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defective-4068 · 9 months ago

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Whatever you do, don't think about Buck returning to Hershey for the first time since he left when he was 21 while listening to 'the view between villages' by Noah Kahan

#im dead inside now #i will never emotionally recover from this #evan buckley #911 on abc #911 abc #bucktommy #Spotify

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obsmiechujek · 1 year ago

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anyway hows your day been

#im not complaining btw like godspeed to you freaks im just jelous #i will now proceed to tag the fandoms that inspired this post so feel free to hate me #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #the walking dead #twd #literally opened the twd tag (my mistake)#and the first thing i saw was something about a daryl dick-son busting a nut deep inside y/n and i was like alright man ig #in front of my oatmeal???#doods

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likethexan · 7 months ago

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Been burnt too many times (has their favorite shows cancelled by netflix)

#no bc im watching dead boy detectives fully aware its cancelled but enjoying it nonetheless #bc this doesnt exist in a vacuum. people actually worked hard to make this wonderful show #and now im adding it to the list of cancelled netflix shows i like #along with #lockwood and co #im not okay with this #inside job #warrior nun #shadow and bone #anne with an e #one day at a time #first kill even tho i didnt really love it as much as the rest #dead boy detectives

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joinmeinjoy · 2 years ago

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makorragal-312 · 1 year ago

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The sudden and overwhelming urge I have to record tonight's episode and my reaction to it just in the off chance bisexual history is made tonight.

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candyskiez · 27 days ago

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Btw I need jon to have the most complicated feelings about Jonahs death you ever did see. I need him to hope he never sees him again and feel the hole where he's supposed to be and why isn't he HERE why is he just gone, how can he just be gone? He was ready to live with taking everyone down to save everyone else but he wasn't ready to just. Live a normal life. With a hole. A hole that's forever festering and growing and he cannot stop it. He doesn't even know if he misses him but he's supposed to be here. There's so much anger and longing and confusion and so so much and it has nowhere to go and it's going to burst out and he's terrified of when it will happen. Hello can anyone hear me. Basically I need somewhere else jonelias and I need it to be SO fucked up

#tma spoilers #jonelias #sorry if this is incoherent #im writing this at midnight #he wants him dead and now hes Gone and he wanted that #but there is a hole. and this hole is going to kill him one day. and he can't. tell. anyone #and he misses him so so much #and he wants to see him just to tear hin to shreds again #just for answers #for closure #he was fine with him being dead until he had to be a normal human person #and there is a hole where jonah left a rotting piece of himself inside of him #and it consumes him #sorry. this is incoherent because again. midnight

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michsmeesh · 2 years ago

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hrhhrhrhhh jovier hghrhhh brokeback mountain au hhehjrhjjhgjhkejgdjnhknj its literally 5 am and i just finished these and i hate how they turned out but WHATEVER

i just cant stop thinking about these two and its making me sick!!!!!!!

#jovier #javier escuella #john marston #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #au stuff #will probably draw more for this but for now...#have this little thing jovier nation #my art #michsmeesh #idk this au is just. eating me up from inside #because its literally THEM #im gonna go cry myself to sleep now bye #and tmrw i'll draw more requests #well.#later i'll draw more requests

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willowreadsgayfanfiction · 2 months ago

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#ninjago confidential #ninjago prime empire #ninjago zane #yknow what take the entire transcript for the episode #(Ninjago city is shown in greyscale) Zane: (Narrating in a dramatic voice) Ninjago City. My city.#I know it like the insides of my own circuits. Which is why I know… it has a dark side. My best friends are trapped in an immersive video #game called Prime Empire.(Zane is revealed to have been narrating out loud.)Zane: Yeah #you heard that right. They're being held there by #villain named Unagami. But “Unagami” isn't his real name. It's as fake as a used car salesman's smile. His true identity is Milton Dyer #the computer programmer who designed Prime Empire. The only hope for them getting out of the digital world rests on finding Dyer in the real #world. My world. I was fishing for leads #but for now I find myself adrift on a sea of dead ends....#(P.I.X.A.L. steps out of the fog.)Zane: Then… She walked in.(The color returns to normal.)P.I.X.A.L.: There you are #Zane.Zane: She said #shining the only ray of light into my dreary world!P.I.X.A.L.: Who are you talking to? And why are you dressed like that?Zane: (Speaking #in his normal voice) Since we are engaged in detective work #tracking down a missing person #I have downloaded thousands of detective books #and movies as research.P.I.X.A.L: And that has to do with… hats?Zane: According to my analysis #100 percent of successful detectives wear #trench coats and hats while narrating their thoughts. Thus I have adopted the same methodology. P.I.X.A.L.: It seems improbable that hat #and overly descriptive monologues are significant factors in an investigative outcome.Zane: (Sighs.) I've tried everything else to no #success. This method has to work.P.I.X.A.L.: Well #okay I guess. I do have a new possible avenue of inquiry.Zane: (Dramatic voice) A lead!#P.I.X.A.L.: What?Zane:(normal voice.) Detectives call it a “lead.”P.I.X.A.L.: Okay #I have a “lead”. A source willing to share information #(Zane gets back into character and the colors go back to greyscale.)Zane: (Dramatic voice) Ah… So a “canary” wants to “sing?” Who is it?#(P.I.X.A.L. projects an image of a young Dyer and another figure.)P.I.X.A.L.: Remember this photo from Dyer's childhood home? I was able to #track his friend to Laughy's Karaoke Club. Perhaps he knows Dyer's whereabouts.Zane: So… A rumble on the street gave us a hot tip about a #okay im out of tags go watch the real episode

