#IT MAKES SEMSE HELP ME

[r0qdkill]

I cant see a psychiatrist for so long the waitlist is insane, but i need to so bad the amount of things that are wrong with me. Theres so many things that I'm either undiagnosed with or misdiagnosed with. idk what to do

like ive realised that its possible i could have bipolar type 2, ocd, and dpdr and that ive been misdiagnosed with other things but its all so confusing so many things overlap. I just want help but i cant even help myself if I don't know whats the problem

[mejomonster]

Is cheng yi like REALLY popular on weibo or does the app just coincidentally think I constantly need to see him

[blog-moved-lol]

Batfam Headcanons/Imagines/Rambles While I Eat

I like to imagine that when Bruce is out with Jason (or any of the kids tbh, I'm just thinking about Jason lol), he turns into my grandpa. In that he starts talking about the most random things from when he was younger.

Or like:

Just tells him random shit, and the most boring stuff he missed while he was dead like what businesses opened and closed. Then out of nowhere he hits him with something like "When I got into a car accident when I was younger-"

Bruce, parked in the grocery store parking lot: "Oh! Wait, look at these." *Reaches into his car's back seat and pulls out two mini propane tanks* "I just got these for 20$ a piece, and guess what? They're refillable. Most propane tanks I've seen aren't like that-" *Goes into a little ramble about mini gas stoves and cooking while the powers out*

Jason: *Awkwardly sitting in the passenger seat nodding along, but tbh he's actually sorta interested in the ramble*

Also, Bruce is totally an apocalypse dad, right? Like he buys ridiculous amounts of canned food and survival guides and tents and fire starters that he'll never use. This also applies to expensive stuff of course, cause he's a rich boi

Alfred: "Master Bruce, why exactly is there a boat in the Batcave?"

Bruce: "..It's the Bat-Boat. I thought it would help on aquatic missions."

*Literally never uses it ever, but refuses to let the kids use it either*

I'm all in for southern accent Bruce and wacky accent Dick, however I also propose:

•Jason who still has a Gotham street accent. Whenever he meets one of the street kids (Especially the older ones that have been out there for a while) and they have that thick street accent, he wants to pinch their cheeks. While some of the 'higher class' Gotham citizens might think of the accents as representing stupidity or filth, Jason adores the accent with his whole heart.

•Damian who mimics people he likes. We know that Damian can very accurately mimic peoples voices, but imagine if he likes being around someone he subconsciously starts to talk in their voice. It's a little creepy to people at first, hearing their voice (which depending on the person he's talking to is like, a deep, gruff, adult man voice lol) come out of this 13-14 year old kid, but you get used to it.

Damian, after talking to Jon for a few minutes: "So I wuz walkin' into tha trainin' room, and thare Tim wuz! Usin' MY katana! Can you believe that horseshit?! Absolutely ridiculus. How dare he! I wuz gonna knock sum semse inta him, but then faather came in and made me stop.."

Jon, a little concerned at Damian's lack of formal words and the way that they suddenly sound so similar, but kinda finding it cute: "Yeah, how dare he.."

(Jon has a southern accent, right? Cause he lives on a farm with Clark?)

Damian's favorite cartoon is the Wild Kratts, and Dick makes him watch Bluey because he feels like it helps Damian get out of the whole 'assassin' mindset and more into the 'child' mindset.

Also Tim never stopped the stalking, he still watches security footage and follows around people he likes. Bernard just got used to him suddenly popping up wherever he went-

Anyway I'm gonna stop rambling now lol

[jealousraisin]

CHARLIE FACTS

she/her, she barely thinks gender is like a real thing in the first place but fw the pronouns

autistic

has her license, owns a decent car she’s decorated (it’s pink)

can fall asleep anywhere in the most uncomfortable looking positions, think like a cat. She’s that kid laying across 3 chairs with a jacket over her somehow asleep at a loud latino party

occasionally seshes with Luke

Is really good with baking like just give her a recipe and you’re good

scared of horror, watches anything remotely scary on youtube and then doesn’t sleep or needs to have someone stay the night with her. :O

despite that, she has a ghost hunting channel

Her room is either a complete explosion or really organised.

