#Im listening to I know the end by Phoebe Bridgers

[somnas-writes]

Thinking about the tragedy that is Ciel and Sebastian’s relationship.

They have a twisted power dynamic. Sebastian’s stronger and is inevitably going to eat Ciels soul. Ciel has the power of the contract and is going to die in the end.

Sebastian is raising someone who refuses to be a child, raising him like cattle for the cultivation. Ciel know this, knows it well but he acts regardless, doesn’t let it deter him.

We, the readers, can tell that they have begun caring for each other. Against their better judgment, they care now. They worry when they get hurt, when things go wrong. But in the end, none of that’s going to matter.

Ciel is going to die at Sebastian’s hands. That’s as clear as day, a fact of life now. They both know.

Will Sebastian feel regret or will it just be another meal. Is Ciel going to be afraid or will it just be another night for him. What will they feel when the end is near?

A Tragedy is an story that is based on human suffering that culminates in catharsis.

Theyre going to be a tragedy.

[casualhedonists]

DATING IS SO HARD WTF

[azurajay]

having a normal one about lucretia tazbalance on this good evening

[nereidprinc3ss]

come on home

in which the only person who can comfort you after your breakup with spencer reid, is spencer reid

inspired by the song "summer's end" by the artist currently known as phoebe bridgers

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warnings: gn!reader (correct me if im wrong), minor mommy issues, angst, happy ending

a/n: thank you to the person who requested this:) u r an angel and I listened to this song the whole time i wrote (if you haven't heard, listen!!) i sincerely hope you enjoy, i like this one a lot<3

She hung up on you. 

Forty-seven minutes of being insulted and berated after you’d called her looking for comfort, and you put up with every single cruel word—just for your mother to hang up on you. And it’s exactly the kind of thing she’d do, so you shouldn’t be surprised. An ache, you’d expect—but it shouldn’t sting like this. You thought you knew better. 

Now you’re in a ball on your couch, clutching your phone to your chest and crying. There’s no point hiding it. Your roommate is out with her girlfriend for the evening—which is too bad because even though you feel like being alone, you’re sure that’s the wrong call. Your other friends are out having fun tonight, too. They’d even invited you, but you turned them down. Look where that had gotten you. Obviously, your mother is not the person you’re about to run to for comfort, either. 

You try to pretend, while you’re thinking of all these people who have ever cared for you, that Spencer Reid isn’t on your mind at all. You try to pretend like you don’t care that the person who loved you until you believed you actually deserved it is a contact going stale deep in the bowels of your text cache. With bleary eyes you scroll down, looking for your conversation where it gathers dust—the end of your relationship was a mutual decision, and you’re friendly, but you haven’t texted in a few weeks. Probably because every time the conversation starts to feel a little too easy, or the phone call lasts a little too long, that aching void in your chest gets worse and worse. Like pain in a phantom limb, you become acutely aware of what you do not have and how much it hurts.  

So blame it on the tears, or the mind-muddling melodrama of your relationship with your mother, blame it on anything but the truth—when your thumb drops on that call button like the plunger on a syringe, you don’t regret it.  

What you’re not expecting is for him to answer after the first ring. 

“Hi,” you say with a snuffle before Spencer can get a word in. There’s a brief interlude, in which you pick at your nails, comfortable to just sit in silence if that’s what he wants. As long as he’s there. 

“Hi.” Hearing his voice instantly melts a bit of the weight you hadn’t realized you were carrying. Another pause, for which you remain silent, because you can feel him formulating a question—and you’d like to hear him speak again. “...am I allowed to ask if you’re okay?” 

Your lips purse and twist to the side, pained and comforted by how easily he can tell that you’re distraught. One word across a tinny connection, and he knows. 

“No. Yes. I mean... I guess that’s why I called you. But you don’t have to ask me about it.” You sniff again and take a deep breath. “How was your day? What state are you in?” 

“I’m in the district,” he answers after a moment, easing into a casualness that he likely doesn’t feel for your sake. Wind crunches through the speaker. He probably just got out of work. “My day was... it was good. I got to talk about my job to a bunch of elementary schoolers, which is always a confidence boost.” 

You chuckle, still laying on your side on the couch and watching storm clouds gathering outside. 

“Nice, nice. What else?” 

“Let’s see... I forgot lunch, so I had three oranges, and they were actually pretty good. I reread Game of Thrones—I don’t know why I did that. I’m never going to like that book.” 

“Masochist,” you smile. He laughs, and you hear the sound of a car door opening. 

“Oh! I talked to my mom. Believe it or not, she says hi.” 

