#Im no doubt reading into this wrong

[deviouscrackers]

I dunno if it's been adressed by the show or not but man it must be tiring to be Solar. He's probably so chill because he's too tired to be anything else

Like, from the get go he has the "Eclipse Special" for an origin story, then the first person to show him stubborn unwaivering care and empathy ia effectively rendered comatose after giving Solar the chance to live his own life. Like yikes!

Not to mention, not only is Solar disliked by the others at the pizzaplex and has the blame for Sun's literal death shoved in his face constantly Moon, he also has to take over the daycare tasks by himself! Cleaning, naptime, taking care of children, fixing broken objects, etc. all went to Solar because no one else would help.

He didn't have time to grieve and process what happened or that it wasn't his fault!!

So then he meets Lunar, possibly the second person to ever treat him with care, only to find out that another version of him ruined Lunar's life and left him with a shitton of trauma.

Then Solar is told that despite everything, despite all that he's done for Moon, his life is forfeit. Forfeit to save someone who died around a year ago.

Imagine being Solar, getting that message and when you finally escape that shitty enviroment, you're thrown into something just as dangerous.

Solar never had time to grieve, not just because he was always busy but because the thing he was grieving was shoved in his face until he was forced to grow numb to it. To push away every distracting emotion so he can just get on with it.

And then he dies. And when he comes back he doesn't react because that's just what he's been taught to do.

Or I'm reading into thia wrong and he's just BAMF

[starwikia]

suicide cw

look i have been in this area before mentally. it sucks and i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. but, and this is going to sound callous, but i don’t feel any sympathy for james somerton. even if i hope he’s like. not dead. But thats all the amount of goodwill im willing to give him. The more i think about this really, the more angry i am. 

ngl this entire situation is another example of how white people weaponize their mental illness to avoid consequences. Im seeing it in real time.

this man has a continuous habit of using self-harm as a get-out-of-jail-for-free card. in both of his apologies, he has worded his supposed attempts in ways that were clearly meant to guilt people who displayed his plagiarism and overall horrendous history of racism and misogyny. i say supposed because, while i’m not saying those are lies and this would he such a fucked up thing to lie about that i don’t want to think he has, unfortunately, it’s been proven again and again that his word can’t be trusted, as he’s known to lie to try get out of consequences. Hes a proven liar. him lying about this is actually the best case scenario, because no one should go through this entire situation, wouldnt wish this on anyone, but you can only do this so often before people stop sympathizing with you. is this callous? Yeah, but like. I’m actually fucking angry he cant straight up take no as an answer. that this is how he reacts realizing he cant be one of the Cool Kidz™️ on youtube anymore. he acts like he DESERVES a career, like its not a privilege hes lost due to his own actions.

He lied about apologizing and forgiving people, he lied about giving the money to hbomberguy to give to ppl he ripped off (yknow, instead of doing it himself), he lied about the jessie gender situation and rewrote the narrative to make it so he isnt the bad guy, and hes the victim all along actually!

you can’t tell me that supposed last message of his isn’t meant to be a 13 reasons why esq attempt to deflect the blame “look i’m going to kill myself and it’s all YOUR PEOPLES FAULT for not letting me achieve my DREAM of being filmmaker IN PEACE!!! I just wanted Nick’s (the guy who I have thrown under the bus again and again) portfolio up!! Im just being a good friend dont you all FEEL BAD” he refuses to take ANY ACCOUNTABILITY of any of his actions and he IS STILL trying to shove the blame over to other people again.

it’s also pretty ironic people are like “uhhh well hbomber’s fans harassed him!!!” like hbomber outright told people NOT to HARASS JAMES!!! ALSO acting as if james doesn’t have a very real documented history of STRAIGHT UP sending his fans to harass and threaten smaller creators, more notably women, trans, and bipoc creators. especially after he’s stolen typically very personal anecdotes so he could profit from them. so why can he do it but the second people are like “hey this guys an actual piece of shit.” and he can’t handle it suddenly people are trying to white knight his shit? like no he doesn’t get that. he doesn’t get that at all just because he couldn’t handle the consequences of his actions. 

what? were supposed to stay quiet about a man profiting off of other minorities because he wanted to be the spokesman for all gay people? people tried to solve this on a smaller, more private scales for YEARS and he kept doing it. it was clear that the giant public video was the ONLY way to get people to notice. HE WOULDVE GOTTEN AWAY WITH STEALING 87 FUCKING THOUSANDS WORTH OF DOLLARS. HE CANT HANDLE THE FACT HE CANT GET AWAY WITH IT. 

