#If only I were a fanfic writer… I would try writing everything out a shot

[savannahsdeath]

hii i have a little ellie request. so can we maybe have an enemies to lovers where reader and ellie “hate each other” but in reality ellie just wants to be with reader and she ends up using the strap roughly bc reader didn’t wanna confess after years? (sorry this seems long😭)

i absolutely love this idea omg??

ELLIE WILLIAMS X READER

PART1ONE

part 2two

mdni please<3

warnings: 18+!! smut, 'enemies' to lovers, strap (r!receiving), mean!ellie kinda??, rough!ellie, reader is also mean at first !!

writers note: i love receiving requests like yall are so creative and idkk its just easier to write a req than my own idea🫣🫣 also this turned out to be longer than i expected (my longest fanfic yet!) but even the anon said it seems long so ig thats how its supposed to be🙏

It was another PE lesson you hate so much. It wouldn't be that bad, if not the fact that you're in the same team with Ellie. Ellie fucking Williams.

She would get mad at you for every little mistake you made. You absolutely hated her.

You had to admit she was... pretty. Especially when she had the mix of mad and stern expression on her face. Sometimes you provoked her just to watch her insult every little thing about you she could but you didn't mind. You just sat there with a smirk, sometimes making a mockingly worried face to piss her off even more. Sometimes. Sometimes you weren't in mood for that and you'd actually get offended. Sometimes even hurt. But you couldn't really blame her, that's how it works.

This day, you were literally rescuing your team. Every point was because of you. Every 'that was close' situation was only 'close' because of you. But your luck, or whatever made you win, had to run out eventually. You missed one time.

"What happened? Got holes in your hands? Tired? Not so good anymore?" Ellie asked you with that mocking tone.

Everyone ignored your interaction - they knew what's starting and they didn't want to get involved in that.

"I've done pretty much everything for this team, and the only thing you do is complain, Williams." You said and you could feel your temper rising.

Ellie didn't hesitate to respond to that.

"Well at least I don't do a half-ass job like you. You're really so full of yourself, aren't you? Why not just give up and let someone actually capable take over, huh?" She barked sarcastically.

The other team members didn't even try to hide their excitement now, they just sat back and enjoyed the show, even the teacher was having a hard time holding back the grin on his face whenever Ellie came up with a new insult.

And now, there was no going back.

"Oh, I'm sorry Williams, did your precious little ego get hurt from that? Are my skills threatening your so-called pride? Well if you don't like it, suck it up." You shot back.

If this kept up, you were going to end up with another detention for sure. Everyone knew that you two were like oil and water, but nobody really expected you to get into a shouting match over PE class. Especially, not this early in the morning.

The teacher finally decided that it was enough trouble, and he stepped between the two.

"Ladies, settle down! If you can't figure out how to work well together in a simple PE session, then you'll need more than one detention to figure it out. Go sit down." He ordered, and you two sat down, next to each other.

As if following a silent order, all the other students just went about their business and pretended like nothing had happened.

"You should learn how to shut up sometimes." You said quietly, nervously playing with your fingers.

"You should stop thinking you're so damn important." She snapped back, completely ignoring your advice as she stared at you with the same icy cold look as before.

The teacher came over to the two of you and handed you a form, which you quickly read over. "Maybe it's rough but that's what you both deserve after arguing in every single class. And if that won't help... I don't know what will. Someone will check in on you from time to time, so don't even think about anything, understood?."

In short, the file was saying you'll have spent a month after school doing little school works, like cleaning the gym, with her. It was a frequent way of dealing with problematic students in your school.

You weren't even surprised - the teacher was right. Your little bickers were the main gossip topic and there was no way they'll go unnoticed.

Still, you couldn't help but frown.

"You've got to be kidding me." You muttered under your breath. Spending a month after school doing odd jobs with Ellie was literally the last thing you wanted to do. You knew there was some sort of punishment coming, but this was extreme.

Ellie overheard your muttering, and she rolled her eyes. "It's just a bunch of cleaning, what's wrong, can't handle a little hard work?" She mocked.

"And why are you so happy? Maybe you wished to spend more time with me?" You chuckled, finally looking up at her.

Ellie seemed caught off guard, but she quickly recomposed herself. "Who said I was happy? Sure, I'll love to see you grovel and scrub floors while I sit back and relax." She replied in a sarcastic tone.

You decided to press your advantage, and give Ellie a dose of her own medicine. "Aww, is someone actually admitting that they like spending time with me? I'm so honored." You said with an overdramatized fake fluster.

Ellie didn't even let you finish your sentence before she cut in with her usual sarcastic tone. "Pfff, don't get so ahead of yourself there." She chided. Even then, you could hear some slight annoyance in her voice.

Ellie may have been a jerk, but there was something about her you couldn't help but like. You couldn't explain it, but you liked this banter between the two of you.

Oh, who were you trying to lie to? You liked her. You were just good at hiding it.

You were just about to open your mouth to respond to Ellie's last snarky remark, when you were cut off again.

"Enough."

You both turned to see the teacher staring at the two of you. He sounded more annoyed than before, and you decided it was better to stop your feud before you got in any more trouble.

"You two are already going to spend a month together doing odd jobs. The last thing we need is for you to add another week to that sentence." He warned.

You wanted to say something back, but you decided to shut up before the teacher had to make it worse. You and Ellie just looked at each other for a couple of seconds, before you rolled your eyes and got up from your seat.

After a few more classes, the time of  fulfilling your penalty came. You sat down at the gym benches, waiting for Ellie. You waited, and waited, but no one came.

Ellie was faster than you with getting up. She smirked and said; "Well it's not like you actually had anything worth saying anyway, so it's easier for you." With that parting jab, she walked out of the gym.

You expected something like that from her, so you stood up and a few minutes later you were standing in front of her room. You knocked to the door, patiently waiting for her to answer.

After a few moments, you heard footsteps, before the door finally opened. Ellie stood in front of you, her face as annoyed as ever.

"What do you want?" she grumbled, clearly not in the mood to be bothered right now.

"Uh, hello? We're supposed to be doing the clean-up, remember? You haven't forgotten, right?" You said, trying to stay as polite as you could.

She sighed and motioned for you to come in, clearly not ready to go just yet.

You slowly stepped into Ellie's room, your eyes taking in the decorations and mess. It was clear that this was Ellie's world, but you couldn't help but feel a slight curiosity towards her.

"So, why exactly weren't you at the gym?" You asked, finally breaking the tension. You didn't want her thinking you were here to start another argument.

"I had stuff to do." Was the terse response you were met with, nothing else.

"Yeah, of course." You rolled your eyes. "Your room could use some cleaning too."

Ellie smirked when your tone turned from polite to annoyed when she gave you her response, but you couldn't help but notice that she slightly recoiled when you mention how messy her room was. For someone with such a sharp tongue, she sure wasn't enjoying that same kind of treatment.

"Oh yeah? So maybe we should have you clean my room instead." She shot back.

"Actually, boarding school is still school, so that'd count too." You smirked, not so sarcastically anymore. You'd really rather stay in her room than running all over the building with a mop and dirty cloths.

Ellie raised one eyebrow at your reply, clearly not expecting you to just accept it without some kind of snarky remark or argument.

"Alright then." She replied simply, and she walked over to her bed and started to clear out the clutter. You couldn't really deny that her room was in a pretty messy state.

You explored the room, looking for something to start with.

Just then, near other scattered clothes, you saw feminine underwear. Clearly not hers.

"Um, Ellie..." You laughed. "Who's this?"

She walked up to you, not seeming surprised or embarrased at all. "I dunno. There's lots of girls visiting." She smirked.

You knew the smart thing to do would be just to drop the topic, but your curiosity got the best of you. Just who was Ellie Williams hanging out with?

"Really? And how many of them leave a pair of underwear in your room as a souvenir?" You asked, trying to keep a straight face, but you couldn't help but be amused by the situation.

Ellie just laughed, and you couldn't help but grin at her confidence in that moment.

"If you're asking if I'm dating someone," Ellie said, looking at you with an amused expression, "then no. I wouldn't call it dating."

You knew Ellie was always too stubborn and proud to just admit it normally, so you decided to push her just a little bit further.

"So it's not just a single person then? What's it? A new girl every day?" you asked with a smirk, knowing you'd hit a nerve there.

The slight flicker of annoyance on Ellie's face told you that you'd hit the mark.

"So what if it is? Are you jealous?" She teased in response, just adding fuel to the fire.

Now, she had the smirk on her face, and you just knew you'll regret what you started.

"Not really. Everyone knows you fuck every girl in the school anyways. Well, almost every." You suggestively pointed at yourself. "That's honestly sad. You should focus on one person, don't you think?"

Ellie took this as a challenge, she just couldn't resist it when you made yourself the exception.

"Oh, you think you're a special case? How cute." She snickered, and you couldn't help but feel somewhat pleased with that response after how much you two had been annoying each other for the past month.

"What do you think, should I consider dating you? It seems like you're interested, isn't that why you keep sticking around?" She asked, looking at you, knowing very well what kind of effect her words were gonna have on you.

"Me? Interested? You're the one finding excuses to talk to me every day, even if it's just another argument!" You shook your head and looked down, trying to hide that your smirk turns into a honest smile.

You felt Ellie's eyes studying your face as you tried to hide your genuine happiness, you tried to play it off, but you knew that it wasn't working in your favor. You couldn't even deny it, because it was true, you were interested in Ellie. Maybe not at first, but after spending time together, you grew to like her, her arrogance, her wit, the snarky smile on her face... and her eyes.

"Oh, so you do care!" She quickly cut in, sensing your weakness as your smile grew.

"Come on, don't tell me you've been enjoying this little game of ours, haven't you? Don't you look forward to it every day? Don't you love the adrenaline that kicks in when you're about to say something that's bound to start an argument?" She asked, taking a step closer to you and lowering her voice.

You could almost see the sparks fly as the two of you stared at each other, both feeling the tension in the air. You were almost tempted to take her up on the offer, but your pride got the best of you.

"You're just full of yourself, aren't you? Thinking everybody craves that attention." You said after taking a deep breath.

Ellie just smiled and walked straight to you, getting up close and personal.

