#IT'S SO WEIRD SEEING VANITAS LIKE THIS...
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damn i can't believe nomura said vanikai rights--
#ooc;#i learned how to screencapture cutscenes from the vanitas over sora mod today#it's a bit janky but....#IT'S SO WEIRD SEEING VANITAS LIKE THIS...
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hiii UHH genq your bio has “proship dni” but you drew venvan? im so sorry im not trying to start arguments im js a tad confused if ur a proshittee dni blog then draw venvan?
The only reason venvan could be considered proship is because some people interperate them as brothers. This is NOT what their relationship is in canon. The only "basis" for that in canon is Vanitas mockingly calling Ventus (AND Sora btw) 'brother' in kh3, something which is not only not meant to be taking literally (he is not saying 'brother' as in 'we are family' but as in 'we are intrinsically connected'. This is also why Sora is included) but also Ventus rejects that term wholeheartedly.
Their dynamic is, in canon, that of two parts of one person split off from each others and growing to become two seperate people (just like Sora and Roxas). Labelling their relationship as brothers is IMO pretty reductive of the complexity of their canon dynamic.
#also imo the whole 'brother' stuff in kh3 is just really weird for vanitas#he doesnt talk about ventus like that in bbs AT ALL and him just suddenly calling him thay came out of nowhere#even the 'venty-wenty' stuff sounds weird from him#idk i think vanitas is weird in kh3 in general so i find it easier to not take it literally#bc it doesnt make sense to me otherwise#anyway ventus & vanitas are not brothers and i think people shouldnt take vanitas calling him that so literally#if u personally interperate them as brothers thats fine! u do u! i can see how that can be appealing to people!#i dont personally though#asks#xander answers
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i spent so many years not watching this amv because I had bad taste but now i can appreciate how incredible it is
#look at it!!!!!!#the storytelling!!!!#the use of vanitas as sora!!!#see when I was younger I thought stuff like that was weird and also I didn't like rock music so you can see why I avoided this amv despite#seeing it so much in the youtube recommended#amv#amvs#kh#i talk#original
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Since we'll hopefully be getting out of the VnC hiatus soon, and this new arc seems to finally be turning the spotlight back to Noé and calling out some of his more troubling traits for the first time, I've been thinking a lot about him recently.
I've talked before on this blog about Noé's inability to recognize or process bad things when they happen to him alone. He bounces back from and idealizes almost any experience as soon as it's over, even when he absolutely shouldn't. It's one of my favorite traits of his, and it's been lampshaded a couple of times in-manga. Louis calls out how weird his attitude toward his kidnapping is during the mémoire 9 flashback, and the "be a little bothered" from Vanitas and co in mémoire 57 has the same effect.
We also recently got a whole extended sequence of Vanitas and Domi complaining about how Noé also never anticipates harm before it might come to him. He waltzes into dangerous situations like it's nothing, almost as if he thinks he's unkillable. Combined with the above, this is just more of his strange brand of optimistic denial. Everything is fine in Noéland! It can't possibly not be fine! He always trusts and thinks the best of people and situations by default, never wanting to expect they may do wrong, and so long as a given event doesn't involve harm to external innocents and/or Noé's loved ones that he can't rationalize away, he compartmentalizes and denies harm once it's done. Thus he carries on in blissful ignorance, his past suffering having no effect on the blithe trust with which he treats the world.
But in addition to all that, Noé is also very notably divorced from the consequences of his own actions. It's not that he's *incapable* of considering his own effect on people, and he certainly tries to be kind and decent, but much of the time, it just doesn't seem to occur to him that people will have reactions to the things he does. He does as he sees fit, and when his deeds impact the people around him, especially if they produce a reaction that could upset him, it bounces off his mind in the same way that potential traumas do.
On the more lighthearted end of the spectrum, this leads to things like Noé never noticing when people are attracted to him. It may also have something to do with his airheaded messiness—the way he's always thoughtlessly making a mess of the hotel room and incurring Vanitas's wrath in bonus materials. On the heavier end of the spectrum, this causes a lot of genuine problems for the people around him. He's largely oblivious to the depth of Dominique's mental health problems until she's pushed to her breaking point at the amusement park, despite the fact that he's inextricably entangled in the cause of them. He also completely loses sight of Vanitas's reactions to him when he gets caught up in his protective rage at the start of the vanoé fight, and it takes an outside reminder from Jeanne and a literal mirror to make him realize that his own actions are part of why Vanitas has devolved to such a state.
This lack of self-perception on Noé's part feeds back into the other problems I laid out at the top of this post, his obliviousness toward his interactions with the rest of the world helping to facilitate his denial. It's part of the happy little insulating bubble that he interacts with the world through. And as the other side of that coin, his automatic, unthinking denial of things that could hurt him is part of what enables him to ignore his own impacts on the people around him. You can't reckon with or worry about harming other people when you live in Noéland where everything must be fine. I think the fact that he wants to be a good person that doesn't harm others actually makes it harder for him to confront the truth of how he impacts the world, because him hurting others is a Bad Thing that would cause him mental harm.
We've seen Noé mess up, understand his mistake, and apologize for it before. He apologizes to Vanitas for making assumptions about him after the bal masqué, he apologizes to Vanitas again at the end of the amusement park fight, and he apologizes to Riche for speaking with ignorance about dhampirs. However, I think the bigger a mistake of his is, the more harm it causes other people (and the more understanding would hurt him as a result), the harder it is for Noé to comprehend his wrongs. He's clearly trying to make things right with Domi, and he's told her that he values her, but I don't know if it's yet occurred to him to conceive of their mess as a situation where he's done her active wrong. He also literally passes out on her mid-conversation, leaving Domi and Vanitas to carry him back to bed when he was supposed to be comforting her.
But I think the most fascinating example, the moment where all this comes together into Noé's most feeble and blatant act of denial yet, is the first time he sees Misha after clawing up his face. The anime actually changes this detail, which is its own can of worms to get into, but in the manga, when Noé sees Misha's injuries in the light of day after attacking him, he immediately fucking turns around.
At the end of his wits at the amusement park, Noé claws a child across the face in a fit of anger and protectiveness. I'm not interested in condemning Noé for this, especially given that the child in question was actively trying to stab Vanitas at the time, but I will say that his actions are quite extreme. Given Vanitas's response and the way Misha's injuries are portrayed, I think it's clear that the manga wants us to see how Noé hurts Mikhail as something troubling and extreme. He gives that kid a pretty horrible injury, and Misha will likely have scars on his face for the rest of his life.