A completely inadvertent snort constitutes your response. It’s not what you meant to do, and out of context it’s sort of mean, but you actually think it’s incredibly endearing that he still talks to his mother about you. He scrambles to explain himself. 

“I swear, we barely talked about you this time. Mostly we talked about her new boyfriend Leonard.” 

“No, no, that’s not... I’m sorry, I’m not laughing at you or your mom. That’s really sweet, actually. Tell her I say hi too.” 

When he next speaks, you can hear the smile in his voice. 

“I will.” Another long pause. You imagine him sitting in the parking lot at Quantico, keys vertical in the ignition of his old car and feeling the silence just as much as you are. He surprises you by not ending the conversation—instead he asks a question. It is concern, poorly disguised with nervous humor. Or maybe you just know him too well. “Do I get to find out what’s on your mind, or are you leaving me in suspense here?”  

You bite the inside of your cheek. 

“Um... well, actually, I just got off the phone with my mom, too. It didn’t go so well,” you laugh halfheartedly, “I know it was dumb to try and have an actual conversation with her, but... you know me. Always following blind optimism to the depths of hell.” 

“Why’d you call your mom?” he asks, so gently it brings a fresh round of tears to your eyes. Still, you attempt to put a cheerful affect on your strained voice. 

“Mm, you know. Just needed someone to talk to.” 

Spencer’s knowing sigh does little to make you feel better. 

“You know you can always talk to me, right? I know it’s... it’s different now, but... I care about you a lot. And, you know, I receive very few phone calls, so the line is pretty much always open.” 

Your laugh quickly devolves into a cry. 

“I appreciate that, but I can’t talk to you about everything.” 

“Why not?” he pleads immediately, voice thin and desperate like it’s his most burning question. A million lies dance over the tip of your tongue. A million things that feel safer to say than the truth. But in the end, it comes out anyway—choked, and so quiet, but aloud nonetheless. 

“Because I’m trying really hard to stop missing you so much.” 

Another long beat of silence. The back of your throat feels dry and hollow—a cage for your hummingbird heart. 

“If it hurts too much to talk to me, you don’t need to do that to yourself. But I also don’t want you to hurt yourself thinking you’re alone. You are... so important to me. I will always try to take care of you the best I can—whether that means staying away or being at your front door. If you ever need me, or even... vaguely want me, I will be there.” 

Each word caves your resolve. Each syllable is a slap in the face to progress you’d been pretending to make. You can be strong—you've proven that over the past ten weeks. You can be stone-faced and slash at your heart until the scar tissue is thick and jagged, and eventually it won’t hurt anymore. But maybe, by letting someone tend to the wounds, they’ll heal a little nicer. A little kinder. Even if you can’t undo the damage, maybe one day you’ll be soft again. 

“What if I vaguely want you right now?” you sniffle. 

Finally, you hear the silver jingle of keys turning. The sputter and rumble of an old engine coming to life. 

“Then I’m on my way.” 

Twenty four minutes later, there’s a soft knock at your door.  

After the call had ended, you’d wondered if you made it all up. Surely your ex-boyfriend wasn’t actually about to show up at your apartment. Someone you’ve grieved for can’t just come back—there are countless horror novels and movies based upon that very tenet. Does it matter if they ever actually died? How long is ten weeks, really? It feels like a lifetime. 

You shuffle across the room, wiping under your eyes with your already damp sleeves, and undoing all the locks Spencer had conditioned you to start using. When the door cracks open, and you see Spencer standing there, windswept and concerned, for the first time in months, it hits you like a tidal wave. You are, beyond a shadow of a doubt, still just as in love with him as you ever were. The relief that floods your veins as he looks down at you with so much care in his eyes is like sinking into warm water. It’s a dead giveaway, and maybe it makes this whole thing a terrible idea, but you can’t seem to care very much. You open the door wider, and he enters, and he stands in your kitchen with his hands in his coat pocket as you shut the door and he’s perfect. It dawns on you that for the first time since the breakup, you feel safe. Like you don’t have to be a stone pillar anymore. This, of course, translates into even more tears, which you try to hide as you face away, re-locking the door.  

“Sweetheart...” he sighs, because you can’t hide anything from him. Hearing the resonance of his voice so close to you once more is overwhelming. In an instant you’re rushing into his arms, and he accepts you without hesitation. You bury your teary face in the vetiver safety of his button-up and slip your arms under his coat, as if you could absorb his warmth and forever hide from the world that way. He pulls you even closer. It’s terrible and cruel how much he is exactly what you needed. “What’s wrong? What did she say?” 

You shake your head and gasp a small sob. 

