#IM NOT PREPARED I DONT THINK I EVER WILL BE

[paperstreetlocal]

what are some actions tyler/narrator would do that conveys "I love you" without them actually saying it

man this hurts me. why are you making me think about this (their lack of communication) sniffs...hmm

well for a start, i think the narrators love language is acts of service (this is so fucking difficult im wincing just thinking about it) and i think hes a very self centered guy (not necessarily on purpose, just mostly gets lost in himself and his thoughts) so i feel like intentionally going out of his way to make and prepare shit for another person is like. a completely insane thing for him

besides making tylers coffee how he likes it, adjusting his clothes and keeping the house somewhat liveable in i think the main thing is just the fact he listens. half the time he doesnt understand what the fuck tylers talking about but hes intrigued . he could talk about literally anything and he would indulge him with a smile on his face. maybe not always because he cares, its more about him trying to appeal more to tyler (and its working. tyler wants nothing more than some other freak adding onto his bullshit) boy has a thirst for knowledge and he has a hunk providing him with it in a trivia-esque manner.theyre both so fucking into it

ehmm this isnt showing love per se and i dont think hes ever given any to tyler but i do think hes written love poems/haikus about him. thinly veiled so if you read them you wouldnt really know if it was a personal thing or a metaphor for something else. cryptic in a way thats basically just the narrator projecting his feelings towards tyler on random objects or (more normalized) pairings

as for tyler im not reaaally sure? i dont think hes obsessed with the narrator in the way the narrator is with him, and i view him as aromantic to a degree so his bond with the narrator is more sexual & platonic rather than romantic (but he has his moments)

he has no issues being handsy or in somebodys space, hell he would be gripping somebodys hand real hard even if they just met but thats more about the fact he just gets off on pissing people off and making them uncomfortable. its also like that with the narrator with the addition that he just likes doing it because hes so easy to wrap & push around without any protest really. i think he also does that thing where he puts his hand on/wraps it around his nape when theyre next to each other. dog&owner motif if you squint

tylers whole extreme anti-capitalist shtick falls apart a bit with the narrator. in the book he takes him out to dinner. even the narrator was shitting bricks when this happened, tyler spending money on him seemed unfathomable (yes it was to shut him up or whatever, but still nonetheless insane) and i think its. whatever your view on romance is i think its sweet hes still willing to go against his morals just to have a cheesy moment with the narrator. carnivals. stores. trips. he would

i think he also calls him while hes at work . seemingly without a reason --hes bored for the most part, and he knows what hes doing for obvious reasons but. dare i say he misses him a twinge, since during work days the narrators home at like 5pm and tyler sleeps through the morning (that deleted scene of him rolling his eyes at the narrator for going to work.... theyre both so bad they both suck. horrible)

euhhghh...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeughh oh god theyre so gross im going to be sick

[hwangyeddeongie]

“yeji julie and giselle will perform toxic!” and what if i kill myself instead

[loktauri]

Happy (late) one year anniversary to me finishing s4 and not touching s5 with a ten foot pole

[corviiids]

ok hear me out about this vaguely Your Name inspired lawlight au told via notes they leave each other while bodyswapped

[al-luviec]

Morro design + a ton of notes.

[rmbunnie]

I'm reading A Lonely Place of Dying and Alfred latching immediately onto Tim is NASTY work. Tim shows up and is like "I never aimed to be Robin! I mean I did karate my whole life to emulate Robin and just so happen to have sought you out and grabbed this costume in my size out from that case and really you should be calling me Robin just for now and let me come with you as Robin but I never dreamed it would specifically be ME being Robin. You have a lovely house and home btw :) Now go back to being 10." And Dick's understandably like "No I am a grown man now who are you" and Bruce is not here for this one, but later on is like "You aren't Robin, you're some kid dressed up like my dead son." But Alfred?