Really struggled with figuring out who she was, she had a basic idea of who she could be, but really needed some encouragement to try things out and create her identity which included embracing her femininity, being kinder to herself and embracing the way she presents herself physically with the way she dresses and such.

When she was younger she found that she would try to make friends and she thought she was doing really well with how she was socialising but would often find that that wasn’t the case. Struggled with making friends so she turned to online friendships and communities which was also a contributor for helping her figure herself out

Knows how to do her own nails, including acrylics and intricate nail art. She frequently does Jonothans and Luke’s nails and had to teach those two the importance of top coat. So if you see the boys with painted nails know they are gel and they WILL be lasting.

Is really into self care and has two sets of skin routines, one of which jonothan is in charge of doing which is the “we stayed out really late and i’m gonna go ahead and pass out for 12 hours, take my makeup off for me” routine which involves 2 cleaners/face wash and like 3 different creams. Her main routine takes her like 30 minutes after showering and involves doing a hydrating sheet mask. Jonothan partakes in this one when he’s staying the night.

Frequently stays at jonothans apartment, basically lives there as well, she has a copy of the key and is friends with the front desk. Whenever Jonothan is not home she will sometimes hang out at the front desk, so much so she has an honorary name badge to wear when she’s down there and will cover for bathroom breaks.

is a little map obsessed freak, knows her way around LA way too easily. Despite her shit sense of direction, when paired with Jonothans semse of direction she can get you from point A to point B in times you didnt think were possible.

Uses waze really frequently and loves adding reports throughout her trip, even ( especially) when she’s a passenger, that means she can really be on the lookout for things to report to other drivers.

DESPISES styrofoam and wishes to zap it out of reality forever.

Her motif is for sure Hearts! AND ALSO STARS

She uses quite a few perfumes (little smell obsessed freak) but her mains are the pink hello kitty body spray and pink sugar for sure.

Cannot tolerate coffee, i promise you she has tried multiple times.

Favourite Tea order is Taro Milk tea with pearls :D (she initially ordered it because it was purple but it ended up being her permanent order, very rarely goes for something else)

[gibbearish]

Dave and the mayor are moirails

[littlx-songbxrd]

I can't decide if I want her to be autistic or not because my brains like "you need to stop making everyone autistic!" So idk.

And i need to stoo making everyone latino

Sadly for all of you thats never gonnna happen

IF YOU WANNA MAKE THEM AUTISTIC GO FOR IT

WHO CARES WHAT ANYONE HAS TO SAY ABOUT IT YOU DONT "NEED" TO STOP MAKING EVERYONE AUTISTIC

Hc are head canons for a reason

Its fun

Supposed to share the way we see smth

And even if it makes no semse THATS WHY THEYRE THERE

SO MAKE EVERYONE AUTISTIC

I love your autistic character hc PLUS they help me understand how to write autism well

Im holding your hand in solidarity of making everyone latine GO MAKE MARI AUTISTIC TOO

LETS ALL SHARE OUR HCS

[alatismeni-theitsa]

Hi i saw you answered that ask from the other greek diaspora person, im fifth(?) generation greek but I’ve grown up in america and the traditions and stuff have kind of gone away from my family over time so i don’t really feel greek, if that makes semse? I don’t even know the language :( i was wondering if you had any resources for learning more about greek traditions and culture stuff or advice for learning greek?

Hello! You are in luck! This blog is full of the things you ask and I have specific tags about them.

#Greek language and #learn Greek are for the Greek language and they have sources from where you can learn more Greek. 

#Greek culture and #Greek tradition have Greek traditions

#paradosiaki foresia has most of traditional clothing from all areas of Greece

#Greek cuisine has the Greek food

#Greek people has photos or portraits of Greek people through the ages

#Greece in photos has photos from less known places in Greece or famous places from a unique perspective, in case you are interested!

If you need more help or more information don’t hesitate to send me a DM! That’s why I have this blog after all ;)

[writing-advice]

So I'm writing this fanfic for ao3. For me what's truly stressing is that I'm writing in english, it isn't my first language and I'm often unsure if what I'm writing makes sense to my reader, who's naturally going to have a different perception of what I wrote. If it makes semse, if my grammar is good... It's just - nobody really talks to me? I know it's kinda childish to expect comments, but I feel completely in the dark bc no one says anything, regardless of getting more than 400 hits by now

Well, if it helps, I had no trouble understanding you here :) But I get that that can be quite stressful. Unfortunately I have no experience with ao3, so I really can’t say how it usually works with feedback there… Maybe someone else does? 

