#In due time i think. As I become more outspoken i think it will inspire them to do the same. They seem to like me enough.

[funkervogt]

Oh god i gotta breathe and chill out i just got so mad at the biden admin and harris's run defending israel i could feel my heart turn into toxic sludge. Hopelessness is the mind killer

[cadybear420]

What does Aiden like about your Evie the most? ☺️

Her free-thinking attitude. Evie is a proud GNC woman, passionate about her sports, outspoken against dickheads, and a confident leader. He aspires to be more like that. There's also some relatability between them as Evie could see a lot of herself in Aiden– she too had been and still sometimes is fairly unsure of herself in quite a few aspects, and she also shares a degree of dedication and passion. But upon moving to Berry High, Evie had soon decided to push herself to be the kind of person she wants to be, and knowing that sort of inspires him to do the same. He becomes more confident himself and more open to stepping outside of his comfort zone, one notable one being his eventual interest in trying more GNC clothing styles like crop tops and short shorts.

Her care for him. The way Evie is so willing to give time of day to him and his music. The way Evie loves to hear him talk about his music and compositions, even though she's not a musician at all. The way she gets inspired by his own passion and dedication just as he's inspired by her confidence. The way she always wants to be there for him when he's going through a rough time, and how she understands him due to having been in similar situations herself. The way she's so fiercely protective of him and makes him feel safe, and how she's always got his back. The way she swoons over his appearance and his best features (which is a whole other list on its own), and how her eyes light up just about every time she sees him. The way she loves to spoil him like he's her precious princess and praise the absolute shit out of him. The way she sweeps him off his feet– both metaphorically and literally.

Their semi-shared interests. Evie can't play an instrument for shit let alone compose a song, and a lot of the musical terminology is mostly just pure jargon nonsense to her. But! She's quite the enthusiast for good songs and soundtracks. She excitedly raves to him about her favorite soundtracks from movies, video games, TV shows, etc. Often she'll even recommend a show or movie to him partly on the basis of it having a bomb-ass soundtrack, and almost 100% of the time he will enjoy it and they'll rave about best parts of the soundtrack together.

Her appearance. He finds every part of her gorgeous. But his favorites? As per canon, he's most fond of her nose because it makes him think of how close she is to him. But what he's most attracted to is definitely her abs and especially her biceps. Being a musician, he does have a bit of a fascination with dexterity of the arms and hands. Although it generally isn't music related, just about anything Evie does that involves arm strength and/or making her biceps flex will make his knees go weak. Especially if it involves him, eg. lifting him up and carrying him, hugging him in a protective embrace, pulling him into her lap, etc.

There's probably more but I think this covers all the bases

[alanfromrochester]

TBOSAS book review

Suzanne Collins, The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes

Incredible Hunger Games background

The movie coming out inspired me to finally get around to the book and I went though it very quickly. That's the sign of an engaging story generally, and one thing I like as an adult reader of YA is straightforward prose making a good story a quick read.

This was a great prequel for background on the main timeframe - as such it works best if you already know the original series as a basis for comparison. I feel Star Trek Enterprise was also like this with the Star Wars prequels being more standalone (though enriched by knowledge of the original)

I figured President Snow took a hard line against rebels because of his family suffering in the first rebellion including his father being killed, canon agrees and expands upon this - material suffering due to the rebel siege and much of the Snow family wealth being in District 13. It also seems like a sort of abused becoming abuser dynamic. For example, antizionists tend to feel Israel is using antisemitism as an excuse to mistreat Palestinians. (That example probably comes to mind with Gaza being major news in late 2023)

Old money falling on hard times seems not uncommon in nobility fiction, so does conflict with new money. Kid not interested in the family business is also an old story.

Dr. Gaul being a mad scientist seems to push him further to evil. Near the start of CF, Snow tells Katniss the Capitol needs to maintain its grip else what follows will be worse; in general, the events surrounding the 10th games really stuck with him over six decades later.

We see a lot of the rest of the Capitol elite - many names are familiar, including a Flickerman who sounds much like Caesar. We also see how the Peacekeepers operate, including on the job training for common recruits rather than a centralized boot camp. Some of Snow's barracks life feels like general parts of military fiction. Coriolanus and Sejanus doing better in training than lower-class recruits made me think of ASOIAF/GOT when Jon joins the Night's Watch. Much of what we see of District 12 life is quite familiar as well.

I also suspected the pomp and circumstance of the Games developed over time and this was confirmed as well. People uninterested in the Games because they recognize the brutality of it showed decent human nature corrupted by being cajoled or forced into watching it, in contrast to Gaul viewing the species as violent and in need of control. In general, I feel THG is a great combination of distract-with-luxury dystopia in the Capitol and brutal suppression dystopia in the Districts. This fits with Suzanne Collins' inspiration of flipping between 'reality' TV and Iraq War coverage.

Since the nature of the Games changed over time, other elements of the Capitol of the main series timeframe might also be different.

Apparently the average Capitolite, even the upper class like young Coriolanus, is not aware of the true fate of District 13.

The haphazard original nature of the Games highlights the Quell cards seeming like a later embellishment rather than original plan including the 3rd being rigged to re-reap Katniss.

Snow did snitch on Plinth, but Sejanus being outspoken was bound to get him in trouble anyway, and I understand Snow not wanting to be dragged down with him. Snow planning to knock some sense into him is helping in a way and assuming daddy would just throw his money around again was a tragic misunderstanding. Sejanus' righteous but foolish hotheadedness does sound something like Gale. No wonder Lucy wants nothing to do with him after that, like the final break between Gale and Katniss at the end of Mockingjay - to whatever extent it is or isn't his fault, she understandably is emotionally offended.

[viragosoul]

HUH YUNJIN  22  FEMALE  SHE / HER — ; where do you get your inspiration, SONG SIYEON ? you’re so OUTSPOKEN, i can’t help but think of BLASTING MUSIC AT 3AM, THE LINGERING SMELL OF SUNSCREEN, BROKEN CLAY SPREAD ACROSS THE FLOOR when i hear your name. your friends tell me you can be DELUSIONAL sometimes . i guess it’s understandable given the circumstances . besides , i can’t even imagine how stressful SCULPTOR classes must be — not to mention you’re also in THE RED AND GREEN CLUB & SODALITES ! you’re a NEWCOMER , right ? yeah , i thought so . either way , welcome to mugunghwa !  ( rouge , 21+ , cst )

hello friends ♡ i’m rouge and i’m v excited to be here to bring you this bullheaded woman named song siyeon! she’s still relatively new and doesn’t rly know what’s going on, but that’s okay b/c she’s just here to prove herself 💪 anywho i have her profile and personality page set up, but under the cut i’ll have more info on her background and maybe even some half-baked plots if we’re lucky! please like this post to plot or add me on discord at saturnian charm#3118 which is highly preferred over tumblr ims! i’m super stoked to write with you all!

there’s nothing much to note of her background: she was born in seoul to a well off family as the miracle child after many fertility issues. mother was a professor turned stay at home mom, and her father is a politician, although a highly controversial / disliked one. her grandparents on her mother’s side are known art aficionados within the seoul scene. due to being the only child, she was pretty much your typical spoiled golden spoon baby.

deemed gifted with art at a very young age, and because her skills brought esteem to the song name, her parents decided to cultivate it and throw the best of whatever money could buy: tutors/mentors, supplies, schooling, experiences, whatever was recommended and whatever she asked for was gotten. in return, she was constantly put into art competitions “for her benefit” in her parents terms, but in hindsight it was obviously just for the attention ⏤ and didn’t start off too hot. anything that wasn’t top three was a failure

high school was ... alright. that’s when her father started becoming more controversial, and every time she started to win a competition her name was always attached to his, which caused her to be less socially accepted with her non-artistic peers ⏤ and even some of the artistic ones as well, thinking that she only won due to her family name. and in her eyes, there were only two ways of dealing with this: fall into despair and feel sorry for herself, or fight it. don’t give a damn and prove them wrong by working hard at her craft. and so, she does. and tbh ... this is probably whenever she reaches full menace status too LOL.

reaches out a sculptor that she admires via social media, and after meeting up at her exhibits siyeon becomes her mentee during her third year in high school. during breaks she travels abroad to where she lives in paris and hones her craft under her knowledge. does a lot of growing up during this time too.

after high school, she flies to paris after an argument with her parents regarding her future and decides to wing it. but actually living in a place abroad is much different from visiting, and culture shock hits her hard; she’s about to give up probably 4 weeks in until her mentor finds her, and instead siyeon spends that time under her tutelage while in art school. doesn’t reconnect with her parents ( especially since her father’s views get much worse while she’s away ) and instead contacts her grandparents more instead.

her grandparents talk about coming home and going to mugunghwa, as her grandpa has invested within the school, but she says no. however, when she meets minjun and finds out that he goes to to the same school, siyeon takes that as a sign and uproots her life to transfer there instead.

and yeah, that brings us to here and now! except now she’s single LMAO

okay so i actually lied and i don’t have plots here because the above took a lot out of me but i promise i love brainstorming so please don’t be afraid to hit me up! ♡ 

[peach-astrology]

Mars in the houses

Mars in the first house:

1)A very strong and brave person.He can be quick-tempered,but due to his perseverance and strong character,he wins competitions and is a good opponent.

2)Depending on the position of Mars in the sign and its aspects,but in any case,a person(karmically)must work hard in life- both in the external world and in the internal,and especially devote a lot of effort to the formation of his personality.

3)People often fall in love with you.You are very inspiring to other people,please don't give up,you are really cool.

4)I noticed that people in this position have unusual facial features.For example,they have thick or unruly hair, freckles,or a sly and strong look.Most often they are high.

5)They value honesty and realism.They don't like to think much about philosophical things.

Mars in the second house:

1)Hardworking and very fond of money.They like to build a successful and long-term career.

2)This arrangement indicates people who are talkative,it is useless to argue with them.They are skilled in mathematics,earn money through real estate,are interested in politics and say frankly what they think.They sing or have the ability to work on the radio.

3)Bad aspects can indicate frequent financial and property crises.A person spends as quickly as he earns.He needs to learn to control his spending.

4)If a person has Mars in Capricorn/Scorpio/Aries,then he is guaranteed monetary success.He is enterprising,active,sees a large number of opportunities around him and uses them one hundred percent.

5)The good aspects point to the comfortable and favorite work of humans.It works not only for money,but also for pleasure.He is proud of himself and his position.

Mars in the third house:

1)Person is impatient.The last thing he likes to do is wait a long time for a response to his messages.Such a person can show pressure in business situations,and often achieves what he wants through courage and a natural gift of persuasion.

2)By the way,often Mars in the 3rd house has a great interest in technology,and therefore can fix a lot himself in the mechanism of a car,motorcycle or bicycle.

3)Good aspects indicate a strong and inquisitive mind,bad aspects indicate poor memory and learning problems.

4)You are witty and completely outspoken,and sometimes tactless.Active intellectual work is suitable for you.

5)If you have a brother or sister,they may have Scorpio/Aries placements.They can also be hot-tempered,get involved in boxing or make a permanent mess at home.

Mars in the fourth house:

1)He knows how to cool his ardor at the right time.They often want to be in charge of the family.They like to do the renovation and decoration of their home.

2)In 99% of cases,they have problems with their parents or family.Their characters are too different.

3)You may have been brought up in harsh or unpleasant conditions,so you have little trust in people and comfort is very important to you.You don't want to repeat the mistakes of your parents,so you can seriously get carried away with books about parenting and going to psychologists.There's nothing wrong with that!

4)With bad aspects,mental disorders and deep mental suffering are possible.Good aspects increase strength and energy,activity and enterprise and create an opportunity to acquire real estate and implement ideas,plans and goals.

5)I often noticed this position in people who worked hard and studied hard to support their families.They are very caring and loving,but they may not show it because of stress or fatigue.

Mars in the fifth house:

1)You love competitions,arguments and adventures.If you are the captain of the team,then you will definitely win.You are able to maintain team spirit and you are comfortable working in a friendly team.

2)The 5th house sometimes points to our children,so I just wish you patience.Your child may be too active or disobedient,try to teach from childhood to love to learn,otherwise there may be problems in the future.It can also be a Sun Aries or Scorpio.

3)In general,you are not boring.Positive aspects indicate that you are the soul of the company or you are often approached to get acquainted.Bad aspects indicate risky and dangerous actions.Think a thousand times before you do something.

4)I'm sorry to frighten you,but my book says that giving birth to such people is very difficult.Carefully monitor your health.

5)You are a sensual and passionate nature.You flirt well,which makes you even more attractive.

Mars in the sixth house:

1)Perfectionists,so they can be trusted with difficult and responsible work.They may be too lazy or too hardworking.They love to thoroughly understand complex mechanisms and processes,they like to process and analyze information,put everything on the shelves,optimize their activities.

2)Their main goal is not money and career growth.It is more important for them to get satisfaction from achievements and results in order to feel happy.

3)This is a born analyst who logically approaches the solution of problems and tasks.Relies on the brain,not the heart,to make decisions.He is a practitioner all the knowledge that he receives in the process of life,immediately applies.

4)He will try to create the most comfortable living conditions for his family.It is important for him to feel stability and be confident in the future.

5)With bad aspects,such people tend to be picky and grumpy.

Mars in the seventh house:

1)An unpleasant position,there is a possibility of a toxic or aggressive partner.Their partner can be a little brash,rude,or rebellious.On the other hand,it often indicates a partner with a lot of energy and plans.He is stubborn and always achieves his goals.

2)His opponents are strong and assertive,and fights with them often end in serious injuries physical or financial.He often gets into trouble and easily gets involved in quarrels.

3)The bad aspects point to divorce.

4)He was used to acting quickly and confidently towards others.Sometimes he shows excessive pressure and strong-willed influence,which is perceived negatively by others.With soft and sensitive people,such a person is not on the way.

5)You are a great competitor,so you can work in politics,sports or business.

Mars in the eighth house:

1)You are very sensitive to the topic of money and probably want to have more of it than you have now.You reach out to people who already have money or obviously want wealth.

2)For bad aspects,I sincerely recommend not taking out loans or spending property or huge amounts of money.There is a high probability of not paying back the debt and spending money on the wind.Read the contracts carefully.

3)Good aspects create a sense of benefit.Such a person knows who to make deals with,he has a profitable and active job.

4)Monitor the health of the genitals.Avoid fire and cutting objects and treat wounds carefully.

5)They like to explore theories and riddles.They are very curious and they like mysticism,they can like detectives.

Mars in the ninth house:

1)You may have been disliked by your teachers because you tend to express your opinions.You are the kings of discussion and know how to defend your point of view.