IMMEDIATELY Alfred is implying Dick was trying to subtly ask Tim to be Robin (simply not true in in NTT 61, when the implication is made, although he changes his mind in Batman 442) and that Bruce should be grateful for this young man's profound bravery and immense natural skill and maybe show him a few pointers or something idk we'll see :) Like let's be clear, the idea that Tim didn't want to be Robin is simply not part of this story outside of like two lines of dialogue where he's like "oh I didn't consider it could be me!" after which he immediately goes "Wow so you ARE gonna let me be Robin right?" the second he sees the opportunity. The guy essentially makes himself Robin once Dick makes it clear he isn't gonna be. Dick tells Tim nobody should be at first (until he changes his mind) but is ignored because Tim doesn't get why and goes with what he understands, his own stance.

I'm of the opinion that the whole "Tim understands that being Robin is an arduous task full of suffering from the start and chooses to bravely yet sadly martyr himself for the cause" thing I see sometimes is strongly disproven, at least in the beginning of his Robin career, by his "Batman NEEDS a Robin (to love and care for and to watch out for him in return :) )" line of reasoning, his subsequent willingness for Anybody to be Robin whether or not it was him (unless he was consciously okay with other children suffering for his benefit which I find really hard to believe,) and his active glee at anything involving being Robin and persistent smiling pursuit of Doing So against Batman's strong disapproval, because he hasn't officially said no (he did several times, but you can't blame a kid for being excited.) Like, I think he said he never dreamed of being Robin just because having a kid come in begging to replace Batman's dead son because it was a personal aspiration would be extraordinarily rude and arrogant and they wanted people to like this one. He was NOT in any way adverse they just couldn't make him THAT presumptuous, and he is by nature of what he's doing already moderately so.

But say it was true, that Tim was actively opposed to being Robin? Alfred would be pushing this shit HARD onto this thirteen year old kid like what the fuck bro. And "From what Master Richard said, he follows your orders." is HEINOUS but let's not get into that.

[milkweedman]

Been trying to make a thick winter hat all damn weekend and have gotten approximately nowhere very slowly.

First was gonna do some cables (good way to make a thick hat), but my brain is mush and I just couldn't get math and tension to co-operate. Then I figured, bit of single color brioche is also very thick. Can't do brioche anymore apparently, as it wasn't working. Fine, I'll just crochet it--except now it's not warm because it has too many holes. Also, I've been using a very dark yarn for this bc its what I have, but I'm starting to suspect that not being able to see my stitches has been the problem this whole time.

So...now idk what. I still need a thick winter hat. Also need a pair of mittens and a wheelchair blanket as well as to actually finish that wheelchair bag (even more important now bc I ripped a huge hole in one of my prototypes on Friday and I dont want to fix it). Augh. So much to do. So little brain and even less arm strength to do it with.

I'm going to rethink my yarn choices and try for the hat yet again, I guess.

[sickfreaksirkay]

no one talk to me about how the word virgil uses to describe aeneas killing turnus means "to bury [his sword]" but also means "to found [a city]". christ

[scattered-winter]

almost came out to my sister today except she was on speakerphone with her husband so that did NOT happen lmao

[torantuga]

vampire alejandro x werewolf noah lives rent free in my head...... esp werewolf noah

[thewinedarksea]

we went to iceland!

[arolesbianism]

Finally fixating on some nugget relationships that aren't horrible for everyone I love friendship <3

[andragoras-in-vanity]

im sure ive alrwady said this but veilgaurd called me a bottom in evedy language, most strongly elvhen tho. i cannot stop thinking about elgar'nans lil spiel to the venatori saying 'all you must do is love me, and kneel' like bruh......if rook wasnt so spiteful they probably would have...just to see where he was going with that....

[horrorsequel]

something sexy abt watching my 20 y/o self loose his mind on camera with a green mouth from all the creme de menthe and oh my god he was like so miserable but he was still... happy in the moment that was captured here, and that's important to remember. i was in what i consider the most miserable few years of my life (so far!!!!) and i survived it AND managed to find moments of happiness inside it. i got this. even if i never make something out of myself, i think the happiness i've found in my life is important.

[the-becom1ng]

god i really wish i could just. control my voice. could control my volume and how much i speak.

[jackass-jones]

Time for me to be completely changed as a person! *just watched falsettos*