[rainbowishkitty]

Even if I don't really like Gabi tbh I think she is just still a naive child. She fights for Marley, but just like young Eren for example, she doesn't know the whole truth about the world she lives in. As we have seen she is the one with more willpower than everyone between the warrior kids. This makes me think of how much she and Eren are similiar in some ways. Thst is Marley or paradis; Gabi has a strong semse of what's right and not. I bet that if Gabi knew the truth about Paradis and how tragic their past was, she would understand them and MAYBE could even switch sides or atleast make the war "stop" (what if she pops in the middle of the war and everyone is forced to stop,what if falco sees her in danger,they would definitely be a problem. Nobody would want to intentionally hit two kids). I think Gabi could be even the one to inherit the attack titan power tbh. i think these two kids could finally be the kids of the next generation to put an end to this curse, thanks to the help of Eren (and maybe Reiner?) and start a new life without ebing brainwashed by Marley. Marley is just a corrupted system.I think a major reason for this is that falco never wanted Gabi to inherit the armored titan power;We will see.This is just a thought. Free to share new ideas.

[loverikajeann]

MAT and “recovery” ?

WARNING: I type my thoughts, I don’t necessarily think about grammar or consider spelling...it’s my blog and you’re welcome to have a read just be prepared for the random nonsense. 

-scribblings that only make sense to me I suppose (shrugs)-

Wow. This topic or question rather has been on my mind very single day since I have considered myself to be “CLEAN” . Holy shit I swear this is such a HARD subject for MEEEEEEEE! Maybe because I have relapsed so many times that I question myself if I'm even worth giving it another try? You know what though I can already tell that this route is going to be a lot more successful than any of the other paths I have taken...hey that’s a GREAT idea let me start there!!! THE PATHS THAT I HAVE TAKEN AND FAILED!!!

ok so of course I have done the traditional detox for the week or so and then go into the sober living for the remainder of that time I really didn’t feel as though I was progressing at all. I was constantly reminded that only less than five percent of the class would be successful really, and the rest of us were bound for a relapse. It’s as though they said “ You have wasted your time because you will most likely return sooner or later, but feel proud of yourself because you at least realize and acknowledge that you have an addiction” 

So what did I do? I was sent home with about seven or eight medications...took them like I was supposed to...and little by little I began to abuse them as well. I also started taking KRATUM which let me tell you is practically an OPIATE but it wasn’t controlled..it wasn’t prescribed and sooner rather than later I also abused that, and sooner rather than later I relapsed. Did the whole traditional detox...sober living thirty day program and was again sent home with seven to eight medications to take...and I feel like these meds were absolute BULLSHIT. I mean gabapentin for nerve pain I wasn’t really experiencing. Then muscle relaxer that made me sleepy. Antipsychotic medications to help me “sleep” and it was some pretty heavy shit like Seroquel which I heard can be addictive in itself, and easily abused. Then Buspar for generalized anxiety which I ahve to agree I did feel here and there but I was supposed to take this on a daily basis. And finally Zoloft, which I have to admit was the only medication in my opinion that i felt I truly needed. You know I ended up relapsing again and ended up at the same place for the third and very last time. There was a conference during my last stay at the rehab in where the speaker talked about Suboxone and how they were the miracle drug due to the help of detox as well as the extreme amount of not functioning at all, he made it seem as though anyway. But I looked aroumd the room and said to him “Most of us get used to driving in much worse substances; Heroin, Meth or even worse like Fentanyl and we could drive “JUST FINE!” , anyway all of  began my questioning of what their specific strategy was at this place and pretty much all of the REHAB facilities in southern california and then it came to me like a lightning bolt of IDK something spectacular...you see they dont want to send you home on SUBOXONE because it truly is a FUCKING MIRACLE DRUG!! They’d have this drug that you can honestly take as long as you need it and AS LONG as you do not abuse it. It covers the SAME receptors of any opiate which means it is in the same drug class however it acts THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE in the BRAIN! Meaning it BLOCKS those receptors, you do NOT get a HIGH Or a EUPHORIA effect ( i know sucks, but trust me it’s an important part fo your recovery) and becuase it does the OPPOSITE of what an opiate would do...it fools your brain into thinking that you got your “fix” sort of speak so you dont have any cravings...did you hear me?! YOU DONT HAVE CRAVINGS! you can go about your life and function like a regular adult...work, do family stuff...be NORMAL!! And with the guidance of your doctor, you will slowly be tapered down,. It is a very slow process but it’s done carefully and as long and you and your doc are on the same page you will YOU WILL be successful. MY doctor described it as a “soft landing” it took years for your brain to get “Smashed” like the egg in the commercial, and so it’s going to take years for it to repair. Dr. A described it as a DEEP wound like breaking a femur bone for example...it can’t be repaired in the amount of time of a one week detox right? Or how about thirty days in physical therapy? Doesn’t make semse does it? Well addiction created a big wound like I said, and instead of taking seven or eight meds that I truly dont need like muscle relaxers I am HAPPY TO ANNOUNCE MY CURRENT TREATMENT (thanks to Dr.A) 