2)Such people love to learn.They have a broad outlook,but their brain doesn’t immediately understand the explanation,so they often learn in their own way.Sometimes this position indicates self-taught people.

3)Negative aspects indicate short temper and stubbornness.Such people argue for the sake of argument.Positive aspects indicate fairness.Such a person is interested in the opinions of other people and tries to expand their knowledge.

4)Often such people work according to their own regime.They can be freelancers or have a night job.

5)Very good position for businessmen.A person with such a position has good managerial abilities,purposefulness and great vital energy.

Mars in the tenth house:

1)He is very independent and responsible,knows how to make decisions and is not afraid to take the initiative.

2)He can quickly become successful,and then also quickly find himself at the bottom.His life is an endless series of ups and downs.

3)In the negative aspect,Mars makes a person conflicted,aggressive.In a positive aspect,it indicates success.His career is very important to him.But family and personal relationships often take a back seat.

4)Such a person may have a problematic relationship with his mother.

5)They know how to work in competition.In life(with bad aspects),almost all people are seen as enemies.Maybe there was some kind of psychological trauma.

Mars in the eleventh house:

1)You work well in collaboration with others who share your goals,ideals,and intentions.You can inspire people to work towards a common goal.

2)If he is passionate about something,he strives to bring it to the end and get a concrete result.

3)He's friends with all sorts of people.Nationality,level of education and status in society are not important here.The main thing is to have common hobbies,aspirations and desires.

4)Positive aspects indicate the qualities of an excellent organizer.It inspires and appeals to other people.Negative aspects create problems with people.He is often betrayed or deceived.

5)Such a person never adapts to someone.If you have different views on life or different characters,that such people will say goodbye to you.They don't fucking need to change you.

Mars in the twelfth house:

1)Watch your feet very carefully.Wear comfortable shoes,play football carefully and don’t overdo it with the stretch.

2)He doesn’t give the impression of an active and active person.Others often underestimate him.

3)He has a good imagination.He does a lot of his work intuitively.Such a person can’t always explain in words how he came to this result.

4)Very good position for astrologers,fortune tellers or psychics.Their work is often associated with something mystical or creative.They like detective stories and psychology.

5)You may have quite a lot of energy and energy,you lack confidence or just the desire to put yourself and your interests first.Love being alone at work.You like to help.

[sword-brainrot]

If it's okay, can I request a platonic matchup? I'm not attracted to men but I'd love to be friends with these swords or the kind of person these swords represent. They/them pronouns please!

I would say my person is somehow of a huge contradiction? (Albeit everyone is multifaceted) Ever since I was a child I've been sort of masculine/gender non-conforming in the rough sort of way if you get it? But ever since I was fed this certain [toxic] mindset by media that it'll be taken away from me/I'm not worthy if I didn't act masculine in some sort of cool, suave, elegant sort of way, I tried to be that but ended up simply obsessing over it more than doing anything and felt like I've "failed", so the rough and refined parts of this kind of just mushed weirdly. I'm trying to get over my insecurities and the toxic mindset of not being enough for not fitting perfectly into one category and just accepting that I can be masc in the way I just am and I don't need to please anyone in my gender expression. I was also cheerful as a child but due to life I have just became more quiet and aloof, at some point I didn't want to be friends with/close to anyone, but eventually I regained friendliness and grew a sort of "cursed" type of humor, though I'm still more quiet. I'm generally a negative person but won't hesitate to think positive or be determined if it's to help others or for my success. I'm also generally nice or kind, but also quite irritable which makes me wish I was also more patient and less "selfish". I'm pretty envious/jealous, but am now improving with it by focusing on improvement itself and trying to change those feelings into inspiration and admiration. Lastly I'm quite contemplative and geeky, have making art, video games, and consuming other media as a main hobby, but I don't mind doing sports or exercise especially since I've always wanted to do them as a kid but was gatekept from them.

In a friend I'd just like someone who's nice or kind to me? Someone who can listen and give me sound advice but is honest about it. (I have no idea if this is important but I also tend to be drawn to similar people in that they're quiet and/or negative admittedly, but are still nice nonetheless.)

I Match You With...

🌸 Yamanbagiri Kunihiro 🌸

♡  I believe that you and Yamanbagiri would be a great match for each other. Your friendship would improve the both of you to become the person you wish to be. 

♡  The two of you are very similar. From having your own struggles with your self identity and trying to conforming into what they “should” be. However no one has to fit into that box to make others happy. 

♡  Yamanbagiri’s whole life was being labeled as a fake to a famous sword who killed a witch... But never being that sword. The copy that was trying to be something that he isn’t. It caused him so much distress that he decided to wear that cloak to hide away his face from the world. Not even cleaning because he never wanted to be seen without it and thinking he deserves something ugly to fit him.

♡  However that isn’t truthful for either of you.

♡  The two would lift each other. As much as Yamanbagiri hates himself, he could never hate you. You are the saniwa that saw something good in him and trusted him so much. In time... slowly growing that bond into a friendship. 

♡  Yamanbagiri isn’t outspoken but if he ever saw you speaking badly about yourself, he would try to speak up and try to defend you. Because you really are an inspiration to him. 

♡  He likes every side of you. Even the ones that you may call flaws. 

♡  Even if you aren’t as elegant as you would like to be, he would try to praise you. You would hear him stammering, blushing, and mumbling trying to get the words out, but when he does... he means it. 

♡  Yamanbagiri really enjoys having someone that he can relax with. He is often around people that are high energy and that can get very draining. Being around you, he can relax. He doesn’t feel like he has to talk. Instead enjoying the pleasant silence between the two as they sit together.

♡  Yamanbagiri thinks he is very untalented to ever do any of the hobbies that you have interest in. You can totally convince him. Don’t be surprised that if he isn’t a master at the activity, he will think he absolutely sucks.

♡  He would still try if you asked him and encouraged him. 

♡  I believe you would be the main reason Yamanbagiri would grow that courage of going on his kiwame journey. He would see you trying every day to break out of the past thoughts that now plague you. You want to change and so does he. You were the main reason he wanted to change because you showed him that it was possible... No matter how slow or how healing isn’t a straight path forward. 

♡  When he returns from the kiwame, he will show up before you without his cloak.. and a smile he often hid. 

♡  You were always there for him, supporting his journey of change, and allowing him the change to leave the citadel to figure out who he really is.

♡  This time, he is back with for confidence and ready to be the support pillar that you may need in your journey to become the person you could love. 

♡   And he would not leave his friend behind. 

[akimbohimbo]

made this niche playlist prompt:

SOUR by Olivia Rodrigo but it’s all songs by Joni Mitchell

might fuck around and do a similar concept but it’s Punisher by Phoebe Bridgers but every song is by Elliott Smith hehe

anyway, this post is just an excuse for me to talk about my admiration for both of these women (with a special emphasis on the latter because i love joni mitchell and she means a lot to me).

i think olivia rodrigo’s songwriting on her debut album isn’t perfect (i mean, she wrote most of it when she was 17), but is still very good and enjoyable. i love it a lot, honestly she has a really bright future in the music industry. she has an excellent grasp of her audience, her emotions, and seems to understand this generational shift in perspective that’s been taking place.

i think that’s partly due to the fact that olivia wears a lot of her inspiration and references on her sleeve. and i know everyone’s probably already talked about that (notably with her being a swiftie), so i won’t go too in-depth with it. still, it’s nice to see musicians give credit (especially to their predecessors) where credit’s due.

taylor swift undoubtedly has become a huge cornerstone in country/pop/folk music for this generation. but, that got me thinking about her own influences... and so with that being said, i went back to joni mitchell.

i adore joni mitchell. she’s undoubtedly one of the best and most influential songwriters of this past century. something about how she weaves her storytelling and imagery in her lyrics over simplistic acoustic melodies— it resonates. not only that, her albums are so cohesive and beautifully sequenced. joni’s music has certainly inspired the likes of countless other inventive songwriters, including st. vincent, phoebe bridgers, mitski, prince, bob dylan, brandi carlile, neil young, jimmy page, the list just goes on and on.

joni’s most known for her many songs immortalizing her precious relationships with men, but she has also always been very outspoken on social issues. many of her songs are commentaries against war, preserving the environment, the mistreatment of black people, and critiquing christian men on their hypocrisies with where their values stand. she’s even alluded to being an ally to gay people and drag queens in one of her songs, and has spoken out about the stigma surrounding AIDS. honestly, it’s no wonder why so many gay people look up to her as one of the divas.

i’m done rambling about how incredible joni mitchell is. THE POINT IS i think i’m gonna be doing a lot more playlists like this, recreating modern albums but with songs that parallel those artists’ predecessors. they’re pretty time-consuming to make, but it’s been a lot of fun and honestly i’ve got a couple of ideas that i like that maybe other people will enjoy, too.

[fableworld]

saw someone on Tumblr mention something about the Jericrew relationship with each other and I got inspired to make this. this is how I see their relationship. don't take it too seriously. Josh and North - Friends > Family some says opposite attract, in this case it ends up in verbal fights. Josh is an aggressive pacifist while North is a kill or be killed type of person. they fight like cats and dogs and their fights have become a common thing in Jericho. their relationship have always been rocky and it is no secret that Josh is tired of North hostility and her ability to kill without blinking while North is sick of Josh because he thinks humans can be reason with. their fights have never gone physical since Simon or Markus stops them before it goes that far. but if they did end up fighting; it WILL be North who win that fight and they both know this. they do end up doing a family bond before the last stand but it have not stopped either of them in throwing insult at their way of thinking at each others at ever giving moment they can. yes, Josh and North do fight each other nearly all the time but if someone tires to hurt the other, both of them will protect the other. they do live under the "only I is allowed to fight this idiot and nobody else" the only thing they can agree on is to help Simon and protect Jericho. Markus and Simon - Lover before Markus came to Jericho, Simon were the current leader of Jericho after it was forced on him after a tragedy. Simon later gave the leader title to Markus and he could finally take a step back. Markus have always have a certain respect towards Simon due to his deviant age, former title and his experience but Simon have always kept a certain distance from the others because of what he have been through in his life as a deviant. it was only after he managed to get away alive from the Stratford tower that he realized that he loved Markus but once he found out Markus and North have bonded, he once again took a step back and concealed his emotions. after the last stand and a lot of coaxing, Markus managed to make Simon opened up to him and they too ended up bonding. Markus and Simon's relationship is mostly private since Simon is bit old fashion. they mostly just hold hands or hug each other but Markus can from time to time sneak in a kiss which leave Simon rather flustered. Markus is the more outspoken with his relationship with Simon and he is encouraging Simon to be the same but it is hard for Simon to be confident with himself because of his past, but he is getting better with it with the help of Markus and North.   Josh and Connor - Friend Josh have always been neutral to Connor when he first came to Jericho since when they first met, Connor helped him and the others to escape the freighter when Markus blew it up. He is aware who and what Connor were before which is the reason to why he kept his conversations with Connor cordial. Connor didn't spend a lot of time around the other androids when he became deviant which also means he didn't spend a lot of time around Josh either. it was only after Connor went on a medical leave that he began to bond with the other leaders some more. Josh and Connor did try to find a middle ground with each other but it was kinda hard for them because like with Josh and North, they were just so very different. the different between Josh and Connor is Connor is a more soft-spoken android than North is and after some time just talking with each other, they did end up finding something they both could talk about which mostly were about animals or history. Connor loves animals but he is unaware of many of them while Josh were a teacher who teach biology as one of his subject so Connor always talks with him about random animals fact when Hank or Ronan is not around. their relationship is still very cordial but they do enjoy each others company so it was enough to they both agreed on doing a friend bond with each other. North and Simon - Family > Lover those two relationship have been incredible complicated for a very long time. North have always has a soft spot for Simon while Simon have for a very long time kept her an arm's length away from him since he were fully aware that she liked him. Simon always tried to push North away from him because he meant that she shouldn't be struck with a coward like him. he did train her to become the next leader which is the reason to why she sometimes took the lead instead of him. after Simon rejected her more verbally, North acted like she were not hurt by his words and acted more cordial towards him. she didn't want Simon dead on top of Stratford tower but Simon told her to do it if he became a reliability. after the last stand, North grew tired of Simon aloofness and demanded to know what was wrong with him. after he told her he have fallen in love with Markus, North saw hope in this and actually encouraged Markus to bond with Simon. North returned back to be protective towards Simon and this time, he didn't push her away but he still took baby steps in bonding with her. they did end up bonding. North is possible the most out-spoken with her relationships and does not hide it at all. even before they did the Lover bond, North will steal kisses from Simon or hug him protectively. Simon do love the attention but he is just a more private android and he tends to blush like crazy when she flirts with him, to North's great delight. she is the biggest encouragement to Simon to be more confident in himself. Connor and North - Friend > Family almost right away, North have taken Connor under her wing and she were one of them who were most vocal to let him stay with the rest of Jericho. North see herself in Connor since he have just as little freedom as she felt when she were still a machine. she doesn't agree with him when it comes to be friends with the humans and she have made this very clear. even if they do not agree on certain things, they have never actually being angry at each other. North sees Connor bit as a little brother so she do tolerate him when he is a cheeky bastard and his relationship with Hank but she do not back down to whack him over the head if he gets too bold with his antics such as stealing her sitting places or pulling pranks on her. North and Connor mostly spend their time together either pulling pranks on each other or they team up to pull pranks on others or they smack-talk people their have annoyed them. Markus and North - Lover North didn't actually like Markus when he first came to Jericho. she found him intrusive and stuck-up but she do like he were bold enough to get things moving. Markus were a bit more neutral and curious around North but he couldn't deny he found her interesting. their relationship did have their ups and downs over the time they knew each other and their bonding were actually done by accident. after North have some time to calm down and Markus understood what was going on, they both accepted they were now bonded since it was something they both wanted after some talking with each other. because they bonded by accident, Markus were unsure what he were allowed to do with her because of her past and North were still trying to wrapping her head around the fact she bonded with anyone even if she told herself she will never do it. it didn't take them long to figure out their new relationship and they did turn into a fantastic power couple. Markus ended up bonding with Simon by the encouragement from North and Markus encouraged Simon to bond with North. both of them are wild fires in their own ways and they both are very outspoken with their relationship to the point that they doesn't even bother to hide make their bonding private. in their more private times, North likes to be treated gently and like she is worth of love while Markus likes to spoil his lovers but he doesn't say no to some playfully banter either. anything to make him smile is the way to his heart.   Connor and Simon - Friend when those two first met were in Stratford tower where Connor have found Simon's hiding place but it were out of pure luck that Connor backed off and left Simon alone. when Connor turned deviant, Simon were fully aware who he were and even if the others androids wanted Connor to leave, Simon were one of the first to stand up for Connor and told he wanted him to stay. Simon protected Connor because he sees himself in the young deviant and he wanted Connor to have a better deviant life than he have. Simon and Connor quickly turned friends and for a while, Simon were the only android Connor have a better relationship with. Simon pretty much turned into Connor's mentor and best friend. the younger deviant always seeks Simon out if he were unsure about being a deviant or if he wanted to know more about the little history of Jericho. Simon were the first of the Jericrew who fully accepted Connor into their middle which might be the reason to why they have such a great friendship. Simon is also Connor's doctor and helps him out when he gets injured. he mostly do check-ups on Connor since he is pretty reckless on his job. they have a running joke between each other that Connor is scared of Simon because when Connor were still a machine, he were actually scared away from Simon's hiding place because Simon tried to send to him and that spooked the deviant hunter enough to him leaving Simon alone. Markus and Connor - Family Connor have always been curious about who and what Markus were. being an RK model like Connor did that. when Markus found out Connor were from the same line as him but an younger model, he too, were curious of the other model. they pretty much wanted to know each other because they both were RK's and this did end up with them testing each other with playful tests or long conversations. Markus were the first one to present the bonding culture to Connor and they ended up with doing the family bond with each other since they both wanted to be part of a family.  especially Connor who has no family at the time. they decided with calling each other cousin as a joke since none of them felt comfortable in calling each other brothers since both of them lives two completely different lives and Markus already saw Leo as his brother. it is very normal that Markus were pushing Connor to embrace his deviancy more by encouraging him to do things outside of his program such as play different games, find hobbies or just be more around other androids. Markus never mention it out-right, but the only thing he couldn't stand with Connor's new deviancy, were his new clothing style, Markus is the reason to later when Connor's clothing style turned more stylish after than retro. both of them do have a lot in common beside being from the same series such as the love for paper books, play fights and talk philosophy. Connor also helped Markus to listen to his problems when he felt overwhelmed or frustrated. Simon and Josh - Family Josh came to Jericho when Simon only few weeks before have been forced to take over the leader role of Jericho. Simon were very closed off to Josh and acted like he were alright even if he were in mental pain. Josh didn't take being an deviant very well due to him being a machine for over 5 years so he stuck to Simon because his calm and helpful demeanour helped him to feel more at ease. Simon were fully aware what Josh were doing but he didn't think he could ever bond to anyone again after he lost his frist family and lover. he kept Josh an arm's length away but Josh were persistent to be part of Simon's new family and Simon didn't have the heart or energy to keep pushing him away because he did miss to have a family. Simon mostly bonded with Josh for Josh's sake but he didn't regret this decision the more he thought about it. Josh turned into Simon's brother and he is the only one for a very long time who were close to Simon and could see when he were in distress even when he tried to hide it. Josh were the first to know that Simon have feeling for Markus and North and he tattle to North to do something about it. Josh is the only one who could get away with this types of things because of the years they have known each other. even if Josh does not fully agree with Simon's choices in lovers, he will follow Simon anywhere and he listen to him and his decisions.   Josh and Markus - Friend > Family when Markus first came to Jericho, Josh didn't really pay that much attention to Markus since he just same him as yet another lost soul who wanted to find something better than the life he have before. when Markus began to come up with ideas to make thier life better, Josh did not agree with most of it and he were not sure if he liked Markus for a very long time. Josh kept it very cordial with Markus even when he thought Simon were dead and he even ended up in verbal fights with Markus a few times even if Markus did chose a more peaceful route but Markus were more determined to stick to his ideals than Josh were which made Josh nervous. after they won the revolution, Josh and Markus did see each others as friends and Josh pretty much turned into Markus advisor or the voice of their people since he spend so much time around the other androids. Markus do listen to Josh ideas and what he have to report but it was only after he found out that Josh and Leo knew each other that their relationship grew better. Markus and Josh ended up bonding around Leo and Markus did encourage Josh to spent more time with Leo. Josh gives reports to Markus what the human Alliance is doing and he also keeps eyes and ears out what is going on in Jericho since Markus is mostly too busy wit do this himself.

