#IM SHITTING MY FUCKING SELF FOR REAL
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RVB NATION HOW THE FUCK ARE WE FEELING RIGHT NOW??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?>!!<!?!?!>!>?!?!!?!?!?!?
#rvb#red vs blue#rvb restoration#WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK#IM SHITTING MYSELF#IM SHITTING MY FUCKING SELF FOR REAL#IM SCREAMING IM YELLING IM DESTROYING THE FURNITURE IM EATING THE WALLS IM EXPLODING#RVB HAS BEEN MY INTEREST FOR LIEK 8 YEARS#THEY BROUGHT BACK BURNIE?!??!?!!#IM GOING TO END IT#IM GOING TO END IT ALL DONT TEST ME#I NEED TO BE SEDATED IM FOAMING IM .#OAAADGFHGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK#IM SO FUCKING EXCITED???#I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS GOING TO GET A PROPER FUCKING ENDING.#I DIDN'T... I DIDN'T#BUT NOW I HAVE SOME FAITH AND I WANT TO CRRYYYY#DONT EVEN FUCKING TOUCH ME#ANY SEED OF RVB CONTENT RN .... MIRACLES
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Ermm...What the flip is a "Will Wood?"
Awhile ago I made a Will Wood LEGO set in the program Studio 2.0 based off his album "In Case I make it," and just never posted it anywhere. Contains a bunch of references to his songs, his albums, those tapeworms that he has, stuff he has worked on with other people, etc. Some of the character's are based off preexisting stuff while others is more original I guess. Still not the best with captions cuz I got nothing else lmao
More photos below!!!
Some dark lighting here. This is how it's supposed to look but when I showed this to my friend they said the images were too dark and like fair it is pretty dark so I made a bunch of more renders but with brighter lighting so you can see better
Ahh! so bright!! so so bright!!!
I'd probably make some changes to this like changing the designs of some of the figures and maybe add other designs but I don't got it in me to rerender everything so oh well it is what it is lol
Can you guess the references? First person to name all of them wins a photo of a scary monster!!!! ahhhh!!!! so scary!!!!!!!!!
Okay here's the answers lol
I feel like i complained a lot in the caption of this post but I actually do love how this came out and I really enjoyed doing all the fancy posing for all the figures and I really want to do more stuff like that
(and I already did get ready I got more of this stuff lmao)
For a lot of the character's I had trouble finding good parts that actually matched with the design so some of them are just real wonky looking. Part of me sorta wishes I made an original design for SELF-ISH but at the same time I think just having the actual art from the cover being placed on top of a LEGO dude is really funny.
like look at this shit lmao
I'm probably going to make a followup to this post showing off like the 800 wip renders I did of this anyways follow for 800 reblogs of random ass shit and NOTHING ELSE
#shit what was my art tag FUCK#EvilYodaArtCool#I remembered it yippee#Will Wood#wwattw#lego#will wood and the tapeworms#camp here and there#oh god is there a tag limit#cuz im bout to fuck shit up here#Everything is a lot#SELF-ish#self ish#the normal album#in case i make it#in case i DIE#a verbal equinox#jamface#big day for the jamface community#the real will wood#insert tag for obscure band that only like 5 people know and would require me to commit horrible atrocities for me to even know about#shit someone give me more tags
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WE'RE GETTING EVICTED FROM OUR APARTMENT.
#ok yeah not the best news to suddenly reappear on after almost a month of radio silence#but a shit ton has been happening lately its fucking wild#i had to call the ambulance for my mom :[ DW she's ok !!! just some stomach problems#i went to the club the like last last week ish ?? it was.. okay i wish my friends werent super self concious#abt dancing bc damn it was kinda boring.... almost just stood there for 5 ish hours#got plastered the other day at a friends house too#and we stayed up and watched the whole entire cars franchise and this is probably my biggest hear me out yet...#lightning mcqueen.#LIKE NOT THE FUCKING CAR OK LIKE IF HE WERE A REAL GUY HE WOULD B HOT#......yes its owen wilsons voice yeah ok i get it yeah. shut. shut it. SHUT UP.#anyway cars 1 is a classic a masterpiece muah muah cars 2 is abysmal and cars 3 is pretty good#ALSO I MISSED LESBIAN VISIBILITY WEEK I AM DEVASTATED WHAT DO I DO I FAILED YOU LESBIANS IM SO SORRY........#the karmic debt from me missing it will curse me somehow..........#anyway yeah we r getting evicted i think idk so were apartment hunting and its so difficult everything is so expensive :']]]]#landlords r actually the spawn of satan#thats it for the update ill doodle smthn maybe i dunno zzzz#frambling...?