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lapdogchase · 1 month ago

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i refer to my mother as my mother most of the time to indicate that i have Mommy Issues

#text #chase from my shows also does this sometimes :-)#not always. at least as far as i can tell from the like two scenes where he mentions her ('mom crawled inside a bottle')('mom drank')#(vs 'my mother locked me in my fathers study' 'my mother's been dead for 10 years')#<- this isnt all off the top of my head btw just the first 3. looked up site:clinic-duty.livejournal.com ''chase:'' ''mother''/''mom''#and scanned thru a few pages of results. my fave trick ever for finding what episodes different scenes are in #thank you early house fans on livejournal i love you #what was this post even about. my mommy issues?? its about chase now im thinking about chase now

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ladysatoru · 10 months ago

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mental health so bad you'd think i grew up in konoha

#no amount of therapy can fix me atp i need my gray matter completely rearranged #my therapist cant fix me but i can make him worse #call me kakashi the way im dead inside #maybe this is why i like naruto cz it hits close to psychward (home)#lmao ok ok done with the konoha jokes (for now)#i gotta go watch one piece this shit FIRE yall #naruto #naruto meme

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sluckythewizard · 9 months ago

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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'

#cw blood #SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten #its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then #fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something #also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve #but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere #ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP #THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed #kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me #from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream #and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him #she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she #is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK #I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs #LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH #THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED #TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER #oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much

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violentdelightshavevioletends · 4 months ago

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Welp… I’m bawling like a baby… just read Chapter 36 of Fourth Wing… and I am not okay.

#Fourth Wing #Fourth Wing spoilers #Chapter 36 #first read #spoilers in tags #no further spoilers please unless it’s of comfort lmao so I don’t cry #read along with me cry along with me #why is it always my favorites… this is too soon post KOA #I’m dead inside now… this had bad timing… it’s fine… I’ll write a thing later… for now excuse me while I dress in all black #Rebecca Yarros #how dare you #reading updates #reading reactions #fangirl problems #book trigger warning or maybe it’s my own CPTSD bad timing #Liam Mairi #Deigh #Violet Sorrengail #Tairn #Xaden Riorson #Liam Mairi deserved more #BUT THEY WERE MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT CHARACTER #IVE GROWN TOO ATTATCHED TO THIS BOOK AND NOW IM SCARED #Dain we can’t be friends ever again #Violet go give them hell babe #Rebecca… we’ll be talking about this later 😂😭#this is what I get for reading at 1:00 am #nothing about these tags will age well there’s only pain here

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xxplastic-cubexx · 4 months ago

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More random animal assignment for our favorite divorced couple. This week: Corvids!

Erik as a Common Raven but Leucistic(white feathers and blue eyes)

Charles as a Eurasian Jay

Next week, who knows! Bonus fun fact, Some corvids have been studied to remember faces(even upside down!) and possibly describe them to their flock! They also hold really long grudges.

hell yeah man ... birds .... 🐥

#snap chats #good morning im dead inside but remembering the existence of eurasian jays.. i fear ill make it through today..#you guys ever see this lil baby chick emoji. ive never but its th e cutest thigns . .. i will be spamming it whenever i may now

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woahits-transformers · 17 days ago

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alright mtmte issue 17 we're back we are so fucjking back guys

ITS SO FUCKING OVER ITS OVER AND IM NOT OK ABOUT IT

WHAT DO YOU MEAN TAILGATE IS DYING WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT THE FUCKKK NOT FAIR LET MY OLD MAN LIVE

tbf i do really love cyclonus throughout this realization. it shows how much he actually,, cares(?) for tailgate,, actually idk if care is the right world but he definitely has feelings for him of some capacity. Devastating reveal but I really dont think they will stick to it. if they do ill eat my fuckin words i guess but man i dont think this set up is for a kill I think its for character development for tailgate and cyclonus... also can Ratch stop mentioning pharma id like to forget that freak pls thanks. Pannel of cyclonus scratching his face is... mmm hes upset thats for sure. i,,, mm idk i feel like im missing some context for him as a character on this one but hes angry at himself? at the world? primus? its a result of the tailgate situation obvs and how he feels about it.