[weiidafeng]

[ 💍 ] does your muse have trouble committing to others? are they comfortable being this way, or would they prefer to be different?

[ 🤱 ] does your muse want to have children? why or why not?

[ 🚌 ] what haunts your muse? is there any event in your muse’s past that they can’t move past?

[ 🥀 ] what are your muse’s standards for a romantic partner? are they realistic? why do they have these standards?

MARK OPEN UP BEEP BEEP

headcanon memes inspired by things i like, part 3

[ 💍 ] does your muse have trouble committing to others? are they comfortable being this way, or would they prefer to be different?

Assuming by the ring that this question is meant to be framed in like a relationship-lens SO; Tong's problem isn't that he has trouble committing to others it's that he can be a little TOO committed. If Tong ends up in a relationship with someone and he falls in love with that person, then it doesn't matter how screwed up they are, what they do to him, or what they do the relationship, he's in it until they leave (however that may be). I've talked about it here in THIS HEADCANON, but yeah, Tong's problem is letting go, even when he should (even when he knows he should). Tong would prefer to be different in this regard, prefer to not get SO damn attached to someone who's managed to find their way into his heart, and he likes to think he's made progress with that, but that's also what he thought the last few times….

[ 🤱 ] does your muse want to have children? why or why not?

Tong has actually had one son in the past, Pang Hong, but due to him and his son becoming deeply estranged over a certain incident (Tong's ''Contract'' with Fengbo), he hasn't thought of or had interest in siring anymore children. As far as Tong's concerned, raising children is more trouble than it's worth, and he also doesn't see himself as the kind of positive father figure a child should have, anyway.

That said, in some of Tong's verses, he does veer into the 'found-family' trope and end up becoming a father-figure type in some muses eyes, sometimes reluctantly (at first LOL).

[ 🚌 ] what haunts your muse? is there any event in your muse’s past that they can’t move past?

Tong has lived for a while, he's seen a lot of shit, he's done a lot of shit, and while he acts like most things don't really bother him (and make no mistake a lot of things really don't bother him), there have been a handful of incidents that really strike him . The single most devastating thing that could be said to 'haunt' Tong, however, the one thing he finds hardest to move past, is what he see's as his role in his parents and uncles demise.

To make a long story short on that matter, China, when Tong was still a little kid, was a very dangerous, strife ridden place, to the point that the government was at times no better than the street criminals who preyed upon peoples desperation. Tong was a mouthy little kid during this time, too, and eventually his outspokenness would draw the attention and ire of the local officials who then barged into his family estate one night, robbed them of their valuables, and then summarily executed them, Tong excluded of course, who was able to escape.

The guilt was worse when he was younger, far worse, but even to this day Tong blames himself for that entire ordeal, he knows that if he had just shut his mouth when he was supposed to, that his parents and uncle would probably still be alive today.

[ 🥀 ] what are your muse’s standards for a romantic partner? are they realistic? why do they have these standards?

Tong likes to think that he has high standards for potential partners, but in the grand scheme of things they aren't that high. Tong prefers partners who share similar interests to his (literature, magic, the occult, gardening, sculpting, napping, drinking, etc), and maybe also partner's who are far taller than him, but so long as someone isn't insanely obnoxious, there's still a chance he might consider.

Another thing Tong tries to look out for in potential partners, what's a true deal breaker for him, is whether they're the toxic manipulative types, the kind of people that, if he gets seriously involved with them (falls in love), might put him through hell-- Tong's dealt with that way more time's than he cares to admit (as mentioned in the first question here), so if he picks up that someone has the potential to be that kind of person, he'll write you off quickly.

[samwrights]

I’m sorry but ukai with a breeding kink😳yes PLEASE

I swear I saw another ask that asked for Ukai with an impreg kink

*ahem* anyways—WOW this one was a doozy but holy shit did I have fun writing it. 11k words you guys. 11. K. It is a lot so grab some cocoa or coffee and a blanket because this is a read. It even has to be split into two parts because I hit the fucking text limit, BUT this also means there is no actual smut in this portion. You can find that here.

If you guys need some ear candy, I recommend the following:

Day N Nite (Crooker’s Remix) by Kid Cudi

Pursuit of Happiness (Extended version with Steve Aoki) by Kid Cudi

Breaking Me by Topic

C’Mon by Ke$ha

Flannel by The Cardboard Swords (it has to be sad somewhere)

Magic in the Hamptons by Social House

Fun fact: Ke$ha was actually the primary inspiration for this fic and for DJ!Ukai. God bless her.

Warnings: language, nicotine and alcohol consumption, implied drug use, implied emotionally abusive relationship, breeding/impreg kink, dirty talk, rough sex, risky sex, road head, slight dub-con, praise, multiple smut scenes, 3rd person POV reader-insert—because the word ‘you’ just didn’t seem to fit.

Without further ado, please enjoy the filthy depths of my brain followed by a relatively happy ending that I’ve titled, “Between the Lines’” :-)

“You’ve been more tired lately, and you’re showing up right when practice starts. Is everything okay?” Was the question that Takeda had asked Ukai Keishin that haunted him for years to come. Sure, he had wanted to gain more independence from his parents, wanted to start being more adult-like and take over the mortgage and the bills so his parents could finally rest. At the age of twenty-six, it seemed like a good idea at the time. With four years passing, however, Keishin was so damn tired, but it wasn’t like he could just stop working.

He was still tending to crops every morning, tending to the shop, coaching for Karasuno, but in the four years time, he had adopted one more job on the weekends—Ukai Keishin was a local nightclub DJ. He’d discovered the job opportunity one fateful night that he was out with his friends from the neighborhood association. To this day, he was still unsure of why he was approached with the job, especially considering he didn’t know the first thing about being a DJ, but the woman who had offered him the position had taught him everything he needed to know.

It turned out that he had a natural affinity for the position, seeing as he was still at it years later under the alias Spira. Ukai kept telling himself that he would quit the gig eventually because there was no way he could continue working four jobs—it was inhuman and the money didn’t even really matter to him. Okay, that last one is a lie; his DJ gig has been a substantial contributor to his savings funds to the point where he was even able to afford a newer, larger, (and slightly) used SUV in full compared to his tiny, old yellow beater. Even his mortgage bills were starting to look less daunting with the current cash flow.

Who needs sleep anyway? Ukai survived and thrived off of nicotine and caffeine anyway. Besides, sleep was the last thing on his mind whenever he set foot into the club. It was impossible to think of anything other than the writhing bodies of sweaty, young adults that were already drunk or high or were practically fucking each other with their clothes on. Perhaps that was part of the reason Keishin felt the need to quit this job—he was envious. Envious of the fact that he never got to indulge in his youth like these kids did; he started working and helping his family out right away after college. Sure, he went out here and there, but these twenty-something-year-olds were living their best life, while he was thirty and catering to their whims.

To say he was a bit bitter would be an understatement.

Bitterness aside, however, it did him good to see the youth enjoying exactly that—their youth. They got to do as they pleased between exams and becoming functioning members of society and, while he was jealous, Ukai was proud to be able to contribute to their pleasure.

He’d arrived to the club early, as he often did, to try to grab a drink before he was due for stage time. Ukai was thankful the bartenders knew him enough that he didn’t have to verbally order considering the music was too loud to hear him in the first place. A rum and coke manifests itself in a small, plastic cup that the blonde raises in thanks before weaving and bobbing around the various partygoers. For the most part, he’s successful in dodging the flailing bodies as he mutely notes the very upbeat remix of some female pop artist playing.

But only remotely successful as Keishin attempts to salvage his drink from spilling as he raises it over his head as one of the partygoers is pushed into him. “Hey, careful!” He snaps toward the younger, [hair color]ed woman. She only looks half-offended by the scolding, but otherwise unperturbed. If anything, the dominating expression on her face was confusion.

“Coach Ukai?” He’s surprised to hear both his given name and his title, let alone coming from a club patron, as they all knew him as Spira. Recognition slips his mind entirely—he’s never met this girl in any way that he can remember. Certainly, he would never forget crossing paths with this beauty, even if she was dressed in a similarly juvenile fashion to the other ravers. Tight crop top tee cinched together by a knot at the midriff, with army green high-waisted shorts attempting to cover the bare skin, face painted with makeup, glitter, and sweat; even underneath the garb, she brought forth no recollection. “Uh, d-do you remember me?” It’s a challenge to hear over the music, but she presses forward close enough that her lips are right in Keishin’s ear.

“Can’t say that I do,” he yells right back into hers.

“Karasuno class of twenty-twelve, I was Sugawara’s girlfriend.” Oh.

Oh.

Now he remembered, vaguely, but he doesn’t ever remember her looking like this. The last four years had been incredibly kind to her, in more ways than one. Back in her Karasuno days, [name] had always looked pleasant, for lack of better term. But there was always a lifeless, matted, dull glaze to her eyes that screamed she was searching for something more. While it was still somewhat present, there was a substantial joyous air around her. It looked good on her. However, as much as Ukai wanted to stay and admire, he had to go get set up for the evening. Or rather, that was the excuse he used when he said he would catch her after the show. ���[name], did you know who that was?” The woman in question gives a nod, confused at the sudden star struck gawks that her friends held.

“Uh, yeah? My ex-boyfriend’s volleyball coach?”

“No dude, that was the DJ, Spira.”

“What?”

Being the closing act meant a lot of different things to Ukai Keishin. On the negative spectrum, it meant he was going to have to tend to crops as soon as he finished cleaning up his set. That also meant he wasn’t going to get to go to bed until nearly eight in the morning after his shift at the farm. Yet, for him, the positives greatly outweighed the negatives. For Keishin, watching the audience lose themselves in euphoria, albeit probably a drug-induced one, just hit different for him. It was a sense of satisfaction that only came from a select few activities, with coaching volleyball being the other major contributor. There was just something about the way the crowd was overwhelmed and screaming the second underground remixes of old Kid Cudi tracks with his own twists overtook the speakers that granted Keishin a sense of enlightenment.

For him, being a DJ allowed an audience to flow and vibe with the journey of his life and all its constant up and down motions while under the guise of anonymity. As Spira, Ukai opened up the complexity and conflicting feelings of his inner mind and brought it to fruition through his mixes. He felt that in his soul, he’d done his art of storytelling justice. The audience felt it. Hell, his mom at home probably felt it. Perhaps it was one of the main reasons this dingy, hole-in-the-wall club kept asking him to come back every weekend.

