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happy belated birthday zia!!! i hope you had a good one <333

The fact you remembered really got me tearing up when i found this however if MY memory serves me your birthday was earlier july so HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY

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OMG ZIA HI!!!!!!

I haven’t talked to you since I went to Puerto Rico!!!

AGH IM SO SORRY IM HORRIBLE ON BEING CONSISTENT BUT HIIII

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Hello,👋

I hope you and your families are well. 🌷

My name is Mohammed, married to Ola, and we have three children.

We are in urgent need of your help.🙏

Any donation, no matter how small, will help save our lives.

Please help me and my family.

Thank you from the heart,

Mohammed🌷❤️⚘️

Donated, hoping for your donation goal to be met and for your families safety. Lots of strength

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Thats so cool omg! How was it? Did you like it? I'm good! Another semester survived jaja

ZIA

HI

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ZIA

HI

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foggy beach

Ohhhh omg thats what it looks like. Thats so wild

Wait here

Sunny beach

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Happy Pride Month

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Hi Zia mi amor I don't know if you're still active on here but if you are how are you? I miss you!

I relatively am! Like a ghost that hangs around sometimes. But hi mi vida how are you?? Hows it been??

Im doing fine! Enjoying myself after finishing the semester jaja

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foggy beach

Ohhhh omg thats what it looks like. Thats so wild

Wait here

Sunny beach

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israeli youth burn their enlistment orders (via oren_ziv on instagram)

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Oh thats so nice thank you 💗

OMG THAT SOUNDS SO COOL ITS SNOWING??!!!!

Man I've never seen snow BUT THAT SOUNDS GREAT. As long as youre wearing the right attire for cold climate. Like lil white flakes fall from the sky in pretty patterns HOW COOL IS THAT

A sacrifice thats willing to be made for snow

Oh thats great!! No no dw i get it snow sounds amazing. I'm glad youre ok thats all i wanted to hear <3

i actually think it’s so cool that you’ve stayed so dedicated to your writing, it’s really impressive and honestly pretty rare and (assuming it’s the same one you used to tell me about and even if it’s not) im sure it’s going to be really awesome

*Shaking* Thank you 🥲

Its, genuinly, a mess that more often than not feels like ripping apart newspaper parts and pasting them together hoping it'll make sense but I'm too stubborn to put it down or stop

But still thank you for believing my signs of insanity have some goodness attached to it!! Yes yes same story, a bit changed cause i got really into outlining but yes.

ALSO HI HOW ARE YOU???

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i actually think it’s so cool that you’ve stayed so dedicated to your writing, it’s really impressive and honestly pretty rare and (assuming it’s the same one you used to tell me about and even if it’s not) im sure it’s going to be really awesome

*Shaking* Thank you 🥲

Its, genuinly, a mess that more often than not feels like ripping apart newspaper parts and pasting them together hoping it'll make sense but I'm too stubborn to put it down or stop

But still thank you for believing my signs of insanity have some goodness attached to it!! Yes yes same story, a bit changed cause i got really into outlining but yes.

ALSO HI HOW ARE YOU???

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Ok first of all I'm very proud of you doe all youre doing. Im so glad youre enjoying classes and the streams and I know theres a lot of cruelty in this world but the awcknoladgement of goodness that combats it is as equally admirable.

Oh I'm fine! Running a bit by the seat of my pants but fines!

I missed you too💗 feel free to drop by, I'm gonna try to be here some more

Hi!

How have you been?

Well..

Honestly kinda all over the place tbh. I won't get to much into the specifics but I've been attending AA meetings and trying to get sober as well as going to Pro Palestine protests every week and it helps. The cruelty I've witnessed over the past few months Us really upsetting, but I've also seen a lot of kindness, and the strength of community.

I don't know. I'm angry and sad, but I'm also hopeful. I also started my classes last week and I'm really enjoying them. I also started streaming on Twitch in October and I've been having the time of my life with it.