And regardless of how justified he may or may not have been in hurting Misha in defense of Vanitas, it's clear that Noé himself is upset by the true extent of what he does to Mikhail's face. When he looks at him in the light of day, when he sees a numb-looking child with his face wrapped in still-bloody bandages, though we only get to see a small segment of his face in that moment, he looks sick. He knows that he's done something troubling, and I'm sure he feels all kinds of heavy and unpleasant emotions.
This is one genuinely bad thing he's done that Noé cannot deny. He can't rationalize this one away and make it all copacetic. He can't conveniently forget the emotional reality of suffering and harm, because that reality is standing ten yards away from him. And he can't just apologize for things either, because apologies cannot undo physical harm, and frankly, I'm not sure he'd be able to give an honest apology for his one. Sickness at the results of his actions doesn't mean he fully regrets hurting Misha, at least not at this moment when emotions are still raw.
But Noé, confronted with this undeniable source of guilt and pain, is still ultimately unable to look the pain he's caused in the eye. A problem piercing through the happy veil of Noéland and forcing him to acknowledge it doesn't mean he's capable of reckoning with that problem. Instead he just. turns away from it.
Noé, forced to acknowledge a harm he's done and unable to employ all the many layers of automatic insulation that usually protect him, physically turns around because he cannot bear to look at the person, the child, that he's hurt. He employs the very last possible form of avoidance available to him, even though it's useless in the ways that matter. Not looking at Misha doesn't mean he gets to un-know the fact that he maimed him, but he simply cannot bring himself to look.
Noé is extremely good at playing "I do not see it" with things that hurt him. He's good enough that I think he has genuinely no idea he's doing it a vast majority of the time. Whatever mental shield he has that's protecting him is automatic enough that the badness that could hurt him doesn't ever even seem to cross his conscious mind. But no matter how automatic and subconscious, this tendency of his is still, and the end of the day, nothing more than an unhealthy coping mechanism, and this moment helps to put that to our attention.
What's the difference, really, between him cheerfully acting like Jean-Jacques and Chloé's assaults never upset him and him turning around so he doesn't have to look at the wounds he gave Mikhail? Noé can't look at pain, can't acknowledge the things he finds upsetting (at least not things that cause him alone pain, as others' pain often triggers his savior complex and spurs action). This scene with Misha throws that into the light, forcing Noé to desperately cling to his avoidance in an obvious and physical way.
Even when there's no way to deny the harsh reality of having done something he finds horrific, Noé Archiviste cannot make himself look directly at a painful truth, be it others wronging him or his own wrongdoing. It takes an external hand to step in and force him to turn his head and acknowledge/reckon with a problem. And even then, who knows if intervention can always be successful.
The start of the dham arc so far has drawn a lot of attention to this pattern of behavior, with Vanitas having to sit Noé down and explain to him in detail why his words said in well-meaning ignorance make Dante so upset. This is Noé being forced to look at a harm he caused because he couldn't or wouldn't look at and comprehend the problem (his fellow vampires' racism) in the situation he was in. But upsetting Dante is ultimately a low stakes problem for Noé. He put his foot in his mouth and offended a peer; he didn't shred Vanitas's little brother. He's able to accept his wrongs and feel his discomfort without resorting to physically turning around and avoiding the issue.
I want to know what Noé will do if/when this arc forces him to confront a source of pain he can't handle in a context that's more high stakes than a social faux pas. I want to see what he'll do when something really forces him beyond his ability to believe that everything is fine. How badly would he have to be hurt to lose his ability to filter an event/events through rose colored glasses? How badly would he have to hurt someone else? Or is his instinctive shield good enough that he'll never get out of it on his own? And if so, who else might step in to make Noé own up to reality?
Teacher and the Archivistes are becoming plot-relevant now, and our attention is being drawn to Noé's issues. I think there might be something coming soon that even Noé can't turn away from and cheerfully pretend isn't hurting him. Teacher even ends his appearance at the amusement park with a little speech about having to "wake and face reality," which makes me even more certain that a wake-up call for Noé is imminent.
Either that, or Noé's going to mess up and hurt somebody even worse than he hurt Misha later this arc, and in that case, we might get to see a feat of denial even worse than him literally turning around to avoid looking at the wounds he caused.
#this whole issue also ties into the broader ways in which Noé is divorced from self-understanding#like not recognizing his own feelings of attraction#but that's a whole separate essay. or at least not something I felt was necessary to add to this already very long post#I love Noé so much I am so deeply deeply fascinated to see where his arc goes#I'm hoping he gets better and learns to face reality#but I don't know if that's guaranteed to happen#vnc#vanitas no carte#the case study of vanitas#Noé Archiviste#noé archiviste my beloved#english major hours#vnc spoilers#manga
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if Vanitas ever gets a redemption arc I dearly hope they make him weird. Like Weird weird. I want this dude crawling around on all fours just to scare people. I want him talking in tongues to ask for toast. he should eat glass like chips. he should sleep upside down like a bat. Ventus should have to keep him on an actual leash so he doesn't bite people. do you see my vision
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VnC timeline
I’m mostly an artist in this fandom, but sometimes inspiration strikes and leads me in completely weird directions, such as… figuring out dates of every event in VnC!
With the invaluable help of @retracexcviii, who has created timelines for VnC events before (thank you forever and ever💜) and helped me to avoid some really silly mistakes, I’ve done… this monstrosity of a text, which includes every important canon event I could think of.
— All events are distributed by centuries, starting with XVI and finishing with XIX, and after listing all the events of each century I will put screens of the same texts with correlating manga pages. Additionally, there are numbers of chapters for most of the events.
— Some dates are marked with ~, which means that this date could fluctuate a bit (could be a bit earlier or later).
— Events that I couldn’t put anywhere specifically are in “UNKNOWN MOMENT” category. I still tried to differentiate them between centuries.
Alright, here we go!
XVI CENTURY
1493-1500 — creation of an engraving; plague, cataclysms, Paracelsius is looking for a way to save humanity.
(7)
~ 1500 — Babel. The awakening of Faustina, who is considered to be the first vampire.
(19)
1500-1550 — the awakening of Teacher and Machina as vampires. Machina might be younger than Teacher. Creation (awakening?) of Luna? The awakening of Teacher and the creation of Luna — probably around the same time?
(19)
~ 1550-1560 — Chloe is born. She becomes a vampire at the age of 4.
(31)
Between 1550-1600 — Ruthven becomes a vampire. He is currently more that 200 years old, and it’s unknown whether he was born as a vampire or awaken or even when exactly his life began. But looks like an adult in 1650, so he was most likely alive in 1600. He is also younger than Chloe: when she calls him a “child”, he doesn’t correct her.