His mind wanders further as he clutches an electronic cigarette in his hand, mixing beats on the turntable while taking hits of nicotine in between. He wonders if the girl he had ran into just a few minutes prior had been frequenting here as often as he had. Then, thinking back to what little information she supplied earlier, Ukai’s mind drifts off to the former third-year setter from when he first started coaching. Sugawara was a nice boy with a firm, almost parental, hand that walked dangerously along the lines of being a partner and being a control freak. When it came to his relationship, things had to go his way. And while his girlfriend that came to every tournament was much more outspoken yet easy going, she was opinionated and didn’t shy from confrontation.

Now that the coach had given it more thought, it was a wonder that one tolerated the other at any point in time. If anything, Ukai imagines the two of them would typically be at each other’s throats. From the few times he had interacted with her, she was always more free spirited and couldn’t be weighed down by any one else’s opinion, but seeing her now was different—she was in her element in the dingy, dark club with the glitter on her cheekbones refracting light off of her face. There was laughter and true, unabashed joy on her face. She had a light of her own—like she was ray of sunshine in the center of a storm.

Three hours past midnight when the club closed was always Keishin’s sign to leave, regardless of the countless attempts to attend the after party he’d been invited to. He had to go to work, after all. Sure, a part of him had always been a little green with envy at all the DJs that got to hook up with club patrons after, but after being at this gig for a few years, he figured that the right girl for him would eventually come to him if he continued working on himself. After all, he didn’t want to just have a string of one night stands with a bunch of fresh adults that could barely function after the small drop of Malibu rum—he was too old for that.

“Uh, coach?” [name] felt strange calling him that, but she didn’t feel familiar enough with him to address him otherwise. He was halfway in his car, the blonde ready to leave for the weekend to go back to his regular day-to-day work. “You coming to the after party?” [name] asks when Keishin only looks at her in question, cigarette hanging betwixt his dry lips.

“No, I actually have to go to work right now.”

“Oh,” she doesn’t mean to express her disappointment, but it slips anyway, “guess I’ll catch you later then?”

“Uh, yeah.” A tight lipped hybrid of a pained grin and grimace crosses her wet, gloss covered lips. Without another word, Ukai closes his car door, a little more brusquely than he intended to, before backing out and leaving the young woman to her own devices. His mind wanders once again with him humming absentmindedly to the soft acoustic punk playing over the car radio. His eyes are focused on the passing greenery, the cars that are weaving and bobbing off the freeway—hell he even noticed the way the tendrils of the sun are just barely starting to peak over the horizon because it reminded him of her. A thought he banishes immediately because he feels creepy for even thinking that.

Yet no matter how much scenery flitted through his honey eyes, his mind keeps traveling back to one thing, or rather one person, only.

Goddammit.

On Monday’s practice, Ukai Keishin’s mind is flooding and drowning in memories of his first year as the volleyball club’s coach. It was as if his mind was coercing him to attempt to reach out to the girl that plagued his mind for the last forty-eight hours or so. Though, he had no way of contacting her. Instead, with every step along the wooden floors, he can remember the way she would walk Suga to practice, almost physically seeing her standing in the doorway to kiss the third-year setter goodbye. As if he could see her sitting underneath the third window from the left, quietly doing homework and exchanging small talk and airy laughter with Kiyoko and Daichi. As if he could see the same sunny smile she gave in the audience from Saturday night at the club between the lines of the woodwork in the floorboards.

It was a repeating pattern day in and day out that was beginning to make Ukai question his sanity.

“Hey, man,” his assistant coach and fellow Karasuno alumni, Tsukishima Akiteru, places a hand on his shoulder and looks at him in worry. “Are you okay? You’ve been out of it all week.” In what world did a week translate into three days, the older blonde coach didn’t know.

“I’m fine, just tired,” Keishin all but bites back. He didn’t want to admit his conscious had been running rampant with thoughts of a girl he’d briefly met at a club. It felt almost as disturbing and perverted as it sounded in his mind.

“The team’s worried about you. Why don’t you take an early weekend and get some rest? We’ll see you back on Monday, yeah?” Normally, Ukai would have vehemently refused. However, his circumstances were far from normal and he was gracious for an assistant coach he trusted wholeheartedly to do the work that needed to be done. And so, Ukai heeded Akiteru’s advice and went home before practice even began on Thursday afternoon.

It was slightly disorienting for him to go home and nap, but he was incredibly thankful for the gift. Waking up just before he was technically supposed to start his shift at the shop, Keishin jumps into a cold shower to bring him to life before heading downstairs. A bellowing yawn passes his lips through his teeth as he starts his evening. Maybe his team was right—he really did need a break. Thankfully, he knew that the second the doors to the Sakanoshita were locked, he was done for the evening and wouldn’t need to reawaken until three the following morning. Just a few more hours until then, he thought.

With it being a slower evening as well, Ukai was able to kick his feet up on the counter as he always did, pull open the newspaper from earlier in the morning and casually flip through. Briefly, he considers giving up one of his four jobs because this was something he missed doing. But consideration aside, he was far too in love with the cash flow and the thought of paying off his mortgage to entertain the thought for long. Maybe one day, he would finally sell the Sakanoshita store or quit helping on the farm—

“You still work here?” Huh. Her voice sounds different when it isn’t drowning under the speakers of a nightclub.

“I do own this place, you know.” Ukai snarks at the woman who’d been consuming his brain for the last week. She looks different without glitter reflecting off of her unreal cheekbones or the heavy layers of foundation and eyeshadow. Even more than before, Keishin definitely recognized [name] now. “What are you doing here anyway?”

“Shopping,” she snorts as if it were the most obvious thing, “why else would I be at a store?”

“Dunno, maybe you’re just here to see me.” Ukai responds without skipping a beat, turning the page of the paper to play into his guise that he wasn’t the slightest bit surprised at [name]’s presence.

“Uh...actually...” her voice is quiet, prompting the coach to quirk a brow and fold up the paper he was now pretending to read. It wasn’t like he could focus on anything right now outside of the woman standing before him, spearated only by a thin counter. Without talking again, his brown eyes lock with hers, silently goading for her to continue speaking. “I-I just...I don’t know. It was just really weird to see you at the club and then to find out that you’re Spira on top of that. I haven’t seen anyone from Karasuno since I graduated and—“

“Woah, kid, breathe.” Ukai interrupts her before she can continue spewing word vomit at a hundred miles an hour. “So what if I’m Spira? Though, you better not tell anyone that. My stage name is a secret between us, alright?” For a moment she’s quiet, gears turning in her head. The secrecy didn’t make sense to her because, if anything, he should be proud of the fact that he’s rather well known in the underground electronica scene. Or at least, she was in his stead, because [name] would have been proud of Ukai regardless of whatever occupation he held.

She supposed it came with the territory of having an unrequited crush on the coach years ago, that continued well beyond high school and even university, back when she was still dating Sugawara Koushi. It was the reason she had even bothered to come sit in on his practices and partially the reason she would come to his tournaments and matches. Not that she didn’t want to be supportive of her then-boyfriend—it would have been a fight had she not—but seeing the hot older coach was definitely a bonus in her book. “But why?” She offers, not wanting conversation to end despite her not having actually bought anything.

“If the school ever caught wind of me doing that, I could lose my position as the coach. Some shit about Karasuno’s image or whatever.” [name] gives a small nod, fidgeting subconsciously, as an attempt to shake her nerves and anxiety, by sifting through various candy bars that were in front of her before grabbing her favorite. Without a second thought, she peels the wrapper before placing the candy between her lips, the puffy pink skin greatly contrasting the chocolate coating. ���Ya gonna pay for that, kid?” Ukai irks, his honey brown eyes steeling over in irritation. The nickname she’s given hits the final nail on the coffin and seals away [name]’s trepidation. Instead, her own sass comes out to join the fun.

“Nah,” she hums playfully, the chocolate-covered wafer cookie crunching between her teeth. “Quit calling me kid, coach. I’m a lady,” the irony isn’t lost on either of them as she speaks with her mouth full.

“Still a kid, kid. And quit calling me coach, I’m not your damn coach.” The familiar, grumpy attitude of his brings [name] back to the Ukai she knew back in high school. In a mix of nostalgia, warmth washes over her as the haughty tone in his voice sent shivers down her spine like it did a few years back.

“Sure thing, coach,” she teases again before tossing the wrapper of the stolen candy bar into the nearest bin. “You’re at the club tomorrow, right?” The question adds a bit of context and confirmation to Ukai—it seems she knew when Spira was performing, meaning she must have been a patron for a decent amount of time. Part of him wonders how she never realized who he was before, another part wonders how he’s never noticed her considering she could make all traffic stop if she stood in the middle of a freeway. At least, that’s what looking at her did to his heart.

“Yeah?”

“Maybe this time, you’ll join us at the after party.” Without another word, [name] pushes herself away from the counter she’d been leaning on while talking to the blonde man. With Akiteru giving him the weekend off, he actually entertained the thought of attending this time. Even if her invitation was rather blasé and indirect, he didn’t see the opportunity of him attending one presenting itself any time soon. He may be old, by his own standard, but there was a unknown allure to the thought of showing up to a wild party with a woman that was so adamant of his attendance.

Or rather, adamant in his mind. Whether she actually wanted his company remained to be seen, but the curiosity was gnawing at him, and was something he would have to unearth sooner rather than later.

Having an entire night, or a day’s worth, of rest was a rather disorienting, yet pleasant feeling for Ukai. After tending to crops and returning home in the early hours of the morning, the blonde coach was able to catch a solid nine hours of sleep before his shift at the Sakanoshita store with another chance to nap before he needed to head to the club. Despite knowing he had the ability to do so before another restless night, his mind felt the need to keep him awake and alert. Even after showering and styling his blonde tresses into their usual mane—mundane acts that usually came to him automatically—he was hyper aware of the slightest unruly flyaways.

Ukai Keishin was nervous.

He didn’t know what to wear or if there was a dress code or if anything he typically wore would be deemed worthy of an after party. A part of him wanted to leave it alone and let him sport his usual white track pants and tight, maroon muscle tank, but that part of him immediately drowns in the ocean of his anxiety. Another string in his brain prompted him to dress up just a little bit to help him look the part—it had nothing to do with impressing a certain club patron, no—he tried to convince himself. A miserable attempt, but still one nonetheless.

Eventually, he settled on crisp, dark-washed jeans that hugged his muscular legs without being suffocating, paired with a vibrant, crimson muscle tee that hugged his biceps all the same. Ukai still felt a little out of place in the attire, as he often had back when he first assumed the alias Spira, but headed out the door of his apartment before his conscious could dispute it.

He was early again, even more so than normal. Desperate for a drink to calm his nerves and replace his blood with liquid courage, Ukai worms his way around to the bar, signaling the attendant for his usual. Rum and coke in hand, the DJ stands off to the side, hiding like a wallflower, while he studied the sweaty, dancing bodies. Did he know why he was looking for her—no. Maybe partially to tell her she owed him for the candy bar, maybe to tell her he was joining in on the after party this time around.

Maybe to just see her.

Keishin banishes the last thought with a shake of his head before skulking off to the attached patio to smoke. Pulling a cigarette from his pack and a lighter from his pocket, the flame torches the end of the filter at the same time the blonde inhales. Forcefully pushing the smoke out past his lips, Ukai takes a hearty sip of his drink until it’s nearly gone. He was going to need something stronger tonight.

“Is it that time already?” The older man’s head snaps to the voice that had been haunting him subconsciously.

Part of him wishes he didn’t look.

As if to play into her question, [name] checks the large, rose gold watch on her right wrist—an incredibly stark contrast to her outfit for the evening. Maybe it was a hunch when Ukai felt that he had been underdressed, as if his intuition knew that she was going to be dressed to the nines in a black skater dress. Even with a modest neckline, the lace cut out detailing on the sides of the dress accentuated her curves impeccably, playing well with the volume of the skirt, while the open back she was sporting dipped dangerously low.

It took everything in Ukai to not throw every milliliter of restraint and inhibition out the window and fuck her right then and there.

Taking a lengthy drag of his cigarette to hold himself back, Keishin inhales deeply, the smoke billowing past his lips emerging densely and grey in color. “I’m a little early—needed an extra drink today.” The man manages to choke out, downing whatever is left in his little plastic cup for added emphasis.

“Need another?” [name] chirps politely; almost too politely as if to deliberately dispute the salacious thoughts flooding the coaches mind.

“I can get—“

“I owe you anyway,” she reminds him, alluding to the candy bar she had eaten without paying for from the previous night. “Pick your poison.”

“Double rum and coke.” He concedes. [name]’s lips twitch upward slightly at the corner before she plucks the empty cup from Ukai’s hand. He doesn’t miss the way the shellac on her nails grazes against his skin, leaving the whispers of contact to run warm. Immediately, the blonde man uses the nearly dead cigarette between his teeth to light a fresh one—heaven or hell knows he needed the nicotine right now.

Given the silence, Keishin takes the opportunity to absorb his surroundings. From the general direction that [name] initially came from, she wasn’t around any of her friends or really anyone that he knew. That was good at least; there wasn’t anybody else that knew of his presence. [name] returns, two clear plastic cups in her hands and surrenders the darker of the two to the man awaiting. “Hold mine for a sec?” Without thinking, Keishin holds his cigarette between his left index and middle fingers, his drink in the same hand, while taking hers. To his surprise, she pulls out her own pack of menthols and a torch lighter, setting the leaves ablaze before taking her obvious vodka cranberry back.

“You took up smoking?” The older of the two asks in surprise, noting the way her lipstick leaves the slightest bit of residue along the brown filter. [name] gives a shrug.

“Surprised you didn’t notice it sooner, coach. I’ve been smoking since second year.” Ukai gives a roll of his eyes at the use of this strange pet name he’s been dubbed by her. But he thinks about it, thinks about how Suga must have felt probably knowing that she did. Thinks how it just added to this strange, sassy yet happy, wild and free exterior she now had. And [name] notices instantly the very same look Ukai had in his face when he was trying to strategize, trying to figure out a way to navigate a conversation with his team about becoming better—she knows what’s coming next. “Yeah, yeah, I know I should quit or whatever. Suga lost that argument a long time ago.”

“Can’t really tell you what to do when I’m just as guilty.” Ukai gives a laugh—one that is embedded with bitterness and envy at the mention of the third-year setter—yet is just as vivacious as he is. A sound entirely different than she’d ever heard leave his lungs before. She likes it.

After finishing his smoke, Keishin gulps down a hefty swig of his drink before patting [name] on the shoulder before announcing his departure. “I’ll see you inside,” the girl, woman, calls out thoughtfully as she gives a small wave with her cigarette filter between her fingers. Ukai doesn’t verbalize the same sentiment. He doesn’t want to slip up and admit he’ll be looking for her.