How are you? I missed you ❤️

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The original hunger games was also as equally haunting and gorgeus. I think ballad just had a bit of more effect on me considering the headspace i was in while reading the original. Still i hold it to such a high esteem. Books that make you want to create 💗

GEKSJDJDJNDD IM BLUSHING THANK YOU. My lil disaster is so far for my eyes only but i do have plans that if i ever do anything about it I'll traduct it (cause its spanish) and find a way to get the translation out. Its just for the mutuals.

BDJJDKDKE ITS JUST. DHEJJWJEJE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT IS INSANE

The way the "you cant catch me now" keeps rising makes me go a i n s a n e. OK SO I LOVE ALL OF THEM BUT IM ALSO IN LOVE WITH NOTHING YOU CAN TAKE

And i have ballad of lucy gray tied with in the old therebefore. Im astounded by all the music. They couldnt have done it better.

Also hi hello I am NOT taking the shadow and bone cancelation well and i just choose to ignore it because id be sobbing if I actually let myself think about it long enough

AND

Ok so you know how there are books you think are good? Books you think are great? And books that change you so fundamentally you want to become a fucking writer?

The ballad of songbirds and snakes is one of the books that made me want to be a writer. It was mid pandemic, I had just gotten my first actual big idea for a story (thought it wasnt worth it and was gonna put it down), and I read the ballad of songbirds and snakes. Next thing I knew I had a document opened and was scraping my ideas down because that book CHANGED me and I WANTED to change people too.

I watched it with friends and my friend says i kept mumbling PASSAGES from the book as i watched and promptly lost my shit. Reading ballad of songbirds and snakes was one thing BUT SEEING BALLAD JUST. I was destroyed. I am destroyed

AND LIKE THE MUSIC??? I did ballad of Lucy Gray for my last acting project BECAUSE I AM THAT IN LOVE WITH THE MUSIC. EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. I CANT TALK ABOUT THIS MOVIE LIKE A SANE PERSON IM SORRY

ZIA THAT SO AMAZING OH MY GOD I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN

like legitimately that was the original hunger games trilogy for me. i was like i want to create something that is more than just entertainment but also holds meaning that can effect change and actually reach people about a deeper issue

so i am so so happy that it inspired you to pursue your story and if you publish it i will need to know immediately. like you’ve always been a talented writer and i am so hyped to see what you come up with :)

i also am incapable of being normal about this movie i have been silently losing my mind about it since i finally saw it like alskdkfkejjfkdkd wtf i can’t i just.

ok.

what was your favorite song from it cuz i have feelings. like my favorite in-movie song was nothing you can take from me but i also loved the credits song can’t catch me now. they both tie in so brilliantly with the larger overarching narrative and themes and connect to the original trilogy, especially can’t catch me now.

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This is for fae and rory !!

5 times someone asked for Kit’s hand in marriage + the 1 time someone was being serious

Cw: mentioned character death, regression(?), and traumatized child character

1: Livvy Blackthorn (Age 6)

Tessa was nervous. It was her baby's first day of school and she was nervous.

Kit was small for his age and had a lot of aggressive behaviors that most kids his age grew out of years ago. He bit, stomped, and swore. He never cried or broke things, but he did kick and scream if anyone other than his mother held him.

It broke Tessa's heart when his mother contacted her and her husbands, Jem and Will, from her death bed at the hospital.

"Please take my baby." She had begged, holding Tessa's hands with her cold and weak ones. "He can't go to that man. Please. I won't let that man hurt my baby."

Tessa had kissed her hands and squeezed them tightly. "I promise I will take good care of him, Rosie. Jack will never even lay eyes on him if I can help."

Rosemary hadn't lived long after that day. Her heart only giving out as she told Kit her final goodbyes and gave him all the love she could summon.

Kit didn't settle in well at all, practically regressing into a toddler state of mind after the funeral. He threw tantrums and constantly bit her oldest child James' ankle as he walked by any furniture that Kit could hide under.

