#im so fucking autistic

[krillrot]

i love worms !

YAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[xxalexander-ecstasyxx]

did till throw the final to be with mizi only to realize in his last moments she was alive.

[yours-psyche]

words of affirmation

Say it again. I know it's stupid, but say it again.

My mind is a wave, erasing anything written in the sand. At dusk, the water takes all, and I must start over. You like me today, but you might not like me tomorrow, so say it again. Write it to me, in text, on paper; let the record show I was loved, once, if not ever again. Give me evidence I can study, letters I can cling to like a soldier in the trenches, for the war not once has ended, and I will never find peace. I need it in your handwriting, drenched in your cologne, tattooed on my skin, a permanent reminder, a receipt you can't return. I need you to sign on it, shake on it, pinky promise you won't ever change your mind.

I know it's stupid. But I love like a child, and my dad's a lawyer, and mom always adored me, sometimes, so I'm gonna need a signature and a kiss every morning. You can trust me, I swear, and I shouldn't trust you, but I will anyway. Take me by the scruff of the neck while I kick and scream and put me to bed. Come morning, I'll be drowning, and the clock will have reset; you know what to do by now, right? Your coffee's ready by the way.

It's stupid, but I think "lack of emotional object permanence" is what I'll call it, so it sounds less like a joke and more like an incurable disease. Because, if it's so stupid, how am I bedridden so, choking on my own phlegm? If it's so stupid, why do my lungs hurt with every breath, why are my eyes wrung dry? Look at me; my fever-red face, my swollen lips. The tears turn my skin dewy, sweet with sadness. I love like a dog, with shaking pupils blown wide, so that someone might bring me home. I'm eager as they come and loyal as a knight. I love like a dog, like the runt of the litter, so someone, for the love of God, take me in, or put me out my misery.

I'll be good, I'll be so good, so I deserve to hear it. I'm a beggar, and you chose me, so say it, please. Just once.

[professoryaoi069]

PEOPLE HERE ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT THE THICKETY BY J A WHITE??!?! IM FINALLY HOMEEE this will now be a thickety lore/fic blog, thickety deniers dni

[grow-bettah]

found an old keyboard nobody uses anymore.. y'all know what that means...

[fluffbeast7]

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT

people who disagree or made me embarassed to have had headcanons about this are LOSERS

as i said as soon as i saw this on twitter:

''I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW ITTT I K N E W IT I FUCKING WON!!! I MAY SUCK AT FNAF THEORIES BUT I FUCKING WON AT THIS ONE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO god anyways i love kellen he was an inspo before the dca existed- this guy is such a goat!! autism icon!!''

@basyacriptid i'm fucking losing my shit sorry if u already saw this

[snailornosnail]

THE FANDOM COMING OUT OF THE TRENCHES WITH THE INDIVIDUAL CHARACGERS THEY OBSESS OVER....... OH ITS DELIGHTFUL.

Adding onto my innes and muir interest, ive created a playlist <3 ignore my phone charge. this was yesterday. i need more songs. i also think ireally need to draw fanart of them.

My friends buying me the game........ im gonnaSCOUR yhe map for drawing references, and probably cry at the docks.

best part about the still wakes the deep fandom is that everycharcater has that One fan whos just feral over them. except addair hopefully. havent seen that yet.

personally think i need to fixate on innes and muir more

[ireonic]

Me: how do I study as a neurodivergent person?

Google: how to help your autistic child study

Me: how to study as an autistic adult/teen

Google: teachers guide to how to deal with autistic children

Me: how do I study as an autistic teen/adult

Google: study tips for autistic people(-written by this allistic man that will talk about autistic people like they're zoo animals)

Me: how to study as a neurodivergent adult, tips from neurodivergent person to neurodivergent students, on how to study independently as an autistic person, no reliant support needed

Google: high functioning autism and school

Me: fuck just. How do I focus during this test that I'm in rn as an AuDHD person

Google: ok, so, to focus on this thing that you currently are doing and need to get done TODAY; weeks before the test you'll need to eat healthy and exercise, meditate, study, set timers, take breaks, drink water, sleep, find the secrets to a happy life, adopt five children, sacrifice a goat, take short showers, brush your teeth

Executive dysfunction:

My fucking deadline:

[ink-blot-thoughts]

Okay I was rewatching Scream the other day and I noticed this and it has been haunting me ever since so

In the scene where Billy and Stu stab eachother, Billy fucking USES HIS KNIFE TO GODDAMN TILT STU'S CHIN UP

LIKE SIR?!?! THAT IS HOMOSEXUAL ASS BEHAVIOUR WHAT?!?

Its literally the gay ass person with sword uses it to lift your chin thing but more serial kill-y like guys pls Sidney is right there 😭

[skullzy20]

Hold on everyone I'm gonna be sick thinking about this

The fact the Drifter doesn't even feel like they belong in the Origin System is honestly painful. The fact they feel like everyone likes the Operator more because it's originally their timeline, and they've just grown to already accept that. The fact they feel actually at home in the fucking year of 1999.

The fact they feel like they were essentially being used when being sent back to 1999, but they end up staying and feeling more at home in the year despite being sent there like an errand boy. Feeling at home in a place you've barely been in for too long compared to everywhere else you've been for the rest of your life? That must feel wild, y'know? And exciting, but also terrifying.

They just have never felt like they belonged anywhere, basically, but when being sent off on a mission by the Lotus they end up actually feeling like the place they ended up felt like home. People finally care about them, and even love them. Friendships were formed and maybe even a true and genuine heartfelt relationship. Sure, they're still surrounded by daily threats like the Scaldra and Techrot, but there's people who actively care about their well-being now.

Imagine it, no longer actually being alone for most of your life? Having people who worry about you, for the first time in who knows how many years? Getting genuine human (as 'human' as the protoframes get) interaction instead of being called around to do jobs? To simply just exist in such a place? It must feel like a huge breath of fresh air

It's so human and it's so real. You finally begin to heal from the trauma that's been a part of essentially most- if not all your life before arriving. It's such a stark contrast to how things are in the Origin System. I wouldn't want to leave either.

Yeah I like the 1999 update a normal amount (lying)

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

[lbhslefttiddie]

despite his initial rough impression, lqg gets a "fun" rating on the gege scale

[a-groovy-beetle]

someone trying to flirt with archie and theyre like

"heyy so whats your type 😏"

and he's like

"i am actually not a pokemon. but water"

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

[hazel-callahan]

hazel's just here to have a good time

[cozylittleartblog]

me omw to scare mormons out of a wendys!! 🍂🖤🍟

ootd from like 2 weeks ago and yes that really happened