#IM SO FUCKING AUTISTIC

[krillrot]

i love worms !

YAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[eating-sim0n]

How the fuck do I make new friends

[yours-psyche]

words of affirmation

Say it again. I know it's stupid, but say it again.

My mind is a wave, erasing anything written in the sand. At dusk, the water takes all, and I must start over. You like me today, but you might not like me tomorrow, so say it again. Write it to me, in text, on paper; let the record show I was loved, once, if not ever again. Give me evidence I can study, letters I can cling to like a soldier in the trenches, for the war not once has ended, and I will never find peace. I need it in your handwriting, drenched in your cologne, tattooed on my skin, a permanent reminder, a receipt you can't return. I need you to sign on it, shake on it, pinky promise you won't ever change your mind.

I know it's stupid. But I love like a child, and my dad's a lawyer, and mom always adored me, sometimes, so I'm gonna need a signature and a kiss every morning. You can trust me, I swear, and I shouldn't trust you, but I will anyway. Take me by the scruff of the neck while I kick and scream and put me to bed. Come morning, I'll be drowning, and the clock will have reset; you know what to do by now, right? Your coffee's ready by the way.

It's stupid, but I think "lack of emotional object permanence" is what I'll call it, so it sounds less like a joke and more like an incurable disease. Because, if it's so stupid, how am I bedridden so, choking on my own phlegm? If it's so stupid, why do my lungs hurt with every breath, why are my eyes wrung dry? Look at me; my fever-red face, my swollen lips. The tears turn my skin dewy, sweet with sadness. I love like a dog, with shaking pupils blown wide, so that someone might bring me home. I'm eager as they come and loyal as a knight. I love like a dog, like the runt of the litter, so someone, for the love of God, take me in, or put me out my misery.

I'll be good, I'll be so good, so I deserve to hear it. I'm a beggar, and you chose me, so say it, please. Just once.

[professoryaoi069]

PEOPLE HERE ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT THE THICKETY BY J A WHITE??!?! IM FINALLY HOMEEE this will now be a thickety lore/fic blog, thickety deniers dni

[grow-bettah]

found an old keyboard nobody uses anymore.. y'all know what that means...

[fluffbeast7]

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT

people who disagree or made me embarassed to have had headcanons about this are LOSERS

as i said as soon as i saw this on twitter:

''I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW ITTT I K N E W IT I FUCKING WON!!! I MAY SUCK AT FNAF THEORIES BUT I FUCKING WON AT THIS ONE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO god anyways i love kellen he was an inspo before the dca existed- this guy is such a goat!! autism icon!!''

@basyacriptid i'm fucking losing my shit sorry if u already saw this

[ireonic]

Me: how do I study as a neurodivergent person?

Google: how to help your autistic child study

Me: how to study as an autistic adult/teen

Google: teachers guide to how to deal with autistic children

Me: how do I study as an autistic teen/adult

Google: study tips for autistic people(-written by this allistic man that will talk about autistic people like they're zoo animals)

Me: how to study as a neurodivergent adult, tips from neurodivergent person to neurodivergent students, on how to study independently as an autistic person, no reliant support needed

Google: high functioning autism and school

Me: fuck just. How do I focus during this test that I'm in rn as an AuDHD person

Google: ok, so, to focus on this thing that you currently are doing and need to get done TODAY; weeks before the test you'll need to eat healthy and exercise, meditate, study, set timers, take breaks, drink water, sleep, find the secrets to a happy life, adopt five children, sacrifice a goat, take short showers, brush your teeth

Executive dysfunction:

My fucking deadline:

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

[lbhslefttiddie]

despite his initial rough impression, lqg gets a "fun" rating on the gege scale

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

[hazel-callahan]

hazel's just here to have a good time

[cozylittleartblog]

me omw to scare mormons out of a wendys!! 🍂🖤🍟

ootd from like 2 weeks ago and yes that really happened

[datcravat]

Ghost Trick Enamel Pins back in stock, they will be limited this time too! They are made with lots of love to feed the hungry ghost trick fans. I hope you like them!!

[skrmbrks]

the way house md shows people going thru shit like loss of a loved one, grief, betrayal, cheating etc and doesn't say "this one is right" or "this one is wrong" is so important to me. they're just exploring humans. they're exploring humanity with it's ugliness and beauty and it's leaving it upto the viewer to decide what to feel about situations and that's just endearing, in a way. the show is just Human : ' )

[gaylenin]

"i have no spoons for sympathy for the palestinian cause" is so like... shockingly evil and bleak im truly not over it. it like perfectly encapsulates how zionists - specifically young 'progressive' zionists dress up how they talk about palestine in this extremely neutered way.

israeli settlers are just every day civillians completely divided away from the relation of colonialism they actively perpetuate, and palestinian resistance of any kind is practically coming out of nowhere and is Different and uniquely Violent. it doesnt matter that this is barely a fraction of what israel has perpetuated against palestine daily since its inception as a state

and to dress it all up in this language that transforms it from a coloniser refusing to show any sympathy for the people they benefit from colonising into just some poor victim minority is diabolical. the zionist victim complex is insane

[impaladin]

getting around to pearl’s double life pov. she is making me cry chat (i’m only 2 episodes in)

i’ll do an actual design eventually. this is mostly emotion + not wanting to think. hence eye