#Is this Fyodor... yearning?

[ohhcinnybuns]

Fyodor is so mad that his situationship went back to his ex-boyfriend and that they confessed in front of his salad in 4K UHD. The audacity, smh "Chuuya, all we’ve done is quarrel for 7 years, but now that I've think about it, there were moments when our hearts connected with each other..." "Chuuya. Come to your senses. Our fate will not end in a place like this. Because you and I are destined to—"

[paradoxarchive]

i yearn to be greater than i believe myself able to become

sylvia plath | soapstore | chuck palahniuk | danielpup | fyodor dostoyevsky | asofterworld | geloy concepcion | david bowie | jonathan safran foer | soapstore

[evilkaeya]

Atsushi saying "he'll win. Akutagawa is going to win" with that bright hopeful smile got me feeling some typa way

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE IS A FEAST BUT YOU'VE LEARNED TO ABSTAIN; ON LONELINESS THAT EATS YOU ALIVE

Bob Schofield WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE ABOUT LOVE WITH PLENTY OF CITATIONS (via @masoeuretmoi) // Phoebe Bridgers Moon Song // Olivia Laing The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone // Xooang Choi (via @larameeee) // Fyodor Dostoevsky The Brothers Karamazov // Ocean Vuong Thanksgiving 2006

[sunnyouth]

if even the vast ocean cannot capture the depth of my yearning, what words could?

sunnyouth

[kitsquared]

Actually Dazai makes these kind of speeches all the time and Chuuya goes, "Yeah, I know. He does it all the time to annoy me. The bastard.."

Everyone gives him (them) a pitiful look

[theyearningwasian]

cred me

[poetrybydiya]

The other night I wrote this line in my poetry "my lips achingly surrender to utter your name" and somehow it hit me more than I intended it to.

You know how when you've tried so hard to forget a person, when you've spent hours and hours on end to erase those memories but on a random night, you're so immersed in your thoughts and you utter their name accidentally (or even willingly) and everything you've tried so hard to build just falls down.

For me, uttering his name is like the sweetest sin. I am the sinner, the punisher and also the one on recieving end.

I say his name and it's like he's looking into the depths of my heart where he finds only himself.

Everything I tried forgetting comes back to me, all new.

At the same time, the lines are a reminder that whatever was, is only past. Another thing that haunts me now.

I'm afraid of saying his name. Afraid that everything might just become too real.

Afraid that I will never be able to forget him.

[str2wberr1e]

[acronychalwitch]

I want to talk about everything with at least one person as I talk about things with myself.

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot

[fyodior]

odasaku… odasaku……. odasaku…………….

[frickfrackchickenstack]

all right now that i have watched every clip of sigma from the anime thus far i can now begin the journey of coping with whatever the fuck sigma is gonna go thru next and also write the sigskk soulmate au

Unfortunately thats no longer a bit. stay tuned

[aureatchi]

UR JUST CASUALLY DROPPING POETRY IN MY TAGS NOW ???? i’ve read ur tags over and over again….i have to leave before i get my tears all over ur inbox T^T im kissing ur brain erie u have the most beautiful way w words

YEAH MHM !! ( ◡̀_◡́) STOP IT MAI FJSJJW HEHEHE it was a sleepiest ramble but thank you sm :’) but you’ve given me sm to think abt bcz i’m back to the ‘artist who hasn’t been the muse’!lover & ‘who finally shows them they’ve been one all along in his eyes’!fedya 🥹

UGHH i am connecting it to your scenario + the whole worshipping in adoration — his physical affection is more seldom than his other love languages but here, as he’s kissing you, he comes to find he can finally communicate what he truly feels for you in this way. letters in your language could never express the complexities of his feelings well enough, while you’ll never b able to grasp the roots of his tongue in russian even if you’ve learned it to understand him (unless one’s native language is also russian :<; used this example bcz words is def what he uses the most) but shared eye contact & the way he cups your chin open up a whole new form of communication…looks like he’s flipped who’s adoring who hehe. which is when you realize he’s admired you all along too.

he’s amazed how, so angelic you are once again; you’ve even showed him a new way to use his hands, in the best way.

[rellasnowheenim]

“I never expected to feel what I felt, nor that it would end the way it did. She was beaming. She expected an answer from him. The answer was to be himself; he would come running in answer to her call.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky, White Nights

[this-is-a-tortured-poet-trying]

[olympiansally]

All things considered it was pretty nice of Fyodor to take Dazai out early during the cannibalism arc so skk wouldn’t have to fight each other