"Well, I know you want it. So stop putting up a facade and admit it."

"I'm not like these sluts you fuck, Williams." You said, trying to keep your voice steady and calm.

Ellie just smirked in response. "You're right, you're not like them. You're better than them. And maybe you are a little special, considering how much you manage to piss me off everyday." She took a step back and looked you up and down. "I kinda like it." She said, and you couldn't help but feel your heart rate go up a little when she said that.

You just stared back at Ellie, not really sure what else to say in this situation. Both of your egos were too big to give the other one satisfaction, and neither would be making the first move.

She finally spoke up; "Your turn to be honest now. Admit you're into me."

She was awfully close to you now, daring you to say something.

"Don't push it, Ellie." You told her confidently, and even though you really wanted to say it, your pride was holding you back from admitting it.

Ellie just smirked and moved even closer to you, until her face was just an inch away from yours. "Say it." She whispered.

You felt your heart pounding faster as you just looked at her, not able to break her stare.

You shook your head. "No way."

She just chuckled at your response. "I knew you'd say that. And now, I'm gonna make you say it yourself."

Before you could even comprehend what was happening, Ellie pulled you close, just enough to make your lips meet. You just stood there, completely stunned by how bold she was, but at the same time, the feeling of her lips against yours was so new and so good as well. You hadn't felt this type of rush before, and you didn't want it to end.

You couldn't stop yourself from letting out a gasp followed by a moan into the kiss, which made her even bolder.

"I'll show you how lucky those so-called by you sluts are." She whispered after pulling away from you, but not for long.

While Ellie's mouth aggresively covered yours, you felt her slowly pushing you towards the bed.

You were barely able to think now, as your adrenaline was pumping through your whole body. Your back hit the mattress, and Ellie continued to push you down as she climbed up onto the bed on top of you.

That's when it hit you.

You realized that your little feud with Ellie wasn't going to end after all, except this time you weren't fighting her.

Instead, you were just enjoying the moment with someone you could almost call a friend.

It felt like there was nothing else in the universe, just a rush of new sensations that you didn't want to end.

Ellie was the one in control now, as you felt her body pressing up against you, her lips pressing against yours, her hands moving around your body without hesitation. You weren't even thinking straight anymore, you just let her embrace you, letting her take control entirely.

You felt her break the kiss for a moment, just to whisper something in your ear. "Say it."

You knew what she wanted you to say, but you just couldn't bring yourself to do so.

Before you could answer, you felt her slowly undressing you. Her lips were tracing paths along your throat, not letting you let out a logical word from it - only little whimpers.

You felt every curve of her body as you felt her lips against your neck, every touch sending chills down your spine.

When you felt her hands move towards your pants, you felt your body respond in the only way you could.

You couldn't think of anything else but her embrace, her warm breath against your neck, and your body slowly being freed from clothing.

Ellie knew exactly how to push your buttons.

Before you could catch your breath, you were left shaking, as her hand slipped into your underwear, which was soon on the floor too. She was teasing your clit in almost painful slow way, watching you squirm.

"Speak up, babe." She whispered mockingly.

But you couldn't. Not because you didn't want, or because your ego didn't let you - you just couldn't. You even asked yourself 'What does this girl wants from me?' as you already forgotten her previous wish. You just weren't thinking straight.

"Come on, do this for me." She kept looking at you with overdramatic concern. You saw her fastening her belt and sliding of her jeans, revealing an obviously-way-too-big strap, which purple color didn't surprise you at all as you imagined it the same way in your dreams.

When you finally came back to your senses, you constructed a whole full sentence answer. But as soon as she saw you opening your mouth to speak up, she slid a few inches of her toy into your soaking cunt. Your planned reply quickly got replaced with another gasp.

"What's the matter? Cat got your tongue?" She smirked, her hips started thrusting. She had some sympathy for you, so she didn't make it too painful, but she wasn't also so merciful.

You cried out, at first clenching your thighs from surprise, but she was too strong for you to actually succeed.

You leaned your head back against the pillow, squeezing your eyes shut causing a few of your pathetic tears soak into the sheets.

She held your hips, so she won't miss your sensitive spot, but her grip was so hard you swore you can already see the bruises creating right beneath her fingers.

"Honestly, I'm really happy it ended like that. You have no idea how often I'd imagine you instead of some random girl. But it's good to have you really there." She chuckled, not slowing down but not speeding up either.

Your eyes opened wide at this confession. Before today, the nicest thing she said to you was 'what's wrong?', even though it was in an obviously mocking way. And know it turns out she liked you for a long time. Just like you liked her.

"W...Wh- What?" You managed to stutter out, leaning on your elbows to look at her before your vision turned blurry again so you fell back on the pillow.

"You didn't know?" She laughed. "I mean, you were always oblivious, so I shouldn't be shocked but... I thought it was clear." She was speaking slower than usual as every single word coming from her mouth was synced with the moves of her hips. While saying this simple thing, she pushed her strap into you at least twenty times. And she wasn't taking her time, oh, no. She was fast and rough, like you're just a sex toy without feelings. Did you mind? Hmmm...

When you started getting used to the size of her cock and your mind wasn't completely blank anymore, you remembered one important thing your PE teacher said. 'Someone will check in on you from time to time, so don't even think about anything.' None of you were either at the gym or putting up flyers around school. They're going to think you ditched it. Even though you'd rather get into more trouble than end whatever you were doing now, you felt you need to tell Ellie, just in case.

"El-s..." You moaned out and quickly realised it won't be easy.

"What is it?" She asked, seeming honestly interested in what you got to say. "Ready to admit you're absolutely obsessed with me?"

You clenched your fists, squeezing the bed sheets between your fingers.

"Th- no... We should..." You couldn't help but cry out again.

As soon as she heard the two keywords - 'we should' (and she hated when someone was telling her what to do, so that pissed her off) - she understood what you're trying to say.

"Behave? Fulfill our duties? Or...?" She chuckled.

You wanted to speak up, just to not feel so vulnerable as you really were. You only managed to mumble 'we' before one of her hands started rubbing your clit, just like at the start - painfully slow. The feeling made your thighs tense and move closer to each other, wanting to close the gap between them. But Ellie didn't let that happen as she quickly separated your legs.

Her hips also didn't stop moving, and all the sensations connected made you go silent again. Well, not silent - unable to speak. And that were two completely different things.

"I'd take that as a 'we should continue what we're doing right now'. Isn't that what you want?" Even though you're eyes were closed, you could feel her intense stare on you. Then, her mocking tone came back. "What is it with you being so quiet all of sudden? You spent a few of the past years yelling at me, and you can't even say a word now?"

"I ju-st..." You said but then she hit your g spot again, and again, and again... making you go silent.

Your stomach started feeling funny - probably because of how deep in it Ellie's strap was. At this point, you thought you can even feel it in your throat and that's what's blocking your words from coming out. But the funny feeling had a different origin - your release was getting awfully close, and it didn't go unnoticed.

"We're going to have lots of fun this month." She whispered, leaning in to stroke your cheek.

[shadyteacup]

POV: An anime only bsd fanfic writer is desperate to write sm for her beloved handcuffed boi so she doesn’t give two shits about the manga storyline and claims bandaged furrball as her husband

It’s a short one shot btw, lmao

Dazai Osamu x fem!Reader

“He’s not a criminal, Ango.”, your low voice indicated how calmly frustrated you were.

Ango sighed, and pondered over what to tell you. He was glad that this conversation was happening over the phone and not in person, as he wouldn’t have been able to find the right reasons to give you for Dazais arrest.

Hell, he didn’t even know how you got to know about it.

“Listen, I’m trying everything in my power to help him.”

Ango crumpled a useless paper on his desk and aimed it at the dustbin at the right corner.

“Just give me some time, and I’ll sort this out.”

He wondered why you even cared so much, considering that he had only recently gotten to know that you and Dazai were a thing. But knowing his former colleague, you were probably nothing major. Dazai isn’t known for his loyalty, neither is he ever interested in long term relationships. You had probably found Angos number through Dazais phone, which he ironically leaves unattended quite frequently, in spite of being a detective himself.

“And what are you going to do during this time?”

Ango released his paper ball, but alas, it didn’t land in the bin.

“I’m going to find out which body demanded his arrest and how they got the proofs they needed. In fact, I’m on my way to the metro station as we speak.”

Ango crumpled another stray paper, and raised it over his head to set his aim.

“I’ll call you back when I have more information. How does that sound?”

Just as he was going to release the ball, you said, “Slightly to the left, and it’ll go right in.”

Ango stumbled out of his chair, immediately turning around to frantically search for anybody in the buildings outside his window.

“What?”, he decided that playing dumb would get him more time.

You laughed, shaking your head at the frantic movements of the bespectacled man.

“You won’t be able to find me, dove.”

Ango reached for his gun, which he had hidden from view under his desk.

You cut the call.

“Don’t worry, you won’t be harmed.”, you said, aiming your own gun at his back.

“But if I don’t get any names soon, I might just pull this trigger.”

Ango turned around slowly, his hands above his head, as he watched you walk out of the shadows of his office.

“Just who are you?!”

You smiled, “Y/N”

“Yes, I know your name. But how did you get in here?! And just why do you care so much about Dazai?!”

You smirked.

“If his wife didn’t care about him, who would?.”

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Here you go @msshinylemon! Not sure how much I'll be able to put here all things considered, but whatever ૮₍˶ •. •⑅₎ა♡

Fanfic Writer Interview

How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently, I only have 1 published work, and it is ongoing. However, I do have 1 I am working on, a one-shot, as a Christmas present for the SKK Discord Server I am in.

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes:

Nothing Comes as Easy as You (9,711 words) - Ongoing - Rated M Human Experiment Dazai and Chuuya AU

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I respond to every comment I get! I have a constant need for validation when it comes to everything, so knowing that people are actually enjoying my writing is a huge reason why I try to continue it. Plus, if I'm lucky, I might be able to get ideas off some of the readers and use them! That helps a lot.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I currently don't have one, since the one I am doing is currently ongoing! Though, I do have it on good authority that it's already angsty and we're only 3 chapters in. Plus, there's more in store!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Again, as I currently only have 1 work on AO3 currently I do not have any with endings. Not much I can do about that right now until I have the other works in progress done. I promise I will have one eventually, though! ♡⸜(˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

Do you write crossovers?

