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tv-eater · 8 months ago

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#Aughhhghhhh why do I feel horrible I've had a good day but it's STILL AUGHHHHH #HITTING MY BRAIN CAN IT SHUT UP JUST AUGHHH #in a different way the fact that so much of like information is being lost is making miserable and how like there aren't enough years #For a single person to appreciate all of the art in the world and I really need to make this cohesive so I can like shut it down like #Shut theses thoughts down like it's alright information is not meant to be eternal! And like with the whole particles turn into different tl #Things maybe nothing is ever truly lost n will keep getting rediscovered endlessly #And like there's sooooo many organisations dedicated to this pursuit and doing good work #But despite all of that it makes me feel like HORRIBLE like #IDK does nothing matter????#Like there's so much iw ant to experience and put out into the world and I dont do that #I'm wasting so much of my time why do I never draw why do I never do anything productive cause #Every second that passes its a second I don't have Like I don't I don't want to die without having done anything #BUT EVEN NOW I'M DOING NOTHING BUT LIKE I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED n maybe it'll make everything worth it #AND IT JUST FEELS LIKE IM WASTING MY TIME EVERYDAY MY PEERS R ACHIEVING SO MUCH AND I'M NOT #But it's alright it's alright I'll keep saying this until I can believe it cause it's alright it's all fine but AUHH #hi if ur reading this ig

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friendlyneighborhoodghostpal · 2 months ago

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i’m just gonna say it i love how kaos handled orpheus and eurydice. i really did, im a huge greek mythology nerd and that story has always been about the refusal to give someone up even when you should, its not a love story its a story about grief. and i just- ah they did something really cool there didn’t they? i’m gonna rewatch the season and like properly form my opinions but i really like it.

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gauloiseblue · 7 months ago

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This is Price. You can't change my mind

#call of duty #cod #cod mw2 #john price x reader #price x reader #captain price #price cod #idk where this came from #i found it on pinterest #anyway #imagine marrying retired price and all he does is getting you pregnant. like. nothing else matter........

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tempestmothstorm · 27 days ago

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pt 2 of memes that vaguely relate to the ambiguous nihilism theme essay and stuff except this one is a lot dumber

#something something nobody has actual proof of consciousness but that doesnt mean you should treat people like garbage something something #something something monika had no idea the rest of the club was sentient and therefore could do whatever she wanted even though she really #shouldnt because what if they were sentient and also why does something definitely existing even matter if she has proof of nothing in life #admittedly a lot of this is more shaky and unrelated than the other one but i also think this meme is really funny to me so im doing it too #also made this in like ten minutes idk why i decided to edit a crappy dye job to my pencil sketch but i need to get this out into the world #doki doki literature club #ddlc #art #fanart #artists on tumblr #tempestarttag

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pixlokita · 10 months ago

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I feel like ? I gotta remind people it’s ok to unfollow a blog when it upsets you in any way >> like if I ever do that sure, you can let me know if it was anything I did personally I’d appreciate it but if you just don’t enjoy something it’s ok to unfollow ;w; can’t stress enough how important it is to put your mental health first ��

#pix habla #fnaf #✨💖 even if you don’t like frogs and I post about frogs does that make sense #i see some yall not liking some of the stuff I draw and just kinda wonder ? why you still follow lol #i won’t take it personally #even if it’s a mutual heck I’ve even told my friends to unfollow if they ever need a break from my blog =w=👌#because It’s nothing personal >>#i used to ok so funny story xD I used to follow a friend in middle school on social media #and we were good friends but had nothing in common in what we posted about =w=#like she loved Beatles fanfics (don’t ask do not ask idk I didn’t read past the titles)#and i loved sonic :v #and like #thats aigh ? you don’t gotta ? follow a blog that doesn’t bring joy no matter if you’re close or not #i would honestly hate it if I’m making anyone upset or unhappy #so yeyeyeye I’ve said this before in other fandoms but like >>)✨✨💖 put 👏 your mental health 👏👏👏 FIRST ALWAYS👏#Stay safe y’all ✨👌 have fun be free #we’re all just… sitting here… online 😔 ain’t nothing to it

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fiendishartist2 · 2 months ago

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random astroboy doodles that idk if i'll finish

#my art #artists on tumblr #astro boy 2003 #tetsuwan atom #astro boy #uran astro boy #i love uran i think shes the funniest character in the show #im watching 2003 btw #no sense of stranger danger no anxiety no self preservation. she does smth bc she wants to and thats it #idk i want to line these but smth about the brush im using kinda doesnt look nice on astroboy stuff ?#also im just not in the mood for drawing lately. i have assignments and ive been in a weird headspace for a couple weeks #nothing feels real or like it matters but im also really nervous all the time so thats awesome #whatever. ill probably finish these after my homework is done #digital art

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faaun · 2 months ago

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the way that diff languages sound r so fascinating they're all different and all so vivid