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oh [tumblr dashboard] im just feeling real low
#me when I vent in tags rn =^_^=#i could draw things that matter but im not good enough for it.gh#i keep putting off ideas i want todo bc i want to be Good when i do them but as a result i make like. super derivative stuff#who give a fuck if its derivative etc etc what if I give a fuck#thr people need to know that i have thoughts !! about characters !! and sometimes theyre awesome#but also are they even. etc#ill be fully so real i hate feeling like i dont know anything#n i think i end up like. self fulfilling prophecy etc etc#tldr feel like my arts shit and whatever js behind it is shit. shrug#birbwellspeaks
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I REWATCHED REANIMATOR I HAD TO DRAW A REANIMATOR DARNOLD HAHAGHAHHHG
(Version without text under cut!)
uwu
#my art#darnold#hlvrai#hlvrai fanart#darnold hlvrai#darnold pepper#half life vr but the ai is self aware#i havent drawn digitally in a while cus my pen broke this was SO nice to finally do i had this idea in my head before i rewatched the movie#I STILL HAVENT FINISHED BRIDE OF RE-ANIMATOR GUH#i love this movie SO MUCH its probably not darnold coded At All bc of the excessive gore and killing but.#he can be a mad scientist dr frankenstein coded guy for funsies :3#if im being so real Darnold would prob fit Dan's character better but I WANTED TO DRAW EVIL FUCKED UP DARNIE I LOVE HIM!!!!!!#for shits and giggles
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEEššš#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinderāŗļø)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quickā i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinderš#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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hey osmosis jonesers you can read it here
#osmosis jones#oj draft script#MAKING THAT A TAG NOW BECAUSE. I NEED TO. I have plans. :3#this fuckign script was one or my roman empires actually#so if you ever wanted to know how a pg-13 osmosis jones wouldve goneā¦. here we go#personally im tagging any spoiler-ish art ill be making becuase I need to draw#one of the scenes where ā¦ no comment but holy shit. Ozzy you sad mother fucker#did i mention drix is more fleshed out here too. like he goes through severe self worth and identity issues as a manufactured creation and#yeah what the fuck!#ALSO T(RAX IS FUCKING BRUTAL??!28??!!? hes funny as hell thogurh in this#ozzy/leah divorce era is atcually realā¦. kills myself oooo ooo angst#also the parallels between the failing system of frankās immunity and irl police systeMS ESPECIALLY DURIGN THE TIME OF WHEN THIS WAS WRITTE#TLDR. we couldve had it all. fuck the farelly brothers and fuck wb
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i really hope people like my interpretation of chara for the pb au bc if they dont im putting my neck on a saw blade
#there is no possible portrayal of chara ever that can make everyone happy#i follow chara offense nuetral & defenders#Mostly neutral-defense though#which is where pb chara falls#and even then i may end up defanging them A Bit to make them easier to write? weāll see how much braver im feeling after actually finishing#undertale again after all these years & finishing the fucking character bibles#weāre still early development . unfortunatley#all though the grand plot is in my head i just need to refine it#but if youre expecting someones whos only hobbies are murder and eatin chocolate youre going to be dissapointed š#i couldve made a new post at this point with all these fucking tags#whoops#anyways#theyre more selfish fucked up kid who needs to grow as a person#& im going to try n do that#but i used the term ādefangedā earlier bc i think my current draft of pb chara is softer than chara actually was in undertale#and i hope people are ok with that. im So sensitive#none of this shit is real im playing with toys#he speaks#perennial buttercup au#cw sui mention#cw suicide#cw self harm#tagging just in case. sorry i just talk like this
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hate when i make my ocs or self inserts have specific traits and then i go read fanfic the y/n has the same traits so it looks like im fuckin copying
#great minds think alike i guess#but i mean like#real specific shit#like how my pressure self insert cant speak bc of a throat injury#then i find a really good fic with the exact same thing#or like my pressure experiment oc has the ability to change the color of their skin/scales and they have white spots on their skin#and then the mc of a fic has the SAME FUCKING THING MAN#I SWEAR IM NOT COPYING#this is why i dont read fics when i first get into a fandom bc i dont wanna be influenced or accidentally rip off something#but then this happens
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i LOVE that instagram doesn't let you remove the watermark from reels but anyway this is smooth enough that people without an instagram should see it i think :3, ive been getting into fursuit dancing, i'm not quite there yet but i really enjoy how this turned out
#osha rambles#fursuiter#fursona#fursuit#real beet#fursuit dance#fursuit dancer#mindless self indulgence#i fucking#guys im so mentally ill#about them#why is all of their shit SO FUCKING GOOD??#why do they feel the need to say racial slurs and harass women#mysteries society may never know the answer to#anyway don't support MSI they fucking suck#their music scratches my brain in the right way for my autism though
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A smile is a valuable tool, it ensures that no matter waht comes your way, you're the one in control
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers#i thought perhaps that alastor couldnt NOT smile cause his face is just shaped like that#but after the finale im 100% convinced he that he did some fucked up shit like say SEWING his face into a permanent smile#cause self harm is always an easy way to regain a semblance of control and ALSO it psychologically fucks with his enemies#two birds one needle#anyway i dont really have the technical skill to pull this off as viscerally real/gorey as i want#but you understand my vision yes?#gore#self harm#hh#my art#painting#anyway i know its like about intent or w/e but why did he do like. ladder stitches across the center of his mouth#bro those are for like. closing up stuffies and pillows#alastor
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*walks out of the Spotify covered in blood* Giles Corey .