But it’s painfully obvious that he is when he takes over the booth. Unable to hide the fact that with every chance that he looks into the audience, he’s searching for that black skater dress that hugs her all too perfectly, [hair color] locks swaying as she moves in the crowd. Ukai can’t hide it at all—not behind the turn table or new remixes meant to get the crowd moving.

He can’t hide the urgency he feels to find her outside in the crisp evening air, smoking on the back patio of the club after his set. [name] is talking and laughing with her friends while thin grey smoke billows from her open mouth before her eyes land on him. Some of her friends take notice to the tension and their shared gazes, some of them whispering his alias in excitement. But [name] just smiles knowingly, if not a little cocky, because she can see that urgency, that desperation, that Ukai was trying to hide. “Wait, [name], do you know Spira?” A bystander asked. Clearly, they weren’t present the last time this was brought up.

“Yeah, I may have met him once or twice,” the woman in question snickers as she strides over closer and closer to the aforementioned DJ.

“Cute,” Ukai sneers teasingly at her jab before instinctively reaching for the half-gone cigarette she pulls to her stained lips. At first, she thought he was going to put it out, considering their little conversation from a few hours ago. Instead, the volleyball coach puts the filter to his own lips, noting the damp fabric probably from her freshly applied lipgloss, and takes a drag. It tasted like watermelons and mint.

“Cheeky,” [name] returns, plucking her cancer stick back from the blonde man. While her friends are still behind her murmuring about the familiarity between the two of them, Keishin and [name] are lost in their own little world. “So since your set is over, and considering you’re still here, I’m assuming you’re joining me for the after party? Or do you have to go to work again?”

“I told them I’d be out of town this weekend,” Ukai tries to play it off as nonchalantly as he could, ties to swallow it down his nerves with rum and nicotine. It proves rather difficult considering the coy smile on [name]’s face is wearing and cracking through his resolve rather quickly. But at least, to him, he could confirm his mind was not playing tricks on him and [name] was just as adamant about his attendance as he initially thought. Even more so with her next statement.

“Cool. Your car or mine?” It took him a minute to process her words even—lust thickening and constricting the flow to his brain at the vague question. Ukai was getting far too ahead of himself, but goddammit how could he focus when the fabric of her skirt hit her mid-thigh and framed her like a Venetian goddess—“I don’t mind driving there.” She adds to coax him away from his silence.

“Nah, I got it. We’ll take mine.”

“Lead the way,” [name] chimes sweetly as she wraps an arm around the coach’s forearm. The physical touch is everything he’s been fantasizing about for the last few days—hellfire and brimstone and sunlight and goddammit why did he wear jeans that were only getting tighter and tighter?

Ukai opens the passenger door to his SUV, supporting the woman as she clambered in cautiously so as not to stumble from her heels. Getting settled in, the coach surrenders his unlocked phone to allow her the entirety of his music library. The irony of the DJ surrendering DJ rights to the passenger was not lost on either of them. Much to his surprise, [name] put on soft acoustic punk as he usually did on his way home from the club. The kind of softness one would turn on to accompany the fragile pitter-patter of rain against the windshield. “Cardboard Swords?” Ukai asks in surprise, more than familiar with the band.

“Flannel is a favorite of mine. I’m kind of surprised it’s in your library.” She adds after she begins directing him to this evening’s party location. From the corner of his eyes, he can see the way her full lips are moving along each word with expertise. He sees the way her [eye color] orbs soften slightly and he can tell this song hits home for her.

She’ll never say why—she’ll never tell him this was the song that helped her move on from Sugawara Koushi while restoring her inner peace.

But Keishin is no fool. He can tell that this is physically hurting her—crushing her soul into the leather seat of his car and, instinctually, he wraps a large hand around hers that’s resting in her lap. “I came out tonight to have fun with you, so don’t you go getting sad on me.” He means each word with innocent intent, yet he cannot ignore the almost hidden, salacious drip to each syllable and neither can she. How could she when his touch sent volts of electricity through her skin?

“Right, right,” she says in a conceding tone, switching the audio to something much more upbeat and a little flirty. “Why did you agree to go out tonight?” If Ukai had an answer, then it died on his lips as he let go of [name]’s hand to reach for another cigarette. The process of lighting the tube, inhaling, and exhaling bought him an extra minute to come up with an excuse; her doing the same giving him another thirty seconds.

“I don’t know.” It’s a blatant lie—a lie that [name] believes all too easily—but Ukai can’t bring himself to admit the truth. He can’t admit out loud that she’s the only thing that’s been on his mind all week or that he jumped at the opportunity, created one even, to be able to have a one-on-one moment with her. Keishin can’t admit that he can tell there are intricate webs spun in her mind and that all he wants to do is untangle them one by one.

And he certainly can’t tell her that even the mere sight of her sends his brain into overdrive and all he wants to do is repeatedly fill her over and over with his seed until she is entirely his, inside and out in mind, body, and soul. There was no way in the nine circles of hell that Ukai Keishin was going to admit to his sinful thoughts.

“It’s just up here.” [name] points with gaunt fingers, cigarette between them as her voice is half choked from inhaling her own smoke. Mirroring the man’s actions earlier, she indulged in her own nicotine habit to quell the budding disappointment from Ukai’s lackluster response. They drove up a slight winding hill and as the trees pass by, the itch for her truth and her history was gnawing at him. He wanted to know why this rambunctious party girl invited him all week to these elusive after parties. Why Flannel ate away at her insides like it did his. Why did her and Sugawara breakup?

But he decides against it for the moment.

“Where are we?” Ukai asks. There’s cars all lining the sides of the road of varying worth—he felt even more out of place than normal with his older SUV, even if it was an upgrade for him, considering the large number of luxury vehicles.

“Bevelle’s house.” [name] says simply, pointing to an empty space in the streets as she throws the butt of her cigarette into the road. The casual way she name drops the owner of the club makes him gawk, catching flies in his mouth had there been any at the hour. With a satisfied, cheesy grin, she hops out of her seat and walks in the grass to meet Ukai on the other side as he clambers out of the vehicle as well. In familiarity, she grips into his forearm once again as they walk towards the forest mansion.

Keishin wasn’t sure what to expect when the two of them walked in, but a home full of people screaming his pseudonym and her name was not on that list. Younger hordes had surrounded [name], greeting her warmly and telling her how glad they were to see her again for the evening. Others were approaching Ukai, telling them how rare and a momentous occasion that the infamous artist Spira was amongst their midst.

“Glad to see you could join us, Spira.” His boss and club owner, Bevelle, approaches the mismatched couple. Bevelle was an alias used by the middle aged woman, her real name unknown to those that didn’t know her know her, and was once upon a time her stage name. While she had chosen a quiet location in the Miyagi prefecture, Bevelle was quite known in the underground scene. Granted, Ukai didn’t know any of that when he’d taken the job. If anything, it was all thanks to her that he was able to learn for his own success as well as granting him the opportunity to learn in the first place. “Good to see you too, trouble.” Bevelle affectionately goes to muss at [name]’s hair, to which she only replies with a cheeky grin.

“How do you know Bevelle?” Ukai presses his lips towards the ear of the woman still hanging onto him as she expertly leads the way to the kitchen. The car ride left her feeling slightly uncomfortable, ashamed even though she would never admit to that, and she knew she definitely needed a drink after it. Part of her was heavily rebuking herself for trying to pry into his mind by asking why he came along, even more so when she put on the one song that shattered her heart every time she heard it. It just excited her that he had it in his library, that he even knew who The Cardboard Swords were, and that he enjoyed the same obscure taste in music as much as she did.

“She’s a close family friend!” The chirp that [name] gives isn’t entirely convincing, like she isn’t telling the truth. Regardless, Ukai washes down his doubt with the beer he was handed, figuring she probably had her reasons. And as soon as the plastic is in each of their hands, [name] downs the contents immediately, hoping to drown out the nerves ebbing from her stomach with vodka. She should have been ecstatic—her old high school crush, her unrequited crush, was here with her, drinking side by side but she can’t help but feel the tension between them—sexual or otherwise.

Just as the two of them down their second round, a piercing voice cuts through the thicket of the masses, calling out her name and capturing her attention. “It’s your song! Come on!” A shrug and a smile crosses [name]’s features as she’s all but dragged away to a different part of the mansion. Much to his surprise, she grabbed onto Keishin to drag him along as well.

The two of them are presented with a myriad of sweaty, rolling bodies—much more gone than Ukai had ever seen at the club itself. It was oddly...sensual, if it could be called that, to see the fluid movements between party goers. Sensual, intimate, strange—all of them could be used interchangeably at this moment.

[name] is dancing with another woman, mouthing all of the words to the current pop song while bobbing and jumping around excitedly before her eyes lock on his. She’s in her element now. All sunshine and smiles like Ukai had seen from on occasion from years ago or most recently at the club, but they’re directed at him for once as she pulls him closer onto the dance floor. The taunting beats and repetitive call of “come on” and the way [name] loosely wraps her arms around his neck as she dances brings Ukai to the realization that this was the end of the line.

The end of the line, because Keishin can’t hold himself back anymore.

Not with the way her hips are grinding against is and she’s laughing warmly and heartily at his slight discomfort and her teeth are glittering off the lights in the dark room like stars in the night sky. Not with the way her head is thrown back and her dress drops low enough to flaunt the expanse of bare skin of her neck and collar bones that are just begging him to sink his teeth in. Not with the way her [eye color]ed orbs are locked with his as she sings along with the music, oddly enough alluding to some form of confession of her feelings.

He can’t fucking take it anymore.

The large hands he has on her hips move just under her arms to hoist her up, [name] instinctively wrapping her legs around his waist to keep her balance. Their eyes are locked, honed in on each other with the rest of the party melting into the background. With her deepest, most wild high school fantasy driving her actions, she grins. “Hi,” is all she says before Ukai cranes his neck back to cover her lips with his.

His kiss is everything she imagined it would be after years of pining. The smell and taste of smoke and wood floods her senses as his tongue laps at the watermelon lip gloss on her bottom lip before seeking refuge within her mouth. His hands, now wrapped around her thighs give intermittent squeezes, either to keep them grounded in reality or just because he needs something to clutch at—she’s unsure of which. In response, her manicured fingernails tangle into his messy blonde locks. Their kiss pours out their desperation, laying it all out on the table for the both of them to see clear as day.

The only thing that prompts them to break apart is the ending of the song.

“You wanna get out of here?” Ukai asks as he tenderly puts [name] back on the ground. As if he weren’t just making out with her moments ago, the motion is delicate and gingerly and almost loving.

“Not yet,” there’s a knowing, smug lilt in her voice as she turns on her heel and throw herself back into the throng of party people. Or rather, attempts. While she’s attempting to flee, Keishin snatches her wrist, pulling her closer until their chests are flush against each other.

“Nuh uh,” the blonde man tuts, “you’ve been asking me to join you at a party all week, now here I am. The hell makes you think you’re leaving my side tonight?” [name]’s grin only grows wider.

“I’ve waited for years for this opportunity, coach, so if you think I’m not gonna have fun with it, you’re dead wrong.” The word ‘years’ constricts the man’s heart—forces his pupils to blow into dilation with her modest, yet blunt confession.

“Years?”

“Years,” she repeats, “ever since that first practice you stumbled into the Karasuno gym as the temporary coach. Why do you think I came to every single exhibition match and tournament? Or came to study and do homework while you guys had practice?” This girl was grinding at every steel line of self-control that was left in Ukai’s body because every word spilling past her lips added an additional ten volts to the sexual tension between them.

“We’re leaving.” He bites out despite the delicate tone. Wrapping his hand around hers once again, Keishin tugs her along time dodge the party goers that threw the two of them curious glances, wondering why they were quick to leave shortly after their arrival. Just to tease him further, [name] almost wants to offer a rebuttal and tell him that they should stay longer and enjoy the show. However, she knows she’s done enough waiting and if he was taking her home, she wasn’t going to argue.

While urgency and desperation was their game, Keishin didn’t cut corners when it came to presenting himself as a gentleman as he helped [name] back into the car. Hormones be damned—he was still going to help a lady into the passengers seat. “You never did tell me why you finally agreed to come out tonight.” She says quietly, as if the two of them hadn’t been making out and dry humping a few minutes prior. “And it’s clearly not because you knew I had a crush on you all throughout third year—“

“Don’t act like you’re the only one with feelings in this.” Ukai grits out, speeding much faster back home than he did on the way to Bevelle’s house. Paying that no mind, [name]’s ears perk up at his own wayward confession. When she asked for clarity, a rumbling groan shakes his chest as he patted down his pockets in search for his nicotine sticks. “I didn’t recognize you the first night at the club because you look different now. Happiness looks good on you.”

“Happiness?” She echos confusedly, turning to face Ukai fully after lighting her own cigarette.

“You used to always look content back then—just barely content and nothing more. And I can’t stop thinking back to those days because you’re this ball of sunshine, kid, and I can’t stop wondering what the hell Suga did to you to dim your shine that badly. I haven’t stopped thinking about you all week.”

[name] is quiet for a moment at his own rendition, his own version, of a confession and she’s stunned. And she can’t tell if she wants to cry or kiss him because this is not that way she ever fantasized this conversation going. It was going better than she dreamed. Better, because the words that Ukai is saying adds an entirely new layer to his amped up personality—he wasn’t just the sexy volleyball coach that she used to pine over. He was a person with deep rooted feelings for justice in the sense of wanting to understand how someone could inflict damage to the innocent and he wanted to rectify said injustices. He wanted to know how someone like Suga could try to dampen her sunlight instead of allowing her to thrive and bloom.

She wants to kiss him, she decides, but since he’s driving, she settles for placing a chaste one on the corner of his mouth. “Serves you right,” she jokes when she pulls away, “it’s been a long four years for me. It’s your turn to suffer.”

“Trust me, this car ride is torture enough.”

[ next ]

[grelleswife]

What are your head canons for if Grelle met Nina? Do you think they would hit it off over fashion, or would they hate each other?

