#It's been better in years past though
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Women make up for the other 50% of Tumblr’s audience.
Text
All the times I've put the ball up for you... have you ever run into a block? Ever?
#the way he cares about him#he cares so so so much#“what have you been doing these past three years?” is not about tobio calling him useless#is about how he sees his potential... which cannot be wasted#what he means is “with your jumping and with your speed how can you not make a good use out of it?"#practice more!!! become better!!! so we can stay in the court for as long as we can and for as long as we want!!!#because thanks to you and this team voleyball is fun again!!!#kagehina#kghn#shobio#kagehina analysis#haikyuu#hq!!#haikyuu!!#haikyuu manga#karasuno#kageyama tobio#hinata shoyo#grey.txt#🌷hq.read#and even though hinata might see himself as worthless of being in the court or not as great as the little giant or asahi...#he deserves to be in that team#“how can you not see your own worth?” kageyama wants to say but instead he just furiously plays with hinatas hair
198 notes
·
View notes
Note
Nora. Phan is trending
LOL oh my god did they seriously let it trend finally because dan and phil are tagging it
#also shoutout to the fandometrics this week that somehow just stopped after the first post lol#but that's better than nothing#i don't really care about this past week's results anyway cause it's been kinda dead for us#also i know no matter how many weeks they skip they will def do the end of year wrap up and thats the most important one ultimately#though i do hope they will continue with the weeklies as much as they can#next week fingers crossed#though we don't stand a chance as long as 911 is airing lmao#answered
121 notes
·
View notes
Text
juvie buddies
#alek art#td duncan#td mal#total drama#total drama all stars#(if i want to get technical)#2024#duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16#ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different#duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt#scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it#duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here#i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a#gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because#i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont#see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo#but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it#duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his#privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in#juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike#is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon#madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together#duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault#mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a#lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he#knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt#matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify#had me messed up
101 notes
·
View notes
Text
It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
i have officially returned. ask me anything.
#random thoughts#i'll probably answer it tomorrow because i'm tired. i don't know why.#ciel if you see this i've been nicer to myself these past few days following your birthday. taking care of myself in general aspects.#which i sort of hate myself for but it's okay because. uh. i won't be like this forever. i'll be better at what i'm trying to do i promise.#new year's resolution is not fucking with me.........#oh also!! i've been sort of feeling like a dead person at times. and also like a cockroach. i have had to repeatedly tell myself that#i'm not dead i'm not dead!!!!#because i'm not. obviously. and i know i'm not. my brain is just silly. it likes to tell me i am things i am not like book characters.#and recently my mother got me my own rosary and we've been practicing praying together with my brother.#can you imagine how bad it must be for me to turn to christianity as a coping mechanism? not even when i was terrorized with death thoughts#not even in august for fuck's sake.#but it's actually not that bad. though i think i like the idea of organized religion more than i like being a part of it.#also i feel like my being catholic (mostly non-practicing) is betraying the queer community somehow. like. queer people have suffered#so much because of the christian church in general. so it's like. being christian is weird when i'm also queer.#but also then i feel weird when i try to do things in relation to christianity. like. put saint in my artist name.#that feels blasphemous i don't know. is it?????? it's not that serious either way but. augh.#i am going to write a song about this. also fellow christians is it okay to use the lyric 'uselessly clutching her rosary' or is that bad?#because i mean. technically. the she i'm referring to sort of is. because god isn't solving any of our problems.#he's just fucking. watching. if he's even real.#(and no my disappearance isn't related to the catholicism thing it's something else. as in the one thing i haven't told anyone else but cie#and an irl friend. if you are ciel then i am completely open to talking about said thing.#otherwise i will continue to drop cryptic little notes on my blog because I AM SILLY. {: )#going to play roblox now and maybe say hello to you fuckers on discord for a bit of fun. goodbye.