am i supposed to feel bad for the guy who basically threatened a trans woman with the police? i don’t care what anyone says, it’s so fucking obvious that he threatened jessie by implying he was getting the police involved in their conflict. what am i supposed to act like that didn’t happen? are we supposed to pretend like he didn’t glorify nazi’s and outright said that gay people made up a good chunk of the nazis? That he didnt say america joined ww2 bc they were jealous of the NAZIS. WHAT WOULD POSSESS YOU TO FUCKING SAY THAT. but then? He gives women (not even women most of the time, he misgenders nonbinary ppl constantly) shit for writing mlm. are we supposed to act like he doesn’t straight-up sees himself superior and better than people of color and steals their works to put himself on a pedestal? Are we supposed to act like he didnt spit on our elders by saying “only the boring gays survived aids” like man! Fuck you! He BLANTANTLY MAKES UP HISTORY TO PUT HIMSELF ON A PEDESTAL!! HE ACTIVELY TRIED TO REWRITE LGBT HISTORY TO SUIT HIS FUCKED UP NARRATIVES!

yes this sucks ! no one deserves this but no one should be making him a martyr. Thats what he fucking WANTS! He wants to be immortalized as a victim!! (again, supposedly, it was reported hes alive but its not confirmed).

The shit he got isnt near the amount of fucking callous behavior hes done again and again. Again, to drill this point, EVEN IF HE DIDNT CALL THE POLICE HE THREATENED A TRANS WOMAN INTO THINKING HE DID!!! The fact he tried to use a head injury to justify years of the outright ghoulish shit fucking astounds me. Why the fuck did anyone in his life thought it was a good idea to let him TRY to come back. in the end, he had options. he didn’t need to try to make a comeback. HE DIDNT NEED TO FUCKING LIE OR IGNORE THE SHIT HE WAS CALLED OUT ON the reality is, he wanted to come back thinking he could shove it under the rug, was told that no dude, you’re not allowed to be a youtuber anymore. you’re done. you need to move on and went full nuclear. it’s not on anyone’s hands but his own. HES BEEN DOING THIS TO HIMSELF!! But nah man we cant call his shit out bc hell may or may not kill himself. Fuck the other minorities who have the same issues but worse and sometimes BECAUSE of him. This is going to SUCKKKK so bad when other ppl, specifically white gays, are going to weaponize this shit to get away with their stuff.

[maxthesillyy]

thinking about. i dont know how to phrase this really but. chloe and frank.

like. when Chloe killed Frank i (, personally,) feel like her guilt from it was less because she killed Frank, and More because she Killed Someone (and their dog).

but!!! thats not to say she didnt feel guilty for killing Frank. because she definitely did. because on some level. despite everything. despite all of his shitty behavior. a part of her still cared for him. that tiny 15-17ish year old part in her still cared for him.

because that 15-17ish year old with intense abandonment issues in her only had. a small handful of people in her life that actually cared for her, and when THOSE few people aren’t even doing the best job at it— it’s no shit that Chloe’s standards for Good Friends are going to be Immensely dropped.

and so. it’s kind of like what happened with Rachel, but WAY less intense. when she found someone who didn’t hate her, and was willing to hang around her—after so so long of people hating her and not wanting to be around her— it makes sense that part of her would kinda latch onto them a little bit.

and so, even after all of the shit she’s learned he did— even when Frank starts to hate her— even when he threatens Max and her’s lives— part of her keeps remembering him as one of the few guys who stuck around when no one else did.

it’s just that. no matter how bad the person— if you’ve known someone for years, and they were one of the only nice people to you in a town where theres like. four people that are nice to you— it’s gonna hurt if you kill them. even if it was self defense. even if it was entirely their own fault— even if you two aren’t on even remotely good terms anymore.

ESPECIALLY for such a sentimental person like Chloe. taking that in consideration it makes me wonder. maybe she didn’t feel bad for killing Frank. maybe she felt bad for killing the person Frank used to be to her. but maybe she realized that That Frank already died long ago.

but yeah. im mentally ill. take everything i said with a grain of salt considering it is 12:07 AM.