Truthfully, you’re not really crying about the petty insults from your mother anymore. You’re back to square one, the reason you’d called your mother to begin with—you miss the man whose arms are currently wound around your shoulders. 

His hand smooths over the back of your hair. 

“Okay. That’s okay. We don’t have to talk about it.” 

You stay like that—content even as you cry because being with him feels so much safer than being alone. It feels right—or perhaps it’s just familiar. You don’t know which is worse.  

Spencer is rubbing soothing lines up and down your back as you cling to him, soaking him up in all his ephemeral, comforting glory. He surprises you by chuckling—it vibrates through his chest, buzzing against your ear. 

“Nice Magritte print. I bet the person who bought that has fantastic taste.” 

“Are you gonna ask for it back?” you mumble into the fabric of his suit jacket. He is, of course, referring to the painting you’d more or less stolen from his apartment seven months ago. You really don’t want him to take it home. It’s the most overt Spencer memorabilia you’d allowed yourself to keep in plain sight. 

“No, baby. You can keep it.” The words are low, and kind, and they settle you some, but you can’t seem to get him close enough. “What can I do?” he whispers after a moment, helpless as you take a shuddering breath. “Can I make you tea? Have you eaten?” 

“Will you just... stay for a little bit? I’ll—I promise I’ll stop crying.” 

There is an unexpected lull where you thought you’d receive pretty immediate agreement, but before you can pull back and ask what’s wrong, he murmurs, “yeah. I can stay for a while. But you have to kick me out before it gets too late.” 

You wonder if you’re imagining the double-entendre that seems to underline his words in bold red ink. Spencer is too smart to have not noticed a thing like that. You don’t mention it—it all boils down to the same unspoken idea. 

Don’t let me stay, because I might not leave. 

“I will,” you sniff, finally stepping back and wiping your own tears. It hurts to lose his touch, but at least you know he’s not going anywhere for the next few hours. This, as opposed to everything else lately, can be a beginning instead of an end.  

At least, until he goes home. 

Three and a half hours later, after tea, an impromptu dinner comprised mostly of cheese and crackers, and several vinyl changes on your record player (which served only as background noise for your long, ambling conversations), things are seeming to wind down to a natural stopping point. Which you hate. The whole time you’d had a dull ache in your chest because talking to him was easier than breathing and you knew it wouldn’t last. There had been one or two false bottoms already—the first when you’d yawned around nine, and the second when you’d gotten up to do your skincare and brush your teeth half an hour later. Even then he’d just leaned against the doorframe, watching your reflection above the sink as you talked for fifteen more minutes. Now you stand across from each other in the kitchen, plates restacked and everything in order. Of course he’d insisted on helping you clean up. 

“I should go,” he says, with a soft sort of finality in his voice.  

“Is your carriage turning into a pumpkin?” you tease gently, to hide how much you don’t want him to leave. He smiles—a small, weary thing—but genuinely and endlessly charmed by you. 

“That among other things.” 

“Would you—would you walk me to my room first?” 

The hesitance is clear in his eyes and the way his lips part as if to say, ‘I don’t think that’s a good idea’, but you're sure he’s really going to leave in a moment and you’re also sure he won’t deny you this one small thing before he does. 

“Okay.” 

It’s a short, silent walk through the living room and down the hall to your bedroom door, but you can feel him trailing behind you the whole way. You stop in front of your open door, turning face to face with him.  

“Thanks,” you murmur.  

His lips pull into a melancholy smile. 

“Anytime.” 

There’s nothing left to do but wrap your arms around each other once more, tuck yourself into the you-sized space between his head and shoulder and hold on for as long as he’ll let you. The hug lingers for longer than is wise. Spencer adjusts his arms looped around your waist, pulling you closer, and you nuzzle against his neck, grateful that at least he seems as reluctant to let this end as you are.  

But eventually, it relaxes. Your hold on each other loosens. His face is just inches from yours, and you get to study every plane and valley and line like you’d thought you never would again. It seems he’s doing the same—losing himself in the luxury of seeing you up close. 

“Will you kiss me goodnight?” you whisper, unable to muster any self-consciousness though you know it’s a fool’s errand. Spencer strokes your waist. 

“I can’t do that, honey.” 

“Why not?” 

His voice is just as quiet as yours. It falters slightly as he speaks, so gently, so patiently. 

“Because we’re not together anymore.” 

“Why not?” 

Your feeble, desperate supplication sounds pitiable even to you. You’re not proud, but you can’t find it in yourself to be ashamed, either. All you want is an answer. But it’s like a child asking why the sky is blue, or the earth is round. There is a definitive explanation, but mostly, the adult will shrug, and say, that’s just how it is. 