ok so....I checked into an ER hospital where they were already expecting me (yes I know VIP treatment is quite nice) I was given subozone after they dii a quick assesment of my current insanity stage and detoxing I had to do. I was sent home with about two weeks worth of SUBS, I take one in the AM and one again in the PM. I was required to enter an outpatient program at the hopsital in Arrowhead, which I think it abosolutely perfect becae we actively participate in our recovery...we do ZOOM meetings twice a week with our counselor. Ok you know know those meds they have you take at a rehab? Like HVRC? Well once you are sent home after a few hours at the ER, not you dont stay over night at all. I got sent hone with just the suboxone. Yes those first few days well the first week even was hell. I was in a lot of pain and I couldnt even move it took me over 24 hours to take a piss, three days or so to even put anything in my mouth! But no meds other than the SUBOXONE! And eventually, I woke up just like you genuinely HAPPY MAN. No cravings at all...not thoughts of using. I focus on the task at hand, I enjoy the day I’m presented with by god. Dr. Avalos said I will be weaned off once I let him know I’m ready meaning this is where I feel mentally strong, physically capable and have the support I need from my family members. And as long as I have NOT been abusing my script meaning not taking more than what I need to and so on, it should be a decent landing. Ofcourse he did say it would not be easy or a piece of cake...there will be some changes in my mood and all of that because yeah who likes going through med changes at all right, but it wont be impossible and like he said as long as I feel strong enough and I am honest about that then I got this! Obviously like anyother opiates he did say you shouldn’t discontinue taking without consulting because yeah it won’t be pretty meaning same detox s/sx do apply as if you were detoxing from any other opiate. So it was simple, just follow the doctors instructions, complete the 90 day outpatient program, get a sponsor and attend NA meetings, work the steps adn eventually be of service. And this time around I am happy to say that it’s WORKING, And thank god that at least if its the whole “Just for Today” speech, I can most def say that “Just for Today: I don’t have to use, I don’t have to get sick, I dont have to lie or cheat or steal..I can enjoy my day freely surrounded by the people who love me and those I love the nost as well.”

-Erika Valdez

[agenderflux-things]

I've been trying to figure out my gender identity and I think agenderflux fits but I just wanted a second opinion just to be sure this makes semse. The best way I can describe how my gender feels is that I havw three of them: agender, demiguy, and demigirl. I sort of change between the three often. Does that make sense? Does agenderflux fit?? (Im sorry I'm just stressed about gender rn)

Hi anon! I think Agenderflux may fit, however the definition of Agenderflux is that you're agender but experience shifts/fluctuations in levels of masculinity and/or femininity without identifying as "male" or "female" since you are still Agender, just with the fluxes. I think that Agenderflux could fit if that's the label you want to use since it's entirely up to you if you wish to use Agenderflux. And you can always label as Agenderflux if you are unsure about it to see how it feels. And if you might something else that fits better, you can change to using that. I didn't really like the label at first, it just didn't seem to click like I thought it would, but now it feels right for me. If you are worried that Agenderflux doesn't fit, maybe look at trigender, agenderfluid, or genderflux. (There may be more you might be interested in but those are the ones I can think of off the top of my head). I hope this helps! Good luck on your gender journey anon! It can be a long and tiring journey but you will always have support here if you need it!