[thermodynamic-comedian]

if i ever do end up writing a horror novel of some kind, it's gonna at least include (if not center) the idea of a human body stuck inside a machine of some kind.

i'm not a big fan of when the horror is acting out of malice or resent. i think i much prefer the horror of being taken apart by something cold and uncaring, an inanimate object that you just happen to be stuck inside of. gears crushing your bones not because they hate you, but because all they know is how to turn, and you just happen to be stuck between them. your body, torn apart and twisted by something that never even knew you were there.

[ajxrn-archive]

I need to be put in a waffle iron or something

[littlemaple]

i had a horrible(ly funny) realization

yall know old town road? that shit was so popular in the us with the 6 and below crowd when it came out, i know because i worked with that age group at the time and it was all i heard. every single day. every single movement break. old town road. but not by lil naz x. by kidz bop.

so, the realization: if cha cha cha was released in the usa, there'd totally be a kids bop version

[jammmbi]

for a man who refuses to vote and claims to not be interested in politics past ranting about how fucked we are and how everyone in government is corrupt my dad sure does watch a fuck ton of right-leaning youtube content

[lightbulb-warning]

i like keeping all my wips open because otherwise they go straight into "i forgor"-ville (population? everything im not currently staring at.)

my laptop fucking HATES it though. very unsupportive of you, bestie. wdym you can't handle the weight of 12 different overly ambitious projects at once?? massive you problem, you inanimate object.

[lesbiten]

as someone who isnt like. huge on d3stiel. i will say it is interesting going through and seeing all the 'big d3stiel' moments in context and some of them are very 'yeah, i get that' and othes are '...you have to purposely take this extremely far out of context and then spin it around in a circle to interpret it the way you did'

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

@anachronistic-falsehood i genuinely wish i was lying right now

[sexylinoleum]

Alphys

So I've been thinking...

Alphys totally would have figured out what happened to Chara and Asriel right? Like for one she says "I don't think Asgore has seen them (the tapes), I don't think he should." Implying she understands the implications, and possibly fears what Asgore might do if he were to find out that his adoptive Human child is responsible for the death of his son. He might go from reluctant zealot to actual extremist.

But beyond that Alphys is a smart person, it's implied that all or at least most monsters are taught the story of Asriel's demise, presumably in school, based on the memorial statue and the fact that it's just random monsters who tell the story to you. And with that basic knowledge, alongside the recontextualization provided by the tapes, I think it's almost a certainty that Alphys would have figured out the truth of the situation.

As a character, she is burdened with heavy knowledge more then literally any other character in the game, from her internalized emotions to her knowledge & guilt over her experiments (not just the amalgamates but also the creation of Flowey). We know she tries to keep a lot of these things secret to in her mind protect her loved ones, her mental struggles are hidden so as to not burden or offput anyone, her failed experiments are hidden to avoid hurting the families of the ""deceased"", Flowey is hidden because Alphys doesn't really even have closure on Flowey herself...

And perhaps most importantly, the one secret that is never told, she hides the truth behind the Dreemurr childrens death from the world, because she knows it would bring only pain.

And you know what? I think that's kinda brutal.

[afjakvbsjcjskcjskjcmajakcjsjjzk]

Heyy so idk what this is about but i just want to say please don't dm me shit like this ^_^ i'm literally only here to post shitty fanart once a month, i don't even interact with anyone. it fucking sucks logging on here hoping to find others who like the same shit i do just to read this weird shit in my dms. Yeah i am a real fucking person with feelings, and i get sad being in fandom spaces because of people like this. Just be nice to other people, it's not that hard💞

[irishbreakfst]

God damn, reddit is a tar pit

[elegyofthemoon]

super not relevant anymore anyways but if we ever get a pandora hearts remake im wondering if theyll change the vas now that theres like further context to work w for the characters so like trying to find voices that would be a perfect match for later scenes that the original anime showed

this is absolutely about leo btw

[winterbirb]

It's genuinely funny being accused of doing mental gymnastics/being liberal qanon bc like. Those are stretches. those are warmup stretches. The only reason it seems like gymnastics is because nobody acting like they know everything even knows who the fuck I'm talking about so I have to hold their hand through it

[nemossubmarine]

Realized I haven't updated my blog in like 5 years. Or at least my About-page had me at 25. It's updated now, though unfortunately links for tags are not working properly and I can't be arsed to update them.