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devotion
#i genuinely couldnt continue this longer unless i risk losing my mind#so its not finished + im unsatisfied#id need to redraw the whole thing imo#but that aside i hope you guys like it nonetheless#ratiorine#aventio#aventurine#hsr aventurine#dr ratio#veritas ratio#hsr#honkai fanart#hsr fanart#artists on tumblr#my art#illustration#digital art#fanart#art
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act 4 :(
@chipper-smol and i came to a realization
#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE#i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk#i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror#theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext#i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2#im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it#i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different#cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong#than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time#although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy#'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#isat act 4 spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sona#puppysona#friends#chipper#doodles
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#It's April#Im losing my hope losing my mind#I really don't want to be around anymore.#Idk just I'm losing my kindness to depression and exhaustion#And i dont like that. I don't want to be that person.#Im really struggling to live and find joy outside nature.#:/#Whatever#Wish i could rely on someone and look to someone to spend a bad day with or talk to and not feel like a burden
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DO YOU KNOW I COULD BREAK BENEATH THE WEIGHT OF THE GOODNESS, LOVE, I STILL CARRY FOR YOU THAT I'D WALK SO FAR JUST TO TAKE THE INJURY OF FINALLY KNOWING YOU
#trigun#vashwood#artists on tumblr#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#hope u can hear me screaming this song at tha top of my lungs#cuz im losing my mind
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JACK X JOKE TATTOO X ARAN SAVE X HOPE
#jack and joker#jack x joker#jack and joker the series#jack and joker u steal my heart#jack & joker u steal my heart#jackjoke#jack x joke#tattooaran#tattoo x aran#save x hope#savehope#yinwar#uservix#userrlaura#userrlana#userfaiza#userspicy#asiandramasource#yin anan#war wanarat#mark siwat#prom ratchapat#pee peerawich#ne netipat#all of the couples make me feel insane#also the colors of their wardrobe: red then grey and finally black/white#it's making me lose my mind - im crawling on the walls rn#mywork
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hey guys did you know that um. did you know. first of all did you know i'm losing my mind, secondly, do y'all remember in tma how when someone reads a written statement, they don't really Stop unless they're interrupted? and they read the whole thing easy cheesy, no issues with reading whatever words are there? like. jon literally could read french for a whole statement and was Fine. granted, that's Jon, but like nobody else struggled with pronunciations and whatnot (that i can recall)
presumably, this is an eye thing. either as employees of the institute, or because everyone there is just also eye-aligned in some degree (melanie had the ghost hunting show, the eye is fond of martin, etc)
and then there's tim in season 3 ep 86
[Sigh] Statement of… uh, Benjamin Hatendi… Hateendi? Regarding a… [papers rustling] a blanket. Dead friend. Monster. Regarding his unavoidable and gruesome end. How he tried to hide. He couldn’t. Statement is from… 1983, March 2nd. And I guess… [long sigh] I guess I’m doing this one. Tim Stoker. Archival assistant… Archival prisoner at the Magnus Institute.
correct me if im wrong but i don't recall anyone struggling with pronunciations before this bit. but that's not even the biggest thing here, that's just a lil Taste, a lil Flavor.
note the phrasing there. "Regarding his unavoidable and gruesome end." why would he say this when the written text on the statement says this:
Uh, right. Benjamin Hatendi’s account of… [rustling pages] oh for… a, a strange encounter. Er, statement date, March 2nd, 1983. Melanie King recording. Apparently.
"a strange encounter". that's it. nothing about an unavoidable death, just a "strange encounter". Tim Why Did You Say That.
why would our dear timothy bimothy, who is being pushed to the brink, who is becoming rapidly more depressed and losing hope, say this?
this isn't the only time he's said some weirdly grim shit tho (ep 104)
There was never really any hope for me, though, was there? This was how it was always going to go.
and then there's this bit from elias apparently having Looked into tim (also 104)
TIM All right, hit me with your X-ray eyes then, boss. What do you see? ELIAS Disruption. An unpredictable, angry man with nothing left but the desire to feel in some way revenged. TIM [Sarcastic] Ooh, terrifying! Surely only magic could have let you see so deep inside my very soul.
