#Isolation

[chai-penguin]

On Isolation

[ed13d1]

they call for me

tomosu #6013 • yamamoto masao, 2023

[sleptori]

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[void-thegod]

as someone who is a disabled trans man of color

i always thought fashion was about wearing what you like and what you're comfortable in

if it JUST SO HAPPENS that the culture comes up with something you like, then you may adopt it

but changing your style every time fashion shifts??

ive never done that.

it may be the combination of body dysphoria, independence, isolation, brain damage etc but like

my sensibilities and tastes in regards to many things haven't changed

i like colors and shades. I like form fitting clothes and baggy ones.

and perception wise - to me at least - it seems most people have a wide array of stuff they wear??

but then I'm not paying attention to any pop culture stuff in general unless I personally like it

there's so much stuff i miss or don't perceive the same way bc of all these differences within me

.. it's too bad people don't seem to find value in that

cleared so hard

[miamaimania]

"Reflective Pause" by Unknown Photographer ◆ Fingerprints on frosted glass, the only evidence of waiting

[petitworld]

Appenzell, Switzerland by Dominik Sartorius

[shesalwaysblessed]

“Your just tired of surviving it” that’s so deep 😭

You think you're an introvert because you like being alone, but maybe it's not about solitude. Maybe it's about peace. Maybe it's the quiet you've fought so hard to protect. Maybe it's the safety of your own company, after being around too many people who made you feel like too much or not enough. You smile differently around people who bring you calm. You speak more. You laugh louder. You come alive in rooms where your soul doesn't shrink. You're not afraid of connection. You're just tired of surviving it. So don't confuse your boundaries with isolation. Don't confuse your quiet with disinterest. You're not closed off. You're just waiting for someone who feels like home, not a battlefield.

[your-average-mess-on-all-fronts]

The fact that so many of us grew up undiagnosed autistic and socially isolated to the point where we couldn't have a normal interaction with our average classmate, were forced into learning philosophical and psychological theory just to understand what the fuck was wrong with us, kept having our interests shamed by the mainstream and our natural form of existence being seen as a turn-off for almost everyone in our fucking lives, kept being told that we were being inappropriate and unacceptable because the rules of society were stupid, had our entire life fall apart because everything was harder than it was supposed to be, developed multiple mental health issues in the process and had to cling to the insights we gained about society from the outside and to the things we were passionate about as our only forms of stability and power, only to then be told that we're "not better than everyone else for liking different things" and "should stop trying to win over male approval", just because we also happened to live through all that as girls and God Forbid we let the self-importance of an isolated dysfunctional teenage girl without social support blow out of proportion, will probably continue making me angry for as long as this doesn't stop. And maybe a bit after that too.

What I need some of you to understand is that "haha other girls wear makeup and date guys while I listen to indie rock and have no love life" is not necessarily a takedown of wearing makeup and dating guys. Sometimes it's just attempting to joke around at how terrifyingly isolating it is to be the only one who is the latter and WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO MAKE YOURSELF ANY OTHER WAY EVEN IF YOU TRIED, while everyone in your life is the former, and seem to relegate you to the category of "unsociable weirdo". Do you really think that this causes people (and by people I mean TEENAGE GIRLS for fucks sake) to believe they're genuinely better than everyone around them? Do you think people who went through this and made "other girls vs me" memes on Facebook were the ones who left the "other girls" of the world with unresolved personal trauma from highschool? That the outcasts joking about being edgy and cool because they can't get along with anyone are the ones who made gender-conforming girls with mainstream interests and a friend group and a love life feel like they are lesser? Give me. A fucking. Break.

[lostinmac]

I Saw the TV Glow (2024)

Dir. Jane Schoenbrun

[maureen2musings]

The lonesome drive, Arctic Norway

kilianschoenberger

[miamaimania]

"Russia, Norilsk" (2023) by Christophe Jacrot ▢ -40°C city fog

[tinydiorama]

lonely places.

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[alienorchids]

+ISOLATION - 診察記録-2005

SEDV-006

2006

[classycookiexo]

[newyorkthegoldenage]

Edward Hopper, Sunlight in a Cafeteria, 1958. Oil on canvas,

Photo: Whitney Museum of American Art