I love the idea of crossovers and I am currently reading several myself (Though crossover would be the wrong word. More like just general AUs? I never used any of the established characters in these worlds, just the world itself). I would love to write one. I'm just not sure what the crossover AU would be other than Boku no Hero Academia. I think the closest I came to writing one was a Shizaya (Durarara!!!) fanfic I started using the world of The Hunger Games. It's unfinished and only a few chapters in. I'm not sure if I will ever post it. I also started a Victuuri (Yuri!! On Ice) fanfiction where they are Hogwarts students. I'm a few chapters into this one as well, but stopped because I didn't know where to take it from where I had left off.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I have not received hate, at least not publicly where I can see. To be fair, though, my work doesn't have a whole lot of traction on it last time I checked--granted that was a while ago.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have not written any smut yet. I want to, though I am quite on the fence about it because I am unsure of how it will turn out. I did promise a certain someone I would try though, for their birthday ᓚ₍⑅^..^₎♡

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I am aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I am aware of

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I mean I'm kind of doing that now? Though, I don't think I would consider it co-written. I am working with my friend @raeneism and my one of my other friends by bouncing ideas off each other. It seems to be working out quite well, even if progress is a little slow because of my IRL life.

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I would either have to say SKK or Shizaya (Durarara!!!)(DRR). Victuuri (Yuri!! On Ice) is a good answer as well or even SasaMiya (Sasaki and Miyano). There's just so many good ones.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Honestly, it feels like all of them! I get so caught up in my own head that sometimes I forget that I have all these WIPs that I need to continue or just ditch. I love them too much, though. (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )

What are your writing strengths?

If it were my opinion I would probably say nothing. I personally hate my own writing as a whole.

If it were up to my friends, though, they would probably say the way I describe feelings and how they affect the body. Maybe even just how the characters think as well.

What are your writing weaknesses?

For me, it would probably be pacing? It feels like I am either too quick or too slow to get from one point to another, or even how long it takes for me to write a chapter on average. I tend to take forever due to my tendency to overthink everything, especially the small details.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I love the idea! I was working on a Yuri!! On Ice fanfiction where they were all going to Hogwarts, so the idea was to have dialogue in scattered throughout in everyone's native tongue. One of my friends actually lived in Japan for a while, so I was using her to help me with all the Japanese.

What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Probably SasaMiya (Sasaki and Miyano), if I'm being honest. I love how soft the entire series is as a whole, but due to how soft it is I find it hard to write for? I just love angst so much. I don't think I could put those soft bois through all that. (╥﹏╥)

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I guess it depends on the ship itself? For SKK it would probably be Nothing Comes as Easy as You, but for DRR it would be one of the unpublished works that I have going. The SKK one is probably the one I'm the most invested in right now, though.

@cryptid-juzou I'm not sure if you've done this yet, but if I had to suffer and type a bunch so do you! ₍^. .^₎⟆

[honeyandthunderstorms]

Fic Writer Interview! 💗

tagged by: @beensinning (this was so fun!! thanks for the tag, sinn <333)

How many works do you have on AO3?

altogether, I have 33 works… but 21 of them are actually available on my ao3 page, whereas my 12 F1 fics are on anon 😅

What's your total AO3 word count?

351,826 — more than I expected, but also less than what I was expecting out of 33 works. tbf I write more one-shots than I do actual long fics

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

closer I get, can you resist? (1,857)

[redacted] (1,206)

[redacted] (1,100)

darlin’, I will give up everything (828)

[redacted] (819)

redacted fics are for my old fandom (icemav, if you will)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I reallllllly try to. if I don't respond right away, I usually do it sooner or later. on long fics, I tend to reply if I get them instantly when I update or I try to respond right before I upload a new chapter. I super love reading comments and interacting with them because a lot of great ideas form in the comments and a lot of my willpower to write comes from praise lmao. so I figure why not get back to the people taking their time to let me know I've done a good job?

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

okayyyyy, the angstiest ending I've ever written is between can you see right through me? or from my 2020-2021 fandom (the magicians) — hard choice fr but my Daniel/Charles (endgame lestappen) is pretty damn angsty

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

another old fandom fic (top gun). it ended in a marriage proposal (I let @beensinning read this one hehe)

Do you write crossovers?

I'm with @beensinning. do AUs count? bc my bridgerton fic is basically a fusion, but also not? or does it only count as a crossover when other people in the fandom appear? if I'm talking nonsense, just ignore me lmao

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

yesssssss. i once had someone comment and say I had several spelling mistakes — come to find out its bc I was using the American-spelling of English words (I am American oops), but when I asked what spelling errors I had, they came back and corrected my grammar bc they were wrong about my spelling so they had to find something else wrong 😭

also in a lestappen fic (I can take the upper hand and touch your body), I was just playing with a different narrative basically (bc it's fanfic… reminder. FICTION. a place where you can change the narrative to fit your story) & someone started hating on Max in my comments bc I made Charles the “bad guy”. I didn't. I just made him emotional bc of the Spain GP weekend. aka clipping lando, the reprimand, max and Lando gossiping in front of cameras. I just changed the narrative to fit where Charles’ mind was at. instead of the slight collision between Lando and Charles being an accident, I made it where it was hinted he just saw red and then yea. anywayssss, I do not condone hating one or the other. end of story. how do you find enjoyment reading a ship when you hate one of them??? I don't get it.

also I'm pretty sure this comment didn't mean any harm, but in my bridgerton fic (darlin’, I will give up everything) where omegas wear dresses bc I'm playing with the inherrant sexism in women and omegas while also aiding in my feminization kink, someone asked why I couldn't just put Charles in his baggy jeans… lol anyway, it made me mad so I'm counting it.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

oh boy, do I ever. I will write just about any kind of smut unless I don't find a certain kink enjoyable, but I also don't yuck other people’s yums 🤷🏼‍♀️ my fav smut is def breeding kink and feminization kink if y'all couldn't tell though 😌

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of? I think I would actually have an anxiety attack over that if it happened though lol

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have had someone ask, but I do not think they ever went through with it? I never got a message/comment back or a ‘inspired by’ notif on ao3 so I just assumed it never happened

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no, but I love bouncing ideas off of other people. usually, if someone has really inspired me, I always gift them the fic on ao3 because it's my present to them to bring alive some of their ideas 🥹

What's your all-time favourite ship?

my otp is icemav (missing my old fandom heavy lately), BUT lestappen are becoming my will tomkive so there's that. which is sooooo funny to me bc I came into this fandom liking piarles more… which I still love them, but lestappen have taken over my brainrot

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

its a longfic for my old fandom and I severely hate that I never finished it bc so many people loved it… I got burnt out so bad and had to take a step back. I just don't know if I will ever come back to it, but I would love to finish it if I ever get the urge to. maybe one day 😔

What are your writing strengths?

I answered this recently in an ask, I think? it was character building and how they interact with other characters. I feel I’m really good at showing how people react to others and conveying their moods.

What are your writing weaknesses?

commas. I suck at knowing where commas go 😭 this is why I tag ‘grammarly is my best friend’ in fics bc it IS. it is so dear to me.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I'm a native English speaker so I can't speak for people who speak other languages, but I don't mind reading it. on the other hand, I do write it, but I try not to write full conversations and instead just add a word here or there 😭 I know some French because I took it for 2 years but a lot of it is rapidly fading from my mind so I know next to nothing atp. forgive me everyone if I'm butchering things in my fics 😔

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

one direction back in 2012 (I was 12) 😎 I was writing one direction x OFC LMAO

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

oh god um??? I guess I'd like to write a sebchal or choscar fic one of these days 👀

What's your favourite fic you've written?

hands down, closer I get, can you resist? I love it sm. I've put sm of my soul into that fic that it feels like my child. it was the first fic I've written in a while where I'm just going with the flow and having fun

no-pressure tags <33 : @sediciii @formulaocean @mothlau @usedtobetam @carbonmono

[raidergamerspice]

I recently binged all of Sense8, but even before I finished it, I'd already thought that every other media should have at least one Sense8 AU fanfic.

I mean, the idea of multiple people all over the world being psychically linked with one another as a sensate cluster, being able to visit each other and share knowledge and skills whenever it's needed? It's so fucking brilliant! Not to mention, all the queer themes, stories, and characters... It's all so beautiful 😭

I actually first got interested in this show through a Final Fantasy 16 fanfic that retells the story of FF16 so that all the Dominants (minus Joshua) are a sensate cluster. That in itself was interesting, but then I checked out the actual show, and I was hooked.

I even checked out the wiki just to look at the rules for clusters, and they seemed fairly simple: clusters can be as small as two people and as large as twelve people. And family members can be part of the same cluster, so Joshua could have also been part of the cluster in that FF16 fanfic, but the author's main reason for leaving him out was so that he and Clive wouldn't be able to...well...sense each other when things...got steamy...did I mention that there were a few times where the cluster in Sense8 all got together to...have some adult fun? Yeah, it's a very adult show, and the author of that fic was understandably valid for not making Clive and Joshua part of the same cluster.

But I feel like, for Sense8 style AUs, not everything has to be sexual among a cluster, ya know? 🤷‍♀️

Anyway, with these rules in mind, I feel like other fanfic writers could have a field day with this concept. I already first thought of a Sense8 style AU for Twiyor in Spy x Family because the idea of Loid and Yor being psychically connected is so juicy. Personally, I feel like this would nudge them closer to romantic territory compared to what's currently happening in canon lmao. Plus, just imagine when Yor gets shot in the butt, Loid feels it too 😳

Then I thought of a Sense8 AU for Avatar: The Last Airbender, though I wasn't the only one, where each Avatar would be bonded to multiple people in a cluster (the number of cluster members would vary with each Avatar); therefore, just like there is only one Avatar each lifetime, there can only be one cluster each lifetime.

And then...I thought of a Sense8 style AU for Dissidia: Final Fantasy. Imagine all sixteen Final Fantasy heroes (yes, I'm including Clive because why wouldn't I?) being a giant cluster despite all being in different realms! Wouldn't that be something? It'd be chaotic, that's for sure 😂

Finally - for now, at least - I figured a Sense8 AU could also work for the Heart Hotel in Kingdom Hearts. Just imagine Sora being connected to the rest of the Heart Hotel like sensates?