Spencer’s eyes squeeze shut. His head tilts down. 

“We can’t do this again, sweetheart. You know why we’re not together.” 

In theory—yes. You’d had so many conversations when you’d broken up. It had been a long, painful process, spanning multiple all-nighters at his kitchen table, nursing coffee and trying to convince each other and yourselves that it was the right choice. But it just feels like a horrible, horrible mistake. You feel desperate to explain this to him before he slips away again—the words come out flustered, inelegant as you cling to him.

“But I don’t think I’m getting better without you. I tried, I tried so hard to be good on my own, but everything is worse and harder and—and we weren’t sure about it then, and I don’t think it was the right choice, because I still really need you. Like, all the time. I’m—it’s not getting better without you. Nothing got better.” 

He swallows, eyes darting between yours for an infinite second. You’re breathless and your heart is pounding after your confession—you can feel your eyes stinging with the few tears that managed to escape as you spoke. 

“Everything is worse,” he agrees shakily. “Everything. I’m—I’m getting disciplinary infractions from Hotch like I’m a child because I can’t focus on anything. Game of Thrones is the most complex literature I can comprehend right now. I had to use a calculator the other day.” 

You want to laugh, but nothing is funny until he’s yours again. 

“Then come back. Please come back, Spencer.” 

Finally, he leans closer, until your heads are pressed together, and his nose bumps yours, feather light. You're dizzy. You exhale. He inhales. 

“I don’t think I knew how to leave in the first place.” 

When he kisses you, it feels like home. 

[philseyebrowslit]

what are some phancoded songs

omg I love this question!!

I don’t know if you were hoping for a quick answer but this turned out longer the more I thought about it im so sorry

we’re starting with some songs that I’ve had in their playlist since I was on high school:

-that’s so us (Allie X)

-loser (Julian Moon) (literally every time I listen to this particular song I think of them)

-mine (the 1975) and also It’s not living if it’s not with you. Honestly all of the A brief inquiry… album reminds me of them because I’m pretty sure Dan once recommended it

-little lion man (Mumford & sons)

-I know we don’t listen to p!atd anymore but always is such a them song

-I would argue any muse song, but specifically something human and undisclosed desires

now, songs that I’ve been adding with the years

-king and lionheart (of monsters and men)

-chateau lobby #4 (father john misty)

-these abba songs: if it wasn’t for the nights, don’t shut me down

-these taylor swift songs: untouchable, I know places, peace, invisible string, sweet nothing

-these Phoebe Bridgers songs: punisher, savior complex, Graceland too

-these MIKA songs (if you haven’t heard his songs honestly I recommend listening to everything but anyways): origin of love, talk about you, all she wants, tiny love, 30 secondes

-never ending summer (wes reeve)

-reading in bed (Emily Haines)

-hugging you (Tom rosenthal)

-from Eden (hozier)

im gonna stop there, but I think these are the most phancoded songs in my playlists!!

[thefrontofmymind]

matty healy insta blurb

musician!reader x matty heally (FC: Phoebe Bridgers)

a/n: something new for me! i love reading insta blurbs so i decided to try my hand and writing my own (also i have dived head first back into my 1975 phase help its all i think about) lmk what you think!

yninstagram english countryside fuck yeah

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ynfan1 certified iconic couple

ynfan2 the dress im dead

bedforddanes75 can we have our singer back now thanks we have an album to finish

>yninstagram so do I dude!! (but seriously, u can have him back now he’s pissing me off)

>trumanblack heyyy

lucydacus looking gorg!

ynfan3 omg omg omg are yn and matty making an album together????

>yninstagram shush ;)

yninstagram made something pretty cool w the man, coming out soon x 💗💗💗

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ynfan1 AAAHHHH I CANT BREATHE THEYRE SO CUTE

ynfan2 OMG A NEW ALBUM??? FROM MY FAVORITE COUPLE???

rinasonline so excited baby!!

>yninstagram cant wait for you to hear it 💕💕

trumanblack wouldnt do it with anyone else

>1975adam rude.

>trumanblack@/1975adam i will throttle you

trumanblack The missus made an album and let me lend a hand. You should give it a listen.

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yn1975fan1 we love a supportive boyfriend!!

1975fan1 WHEN will it me MY TURN

yninstagram xxx>ynfan1 i love their relationship 🥲

ynupdates omg matty opened for yn at her show tonight in LA and they sung a couple songs together!! they sang one song from the 1975’s new album and 2 unreleased tracks!!