He was, however, very sweet with Lucie. He spent most nights in her room, he wouldn't let go of her hand when they went anywhere in public, and he would even sit outside her room whenever her best friend came over like a guard dog. Lucie thought he was adorable and constantly referred to him as "her favorite baby brother," which made Kit blush and hug her.

Now it had been over a year since they had officially adopted him, 2 years since his mother's passing, and Kit was finally able to start school. After an intense discussion with his therapist, and with the school's headmaster and guidance counselor, they enrolled him at the same school as their other children.

Tessa's hand tightened on Kit's smaller one as they walked to his kindergarten class. He was a bit older than he should be to be in this class, but the guidance counselor had assured her that Kit was at the same level as all the other children and that his age wasn't going to be an issue.

"Mama." Kit whispered, muffled through the thumb in his mouth. "Do I have to?" They were a few steps away from the classroom. Everyone was already inside the rooms, but Tessa had gotten special permission to bring him in 10 minutes late so he wouldn't be overwhelmed by all the students.

She crouched down to his level, brushing his hair out of his face. "I know it must be scary, baby, but I promise you're going to have lots of fun. Going to school is very important, and maybe after school we can go get a treat, how does that sound?"

He nodded his head, lips still around his thumb. "Okay, mama."

She knocked on the classroom door and a young woman with brown, braided hair and sea green eyes opened the door with a smile. "Hi there, I'm Eleanor. You must be the Grays?" She stuck out her hand.

Tessa shook it. "Yes, it's nice to meet you." She gestured to the boy hiding behind her leg. "And this is my son, Kit."

Eleanor crouched down and made her smile smaller and said in a soft voice, "hi there, Kit, I'm Miss Ellie, I'm going to be your teacher this year."

Kit's head poked out from around Tessa's leg, "hi."

"Would you like to come inside? We're coloring some pictures today."

He looked up at his mom, who nodded, before letting go of her leg, and walked towards his teacher.

"Alright, Kit, now you go sit wherever you want, and I'm going to be right out here talking with mom for a second, okay?"

Kit slowly slipped inside the room and found a seat next to a seemingly very excitable little girl and a very shy, quiet boy.

Eleanor stood up and wiped down the wrinkles on her skirt. "The guidance counselor gave me some information on Kit’s habits and behaviors, but I thought I'd ask for a bit more information from you."

"Yes, of course. Kit's mother passed away when he wasn't even 5, and it was incredibly traumatic for him. He mentally regressed a few years, and it's taken a lot of time and effort for him to get to where he is now. Kit is a very sweet boy, but his emotions aren't very regulated, and sometimes he can become so upset that he gets a bit aggressive. He's gotten much better, but I can't say for certain that he won't have a breakdown if something happens to upset or trigger him."

Eleanor nodded. "I see. Well, I'll make sure that I keep an eye out on that. He should do well in my class, seeing as my students all have some kind of delay or abnormality in their behavior or functioning." She turns to point to the two children Kit seemed to be giggling and coloring with at the far back table. "Those two are my own children. They're both on the autism spectrum, so I understand how to handle overstimulated breakdowns."

"Oh." Tessa blinked. "I hadn't realized that there was a reason the counselor was so insistent on Kit being put in your class."

"I usually don't disclose that to parents. Some of them get a little heated when they find out their kid is in a "special" class." She rolled her eyes. "All of the students in this grade level are special in their own right. Some learn with auditory, some with visual, some with both, and some learn independently."

"I appreciate that. It's ridiculous that some people would rather their own child struggle than let them be taught at their own pace because it's "different." Tessa hated parents like that. Children are children. They all learn in different ways, and some people just can't seem to understand that.

"Exactly-"

"Miss Ellie?" A little girl's voice came from the doorway. "I need to potty."

Tessa smiled, "I'll head out so you can go back to your job."

"I'll call you if anything happens."

~

Tessa was cooking dinner in the kitchen when there was a knock at the door. She asked James to keep stirring the pot while she checked the door.