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
"Willow is a bad character because she's a mary sue" me when I missed the entire point of the show
#scrolling her tag and going insane#side note there is apparent a toh cr1t tag#I will not look at it for annoying takes to make fun off (affirmations)#at least i won't tonight who knows what the future holds#anyway im obsessed bc they were like#'imagine if willow was just a fan character in fanfics you'd all think she was pretty cringe huh'#NUHUH IM NORMAL UR WATCHING THE CRINGE CULTURE TOWARDS HARMLESS THINGS IS STUPID SHOW#also jesus fucking christ do you honestly think that a disabled coded woman of color being a badass is somehow overdone#like the reason ppl criticized MS's in the first place is bc we rlly do not need another white abled girlypop to be the super magical#chosen one and never be in the wrong ever#disabled ppl and woc don't GET that fantasy#also her powers aren't disproportionate to the universe at all#yes she gained a lot of power in two months but she's spent the past several years repressing her very potent magic to mold herself to#other ppls expectations the whole fucking thing is a metaphor for how disabled ppl who now have accomodations/can live their life on their#own terms do much better much faster than people give them credit for#and once again she's really powerful yes but she was for example nothing compared to Darius#she doesn't take on a coven head (though a battle between her and Terra would have been super interesting) and win and she can take care of#1-2 coven scouts on her own but needs support and help from others#if there are more of them#ALSO EVERYONE ELSE GETS MORE POWERFUL ALSO#why isn't Amity a mary sue for going from only making small abominations and needing a training wand to being like the 3rd strongest#abomination magic user? bc shes white?#their main complaint seemed to be that willow demasculated hunter tho#so like#lmao cope. seethe.
17 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi! I recently came across your tgcf fics, and I wanted to say you’re a phenomenal creator. the recovery series fic and the gloves fic and just all of them. thank you for your content and great attention to detail.
do you have any thoughts/hcs on FXMQ and Xie Lian you’d be willing to share? within the original story or the universes of your fics!
Thank you so much, I'm glad you're enjoying them! (ﾉ*^▽^*)ﾉ.｡:*☆
hmm, random thoughts about the FXMQ... a silly headcanon: Feng Xin has very much been hoisted by his own petard by heckling Mu Qing! That is to say, he'll harass Mu Qing relentlessly about something stupid only to be confronted with a similar situation and realise that there's absolutely NO way he can act in anyway similar to Mu Qing or he'll never hear the end of it.
(For example, he has tolerated some truly atrocious divine statues in the past because he's heckled Mu Qing so much about how picky he is with his divine statues that there's no WAY he can say ANYTHING without seeing that smug bastard's face in his head so he just has to bite his tongue and tolerate some unspeakably ugly statues.)
Mu Qing doesn't generally suffer from similar overthinking (he'll just prepare to kick FX's ass if he dares to say anything about it) except for things more directly related to himself. I think he genuinely finds sewing/embroidery/etc rather relaxing work but he'd rather die than have anyone ever see him do it because he's made such a big deal about not doing that sort of "servant" work anymore.
(He actually really enjoyed stitching Ruoye back together because it gave him the perfect excuse -- he's returning a favour!! and Xie Lian is hopeless!! of course he had to!! -- and he secretly considered using white thread to embroider some invisible little designs just because he doesn't quite want to stop... only he knew he'd get caught if he messed with Xie Lian's spiritual device like that and gave up the idea)
#tgcf#bene speaks#so anon will you send me a FXMQ hc back?? 👀 i know others have given that pair more thought than i have#though it does all make me wonder how mu qing (and feng xin) would feel about ruoye after learning about its origins#more fond or more resentful?#or guiltily realise that its been too long and they don't feel anything at all about it but wonder#if they should - if they would if they were better people#this is an irreverent goofy little idea off the top of my head but i dunno... i haven't written much with these guys yet#but i have thoughts#their entire dynamic with xie lian#the way they are so wholly in need of each other but also so intensely distanced from each other is... *chefs kiss*#none of them are REALLY friends by the end of the main series#not really#were they ever friends? proper friends? hard to say since we only have xl's pov and his pov is really biased especially in regard#to his past behaviour - he judges himself quite harshly#were they friends? did was the hierarchy between them mean that they never really COULD cross that divide?#i like to think they were and they did but still. 800 years is a long time#feng xin and mu qing have SUCH a horrifically and deliciously complicated relationship#there's so many old resentments between them + inherent ties that can't quite break + jun wu's fucking meddling#(and my GOD jun wu's meddling in that trio... would love to pick at that more... that would be a great fic#one that parallels fx/mq(/xl) and yy/qyz... give me a hurt/comfort fic that builds on that god#i am fascinated by what a renewed friendship could look like between them after 800 years now that they're all on somewhat equal footing#we got a great taste of mu qing wanting to move past old grudges and really pursue that which healed me after the wwx&jc ending in mdzs#but they all have so much baggage to shed and things to talk about... man it'd be intense#so yeah. this is a long tag ramble to say i definitely HAVE SOME FUCKING THOUGHTS about the mess that is the xianle trio (quartet)#anyway thanks for asking anon that was fun to ramble about
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
「LOST CORNER」 クロスフェード | Kenshi Yonezu listen to the new album here!!