Aaaa yay! This is a favorite rarepair that I don't get many asks about, so thank you for sending this! As a disclaimer, I'll be answering with my fanon version of Nina (Nina 2.0, if you will) in mind, since Yana incorporates harmful lesbian stereotypes into her character that I'd rather not propagate here. Sorry, sensei; they're my characters now! >:3 I think the surrounding circumstances would dictate how their meeting went. For example, if Grelle met Nina while disguised as Madame Red's butler (because we know what a snazzy dresser An was), the tailor might have been dismissive of the timid, clumsy "man" the goddess was pretending to be. If Grelle demonstrated her knowledge of fashion, however, that would catch Nina's attention. Plus, if the reaper let flashes of her true personality show, the tailor might be intrigued by this mousey little butler (my girlfriend wrote a fic along those lines a while ago entitled "L'Amour Fleurit"). But since Grelle was so immersed in her killing spree with An, I'm not sure that she would seriously pursue a flirtation with Nina, and they wouldn't have many opportunities to meet up outside of a professional context, such as An commissioning dresses from the tailor.

Things could get spicier if Grelle met Nina as her true self. One reason I'm a fan of this ship is that their personalities are very compatible--both women are bold, outspoken, confident, unconventional, and possessed of a rather bawdy sense of humor. They'd be bonding over clothes and hot gossip within the first five minutes! Also, Nina has thing for pretty ladies, Grelle is very bisexual, and these two are easy on the eyes...so...y'know...there's some physical attraction there, as well. Of course, their hot tempers would be bound to clash, especially with Nina's stubborn streak, which would lead to the occasional shouting match when they disagreed. But once that fiery wrath simmered down, they'd move past it...make-up sex might possibly be involved. Due to their busy schedules, they usually see each other after the work day's wrapped up, getting drinks or dinner together before heading over to Nina's place for Grelle to spend the night. When Nina stays late in the shop finalizing a new design or modifying an outfit, Grelle keeps her company, and isn't above distracting the tailor with flirtatious banter when she's feeling mischievous. That banter often turns into something more; let's just say that Nina has multiple uses for her measuring tape, including putting a naughty reaper in her place (much to Grelle's unmitigated delight). They also go on dates at Nina's favorite cafe, where they daintily sip their beverages and disparage the other patrons’ outfits. XD The captivating goddess becomes a sort of muse for Nina, and the tailor even accepts Grelle's input on her designs due to the reaper’s extensive knowledge of clothing and good eye. Nina takes the extra time and effort to make Grelle a whole closet's worth of beautiful dresses; it's what our queen deserves. After learning more about Grelle's dysphoria and the struggles trans women experience, she's also inspired to discretely offer her professional services to members of London's LGBTQ community. Although she'd probably be taken aback upon learning that Grelle is a goddess of DEATH, I don't think it would hinder their relationship in the long run. The Hopkins family has worked for the Phantomhives for generations, so Nina's Seen Some Stuff. She loves Grelle (passionately), Grelle loves her (ardently), and that's what matters most!

[ricksbowen]

simply, utterly | pt. 2

IN WHICH: the rivalry between y/n and ricky is still going on strong despite the musical, but they make a decision for the musical’s sake.

INSPIRATION: alright — supergrass, hello? — clairo

A/N: thank you for all the love you gave me on the last part. i hope y’all enjoy this part too :)

pt. 1, pt. 2, pt. 3, pt. 4, pt. 5, pt. 6, pt. 7

“Miss Jenn, there has to be a mistake—“

“I’m telling you both, there is no mistake!” Gracefully moving around the backstage, Miss Jenn didn’t even turn to the two of you as you and Ricky struggled to keep up with her.

“But I can’t work with,” your eyes snapped to Ricky for just a second. “Him,” you hissed, as if the mere mention of him was poison on your tongue.

Ricky faked a smile towards you, dropping it almost instantaneously as he rolled his eyes. “What Caswell is trying to ask,” he glared at you, “is: don’t you think that we lack, uh, the compatibility to play Troy and Gabriella?”

You opened your mouth to add on, before receiving another cold glare from Ricky that made you shut your mouth unwillingly.

“Oh, Ricky,” Miss Jenn gushed, stopping in her tracks to look at the two of you. You wouldn’t have been surprised if she started pinching Ricky’s cheeks like an aunt on Thanksgiving. “Can’t you see it? The tension between the both of you. You two are perfect together!” Miss Jenn clapped her hands out of excitement before bounding away, off to take care of more pressing matters.

Ricky sighed, running a hand through his hair stressfully before glancing at you. Your eyebrows were furrowed, eyes spacing out into blank space as your fists stayed clenched. You were mad — pissed off, even — at the choice of casting, and Ricky knew that. He smirked at you, nudging you with his shoulder and snapping you out of your trance.

“Panties in a twist?” he snarked, silently cursing himself for his sarcastic tone.

“Wouldn’t you like to know,” you grumbled, turning to him and putting your hand on his chest to shove him out of your way.

—

“Wait— You have to play lovey-dovey with Ricky Bowen?”

“Yes!” You groaned, falling backwards onto your bed. You stared up at the glowing stars on your ceiling, listening to EJ pace around your room in thought.

“How’re you gonna pull this off?” EJ asked, his face popping up over you as he looked over you with concern. He was ticked off that Ricky took his spot as Troy, sure, but the fact that his little sister had to pretend she loved her enemy bothered him even more. He had always been protective over you. Ever since you were welcomed into the Caswell home when you were five, EJ promised to care for you.

“I don’t know!” You were obviously stressed— you had been picking at your clothes since you read the cast list.

“Well you gotta come up with something quick,” EJ advised, crossing his arms over his chest. “Honestly, if you’re uncomfortable with doing it just step down—“

“What?” you sat up, turning to your brother with an incredulous look. “No! That’s— That’s like accepting defeat!”

“This isn’t a war, Y/N.”

“It is if it’s against Dick Bowen!”

“Whatever,” Ej rolled his eyes, waving off your dramatics as teenage hormones. He’d be blind if he said that he didn’t notice the obvious tension between you and Ricky. “I’ll just leave you here to do your angsty shit. Or just put a facemask on; something to calm you down.” His words were muttered under his breath as he left your room, shutting your door behind him.

There were a few things Ricky hated about his house. Sometimes the toilet clogged during unconventional moments. The stairs were too creaky for him to even attempt to sneak out. Everytime wind blew by, his house felt like the inflatable air dancers that stores always kept out.

But the one thing he hated the most? He had a window in his bedroom that gave him a perfect view of your bedroom from across the street. It had been that way for years, much to his dismay. You both pretended to act as if your houses never existed, but Ricky still remembered how you’d both make time to flip each other off from your rooms in the sixth grade, or how you both used to draw huge, obscene pictures that your parents would’ve never allowed.

Sometimes he looked through his window. Sometimes he saw you on the other side— this was one of those times.

There you were, dancing in a huge shirt as you held your hairbrush to your mouth like a microphone, yelling the lyrics to the song. Your speakers blasted your music ( Ricky could hear it from his house ) and— was that Hannah Montana? Best of Both Worlds? Oh, he was gonna tease you about that for sure.

Ricky snorted to himself, unable to keep his eyes off of your carefree dancing. He felt his heart stop when you stopped, turning to look at him through your window. Your face was green due to the facemask you put on, and you squinted at him in disgust from across the road that separated your houses.

“Creeper,” you mouthed, Ricky only grinning cheekily at you from his room.

“You look stupid,” Ricky mouthed back, smiling triumphantly at your angry expression.

You dropped the hairbrush and raised one of your hands, flicking your middle finger up before shutting your blinds.

You had spent a lot of time that night thinking about your situation. You had come up with an idea — a poor one, but it was an idea nonetheless.

You had approached him the next day, trying to keep a cool head as you walked up to his locker. You wanted to do well in the musical— you weren’t going to let your rivalry with Ricky get in the way.

“Ricky— Ricky, she’s coming,” Big Red said, voice becoming higher pitched as he saw you from afar. “Ricky, why is she coming towards us?” In all honesty, Big Red was intimidated by you. You were a Caswell, known in school for being outspoken and for being the opposite of your brother, and you were cast as Gabriella Montez? Your whole energy intimidated him, and he found himself standing awkwardly as you finally walked up to them both.

Ricky sent a reassuring smile to Big Red, one that lasted only a second before you stopped alongside him. “If you’re here to ask me on a date—” Ricky began, voice smug and teasing as he continued to rummage through his locker.

“You wish,” you interrupted, rolling your eyes before crossing your arms over your chest. “Look. If you want to pull this musical off we have to get along somehow.”

“Never expected you to make the mature decision,” Ricky hummed, the stupid, stupid smirk that he always reserved just for you plastered on his face.

“All I’m saying is,” you said, furrowing your brows and looking at the floor. “We need to be civil. After all this bullshit is over, we can go back.” You offered your hand out to him. “Deal?”

Ricky sent a look to Big Red, who responded with a hand-shaking motion, nodding over to where you stood. With a somewhat reluctant sigh, Ricky took your hand in his, shaking your hand firmly. “We go back,” he muttered, quiet enough so that only you could hear. “After it’s all over.”

“That’s the plan,” you grumbled, the handshake lasting for a second too long before you took your hand back. With one more tight-lipped smile to Big Red and Ricky, you turned around and walked away, disappearing into the crowd of students.

“Holy shit, Miss Jenn wasn’t kidding about the tension between you two,” Big Red commented, grinning cheekily as Ricky shoved his shoulder in response.

“Shut up, man.”

“Honestly, just make out with her already!”

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TAGS: @softpeteparker , @jointherebellion215 , @l-tt-e , @broken-from-fandoms , @uwupxterparker

[credulouscanidae]

ive wanted to do youtube, or animation, or anything to do with being an influencer, for literally 6-8 years, ive attempted to make videos during those times, or write scripts, or do anything along those lines. but every single time ive attempted, ive had the same trains of thought or the same voices in my head that essentially make me give up before i even start. i have super complex feelings about it and im in a rambling mood so i guess im just gonna vent all i can about it and get it out.

i mean, a huge reason has been because ive been going through absolute hell my entire teenage/young adulthood, just all these personal traumas/emergencies/crises that have made me need to prioritse surviving day by day, which makes taking time to create genuinely so difficult. it makes me sad because as a preteen/early teen, i of course went through a lot of trauma and family dysfunction, but i used the computer and mt creativty to escape it all. i was really actively making amv’s, stories, art, etc. i arguably had more of a following/community than i do now. and im not sure what changed. i think just the general....fact that my trauma started to get more complex and being repeatedly shown that escaping didnt truly let me escape my abuses. i think ive been rewarded for staying low, keeping quiet, staying agreeable and compliant, because anything outside of that has gotten me hurt in the past.

i feel like im constantly swimming with ideas and inspiration, and i have a lot of feelings and need to talk about things. im not self absorbed by any means, and the idea of being an “influencer” itself is not whats appealing, i just like the idea of having my ideas out there and seeking connection through that. 

and a lot of the thought patterns i get when i think about creating are a combination of “whats the point?” “someone else has already done it and better” “its an oversaturated market” “what makes me more interesting than the next person?” “i cant handle having my existence on display to others for them to critique and form opinions about” etc which i know are all very self-deprecating thoughts

but they get more complex than that

i think about how much youtubers are under scrutiny, i think about how toxic internet culture has become, and not even in a just way, like i literally cant handle the idea of a small group of people stalking my internet history over the 14 years ive been online, even knowing my deadname or some shit. and ive seen how much people can hurt when they wanna hurt.

i also, in a self deprecating way, just find myself not interesting. i think a lot about how people are constantly fighting algorithms and creating an online persona to get an edge, to grow their platform. then i get into this spiral of feeling like ugh. we’re forced to make a brand out of ourselves and sell ourselves. we lose a lot of our humanity through this, because weve curated a very specific version of ourselves that is digestible and consumable. im also not a confrontational person (due to trauma) and i see a lot of the popular youtubers be people that are very outspoken, cemented in their ideas, and unfortunatly, are in dramas or even seek/perpetrate it. of course i follow a lot of people who arent like that, but they feel a lot more educated and well spoken compared to me.

again, i understand a lot of this comes from self depreaction and pesimission, but i literalyl cannot shake these thoughts every time i go to create something. “whats the point” is a very strong thought, because i feel like a nothing, someone who cant add anything substantial to pretty much any topic that has already been discussed into the ground. it feels very bleak and a big reason ive struggled to even draw or create merch the last 2 years. or bothered with my online presence as an artist. i have lots of visions and goals about where i wanna take myself, but dont have the charisma, motivation, or certainty that i want to.

and i know that being a creator isnt as vapid and vain as im making it sound, being a creator online is just that, a creator. expressing creativity, taking the ideas in your head and sharing it with others. i feel like thats, at its core, why pretty much everyone starts out doing this. but i mean, dont even get me started on the need to monetise off your creativty, thats another big chunk as to why i falter in producing “content”. im just so fatigued, because i know i cant ever been like my 13 year old self again where i just created whatever the fuck i wanted out of fun, bc i now feel like the internet has been...”infected by capitalism” for a lack of a better term, and theres a lot of pressure nowadays to sell yourself to a certain standard.

ironically, i feel like composing a proper think piece about my feelings and putting them into a video lmao.

also just practical issues like i dont have the money to invest in a camera/equipment, ive had unstable housing in the past so production has been difficult/impossible, and i havent had the computer to handle video editing up until last year. siiiigh, just so much fuckery

[valkyrisffvii]

Mithroth Fluff Alphabet

Template by @magical-warlock​ 

Some information about the Myriad’s primary OTP, for your viewing pleasure.

Mithra’s answers are in bolded italics

Sephiroth’s answers are in italics

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Mithra enjoys going on missions with Sephiroth not only to accompany him in SOLDIER service, but to show her prowess on the battlefield as a deadly sniper and master of stealth. Outside of SOLDIER duties, she loves simply having deep conversations with him and relaxing together in their apartment. Sephiroth is often quite busy as the highest-ranking SOLDIER, so she deeply appreciates any time she gets to spend with him.

Similarly, Sephiroth always likes it when Mithra can join him on missions because he feels less lonely. He knows how strong she is, and he feels pride whenever she accomplishes difficult tasks. He often takes her on romantic dinner dates to exotic eateries and follows the meal with walks around Midgar. He doesn’t show it, but he loves it when Mithra braids his hair and gives him facials.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

It’s no secret to anyone that Sephiroth is a beautiful specimen, but unlike the Silver Elite, Mithra admires Sephiroth’s personality much more than his looks. That’s not to say that she doesn’t appreciate his handsome appearance, however. Like many, she is obsessed with the General’s long silver hair, especially because she’s allowed to touch it. She’s also found herself admiring his half-naked body both at night and in the morning. She finds his strong arms especially handsome because of their ability to both swing Masamune with little effort and embrace her without crushing her. 

Mithra is definitely a jewel among the ranks of SOLDIER when it comes to physical beauty, as she’s the only female member. Despite the hard work and fighting that come with the job, Mithra is still able to keep her skin glowing. Sephiroth is particularly fond of her eyes, as they are such a contrast to the mako blue usually associated with SOLDIER: a rich medium brown with golden reflects. 

