#IMMEDIATELY drives me up the wall ????
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#DDoodles#Shitpost#Dan and Phil#UT#Handplates#Gaster#What a tag combo lol#POV: You insulted the Dreemurrs#The G in LGBT stands for Gaster now you know#AroAce skelefam supremacy lol - the whole skeleton family tree are aroace we love them for that <3#Someday I'll write that essay proper about why all my faves are aro/ace to some capacity lol#For now it's goofs and gaffs#Literally As Soon as they both played these cards - I am so thankful to Phil for making an ace joke to the + honestly#Nothing drives me up the wall more than ''A is for Ally'' like no tf it is not thank you <3 If you must you can have a second A but come on#So the + ace joke primo excellent thank you#Dan was immensely correct for his addition tho - made it too perfect I immediately saw Gaster's grumpy face about it#I see him everywhere............... (lol)#Extremely excellent and correct choices leading to an inspiration this is why I watch them religiously#Definitely no other reasons like they're a bright spot in this dark world always deriving joy and light#Gaster also fits that bill huh - too many beautiful lads out there really thank you <3#Alright enough silliness for now#Love yous#<Oh you can barely tell that I was tipsy while writing these tags lol
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Hello there! :)
I hope you are doing well!
Okay, so, I was coming across some anti posts and they made me think because they only seem to have one argument ever, which is "At least I'm not some sicko defending CP.". and I started wondering how it is that proship is immediately (and falsely so) connected with CP. That thought made me come to you because I thought the gang could have a bit of discourse around that :)
The misinformation about what proship actually is and stands for is driving me up the walls lately. I'm aware that loli and shota exist. Is it something I interact with personally? No. Just not my thing, but I acknowledge it and leave it alone. I am very much able to differentiate fiction from reality.
"Uh...uh... but they are getting off on it!!!1!1!11!!" Okay? Speaking as a survivor of a decade full of CSA and much SA after that, I'd very much prefer someone jorking it to fictional pixels instead of a real child or person getting harmed and severely traumatised. Might be a hot take or an unpopular opinion, but that's my two cents on it.
Thank you for running this blog on here! Always glad to see you pop on my dash. Have an amazing day/night.
<3
You have a lovely existence as well ^^
#the immediate 'oh its cp!' thing antis do drives me up the wall too#or like#they accuse me of being a child predator?#i largely write about cannibalism and noncon#of fully matured nonhumans#and almost solely original characters as well#brother look around#not a child to be seen#proshippers against censorship#jackal barks#proship please interact#proshippers please interact#proship positivity#proship#proshipper safe#proshipping#proshipper#anti anti#ask#asks#pro stance
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I just don't get what the point is of reblogging art that says "please don't tag as this ship it makes me uncomfortable" and then tagging it with some variation of "I won't tag it that way to respect the artist's wishes Buuuut-" like why would you even say that? I don't want to dwell on this but it's happened multiple times now and I don't know how to stress like. I Don't want you reblogging my art if you're going to act like this about it. I don't like the idea of turning reblogs off on an art post of mine because the whole point is that I want people to see it obviously, I enjoy getting to express and share parts of myself artistically that otherwise I don't have an avenue to communicate, but like. come on.
#lab notes#will probably delete this later it's just been driving me up the wall between here and half of my followers on twitter#I would actually say it's more annoying on twitter#and if you don't see what I'm talking about here it's because I block those people immediately 👍so it's not like I can't mitigate it#but I wish it wasn't a problem to begin withhhhh.
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I think I'm unintentionally giving myself exposure therapy regarding Grace. That queer poll? I absolutely, 100% see her as a cishet person. But, someone (specifically @androgynous-sack-of-flesh-3 ) talked about how she just genuinely doesn't think about it because it's not really brought to her attention that it matters, she's busy with being a terror on society basically
Which, made me think. Both of my parents are greygender. Both of them. Both of my parents were also indoctrinated into a christian cult, into which I was born and lived in for over a decade.
So, here's my first official queer Grace headcannon. Grace is greygender. She doesn't understand gender stuff, and just follows her agab because that's how she was raised, that's how she was directed by God.
So... what do you guys think?