#ohhhh my goddddddd his self titled was fucking INFLUENTIAL to how we Were as a teen at one point#we relisten to it often actually and instead of being fucking depressed#we're just like WOOOOOO YEAH THE NOISES!!!!! LOUD FUCKING INSTRUMENCE YAAAAAAAAAY#im listening to his self titled rn and im just like Holy Shit we've come such a long way. we barely relate to this music at all anymore#like we used to listen to his shit for the lyrics now we listen to it because we need. Loud Fuckening Noises soemtimes in our ears.#we LOVE how his music goes from Real Quiet to Really Goddamn Loud within seconds it's fun and stimmy#ALSO THERE'S TUMPET!!!!!!!! BWAAAAA#anyways *puts this entire album on mine and Memento's playlist* im normal! HDHDHDJDDJDJ#the nostalgia of it all tbh. like.... damn#pk;m MoriāÆļø
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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like itās so. i donāt want to say isolated necessarily. but so much itās own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i donāt think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and itās like. cmon. wouldnāt it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like iām like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isnāt within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesnāt actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place iām in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think itās making this worse. especially because itās henryās dadās local#and where henryās wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. itās like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and itās going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i havenāt even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadnāt come back iād be in a normal mental state#by now. thatās the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i donāt want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like itās not even worth the effort because itās so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i canāt deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and itās so exhausting and i canāt sleep and thereās so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#iāve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
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GUYS I GOT INTO A COLLEGE STUDENT RESEARCH PROGRAM!!
IM GONNA WORK ON A BIG EPIGENETICS PROJECT W/ MY PROFESSOR FOR A YEAR STRAIGHT!!
IN CELEBRATION HERE IS ME IN THE NEW LABCOAT I JUST GOT!! i have wanted my own lab coat for over a decade
#I LOVE EPIGENETICS I LOVE EVERYTHING IM GONNA WORK ON AND I GET TO LEARN SHIT AND ROTATE IT IN MY BRAIN#IM LOSING MY MIND GUYS THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER IM SO HAPPU#I HAVE WANTED TO WORK ON REAL PROFESSIONAL SCIENTIST STUFF AND NOW IM GONNA HELP WRITE AN ACTUAL SCIENTIFIC ARTICLE#AND DO GENE MODIFICATION AND AAAAA#AND IM ONLY FUCKING 18!! THIS IS AMAZING IM JUST GETTING STARTED#i love genetics so much guys. you have no idea i love it so much omg omg omg omg#buggie's nerd stuff#buzzart#self art#biology#stem#women in stem#adhd#neurodivergent#art#buzzing
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No because i need to be SNUGGLED by a giant man that smells like smoke and rich cologne.
I gotta be CUDDLED and wraped up in a giant coat and held on a big manās lap like a cute little pet.
Iāve got a candle going rn thats like- i cant even describe the scent as anything except rich man smell like it smells like a good fucking cologne. Its mahogany and teakwood and SOOO FUCKING GOOD like its a really strong and intense smell but its not sweet or butter its just GOOD AND MASCULINE AND idk what that even means but it smells like Sir Crocodile so weāre cuddling
Iām like LITERALLY half his size since hes so big but all the more to envelop me in the biggest hug.
Him kissing the back of my head so softly while he does paperwork or hearing that voice rumble low praises and compliments to meā¦
Ugh im so- GAY
#personal#CrocFoxx#sir crocodile#i am a SIMP FOR HIM#but also its a good fucking scent#idk i like woodsy scents like pine or cypress or mahogany or sandalwood#somethin about that shit is ADDICTING to me#its like so comfortable and also smells like good fucking cologne#like it smells SO RICH and like im snuggled in crocodileās lap#sometimes when the candle starts to get tot the bottom and starts to get real smokey#i imagine thats his cigar smoke#idk wtf a cigar smells like#but in my brain its that#even if itās probably not#anyways im being weird about candles#LET ME BE SNUGGLED!!!#sir crocodile x zayne foxx#self ship#self shipping
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