#IM FUCKING STUCK

[silvers-not-home]

do you guys ever think about how in third life grian and scars love actually felt like love in regards to other seasons? how they would dance with eachother in the desert and make eachother flower crowns, embroidering lilacs and poppies on each others clothes, holding hands, killing for eachother- actually killing eachother.

how by last life grian wanted nothing but a break from scar. wanted nothing to do with scar. flat out forgot about him and only interacted with him when he needed something while scar was still infatuated with grian. still holding onto the same cactus flower he gave him in his pocket, months after it had already wilted away

how in double life was the perfect opportunity for them to interact with eachother again, finally after a whole season of being separated they could make up again only for scar to realize it wasn't the business that made them drift apart. it was grian, not wanting anything to do with him anymore. it was grian getting tired of him, letting go of the love he had for him and throwing it away while scar held onto it until his hands became red and sore. scar never wanted to stop loving him but grian never wanted to love him to being with.

how grian cheated on him, lied to him, ignored him, had little to no trust in him. only showed any actual care about him because they shared health, he wouldn't have even batted an eye if they didn't. and scar only stayed because he didn't know how to live without loving him. only stayed with a man that ignored and cheated on him because he didn't wanna be alone- he didn't know how to be alone without destroying himself in the process

but how limited life was different. limited life was the season scar finally learned how to let go of grian and focus on people that actually give a damn about him. and when he finally started doing that he finally learned what it was like to actually be loved. not just appreciated, not just wanted but actually loved- he died with the comfortable yet cryptic feeling of not loving him anymore

then secret life comes around and he's finally content without being codependent on grian. without having to know his input or opinion on what he's doing he's fallen out of love and he's okay with that. he's okay with throwing away the wilted lilacs and poppies hes kept in his pockets after all this time. he's finally okay with not having him and once he is grian isn't. he's asking him to team up, something that's never ever happened before. he notices the dead flowers in his hair and stray sand on his clothes. he's gone back, he never left the desert and scar doesn't wanna admit it but he has. but once he won, he was alone again. right when he was okay with it he got it. being alone for an entire year (it's canon you guys. you guys it's canon and it HURTS :((() but being alone for an entire year makes him reflect obviously. it makes him think about how everyone just walks all over him and how he just lets it happen without doing anything about it. it makes him think about how much actually misses the desert. he can't help but despise what grian did but god does he miss him

AND THEN WILD LIFE????? HUH???? what the hell do you mean grian is trying to get a monopoly on sand. you mean scar? the one that started monopolies in the first place? no he's busy having a monopoly on a green plant with his blond, british, bird friend while living on a mountain. his ass not only went back to the desert he fucking ran back to the desert once he heard word of grian being there. he's okay with being alone but if he had the chance, he'd go back to season one.

you guys ever think about that or is it just me?

[lucabyte]

sometimes everything just sucks real real real bad

[yrdnzz]

and i got eyes on the back of my head, i got eyes everywhere so i know where you go

[puppyeared]

act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

[nashvillethotchicken]

I stand with Louis no matter what. If either lestat or armand did that shit to me and people talked about me the way they talk about louis on here and on twitter you're gonna see me in history books

[sunofpandora]

OFFICIAL AVATAR 3 ANNOUNCEMENTS

This just in guys, last night on D23, avatar 3 has an official title “fire and ash”

We are so back guys 🤭💙🩵

[thehecklingmouse]

the implications of this are driving me nuts.

[shiraoyagi]

hot take ??

the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.

it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)

anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around them— especially their families— happy.

they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a star— a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurse— and you can see the similarities from there.

for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctor— suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.

for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main story— becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into question— maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.

their insecurities are incredibly similar.

in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other people— despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.

in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those characters— it's a reflection of his traumas.

just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.

now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.

for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.

mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressures— her mother's demands.

tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himself— if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.

and even then, there's some overlap.

tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.

mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother them— she doesn't want to be a burden— and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.

and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.

mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floor— puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.

tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything else— puppeteering silenced plushies— his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.

mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.

tsukasa has not yet cut his.

[catmask]

#playing #splashing #frolicking

[clowncollegevaledictorian]

hey carla my love how the fuck did you know who the beast is

[luzho]

i’ll delete it in the morning but i wanna know: do u guys like this little suki?

[holographings]

happy valentines day may all your love be monstrous and uncontainable

[starkspi]

From "Unadulterated Loathing" in which Charlie chains these two idiots accidentally together by @otsmosis (who made this comment at the end of the last chapter and inspired me to do whatever this is above)

[frwalkwithme]

[playlist] How I’ve missed you.

[sbeana]

im so normal about them