(31)
Presumable order of awakening of the oldest vampires:
Faustina —> Teacher —> Machina —> Chloe —> Ruthven.
When exactly was Luna born? Does Kresnik exist in this century?
XVII CENTURY
~ 1650 — the war between humans and vampires. Chloe meets Ruthven.
(31)
~ 1665-1669 — Jeanne awakens in a flask in front of an unknown person. She leaves the flask. Later, she is adopted by Eric and Louise, Ruthven's students.
(39)
~ 1669 — Chloe meets Jeanne. Ruthven tries to establish peace between humans and vampires.
(31, 32)
~ 1672 — (3 years after Chloe and Jeanne met, 30 years before the end of the war) Ruthven loses his students, his eye is injured; Jeanne becomes the Bourreau of the Senate; Chloe meets Machina; Machina tells about the fate of Ruthven and Jeanne. Almost immediately, Naenia appears for the first time (indicating that Faustina is already a cursebearer); Ruthven visits Chloe for the last time, they part as enemies. If Naenia exists, does Charlatan exist as well?
(32, 33)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BEFORE 1672 — Faustina becomes a cursebearer.
(33)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BEFORE 1672 — Luna creates the Books of Vanitas, which are considered to be the reason for the appearance of the Malnomen. Could the books be created to cure the cursebearers in the first place? Most likely, this happened early in the timeline, since there is a whole folklore about it. Even earlier, someone gave Luna the name " Vanitas", which is also reflected in the title of the books.
(48, 49)
XVIII CENTURY
Before 1702 — Ruthven joins the Oriflamme family, becomes one of the Queen's advisors and a senator. The Queen is still alive, but she is also active as Naenia. Luna sees Jeanne in battle.
(33)
1702 — the end of the war. According to the pact, vampires move to Altus and sell Astermite to humans in exchange for other goods.
(33, 59)
1764 — Chloe spends more than 50 years alone. Death of village girl Jeanne, who speculated to be killed by a Beast, but was a victim of radical anti-vampire group. On the same day, she is visited by Naenia and then meets Jean-Jacques. The Beast conspiracy continues.
(36, 33)
1767 — Chloe witnesses one of the murders and reveals her vampiric powers when she defends herself. After that, the general belief is that Chloe is the master of the mysterious nonexistent Beast and both are the culprits. Her human family is killed. A few days later the Chasseurs (Vampire eradication fraction?) and Ruthven come to Gévaudan. Jean-Jacques becomes a Cursebearer to protect Chloe. Jeanne, now the Hellfire Witch, finds Chloe. Chloe tries to jump off a cliff, but Naenia comes to her again. Chloe also becomes the Cursebearer. Jeanne kills other hunters, but Ruthven saves her, makes her give him an oath (she tries to resist) and puts her in deep sleep. The Beast stops attacks. Conspiracy between Ruthven and the Chasseurs presumably continues.
(35, 36, 37, 43, 39)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BETWEEN 1672-1702 — Luna witnesses Jeanne in a fight with vampires. Later, after 1767, Luna also knew about Jeanne’s sleep.
(4)
XIX CENTURY
1861 — Olivier is born.
1862 — Roland is born.
1868 — Dominique and Louis are born. Teacher takes Louis.
(46)
1869 — Noé is born.
1870 — Vanitas is born; Dante is born.
1873 — Astolfo is born.
~ 1875 — Olivier meets Roland.
(58)
~ 1874-1875 — an elderly couple finds Noé. They live together for some time.
(9)
~ 1876 — Mikhail is born. Luca is probably born around the same time or a bit later.
~ 1876-1877 — Noé is kidnapped and ends up in a black market, gets an eye injury and is bought by Teacher. Noé meets Domi and Louis (their proportions are quite similar to Astolfo in his childhood flashbacks, where he is presumed to be around 8 years old, but Noé looks younger, so here I’m assuming Noé and the twins could be 6-7 or 7-8 years old). // Probably around the same time, Dante is abandoned by unknown woman. He meets Johann and Riche. Absence of his glasses and bandages indicate that there could be at least a few weeks or months between the two events.
(9, 61, 62)
~ before 1881 — Vanitas is orphaned and placed under the care of the Church as a potential future Chasseur, but is kidnapped by Moreau for secret experiments.
(49)
1881 — sketch of the Tower of the Sun by Amédée Sébillot, electrical engineer. He worked with engineer Jules Bourdais on this project, but in fact the tower was unrealizable. If the monument designed by Sébillot was real, it would have collapsed under its own weight.
Before or early 1881 — Roland and Olivier move to Paris. Roland is injured, but it’s unknown how it happened. Olivier’s hairstyle may indicate that it happened earlier than the time when Roland almost died.
(46.5)
~ 1881 — Roland (vice-captain) is injured while defending Olivier. Olivier was injured too. // Misha (who looks about 5 years old??) meets Roland, but later ends up in Moreau's laboratory, where Vanitas is already located.
(47)
~ 1881-1882 — Astolfo secretly meets a vampire. When Astolfo befriends Olivier, he tells him about this secret. The death of the Granatum family. Astolfo meets Carl, Roland (his injuries, which were still visible when he met Misha, have already healed) and other Paladins. Olivier definitely had a title of Obsidian by the time of Granatums’ murder, so some time passes between the day Astolfo met a vampire and the day of Granatums’ murder.
(48, 58)
~ 1882-1883 1881-1882* — Louis dies. Domi learns the truth about her and Louis being twins. // Luna saves Misha and Vanitas when they destroy Moreau's lab*. Moreau joins the Charlatan. Misha agrees to be bitten by Luna. Later, Luna loses their true name; Misha loses their arm; Luna dies by Vanitas’s hands. Vanitas and Misha inherit the Books, but are separated, and Teacher takes Misha.
*@torterrachampion mentioned in reblog that Noé is officially 12 years old when Louis’s died ang provided an image from a booklet for the Blu-ray of the anime. I completely missed that fact, so thank you for bringing it up! I’ve decided to change the time range for this event to 1881-1882 for better accuracy.
*It is likely that Noé witnessed Louis’s death around the same time Vanitas and Misha were saved by Luna; bonus card features Noé in the same outfit as on the day of Louis’s death together with Vanitas dressed in his lab clothes. 1881 or 1882 is a possible year for Louis’s death and salvation of Vanitas and Misha. In this scenario Luna dies later than Louis.
