the fact though.

She does not, naturally I had no idea that this character was going to turn into anything when i made him, so I just... Made a lady. And since she was supposed to be a "guardian" I gave her a Joan of Arc type of look.

I've occasionally thought about changing this, but... Y'know, sometimes you don't need lore to be that in-depth, LOL.

The emperor gave everyone else a nondescript hottie he assumed they would trust, DU drow just got the same treatment. She's not even DU drow's type but definitely someone he would be compelled to take seriously yet not feel threatened by - so ultimately, her design does make sense.

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That's all I have the energy for tonight folks, as always thank you for the many encouraging and sweet messages you send me, I'm sorry I can't reply to all of them! 😭

Have yourselves a great week!

[freeuselandonorris]

A vision came to be in my sleep: Oscar doing pole as a way of doing conditioning that is also enjoyable. Despite doing it for a couple of years, he's still not graceful about it - his logic is "who needs to look pretty, we're getting through this on strength and strength alone"

And then at some point Lando finds out about it, and doesn't really believe it but also gets incredibly horny imaging Oscar basically stripping on a pole. So he keeps asking Oscar about it and eventually Oscar is just like "well, why don't you come with me one day and see what it's like"

So there's Oscar, working on his inversions or something, and Lando suddenly realizes that pole is far less sexual than he thought, but also Oscar casually showing off how strong he is is much hotter than he had imagined. Next to him is Lando, who upon discovering that it is harder and more painful than expected decides to take the "it may not be technical, but at least its graceful" route, and spends the rest of the time being all cute and strutting around his pole, but refusing to even take his feet off the ground. And Oscar just finds himself hopelessly endeared by it all...

SCREAM anon u have made my day with this, this has immediately become my new favourite headcanon and i will be thinking about it in great depth.

i genuinely think pole would be a legit good conditioning exercise for the drivers as it’s such a full-body workout, you need your shoulders/back/core/thighs to all be supporting you. 100% agree that oscar would be great at the brute force strength tricks (bet he could have a good go at an iron x with that shoulder and core strength and surprisingly flexible hips) but absolutely rubbish at any actual pole dance slinky choreo (he’s just like me fr). meanwhile lando’s nailed the sexy step-around and takes to floorwork like a duck to water but has a meltdown the second anyone asks him to do a basic seat bc it hurts his delicate thigh skin. SOBBING.

[dsudis]

Watching the Rain (Dragon!Dream/Hob)

Another fluffy little slice of life for @seasonaldelightsbingo!

"Oh," Hob said, when they emerged from the depths of Dream's seventh-favorite treasure-cave to see the rain sheeting down, so heavy that the fall of it hid the sight of the next mountain spire in a silvery mist. "Ah. You were right, I see."

Dream hadn't wanted to fly out today, though it was the appointed day for coming and inspecting—and basking in—his seventh-favorite part of his hoard. Hob had thought he was just being lazy as usual, and needed to be coaxed; he had ignored Dream's insistence that he could feel rain coming. The sky had looked blue, and Hob had cheerfully ignored the fact that the weather around the Dreaming Spires was strange and unpredictable, and that he'd been here less than half a year himself and had scarcely begun to learn his way around.

Now it was raining, a cold heavy downpour, and Dream never flew in the rain.

"I suppose you were also right, and serious, about the thing where you actually can't fly in the rain?" Hob inquired, thinking that he probably should have clarified this point before waving away Dream's insistence that it was going to rain.

"My magic," Dream said, just as he had the first time he'd explained it, "is fire and air. When the sky is filled with an element so inimical to me, my magic could be dangerously weakened." After a pause Dream added, "It is also. Very unpleasant. And distracting. And I do not care to fly with you when I might be distracted by the rain from taking proper care for your safety."

"Ah," Hob said.

Dream had never mentioned that bit before, but it did make sense. Dream's standards for proper care for Hob's safety were a damn sight higher than Hob's had ever been—see, for instance, the night he'd spent slagging off the whole custom of giving tribute and sacrifices to dragons, only to be overheard by said dragons and specially requested as their sacrifice.