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ynfan1 they are just the cutest

ynfan2 my parents!!!

yn1975fan1 so cute! do we think they might release those songs together???

>yn1975fan2 omg i would be dead if they did

yninstagram love tour, miss home

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yn1975fan1 omg i need that shirt

ynfan1 can’t wait to see you in houston!!!

>yninstagram i’ll see u there babyyyy

ynfan2 how is this tour almost over??? like one show left???

>ynfan3 ik! it feels like it started just yesterday!!

rass1975 for the love of god get back soon your man is in a mood

>yninstagram soon, my friend, soon

ynupdates matty came on stage during yn’s last show in Houston and sung with her!!

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yn1975fan1 my parents i cant sdjalhkfuhf

ynfan1 i was there!! they were so cute together and it sounded AMAZINGGG

>ynfan2 lucky!! i WISH i could see them together!!!

ynfan3 what did they sing together????

>ynupdates matty just did backing for yn during the encore!

yninstagram Houston!! You know how to treat a girl well! Going to miss being on the road but don’t worry, this isn’t the end!! 🤍🤍🤍

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ynfan1 so sad tour is over!!!

trumanblack ever so proud.

>yninstagram 💞

charli_xcx new music when??

>yninstagram ;)

>ynfan2 WHAT DOES THAT REPLY MEAN????

yn1975fan1 best concert i’ve ever been to!! taylorswift well done sweetie x

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

waiting room by phoebe bridgers is a song i thought about alot when i was first reading TDSB especially the ending, i recommend giving it a listen when you can

Listening now here we go- gives me old country vibes from the start which is SUCH nostalgia, im preparing to cry actually-

Okay im two lines in- will cry. "Id sit there with my first aid kit and bleed" AHHHHHHHH "And I know whatever happens to me, it for the better" GOD FUCK- "Who am I to ask for more, more, more"?

The repition- god its got me, I hate you, this is so good- Im not even SAD but im gonna cry

[not-actually-human]

doodle request!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! something inspired by "i know the end" by phoebe bridgers ? :0 either the vibes from listening to it or the lyrics if you'd rather just read them :3

i rly love this song im so glad u requested it ! uhhh i dont know what this is i blacked out and this was on my screen. this song makes me feel a lot of things i hope this reflects it

[lv3buzzz]

SONG RECS FOR @noctilucaa

w moods

this is honestly no pressure to listen to them all 😭

i just yap w song titles lmaooo

also all my x ray spex recs are valid cus i am the no 1 x ray spex listener on airbuds (i love them)

sobbing my eyes out oh god

~ paper bag - fiona apple

~ waiting room ~ phoebe bridgers

~ your best american girl ~ mitski

~ asleep - the smiths

~ tears over beers - modern baseball

~ brother - gerard way

~ young and doomed - frank iero

~ guilt tripping - frank iero

~ you are my sunshine - frank iero

~ disasterology - ptv

i miss who i used to be

~ sullen girl - fiona apple

~ are you satisfied - MARINA

~ everyone - mitski

~ i know the end - phoebe bridgers

~ all i want is nothing - frank iero

yeah its cool ill be okay

~ joyriding - frank iero

~ all that ive got - the used

~ dear percocet, i dont think we should see eachother anymore- frank iero

fuck this

~ no fun club - frank iero

~ i cant do anything - x ray spex

~ yall want a single - korn

~ break stuff - limp bizkit

~ brackish - kittie

~ garbage man - hole

~ im a mess - frank iero

~ jesus of suburbia - green day (yes the full nine minutes. deal w it 😛)

~ child psychology - black box recorder

fuck you

~ get gone - fiona apple

~ good god - korn

~ father - front bottoms

~ down with the sickness - disturbed

~ good sister - bad sister - hole

~ family jewels - MARINA

~ fantastic bastards - death spells

~ veins! veins!! veins!!! - frank iero

punk/ angry w politics

ik the sex pistols are heavily mainstream so might not be ‘punk’ but they pioneered the scene in the 70s and are style icons

theres more but itll be too much 😛

~ plasic bag - x ray spex

~ carnival - bikini kill

~ rebel girl - bikini kill

~ god save the queen - sex pistols

~ anarchy in the uk - sex pistols

~ holidays in the sun - sex pistols

~ pretty vacant- sex pistols

~ identity - x ray spex

~ nervouse breakdown- black flag

~ ‘merican - descendents

~ blood stains - original version - agent orange

life can be good sometimes

~ when the sun hits - slowdive

~ 1979 - smashing pumpkins

~ malibu - hole

~ half a person - the smiths (dont listen to the lyrics theyre sad but its upbeat and you can dance to it and be whimsical)

~ heaven tonight - hole

~ inbetween days - the cure (i fucking love this song

~ today - the smashing pumpkins

~ lovesong - the cure

~ so real - jeff buckley

yearning/pining?!