(9, 46, 51, * bonus card)
1887 — possible start of construction of the Tower of the Sun (in reality, the construction of the Eiffel Tower started on 28 January 1887).
~ 1887-1888 — Astolfo and Roland have a conflict.
(59)
UNKNOWN MOMENT (after 1702?) BEFORE 1888 — Veronica and Loki, along with Machina, become Beastias, and Antoine enters the Senate. How old are Veronica, Antione and Loki?
UNKNOWN MOMENT (not earlier than 12 years?*) BEFORE 1888 — “death” of Faustina at the hands of her Beasts and Rusven. Luka replaces her on the throne, but the Senate controls him. Strangely, he isn’t even officially presented yet. It’s unknown how old he was when he assumed his current position, but it’s unlikely that the Senate and Beastias would “kill” the Queen without choosing a suitable successor first.
*Alternatively, it could happen earlier, if Loki, Luca’s older brother, was supposed to inherit the throne prior to becoming a cursebearer as well, but was replaced with Luca. But this is a pure speculation.
(38, 13)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BEFORE 1874 — Archivists disappear. It’s unknown whether there are any living Archivists other than Machina and Noé in the present. It’s also unknown why Noe thinks about blood when he thinks about his clan.
(57)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BETWEEN 1871-1888 — Vanitas meets Teacher, or Saint—Germain, who at that time had a different appearance. Were Luna alive at that moment?
(55)
UNKNOWN MOMENT BEFORE 1888 — Machina becomes patron of the dhampires and creates her network of information brokers.
(62)
~ 1888 (before current events) — Astolfo and Roland become Paladins. // 6 month before — Teacher goes somewhere. // 1 month before — Jeanne awakens from her sleep.
(13, 4)
1888 — Teacher asks Noé to witness the story of the Book of Vanitas via correspondence. Current events begin.
(1, 52)
Possible future event — The Exposition Universelle of 1889, which was held in Paris, 5 May to 31 October. The Tower of Sun (instead of Eiffel Tower in VnC universe) was created for this fair. However, at least some of the buildings were ruined.
(44, 20.5, 46, 55)
That’s it for now! I think I will update this post in future when we have enough new information to define unclear dates and add new details and whatnot~
#vanitas no carte#the case study of vanitas#memoir of vanitas#vanitas no shuki#vnc meta#vnc theorie#mochizuki jun#mochijunverse#vanitas no carte meta#vanitas no carte timeline#vnc timeline#not official#vnc spoilers#vnc#vnc noe#vnc vanitas#vnc dominique#vnc jeanne#vnc teacher#vnc ruthven#vnc chloe#vnc naenia#vnc chasseurs#vnc louis#vnc beastias#vnc luna#idk if I should use name tags here honestly but this is related to them?? whatever let it be
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Vnc OP 1 - Sora to Utsuro
We are here again! I’ll be taking the time to talk of VnC’s first opening and breaking down the lyrics. Specifically in regards to what I will refer to as the dream loop theory. If you don’t know what I mean by that, the base summary is that the VnC universe is a story. Noé is the narrator, the character, the archiver and the creator. Noé is writing the memoires to manifest his memories. Let’s call it a memory world. He does this either to escape his regret-filled reality or to save Vanitas. However, when he “loops”, he doesn’t remember why he’s there so everything plays out the way it was written in the memoires.
Then Noé will live on, write the memoires again, and the cycle continues. And because he’s done this countless times, the memoirs gradually stray away from the original story. I’ll elaborate further when talking about OP 1. Right about now!
This was the main translation I could find for the full song (not including English covers but I could reach the same conclusions for those as well) If anyone has other translations for the whole thing, I’d love to see it. https://youtu.be/G_bJwB1YePw?si=xPVlV3_Fd57S-Bo1
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/You’re pondering the simple things, pretty much human emotions and love/
/I hope one day you’ll understand/
/Too many wounds have left you patched together, a miserable sight/
/That doesn’t even know the definition of alive/
It is confirmed that this opening is from Noe’s POV. But keep in mind for the rest of this thread, it’s future Noé speaking. There are two main readings for the song; for the most part it’s Noé talking to or about Vanitas. And then there’s Noé talking to himself. This part has both interpretations.
Noé to Vanitas: Vanitas does struggle to understand his emotions throughout the story, that includes love. Vanitas is a broken individual, has too many wounds/trauma Noé cannot ignore and for a long time, was fueled by getting his “revenge”. Thus he’s forgotten what it means to live. You can also read into “doesn’t know the definition of alive” in a meta sense, from the beginning of the story he’s already dead.
And the very name ‘Vanitas’ is surrounded with the imagery of death, futility and mortality. So yes, Vanitas as a concept doesn’t know what ‘alive’ is.
Noé to himself: Noé as well is trying to figure out human emotions. This is a case study of a human after all. The memoirs follow Noe’s journey in understanding Vanitas’ thinking. And we’ve had Noé blatantly ask Vanitas what love means. But we can read this as Noé , sort of telling his past self that one day he will understand and feel this pain. Take note of “many wounds have left you patched together”. As I said, he could be talking about how “fragile” Vanitas is but what if this is about himself?
/No need to say “just the two of us” or anything/
/I have a feeling we can understand each other/
/And that’s fine for now/
This is calling to the Catacombs Arc, where Vanitas repeats Noe’s line of being able to do anything together. Interesting enough, it’s that arc where we see a bit of Vanitas’ backstory and it ends with the two sitting against each other. An understanding has been reached. Of course we all know that’s what VnC is about but of course he adds the ‘for now’ because what would this show be without its looming doom.
/I love this world and the light only you give me/
/Makes the world I see through these fractured eyes/
/Look gleaming and bright/
It’s these verses that made me want to spend more time on this. First of all, ‘I love this world’, a little weird right? I can only hope this translation is the most accurate but we’re saying ‘this’ instead of ‘the world’. Makes it sound like “I like this one. I prefer this one.” And ‘the light only you give me’ is very odd if we’re saying this is from Noe’s POV. Emphasis on ONLY.
Another reason why I believe it’s future Noé singing because why would present Noé say Vanitas is the only light he has? Vanitas is the only thing keeping him from falling apart. Vanitas being the sole reason Noé loves the world…doesn’t line up with the Noé we’re seeing now. Now it could be Vanitas is a “special” light. But that kinda raises more alarms because Vanitas is very admired in this song guys. And present Noé I feel wouldn’t be so sure in proclaiming this. The world being seen through fractured eyes could be multiple things. We know Noé sustained an injury on his left eye when Teacher bought him.