#thanks to that third androgynous sack of flesh for helping me ease into this#grace reminds me a lot of my extended family#(context: my entire immediate family was not invited to 4/5 funerals bc we're queer/not christian)#so its really hard for me to think of her as queer#especially since i see so much about her being chill with it#i can appreciate some hints to it in a story where shes a background character#but when she outright comes out to someone or smth like that#it just drives me up the wall#starkid#nerdy prudes must die#hatchetfield#nightmare time#grace chasity#grace chastity
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most frustrating shit in the world is that im unemployed but still have shit time management for the things i want to do. i need to keep writing in cycles and ashes au, i need to get back into the habit of regularly practicing piano again, i need to draw shit, i need to read things, i need to write in general. unfortunately just rotting away at the computer takes less effort than doing more fulfilling things.
#especially the piano thing drives me up a wall because ive been wanting to play it for *years*. and I hoped it would revive my love for#music that was kinda drained by orchestra class in school. and getting any kind of piano wouldve been unimaginable for my household at an#earlier point. and now i have one and it just stands around most of the time. its literally fine if i suck at it but i gotta play.#i gotta stop waking up immediately feeling awful but im just frustrated because i feel like im not doing anything with my life
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sry girl i’m not white i don’t need a tan 🤥
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I wish I could temporarily take the word “reputation” out of swifties mouths 😩
#I swear to god if Taylor actually drops rep tv (and I don’t think she will) within even a few weeks of ttpd im going to be mad#that’s too much of her to ask of fans in terms of purchasing physical copies and streaming#like some of the theories are fun don’t get me wrong!!! but some of the ways people are talking about it is driving me up the wall lmao#like can we actually enjoy this album release without immediately moving onto the next thing???#I haven’t even processed midnights I can’t think of a Taylor version album on top of a new album right now#autumn rambles
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I've always wanted to wake up from a dream laughing and I just did but I realized after I woke up that I have missed a million social cues :((((((((((((((((( it wasn't even funny idk why I couldn't stop giggling. I dont even giggle irl.
#this also may have been a separate dream#i was in this big aquarium swimming and walking around. it was like. you could swim in a lot of the exhibit and interact with the animals#i had some sort of mission and i also found a baby seal who i picked up and was carrying around as i wandered around#eventually i ended up in this little nook that had one of the adult seals/walrusess? so i let the baby go but the adult was not into it and#i heard someone day something like “aw he still has hope”#theres this kid that works at the aquarium and i tell him to come with me for some reason. its around this time i realize this is some movie#the kids boss is like “next time you leave your post you gotta dive out”#and im worried a bit allready sbout him leavin his post with the adult walrus up there.#then suddenly the glass starts breaking everywhere. like one crack then the whole aquarium starts falling apart#and the kid seems a bit worried.#as were all evacuating i decide that its my fault. because the walrus must have been ramming the glass while the kid wasnt watching.#i remember thinking about how this was a movie or something and feeling really dumv#then yhe dream was over snd there was s recap??? in like drawing form and it showed the main character (me) putting a bomb in the center of#the aquarium in some sort of well or something. so. i guess it really was completely my fault in a different way than i thought#then later im at some sort of party or something and then i leave the party for another party or something? and i feel really bad sn#and socially innept the entire time. the person who i think i reconize we start talking and theyre like the first person whos nice to me#and were talking about following eachother on Instagram? or somth#while their scrolling i see a video eith one of my old friends and shes on the news? the headline is like “me and cathy snd the murder#victim...“ or something. and im like ”hey thats my friend“ and the person just shuts their phone off.#any ways so this person lets me hitch a ride with them back to the original party. they get out of the uber super early but its the right#house and the tell the driver that hes lost and the DRIVER gets out. so im like oh i guess this is their car??#and so they drive up to the drive way and three more people start getting in the car and theyre like putting stuff in the trunk#and talking about where to sit and i just start giggling.#and im still trying to participate like i offer to sit in the middle. theres already someone sitting at the front but he gets out and#everytime someone says anything i start giggling??? and like its sunny and everyone is very attractive in a way that o just found so funny#and then eventually two of then run over to this like panel dash board yhing that on a wall outside and like messing with it opening the#glove box and stuff and i just wake up#and immediately upon waking. well first i was like “teehee. i woke up from giggling” then i thought about it and i was like “oh. i was#take the front seat :(#dream log
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My favourite part of writing longwinded (re: way too long) posts and character-study fics is when people tell me that I get the characters, that I understand them or wrote them in-character
Because!!! I don’t! Understand! Anybody!