"nothing left" but the desire to feel revenged. and tim doesn't dispute this, because it's true.
when he first joined the institute he did so in order to look for answers about danny, but then he stopped seriously looking. and now that the circus is back, this is all the drive he has left. not looking for answers, just wanting revenge. closure. an end, if you will.
this is Literally It For Him. a couple lines later he suggests elias kill him, he's At The Breaking Point.
he is so tired, he's lost all hope, and he's saying all this grim shit about "unavoidable death" and "this is how it was always going to go" like hmmmm sounds familiar doesn't it. DOESN'T IT (<- is going insane)
(ep 11) [....] despite the rapid response of the paramedics and how much of his medical history I had immediately to hand, there was nothing I could do to save him. (ep 11) I have no responsibility to try and prevent whatever fate is coming for you. Based on my previous experience, such a thing is likely impossible anyway,[....] (ep 121) There. That was it. That was our fate; where we would always be.
hmmmm sounds a bit like oliver huh? everyone's favorite ex-accountant avatar of the end?? right??
but then there's this last bit i have from ep 86.
why did he stop reading the statement
Statement. “My parents never let me have a nightlight. I was always afraid, but they were ju–” Ugh, this is stupid.
why did he do that. again, correct me if im wrong but when else has someone just Stopped Reading like that without someone or something else interrupting them? why could tim just stop himself?
my theory is this: at this point, tim is completely gone from being aligned with the eye. he no longer seeks to know what happened to danny, he just wants closure. he doesn't wanna do any statement work, and he keeps mentioning these tidbits about hopelessness and the inevitability of terrible events, specifically death.
the eye isn't compelling him to read the statements like it does the others, because it doesn't have as strong a hold anymore. the grip is slipping from him. and by the time the unknowing rolls around, maybe it's lost him for good. maybe he finally fell into a different power he never meant to serve, and yet, he does.
and maybe. just maybe. because i'm so not in denial. but MAYBE. he did die in the unknowing. but maybe he got better.
basically end!tim truthers rise up, this is how end!tim kayaking with his bf oliver banks can still win, etc etc I'm Going Feral <3
#ramblings with major#the magnus archives#tma#tim stoker#oliver banks#timoliver#lil bit uwu#tim stoker tuesday#end!tim#cursing#tma angst#ig#i hope this is coherent and makes sense im losing my MIIIIND im losing my Mind
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Day 1 of Bloodweave Week: Hunger/Knifeplay astarion teases himself with something he can't even taste yet while sating his and gale's hungers for something else entirely
@bloodweaveweek
#BloodweaveWeek2024#my art#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bloodweave#gale bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#astarion ancunin#astarion#reposting it since my post got removed from the tags? wow#great job tumblr#lets hope it works or im gonna lose my mind
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dude.........DUDEEEEEE ,,,DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
#IM LOSING MY MIND#IM SCREAMING#(i had like -4478445 hope they would do that)#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH#dragon age#dragon age 4
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still catching up on autumn life
@driflew + @evenmoreevil + @jinxitaj + @tibbycaps + @cherrifire + @hopepetal + @applestruda + @aresonist are detailed enough to tag i think. mostly cuz i wanna see if any of em have thoughts on sona designs (i loveeeeeee informed stylization of character designs) local doody and froag hafta find this on their own though
#autumn life#artimatorblr#mcyt#im a certified tibbycaps watcher so most of what i know is from his vids. however. bro is horsing around the *entire* server#when i say the lew skin design is one of my favorites i am sooo serious. i want to draw that thang until i have a consistent design in mind#fell in love with jinx's as well just cuz i wanted to play around w/ artistic liberties and im a sucker for shadow shapes#love the idea of small details popping up between pairs. this is because im a soulmate au enjoyer but do not worry about it#..like (perhaps) the merging of hairstyles and hair physics. or cherri losing perfect vision and just deciding not to wear glasses anyway#shoutout to people who design skins with visual interpretations in mind on purpose. this makes them fun to draw. hope u understand#emeraldpost#sketchbook
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VEX‼️‼️
#its not the best but i enjoyed drawing this silly guy#also my handwriting is fucking ugly💀 sorry about that#im going to school tomorrow and im so anxious#needed to do something to not lose my mind lol#but i hope you like it!!!#yonderland#elder vex#wise elder vex#ben willbond#six idiots#my art
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I was thinking about Buddy's character arc earlier!