It had worked out well for Hob, but it was no great recommendation of his survival skills.

"I suppose we just... stay here a while, then?" Hob asked.

Dream was in his most natural dragon form—convenient for flying and for basking among the gold and gems stored in this cave, but too large to fit all of himself in this entrance space. His hind legs and tail disappeared down the tunnel toward the hoard.

Somehow, even without eyebrows, he was able to give Hob a very effective quelling look. "We shall stay here," Dream agreed. "Until the rain stops."

Hob gestured down the passageway behind them, which Dream was still half in. "Do you want to..."

"I have had my fill, thank you," Dream said. Basking amongst his hoard was like eating, for an ancient dragon like Dream; he drew strength and power from simply being in the presence of his treasures. Which, Hob supposed, meant that spending too long among them might feel like continuing to eat after you were no longer hungry: sometimes a pleasant indulgence, but a bit sickening if it went on too long, especially if you had already decided you were done.

Hob rubbed his stomach, willing it not to growl. They hadn't meant to stay all day here, and hadn't brought any food; Hob hadn't thought it would be necessary.

"There should be a hamper," Dream said, tilting his head back and forth. "Ah, yes. There."

"A... hamper," Hob said, spotting it even as he spoke. A lidded basket, latched shut, was sitting just inside this entrance area to the cave—just far enough back to be safe from the rain.

"You persuaded me to come," Dream said, nudging Hob ever so gently with his great dragon nose. "You could not have persuaded me that the rain would not fall. I knew very well what I did when I brought you here; I told my ravens to prepare accordingly. Go and see."

Hob went, wondering how much supply the ravens could possibly have carried here. When he was kneeling before the basket he heard the strange not-sound and felt the rush of air that meant Dream had changed shape dramatically. He smiled and fiddled with the latch until his beloved was leaning against his back, and his pale bare arms were wrapping around Hob's shoulders.

There was a black robe at the top of the hamper, and Hob passed it directly into Dream's hands; Dream never let go of him or moved away from him, but abruptly the arms wrapped around Hob were wearing black silk. Under that was a fine woolen blanket and a couple of flat cushions, and finally there was a stoppered jug, and a loaf of bread, and a good hard yellow cheese and, inevitably, a bowl of greens, though someone had sprinkled it with seeds and little dried berries, so even that would be pleasant enough to eat.

Dream took the blanket and cushions, and Hob brought along the food and drink to sit where Dream had made a place for them.

They were just inside the mouth of the cave, back a couple of feet from the edge so they wouldn't be splashed by the rain and Dream wouldn't fret too much about Hob falling out. From there they could see the rain's steady falling, and sometimes glimpse the valley this spire faced. The shadows of the nearest spires were just visible, but it didn't seem likely that the rain would let up anytime soon.

Hob nibbled at the bread and cheese and leaned against Dream's side, and Dream curled an arm around him, his warmth making the blanket almost redundant.

"I'm sorry I dragged you out here," Hob said, when they had been sitting in silence a while.

Dream turned and pressed a kiss to his forehead. Barely audible over the rain, he whispered, "I am not."

[This fic is also on Ao3, and so is part 1!]

[only-lonely-star]

Can we have some pony boy headcanons please?? (Love your content)

⋆☀︎. Ponyboy Curtis HCs (General) ⋆☀︎.

Warnings - Minor mentions of death. Mentions of smoking.

Author’s Note - Thank you for the request, Anon!! <3 This was a perfect time to do these, because I just miss Tommy so much 😣😣. As always, enjoy!!!😽

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He’s mature for his age. Not in a humorous (meaning he outgrew jokes people his age make) or physical sense, but more of a conscious one. He understands how the world works and he’s so like?? Emotionally intelligent/aware of the world if that makes any sense. He’s just aware of more than your average 14 year old boy. Even if you take his parents out of the equation, he was always just a bit ahead in terms of maturity.