I have spent my entire life being so fucking confused by human beings! I don’t understand people! I don’t understand why people do things, I don’t understand why people DON’T do things, I don’t understand these strange, inexplicable creatures, and I try, by God I try so hard to understand, to get it, to comprehend the why behind people. I spent my entire childhood watching people and talking to people and I read books with heavy emphasis on the characters and I just
Someone telling me I get characters is like, meaningful in a way they probably won’t ever even know. It’s like they’re saying “All those years you spent trying desperately to understand the human psyche were worth it.”
I just. Really appreciate it.
#the inane ramblings of a madman#this is also why#if multiple people tell me i’m wrong about something#generally i’ll delete the post#because like#if i’m wrong i’m wrong y’know#of course at certain times#people disagree with me#and i immediately pull up my internal dissertation on the character#my guy i pick these characters apart#i spend literal hours trying to comprehend fake people#because understanding fake people is a direct line to understanding real people#and this is also why i try not to read reviews on cnovels#because every other review i read#is absolutely baffling to me because most of them#question why a character is doing something they said they were going to do#‘why is character doing x’ because she said she would and explained why#literally any comment or review like this drives me up the wall on any type of media#like my guy#anakin skywalker is the least confusing character in terms of why he does things#i swear to god cinemasins if you would just watch the goddamn movie and listen to the goddamn script#anyway#thank you to everyone who sends me these comments#i am sending you a million great days and hope you have the life you always desired with as many pets as you’ve ever wanted
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One kind of post I absolutely detest on this site(mostly because I've seen one too many and they've never sat right) are those posts praising straight cis people that are only accidentally homophobic because of ignorance but that aren't actually homophobic but very "love who you love"
#and that always compare being gay/bi/nonbinary/trans to the stupidest shit#oh you're like this hyper specific kind of a duck oh you are like this wine oh you are like the fuck I know#like sure people like that are better than homophobes but are you kidding me we should Praise them?#they're not children learning how to write#they're part of the problem because casual homophobia actually does a lot of damage#and they insult us same as everyone else but you have to be very careful correcting them because They Didn't Mean To#and they get offended immediately#sure let's not attack them first and foremost and let's try to bring them more to our side but praising them#is too fucking much#these posts drive me up the wall#they were barely fine when I was a teen fresh of realising I wasn't straight but now#and the people posting them are so honest#OH and when they're like 'and these people are even better that queer people that are assholes and have a shitty personality '#like babe you're delulu you're a goddamn idiot#sorry but I don't like thanking people for acknowledging my right to exist lmao I thought that was the bare fucking minimum#tbd
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Still really upset over 24 hours later so I guess I am going to make some flyers
#look it's possible that i'm upset about some other things too but.#other people fucking with me or my stuff for no other reason than cruelty really sets me off like nothing else#like when i was working in the store and people would get frustrated but it was because they were struggling with a problem that's 1 thing#people who delight in making fun of me or taking my stuff even though it's not very valuable#just drive me up the wall#and it feels like ever since the pandemic that's been the mood#here i am trying to figure out how to treat people as well as i can during my interactions even though i'm misinterpreted on the regular#and none of this comes naturally to me so i have to try really hard to get people to like and cooperate with me#and i still do! but then some of the general public really goes through life not giving a single fuck#if i don't give a fuck about something for a few seconds there are immediate life consequences. if i don't have my guard up 24/7#but then i watch other people walk around completely cold no empathy no regrets and get rewarded for it#just ask me for the $30-50 man. you didn't even have to steal my stuff
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it is painful to learn the "normal" ways that people reasonably around my age were motivated to do things their parents wanted, ie chores or getting good grades in school. this is a pain that has built over time because, seeing it around me as a kid, i could reason that maybe every single one of my friends were just spoiled. but, eerily, every time it seems the topic of motivating children comes up in whatever conversation is bringing it up, it seems like. and it still feels presumptuous to say. but most people as children were rewarded for good behavior. the one i was most envious of as a child was that multiple of my friends got paid money for getting As, and it was actually very shocking to me to find out that that is at least kind of a little more universal than i really really was sure it was not, but that's not the big thing that causes me pause now. generally, it seems, children are rewarded in some way for doing things their parents ask of them. writing and then stepping back and reading such a sentence makes me feel like an alien trying to puzzle out the function of the human pancreas lmfao but i dont know. in the wider conversations where this happens to come up, describing these motivators is never the point, which is maybe part of the difficulty for me. it's really hard to process that not everyone was doing what their parents said to do out of cold pure fear for their life. there's so many things it turns out other kids were getting. stickers and movie tickets and candy and praise and love. i am so sad.