Phew, another long post where I ramble lol. What do you guys think of these ideas? I could probably write fics for this myself...but I have constantly wavering confidence and focus on fanfic writing, which is why I try to inspire ideas for other, better writers 💀

Also, here's a link to that fanfic I mentioned. It's currently still going, but it's very good so far: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48588124/chapters/122560603

[orchidyoonkook]

Fanfic end of the year asks:

15, 17, & 23.

And thank you for bringing me Yoongi this year - be he under a willows tree or in a Valentino suit, he was breaking me down and healing me up. 💕

VIOLET 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹. My love. My darling. My Moot. My bestie. My friend. How I adore you so ♥️♥️♥️

Thank you for asking 🫂

15. Something you learned this year

Apparently I can write smut. Which was both incredibly relieving and also terrifying at the same time?

Or even the fact that people like my writing. Prior to posting fics, only high school English teachers had read my writing. So I’d never really gotten a response on it before. Didn’t know if it was any good. Didn’t really give it a worth while shot. All my friends were writers so I just assumed I was the odd one out.

But then I got tumblr.

And posted a fic just to see if it was worth continuing.

And learned that maybe I can write a little bit.

And that if I keep going. Maybe I can write a lot one day.

17. Fics you’ll continue next year

I’m gunna use this as a planned fics and continued fics question to keep track for myself cuz I will forget 😂😂

So!

I currently have two requests (literally how wild is that!!???) in my inbox that I have to brainstorm. One for JK and one for the UTWT couple.

I will also hopefully be much more active in updating TWWWBAATTA. (Ideally I get at least 6-8 chapters out this year)

As well as a collab that’s been in the works since maybe August?? It’s currently on hold due to life on both ends, but I love love LOVE the concept and the plot and everything about it so I’m excited to dig into that! It will also probably be my first darker work, so I’m stoked for that too! Trying out a new genre.

I have an (undisclosed member) fic in my head right now that I’m plotting out. (I’ve talked about it with you but I wanna keep it under wraps until I at least have a rough draft). It’s a winter themed fic so ideally I’ll have it out by at the latest, February. But if it’s later in the year, it’s later in the year.

And lastly, for planned works that is, I’m toying with the idea of potentially expanding the TDWV universe due to the wonderful reception of the world it takes place in.

23. Fics you wanted to write, but didn’t

The previously mentioned collab fic. I wanted to have at least one chapter of it out by the end of 2023. But then I got a new job and moved within a month of each other, and went from working one shift a week, to full time, and then the holidays happened and I ran out of free time.

My New Years Resolution this year was to try and write more/ create more. And I would really like to stick to that if I can. But with quality over quantity.

And then the undisclosed member fic, also previously mentioned. I’d hoped to have it done over my winter break from work. But timing and plans said no!

———

You’re so so so welcome my dear. I don’t even have the words to begin to describe what your support has meant and done for me. And I can only hope I’ve been able to do a fraction of the same for you.

I hope I can bring you more Yoongi’s and maybe a Joon or two in the future too♥️

[pintsizeninja]

I've been asking everyone #14 and #50, and I'll throw in #26 too :)

Thank you so much for the ask, Wendy!! 😍 (you totally should have asked me #22 😉)

14) What’s the biggest change in your taste between when you started in fandom and today?

Honestly? I can't even remember what my tastes were when I started in fandom. I kinda came of age when fan fiction was first making its way onto the internet. Back when I first got into fandom, things were really fragmented; I remember reading my first ship (it was, uh, a little problematic so I'm definitely not going to get into that lol) and then Mulder/Scully fanfic on sites made specifically for it, since fanfiction.net didn't exist yet. Beggars couldn't be choosers, so I remember reading everything.

My tastes are a lot more discerning now. I actually don't read a ton of fic these days, but I'm trying to change that and open myself up more to different ships and tags.

I really want to read more longfic. I've mostly only read one shots and when I'm specifically searching for smut for inspiration/reference, I try to keep my searches under 10k words so I know I'm missing a whole world out there.

50) Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

I gave Riley a kinda long-winded response to this question, so I'll keep it (very) short this time 😂 It's had such a significant impact on my life this past year that I cannot imagine living life without it now!

26) What aspect of your writing do you most enjoy to see praised?

The emotions, man. My main job as a writer is to try and translate the things I feel in my chest and the images I see in my brain into words that make you, the reader, feel something. I want folks to experience something (hopefully positive!) when they read my writing. I do really, really love it when people comment on specific lines or turns of phrase, but feedback that my fic made someone laugh or cry or (probably in the case of Ragnarök) both makes my heart sing. I go on a pretty extensive emotional journey when I write, so hearing I took a reader on an emotional journey of their own brings me so much joy.

Obviously it's a bit different for smutty one-shots - there, I just hope to hear that the smut I wrote was hot rather than cringe, haha. Although you know me, I'm apparently incapable of writing smut without bringing emotion into it, so I guess it technically still applies there too.

[arzuera]

Challenge! 20 Questions for Writers

Thanks for the tag @tathartiel!

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

22. Though It would be 38 if you included all the individual one-shots in the two one-shot booklets.

2. What's your total A03 word count?

729,435 words. Which is a lot more than I was expecting! I never looked that up before.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment, DPxDC mainly. I used to write for Undertale and I have written for the Rune Factory series.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Robin's Egg with 14,291 kudos. It's, by far, my most popular on AO3. Though if we bring other Fanfic websites then The Call of a Mute Heart will be the top.

Summary: While out on nightly patrol, Robin finds a very injured Danny Phantom who is about to be forced back into his core. Now that the ghost boy is entirely defenseless, how is Damien going to protect the core from others? And even harder… how is going to keep Phantom's existence unknown to his family?

"Safe" House with 4767 kudos. This is surprising to me because this is just a 2 shot that I wrote on a whim. I didn't realize it was so popular.

Summary: Tim and Damian help Jason move safe houses. What was that in the backroom?

Rehoming with 2,607 kudos. Again, this is surprising. This is basically a one shot since I haven't finished part 2 yet.

Summary: Justice League cherry picks the Fenton research on ghosts and treats them like semi-'sentient' beings.

So Many Stars with 1,626 kudos. This one is my one shot booklet so this isn't so surprising.

An Envoy for a Night with 1,570 kudos. This is also a one shot and the first time I wrote an anger management fic.

Summary: Jazz attends a Justice League party as Danny's envoy. Chaos ensues.

5. Do you respond to comments!

I do try but it's hard. Robin's Egg gets a lot of comments and I love every single one! I'm constantly refreshing to see anything new in my inbox! But considering it can get a few hundred every chapter, it's hard to respond to every single one individually. But I do read them all and I appreciate all the love you give the fics I write.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hmmm.... I guess, since it is currently on hiatus, Stay. It's literally about a suicidal main character who is trying to find themself in a new world with humans and monsters.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

That has to be either "Safe" House or That's How the Story Goes. Most of the stories I write end happy. So I'm rating on HOW happy.

8. Do You Get Hate on Fics?

Yes, I do! For a while, there was an anon that was trolling the dpxdc fics that a lot of my fellow authors deemed the 'fetish' Anon. They would go to dpxdc fics and write a hate comment about how the author was fetishizing something or other in the fic when, if they read the fic, it never happened. This was the one I received on Robin's Egg:

Of course, none of this actually happened in the fic but it was just general trolling hate. Then there were the 4-5 anons who trolled me on AO3 AND Tumblr by demanding I write something the way they wanted too. Then the classic, YOU DIDNT WRITE THAT CHARACTER WELL!

It's been pretty calm for a while (knocks on wood. throws salt over her shoulder) but I have certainly seen my fair share of hate.

9. Do You Write Smut? If So, What Kind?

I do but none of you will see it~

I do not have that kind of courage.

10. Do You Write Crossovers? If So, What's The Craziest One You've Written?

The only crossover is DPxDC for me. I read a lot of crossovers, at least when I was more active in the Undertale fandom. Writing? DPXDC is the only one.

11. Have You Ever Had A Fic Stolen?

I have actually. My fic The Call of A Mute Heart, when it was still in the process of being written, was stolen a total of 5 times across various fanfic websites. Lemme tell you, it was hard trying to get it taken down on the websites I didn't have accounts on. I had to prove that I had the older files and everything x.x

12. Have You Ever Co-Written A Fic Before?

Yes! It's called Contractual Obligations and I was teamed up with @tathartiel for Invisobang. It was a lot of fun! Despite our different writing styles, we were really in sync in what we wanted to do and how we wanted to write it. Its a DPxDC fic where Ghost King Danny finds out he is the son of John Constantine by a demon trying to claim his soul via a soul contract. So now Danny has to make this thing void or else the Infinite Realms is in danger.

I will co-author with Tathy as many times as she wishes because it was so much fun working with her and we are already joined up to write a fic for another event.

13. What's Your All-Time Favorite Ship?

I don't really have a favorite but I do like a good Anger Management fic. I like to read lots of different ships though because its all in how its written, for me, if i will like it or not.

14. What's A Wip You Want to Finish But Doubt You Ever Will?

Anything on my Undertale list that's unfinished. I've tried going back to them. I really have but the spark isn't there anymore, unfortunately.

15. What Are Your Writing Strengths?

Mmmmm I guess my ability to make a conversation last for an entire chapter without it getting boring or repetitive. At least, from what I have been told. Sometimes exposition needs to happen but if done wrong it can bore or turn off a reader. Yet, I've only ever heard good things for the chapters that involve them.

16. What Are Your Writing Weaknesses?

Smut. No further elaborations~

17. First Fandom You Wrote For?

Technically, it was FairyTail but my true immersion into fandom was Undertale. I'd never been actively apart of a fandom until then and I still have fond memories of writing The Call of a Mute Heart every week, waiting for people to read it.

18. Favorite Fic You've Written?

You would think I would say my two biggest fics Robin's Egg or The Call of a Mute Heart but my favorite fic is It's a Case! for Rune Factory 4. I had so much fun writing it and tried my hardest to make it feel like a cutscene from the game and from the people who read it, I think I succeeded.

