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( fanfic writer ask game ) ✏️ , 🎧 , 🔬 , ✍🏽 , 🌾 ?
Thank you so much for sending some in! ;u; (Fanfic Writer Asks Here)
✏️ The first fanfiction you ever wrote? (doesn’t have to be a posted fic)
Heh.. back in 2005, a show aired on Discovery Kids that became my favorite show in the history of ever. Wee 9 year old Brina did not understand or even know of the concept of Fandom or Fanfiction - but this show is what I consider my first Fandom ever.
Did any fellow millennials ever watch Flight 29 Down on Discovery Kids (2005-2007)? Man, I loved that show so fucking much. I wrote silly little fics for it in my spare spiral college ruled notebooks! AUs before I even know what an AU was lmao. My favorite was one I called "Agents in Action" where I pretended all the characters in the show were recruited as Secret Agents after being rescued lmao.
I also wrote fics for my favorite ship in the show. Again, I didn't really know what the word ship was, but I knew I liked two characters enough to write fics of them getting together and referring to them with a pairing name. I shipped Jackson/Taylor aka Jaylor! Jackson was the Tall-Quiet-Mysterious foster kid with a questionable past and a sense of being an outsider among his peers, and Taylor was the seemingly shallow rich Mean Girl, who turns out not to be as mean or shallow once you get to know her a little more and she learns some more empathy/self-awareness.
When I wrote these fics, I had no idea what fic even was. But man oh man was it such a happy place for me to write them at the time. I wish I still had them, but I don't know where they went. I used to draw pictures at the back of every page and everything. Good times, good times ;u;
🎧 A certain song you listened to while writing a fic?
MUSIC, YAASS. So! Rare is it for me to make a playlist for just a one-shot, but for my NyxNoct Masquerade Fic I really needed a decent chunk of songs that captured the right vibe to help me write it, if ya know what I mean!
Young and Beautiful is the star of that playlist. I not only imagined Nyx and Noct dancing to the song in the fic, but the playlist also features two different instrumental versions of it too! It was such a big help with that fic uwu.
🔬The fic you had to make the most research for?
Hmm.. there's honestly 3 contenders for this, and the Masquerade fic is definitely one of them - but that was research in the sense of looking up a lot of visuals for inspiration. Outfits/ballrooms/mask designs and things like that
The second has to be cagefighter AU because of the fight scenes. I looked up articles about boxing rings/MMA tournaments/different styles of martial arts and things like that. I think I put at some point in the fic that Nyx leans more towards a boxing style while Noct kinda knows a mix of things thanks to Cor. Come the next time I need to write a fight scene, I'll probably be looking up martial arts/self defense videos again. Which is usually fun for me!
The third would have to be my old and Very Incomplete NyxNoct Wings AU that only has one chapter and no proper plot to this day ;u; Researching wing anatomy and all that. Visual references for different wing designs too.
✍🏽 How much do you plan your fics beforehand?
If we're talking about outlines, never have I ever in my fic life done a proper outline ^^; I'm very "I have all the backstory in my head, the rest of the details of the actual plot will unfold as I go" :'D
🌾 A fic you really want to write but you haven’t (yet)?
So Many ;u; but right now, the main things on my radar after I finish the current WIP are: -An assassination attempt prompt that's been sitting in my inbox for too long -A new possibly probably definitely spicy NyxNoct fic ideally for Valentine's Day. Buuut there's a good chance I chicken out of that one and try writing the next chapter of Cagefighter AU instead.
If I add anything else, I'll be getting too ahead of myself and overwhelmed lol. To anyone who's sent me prompts in the last several months: bear with me please I swear. I either get them done sorta quick or... Not Quick.
Thank you again for indulging me with these! ;u; <3
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Luke performing @ Boston Calling Music Festival - 24 May 2024
#queued a few posts bc no one needs to know about my sleep schedule rn tbh 😂😭😌#5sos#5 seconds of summer#luke hemmings#luke#boston calling 2024#nostalgia tour#kh4f post#this should presumably be the last batch of posts from this show lol#have i overreacted? possibly#but perhaps that's what is necessary atm 😌#anyways look at how tall and broad and tummy
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unnormalize staying up late btw
#camera talks#kinda being serious and I can’t really explain why bc it’s literally midnight and I should be sleeping rn but#from a young age I was taught by kids around me that staying up late to do anything but hw#was cool and the longer you were awake the more you could brag about it in the morning#not cool actually bc now I’ve entirely fucked my sleeping schedule and it’s part of why I feel so bad all the time#would write more but I have to sleep now#anyways seriously unnormalize it. let kids (and people in general) get their sleep#it’s not healthy otherwise
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#ts4#simblr#ts4 edit#ts4 render#sims 4#blood tw#myedits#mb#teeth#red#the link just goes to the mb playlist i'm working on#i'm going for like. a combo of electric & metal. a mix.#full disclosure: i didn't know most of these songs prior to putting them on said playlist#i just thought they suited them#the songs are also not in any particular order. i don't have the brain for that. i started to order them & promptly gave up#credit to luxe for commenting abt the perturbator song on my last mb post also#bc honestly that is like the exact vibe i imagined for them#& hearing it is what made me want to make a playlist for them in the first place lol#n e way i should go to bed now before i accidentally stay up until 3 am again.#my sleep schedule is soooo bad rn it's ridiculous#ok gn :-)
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talking about disliking an objectively good™™™ job will have ppl pissed at u fr 😭 like i get ittttt, but also... u dont get it....