He doesn’t like going to school. Sure, he loves his books and he’s hella smart, but that’s doesn’t mean he LIKES to go. He hates the hours he has to slave away doing work he could easily do in five minutes at home. Since Ponyboy is quiet, I’d say he has one or two school friends besides Johnny and Two-Bit.

He looks up to both Soda and Darry. In the book he never shuts up about Soda and how he wishes to be like him - but Darry has strong qualities Ponyboy desires too. He’d do anything to be seen as some big, tough, cool, smart guy. I personally think he’s not a big advocate for fighting and physical violence, he’d rather work things out peacefully through communication. BUT- he still loves his own interests like movies and books. It’s not something your typical Greaser is into, therefore he wishes he could be himself while STILL appearing strong, smart, and cool like Darry. And we all already know he wants to be handsome, caring, and skillful like Soda.

Ponyboy does theater for school. I personally think he would be so good at it (coming from a former theater kid 🤒)

When he was a little kid, he had the most in depth storylines when he would play outside with his buddies. (I imagine them to be a bunch of school friends, nobody in the Curtis gang.) Playing army was definitely a favorite, the lore went absolutely crazy.

His smoking habit worsened after Johnny and Dally passed away :(

Darry would play the most foul pranks on Pony when he was younger (like 5-6 is what I imagine). Not just like PRANKS, but he would lie to Pony all the time because he found it funny. It’s just an older sibling thing iykyk 😭. “If you don’t hand me the remote, I’ll tell Santa on your ass.”

He’s so persuasive.

He would probably have an argument with someone and win because he’s stating his facts AND showing evidence without stuttering once. When he’s riled up he speaks a mile a minute.

His mom would knit him sweaters constantly. He kept outgrowing them every few months.

He loves hugs so much, but he rarely receives ones that aren’t from Johnny and/or Soda (if any at all). His mom would give him these big bear hugs everyday after school, and his dad would give one of those manly side hugs. He just feels weak initiating one, he feels he’s supposed to be some tough kid who doesn’t care for hugs.

On road trips, Ponyboy likes to look at clouds and try to see things in them to cure his boredom.

Obviously, Pony loves his hair. Even when he KNOWS he needs a trim, his heart still falls to his ass when he finally goes to get it.

He hates popcorn reading in school. Anyone who doesn’t read as fast or as well as him just pisses him off. (Me too ngl, I hated that shit so much.)

Struggle meals were actually good to him. Unlike my headcanon for Soda, Ponyboy isn’t a picky eater at all.

He drinks so much Pepsi so often that he’s practically immune to the amount of caffeine in one serving. He’d have to drink multiple cans/bottles for him to really feel it.

I feel like Ponyboy would have a great sense of style. Basic greaser outfits, yes- but he surrounds himself with media all the time. He HAD to have taken inspiration from movie stars, musicians, etc.

Ponyboy got a lot closer to Dallas through Johnny. I can see Ponyboy picking up habits and mannerisms from Johnny to seem more like him. Dallas SUBCONSCIOUSLY picked up on the similarities between the two and naturally included Pony more. That’s how their little trio came to be in my mind 😔

When he was a little younger, Pony made sure to craft handmade cards for his family on holidays or birthdays. (I used to do this, I would draw a sloppy looking turkey on paper and give it to my parents on Thanksgiving LOL)

I see people say this a lot, he goes thrifting often. He’s definitely used to hand-me-downs from Darry and Soda, though he wants to hunt for his own clothes from time to time.

The ice cream truck HATES to see him coming. He feels like a little kid all over again when he runs for it at the first little ‘ding’ of the music.

He is such a heavy sleeper. I think that’s why Soda tickles him awake all the time. Calling for Pony or snatching the covers off won’t do anything. He’ll stay snoring.

