#IM PHYSICALLY SICK

[spxrm]

crying and throwing up because Shawn’s singing right now and I’m not there.

[rose-chateau]

Guys why the fuck are able bodied people like this.

A family friend (don't know her too well) tried to hug me as she was leaving, and I politely tried asking her not to because 1) I'm in pain and 2) my spine is deteriorating due to a chemo drug. I really mean it when I say you can't hug me. But this bitch just went "no I'm gonna hug you" and shook me around and squeezed me like a dish towel while I was trying to push her off, and now a section of my spine and ribs is so fucked up I can't bend it and it really hurts. She literally injured me just because she couldn't take no for a fucking answer.

Like. This is why I have learned helplessness. This is why I give up so easily. At some point, having boundaries and asserting yourself and communicating your needs doesn't do jack fucking shit, because if people want to, they can overpower you and physically harm you in the process anyway. For nothing.

And this is why I don't buy people saying "it's YOUR responsibility to enforce your boundaries; just asking for something isn't a boundary <3." Because I physically can't. Most disabled people physically can't. A person in a wheelchair can't "enforce" someone not touching their chair. Yeah, after it happens, they can maybe avoid that person in the future as a way to "remove that person's access" to the wheelchair user. But at that point, assault has already been committed and it's not about boundaries anymore. It's about human fucking rights. "Don't assault me" is not a fucking boundary. It's an able bodied person's trigger word.

[mouseshift]

just realized ive never drawn them in college . a crime really

[davidtennantioweyoumylife]

the way that s2e6 crowley grabs him the same as the wall scene in s1

[justaz]

merlin gets sick. like. bad sick. maybe its a curse maybe its natural idk all i know is that merlin gets sick. he has a fever so high he is somewhat delirious. his whole body hurts. he feels like death. he ends up traversing the castle to enter arthur’s chambers and climbs into bed next to him. he was in pain and felt like shit and in his delirious state, he went to the one person who could always offer him comfort. arthur wakes to find merlin curled up next to him, his tunic fisted tightly in his hand as if to keep arthur where he was. gaius quietly walks in and extracts merlin from the bed, apologizing and explaining that merlin was ill and delirious with the fever. merlin is being tugged out of bed, away from arthur.

he’s fighting as best he can which, considering he’s sick, isn’t that good as gaius doesn’t even blink. then merlin is being dragged across the room, away from arthur and his body heat which was chasing away the chills and his touch was easing his pain. merlin starts complaining, whining more like, about how he wants arthur. gaius apologizes again and says he’ll send for a replacement to serve him before finally getting merlin out of arthur’s chambers and back to his own bed. gaius steps out for an hour to retrieve herbs from the town and returns to finds arthur curled around merlin in his little cot in his room, merlin fisting arthur’s tunic and arthur’s hand rubbing up and down merlin’s back.

[schizorrs]

it got worse, i dont know what to do with myself anymore.

[khickuwa]

Dear God, won't you look at me? Even for a moment, won't you let me pretend you're mine?

[3liza]

Patients with POTS can often seem anxious in clinic. However, a misinterpretation of physical symptoms such as tachycardia and tremulousness might account for some of this apparent anxiety. When formally assessed, POTS patients did not have a higher incidence of major depressive disorder, anxiety disorders, or substance abuse than the general population.6 Using the Anxiety Sensitivity Index, there was a trend toward less anxiety in POTS patients than the general population,6 and the elevations in POTS correspond to blood pooling in the lower extremities, and not to anticipatory anxiety.21

to a certain extent the explosion of research and especially the cultural embrace of somatoform disorders (ie, the Body Keeps the Score stuff) has been a massive step backwards in healthcare, but in particular for women. because now every time you have some sort of actual cardiac episode you have to convince everyone in the room you arent "just having a panic attack"

[faemytho]

"Dragon Lord" - Dark Cacao defeated Mystic Flour with the power of the dragons

"Immortal" - Golden Cheese defeated Burning Spice by obtaining immortality

"Compassionate" - Pure Vanilla defeated Shadow Milk...

[luvingsolace]

Nico di Angelo so bambi coded it’s getting crazy like these are the same two images

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Suspirium - Thom York

[kirkwallguy]

saw a bad cullen defence post and i really think that the issue with the inconsistency between his character in dai and his character in da2 is that you're not supposed to draw the same conclusion from them... like dai cullen is all about how the templars have it bad too etc etc but da2 cullen feels more like a point about how just because someone appears more reasonable / polite / less visibly unhinged it doesn't mean they're not also actively contributing to oppression. and this means dai cullen completely undermines da2 cullen's entire thing lol

[bigidiotenergytm]

hey.

I see your palace covered in red Faces of men who had long believed you're dead I see your wife with a man who is haunting A man with a trail of bodies

hey so im physically ill that this STILL applies to ody in fmtd au, even after all these years

[servpls-enthusiast]

She's looking at me SHES LOOKING AT MEEEEEE fuck it we're gonna marry look at her stares pfffffff she's clearly flirting.

[anime-grimmy-art]

I love them so much it makes me sick.

GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

[schizorrs]

i hate being so fucking fragile