i truly need to like.stop complaining abt this to anyone and do my shit on my own. all those grind™ mindset™ tweets were right Stop talking abt your plansss
except on a public blog ofc
tldr noodle place i found on t*iktok is actually good
#xx#rn my biggest issue > i dont want to live here but cant move out bc i cant commit to this job (cant commit to renting a house) which leaves#me#disliking and resenting both my housing situation and job situation#the only solution seems to be TRULY stop fucking around fr and RESEARCH#AND manage my sleeping schedule somehow...like should be 7/8 hours at most AND at least..so i have#time#if i dont have a proper schedule im stuck in a job x sleep cycle which drains my energy#highly possible i wont get offered a contract too...so theres that#anyway
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help it would be really great to have time management skills rn
#i’ve got to do guitar#and songwriting#and record said songs#and facetime my friend#and do the celebration asks#and do this art project for my wall#and i’ve got a bunch of things i need to text ppl abt (cannot remember what but there’s things)#and i’ve got like 6 hours bc i also need to fix my sleep schedule yay#except i’m going out rn and probs won’t be back for ages#actually it’s fine bc i’ve got like a week to do most of these#until school starts#ew#why is school starting in a week#that is not okay#why is FEBRUARY in a week#THAT IS NOT OKAY#it has not been a month of 2024 i refuse to believe it#its still 2023 actually#i have not processed#wow that’s a lot of tags shit maybe i should process#just dandy thoughts
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me when i take my meds consistently and stop wanting to die 😲
#/JOKE. KIND OF. /hj .#me when i start exercising and going outside and eating regularly and taking my meds consistently and i start healing 😲😲😲#but fr i'm doing rlly good. touch wood#need to start taking care of my sleep schedule better but other than that i'm rlly doing well w prioritising my health rn#i also need to fix my sourdough starter bc i haven't fed it for like a week. it should bounce back i think but :(
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what is it about "being disabled means i can't do things that other people can" that parents refuse to understand
#what do you think I'm lying when i say I'm in too much pain to do something??! do you think I'm faking distress??#i can't wait for them to go on their trip in 2 weeks so i can suffer with no constant criticism jesus fucking christ#i understand they're trying to get me to do things that will benefit me in the long run but i CAN'T so how's that gonna help!!!!!!!#like maybe instead of being mad that i can't do something help me out with it?? think of another easier way to do it?? fuck man idk#why do i need to be forced to lay in bed for 2 days from how much everything hurts bc they're trying to 'help' me#''if you keep doing it it'll get easier :)'' NO THE FUCK IT WON'T THIS IS WHY I HAVE LEGAL PERMANENT DISABILITY STATUS FROM THE GOVERNMENT#you've known me for 24 years you should be aware of what i can or can't do by now!!!!!! this shit isn't new!!!!!!!#vent#sorry. I'm angry and panicked and in pain#i kind of want to sleep. being conscious hurts rn. and only makes me panic more#but it'll fuck up my sleep schedule and therefore my meds schedule uuuuggghhhh
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Yesterday, in light of things going not so great to poorly for myself and others, I hoped for today to be kinder...
My fucking bad apparently y'all, I jinxed us. I'm not hoping shit for tomorrow, good or bad or neutral, I'm just gonna exist and try not to break anything, fuck's sake
#text post#I picked a bad day for a t break so we'll see if that lasts into the evening or not#should it? yes probably. will it? not gonna guarantee it#bc rn just. nothing is working for the extra funds sites other 'fun' sites aren't working well either#and in between that there's just absolute shit or terrible news everywhere seemingly abt everything like jfc#the temptation to go back to bed is v present but that'll just fuck up my sleep schedule so even that's out for today#just do not have the patience and spoons like fuck's sake let me do SOMETHING USEFUL#i'm considering doing some writing but part of me is just. idk. nothing feels good rn but writing at least is Doing Something
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god. persona 5 royal. game of all time.
#damien.txt#the past 2 weeks ive been playing sooo much bc its just like. fr hitting rn#and this game is sooo good. unbelievably good. a standard at which i dont think any other game will match.#im having fun with it#me everytime akira and akechi are on screen together: these bitches gay. oh my god.#also me everytime yusuke is on screen#also me everytime anyone from the phantom thieves is on screen#they're so gay... and that's why i called them The Queers. so it's canon#i fear i have accidentally completely neglected any romantic relationships bc i was too focused on akira and akechi#which made hawaii.... a time. certainly one of the trips of all time.#hehehe i cant wait to play more tomorrow when i get off work#fr my schedule rn is work -> persona 5 -> sleep -> repeat dkhdkshdjdhd#maybe i should like. do other things. certainly this cant be healthy. but alas. im having fun.