#lost corner#クロスフェード#cross fade#米津玄師#kenshi yonezu#音楽#gif#my gifs#alright i admit it's been more than a few days but in my defense i didn't initially anticipate giffing this video#thus *20 gifs* for a single set#but !!!#just look at those colors !! the animation !!#(reminds me sliiiightly of spiderverse)#also what better way to celebrate kenshi yonezu's album release#in no way am i complaining about 20 gifs bc that means a 20 song album !! 🤩#i've been feeling very emotional & almost wistful listening to it#just having so many songs from the past 4 years in one place#at the same time though they've taken on a new meaning#being assembled as they are with the 8 new songs there's a very strong yet gentle message of acceptance#he reiterates it across his interviews too but how important it is to identify & hold on to the key parts of yourself#so that even as you lose things throughout your lifetime or people misinterpret who you are#there are certain parts that can't be taken away#all that is to say i really really love this album#my favorites out of the new songs rn are probably post human & がらくた & lost corner & マルゲリータ#i also have a new appreciation for 月を見ていた#idk if other people experience this but sometimes a song doesn't really Hit until put into context of the other songs#and then it becomes your Fav Point in the process of listening to the whole album#other examples i can think of are sunstruck on idkwntht & うたかた歌 on forever daze#but yeah#this album is definitely one of my favs released this year & one that i think will resonate for a long long time
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Friends, my time has come.
I mean, it's a shame there's no option for "you sold me a computer infested with demons and basically your idea of tech support is 'Wow, sucks to be you'" but I made do with what I had. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#georgette#computer issues#computer problems#ohhh dell you did not want to give me a survey about how happy i am with my ~*~dell experience~*~#i told it like it is#ooo but maybe i'll win the laptop!!!!!#maybe it'll you know explode in my face or something super fun like that????? 🤞😖🤞😂#aislynn's cause of death: dell computer#i would not be surprised#i'm more shocked i haven't had an actual literal health crisis over this past half a year of hell#of course i'm also constantly sick these days so maybe that's speaking too soon I DUNNO#ironically though georgette is doing a little better right now but that can change if i breathe her way you know?#but i still gave them my opinion straight to the face#i have truly suffered with this#as melodramatic as that sounds to say#my computer is my way to access the world#not just for entertainment but to help my elderly family members#i'm extremely hampered without it and not being able to know if it was going to crash in the middle of paying a bill or something#has been super stressful#i don't know if i'll ever be able to vid or make GIFs again#i don't know if she'll ever tolerate vegas#it's just a shame because on paper she should be an absolute beast#and instead she can crash with one tab open watching a youtube video#ageless aislynn
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
confession time: soukoku give me the worst case of secondhand embarrassment ever. they are so cringe. you can’t take them anywhere.
#this is /pos for anyone that doesn’t know about my chronic skk brain#I have been obsessed with them for about a year now and it’s not getting better at all#the most mortifying thing that’s happened this past year is slowly getting my friend into bsd#and watching any skk scene with them had me embarrassed af#the dead apple lap scene was worse than introducing them to the concept of a manga where characters are named after authors#and revealing the fact that the story heavily focuses on mafia business even though I’m a self proclaimed mafia genre hater#I literally called it the author fanfic manga in the first few months of my obsession#no ship has made me feel this way ever. and I’m super sensitive to secondhand embarrassment but I’m making it work for them <3#maybe that makes me the weakest link of the soukoku shippers but I’m living my truth#this post is brought to you by “I saw a tweet of someone randomly discovering skk fanart”#and my first thought was: I can’t take them anywhere#<- probably what everyone in the pm thought pre dark era#there are so many victims of their dynamic. everyone in the pm and ada. every fan whether they like skk or not. we are all their victims#sina’s rambling
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
ew04 mr.hc
#hypmic#hypnosis mic#samatoki aohitsugi#happy birthday yokohama bad boy or whatever. love u#i missed drawing him a lot actually. it's been a while#this is one of those drawings that i feel like i'm giving myself too much credit for but i rly am shocked how alright this turned out#that being said i continue to be frustrated by how shit i am at everything past solid coloring. shading is sooooo hardddddd#hence why i decided to post an un-rendered version here. the one with shading etc is on twt but i immediately regretted posting it lol#i just like this one better idk. the lineart is my fav part and it looks nicer here#but well... comparing this to my samatoki bday art from a year ago i'm relieved to see actual major improvement#i still want to draw more often and keep learning though. it's just been hard to find the time and mental capacity lately#7-7-cherry drawingz
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
#this exchange is really heartbreaking to me and a great example as to why i think gina is more complex than she’s often given credit for#her vulnerability and her desire for love without strings attached really show why she is the way that she is for better and for worse#vanessa marcil really seems to understand her character and though i've said it before it bears repeating that she is a fantastic actor#am i saying this because i have been in gina's shoes in the past and even years later it still stings? maybe#but the fact that she can connect with me in so directly in such a brief scene makes her one of my favourite characters/actors on the show#beverly hills 90210#gina kincaid#vanessa marcil#90s#season 10
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
OOPS forgot to take pictures for my one year anniversary on testosterone cause I went on a walk with my bf and then ate a lasagna garfield style so uhmm here have some pics from the last few months ok?