#abuse tw#its hard to evensay because in a way somehow im still sure every single person is going to turn on me#despite this having been a long growing revelation based on things other people have said without it even being possible for me to have#influenced what they were saying i am like#deeply sure somehow that everyone will Know i really am just the entitled spoiled ungrateful one#idiot dont you know everyone gets screamed at and hit and chased down until theyre cowering with their back to the wall begging for mercy#all possible exits blocked because you didnt want to go out to eat with the rest of your family after church service? why would you even sa#something stupid like what you just did. you know it was right after all. just like when you got a B in that class you remember and you kno#you KNOW what happened was right#you only whine to other people because youre such a fucking bitch trying to smear the good name of your poor parents. they suffer to the da#<- in my mind i write this and immediately every person i know comes out of the shadows to say this to me because its what theyve believed#and known all along and then they all leave me and i die here#i probably need to go back to therapy but ive spent 5 years doing weekly sessions + months in an institute and i dont know if at this point#anything is going to help#5 years of my life 5 years#ive heard what feels like fucking everything#i crack open a work book or jusgt a like a normal book on the topic of (insert mental disorder) and i have already read it a billion fuckin#times and i keep up with the meditation and the journaling until it drives me freaking bonkers and i have to take a break from the frustrat#-on like WHAT do i do. at this point fuck it we ball + just make sure to stay on alert for snake oil salesmen bc i know im vulnerable#in this sort of position
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Thinking about how my high school was consistently one of the top three schools in the state the entire time I was attending it and yet we still had plaster regularly falling from the ceiling.
#there's actually a lot of wild things about it#for example#if you scheduled classes to go there right now you could have them in any of 5 buildings#which range from being right next to each other and a ten minute drive away#our passing periods were six minutes#i once took an ap exam in an old house that had been turned into an insurance company and was in the middle of being renovated into classes#they had to find me a clock#we had very very limited parking space on campus so you had to apply for a spot#most people just found spots in random side streets up to a mile away#and walked the rest of the way#any violence resulted in immediate expulsion so people would go down the street to fight#we had [thing i can't say without truly doxxing myself] hung in our walls which really belonged in a museum and#not a random high school in the American Midwest#in spite of everything other schools regarded us as bougie#probably because we had uniforms#but also every other student has a story about getting hit by a car while walking to school
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#tag talk#I feel good cause a new friend at work said something about how my boyfriend hasn't talked much to him since meeting me#And I was like uh oh I do not want to be that bitch#and I know he's been trying to organize some kind of game might and I was like rip you can't get him to play stardew valley with you#and I don't like stardew valley so I was like hey what about minecraft? because if I get them playing together on a realm then It's fixed#so anyway now I might have a new server and friend group to play with and hopefully I'll be less in the way of the preexisting friend group#because I'm really conscious of when I'm the reason stuff goes poorly so I don't wanna be a reason friends don't hang out anymore.#cause that shit sucks. jealous girlfriend type can go die I ain't about hogging people I don't feel good about it.#I just want everyone to get along and be friends#I'm putting in the work to learn bedrock mechanics. that's how committed I am to this. I hate variations on an established base.#it's the autistic in me for sure. I loathe multiple versions of songs. there can only be one true version. one right answer. all else is bad#so the slight discrepancies between bedrock and Java drive me absolutely nuts bonkers up the wall#I read a really good twilight fanfic and it rewired my brain and now I'm forever mixing up which is cannon and which is fanfic#because my brain immediately booted the version I preferred less and installed the new fanfic version as the correct right version#anyway. I'm hunting tutorials that actually explain the mechanics and taking notes so I know how to adjust the designs for aesthetics#because you need the minimum mechanical base to work before you can ad lib a building style and design onto the structural framework#I figured out the iron farm mechanics so tomorrow I think I'm gonna work on gold farm stuff. and redstone I just want to learn myself
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gnawing and biting, also
#working on the punk rock public transit metaphor song and its great and im into it BUT there is one problem which is:#its not finished yet#and this is gonna be one of those 'it takes time' things and im mad about it#like shut UP shut up shut up the irony is driving me up the WALLS#shut the FUCK UP the song with the line 'i know rome wasnt built in a day' isnt finished because of WHAT FUCK YOU#ari opinion hour#infuriating like SHUT UP ITS LITERALLY ABOUT HOW IM MAD THAT THINGS TAKE TIME WHAT DO YOU DFUCKING MEAN ITS GONNA TAKE ME AGES TO WRITE IT#like its good it slaps why the FUCK cant i hear the whole fucking thing already!!!!!!!!#'it not being written is a problem easily solved by writing it' not how it WORKS UNFORTUNATELY#its just not in my brain yet!!!! itll arrive eventually but it isnt coming to me immediately i can just tell#and if i force it ill fucking hate it#ive already tried to force it enough on this song im not gonna force it any more than i already have
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Hi, ive just started writing fanfic for the first time, do you have any tips?
