#It was still traumatising tho

[inexpressiblybeautiful]

Hotel Portofino be like: Bury your gays and also bury your child.

[mimikyuno]

homura (after a whole movie dedicated to the mechanisms of her inner psyche and set in a world that is literally her subconscious, populated by little dolls that are the manifestation of her emotions and self-hatred, after a whole movie where we get to see that she loves and cares for her friends and above all she deeply loves madoka, after the most heartbreaking scene in the history of anime where she realises madoka never wanted to sacrifice herself, after sacrificing herself to try and keep madoka’s wish alive anyway and keep her safe from the incubators, after being saved by madoka and feeling undeserving of it yet again, after finally giving up on trying to preserve madoka’s wish and creating a universe in which madoka can be happy and her friends too and the incubators eat shit, after showing how much she hates herself for it): i’m evil! i’m a demon! i’m evil incarnate!

people: yeah that checks out, homura is evil.

[ipromptography]

h...hi...🥵

[therosejamjournal]

thinking about how smile (2022) is every traumatised person's worst nightmare. how the message clearly says "your trauma will always win and no matter what you do, you'll swallow it and it'll inhabit your skin forever." how, even if the protagonist had defeated the monster, she would have still lost - the intergenerational trauma has already spread its insidious wings and would survive in the mind of her sister's child. how traumatised people are so often told to just 'suck it up and smile through the pain,' how laughter is the best medicine until it isn't. how misery loves company. and how sometimes healing comes too late too little - you've let the beast grow too strong, it became an intrinsic part of you, your identity.

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

suddenly got a really vivid image of my head of like a c!prime home movie sort of thing and like it starts off and it looks like just two brothers hanging out and c!tommy's just awkward around the camera but as it captures what’s clearly a long span of time c!tommy slowly gets covered in more and more injuries that never seem to heal and is clearly just playing along with whatever he thinks c!dream wants out of sheer terror and it slowly breaks down more and more over each clip, somehow becoming more and less genuine in the exact worst possible ways. by the end hes all but catatonic and blatantly very much a dead corpse only continuing because of magic with injuries it’d be impossible to survive otherwise and c!dream is still excitedly chatting to him like nothings wrong and beating his ass at mario kart.

[nr1carambaceo]

Hey! Sorry to interrupt, quick question. how do you feel about the Zak Storm season 2 getting cancelled?

Also will you keep making Zak Storm related posts?

Very much upset, especially since all that waiting and so called "delayed by unknown reasons" was for nothing at all to be honest

But don't worry I will keep posting Zak storm and I still like it even after the cancelation I won't leave that fandom so easily😋

[sarah-yyy]

#i watched this scene with 陈老师 and said 好美我看着都想结婚 and he went 👀那再看一遍？？？？ Jie jie...tell us more about 陈老师! 😊😊😊

ahahahahaha 来吧，吃吃我的瓜😂 if y'all have been following me on insta, y'all would've been Very Exposed to 陈老师 already, so......

OKAY so uhhhh some months ago, 秦律师 and i decided to call it quits. he was offered a permanent position back in hangzhou that paid a heck lot better and had way better benefits than his auckland firm, and it was just the kind of career move that he had to take (fair, i would've done the same). he asked me to quit my job to go to hangzhou with him, but uh because of a variety of reasons (a huge part of it was that giving up my career was a hard limit), i eventually said no. it wasn't a bad breakup, per se, but it was still :/ because we'd been together for about 3 years at that stage, and prior to this, we'd been very seriously talking about getting married???

enter 陈老师! so i'd actually known 陈老师 for more than a year at that point?? 陈老师 is a sound engineer working at the local tv station by day, and does some 直播（to pre-emptively answer an faq: 不露脸的那种，唱歌的）when he's free at night. we first met when i went with one of my clients to the station for an interview. we have quite a huge mutual friend circle but i'd never run into him before, but since we met at the tv station, we just.....sort of kept running into each other??

陈老师 says he had a crush on me from the moment he heard me quietly threatening my client not to say anything i told him not to say, but ahahahahaha it wasn't obvious until 秦律师 and i broke up imo. first 陈老师 started showing up at group events a lot more, then we started going out for coffees alone, and then we went through this super weird week where he kept calling me jiejie (because one of his friends told him that might do the trick) (it didn't but i was tempted 😂), and that sort of just progressed to him awkwardly telling me he likes me and then, get this, literally getting so embarrassed he had to run away before following it up again by wechat (over a song). it was weirdly cute. i said yes.

ANYWAY he's still a bit awkward, but he's found this trick where every time he want to express something Important, he'll do it by song so he doesn't mess it up, the concept is hilarious, but in practise it's actually quite heart-warming ahahahahaha all the covers i've put up on insta are songs 陈老师 covers and sends to me 🥰

[damiemontclair]

Is it ridiculous to think maybe this whole hospital thing and related business has mildly traumatised me? Is it ridiculous that I want to write about it in excruciating detail, just get the experience out on paper, on my blog, somewhere? It feels dumb but I want to write fic about it. I think it'd fix me.

[opheliasam]

imagine u reluctantly tolerate (and even try to like !!) this guy with downright rancid vibes bc he is ur favourite specialest darling angelic princess’s brotherhusband who makes her happy turns out whole time he’s abusing her n depleting her sense of self and taking away her personhood under the guise of love idgaf about how traumatised he is im killing this guy with hammers

[hopeheartfilia]

oooh they are going into a trap. jokastes maid that he remembered would be harder to convince to keep quiet. She did Not make that arrangment with the nurse the regent did

or so i believe. This just stinks of trap. Go back. Go back and let her go to ios alone. It is hard to know if it is your son or kastors son. But it is jokastes son. Yes its agamble to believe she would try to keep him alive but its the best gamble youve got. If she goes its most reasonable to tel kastor it is his child. Whomevers child it is they are brothers and its unlikely that the child will show signs int he first few months of being one specific half brothers. So. let jokaste go. Its in her best interest to convince kastor it is his and damen it is his. the truth doesnt really matter much but in case it is kastors and he wins you get to be mother of the next king, in case damen wins youll probably be exiled but likely under better circumstances, and you could argue for specific allowances over keeping the child as safe as you can

all in all its double insurance and she would probbly use it, so best to just let her go, shes probably smart enough to at least protect the child a little bit from the regent and knows kastor better then him

[kaitohateblog]

i’m going to kill myself in front of him (again) in public to 1. ruin his day and 2. make everyone worry about me instead of thinking abt him on his birthday

[selfcarecap]

Omg remember the weirdos in school who would flip their eyelids inside out??

[raininyourblackeyes]

A friend spent half an hour venting about how terrible our libraries are, I've never felt more validated.

[ramenwithbroccoli]

Back in high school when we had to run long distance runs, I would try to motivate my mind by imagining I'm a guy in far future who just got really cool mechanical legs and can now move freely through the world for the first time in years. This plan backfired around ⅔ of the distance when my imagination switched into "your consciousness is now entrapped in prison of the machine and there's nothing you can do to stop it from moving, you can just silently watch your technological demise" mode. I cried when i got to the finish line but i did pass so i'll give it a 5 out of 10

[lemememeringue]

housing expensive and scary

[djs-horny-blog-lmao]

sorry ive been super dead again team ive been a) super busy 2) suber burnt out and thirdly) have like 3 deadlines due 31st May/1st June

im a little bit dying and haven'tbeen able to write porn in like. a month. or two. i wrote one but it's kind of an OC thing so idk if u'd like it