This could feed into a theory that has been speculated over the years that Noe’s vision was permanently altered and he sees things from that eye differently. Of course, it could refer to future Noe’s perception of life being broken due to the events of the series. Thus why Vanitas is the one thing that makes it gleaming and bright. You could then ask “But Vanitas is gone in the future so how is that possible?” In comes my theory. It’s interesting how Noé is often associated with light, the sun etc. but here we see him give those characteristics to Vanitas’ presence.
/There’s no such thing as a sure thing/
/But you can see me can’t you?/
Things get a little fuzzy here. Obviously, nothing is sure, nothing lasts forever. This period of happiness will pass. But “you can see me”. Assuming this world is a memory, this could be Noé being elated from seeing Vanitas. That his plan has worked. But you can also interpret this, I forgot who pointed it out but ty whoever you are, that this is the one moment Vanitas interjects in the song. Essentially saying, “you can see me, so this is not real.” As if trying to wake Noé up. And if you look at the OP itself, for most of it Vanitas is following or lagging behind Noé like a ghost. There’s even a part where Noé is looking at a drawing of a view instead a real one, Vanitas is yelling at him, trying to get his attention and Noé ignores him completely. Not to mention the OP starts and ends with Noé sleeping, Vanitas nor his belongings ever in the room almost as if it was all a dream hmmm.
You can see this also as Noé acknowledging the world he has created is only temporary. Noé knows this isn’t real, isn’t a sure thing. But then Vanitas comes in to be like “you can see me, can’t you. So is it that bad?”
/I’m pondering the simple things, pretty much emptiness and frigidity/
/One by one lies have increased/
/Playing with a simple puppet/
/My rusted head is shaking/
We’ve contrasted “human emotions and love” with “emptiness and frigidity” here. Frigid here means the bitter cold, stiff, lacking in warmth. The opposite of what Noé says this world gives him so safe guess, he’s talking about the reality he is escaping. Where Vanitas is dead as well as a lot of his friends. The lies have built upon each other, adding to my theory where the numerous times Noé has done this has created layers upon layers of worlds. And each one has more inaccuracies than the last. This is his story, a play, he is the writer and the puppeteer of everyone’s roles. When they appear, what they say and do is decided by what Noé writes in the memoires. But by all the loops he’s made himself a puppet too. His head being rusted could hint at many, many years passing since everything happened. What’s even more interesting is remember, Vanitas is the one usually associated with cold and emptiness. So why is Noé assigning those things to his thoughts? It really shows how future Noé has come to view Vanitas vs himself. Because ignoring any theories or whatever for a second, future Noé is clearly burdened with regrets and hate towards himself.
/Your laughing was reflected by a daydream/
/Without knowing yet we just want to laugh/
/Throw away the answer, whatever you want is fine for now/
We circle back to the dream thing again. What is a daydream? It’s something you fantasize about when you are bored or in need of a distraction. A reflection looks and behaves exactly like you, copies your movements, but is it real? We all know mirrors and reflections play a major role in the story. Whether having mirrors or frames in official art or volume covers. Characters reflecting each other like Vanitas/Astolfo, Domi/Louis, Ruthven/Noé etc. I think the “throw away the answer” is interesting, it could be Noé again knowing what the “right” thing to do is but is desperate to see Vanitas laugh. Feels very much like a “oh forget about all that, what do you wanna do?” Noé putting other people before himself and being selfless to a fault.
/I love this world that lacks everything/
/If the mechanical echoes/
/Everything seems to be laughable/
/I can’t be proud of it/
/But isn’t the burning dream beautiful/
Why would you love a hollow world? This is Noé saying this. How can a world lack everything if it’s meant to be real? Unless it isn’t. Unless it lacks what you truly desire even if you claim to love it regardless. Echoes fall into the same vein as reflections I brought up previously. ‘Mechanical’ implies it’s a machine, tying back to it being empty and hollow. Lacking realness. And it’s funny, Noé says he’s not proud of it. His world, his creation if you will. That it’s laughable even but then goes on to call it beautiful. Think about that for a minute. The dream is burning because Vanitas will always die no matter what Noé does. Everything will go up in flames, it’s only temporary but guess what? To Noé, this fleeting period of happiness is far better than whatever he has left when he wakes up.
/When the sky and the void meet look back because the dreams will come later/
/When the sky and the void meet look back be still in bloom/
/When the sky and the void meet born and die repeatedly/
/The future and lies break and laugh/
We’ll stop here because the song then goes back to the first chorus “I love this world and the light you give me” stuff. This part of the OP I would say is the most vague, you can read this a lot of ways. However you want to interpret it, there is a clear loop going on. We can see “sky and void” as metaphors for Vanitas and Noé. Personally I’d say Noé is the void because of that official art that has Vanitas with a clear sky in the background and Noé is sinking into the darkness. Similar to when he drinks someone’s blood and sees their memories.
But while Vanitas has a few purple butterflies, Noé is given that distinct glowing blue butterfly. Vanitas is Noe’s light. We talk about that art for hours but that's for another day. Plus given how Noé talks in this song, it’s safe to say he sees himself as the void. And once they meet the dreams will come later, to be born and die repeatedly. Meeting could be their actual meeting from chapter one and the cycle/memory world begins from there. It could be wherever fuck they were when Noé failed to grab Vanitas’ hand. The future and lies….what lies? Who my dear readers would be lying to us :000. But eventually that mountain of lies will come tumbling down.
And, no theory just pure delulu I’ve always headcanoned that when Vanitas dies Noé is going to break out laughing. So if that happens the op spoiled it.
#the case study of vanitas#anime#les memoires de vanitas#vanitas no carte#jun mochizuki#vnc#manga#vnc manga#Vanitas#anime opening#vanoé#tumblr#noé archiviste#noe x vanitas#op#fyp#analysis#copied from twt#vanitas no shuki#threads#theories
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The Twst + Sofia the first theory
Hello, I'm Vanitas and with the new release of the lost in storybook events, I was reminded of something. and then I dug too deep into it so here we go. (spolier ahead)
If you have watched Sofia the First, the first thing you probably remember is the Amulet. In Sofia the First, the main character is given a magical Amulet that does many things like summoning other princesses
( if you never seen it here it is)
The first thing I thought when thinking of this theory was Silver's necklace, in book 7 silver is given a magical necklace that was his birth parents. I first noticed how they were both given to them by their nonbiological dads. And then, I realize others things about it too.