When she opened it, there was a small girl, Tessa recognized her as the girl Kit was sitting with that morning, covered in dirt and grass smiling. One of her front teeth was missing.

"Are you Mrs. Kit’s mommy?" She asked.

"Yes. Who are you?"

"I'm Livia, but that name's so boring I prefer Livvy."

"Nice to meet you Livvy, how can I help you?"

"Can Kit be my husband?"

Tessa blinked and stifled a laugh after processing what she had said. "I'm sorry?"

"Well when Kit and I were playing mommies and daddies during play time I ask Kit to be my husband but he said I has to ask him mama first."

"I see." Tessa could barely contain her laughter. "You know what, I think Kit is just a little too young right to be a husband right now. Come ask me again next year and I'll give you my answer."

"Okay!" Livvy beamed as she ran to the house across the street.

James asked what was so funny when she came back into the kitchen.

"Your brother might just beat you in the marriage race, Jamie, if girls keep asking him to marry him like that." Her son just looked up from his book, very confused before going back to reading.

Maybe she didn't need to be so worried after all.

I thought this would be cute leave me alone

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I stil havent got my hand on chalice (my friend has it and im waiting for her to finish it so I can borrow it) But re-reading the books after so long has been an absolute experience. My favorites in the original were The Lightning Thief and Battle of Labyrith!!

Oh those sound so amazing! I have a lot of friends in audivisual communication who are also taking some of those classes and its always looked so fun. I hope youre enjoying yourself <3 UH I WANNA SEE MUSIC VIDEOS IF YOU MAKE ANY AND DONT MIND ME WATCHING I WANNA SEE

Oh jaja life is looking. Its looking. I'm still a guitarist in a music group and I'm writting the manuscript for my first novel (terrified) I did a list of all my writting goals this year and I am promptly afraid because i think new years me was feeling a bit goofy cause wtf. But ya know were hanging in there. Im just taking a break before the semester starts and i have to make good on all the projects i said id work on

HI ZIA WE MISSED YOU I HOPE YOURE DOING WELL!!!! 💕💕💕

RAIN OH MY GOD HI HOW ARE YOU?!!!!

YEAH IM GOOD BUT HOW ARE YOU LOVE?? EVERYTHING OK??

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I might take you up on it I love rambling to you. ALSO IF YOU NEED TO RAMBLE ABOUT YOUR THINGS MAYBE I CAN HELP. Idk usually when im in a block i go bother people with my ideas to ser if talking it thrugh gets me to connect dots?

ROOSTER!! YEAH YOU SEE. In pr lit roosters are potrayed as proud beast, who are extremly defensive and territorial over what they own and make themselves be known through the entire nation. Theyre also potrayed as the jibaros (which is the rural/ common folk of Puerto Rico) faithful companion. Jibaros are often potrayed as extremly humble people, with little to no power or education and left in the background of a country built with their sweat and blood . The poem was about how the traits associated with the rooster are the very traits the Jibaro is wants to potray in the face of american invasion. But humility is forced upon their chained hands, and their song has turned into a murmur. The last line was about a roosters song, always used to symbolize the start of the day and the waking of people, escaping the jibaros lips as he wakes from the slumber of opression.

ID TAKE ANYTHING YOU GIVE ME. However Fiction never hurts 👀 IM GIVING YOU ALL THE POWER GO AHEAD

THATS SO VALID I LITERALLY HAD TO DRAG MY FRIENDS KICKING AND SCREAMING. I think they went cause they were so tired of hearing me cry about wanting to go 😭. THOSE ARE GREAT. YOU HAVENT LISTENED TO MY FAVORITE BUT THATS OK ILL WAIT TILL YOU DO WHEN YOU SEE IT AND BOMBARD YOU.

ZIAAAAAA YOU'RE ALIVE hi hello hi!!!

NATHAN HI HELLO HI HELLO HIIIIIIIIIII

HOW ARE YOU

OH MY GOD NEW URL