Featuring @binesetakeout as that sexy lil binch in the top left corner
#shut up max#ill take some tomorrow okaayyyy#not Thursday though because my bf and i are gonna try making salmon fried rice because my grandparents gave me some salmon!!#and we keep forgetting about it#anyways uhm these are in order from oldest (September 30 2023) to newest (April 20 2024)#its been so fun and im very grateful to have such strong support amongst my friends throughout my first year on testosterone#lots of ups and downs but the ups have far surpassed the downs#i say that over all for everything the past few months btw not just about my hrt#so many fun times but ive also been sick more in the past few months than i had been in the past like three years. like actually#not to mention the $5000 worth of car repairs#but i wouldnt trade any of this away for anything. i love my boyfriend and my bestie Andi and all my friends#and i love living my life and im soooo free now#it gets so much better guys i promise. i love you
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
I beat Genshin Impact!
Well, I maxed out my AR. It's been 575 days, and it'll be who knows how many more.
To celebrate and get the last bit of EXP I needed, I decided to bring the starter squad back together to fight Dvalin again! I had fun doing it.
And as a final reward, the game granted me Kaeya's C2 with my last AR rewards wishes!
A constellation for my first main as I get to the final adventure rank, how poetic.
#no real reason to do this other than i wanted to get to ar 60 in some sort of meaningful way#this game has been with me through some tough times the past two years#it's very dear to me#so it was nice to go back to my og squad and give them some love to mark the occasion#they did better than i expected#though lisa and amber's artifacts were yoinked from other characters#i'll build you two someday#but not today heh#genshin#ray's records
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
my birthday week is like a fight for my fucking life.
#like i dont like my birthday bc i dont like attention and also bc the fact i am still alive when i never planned to be is so heavy#which makes it feel like all of a sudden i have a timer and i need to kiilllmyself#but mostly. The biggest issue is i think of my exbest friend bc it was our week always even if they treated me horrible#and i would just go along with whatever they wanted even if i hated it and i just think about them think about them think about them#and i dont want them in my life but i will talk myself into missing them#and feel guilty like its my fault like i deserved everything they did to me like i should never be allowed to move past it#and then i get so embarassed over how i let them rule my life and ruin so much for me and made me break away from people i care about#but then its like im so lonely at least they were always there even if they hated me#even if they wanted me to be so miserable even if they just wanted to know they would always have someone to push around#And i still have trouble when it comes to food im still scared of opening up to people im still scared of my friends of buying new clothes#somehow everything they said to and about me was true even though none of it is and it hurt me and ruined so much#but i must have deserved it. they were supposed to know me best. and i never have known myself#so everything they had said about me has been true for so long.#every time i have the thought that i miss them i think i need to crash my car#every year it gets better every week it is easier but its been so bad recently its been so bad i feel like pieces of me are falling apart#i dont want to manifest this year it being bad bc its just starting to get easier after my total depressive state but god#im looking at are they made for me years ago and i want to rip it apart but i cant every time i try i almost throw up.#i think im going to throw up right now.#deeply pathetic.#news with isaac
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm late by like 30 mins my timezone but happy birthday Riku,,, my boy,,,
#oc tag#i was wondering if i should so something even a lil sketch but nah#my fav lad.... ive been working on him like crazy for the past 2 weeks (moreso than usual at least LOL)#im not saying anything cause im still in the process of doing it but captain has gone through a MAJOR overhaul#i feel a lot better about the whole thing though i really needed to change stuff i was blocked for a while at least a year#i might be cooking chat we might be cooking...
6 notes
·
View notes