#russian is like the surface of a feather like it's light but not exactly “soft” but still very delicate #german is . cute ? i think it's adorable . it has a lot of momentum it makes u wanna talk fast and talk a lot #like it's squishy . sleek surface w a soft inside #thai is like song . it's like interprative dance or maybe a trust-fall . everything follows from the previous thing #it feels like a little fairy flying up and letting itself fall and flying up again and so on (for fun). its so beautiful but also playful #mandarin chinese is like . idk why but it gives me the same vibe the concept of Observation does . like to read and to see and absorb #and then to translate that into smth else . like . imagine a poet people watching or an artist preparing a canvas w practiced hands. thats #the vibe. soft and elegant and musical but like...in a way that feels lived-in. arabic feels wise ? like music or poetry u read #and feel nothing about then years later u stumble on and it applies to everything in ur life. that kind of vibe. like it knows more than u #and itll make sure ur heart and soul grows as big as its lexicon . polish is like snowflakes falling . it has the feeling of complexity and #elegance but it's also so so light and slippery and...maybe not elusive but the feeling of losing a dance partner in a waltz ? like fun and #light but also an underlying elegance and somberness still . turkish is like the feeling when u get a text from ur crush #and your heart tightens and you cant tell if it's really painful or really amazing . it feels like unrequited love . or a caress #or making out with someone when you know its the last time you'll see them. its beautiful in a yearning longing way #korean is like joking around w ur friends and you've stayed up until like almost 5 AM and youre so delirious that everything is funny #and ur speaking kind of lightly and openly and everything you say holds a lot of weight and doesnt matter at all. you laugh at everything #and youre practically talking in inside jokes and watching the sunrise together . one of them hits u on the shoulder lovingly. ur by a fire #yoruba feels like the metatheory of the matatheory . abstraction until it circles back to intuition or maybe #it feels like plotting the route of a comet or maybe like the soft warm whirr of statistics. trying to verbalise beauty somehow #when you know the best thing you can show it is by telling everyone just look!! look at the sky just look!#anyway yh i think i could do this for every language ever tbh

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bitchthefuck1 · 8 months ago

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Rewatching succession it really is wild to see Kendall and Shiv convince themselves over and over again that they can "fix ATN/Waystar from the inside" only to completely abandon their morals the minute it gives them a strategic advantage.

When they're on the outside it's an endless diatribe about how evil and rotten the company is to its core, but the second they get the slightest whiff of power they suddenly decide the problems are actually really manageable and that with the right leadership it could be a force for good, and like...the saddest part is that they genuinely seem to believe that.

#where's that crime and punishment quote about how the worst thing is that you've betrayed yourself for nothing...#and they really seem to think its true! they genuinely believe that they can turn it around and make it good! it's not an act!#kendall really thinks he's a feminist and 'one of the good ones' and shiv really does think she stands with/for women and liberal #ideals and the truth is that no matter how much they might care about those things they will always love power more and they #are infinitely more invested in the power structures that keep injustice alive than they are in actually trying to stop injustice #roman is the only one who's actually aware and honest about how fucked it all is but he thinks that means everything's bullshit and #therefore nothing matters. which can be just as dangerous as convincing yourself you're the good guy (see: america decides)#that's one of the things i like so much about the ending for shiv and kendall bc they're finally forced to confront the lies they've been #telling themselves. and like. maybe that'll go nowhere. maybe they won't change. but they might. and the only hope they have #of actually growing as people and maybe doing something good is if that illusion gets shattered #idk man i just have so many thoughts about succession #succession #shiv roy #kendall roy

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ecofear · 4 months ago

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when i was younger like. early to mid twenties. i used to get so mad at all the 'its a dating sim' jokes towards rpgs with romance in it. and now i'm just like.. i ain't got the time nor the energy to be upset that some people play these games exclusively for romance. there's nothing wrong with that. many people read romance novels exclusively and are only there for the romance portions, in games we have a billion visual novels where no one cares about the story and just wanna romance pretty people, blah blah romance as a genre exists for a reason and rpgs with romance options are the best option still for 'make your own character to romance the character of choice' whereas everything else gives you a premade, even in visual novels you have a premade character even if you can name them and maybe change a few things, its all very basic... i have nothing against people who use rpgs to get that same feeling but having more control over how they get it

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#fray.txt #i just think choosing to be annoyed by 'its a dating sim' is hurting yourself #i encourage anyone to let go of that judgement you are placing on others who are ultimately doing nothing harmful and are simply having fun #all youre doing is 1. making urself feel like shit whenever u see these comments #and 2. potentially making your friends/mutuals feel like shit for feeling that way about these rpgs #you'd be surprised how many people here play these games for romance but feel too ashamed to admit it because of judgemental mindsets #over something that simply does not matter #i havent played any interactive fiction stuff so idk how that interacts with romance #but i do know you tend to have a preset character u can only change name/pronouns of #and maybe adjust personality for different stats in the game part