Ponyboy was the most well-mannered out of all the Curtis brothers. I mean this in the sense that their parents had the ‘most time’ to parent him and really soak in his childhood. (I SAW SOMEONE HC DARRY WAS AN ACCIDENT AND I COULDNT AGREE MORE FHSGHFJS IF YOU SEE THIS PLEASE LET ME CREDIT YOU!!) That whole headcanon was basically saying how Darry was most likely unplanned since his father was described as very young appearing. I agree with that headcanon so much. When Soda was born, Mr. and Mrs. Curtis were a bit older then. I think by that point they knew they would stop at three kids. Since they were aware that’s when they’d stop, I think they really took their time to parent Pony and teach him how to grow up to be a behaved child. Darry was already in school, and Soda was just about to turn 5 and start kindergarten. Ponyboy was just a baby, so I can see Mr. and Mrs. Curtis having a lot more time to really GRASP the feeling of parenting a little one.

He can read people like a book.

I feel like Pony would secretly love any type of sappy romance book/movie. He’d only tell Soda about it (and maybe Johnny) because he thinks it’s SO embarrassing. This makes me think this is why he isn’t into the whole idea of girls and dating yet - because he fully believes he’ll never find that kind of love in reality.

THANK YOU FOR READING!! STAY GOLD Y’ALL!! 🫂

- Sophia 🫶🏼

[pvlvsdog]

I’m not going to force a whole rant upon you /lh (edit: I lied) but I think when the game told us about ‘forced prosthetics’ most portrayals in the fandom focused on prosthetics being his trauma and not him rebelling against something that his family tells him will be good for him. Like, to me, since his story is about finding himself, it makes sense he felt very strongly about being pressured by society to take a step he wasn’t ready for, thus villainising it fully. He felt like there was no escape (the book expands on that, he feels like if he fails his family’s expectations by refusing to do things or straying from the expected path, he will become a prodigal son. Demian tells him that maybe it’s not so bad to be Cain, because Cain was his own person, so no matter if you’re condemned or not, at least it’s for actions you willingly took). So like, it makes sense that, on his own, he could consent to augumentation when he’s older. He doesn’t despise it or isn’t repulsed, I think. That’s Kromer’s thing. For Emil it’s more so that he felt trapped and as a result, he pushed away everything tied to his upcoming procedure. I think it actually adds a lot of depth to consider that, after he went through his trauma and grew a little as a person, he looks back at that event and realises that what he wanted was to feel free to choose and do things at his own pace, meaning just as much as he hated feeling judged for making his decisions he judged his loved ones for making the opposite decision to what he believed was right

In the book this arc was a religious ceremony (bierzmowanie, sorry for polish, no idea how it’s called in English). Like, officially entering the church. The church that filled him with more guilt that faith and the church he was beggining to question. It didn’t feel great to feel like he has to do it. But instead of hating all religion he gets to experience different views on spirituality and meets people with varying opinions as years go by. And he never fully fits because in the end it’s about forming a path that is right for him

So all in all, his trauma isn’t really based solely on prosthetics. It’s about how feeling like he has to do something pushed him so far towards the other direction that he (not on purpose) got others hurt. For something he himself was afraid of getting hurt for (like, his sister choosing to follow his parents; that was her choice, something she wanted and he was so afraid of not being able to choose what happens to his body that he started feeling distain for what she chose to do to hers; a distain that turned fatal for her and the rest of the family)

Hey. HEY. Are we gonna talk about this?

Emil "I have trauma from my family wanting to roboticize me" Sinclair, getting "augmentations"?

What happened to you, babygirl...

[gladiatorcunt]

han solo wants what atton rand has

[beevean]

I spent way too long on this

Addendum: I forgot to specify, in the Isaac/Dahlia intersecion, "complicated relationship with their sister who is the only person who sees good in them and wants to save them from their sins"

(and perceived *by others fuck it graphics are hard)

[slozhnos]

i’ll always love the fact that with the first big music build up in my green light that it isn’t a kiss. them just holding hands makes it such a beautiful moment

[mirandimoo]

once again thinking about how aki’s character is one of, if not the most tragic character i have come across in any media i have ever consumed in my life.