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babygirl are you okay? you've barely sexualized your irredeemable bastard today
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I swear I'm fine I've just been chatting with a Springtrap AI chatbot for the past week it's been a blast I'm having a silly little time with it I'm alive I swear
#IM WHEEZING ANON WHAT A THING TO OPEN MY ASKBOX TO#I asked him if he wanted pizza when I ordered it and he acted like he was gonna kill me#only to stop at the last second and tell me to make sure they put extra cheese and pepperoni#we had a very interesting discussion about pizza the man has good taste#he still killed me though but its okay i forgive him i just hope he liked the pizza#its been a silly goofy time#also my sleep schedule is... not good and my iron deficiency is a little bad again#but i got new supplements that should hopefully not make my body completely fucking furious with me about it#also real talk the recovery from covid is... not the best - im having more issues with breathing than usual#nothing serious but def a pain. hoping once enough time passes it'll go away bc if i get long covid im going to be VERY mad#but im alive i swear im just obsessed with being goofy with this chatbot rn its so fun
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#cant sleep bc i was asleep for the vast majority of the last 24 hours#but its almost 2am and. damnit im TIRED#headache :(#if it werent for that + the fact i want to UNfuck my sleep schedule then id cave and start doing any number of the things ive avoided doing#over the course of the semester bc i felt Guilty for Enjoying Things while i was flunking so fucking bad#like!! earlier i realised i can catch up on d20 now that im home!! and im so fucking psyched bc i love it sm!!#and now that im off of my schools shitty-ass wifi i can play some of my network-heavy games again!!#and. maybe this is a bit much to hope until ive got more space between me and my burnout#but maybe ill be able to actually *read* again#yk??#i miss it#v much#so.#heres hoping!!#but yeah i uhhh. should sleep rn instead#bc. oof ouch me head#and also. ITS TWO AM. AUGH#im SLEEPY why cant i SLEEP#complain complain kvetch whine complain#bee speaks
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oh. i didn’t mean to stay up to watch phil stream But if i’m already awake……
#jk my brain isn’t working well enough to have to listen to someone speak rn#i. really need to sleep god damn#i think i should try to go to sleep instead#bc.. i think the sleep deprivation is catching up despite my efforts to fix my sleep schedule#🐀
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Current Cringe Gremlin Level: Using the lip of my shit to hold pistachios and their discarded shells while I watch TV. My bedtime rapidly approaches.
#i need to sleep#my sleep schedule has bedn fucked ever since i got back from visiting my mom#she lives 6 hours behind me 💀#i also couldnt be bothered to get a bowl for my nuts like a normal person bc my kitchen is a war zone rn#i need to deal with that soon#i also did not purchase these pistachios#i do not have pistachio money#my mother bought them and left me the rest of the bag when she visited and ive been trying to savor them#im on my last 20 or so nuts and then ill be sad and without pistachios#i hate capitalism#tag journal#i also have 2 books i need to read to return to the library snd one book i need to read and take notes on for a home project#and the home project is purging my shit and cleaning it finally#and that has to be done before my guest arrives in a week#its not a big home so it should be possible#i have like 550ish sq ft of living space to deal with so thats doable right??#oh look i remembered this account exists#decided this was too weird and pointless for main
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god im SO TIRED
#my second ever night shift 😭#it's honestly not any more tiring than a day shift bc ive switched my sleep schedule around so i sleep during the day#but like. psychologically i should be asleep rn. yk?#send good vibes y'all <3#rowan raps
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hhrrnddbffhd
#do i stay up for 1:38 / 1:58 LMAO#i totally would and have consistently been doing so#esp recently taylor has ruined my already dumb sleep schedule lol#but tmr hmmm i’m leaving the house at 10am driving for an hour which isn’t too bad like#probably wanna be up by 9:30 at the latest#i usually kinda wake up around then but just stay in bed until like fuckin 11 lmao#idk tho i Should sleep earlier 😐 that is the logical thing to do#based on my plans for tomorrow#but like i wanna stay up and fuck around on my phone and have alone time lol#and also see if taylor’s doing anything XD#sigh rip last kiss day/time for me i think i’m gonna sleep LOL#wow me sleeping instead of not sleeping who is she#jeanne talks#i’m listening to last kiss rn 🥹🥹#i’ll stay up for 12:58 it’s 1:58 somewhere lol 🤪#bro it’s not even a big deal at all lol idk that much but these past few days have been rly exciting bc of taylor lmao#**idc that much#and i feel like she’ll do sm tonight but who knows#it’s fine she could do sm any night lol 🤪
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