The first thing I noticed was that in the special, The Curse of Princess Ivy, we learned two things. The first is that princesses can be trapped in the Amulet and that only one specific dragon can break the amulet. My first thought was the draconias since they are the only dragon-like creatures we actually see. It could also be the east dragons or whatever they called in twst but this theory focuses mainly on book 7. Also, I'm pretty sure Knight of Dawn appeared through the necklace so he could possibly be trapped in the necklace like Princess Ivy or Elena was.
Another connection is the lost in the storybook events, Twst has two events where characters are stuck in a storybook and don't leave until they have finished the story in a sense. If you watched Sofia the first, then you might see a very similar thing in it. In Sofia the first, Sofia became a storyteller (I think that is what they called her) That job includes helping storybook characters finish their stories the same way the princesses did for her.
Now, I couldn't directly connect the secret library to anything. However, the books do remind me of those events. I swear we saw those books but I just can't find the pictures anywhere, if you have them then that'll be a huge help.
So, this isn't really a theory. It's more of weird connections I found which could mean something, I just don't know what. If you have any opinions or theories that relate to this, please show them! i love to hear your thoughts
#twisted wonderland#twst#malleus draconia#silver vanrouge#knight of dawn#twst book 7#spoilers /#theories#speculation#meleanor draconia#lilia vanrouge#sebek zigvolt#twst events
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Welcome back to me over analysing the art of Vanitas no carte again. This time. Let's take a look at one of my favorite scenes in the entire manga and anime.
Where we compare both scenes in manga and anime. And how this scene can say so much without saying anything at all, or very little.
The image itself. Their bedroom window is open with the light coming through their shared apartment. A place they both feel at home is right between them. Home meets them in the middle.
Let's look at the anime scene first
Vanitas is sitting on the roof, [in the anime we see he's surrounded in shadow] while Noe is below surrounded in light. He's looking up to Vanitas and Vanitas is looking down on him [A very common thing we see in important scenes that hold importance to Noe/Vanitas memory. Vanitas is usually always above Noe in some shape or form]
[Argument for the manga]
In the manga it looks like vanitas is in the stars [as we know he dies] while Noe is still surrounded in this light making him seem more alive and still angelic in a way. A human looking up to their god from earth.
This could also add to my previous theory that Vanitas 'dies' by being trapped in that weird realm between the human realm and Atlus when Atlus crumbles. As its a very common trend of bringing up how a human has to touch a vampire to pass through and way back in chapter 6 I think where noe warns vanitas he doesn't know what would of happend if he didn't grab onto vanitas.
Vanitas is sitting on one roof and Noe standing on a differant building also shows how they end up in two differant places at the end of the story. What Noe says is important. The conversation might be the most important thing they have said so far in the story, with Noe being probualy the first person [in awhile at least] to tell Vanitas he likes him the way he is. Even knowing the bad sides to him.
but that means everything about the way its drawn everything about the scene is equally as important and foreshadows the future
But this could also be another instance of Noe being an unreliable Narrartor. That even if this scene did happen. Noe may not of actually said that.
Also if we really push home "I'm really glad you are the person you are now" the now could literally imply he liked the person vanitas was in that moment. Or it could be Noe finally admitting he liked the person vanitas was.
That the NOW means now in present and not in the past where this story takes place. That this is something Noe could only admit after Vanitas died. That it was something he wished he said in that moment insted of insisting he didn't like him.
Vanitas is in the stars as of present, so it makes sense for past noe to always veiw Vanitas as above him
#myart#vanitas no carte#the case study of vanitas#vanitas anime#vanitas#vanitas no carte manga#vanoe#memoir of vanitas#the case study of vanitas theory
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Top 5 fanart I need/want to ReDraw:
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I actually do like this one kinda (i see the specific mistakes.) Its just not giving the energy I envisioned. It doesnt look like a super combo attack like in a magical girl show 😭
4)
It's just old and I think I can do better now. Also I want to draw sora and Kalim again idgaf
3)
Another oldie. I actually do really like the vibes though its very much giving mid2000s highschoolers. It looks very anime i think. Riku looks like a donkey tho
2)
This is acually the second attempt 🥲 the anatomy is definitely very off. And the colors just look straight up weird. I can do better. Also I like my concept sketch where riku is very awkward in the back 😺
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Omg the concept IS SO GOOD but Im not a fan of the execution particularly the yellow is too saturated which clashes with everything else. And kairis face is just not there at all. Even back then I was dissapointed in the result 😫
Bonus:
E boy Vanitas what else is there to say
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Could I request Noe, Roland and Vanitas (separate) with an s/o making a plushie of them because she got lonely?
Noe
Well…that’s an interesting hobby
In a way, Noe would find it rather charming (or rather choose to) and could see how it would help with lonely nights when he’s away
He obviously misses s/o when he’s away, and snuggles with a pillow.
So this is just taking it to a new level
Roland
What an amazing skill!
The level of detail. The intricate stitching. The life-likeness of their button eyes. He’s really impressed with their skill, and privileged to be their subject.
Clearly doesn’t think it’s weird or odd.
In fact, asks if he can have them make one of themselves so he can have one for when they are away too.
Vanitas
Thinks it’s super creepy
What are you gonna stick pins in it when he’s naughty? Is it stuffed with his real hair or something?
Wants to burn it, but he knows they would be upset if he did.
Makes peace with it just lives under the bed now. Watching. Waiting.