It's really, really rare that you see a redemption arc like Buddy's work so well in a romance, and that's because there's often some level of excusing abusive/harmful behavior on past trauma/characters/factors. I love Buddy so much, but early Buddy put in the WORK to make Chase's life hell.
Romance novels/webtoons are especially guilty of this--how often has the protag forgiven the love interest within two chapters? how often has the love interest even apologized for what they did, or illustrated remorse by actually trying to change?
And I think what really sets Buddy's arc apart from a lot of other redemption arcs is the decision to not give us any details about his past. We can somewhat discern Buddy isn't doing great, something Chase has picked up, but we also know Chase isn't doing great, something Buddy has not realized.
Chase said it best--regardless of whether it's morally right or not, if Buddy treats him shitty, Chase will call him out on it. Chase has the same amount of information as we do, and he makes it clear that it's not enough to justify the way Buddy treated him.
And Buddy CONFIRMS that, much later, by apologizing. Most importantly, we know Buddy's sincerity in the way he's clearly harboring guilt--his hesitation over Chase's injured hand, his scorn for his tendency to worsen a situation, and his reaction to Vampire-Guy's heart-filled speech.
What all this means is that we know Buddy feels upset and remorseful for what he did + how he treated Chase, without really knowing the angsty logic behind it. And that's brilliant, because Punko manages to use Buddy's facial expressions and cleverly-placed crumbs of information to help us sympathize with him without even giving us the trauma.
We as readers can't excuse his behavior (bc we literally do not know WHY he was that callous--the guy stuffed bugs in Chase's shoes and set traps to catch the kid), but we can compare who he was with who he's trying to be. And somewhere between the two, we can almost see the authentic, genuine Buddy.
It's such a brilliant way to set up/carry out the redemption of Buddy. If you check out episode one Buddy (please do), and you compare with episode 53 Buddy, it's an absolutely insane difference. You think ep1 Buddy would cry out for help? Would hug Chase? Would even consider apologizing to Chase, let alone saving him from a creep? Excluding the bit where Buddy tricked Deacon into nearly getting mauled by wolves, of course, but that was character-consistent and hilarious and honestly, would he be our boy if he wasn't slightly maschotic
Anyway, I love seeing a good character redemption arc, and I genuinely think Buddy's is one of the better arcs I've read in such a long time.
#cinderella boy#chase hollow#buddy#stargoth#all i do is fixate on characters that make me lose my mind#And I loved the speech Chase gave him#about how Buddy couldnt just apologize#and I love that hes genuinely sorry#i hope this makes sense lol#i was too sleep-happy#and now im slowly getting sick#the duality of students
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*screaming*
#do that with a person not with a vegetable you loser#im losing my mind#the voices were too loud i NEEDED to do this#i hope tumblr makes this gif work or i’ll cry#also i’m glad how a lot of us are still having a collective breakdown over jamil having a moment with that pumpkin#good job. proud of yall#bully him.#[—✦-#-✧ my art#twst art#twisted wonderland#twst#twst oc x canon#jamil viper#jamil x yuu#twst yuu#twst yuusona#(💜) yuusha#(💜) curry noodles#-✦—]
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Through the Looking Glass, Darkly
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“... Alright!” Impulse’s voice echoes over itself in a multi-layered choir, bouncing off half-ragged walls and burrowing in amongst the sculk. “Well, she could definitely use a bit of an updo, but… yeah! Here it is!” At the center of Forgery's former lair, ravenous fingers have already punched their way into stone, scrawling up the vaulted walls in strange, fungal swoops—letters without language, glyphs without meaning. Hemmed in by something akin to thick, yellow limestone, the malignant mixture in the cistern below them undulates in time with every echo—and when Gem peers into it, locks her gaze with that yearning abyss, her skin begins to crawl. Impulse had called it the Catalyst. Gem calls it for what it really is: Hungry.