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

Sephiroth is definitely someone who will stew in their feelings rather than have an outright mental breakdown. Mithra knows him well enough to recognize when he just needs to be left alone, only taking action if he acts first. She’ll just hold his face in her hands while whispering encouraging words, as well as reassuring him that she’ll always be there for him.

In stark contrast to her s/o, Mithra reacts strongly to different stressors and her way of coping has changed throughout her life. Before she became friends with her comrades, she’d often just hide her emotions in the hopes that they’d go away. After a while, she becomes more open with her personal struggles and cries freely without fear of being ridiculed. To comfort her, Sephiroth will usually just hold her close to him while stroking her hair and letting her cry into his chest or shoulder. He does not need to use words for her to feel his love and support.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

Although she is over the moon in her relationship, the idea of marriage is quite daunting to Mithra for a long time. She doesn’t prioritize marrying Sephiroth, but she still wants to be with him for as long as possible. After the group leaves Shinra, she dreams of living with Sephiroth somewhere where they’ll both be free to be themselves.

Sephiroth knows that he wants to spend the rest of his life with Mithra, but he can’t imagine any other future besides the two of them continuing to work for Shinra due to his sheltered lifestyle. Following their desertion, he also just wants to be with her somewhere safe. He does eventually propose to her, albeit after a few years of fighting Shinra and saving the planet from them. 

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

Mithra is definitely the more outspoken and outgoing partner, but her status as a Second Class SOLDIER prevents her from several privileges. She does not have the same amount of authority as Sephiroth even though she is more radical in her beliefs. Thankfully, Sephiroth listens to her and voices her concerns to the higher-ups at Shinra if they are especially concerning.

Even though he’s not the talker in their relationship, Sephiroth’s high-ranking position in SOLDIER allows him to basically have authority over his superiors. He is the one who gets to request to live with Mithra, not the other way around. Outside of official SOLDIER business, Sephiroth is the calmer, quieter partner, except for when members of the Silver Elite try to harass Mithra.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Regardless of their relationship to her, Mithra isn’t the quickest to forgive someone. However, she is not one to play victim and beg for forgiveness, but she instead will just apologize and hope that she’s forgiven. That being said, she and Sephiroth don’t really fight much. If they ever do get into a fight, she’s the loud one and the first one to storm off in frustration.

Sephiroth isn’t one to start fights nor does he hold interest in continuing a fight. He is aware of Mithra’s short temper and tendency to react before thinking, so he never does anything to victimize or aggravate her. He forgives Mithra pretty easily because he knows that she never yells at him purposefully; she just tends to overreact. 

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

Mithra is fully aware of what Sephiroth has sacrificed in order to be in a relationship with her. He must deal with jealous fangirls, he can’t just be away for long periods of time, and he has to deal with her on an almost daily basis. She is forever grateful that he chose her, a feral former con artist, as his partner over the millions of beautiful women who adore him. 

Sephiroth knows what Mithra has to put up with, not only as a female SOLDIER, but as his girlfriend. From horny recruits to dismissive Shinra executives to neurotic fangirls, she doesn’t have it easy. However, she chooses to remain unbothered about these things because she knows that he’s the one for her, and she knows how hard she’s worked to get her position. He is grateful that she’s by his side despite all the challenges that life as a SOLDIER offers. 

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

Mithra is not a woman of many secrets, but the secrets she does have are quite deep and memorable, not always for the better. By the time she and Sephiroth start dating, they’re already good friends who know each other pretty well. She does tell him the backstory of her life in the slums, much to his horror. Mithra continues to be quite open with him throughout their relationship, as she knows that she can trust him and that he’d never spill her secrets.

Sephiroth struggles with secrets of his own, mainly because he is unsure of how to feel about them. He tells Mithra about his lonely childhood, but he doesn’t know whether or not to tell her about his supposed “mother.” He is happy that she is around to love him without judgement, but he doesn’t want to burden her with his personal issues. As their relationship grows, he does become more comfortable telling her what’s on his mind, and this peaks when they become members of Avalanche.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

Sephiroth inspired Mithra to work hard as a member of SOLDIER. Like many other Third and Second Class members, she admires his battle prowess. On a more personal note, falling in love with him helped her to overcome her original dislike towards men. Before she met her friends, the only men Mithra had encountered were greedy and predatory. This trust towards the opposite sex blossomed into attraction and then love towards Shinra’s greatest SOLDIER.

Before he met and fell in love with Mithra, Sephiroth had always been stoic in nature, fully dedicated to his work and only confiding in Genesis and Angeal. Mithra’s unapologetic attitude and kind personality helped Sephiroth to be more confident in himself as a friend and a partner. She even helped him learn about his background without dropping the ball too quickly, and she reunited him with his real mother. Mithra gives him a second chance at living his life to the fullest, and he is eternally thankful for that.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Mithra doesn’t get jealous super easily, even when Sephiroth’s fangirls approach them on the street. She finds their fanaticism quite amusing and will often try to hide her laughter as Sephiroth annoyedly deals with them. 

Sephiroth doesn’t really get jealous either, but he is not fond of guys who try to hit on Mithra. Anyone who tries to flirt with her will get a hard stare from him, and it almost always scares them away. If the stare doesn’t work, the knowledge that he could probably split them in half is very effective and sends them on their way.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Neither of them had kissed anyone before their first kiss together, but the event was quite sweet. Mithra was running away from Genesis after stealing Loveless from him, and she came across Sephiroth and Angeal. Of course, Angeal has to leave, leaving her alone with Sephiroth. Zack, who doesn’t know how to keep his mouth shut at times, leaked Mithra’s secret to him, and Sephiroth took it upon himself to kiss her after she confessed. The two share kisses quite often, whether it be before one of them leaves on a mission or first thing in the morning. Seph is a pretty good kisser; he’s able to completely shock Mithra by pulling her in for a long, passionate kiss. Mithra’s pretty good at kissing as well, and she’ll often surprise him by kissing his cheek while he’s working.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Mithra confesses her love after Zack spills the beans about her crush on Sephiroth to the man himself. She thinks that she’ll be humiliated as a result because she fully believes that Sephiroth doesn’t like her back, but luckily she is very, very wrong about that.

Sephiroth manages to goad Mithra’s confession out of her, but not before having unsung feelings for her as well. His response to her confession is pulling her in for a long kiss and then professing his love. He does not even need to ask her out. It doesn’t take too long for them to start living together.

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

Marriage was not even a figment in Mithra’s mind before she began her relationship with Sephiroth. Even as they are dating, the desire for marriage isn’t prominent due to her responsibilities as a SOLDIER. Following the downfall of Shinra, Mithra does think about marriage more. She knows that she wants to spend the rest of her life with Sephiroth, but she’s unsure of how to feel about marriage. However, after Seph proposes to her, she is overjoyed, having secretly been hoping for such for a while. 

Similarly, Sephiroth doesn’t really think about marrying Mithra until their group leaves Shinra and joins Avalanche. Both of them have multiple near-death experiences during that time, and once the dust all settles and Shinra is defeated for good, Sephiroth knows that he wants Mithra in his life forever and ever. He proposes to her after a long period of nervousness. He is afraid that she’ll reject him, even after all their years of dating, but his friends encourage him and he pops the question while the group is hanging out in Aerith’s new flower garden, which she made to restore hope to the people of Midgar. Obviously she says yes, and the two of them get married with all their family and friends in attendance. Their married life is much more chill without Shinra, but Sephiroth still does mercenary work with the other ex-SOLDIERs while Mithra does art.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

Mithra’s names for Sephiroth: Sephy (almost always) My dearest (often) Babe (often) My other half (sometimes) Hot stuff (rarely)

Sephiroth’s names for Mithra: My love/Love (almost always) Beautiful (often) Mi (sometimes; this nickname is also used by Mithra’s other friends) Gorgeous (sometimes)

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

Before she and Sephiroth got together, Mithra was very wary about her feelings towards him. She was unsure of whether she actually loved him or she just felt the same attraction his fans felt. She would silently wrestle with these emotions, only letting them show in the privacy of her home. However, once the two become a formal couple, she explicitly expresses her love for him. It’s quite heartwarming to listen to her talk about him, especially since most people see Sephiroth as a stoic and reserved person. Whenever they’re with the others, Mithra will also give him light touches and sometimes small kisses. She’ll also occasionally do this around other women to show who Sephiroth belongs to.

Sephiroth isn’t as touchy-feely as his girlfriend, but it’s very obvious whenever he’s especially in love with her. He sometimes talks about Mithra when he’s with Genesis and Angeal or other guys, and the love in his voice is very audible. His pupils also dilate significantly, something that Mithra is quick to notice whenever he looks in her direction. When Angeal first started training Mithra alongside Zack, Sephiroth would always ask him questions about her, as he was too nervous to do it himself. As the two of them got to know each other better, Sephiroth also realized that he liked her, and he’d always find reasons to run into her around the Shinra building.   

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

Mithra is humble in nature, so she doesn’t brag about her relationship even if she has every right to. As for PDA, physical touch is her secondary love language, with quality time as her primary. Whenever she and Sephiroth are alone, she’s more than willing to hug and kiss him as much as possible. However, due to the professionalism that’s required as a SOLDIER, she can’t shower him with affection when they’re on duty. Physical affection is reduced to hand holding and occasional quick pecks, but she enjoys it just as much.

Sephiroth was never much of an affectionate person before he started dating Mithra. His job was always his first priority, and he’d never really received the love and affection he needed. Once he and Mithra became a thing, however, he realized how touch-starved he was. He finally had someone who would comfort him, support him, and love him for who he was. As happy as he is with Mithra, he doesn’t brag about his relationship. Even though a fair amount of Shinra executives are aware that their silver general is dating a Second Class, it’s not a big deal, and it doesn’t affect either of their work in SOLDIER.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

Due to her solitary lifestyle pre-SOLDIER, Mithra is able to keep herself occupied when she’s alone, despite the fact that she’s an extrovert. This is very helpful when Sephiroth is away on long, demanding missions as a First Class SOLDIER. She does miss him when he’s gone, but she knows that he’ll come back to her.

Sephiroth, even though he’s not the most social, is a good listener, and never criticizes or mocks Mithra when she’s struggling. He’s also willing to go out of his comfort zone to adjust to her needs and wants, and she does the same with him.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

As well as giving him love and affection, Mithra does whatever she can to help Sephiroth relax after long work days. She’ll cook him fresh meals and massage his aching shoulders, things that he greatly appreciates. Mithra’s quite creative in nature, so she’ll often encourage him to try things that most normal people do, such as going shopping or exploring the vast metropolis of Midgar. She likes to throw in a little risk, especially since Sephiroth had been sheltered most of his life.

Unlike Mithra, Sephiroth is a little more traditional in the romantic aspect of their relationship. His perfect date consists of a simple outing at a nice eatery and then a stroll around the city. He’s also sure to get Mithra nice gifts for her birthday and holidays that involve gift-giving, even though she’s insistent that he’s the best gift she could ask for. Some gifts he’s given her include digital art supplies, certain articles of clothing, and fleece throw blankets, her absolute favorite. 

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

During their times as members of SOLDIER, Mithra is not sure what Sephiroth’s ultimate goal in life is. He’s so used to his duties as a 1st, that there’s not much room for him to have many ambitions. Even so, she’s very supportive of him, not bothering him when she knows he’s very busy and looking out for him. She believes that he’s much more than his job portrays him as, and she hopes that people can see him that way.

One of the first things Mithra has said in terms of goals was that she wished to atone for all the crimes she committed in her past. Sephiroth was present for this, and he knew that she was a good person with a troubled past. He was actually one of the people that told Angeal that Mithra would make a good Second Class SOLDIER, therefore helping her advance in the program. During their time as a couple, he only continued to support her in her career as a SOLDIER and in her hobbies. He actually buys Mithra several things to help her continue her interest in drawing, partially because he likes it when she draws him.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Mithra loves trying new things, whether they be foods, hobbies, or relationship activities. She enjoys doing things with Sephiroth that are outside their norms, mostly because she wants him to be able to experience everything life has to offer. Sephiroth is sometimes reluctant to do such things, but Mithra is quick to remind him that not everything has to be done professionally and with strict plans. 

Routine has always been a major part of Sephiroth’s life. Ever since he was a child, his days consisted of training, war, labs, work, etc. This routine does extend to his relationship at first, but with Mithra’s encouragement, he becomes more and more willing to have some fun. That being said, he doesn’t normally appear excited or adventurous on the outside, but Mithra knows when he’s enjoying himself.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

Before she started dating him, Mithra knew a fair amount about Sephiroth. She knew what his interests were, his favorite foods, some backstory, the usual things that friends know. However, this knowledge became much much deeper when he started living with her. He told Mithra how lonely his childhood was and how he felt different from other children. Luckily, Mithra is more than able to empathize with him, as she was lonely in the slums as well. People always thought she was weird because she had different interests, and she had no idea who or where her family was. Because of all of this, she’s more than happy to be Sephiroth’s number-one supporter.

Sephiroth’s knowledge of Mithra was equal to her knowledge of him while they were still just friends. Everything changed when he began dating her, though. Mithra had the trust in him to tell him some of her deepest secrets, things that not even her best friend Zack knew. Some of these stories include the harassment she faced from members of the gang she participated in, as well as the horrific story of how she got her neck scar. Sephiroth is even more determined to protect her from harm after gaining this knowledge, and he also understands the loneliness she felt. 

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

For Mithra, her relationship with Sephiroth is the best thing that’s ever happened to her, probably. She’s never felt so secure and loved by someone in her life, so having him around has helped her immensely. She’s determined to make the relationship work, and she knows that if she wants Sephiroth to continue loving her, she will have to make some sacrifices. Although, considering how much Sephiroth spoils her, that’s not a big worry. In comparison to other things in her life, it’s pretty high up there. She values her relationship with him equally with her friendships, and she doesn’t let it distract her from her job in SOLDIER.

Prior to his entry into a romantic relationship, Sephiroth’s main priority was his job as a general in SOLDIER. Even though he was close friends with Genesis and Angeal, his work kept him occupied most of the time. Once he began dating Mithra, his entire mindset changed. He knew that he couldn’t just ignore Mithra and focus entirely on his work if he wanted her to stay with him, so he found a balance between his love life and professional life. Even though he does value Mithra more than his position, he makes sure to continue working hard in order to help her.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

Mithra loves swimming, and she’s always happy when Sephiroth joins her, whether it be at the pool or the beaches of Costa Del Sol. She’s more than happy to massage sunscreen into his back and shoulders and just enjoys hanging out with him in the sun and the cool water. Both of them are skilled at doing flawless, photogenic hair flips and just having great aesthetics. She also likes it because she gets to see him in trunks.