Now who should I tag... hmmmmmmmm.... @gilbirda and @susiron i would love to learn about you two :3

[pebblysand]

[a bit of news!]

hello all! i hope you're doing well! i just wanted to give you a bit of news as i've been getting a few asks lately and thought you were due a bit of a life/writing update.

welcome to march, welcome to spring. all is well. i'm still on a bit of a writing break punctuated by holiday breaks and a couple weeks of house renovations but i am hoping to get back to writing sometime after paddy's day. i'm thinking of getting a one-shot out in april, then castles afterwards, but nothing is set in stone - we shall see.

i also wanted to clarify something because i've received a couple of asks/messages about this in the past few months. you might have noticed i recently (sneakily, perhaps) turned off the "tipping" function on tumblr, which i previously had activated. honestly, this is because it was appearing on everything i posted and i found it incredibly annoying and in your face (or, more like, in my face). i appreciate that we all need to do our best to function in this capitalist hellscape, but over-marketing just makes me want to vomit lol. it's possible to turn off the tipping icon for certain posts but tumblr makes that a bit cumbersome and so, i couldn't be bothered with that either 🙄.

anyway, all of this to let you know that: i've restarted and rebranded my Ko-Fi. it is also linked in my pinned post if you ever need to find it again in the future. i feel like this is a much better alternative to tumblr in terms of design and offer, and i think it's a platform that most people online are familiar with. so, if you would like to support my writing financially, you can do that there. please note, however, that i do not currently write for commission and that i am committed to never putting my content behind a paywall. i also have a mildly profitable day job and am not in need of money. please prioritise your own needs, or even ngos, other struggling artists, etc. this being said, writers do spend countless hours on their craft and sometimes getting a few tips for our hard work is nice, ngl. so, if you would like to donate a few euros towards my work, both on this tumblr and on ao3, you are than welcome to do so.

(and, if your first thought reading this is "but the monetisation of fanfiction is illegal," please read up on it before screaming. the legal framework is lot blurrier than you think. if you can't be bothered, ask me and i'll explain to the best of my ability. lastly, i also do produce original content and posts that are not fanfiction so if you want to donate but feel uncomfortable doing so for fanfic, you can do so on the basis of those 😊).

now, if you would like to support the podcast financially, lani and i are in the process of creating a different Ko-Fi, for that purpose only. this will be announced soon. i am trying to keep the "accounts" separate for the sake of viability and transparency.

anyway, i wish you all a fab rest of the day and of course, if you have any questions, let me know!

[hbosscreations]

Gonna be vulnerable on main for a hot second because my special interest is breaking me.

Background: I used to write crazy amounts of fanfiction. I still read an unhealthy amount of fanfiction. I edited so much smut (sadly very poorly) on adultfanfiction.net when I was a teenager. My favorite baby was a Red vs Blue fanfic that as of today hasn't been updated since 2019 and has 314,000 words not including one shots on the side.

I basically stopped writing in 2018. The demons were winning. It was a bad time for me.

August 2023, I rediscovered Hellblazer's existence thanks to tumblr.

I had a vague sort of knowledge about it, the kind of thing one absorbs when you're a kid and your stepfather is really into comics, but you're only allowed to look at the ones he doesn't really care about, so you end up reading about random characters you've never heard of and chunks of event comics that he freaking hates, but keeps buying anyway and also you had to watch the movie in secret because it's an abomination and anyone who likes it deserves to be (all manner of vile harm).

What can I say, the story of a mentally ill person so damaged that they lash out at the world around them and chase people off while also desperately wanting to be liked and not be alone? Of a person who's become good at tricking people because 'normal' interactions are fake and they can't have friends without bribes or manipulation because they feel so unlovable? A person who constantly loses friends, family, and loved ones because they're fucked up and when they fuck up, it directly hurts the people around them?

Let's just say, I vibe hard with the material in question for personal reasons.

I'm 1/4 through my second read of the original vertigo line because I know I didn't absorb everything the first time around. I expect that when I've done this, I'll want round three. I've got the spinoffs, I've got the reboots, I've got several movies, and one of the novels. I haven't had this much energy to read in years. I'm obsessed. It's opening the doors up for other projects I've put on the back burner thanks to my crippling depression.

I have feelings about the 2019 run, Marks of Woe and The Best Version of You. Complicated feelings. Feelings that make my fingers itch in the best way.

October 2023, I started writing again. Really writing. I can't call anything I write good, because it's the reader who decides if something is good or not, and I'm not done being the writer yet.

But I'm finally making the clicky clacky noises on my keyboard again and it feels like coming home.

I'm doing research, I'm throwing scenes together, I'm expanding on characterization for characters that barely exist. Thriving. Vibing. As of today I'm at 111,972 words written, and 18,000 of that was done in the past four days.

I'm so sad.

No one should care this much about anything. It's isolating and frustrating that there is no one in the world who cares as much as I do. And they shouldn't. It's not fair to expect people to care about the things I care about just because I want them to.

I have several people in my life who very patiently sit and let me talk at them about my comics and my writing progress and my feelings about where things are going and the things I've learned. They are so kind to tolerate me, because I know that I'm a lot and not a one of them cares at all about any of it, the way I don't really care about cars or glazing pottery or boho fashion or gel nail techniques.

I sit and listen and try to take in the information because it makes them happy, but it's not fun in the slightest, so I get it from the other angle.

Conventional advice says you should write for yourself, but if I believed that, I would never bother typing anything. I've spent my whole life with my stupidly vivid imagination, a rich inner world was and is necessary for my survival. I'm that person who can use all five sense when imagining a boat on the water, so making up a story for myself is a thing I barely need to think about.

My longest lasting hobby is 'fixing' movies in my head. My grandfather told me once I started 'making stories better' before I was reading (grain of salt with that one).

The act of physical creation has never been something I do for me. I wrote D&D campaigns and settings and painted minis and built model battlegrounds for my friends. I handmade gifts because that was what my family said they valued. I wrote fanfiction because there were people who shared my interest and would talk to me about the topic.

I'm so far into this, and for what? For me? Fuck that, I could have been done with this months ago if this was for me.

But if it's not for me, who is it for? I don't know anyone else who cares this much about a very specific storyline from a niche comic series. No one I know in person is ever going to read it, not a word, and I wouldn't expect them to. Frankly, I think if one of my friends did say they read it and was ambivalent about the actual text as they are about me trying to talk about themes, I might just crawl under my bed and never come back out.

But if it's not for me and it's not for anyone else, why am I doing this? There's not an answer here.

I feel like the demons might be winning again and I just haven't realized.

[real-total-drama-takes]

Y'all want to control over the fandom.... all I meant is smut will happen, I don't like it you guys are like I would never.

It's like dude... good for you but you know that just because you don't mean you are inherently good person or morally better person for not.

I don't like many things, but I rather people writing it out on fanfiction like story they wished to tell.

Plus you want more fluff and not smut then create yourself and ask other writers if they can for you?

You don't want died fandom but bitch about everything.

For an example is gay 16-year-old too scared to do anything sexual writes smut scene one of rajbow ship are they suppose to die now?

Are we supposed to tell them to go kill yourself and get the fuck out this fandom because you aren't allowed here ever again!

No..... right? Even if I am like I don't want rajbow ship to have smut and just be teens with cute fluff, I can't control others or be like oh but I would never, that's just fucking wrong of them, and whatever else you chant to yourself.

You don't want anything to do with anyone you don't like or control it seems in said fandom.... like wtf?

I don't even want write smut anymore now I just want to kill them all now in my writings because I guess that's more humane and not adult for you? (I don't want to kill the character for replace of smut or being seen as adult on the internet culture.)

I bet you don't want people to anything real life in the fanfiction like moments of Leshawna calling out people for racism or people using Gwen as metaphor as transition to tranfem because that's too much, weird and I would never.

Like I thought the point of fanfiction was to take canon then make your own version of better....

I can't believe I am definitely try to defend smut writers so fucking hard.

Like dudes, Jesus Christ... I am a Goddamn (Faith follower of Jesus)

Write will love, try writing without harm or anti blackness, write as safe as possible when you can, tag better our stories, place not for children please, and if it's story one's own abuse say that and put don't follow abusers footsteps.

You who complain about everything don't do much, huh?

Like legit what do you do?

Do you love yourself to have boundaries or strength enough to ask for help to see stories without smut to without smut to justify all this backlash anyone and everyone you just don't like.

Do you even like anything in total drama?

Simple as I am fan of your writing style or so-so can you please make something one shot without smut if can't I understand.

If not, I advise you start your own journey in writing, making fanfic, and creating space without anything sexual in general not even kissing or touching each other.

Let's find middle ground because all I understand is that some of you seem bitter sound like the church people that think smut will make you sex criminal then rob you at gunpoint or politics of, she/he/them well back of my day there was only male and female as well as the draft! I love it back my day... not this shit.

Then the other said is like I CAN DO WHAT I WANT NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY NOW!!! EVEN IF SOME OF US DO HAVE A PROBLEM OVERSEXUALITION OF LESHAWNA, COURTNEY, ALEJANDRO, AND PUT RACE PLAY OR NONE CONSENT THINGS BUT SAY THEY ARE IN LOVE IN MY FANFIC! SOME OF US A SMALL GROUP DO TEND ALWAYS SHIP MINORS WITH ADULTS LIKE TDI LINDSAY WITH CHRIS AND CHEF HATCHET BUT DON'T TAKE SMUT AWAY OR CALL US OUT PLEASE....

Like dude... call out the some or the ones need it! But like you understand? Right? I am trying to understand.

When you say I could never do so-so and act like all smut writers robbed your baby and punch your wife all the smut writers or romance writers are going crawl out no were be like FUCK YOU AND YOUR DUMB BABY WITH YOUR SHITTY OPINIONS MAN!

Instead let's make ground rules!

We create a space more teen/children friendly no smut and no adults allow whoever is teenager make it in the fandom then just try have fun then just ask sometimes to ask nicely to the elders of the fandom create media without sexual things with fluff and whatever you deem cool at the time!