#;ask and ye shall receive (request answers)#noe x reader#noe archiviste x reader#noe archiviste#roland fortis#vanitas x reader#vanitas no shuki#vanitas no carte#vanitas no carte hc#vanitas no carte headcanons#vanitas headcanon#vanitas hc#noe archiviste headcanons#noe archiviste hc
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(warning: this is a random late night rant y'all , feel free to not take this seriously its just my scrambled thoughts lol)
vanitas no carte fandom is a lot more chaotic than i remembered it to be😭guys what happened i just came back to see how the story progressed (BTW MY FAVE SCENES GOT ANIMATED SO WELL !! the eng dub is so good too)
okay so! vanitas is my favorite character and i truly think he has a good, selfless heart. but yk what? that kiss scene with him and jeanne keeps popping up in my head. but then i remember that if i consider that moment SA i'd have to consider ALOT more romance scenes in the story as that too and i just don't think there can be that amount of **intentional** assault scenes from the creator ?😭
folks have brought up the cabin scene and??? that just confused me. because i never even thought of that possibility while looking at the panels or the scene. people hate vanitas or vanijeanne or even jeanne because of this kinda stuff and . while im conflicted and even uncomfortable(the kiss scene specifically) i also believe that the creator would not make a character SA anyone like that and make it seem romantic. i see this as: if its shown to be cute or romantic and does not show negative mental consequences of the characters after the event, it was not **intended** to be assault. (edit: while vanitas is shown to be malicious in this scene, the incident gets brought up like once after and doesn't really turn into an obstacle in vanitas' and jeanne's relationship which is what made me think this) basically, if it's shown to be harmless, it was most likely intended as that. and i understand the issue with that one weird kiss scene, i don't like it either. its just that vanitas happened to be my favorite before i learnt all this and that made me try and look for an explanation or some sort of evidence that maybe this is a "suspend your disbelief" moment but i dunno. i just desperately don't wanna think that a character and one of the dynamics that mean a lot to me have gross, scary implications . the creator wouldn't write jeanne or vanitas to do something so horrible because those are some of the characters she wants fans to be invested in and that can't be done if those characters are assaulters😭 the kiss scene still does ick me though and i think the moment should have been done differently? in any case, i generally think that media literacy is something every fan needs to have. because otherwise we back ourselves into a corner and "criticize problematic stuff" ourselves into viewing every character as a terrible person who should not be liked
but then again, this IS just my opinion and, to be clear, i don't support assault being brushed off in any media
[edit 2: i also acknowledge that i may be leaning towards copium with this one but that doesn't mean i don't recognize the creator's attempt to create a complex dynamic and characters; i just feel like because of this one scene a lot of people hate vanitas and brush off his dynamic with jeanne entirely which is sad because they have a lot of stuff thats worth getting interested in. i just wanted to make it clear that this post is just me ranting about something and not meant to be taken as a proper analysis ^^🙏🏼 it has also been a while since i looked at VNC stuff and may have gotten a bit rusty. i acknowledge that SA may perhaps be a significant part of the storytelling in VNC but i don't really want to think about those moments for personal reasons and especially when it is shown to be done by a character that really does mean a lot to me:) i enjoyed reading the comments i got on this post and am genuinely quite grateful for them]
#vnc#vanitas no carte#case study of vanitas#the case study of vanitas#vanitas#vnc vanitas#vnc jeanne
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tell me about the two vanitases. vaniti
Post I made a while ago about it (might be slightly awkward / messy bc it’s from 2 years ago) :)
Essentially, at the end of bbs Vanitas and ven have a “battle of hearts” (similar to Roxas and sora in kh2) and Vanitas, as the weaker heart, loses and retreats back into his “origin”, ven’s heart. We see sparkles dissipate into vens stain glass, signifying that Vanitas has become embedded into ven’s heart. THEN ven becomes embedded in Sora’s heart, thus making a sort of matryoshka effect inside of sora;
sora<-(inside, ven [<-inside, vanitas])
Cut to ddd where sora is DEEP inside his own heart and thus coming across a lot of shit embedded within. Including Vanitas who appears as a fractured vision saying Sora’s heart is a prison “even if he’s not the prisoner.” Upon hearing this most people’s immediate thought would be *terra/aqua voice* ven!! But most people miss the hidden layer (cleverness intended) that would also mean Vanitas since he’s inside ven. Of course if someone is locked inside a prisoner in jail that also means they’re in the prison, whether them also being locked up was intentional or not
Cut to kh3. The first instance we see Vanitas is monsters inc. but we don’t see Vanitas first, we see the manifestation of his power because as he explains he needed enough energy to come back to life. The clever part about this is this only happens because sora is there with ven in his heart, thus physically bringing Vanitas’s heart to a place where he can regenerate and, if the plan works out, extract himself/ven from Sora’s body. There’s an extra bonus that the power becomes even more potent by upsetting sora and therefor having a STRONG sense of negativity which had been building in our poor boy all game, and as Ansem The Wise said, sora is able to make things be real and that means he was able to make Vanitas come back to life without whatever Xehanort did to make him, even though he didn’t mean to
Then Vanitas gets bodied by scully and thrown into a door, seemingly gone forever
Then like 3 seconds later we see him again in the land of departure. But. Wait. Didn’t scully just throw him to somewhere in Connecticut?
Act II: The second Vanitas
This Vanitas is a replica Xehanort pulled from the post. Xehanort had no fucking clue where Vanitas went after bbs bc he just disappears and honestly he clearly didn’t care because hes always known could just make another one so he does. The reason I know this isn’t monsters inc Vanitas is because one that’s impossible, it was 100% intentional this scene happens after yeetus Vanitas, and two Vanitas acts. Different. For one he’s much more brazen than he was in MI, instead of just his long winded monologuing he’s actually goading them on and being arrogant and feisty and trying to fight, immediately transporting us back to the kind of personality he had before. You know. Ven kicked his ass. And he also teleports and does magic and is way stronger than MI Vanitas because that Vanitas had just formed. There’s no possible way he had all his strength back after being rebirthed for 3 seconds so the fact that he was able to hold his own against aqua who’s been fighting nonstop for 10 years definitely raises an eyebrow and points to this theory because how was that possible and why didn’t he fight in MI if this was the case.
Some people have pointed out that it’s weird Vanitas wears a cloak of darkness in MI and thinking about it I think there’s two answers. The first is he was weak and I think it’s possible the cloak could protect him, esp if he’s not fully darkness anymore bc he has his own heart, has regenerated on his own instead of being extracted by Xehanort’s dark power, and was touched by two very powerful lights for like 10 years (they probably got their light cooties on him lol) and two, I think he was hiding from Xehanort. Vanitas likely knew of his plan since his conception even though he might not have fully understood was it was and therefore he would’ve known what was going on in kh3 and been like “shit. I’m not following the plan bc I’m not even a part of the plan anymore so Xehanort can’t find out.” Because if you remember in com DiZ says the cloaks can hide you from anyone and if Xehanort knew Vanitas was back he would at the very least force him to do his plan again or at the worst destroy him because he’s an unknown factor
Then sora fights replica Vanitas and he goes back into the past and somewhere out there Vanitas is walking around the streets of New York (or shibuya) having no clue what the fuck is going on
So yes. Two Vanitases bc we can’t get enough of this boy. Two of them
#og#two Vanitases theory#Vanitas kh#kingdom hearts#kh#kingdom hearts theory#kh3#kh bbs#kh ddd#kingdom hearts 3#kingdom hearts birth by sleep#kingdom hearts dream drop distance#asks#thanks you for the interest I hope this is good and cool and worth it and makes sense
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I need a Vanitas AU were Everything gets resolved,Vani ends full turned into a vampire and now has no idea what to do with himself,cause he was ready to die on the final battle.
Jeanne leave to live on a old house that was her parents cause she feels that now is finally the time to start questioning herself what SHE wants.