~ why cant i be you? - the cure

~ forget her - jeff buckley

~ michelle - sir chloe

~ 8th grade - pencey prep (heavily recommend that whole album)

~ i want the one i cant have - the smiths

~ looking out for you - joy again (pulling out the 2021 songs 🙏)

~ mad as rabbits - p!atd

~ beach bones - more amor, ryan ross (<33 RYAN RODSOKDDODIFUCU)

~ at the library - green day

[lifmera]

hi!! i LOVE your matchups and was wondering if i could get one for hazbin hotel!

i use she/her pronouns, romantically i’m interested in men, and as for my personality, i pretty much land right in the middle of being an introvert and an extrovert. i would say im pretty funny, outgoing, and lighthearted for the most part but i always need my alone time after a long day. i’m not really one to be very emotional because i’m just not very good at opening up, but i love my friends more than anything and am always there for them if they need, and i give some pretty good advice if i do say so myself hahah. as much as i hate it i do tend to hold a grudge, especially if someone does something to someone i care about, and i really do love to gossip hahaha. i’m also pretty smart and i really do enjoy school, but that lingering gifted kid trauma makes it absolutely impossible for me to ask for help (but we’re working on that lol). i’m a sagittarius and i think i fit the description of that pretty well too!

my style is honestly veryyy comfy casual, i really just wear whatever’s convenient but i LOVE to accessorize and i’m a sucker for trends. i love jewelry, and i usually go for more dainty necklaces with fun earrings and i absolutely love my nose piercing. i pretty much always wear light makeup, really just mascara and some concealer, but at the end of the day i really don’t care much about how people think i look. i’m 5’5” so average height, and i’m blonde with blue eyes!

my favorite things to do would probably be spending time with my friends, reading, and listening to music. i absolutely LOVE music, literally every genre, but some of my favorite artists are phoebe bridgers, taylor swift, noah kahan, and hozier! i’m a big believer in try everything once though, so i’m always willing to try new things because there’s nothing more exciting than finding a new passion or having an awesome experience because you decided to take a risk with something you usually might not!!!

thanks so much, i can’t wait to see what you think! :)

HI HUN! Thank you so much <3

I've decided to pair you with........ HUSK!

He would be drawn in by your personality at first!! he would need someone more joke-y and lighthearted since he's always grumpy.

he would also need his alone time after a long day!

I think he would SOMEHOW get you to open up- this man knows everything abut everyone. even if you didn't drink. he got Angel to open up! he'll get you too.

Honestly, he'd be glad someone else can give advice. I don't think he likes to talk much unless it's also important- or something he deems necessary.

Husk goes through things, and will most likely turn to you to help calm him down!

Honestly, he wouldn't mind if you held grudges. he holds one against Alastor. Just- don't hold one against him!

I think he'd love to hear your gossip while he's cleaning some glasses!

He's actually really into academics probably- he'd love to what about newer things your good at ! like what English book did you read ?

He's happy that you aren't putting on a facade, and able to wear clothes that make you comfortable!

he also LOVES that you don't care about what other people think about you!

I don't think he'll be huge on music, though he'll play some of your favorites at the bar!

I think he'd love that you are a try - everything - once, but he is PICKY. i don't think this man wants to go out much!

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Thank you so much for requesting! i hope you enjoy <3

[youknowhowido]

can i ask about your adamjohn wips 👉👈

HI YES my three main ones are below ^-^

first one is picture perfect point-of-view in which adam is a country music star who is an overnight sensation and john is a somewhat burnt out photojournalist who just happens to become his tour photographer (and then his full time photographer.) lots of miscommunication, lots of comfort, it’s my main wip and i’m averaging abt 5k words per chapter at the moment ! shaun and mark also play roles along with implied hayley williams and implied chris carrabba because my brain works in silly ways ^—^

major tags: au-photography, idiots in love, miscommunication, The Horrors Of Stan Twitter (tm)

second one has no name yet (the google doc is just titled DIVORCEES), but it’s a kidfic in which adam and john were married, adopted their daughter portia (god i love her so much btw. creating her character and watching her develop in my head has been so fucking AWESOME shes my fav character ive ever written i think) who was 4 years old at the time and then got divorced six years later because adam Sucks at processing emotions and john was set on trying to “fix him”. adam “fixes” himself (goes to therapy and decides to prioritize his child) and then story starts two years after divorce when a twelve-year-old portia gets both of her dads to chaperone a multiple-night school trip without the other knowing. based on new american classic!