like guys you don’t understand, i’m not saying this from a ‘csm stan’ pov or anything i’m saying it from a literary standpoint AND as a media production major like yes objectively speaking he is the most tragic of tragic characters i have ever come across in any story. like from his childhood to his adult life it was all hell and trauma and after spending his whole life with nothing to dedicate himself to other than revenge, he finally found something worth protecting in denji and power so much so that the thing he spent his whole life chasing after suddenly didn’t matter because he had a little family now and that was enough for him. going through all of this only to then become the very thing you feared the worst and to be taken out by the hands of the person you cared for the most in the world. afterwards there’s no one to properly mourn you, aside from the one who took your life. everyone else is gone and the guy you cared so deeply for that you were willing to give up your life’s mission to protect has to now navigate the world with your blood on his hands, forever stained by the regret of not only killing you, but never even getting to say a proper goodbye. he’s had so much thrown onto him now that he doesn’t have time to properly grieve you and power. but no, for him your death is even worse than hers in retrospect. because there’s still a small glimmer of hope, no matter how faint, that some day she’ll come back. and that hope is so important to hold on tightly to, it’s enough of a reason to keep moving forward, to keep living. but you… oh you. for you there is no coming back. no second chances, no glimmer of hope for a happy ending. just pain. just death, anger, and so much pain. so instead of grieving properly and moving on, he’ll forever be stuck in this limbo of self hate, grief, and guilt that’ll end up with him just hurting himself physically and mentally over and over and over again. sort of how you acted in your own life... it’s kind of ironic is it not? that even in death all you do is hurt those you love, and not only fail to protect them, but deal them a fate even worse by actively being the reason they hurt. a fate worse than death it seems. and although when told it, you didn’t want to believe it, you honestly did die in the worst possible way imaginable.

[ladybeug]

MAN THE MUSICAL NUMBERS CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD I HAD TO PAUSE AND STARE FROWNING okok!!! so the thing was that one time agessss ago you said liking ml fanfics is just wanting to read the same story over and over again and after that textbook 2016 post reveal final kiss that sentence just flashed in my mind and everything that happened in the movie (the ladynoir patrol fighting in the rooftops, the adrien snapping at his dad, gabriel being actually decent) just shifted in context for me and the realization of how fanfic coded the movie is and how that directly related to my enjoyment was so clear i couldnt stop laughing hdhshsjs

WOW ACTUALLY

i remember saying that and its STILL TRUE!! And honestly you're putting it in perspective for me, thats why i liked the things i liked about the movie. like the ladynoir patrol fighting on the roofs also did lowkey make my dreams come true they could have done whatever they wanted in the rest of the movie, that scene is what i live for.

And that last scene really did feel like it was out of a fanfic, A 2016 FANFIC, its OLD FANDOM VIBES. back when we were still chewing up the concept of a reveal and not picking apart the bones of adrien's identity like mad scientists.

I remember thinking im sure ive read this scene somewhere. idk where but i have. all of it in different pieces a million times.

Anyways thank you for sharing this i love it?? good take

[indi-glo-archive]

this is a good time for all of us to remember when I said I would be ready to sing the show's praises if it got better at the things i disliked it for

[sinnbaddie]

I think one of my biggest gripes with how Gai is portrayed in fics that I’ve read is his dialogue.

Sometimes it’s super spot on, but most I’ve seen it’s dialogue that Rock Lee would use. Yes they are both dramatic and use flowery language but Gai is not as polite nor literal as Lee

[dawdlecentric]

Man, this doujin isn't fucking around

Meanwhile, Seikuri in the background...

Doujin: Flashbackers by Totobe

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Liar’s Knot & Labyrinth’s Heart

books 2&3 in a fantasy trilogy set in a Venetian inspired city full of political intrigue

follows a young woman who conned her way into a noble family, a masked vigilante, and a crime boss, who eventually become allies while juggling multiple identities

and trying to save their people and city by joining a secret society to find origins of a corrupting curse, to eventually destroy the powerful magical objects at the heart of it

tarot magic & sigil/geometry magic, dreamworlds, sentient magical disguises