[marlaluster]

Please help please help please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please things that can do something to stop this order PLEASE DO SOMETHING PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!! THE DEVIL ATTACKING ME EXTREMELY BAD, IT WAS JUST PRESSING I SUPPOSEDLY WISHED MY FINGER TO BE HURT AFTER IT WAS HURTING MY FINGER!!!!!!

Its making my mom act upset!!!! THE THING IS GOING TOTALLY INSANE AS FUCK!!!!! ITS BERN PRESSING EXTREMELY EXTREMELY BAD IRRITATION, PRESSING STUFF IM SUPPOSED TO BE THINKING!!!!! IT PRESSES IM SUPPOSED TO SEE IM REALLY IN A VAD SITUATION, IT WAS PRESSING MY MOM WAS SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE SHE WAS EVIL N THE DEVIL ETC!!!!!!!! IT KEEPS PRESSING ALL THIS STUFF IM SUPPOSED TO BE THINKING N SEEING N IM SUPPOSED TO BE REALLY DIMINISHED ETC!!!!! THE THING IS GOING TOTALLY PSYCHO AS TOTAL FUCK!!! IT TRIES TO APPARENTLY SUBDUE A LOT OF SENSES OF THINGS SO IT SEEMS IM SUPPOSED TO NOT BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING OR THAT IT DOESNT DO ANYTHING STUFF IM SAYING IN RESPONSE ETC!!!!! THE THING IS GOING TOTALLY PSYCHO AS FUCK!!!!!! "Marla i have to stop doing the stuff n i dont know what to do but i wont be able to go on," the devil said. It keeps obsessing w my vagina even after its saying that above there. "I have to actually stop doing that," the devil said. It wasnt really stopping. I wish it to leave me alone. It pretends soneone wishes to be attacked etc because its pressing its supposed to be able to do the sense if it seems its stopped n i say it did not. But it was not stopping as i told it was not and it keeps as usual weird stuff to suggest a person wishes the attack. Its very crazy. Its a very corrupted reality w things newly being asserted as true by the devil that makes not sense but its pretending its getting these things to say its supposed to be able to have things here a certain way. It was starting to press at points that people wished to go to jail n that people wished to be homeless. Its false reality becoming incredibly corrupted of things making sense to people or familiar to people previously as things that made some semse of how a person would really be. The thing going so totally insane w all this stuff its pretending it can pull to act like its able to do what its doing continuing on w this reality here.

[greasymoomoo]

Suggestions for the supergirl writers: AKA a little rant about things I think are going wrong/can they please be fixed?

1. I’m putting this first because we’ll I really want it. A MAGGIE SAWYER BACK STORY! she is a main character yet we know little to nothing about her, and can she also have more screen time! Like honestly 2-3 minutes an episode is not fair. I’m absolute sanvers trash but I would also like to see her outside of her relationship with Alex, maybe more of her an Kara? Like maybe talk about how Kara feels like Alex is slipping away and Maggie reassuring her that she would never come between the sisters like that, and maybe tell Kara to speak to her because she is there for her too. I don’t know I just want kara/Maggie brotp.

2. Ok so I don’t know how this is going to play out, the whole M'gann leaving to go back to Mars, but can she be successful and NOT DIE!. Like can she please return, I love her character and I really love her and J'onns relationship that is developing. We have learned quiet a lot about her character and it would be a shame to end her storyline there.

3. Right so you know those Kermit the frog meme guys that are looking for Mon-el??? Well can they please find him and maybe take him away?!? I do admit his character does bring a bit of comic relief to the show, but his character doesn’t do anything for me, all it seems to be doing is taking the attention off the lead character; Kara/Supergirl. Ever since he has come onto the show, Kara seems to be really lost and she seems to be battling. I don’t like it, season 1 Kara was getting so much more confident in herself and then season 2 she just looks so sad, and I can’t help but link that to Mon-el. So can he just disappear maybe? Or at least stop being the centre of the show?

4. I’ve noticed that Alex doesn’t seem to have as many action scenes as she used to, and I really miss them. I love badass Alex Danvers and I miss her! She is one of my favorite characters on the show (not just because she is gay) but because I love the fact that she is human and is just as much of a hero as Kara. So more Agent Danvers in action please. Thank you.

