#IM NOT SUICIDAL

[lenny-zesty]

wow this sucks I’m going to [remembers that suicide jokes only worsen your mental health] willingly offer myself to be the host of the absolute solver

[animentality]

wouldn't kill myself unless i was absolutely sure i could take ron desantis down with me.

[fateunwritten-if]

When i say i'm this close to dipping off the face of the earth....I am

[transexualpirate]

yeah im an optimist at heart. if all else fails suicide is still an option. so why would i even worry

[gloogy]

yeeeeaaaaaa hell yeah we're doing it whooo this is it were fuckin getting stared at by close family because im on crossex hormones and its getting really awkward whooo yeahhh lets goooooo this is awesome they even still pretend I never even came out!!!!!!! I love hiding my body from the people around me!!!!!!!!

at least the gyno cope is dead

[dont-read-this-im-dead]

You ever just...wanna vanish?

Like, you don't wanna DIE, and you have no intention of killing yourself, but you still wanna turn into a butterfly and just... disappear into the horizon?

[his-ghostly-wife]

Betrayus: c'mon sweetheart... I care about you more than anybody else. I don't care if other people like me. I got eyes for you only. Believe that. We have so much in common.

Betrayus (kid): yeah.. I love you a lot. I don't want nobody else other than you. So don't worry at all.

At the moment rn, I'm overthinking as usual. I wonder if I'm ever even good enough. While my husband is trying to comfort me at the moment. My thoughts just keep getting worse. Without anybody to keep me sane, I'll just start crying.

[antifathomable-shapeshifter]

i need him i need him i need him i need him i need him i need him i need him i need him i need him I NEED HIM

[astatuessong]

as most girls do

[onceifixmehesgonnamissme]

[heloocean]

[cupid-angels]

[thecinnamongirlll]

[es0tericdoll]

The vibe I bring to the function ..

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[lilacheavenbby]

creds: @beautifuiprincessdisorder