honestly, just writing what makes you happy because who gives a fuck what other people think! if YOU like it, that's all that matters.
also don't be afraid to experiment with sentence structure, etc! rules are made to be broken and i am a staunch believer that breaking grammar rules (intentionally...not just having bad grammar lol) adds so much character to your writing and really gives you your own voice and style. I do it all the time! i love me a good intentional run-on sentence, some comma splices (i am a slut for comma splices i cannot lie to you), some fragments, starting sentences with a conjunction. etc etc etc.
also if you're having trouble getting a feel for your Style or whatever, it's okay to take inspiration from the style of some authors you enjoy (that obviously does NOT mean to copy their work, but look at their sentence structure, at how they piece their puzzle together; my new current sentence structure experiment is based on the way one of my friends wrote a fic, and i'm loving it.)
oh i know people preach active over passive voice, but i am telling you now that passive voice can be used and it adds to your writing sometimes! ESPECIALLY if you're trying to set a more serious, sort of prose-like tone....passive voice my beloved. some of the craziest lines i've written are passive.
use adjectives but dont OVER use them--and if you are overusing them, make sure it's intentional. (intentionality is literally the main thing; if you do something intentionally, it's probably going to come across like that, and your readers are going to understand it the way you wanted them to)
similar to the passive vs. active debate...showing vs. telling. it's a bit tricky to find a good balance sometimes, but you'll learn. but also, it's not as black and white as a lot of people make it seem. "showing" the way i see most people use it is just excessive use of adjectives and verbs, while telling is simply stating something (which i don't necessarily agree with)
Im going to use an example from the fic i'm writing right now:
And so he goes to them, like a ship to a beacon of light, a sailor to a siren. He goes because he cannot possibly stay away for a moment longer, cannot bear to not have them in his arms. He lies beside her and she relaxes into him, and it is too much, this love. Too much for one man to feel, too much for him to hold back. It thrums through his veins, begging to be released.
I would argue that most, if not all of that paragraph is me telling, not showing. "he goes to them" "he goes because" "he lies" "it is too much" etc etc. i use metaphors and whatnot, but i'm telling nonetheless. (there's another good point, actually: most of this is me telling, but it's also active voice, so they balance each other)
anyway enough of my babbling about grammar lol. just have fun and write whatever makes you happy--and don't feel like it has to be perfect, or like you're obligated to churn out content, because you're not. one of my favorite fics of mine EVER has been rotting in google docs hell since christmas 2022; what matters is that EYE love her and am with her in spirit, not that she's done and produced and perfect.
#i feel as though i'm not a Good Person to give you advice#however you asked and this is what i got for ya#also you get better with practice!!#and writing isn't natural to everyone so dont feel bad if what you write isn't 'perfect' immediately#ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm#yeah#i would elaborate more on the showing not telling thing because it drives me up a fucking wall and all of the sentences they use to 'teach'#it are so fucking bad.#'john was mad' vs 'john stomped his foot' like bro that is for a 1st grader not for someone venturing into creative writing#i find that telling is what i do more of. it's just that i write sentences longer than 5 words long so it doesn't sound like dog shit#ANYWAY#taylor answers#ask tag#anon
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