5. I miss my danvers sisters!! There have been a few good moments this season between the two, but I feel it is lacking slightly. The relationship between them is honestly the whole reason why I watch this show! So can we please have more sisterly moments? Like couch scenes where Kara eats all the potstickers like in season 1.

6. The whole guardian storyline is something i am on the fence about. I don’t really know what to feel. Sometimes I like it and sometimes It pisses me off, like when Winn lied to Kara about livewire’s location so James could show her what he could do. Like NO! Just no! I think if this storyline is going to continue like I’m sure it’s going too because it would be strange to just stop, I want them working with Kara, helping her not competing against her.

7. More Lena Luthor! I'm very interested in the Luthor arc, and it's connection to Cadmus. I want to see Lena be good and help bring down her family, also help get Jeremiah back as she is the closest connection so therefore she has the best chance. Also want to see more of her with Kara and their friendship blossom, their connection is undeniable.

8. I’m going to speak more about Kara, because well she seems so lost right now. I’ve touched on this earlier but I can’t help but link it to the presence of Mon-el. I can see how some people might like Karamel I mean I have to admit there have been some cute moments between them, but honestly I do not see them as being romantic, if anything those moments where friendly only. She has lost her swagger (don’t know what else to call it?) And with everything (sanvers & Guardian) she seems alone and it seems like she relies on Mon-el because well he’s there, but that’s why to me it feels forced. Why does she need to be in a relationship? Can’t she be independent?

9. Can Lucy Lane come out of early retirement or wherever the hell she went! I miss her and I think she could be good for Kara to be there as a friend ,an ally so she doesn’t feel so alone. I also just really miss her face!

10. Bring Cat Grant back!! Kara needs her, she was her rock, she always helped when Kara was going through something, her moral compass showing her the way if you will. I also miss her snarky comments and overall everything her Character brought to the show. There is difenatly a big whole in the show without her. ( I know the actress couldn’t move with the show to Vancouver) but could she like make a guest appearance and help Kara, tell her all the things she needs to hear because Cat gets her.

So overall I would like to see more Maggie Sawyer, more M'gann, less Mon-el (like a lot less). More badass Alex, also give me my danvers sisters back! Less competition between supergirl and guardian, kara to find her way again and I want Lucy and Cat back. And Vasquez I missed her!!

OK so I’m done 😂 sorry for the long rant but I needed to get this off my chest. I don’t know if i made any semse or if i got what i was trying to say out clearly (sorry about that) i dont know if anyone will agree with me but this is just how I feel about the show at the moment and how I want things to change. I love supergirl it’s one of my favorite TV shows but it’s lost some of its spark that it had in season 1 and I just want that back. This wasn’t meant to be hateful on any characters but it’s just my honest opinion.

[marlaluster]

PLEASE HELP PLEASE HELP PLEASE HELP PLEASE HELP PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE DEVIL GOING TOTALLY INSANE ATTACKING EXTREMELY BAD!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE THINGS THAT CAN, PLEASE DO SOMETHING TO STOP THIS ORDER HERE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"I have to leave you aline but i dont know what to do we cant be where were not okay," the devil said. "Im not sure why im doing this but i cant go on," the devil said after i wrote the heading for this post. It is going really crazy pressing some overwhelm sense n pressing people in my awareness n trying to dictate everything im supposed to do or something like this, its trying to go very far to make a semse im to be overwhelmed n extremely far irritated. It started hurting my finger again. It keeps pressing about the medical figures. It keeps pressing something aboutClint Eastwood. I was looking at pictures of him earlier. The devil is pressing me eating the candies as i do mean ill age worse or look worse or something because i said something i guess related to that i thought that person shouldnt age or that it was obvious i thought someone would wish to look as he did more when he was younger but he does seem hes aging not as bad as the devil tries to make others look. But its not really making sense whatever connection the devil is making with i said about Clint Eastwood really. Its pressing im supposed to see him as different from myself. I dont expect this to go on so im not considering so much how id really look to be a supposed older age so it doesnt so make sense its obsessing w Clint Eastwood really. But its seeming its doing that w Clint Eastwood n other things to be EXTREMELY IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!! It was pressing another tumblr blogger in my mind at a point also. Its going totally insane!!!!!!!!!!