2 whole weeks no smut like uhh middle of February or November for all the fandoms take part of as a community! Fluffy, friendship, and makeshift family's media only! No romance but other types of love and support.

If you don't like a thing cool but do we need to voice if it's hateful, death threats, or inherently fucked up? Maybe we shouldn't say you dumb bitch you should die, we can unfollow and write out feelings in a private book in our own homes instead taking out the person ?

If you step someone's toes and didn't know then that person yells at you for a straight hour without telling you why then that person is in the wrong because they could tell you about what happen instead taking out on you and blaming, you for everything in their life.... this is an example we should just if another writer/creator you feel stepped on your toes you grow awful feelings for then make fun of or gossip about them with friends they are unaware the harm then speak up!

Safer communication is safer place for all.

Sometimes we gonna cuss and some not going do what you like.

But be mindful of self, you are important to you, and not all people are going hurt in fandom or mean to assault you with smut I swear!

Maybe we should create more fluff pieces and understand each other better!

But instead of that we are talking over each other and fighting?

I am like dudes it's getting weird, and I am confused all the time especially on this topic... when is the wedding? Like March or next August because wither you hate each other or want each other so bad...

You either love them or hate them but sounds like tension of couple of older generation... there's children aka teens around watching you play tennis with fandom's context of this inherently makes you BAD FOR EVER WRITING SMUT OR EVEN HAVE THOUGHT; IDEAS I DON'T AGREE WITH IN GENERAL then the other side is like SMUT A FORM EXPRESSION AND NOT ONLY PORN THEREFORE ANOTHER FORM OF LOVE THAT CAN'T BE STOPPED!

I am like watching like dog just wanting the tennis ball so bad because I don't understand the rules of tennis, but I want the ball so bad and maybe if I get, we all can be friends now. Or at least no more of the topic at hand!

I am bored now this was boring I feel like this was a great debate haha actually a great argument!

But is boring now.

Let's argue on why we let Izzy be a stalker not Sierra next!

Or why they changed Scott's eyes into blue!

[mr-snailman]

Fanfic Writer Questions

yo thanks for the tag @fruitysalamander1398

tbh I feel a little weird answering these cause I am really NOT much of a writer lmao... but I'll give it my best shot

How many works do you have on AO3?

4

(and less if you're only counting the finished ones ;-;)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

37,236

3. What fandoms do you write for?

generally speaking if I'm gonna write fic for something I just take one google doc and exorcise all my thoughts and feelings in there... so far I've published fic for the Philip Marlowe novels, Footloose, Cabin in the Woods, and the Outsiders. I've got unfinished scraps lying around for Watching the Detectives, the Monument Mythos, Class... and probably a few others.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

uh. well.

Fortunate Sons

2. an honest-to-god star in the age of airplanes

3. Heaven Helps the Man

4. Love is the Thing With Fins

5. Do you respond to comments?

YES. If you leave me a comment I will a) get back to you b) reread it every now and then and c) treasure your kind words forever.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

haha... well.. my track record would indicate that I'm pretty bad at writing endings, period -_- but it's probably The Derivatives of Affection, an unfinished work for Class (1983), a shitty sex comedy in which Rob Lowe runs around in bright-red lace. It's a bunch of sad reflections on falling for your best friend while encouraging him to get laid elsewhere, only for a terrible coincidence to create a rift between you that you'll never be able to close.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Fortunate Sons, hands down.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Never. The whole idea seems really strange to me... like I'm sure it does happen but I can't imagine why someone would bother to leave a hate comment instead of just... clicking the back button?

9. Do you write smut, and if so, what kind?

Not successfully LMAO. I've made a few... attempts... but circumstances always seem to get in the way.

10. Do you write crossovers, and what's the craziest one you've ever written?

Not in a long time. I was... 10 or so? and my best friend and I were coming up with a comic book series that borrowed characters from the edges of a whole bunch of completely unrelated books and movies. Lil bro if you're out there I look back on that fondly + wish you well.

Kind of tempted to do something with The Martian X Good Will Hunting... but that'll probably end up as art if it hits the page at all. Oh, and the unnamed nurse in Fortunate Sons is absolutely supposed to be Margaret Houlihan, but that's never explicitly stated XD

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

no, thank god.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! I have done some anonymous translation for other people's work though.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

...yes? I heavily edited aforementioned childhood best friend's Wings of Fire fanfic, which turned into him writing the action and me frantically trying to insert descriptions. good times.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

ah, that's hard. all-time? well... you know what, I'm gonna go with Philip Marlowe/Red Norgaard. first fic I ever published, and I've read everything else in the tag... all five of them XD. It's the tenderness, found in the most unexpected places, it's the jaded private detective finally letting himself fall into the arms of the kindest man he knows, it's a chance meeting turning into the luckiest accident you've ever had.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Heaven Helps the Man... I love you and I'm so sorry ;-; maybe someday! maybe someday I'll finally have the time to do you justice

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm good with imagery that feels alive. It's definitely my favorite part of writing. The trick is that I don't invent everything from whole-cloth. It's a boardwalk I've stood on, whispering sharp-edged tallgrass I remember from a childhood trip to the beach, a neon sign I glimpsed through the rain once, the IHOP where I had a panic attack XD ... the rest just sort of builds from there.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

finishing things... I call it the thirty-two page curse :(

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fics?

Never had occasion to do it but it'd be fun for sure! I do think it's fun when the author gives you a thread to follow, something to google in another tab, so you can come back and go ahhhh. It would really be interesting to do something with Spanish, cause I do speak it pretty well. I had an original story about a road trip down the Chilean coastline with spies and mathematicians that unfortunately fell victim to the curse, but maybe I'll dig it out again sometime and see how bad my grammar was XD

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Like, ever? Stan Lee's Zodiac Legacy trilogy. Handwritten in a pocket-size black sketchbook, sometimes in the dark after lights-out, so it's practically illegible in places. My mom read it and said "you should publish this" which is how I discovered ff.net... and the rest is history

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Hmmm... I am really, really proud of Fortunate Sons, don't get me wrong, but an honest-to-god star will always have a special place in my heart. Phil Marlowe as a character is really important to me, and it was so exciting to get to play with Chandler's style.

I... just tagged a bunch of you for something else and I'm kind of shy to do it again so soon. Consider this an open call! If any of you write, go ahead and tag me so I can see your answers <3

[fi3stazo]

so that villain au? 👀

(5/7/23 edit: this version isn’t up to date anymore!)

(Rereading this after I typed everything out, apologies that it’s so long 💀)

I’m just gonna try my best cause explaining things aren’t exactly my forte </3

(AU under the keep reading because this is really long </3)

I’ve been calling this AU like the uh. Dolor universe. Like I call the Panchito from that world Dolor!Panchito. Anyways also in both worlds, Panchito and José are already in an established relationship So first off, like yours, Panchito and José go on an adventure with the McDuck family and in the end José is swallowed up by magic from some sorcerer. Of course Panchito doesn’t react well to this and he’s uh. Sad. He quietly distances himself from the McDuck after that

Donald feels bad and then he gets the brilliant idea to show one of the gazillion artifacts that Scrooge has to Panchito, which is basically opens dimensional portals. It is also very fragile. Donald has Panchito come over to the manor to look at it, and basically says that they could maybe try finding a José that lost his Panchito and bring him over so that maybe they could be together or something(?)

As they’re flipping through dimensions(?) they look at numerous Josés. Then they spot one who acts, talks, looks, everything, exactly like their old José. This José is the one from our dimension. Panchito was fairly reluctant until now. He gets kind of excited and states that he’d like to bring that one over. Donald goes no no that one has a Panchito

(Dolor!)Panchito gets a bit upset and grabs the artifact from Donald and insists on at least meeting him. Donald grabs it back and says they’re not bringing that one over. They fight over the artifact until it slips from Donald’s hands and it shatters on the floor, rendering it useless. Something in Panchito snaps, and he leaves. Panchito basically cuts himself off from the McDuck family and Donald unintentionally planted a seed from this interaction.

This next part I’m not really sure what happens, either Panchito gets pointers from someone or he does it on his own, but he tries to open his own portal to our world. He has to do suspicious side jobs to achieve it and whatnot. Anyways back to what I consider canon (In comes Paperinik! Duck Avenger???? Whatever name of his that you prefer. I prefer Paperinik cause it vaguely sounds like “paper n’ ink” but anyways)

Paperinik, AKA Donald(if you didn’t know, Paperinik’s this superhero alter-ego of Donald’s in some comics. It slaps way harder than it should tbh, anyways) notices the activity and puts an end to it. And then Panchito tries a different way and Paperinik stops him again. And uhh this basically goes on for a few years. Also Panchito gets his own new place to stay, and avoids his family in Mexico(my hc one, at least). And uhh he gets an outfit change

Don’t know if I want this to happen either but maybe Panchito pieces it together that Donald is Paperinik down the line. Maybe Paperinik says something that was kind of personal and makes Panchito go how would you know that. Or mf follows Paperinik home one day or something, I don’t know but if he does find out then it’d make for some pretty cool dialogue. Idk I feel like I shouldn’t because I think it would make him too op or something

Back to canon, after a while Paperinik mentions something about his gadgets being made by Gyro. (I’m not sure if I wanna go with the og Gyro or the 2017 one but I think I’ll just use a mixture of both.) Panchito jumps to the conclusion that perhaps he can get this Gyro guy to make him a dimensional portal. So Panchito tracks him down, and basically. Holds him hostage and forces him to work on a dimensional portal. He crushes/destroys Lil’ Bulb on his way in and even shoots Gyro’s foot at some point because he tried getting help 💀

But uhh eventually the portal device is finished and Panchito leaves Gyro and runs off with the device to use it on his own. He observes our world for a little bit before he actually crosses over.