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Hey gang!! Today's posting day for my solo piece for @hotguycomiczine, so here it is!! I hope you guys enjoy it, ive worked super hard not just on the fic but also on the formatting and picture that ive made to go along with it!!! 💀💀💀💀 yeah i uh. i edited and then drew over that to make it look like sculk. yeah i did that all on my phone last night. you can imagine how bad my neck hurts right now
as always, reblogs are deeply appreciated, and comments on ao3 or in the tags will earn you my undying gratitude and also this free sculk sample over here shhhh dont question it just take it<3 i hope you guys like the new formatting style im trying out, and of course the fic itself!! enjoy!!! :DD
#geminitay#pearlescentmoon#impulsesv#impulse#hermitcraft#hotguy comics zine#mcyt#mcyt fic#hgcz#fanfic#shouting speaks#I WANT TO RAMBLE ABT MY WRITING CHOICES BUT ON GODS THE ENTIRE POSTING PROCESS HAS TAKEN ME.#AND IM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING HERE. A FULL 4 HOURS#im losing my mind ive been fighting for my life in the image editing trenches 😭😭😭😭😭#so im not looking at this anymore it is here neow<3 godspeed go my scarab etc etc etc#mwah mwah hope u guys like this i put SO much effort into it#my fics#lnk
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finished double life... so naturally i've started working on an animatic ;v; the lads are tragic and its their fault (and i love it)
#also omg thank you everyone who like my scar/grian silliness redraw + designs!!!!!#im very very new to tumblr (although i was on it a lot in like 2013) so im still getting used to everything#so im suber thankful for yalls kind words!!!! ;v;#i plan to keep making content for these guys (and other life series people as well) so i hope yall enjoy!! <3#thank you again im losing my mind /pos#traffic smp#traffic series#third life#grian fanart#traffic smp fanart#gtwscar#gtwscar fanart#grian#goodtimeswithscar fanart#good timeswithscar#3rd life#desert duo#dd#3rd life fanart#3rd life smp#limited life smp#double life#life series#gtws#gtws fanart#desert duo anart#last life#llsmp#last life smp#trafficblr
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Throws this at you and runs away
I’ve never drawn a mirror before nor a reflection my b🙏🙏 I also think this would’ve been a better concept if it was young Jotaro in the mirror and old man Jotaro looking but I liked my young Jotaro sketch too much and flipped it. erm……..
What is wrong with you. WHY ARE YOU BLUE.
#jjba#jojos bizarre adventure#jotaro kujo#3taro#6taro#stardust crusaders#stone ocean#I attempted#and failed#in my defense it was like. 4am when I started this#AUSAGHHHH this is mid but I felt like posting#my rendering is a miracle because I just scribble and hope it works#I think that’s too noticeable#LET STONE OCEAN JOTARO LOOK OLD.#in canon he doesn’t look a day over 20 BUT LET HIM BE TIRED.#I think his neck looks too small#and I gave up on the background#again think that’s noticable but shitttttt#jjba part 6#jjba part 3#named this after an Alice In Chains song YAYYY#jojos bizzare adventure fanart#jjba fanart#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#jojo fanart#fanart#ahhhh#im losing my mind#vic try not to yap in tags challenge (IMPOSSIBLE) (FAILED) (LIMIT REACHED EVERY POST)
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shake durst pq eu amo o shake e amo o fred durst KKKKKKKKKKKKKto enlouquecendo ainda
#fanart#ransebcanonicos#drawing by aleso (^∀^●)#drawings#headcanon#im insane#i need him#i need him rn#i hate him#i hope he dies#i hope he explodes#i want him dead#i want him pregnant#i want him#i love him#master shake#athf master shake#athf gijinka#aqua teen hunger force master shake#im losing my mind#limp bizkit#fred durst#nu metal#i love limp bizkit sm#nu metal fan
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