this ones gonna be LONGGGGG like prob 10-15k? im getting bare bones down rn, i’ve been working on this one the most this weekend when i havent been HELLA busy

major tags: au-divorce, kidfic, one bed, getting back together, hurt/comfort, background mark/shaun

third ALSO has no name and its very rough but its just adam and john situationship. adam will never stop loving john no matter how many times he snuffs him or uses him or makes his love conditional because he blames himself every time john is awful to him. basically adam gets so hurt in this one IM SORRYYYY. johns also kind of an asshole? only a little. he just dgaf. this one is very bpdcore on adams part sorry im projecting. this one is mostly based on all the songs i listened to when i went through the same thing, which i will put here so you can get an idea.

forget her — jeff buckley

andria — la dispute

waiting room — phoebe bridgers

unloveable - the smiths

silver springs live at warner brothers studios — fleetwood mac

high and dry — radiohead

just a lover — hayley williams

sour breath — julien baker

and then, obviously,

the ballad of sal villanueva and cute without the e - taking back sunday

THIS THIRD ONE IS VERY NEW AND SUBJECT TO CHANGE its mostly just me projecting onto adam sorry buddy! i hope my brain lets him have a happy ending

major tags: ambiguous relationships, hurt no comfort, drug abuse

SO ANYWAYS yes hope u enjoy i like talking about these guys im currently rotating them inside my head.

[quinnysnursery]

i went from I know the end by Phoebe Bridgers and now im listening to To the Bone by JT music

how did I get here?? I'm so confused?? thsi was from the recommended songs from I know the end too...they aren't similar AT ALL

HELP??? me when i go from listening to pyscho teddy to the prophecy

[butch-springsteen]

2, 16, 17, 20, 29, 46 and 49!!!

HI thank youuuuu

2. A song that used to be your favorite, but now you don’t like

Hmmmm..... Ive been through a lot of really questionable music phases so probably anything from dear even hansen or the legally blonde musical... I still love the legally blonde musical i just dont listen to the music anymore and I do not like deh at all.

16. A song that makes you want to cry

Chinese Satellite and I know the end by phoebe bridgers make me cry really easily, also for some reason one specific line from So Long, London makes me want to SOB which sucks bcs its my go to run song.

I used to only listen to music that made me want to cry but ive been listening to a lot more fun music lately.

17. A song that makes you want to slay your enemies

Bite the hand, stay down and salt in the wound by boygenius. Listening to family tree by ethel cain while walking around in public makes me feel so murderous ALSO daffodil and mermaid by florence and the machine (really all of dance fever tbh). also real men by mitski and she is the new thing by the horrors and like all of specimen also a lot of sioxsie and the banshees songs

20. A song that you’ve listened to on repeat recently

Today Ive been listening to feminomenom on repeat for a solid 2 hours its so satisfying

also espresso by sabrina carpenta weirdly, its the first ever sabrina song ive lsitened to and i dont think im going to listen to more but its scratching a brain itch

29. A song that cheers you up when you’re sad

ALL AMERICAN BITCH by oliva rodrigo its the most therapeutic experience to jump about your bedroom using a hairbrush as a mic to that song. really living the teenage girl experience lol

ive found that im getting less sad and more angry lately so angry songs are great. jesus of suburbia, boys dont cry (not really angry tho) dead girl in the pool also dog days are over

ALSO born to run i <333 bruce springsteen

46. A song that you wish more people knew about

Hmmmmm i do need more people in my life who listen to ethel cain so like head in the wall, family tree and sun bleached flies. also i want to play siouxsie and the banshees with my band but none of them listen to them :(

I KNOW they're both really famous but noone irl listens to them

49. A song whose lyrics you have memorized

Literally every song ever I love learning lyrics whenever im listening to new music ill listen to it while reading the new lyrics for the first 5 times. i will always have to mouth along to all too well 10mv bcs the lyrics are killer

[amyreads]

infamous music recs.... oh boy do i have some recs.....

mc/seven:

decode - paramore

ignorance - paramore

your graduation - modern baseball

i know the end - phoebe bridgers

nothing matters - the last dinner party (specifically the "im putting all my bets on you/ i hope they never understand us.")

i dont smoke - mitski

to rage - daughter

break it off - pinkpantheress

summertime - mcr ("you can run away with me/ or you can write it on your arm" 😭 matching tattoos sob)

allies or enemies - the crane wives

(also a bunch of swift songs. it's actually comical)

mc/rowan 😈 (unrequited, obviously)

tears over beers - modern baseball

looking out for you - joy again

so alright, cool, whatever - happy fits

'tis the damn season - taylor swift

WOAHH I love half of these and I will listen to the other half ( i already trust ur judgement) HAHA!

i will listen to all of these and will tell u my thoughts !