There, while our José was asleep, Dolor!Panchito just. Takes him to his place in his dimension. Yeah anyways Dolor!Panchito dons his old clothing again to look more like our Panchito, and gives José some dumb excuse as to why he woke up in a new place. Though hesitant, José trusts him because Panchito hasn’t ever intentionally betrayed his trust before. Dolor!Panchito essentially plays along with our world’s consistencies in hopes that José won’t realize he’s in a different dimension. He doesn’t need to cover up his personality given that since José’s here now, he feels more happier and some of his old spirit comes back with it if that makes sense Eventually José pieces clues together from Dolor!Panchito’s abode that, oh god, he’s not in his own world. (The final nails in the coffin was Dolor!Panchito failing to get rid of some written plans and not hiding the dimensional device well enough. Probably. Other telltale sign I think: Dolor!Panchito gets angry at the mention of Donald.) José reasonably gets upset and demands Dolor!Panchito to bring him back to his world. Though agitated, Dolor!Panchito obliges. Hesitantly. And Dolor!Panchito just goes back into his normal attire seeing that he can’t change José’s mind anymore.

They both travel to our dimension, and José reunites happily with Panchito and Donald. Both have been freaking out because he’s been gone for a few days, at least. Dolor!Panchito gets angry watching, especially at Panchito. Something about Panchito being the reason why José didn’t want to stay, that it was his fault. Dolor!Panchito starts a physical fight with Panchito. Panchito was upset that he kidnapped his partner anyways so he goes with the fight

The two actually get out of José and Donald’s sight at some point because it was a lot of running around and the fight just kept moving but anyways there comes a point where Panchito shoots Dolor!Panchito’s foot (ah, irony,) albeit accidentally. Dolor!Panchito gets a burst of anger from that and he manages to knock out Panchito. Then, he gets the idea to swap clothes with him. You probably get where this is going. Donald and José catch up and Dolor!Panchito pretends to be their Panchito and basically goes ohhhhh my god guys he shot my leg, we should put him back in his dimension before he wakes up

Dolor!Panchito pretends to fumble with the dimensional device he used and just so happens to press the right buttons to open a portal to his home dimension. The three toss Panchito though and keep the device on their side and close the portal. Eventually Panchito gathers his bearings and wakes up somewhere he’s unfamiliar with.

An (recovering) Dolor!Gyro and Dolor!Paperinik find him and assume he’s their Panchito. (Dolor!Lil’ Bulb is there and okay btw, Dolor!Gyro was able to fix him.) After a small tussle and some explaining from Panchito, the two believe him and agree to help return him to his dimension. Since the dimensional device didn’t come with Panchito, Dolor!Gyro has to make a new one and that prolly takes less time than the last considering he would already have the plans done and he’d just need to make it. The three make it to our dimension.

They get to Donald, José, and Dolor!Panchito. (Cue Donald and Dolor!Paperinik/Donald desperately trying to pretend to be different people lol) Donald and José don’t believe them when they say that the Panchito they’re with is the wrong one. (Panchito hasn’t changed out of Dolor!Panchito’s attire or anything so that probably made it worse.) Dolor!Panchito of course plays along. Dolor!Gyro tells them to ask Dolor!Panchito about an event only Panchito would know, within the same period of time Dolor!José has been presumed dead. José asks the question and Dolor!Panchito answers incorrectly, and Panchito corrects him. Yeah so cat’s out of the bag

Don’t know how it gets to this point but maybe José, Donald, or Panchito ask why this is happening and such. If Dolor!Panchito knows Dolor!Paperinik’s identity, then Dolor!Paperinik is the one who recounts what happened to Dolor!José. If he doesn’t, then perhaps Dolor!Panchito begrudgingly recounts it instead. Donald says he thinks they might be able to help with that.

See, José got swallowed by magic in both dimensions, but one he got out and the other he didn’t. In our world, the family defeats the sorcerer and basically forces him to try and bring back José, which he succeeds in. In theirs, the sorcerer got away.

(By the way, is the sorcerer based off of a pre-existing character perchance??? Or is he an Oc??)

Donald says that the family and the sorcerer are on decent-ish terms, given that they’re on a truce. That they can try and convince the sorcerer to cross dimensions with them to try and bring Dolor!José back.

So, yeah. That’s what they try to do and it works. Dolor!Panchito is reunited with Dolor!José, a happy ending I think-? I’m not sure what happens next but I want to solidify everything in the story to this point first before I continue to add on.

This story will probably change a bit, so this isn’t the final version, obviously. There’s things like the designs especially that I’m kind of on the fence about right now. I’m okay with Dolor!Panchito’s design but I might change a few things later. Also about that. I originally intended for this universe to be almost exactly like ours, which means everyone’s designs will likely be the same. Just kind of bothers me that Dolor!Panchito is the only one that changes. But I think I’ll stay with the majority of the designs being basically the same as the originals. The reason why Dolor!Panchito fixates on our world specifically so much is because it’s exactly the same as his(almost, except him) and I don’t want to stray from that logic

Anyways, all done! Thanks for asking!

[rapturously]

I'm a slasher fanfic enthusiast (especially Michael Myers fanfics), and it's really rare to find good slasher fic writers. I read some of your Michael Myers fics and I loved them.

If you don't mind me asking, can I get two headcanons on the OG Michael Myers and RZ's Michael Myers reaction to seeing their S/O accidentally get killed when they tried to protect Michael? You don't have to write it if you aren't comfortable with angst, I'll understand.....

┊ 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓 ⠀ཾ༵࿇ ˼ — 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬.

┊ 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆(𝐒) ⠀ཾ༵࿇ ˼ — 𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥 𝐦𝐲𝐞𝐫𝐬 ( 𝐫𝐳 ) 𝐱 𝐠𝐧!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, 𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥 𝐦𝐲𝐞𝐫𝐬 ( 𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐰 ) 𝐱 𝐠𝐧!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫.

┊ 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ⠀ཾ༵࿇ ˼ — 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡, 𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞.

┊ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 ⠀ཾ༵࿇ ˼ — 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭! 𝐈 𝐝𝐨 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞. 𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲! ❤️

*ೃ༄ ⠀𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐋 𝐌𝐘𝐄𝐑𝐒. (𝐏𝐄𝐄𝐏𝐀𝐖.)

Michael never wanted you to get hurt — he was always hellbent on protecting you, safeguarding you from the rest of the world. Your decision to try and call off the crowd from attacking you was sudden, a spur of the moment event that was set into motion. As the mob called you crazy, circled around you like a pack of slavering wolves, it was the first time he felt that sensation — true fear, true terror.

As you begged and pleaded for Michael’s life, he was struggling to stand, beaten and shot, bruised and broken, but he was moving for you, weakly crawling toward the knife. That was when it happened — the gunshot, your body swaying until you’d collapsed in a heap beside him.

The Shape of Haddonfield collected you into his arms after sluggishly getting onto his knees, palm pressed into your bloodied wound. Michael felt like a child again, confused and bewildered when he held that kitchen knife. You were crying, he realized, and that made it all the more horrifying to watch.

It was you who brought out the long-dormant sliver of himself that could’ve been good, but as you lay there in his arms, Michael watched it all disappear around him. Your hand was over his, countenance warped into one of agony, tears streaming down your cheeks.

A flood of red — that was all Michael saw. Whatever tethered him to any shred of humanity was gone, replaced by rage and agony. Michael would feel the slam of a baseball bat into his shoulder, but he was unstoppable, now.

After gently lowering you to the pavement, Michael brutally massacred everything in sight, until there was nothing left around him aside from piles of corpses. With a rejuvenated strength, he would pick you up, still barely clinging to consciousness as you whimper his name.

Michael would carry you to somewhere pretty, somewhere far away from the carnage he wrought. You were dead because of him — Michael would always blame himself until his last breath. He would hold you until you succumbed to your injuries, but his silence was tormented, it was melancholy.

He would attempt to soothe you in your last moments, carefully stroking your hair and holding you as close as he could. Michael would fester with rage, an unbridled fury and a desire to kill, but you outweighed that.

Michael would let you see his face before you perish, revealing the misty tears swimming within his steely gaze. You can see the humanity then, the devotion and adoration that he has for you. It hurts the both of you, but it hurts you even more to know just how much death he’ll bring after you pass.

After you’re gone, Michael’s only thrill is the hunt, and even then, it isn’t as satisfying — it’s dull. He won’t be coming back to you, there’s nothing left. He might go dormant for a long while, stalking the area around your grave like a lingering spirit. He still kills to keep the feeling alive, but it all feels like a slog.

*ೃ༄ ⠀𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐋 𝐌𝐘𝐄𝐑𝐒. (𝐑𝐎𝐁 𝐙𝐎𝐌𝐁𝐈𝐄.)

RZ!Michael is far more emotional, like a chaotic, turbulent storm. When Loomis attempts to shoot him, you take the blow instead in an effort to defend Michael. You’ve seen his humanity and emotions firsthand, and you don’t want to lose that.

When Michael realizes what’s happened, he’s despondent, inconsolable. He’s rageful and vengeful, but he knows that you wouldn’t want him to go down that path. He’s changed, but he feels himself slipping as you lay there in the backyard of the Myers home, bleeding and shaking.

You tell him everything — how much you love him, how much he means to you, that you’re his no matter what happens. You attempt to fight through the agonizing pain just to ensure that Michael knows that you’ll always love him. Even death won’t change that.

He convinces himself that you’re going to be alright, that you’ll make it through this. Michael struggles with letting go of those he’s lost in his life, and your inevitable demise reminds him of his mother’s passing. He cradles your body within his arms, holding his hand to your wound in hopes that it’ll heal.

Michael is very physically affectionate in your last moments. He’ll rip his mask off, press his forehead to yours, cup your face within his bloodied hand. He almost convinces himself into believing that if he wishes enough, you’ll come back, and you’ll be okay.

He cries, but it’s silent — there’s no noise, just tears that cascade down his face and underneath the mask. Michael would keep caressing your cheek, hoping and yearning for you to be okay. He’s in denial, and it doesn’t fully hit him until afterwards.

Like his counterpart, he’s filled with a desire to kill and maim everything in his path, but he can’t — he doesn’t. There’s a weight on his back that’s almost too much to carry, and it essentially puts a halt to his bloodlust. He’s absolutely shattered.

Michael buries you himself instead of leaving you right where you are. He would haul you off to somewhere you loved the most, or because of his desperation and desire to be close to you, he’ll bury you at the Myers house, underneath a pretty tree, surrounded by flowers and reminders of you.

He’s haunted by you long after your passing. It’s as if a piece of him is missing, the piece that longed to be good for you, be whatever you deserved. Michael’s mind begins to trick him into seeing you — he’ll pass by your house, see your reflection in the windows, only to realize that it isn’t real.