Domi and Noe see Vanitas slowly going into madness cause he has to much time and wants to talk with Jeanne but what use is him now and she is so wonderful and brave and now he is this weird vampire that is not even a normal vampire..and cue him over thinking everything.
Domi and Noe have enough and send him to Jeanne place to just talk to her.
Jeanne is happy been domestic and once Vani arrives gets slowly and unconsciously sucked into that domestic life,exploring the possibilities,exploring the sudden need to suck Jeanne blood,exploring his love for her...
Now they are alone in a house that they make them and he feels weirdly out of place but at the same time like this is exactly were he belong and it's scary.
He works with the dhamps,with the chasseurs sometimes,Domi and Noe visit often,they do a lot of stuff with them.
On this AU Luna will be cured(cause i like her/him) someday they will ask Vani if they plsn to have babies someday and that kinda breaks his brain and he is going insane again,hyper over thinking,eventually Jeanne gets him to stop and just let things go normally and naturally,the next year she is pregnant and he goes berserk with worry until again she gets him to just enjoy the moment,slowly he does and their daughter is born and he can't shut up about her.
Everyone will be arround them,happy to be aunts and uncles and grandmother(?) For Luna?? Luna is happy!
Headcanon the vanijeanne kids have deep blue eyes like old human vani and turns violet(not yellow like the dhamps,because red+blue is violet) they will be technically not dhamps but they kinda identify as them cause they feel closer to dhamps than pure vampires.
There totally can be dominoe kids arround too!
Another headcanon must be Vani jeanne exploring sex life,cause he feels like until now they didn't have the time and his very anxious cause look at Jeanne she is a goddess and he is like not (XD) and gets very very surprised that Jeanne is in fact vanisexual(XDXD) he has to totally overheard some conversation with Domi while Jeanne is all like "isn't Vanitas the most handsome man alive? I totally wanna jump his bones" (Domi IS NOT amused)
Also need to see Vanitas jealous,like some poor mailmen flitrs with Jeanne and he be all offended like "HOW DARE YOU?" and have a internal monologue complaining but then it turns to who is him to deman everything and hating on himself until Jranne answers the flirt with "oh how sweet but im taken" cue Vanitas full stopping his self hate party to be all puffy and proud
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Vanitas' character analysis
Hiiii again, we are two days away from the Vanitas no carte back so it's a good moment to share this little analysis I made like... 3 weeks ago (I know, I am the worst, let me be).
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This is from the start of the Catacombs arc, when Vanitas is laying in the roof waiting for a late hour:
When I read this in the manga, I understood it as if he was just watching the button, looking tired for what he is about to do (visit the chasseaurs, Moreau, etc) and going to rest.
But then the anime aired. And they added this extra frames:
The focus isn't only in the button (as happens in the manga), but in the moon and it is reflection in the button too!
The first time you see it, you don't have context, but after a second round you can understand the exhaustion in Vanitas eyes (the anime didn't make it so remarkable as the manga):
In addition, thanks to the latest arc, we learn about Vani's past with Misha and Luna and how meaningful the moon became to Vanitas:
Then Misha remember the day Luna died and this is what he remember about Vani:
When Vanitas looks to the moon it's not only him looking to a giant rock from far away, he is looking directly to a representation of Luna (his savior and the person that doomed him to carry her mark).
So, coming back to this two frames I love very much:
I think it is a very poetic visualization of Vanitas's mind in that moment. He remembering his past; how he was trained as chasseur, how he was taken as a guinea pig for Moreau and how Luna arrived to his life.
Luna represented by the moon, Moreau represented by the button and all of it fused with the light of the moon being reflected in that little metal piece to make Vanitas remember the day he met the Blue Moon:
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All of this makes me wonder if that bittersweet memories make Vanitas' feel more good or bad, since all his relationship with Luna is a spectrum from absolute hate to complicated love. I wonder if he thought in that roof about Luna to find strength for what he had to do (confront Moreau again) or if he was looking for determination in his mission to destroy Luna...
Also, a little detail I point out because some people didn't see it:
Vanitas' pocket watch
Misha's pocket watch
Basically, a present to both from Luna. That Misha has it yet isn't weird since he adores Luna, but Vanitas... It's another hint of his love to Luna.
Also, and with this I stop I swear, look Vanitas' face after looking to the watch. Tell me what's in your mind baby, don't be shy and stop being so mysterious.
#vaitas no carte#vnc#the case study of vanitas#vanitas#analysis#my analysis#as i said i wrote it like ages ago#sorry for not sharing before#you know i am bad with this things#and lately I have been hella bussy#i hope i can have some more freedom to start doing the edits again#i miss it#and im sorry for making yall wait
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About Noé's latest neurodivergent adventures (chapter 61.5 and 62)
(things I found relatable)
1. PUTTING UR HAND UP BC U CANT FIGURE OUT WHEN TO SPEAK. EVERYONE THINKS UR WEIRD FOR IT BUT ITS POLITE AND LIFE IS FUCKING HARD
2. Struggling to follow conversation, and seeing clearer ways of communication that no one else can and getting frustrated that the neurotypicals are so obviously communicating poorly
3. Vanitas designated translator
4. Being quite blind to politics (when it comes to discrimination against himself as a vampire [and his PRIVILEGES as a vampire] and in this case against others like dhams) bc he works individual by individual instead of by social categories
5. Last of all it hurts to see the other characters calling him ignorant and an idiot all the time bc Ive been there. He's booksmart, he's intelligent, just not socially, but here is everyone writing him off as dumb just bc he's different.
Its not like he's ignorant on purpose. Of course it's important to know this shit he's learning now, and it can be done, but it's a lot harder when ur autistic and, as Vanitas said, when u grow up so isolated. Learning is a neverending process and Noé is very clearly learning and just bc he works differently like putting his hand up to speak or interpreting the world differently doesn't mean he's stupid
#istg im not getting mad at fictional characters it just hits hard for me lmao#i actually grew up in a small very conservative town where it was unsafe to be queer#and i had so much learning to do when i moved to the capital and im so much happier now#but it was especially hard to figure this shit out when ur gullible and confused#i always had a nagging feeling that my peers denying others human rights was wrong but whenever i tried to object i would be mocked#like the inkling was there there were just no alternatives around me to the bigotry#until i found a place where my sense of justice could flourish#socialising is still hard but the politics side has improved so much and will continue improving#srry for ranting just wanted to share my personal experiences where relevant#autism#adhd#noé archiviste#the case study of vanitas#vanitas no carte#vnc#autistic noé#autistic noé archiviste
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