(its VERY funny u put decode as a seven song because that song was on repeat when i was creating the character....#greatminds

(helena by mcr was also on repeat)

[tallytals]

actually I need to know how that playlist is going for you just in general any thoughts

ok so i was listening to the playlist all day in school so i wasnt thinking too deep on the songs besides “wtf wtf this is SICK” but!!!!

im on a pearl by mitski and here’s some other songs that stood out to me

everyone by mitski. rori you are fucked up for putting this. botw zelda. shaking sobbing on my knees jumping out a WINDOW. SHE HELD BACK THE CALAMITY FOR A CENTURY WHAT IF I DUCKINF LOST IT. “but it didnt want me yet” THE GODDESS. IM DEAD

i want you by mitski.

im ignoring garden song bc you already know how insane it makes me an i cant hit the image limit yet

FROM EDEN BY HOZIER OH MY GOODDDDD i will never shut up abt pre-botw link and zelda they’re so fun (awful terrible im going to cry) to think abt

wasteland baby by hozier. botw zelda is playing this as she pulls up at the castle me thinks

sunlight by hozier (NOTE: there is so much in like all these songs that drive me crazy but im just pulling my fav lines) OUGGGGGG. i could say so much.

i bet on losing dogs by mitski. you didnt have to do this

we’ll never have sex by leith ross. shaky thumbs up

like real people do by hozier MY GOOODDDDD THIS LINE THIS ONE RIGHT HERE. CRAZY. hateno house 💥🔫

about you by the 1975 THIS ENTIRE SONG MESSED ME UP. SHE DIDNT THINK HE WOULD REMEMBER HER BUT HE DID AND I JUST KNOW HE COULDNT WAIT TO TELL HER I JUST OUGOUGHHHHHH AND ME PERSONALLY. i love the hc where the sheika slate can replay the memories like holograms in game so. that hurts me.

seven by taylor swift. SERIOUSLY WHATT. “passed down like folk songs the love lasts so long” HELP ME.

kiss goodnight by idk how but they found me. genuinely dont ever send me links again

shrike by hozier. ough. “i was housed by your warmth thus transformed” “remember me love when i am reborn” ok. totk. i jump in a lake

carefully steps over forth of july like its a landmine

line without a hook by ricky montgomery. I CANNOT ESCAPE THIS GUY. pre botw they were both so messy im gonna die i cant DO THIS

cosmic love by florence + the machine. im literally so sorry jjk fucking stole this song you im SORRY. thinking abt fake zelda so hard i might fuck around and write something

punisher by phoebe bridgers. i just think its crazy how everyone know them through each other. im soooooo normal abt this

gold rush by taylor swift. I ACTUALLY DIDNT GET THIS SONF UNTIL THE END??? i seriously cannot think of anything but fake zelda here. i really might just write the fic. like. he followed her ALL OVER THE KINGDOM AND IT WASNT FUCKING HERE. “so inviting i almost jump in” WHAATTTTTTTTT. “cause it will never be gleaming twinkling eyes like sinking ships on the water” WHAATTTTTTTTTT (PLEASE YELL AT ME ABT THE SONGS TOO)

i guess by mitski. ngl. jjk also got this one. apologies. im in the trenches. BUT. how often to you think they’ve sat somewhere thinking about the second chances they’ve both offered each other. casually slides this to notes app

francis forever by mitski. need i say more. once again i think its fucking insane how tied to each other they are like. oh my god. don’t think abt them in hateno don’t think hateno

first love late spring by mitski. ough

iris by the goo goo dolls. THIS RUINS ME

a pearl by mitski RORI WHEN I CATCH YOU

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what songs do you associate with dean? and why?

HI I LOVE MUSIC QUESTIONS ILY

these are just some from my most listened to playlist, if you wanna know the specifics behind any songs just ask!!

• i caught myself / crave / part ii, paramore

• cowboy like me / the bolter / this is me trying / red / fresh out the slammer / you’re on your own kid, taylor swift

• i know the end, phoebe bridgers

• im your man / the deal / i don’t smoke, mitski

• all nightmare long / here comes revenge / master of puppets / the unforgiven trilogy, metallica

• take me to church / too sweet / it will come back / arsonists lullaby, hozier