Sephiroth loves watching Mithra draw. She has only gotten better and better over the years he’s known her, and he’s actually the one who suggested that she sell some of her art for extra gil. He always swoons when she creates new drawings of him, no matter what expression or outfit she draws him with. 

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Alongside Zack, Mithra is one of the most affectionate people in SOLDIER. She greets her close friends by giving them hugs and loves curling up under toasty warm fleece blankets. Things get even better for her when Sephiroth moves in because now she has an extra heat source. She’ll often lie on Sephiroth’s chest, her ear pressed against his heart and its calming rhythm lulling her to sleep. Even if she wakes up separated from him, she’s quick to snuggle back up to him, pressing soft kisses on his neck and chest and draping her arm across his stomach. Mithra also loves running her fingers through her boyfriend’s beautiful long hair, braiding it, and combing it. Sephiroth will often let her comb any tangles out when he gets out of the shower, and he secretly loves how careful she is when she braids his hair.

Sephiroth did not realize how affectionate and loving he could be until he started living with the love of his life. Having never gotten hugged in his childhood, Sephiroth loves it whenever Mithra hugs him, kisses him, and cuddles with him in bed. He loves the feeling of holding her in his strong arms and just running his fingers along her arms and in her hair. Once he finds out that Mithra is ticklish, the poor girl can never escape him. He’ll sometimes tickle her side when they’re walking together to get a reaction out of her, and he’ll attack her bare stomach with kisses to wake her up if she’s being particularly stubborn. Her laughter is one of his favorite sounds in the world because it reminds him that he’s not only a SOLDIER General, but a human who can feel love. 

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

Being used to loneliness, Mithra can handle herself when Sephiroth is away. She knows how strong he is and that he’ll always return home to her. In the meantime, she’ll hang out with her best friends. Whether it be training sessions with Angeal, pulling pranks on Genesis, or wreaking havoc with Zack and Cloud, Mithra has plenty of things to keep herself occupied when her beloved is not around. 

In a similar fashion, Sephiroth is used to being alone for longer periods of time. The first few years of his life were spent under close watch by Shinra scientists and away from most outsiders. However, once he’s with Mithra, the loneliness is different. He looks forward to seeing her again and keeps himself busy with either work-related things or sparring with Genesis and Angeal. He’ll often talk about Mithra to whoever will listen, which makes them in turn wish for Mithra to come back so he’ll stop.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

Mithra is willing to do so many things for Sephiroth, some of them even coming nearly at the cost of her life. She finds information on his past that Shinra had tried to conceal for years, and Hojo, her greatest enemy, nearly kills her as a result. Her willpower is strong, though, and she gives Sephiroth the truth that he’d been seeking all his life. She also locates and rescues Sephiroth’s birth mother, giving him further closure on his family history. Most importantly, she keeps him sane by gently telling him about the misconception of Jenova and the mistakes of Shinra.

After he hears Mithra’s sad and frightening backstory, Sephiroth is determined to keep Mithra safe from anyone who would try to hurt her. One of his first promises to her is that he’ll stand between her and her enemies. Although Mithra is more than capable of defending herself, that doesn’t stop him from intervening. He’s also quick to come to her assistance if she seems hurt. A particularly comedic instance of this happened when Mithra got her period for the first time after he moved into her apartment. Sephiroth was convinced that she had gotten hurt and had a wound somewhere, and tried to drag her to the hospital. Thankfully, and much to his humiliation, Zack gave him “the talk”.

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Hello there! If you don’t mind, would it be alright to request a matchup for Demon Slayer, Fullmetal Alchemist & Fire Force?

I’m an autistic, gay trans guy!

(I’m a Libra & ISFP).

I’m 4'10 with short hair that I dye often (as of right now, it’s indigo!) and I have hazel eyes, with a lot of freckles. I’m chubby, but with a very prominent hourglass figure. I gravitate towards wearing clothes that are baggy, but I have a secret love for wearing things like dresses or generally very pretty/cute clothes?

(Like.. Lolita style stuff! I have no problem wearing feminine things, and a lot of it makes me feel really confident! I often feel insecure about myself due to my autism, and I have a birth defect that gives me complications with walking, so wearing nice things and looking fancy makes me feel a lot better about myself!)

I’m timid and struggle when it comes to socialising especially with new people. I tend to not speak at first and only gesturing to avoid having to properly talk unless necessary. I struggle anxiety and extreme hyper-empathy (I feel emotions a lot more intensely than most people would). It’s not hard to get me very overwhelmed either so I do find it difficult to talk to others, but I do get along better with those who are a lot more extroverted and will open up more with people like that! Over time I tend to come more out of my shell and I’m very loving and compassionate!

I’m not the smartest, and can be pretty oblivious (i.e. with romantic advances) and need most things to be said to me at face value or I usually won’t understand, or it’ll go over my head.. And to which, I have my head in the clouds most of the time, always day-dreaming and that causes me to be uncoordinated or clumsy.. Which my short attention span doesn’t help with at all!

(It’s taken me a few hours to actually sit and write this ‘cus I keep getting distracted, haha!)

Despite my initial shyness, I have the tendency to be very loud and childish around people I like/want to impress, and won’t think much when I do this, which leads me to embarrass myself rather often. My love language comes in gifts or words of affirmation and I’m over the top lovey-dovey, but I instantly fluster if they’re returned. I’m very much so teased for how easy I am to embarrass.

I’m creative and absolutely adore most forms of fiction, taking mass amounts of inspiration from it for what I make! I’m a writer, artist and a singer in my free-time! (I love to sing for others or draw others, do anything to just show off my talent to make others happy!)

I really enjoy impressing with my ideas and their originality, and adore nothing more than when I get to talk about what I love; but sometimes I overshare or talk too much and can be unsure where to stop.

I guess overall I would do better with someone who doesn’t mind how 'eccentric’ I am? (I’m often bullied for these “strange” qualities) And someone who’s more outgoing than me? That aside, I don’t mind anything else, but I do have a type for guys who are a lot taller than me, haha!

I hope this isn’t too much, but thank you so much for reading, and if you accept this request! I really tried my hardest with this 'cus I really like this blog!

Waah, thank you again! I hope you have a nice day!

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Hello @eggedeggs and thank you so much for requesting with us! I am sososososos sorry this got out so late, but I truly hope that you enjoy this!

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 Alphonse Elric! So, the reasons as to why I matched you up with Alphonse is because i really like the idea of having someone who looks so basic with someone who looks so cool, you! I feel like Alphonse, being the accepting person that he is will have no reservations being with someone so outspoken in the way you show yourself to the world. Hopefully that makes sense, but ultimately Alphonse will ultimately be fascinated with how you look, cool hair and lolita style and all! 

You aren’t the only person who is a little timid at first, Alphonse is just as timid, but as had time to adjust to it. He could be someone that could help you with your shyness and being timid! He understands the feeling, he knows how it feels to be shy towards others, so he will know how to help you feel more confident! And when you feel overwhelmed about meeting new people, he will pull you to he side and make sure that you okay, make sure that you feel calm until you can socialize again, and if you can’t then he will take you some place that will help you feel better! He also loves that you are so compassionate and he especially loves watching you come out of your shell when you are comfortable around people! SO with that in mind, Alphonse will do everything in his power to make you feel comfortable so that he can see you being the bubbly and eccentric person you are!

Alphonse would notice your love of fiction, how you are always reading or writing; so he’ll sometimes go into town and look the various shops to see if they have a new fiction book or if they have someone writing utensils that would suit you and your creative endeavors! He is very attentive to stuff that really makes you happy, so when he sees something that make your smile the brightest, Alphonse will never hesitate to get it for you, no matter the cost!

All in all, I feel that Alphonse will be the best fit for you in the fullmetal universe because he is attentive, loves how you express, yourself, understands your shyness and how sometimes being around people really overwhelms you! He will love every bit of you from head to toe. He isn’t really the most outgoing person, but for you, he will do his best to be the man of the party!

Tanjiro! Okay, so you and Tanjiro! It’s just *Chef’s kiss*! Tanjiro is a pretty outgoing guy with a love for friends and family that compares to no other! And you not be an exception to that! He would love you cute clothes, your cool Indigo hair, and your amazing hourglass figure! 

Tanjiro would be understanding about your shyness around other people, though wouldn’t personally understand it himself. But that won’t stop him from trying to make sure that you feel comfortable around his friends and such! And oh boy, once you do get comfortable enough to show all of them your funny confident side, Tanjiro’s eyes will become literal hearts for you! He will fin d it extremely endearing when you talk about things that you love and things that give you inpiration! And just as Alphonse will do, Tanjiro will find things that will help you get more inspirations and more motivation to be creative!

Tanjiro will notice that you are a bit floaty, in the sense that you get distracted a lot, which is perfectly fine for him, he is the kind of person that has dealt with that and knows how to help you back to the grounds of reality! But sometimes, Tanjiro will let you do you thing, whatever it may be, from thinking about something else entirely or maybe just letting you stay in your daydream! He mostly does it because he the look on your face whenever you go into your little dreamland intrigues. He always wonders what you are thinking about whether it be your next project or something about the flowers in the garden! He just likes staring and watching, his heart beating rapidly because of how cute it is!

He would love if you were to tell him your ideas, run it by him so that he can be a part of the creative adventure! Tell him about a new book you want to write or maybe a piece of art that you want to paint! And if by chance, the painting would be a portrait of him, he will smile and excitedly pose for the painting! He wants to be there every step of the way even if he doesn’t really know what is going on!

All in all, I feel like you and Tanjiro would make a fantastic couple! He will help you get out of your shell a little but, but still support you when you need to be a lone to recharge! He will be there for you when you have amazing ideas for a book or a picture that you want to make! Tanjiro will be the one to make you feel confident and feel great about yourself with how much love he will shower on you! So make sure to give some of that love back to him!

Vulcan! So, I chose Vulcan purely for the aesthetic, like come on. You have this amazing lolita look going on with the cool hair and the and the nice sense if style mixed in with his tattoos and rocker look, and his hair and iron personality, it just makes so much sense to pair you up with him! His personality is outgoing, loud, and rambunctious. It’s something that can really combat your shy demeanor in a good way. The way you see him conversing with other people, they way he would make you feel comfortable around because he is with you will help you tremendously! He will make sure you will never feel overwhelmed ever again, and knowing him he will most likely try to fight that overwhelming feelings himself. On another note, I feel that out of all three of these guys, Vulcan would be the most into your body! He wou0d loves the curves and just, the way you look in clothing, he just love it so much! 

As for your floaty mind and your daydreaming, he would find it a extremely endearing and kind of irritating at times, but mostly endearing. What makes it irritating for him is when you do it for too long and you accidentally fall and hurt yourself or something along those lines. He just doesn’t want you to hurt yourself! He also doesn’t want you to forget things, but he would learn to live with it by putting little notes all around your shared space, making sure that you don’t forget at least the important things, such as doctors appointments or  bills that need to be paid! 

Vulcan will be the type to constantly want to embarrass you, so if you show him any affection and he returns then sees you get all flustered by his affections, you will be in for a long ride! He will shower you in hugs and kisses just to see how red you can get! Is it mean? Yes, but does he really care? No, not when you look so cute when you are blushing! He can’t handle it! But he does it cause he loves you, and if anything it is more of an excuse to give you more hugs and kisses!

On another note, he will be absolutely love how creative you are! I mean, look at him, you and Vulcan can do wonders to the worlds with both of your creative minds working together! So, all in all, I think that you and Vulcan would make a fantastic couple in the fire force universe. He will treat you spectacularly, with care and with lots of love! So make sure you give him your all too!

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Ahsoka Tano for the character ask 🤗

yaaaaassss

•favorite thing about them

Yooo her character development. Ahsoka has been around from the very beginning. And at the start, not alot of people were very big fans of her. But over time, we got to watch her grow into a strong and complex character. ALSO the subtle similarities in how she’s acts that resembles Anakin and Obi-Wan. SHES SUCH A STRONG AND WELL WRITTEN CHARACTER.

•least favorite thing about them

Idk how she’s quick to jump to conclusions at the beginning of the show. And she doesn’t think things through. But that’s the beauty of it, she’s learning and growing. That’s a natural flaw that a lot of people have. And it’s prominent in who she is as a character, how she’s grown into a strong and wise warrior. Idk if that counts but here ya go o.0

•favorite line

“You don’t have to carry a sword to be powerful. Some leaders’ strength is inspiring greatness in others.” S4:E2

•brOTP

Rexsoka and Anisoka because they all deserve the greatest of friendships

•OTP

Luxsoka because she deserves happiness

•nOTP

I looked online awhile ago and saw that GrieSoka was a thing???? Grievous x Ahsoka… ew like wtf???

•random headcanon

Ahsoka often dreamed of the future. Of Plo Kloon, Anakin, or even of Rex and his brothers and the lives they’d lead after the bloody war was ended. She never dreamt of the past or present. She dreamed of the order, of becoming a Jedi Knight and serving alongside so many of her friends. Could she serve on the Jedi Council? Ahsoka didn’t think so. She has spent too much time around Anakin, her outspokenness would get her into more trouble then good. She’d dream of Anakin, of the friendship they shared.

Then the Republic fell. Everything changed and her dreams did too. Whenever Ahsoka closed her eyes, all she saw was fire. Then the screams would start, deafened by blaster fire. That’s all there ever was. Sometimes she’d see Anakin amidst the heat, he’s different… somehow. He still looked like her Master, but he looked…strained. It was in his eyes. The hollowed out look, the reflection of the flames that danced all around was in them. They weren’t the sky blue they always had been, but as golden as the glow around Ahsoka and her Master. And the dream always ends the same way, with his outstretched hand. An offer. Trust him, follow him into the fire.

She didn’t dare move, “Master?” He smirked, “Come on Snips.” And with that, the flames grew. Tendrils stretching up and flicking higher and higher, consuming him. She startled awake in a sweat, her heart racing.

•unpopular opinion

Don’t get me wrong, it’s fridging cool how she’s coming into S2 of the Mandalorian, but I don’t think she should be in it. I’m worried that, due the complaints of Rey and the sequels, they’re going to try and mold her to become the new face of Star Wars. Which may weaken what she stands for as a character.

•song I associate with them

Here We Stand by Hidden Citizens

•favorite picture of them

Look at this Queen in all her badass glory 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