He sort of disappears, so disconnected because of losing you that it prompts him to stop altogether, wasting away somewhere with only the memories of you to keep him company. Haddonfield rests easy again, but Michael doesn’t. He’s tormented, he blames himself.

[glaivenoct]

( fanfic writer ask game ) ✏️ , 🎧 , 🔬 , ✍🏽 , 🌾 ?

Thank you so much for sending some in! ;u; (Fanfic Writer Asks Here)

✏️ The first fanfiction you ever wrote? (doesn’t have to be a posted fic)

Heh.. back in 2005, a show aired on Discovery Kids that became my favorite show in the history of ever. Wee 9 year old Brina did not understand or even know of the concept of Fandom or Fanfiction - but this show is what I consider my first Fandom ever.

Did any fellow millennials ever watch Flight 29 Down on Discovery Kids (2005-2007)? Man, I loved that show so fucking much. I wrote silly little fics for it in my spare spiral college ruled notebooks! AUs before I even know what an AU was lmao. My favorite was one I called "Agents in Action" where I pretended all the characters in the show were recruited as Secret Agents after being rescued lmao.

I also wrote fics for my favorite ship in the show. Again, I didn't really know what the word ship was, but I knew I liked two characters enough to write fics of them getting together and referring to them with a pairing name. I shipped Jackson/Taylor aka Jaylor! Jackson was the Tall-Quiet-Mysterious foster kid with a questionable past and a sense of being an outsider among his peers, and Taylor was the seemingly shallow rich Mean Girl, who turns out not to be as mean or shallow once you get to know her a little more and she learns some more empathy/self-awareness.

When I wrote these fics, I had no idea what fic even was. But man oh man was it such a happy place for me to write them at the time. I wish I still had them, but I don't know where they went. I used to draw pictures at the back of every page and everything. Good times, good times ;u;

🎧 A certain song you listened to while writing a fic?

MUSIC, YAASS. So! Rare is it for me to make a playlist for just a one-shot, but for my NyxNoct Masquerade Fic I really needed a decent chunk of songs that captured the right vibe to help me write it, if ya know what I mean!

Young and Beautiful is the star of that playlist. I not only imagined Nyx and Noct dancing to the song in the fic, but the playlist also features two different instrumental versions of it too! It was such a big help with that fic uwu.

🔬The fic you had to make the most research for?

Hmm.. there's honestly 3 contenders for this, and the Masquerade fic is definitely one of them - but that was research in the sense of looking up a lot of visuals for inspiration. Outfits/ballrooms/mask designs and things like that

The second has to be cagefighter AU because of the fight scenes. I looked up articles about boxing rings/MMA tournaments/different styles of martial arts and things like that. I think I put at some point in the fic that Nyx leans more towards a boxing style while Noct kinda knows a mix of things thanks to Cor. Come the next time I need to write a fight scene, I'll probably be looking up martial arts/self defense videos again. Which is usually fun for me!

The third would have to be my old and Very Incomplete NyxNoct Wings AU that only has one chapter and no proper plot to this day ;u; Researching wing anatomy and all that. Visual references for different wing designs too.

✍🏽 How much do you plan your fics beforehand?

If we're talking about outlines, never have I ever in my fic life done a proper outline ^^; I'm very "I have all the backstory in my head, the rest of the details of the actual plot will unfold as I go" :'D

🌾 A fic you really want to write but you haven’t (yet)?

So Many ;u; but right now, the main things on my radar after I finish the current WIP are: -An assassination attempt prompt that's been sitting in my inbox for too long -A new possibly probably definitely spicy NyxNoct fic ideally for Valentine's Day. Buuut there's a good chance I chicken out of that one and try writing the next chapter of Cagefighter AU instead.

If I add anything else, I'll be getting too ahead of myself and overwhelmed lol. To anyone who's sent me prompts in the last several months: bear with me please I swear. I either get them done sorta quick or... Not Quick.

Thank you again for indulging me with these! ;u; <3

[luciferloveschloe]

goodbye, lucifer (but not really!)

I cannot BELIEVE that I just watched the last episode of my favourite show.

I usually cram everything I have to in tags under gifsets I reblog, but for this final season I'll go through the pain of actually writing shit down. I'll try to keep it short, and I'll try not to ramble. (Edit: Did not accomplish that.)

what i loved

SCREAMS

God, soooooooo much!!

Deckerstar baby

Okay, so when Rory showed up in the trailer I was like "Ugh, another annoying angel? Meh." FORGIVE ME, my sweet murder child! Of all the things I thought they might do, a Deckerstar baby was DEAD LAST on my list. And a daughter no less, I just... When she says she's Lucifer's daughter, I was like *SCREAMS*, but when we learn she's Lucifer AND Chloe's daughter, I completely lost it. My boyfriend's on a trip with his friends this week and I'm sooo grateful for that, I made the weirdest, loudest, ugliest noises while watching this season, I ran around our apartment like a maniac, I squealed and laughed and cried and just generally lost my mind. But when she says that?? Oh my God. Also the way Lucifer reacted when Chloe shows him the pregnancy test? Straight outta fanfic.

Lucifer being a father

Oh my God?? I've always said he'd be the BEST father, and actually seeing it on screen... I love the parallel of him being ridiculously over the top with Rory at first, just like God and Lucifer in S5. The way he looks at her when he sees her playing the guitar? Their duet?? Instantly one of my favourite scenes. Them driving in the Corvette, their last day together, how he keeps her from killing Le Mec? Just murder me.

Established Deckerstar

All the hugs and kisses?? The declarations of love, the besotted looks, the absolute power couple we got? Their look from Maze and Eve's wedding, OH MY GOD???? Just, these two are so pretty and we got SO MUCH. Also, their scenes with Rory?? I just love them so much...

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Ella's storyline

I wanted a reveal for her so badly, and the way it turned out was brilliant! I loved her figuring it out for herself and calling everyone out lmao. I especially loved poor Carol returning to that room full of shocked people. They had some GREAT punchlines and gags this season, absolutely hilarious! I also love Lucifer's parting gift for her and that she finally found a good one with Carol.

Hugs, so many hugs!

That's it, that's the paragraph.

The Police storyline

As a white person who has literally never once had a problem with the police, I know this is not my place to say, but I think they did a good job? Not giving into the "a few bad apples" excuse but acknowledging that the whole system needs to change? I also really enjoyed the scenes with Amenadiel and Officer Harris, showing what policework could and should look like.

Maze and Eve's happily ever after

I'm so glad auntie Maze and auntie Eve got their happy ending! And that wedding was a bomb. Also, "You're my hell!", lmao.

Dan's ascend to heaven

First of, great to know his only torture was Belios' lack of table tennis skills. Secondly, how very fitting for the show that they didn't hand Dan his happy ending easily, that he fought and won it for himself. Him as a ghost and him as Le Mec was equally funny, and his talk with Trixie was just perfect, literally tears you guys.

Amenadiel becoming God

I mean, dude's perfect for the job! From the loyal, distant, obeying servant to a God who wants to work as a team with his siblings, who wants the Celestials to experience the human world, who hates injustice and loves fiercely? In this universe, I couldn't imagine anyone better suited to be God.

Nobody misses the case of the week

At least I don't! God, I wish they'd tried this out sooner.

The bittersweet ending

Let's preface this by saying I HATE bittersweet endings. Give me a happily ever after or else. And yet, and yet!! I think the ending they settled on is perfect. Would I have loved it if Lucifer had a life on earth with Chloe, Trixie and Rory? God, yes. Do I get emotional over him being alone in hell, again? Goddd, yes. But still. I so love that he found his calling in the end, that they reunited, and that he actually makes good on his promise from S5 to change the system. Also, I don't care if this is canon or fanon for now, but they totally spend time in heaven with Rory and visit earth whenever they like. And this would have been my ideal ending - them being free to go where they like, and I don't see why they shoudn't. It's definitely more satisfying than just traipsing off to heaven indefinitely, so I really, really loved that.

what i didn't (do feel free to skip this!)

Lucifer missing out on Chloe's life on earth and being alone in hell again. Chloe being left again.

Time travel shenanigans. I just finished Dark and that was enough of a mindfuck. Do not want to think about loops for this show, thank you very much.

Chloe felt a little too housewifey in the first episodes, but it thankfully didn't stay that way for long.

Lucifer and Chloe talking about keeping secrets for a whole episode, and then NOBODY TALKING ABOUT URIEL AND CANDY. I mean, ahhhhhhh! If you don't want to talk about it, then don't, but don't remind people of it constantly and then NOT discuss it. It drives me mad, honestly, how many times they referenced these storylines only to completely ignore them when there were opportunities to resolve them. Ahhh. That's what fic is for, I guess.

Adam. Like, why? Bye, dude.

what i'll keep with me

When someone I'd just met at my boyfriend's cousin's wedding in 2019 recommended this "funny, little show" to me that intrigued them because they were interested in finding their faith, I really didn't think I'd write all this three years later.

Lucifer is my third fandom, and it won't be my last, but it sure as hell - ha - will stay with me. I resonate so deeply with Lucifer as a character because he fights with the idea of God, fights with this concept of a benevolent father that everyone seems to believe in but never fit his experience. I come from a Christian family and studied theology, but somewhere along the lines I had to come to terms with the fact that the faith I had as a child and teenager didn't fit me anymore. I want to believe again, and maybe someday I will, but right now I don't know that. So Lucifer's journey with that meant a lot to me. I'd like to find what Ella did, I guess.

Although I never really thought Lucifer needed redemption, I loved the whole "anybody can be redeemed" message as well. And hell reform! Hell is such a weird, awful construct - speaking as the theology expert - bringing a bit of purgatory in in this universe is really fucking cool.

Also, I binged Lucifer when I was alone in hospital late at night. That experience alone I'll never forget.

So, I guess - thank you!! Thank you to the cast and crew, to the fans who campaigned for season four, to Ildy and Joe, to the writers and the directors and the people who brought lunch: Thank you so much for this incredible show. I'm not ready to say goodbye, not by a long shot, and I hope this fandom feels the same.

Yabba dabba do me, I love my stupid little show!!!