HEY RODDY THATS NOT HOW YOU. THATS NOT HOW YOU LEAD BUD fun fucking sidequest to get your barely alive pookie back but like :( get everyone's opinion first come on man... pretty pannel tho

RUNNGGG!!!! come on therapist its adventuring time!!! another really great interaction between the two of them

GIRL. see we need more of this more of old man yaoi tailgate/cyclonus edition. absolutely hilarious pannel it got me REALLY good

my fucking love for brainstorm is never ending i never want him to stfu ever PLEASE keep yapping your stupid unhelpful information ur SO smart. Also obsessed with how Alex Milne draws these damn bots, detail and expressive, comps are 10/10 i can HEAR the tone just through their faces alone amazing stunning. The team also chosen for this adventure is one I am SO looking forward to seeing interact with eachother ^_^ ~

intersting and some really pretty pannels! i think everyone getting blown up after brainstorm says youve just blown my mind is 10/10 comedy! get blown up genious! ALSO perceptors FACE in the pannel with brainstorm fucking with the spark is AMAZNG MAN I LOVE MILNE'S ART SO MUCH these damn expressions so lovely

HEY HEY ITS THE FUCKING GUY I KNOW BUT DONT HEY.... HEY... HEYY

hello... Ambus.... nice to fucking meet you.....

#transformers #transformers mtmte #mtmte #more than meets the eye #transformers idw #idw #sighhhhhhhhhhhhh hey...... hey ambus.... i dont know but know your deal #all i knew b4 i read past this was that he was inside magnus's armor for somereason i did not know the circumstances...#me with the knowledge i have now? not saying but MAN its not what i thought #i though mags was DEAD D E A D DEAD rip bitch #thought he was just livin up in there for protection idk....#tf ambus #tf minimus #tf rodimus #tf tailgate #tf cyclonus #tf brainstorm #tf proceptor #tf run #tf whirl #oh i forgot to mention #loving whirl coming with us reasoning being? roddy wants someone who can fight ok yeah fair #OMG CYCLONUS GETGING TAILGATE TO COME ALONG BC HE KNOWS HES DYING? AMAZING 10/10 BOYFRIEDNS RIGHT THERE #EVEN JUST FRIEDNS #ahhh and the brainstorm content is always welcome... im seeing the beginnings of the proceptor and brainstorm shipping.... its forming #in my mind its begining

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amygdalae · 10 months ago

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ok but a mortuary science degree. hmmm

#ppl were suggesting that in the notes of that earlier post and now im like. thinking #i wonder how many of the gen ed requirements for the art degree im working towards wld be compatible w that. im just thinking #im NOT saying this just cuz Im morbid Ive always had an iron stomach for insides and excelled at dissection in science classes and stuff #and its one of those jobs where the pay seems decent and it sounds like its reasonably easy to find openings #and caring for the dead is a way to help others and that appeals to me. idk #just thinking

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greasydumbfuck · 9 months ago

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thinking about frank and sex (in a sad way)

#marvel #frank castle #the punisher #not as in about sex with him but like how hes portrayed in relation to it in the comics if that makes sense #hes just always so deeply uninterested not just in the women but the act itself too like #so many times hes like. not pressured thats the wrong word but like i can think of at least two times i saw #where the women just kinda. walk themselves into his bed. and hes like 'eh idk about this' but then just kinda does it anyway #like i imagine the writers intended for this to be like a cool guy thing yk like ah he gets so much action and he DOESNT CARE cuz hes COOL #but ME personally i cant help but read it like. god idk i dont want to say him letting himself get used and using them in turn #theres this expression 'going through the motions' that kind of feels right here but idk how to explain it #hes just so weird about it. every time. in my mind i cant imagine him ever really wanting it very much #like maybe to feel good sometimes but its never. idk am i making sense am i just saying shit #is he gay asexual missing his dead wife or just so so fucking traumatized and dead on the inside that his body is just an object now #so many fun ways to interpret this #<guy who is not having fun interpreting this #wish i could just project my thoughts into your heads so youd see exactly what i mean cuz i dont feel im verbalizing this well enough #god take a shot every time i say 'like' or 'just'. youll be off your face from this post only #i may be making shit up tbh idk the thought struck me out of nowhere while i was looking at the ceiling

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