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trainingdummyrabbit · 2 months ago

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though i do gotta say, the state of affairs on yt is Rather Dire, I Think. trying to look for anything interesting at all and its "THE BEST GAME YOUVE NEVER PLAYED??" "THE THING ABOUT [popularseries] NOBODY KNOWS??" "I GOT CREATORS TO DO THING????" "CAN YOU [videogame] WHILE [scenario]????" that same thumbnail artstyle, big red arrows and over-the-top surprised expressions and and and its so disingenuous. like yeah i know it works and all but. oil in water. it all smudges together yknow.

and then over edited captions spinning and bobbing across the entire screen, those same few background music tracks (that are absolutely never credited), smug commentary that comes across as the audio equivalent of a dreamworks face, constant cut ins of meme images as bits about as entertaining as 'haha dont you recognize this image? theres character in this image instead, isnt that so funny?' like arent you tired? arent you all so tired? are we not all so fucking tired??

#not that id know anything abt any of that. or that id know what to do instead.#piktalk #i had t stop watching a lot of people bc its always '[popularseries]-LIKE GAME???' '[popularseries] BUT ITS [mild difference]?????'#its so disingenuous. you arent even playing this bc you want to enjoy it or bc it interests you; its all engagement.#what does that mean for people who actually like the game? doesnt matter really; does it?#reducing things to 'its like Thing but Different' and nothing else is so irritating but it happens so often.#because they never expand on it!! they only take it at face value as a Haha Isnt That Something? Moving On #even if the game genuinely has something to go on about.#its a good intro; a good setpiece; but you cant just leave it at that :( it implies it to be completely derivative; when it usually isnt.#idk man! its dire out here! this sucks!

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mamawasatesttube · 6 months ago

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i wish it wasn't so normal for people to complain about unfinished wips or fics that take a long time to update. because sometimes i think i have a really fun idea for a fic but it'd take a while for me to write, and i like talking about my work as i do it and i don't like writing entire fics over like 20k without sharing, because i lose steam. so if i were to write and post that cool fic idea, it'd be as a wip. and then i think about all the people who just refuse to engage with wips, or all the other people who would just go "update pls" all the time, and of how people only really comment in the first 24 hours something is posted and then it's lost to obscurity, and then i just go "actually whats the point in going through the effort writing this out? i'll just daydream about it now and then and be done with it." and then i don't write it. alas!

#rimi talks #shoutout to that one person who followed me from resi fandom and commented on one of my dc fics like ''pls update that resi fic''#also shoutout to all those tumblr posts about how theres nOthInG wOrSe than finding a GoOd FiC but its uNFiNIsHeD #i used to really like writing longfic but these days i kind of shy away from it bc it rly does get discouraging #like they say ''write for yourself'' and i do but i certainly dont share just for my own satisfaction yk???#anyways. i already have space fic and theres no need for me to start another fic. even if it would be fun.#ive also just been in a Mood about writing since yesterday and thats not helping matters 😔#but it feels like a stupid thing to be in A Mood about. idk. whatever jdlksk hopefully itll pass and ill be normal tomorrow :/#bc talking to duck earlier today we came up with a really fun mermay fic premise. but. writing? me? multichap again? lol. lmao even #like i would love to!!!!!! having two ongoing multichaps wouldnt kill me i like to pingpong between wips #but dealing with people whining about update times or telling me they refuse to read bc its a wip...... dunno if i can do that again fellas #okay. enough woes and whining. i guess i will go play a video game

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peridots-pixiwolf · 2 years ago

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Highly doubt I’m the first one to point this out with seven months since act II released but. y’know the sentient terminal theory from the p-1 entry

[Start ID. An ULTRAKILL screenshot of the terminal at the end of the level 5-3: SHIP OF FOOLS. It has been tipped over on its side from the Leviathan capsizing the ship, and its Tip of the Day has been replaced with the word “Ow.” End ID]

#nothing more to say about it really. but i never noticed cause i never realized the entrance and exit are the same for this level #you will all be subjected to more ultrakill theorizing and rants by the way. i'm brainrotting over this game so much right now #i also feel like there was something in the p-2 entry about this so maybe this doesn't matter anyway but idk yet. actually refusing to spoi #this for myself for once. yippie #terminal ultrakill #ultrakill #bots #i like them actually...ai friends :]#peridots-nonsense #does?? this count as spoilers???? for p-1 i mean. i don't think i'll tag it as such cause it's been a while anyway. also it's speculation #alright gonna stop here. i have a related art piece that i finished yesterday but i've been procrastinating on posting it. hopefully should #be up tomorrow!#update got the time wrong. i thought it was sep not aug

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transmascutena · 8 months ago

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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

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koushuwu · 10 months ago

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𝐈𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐢 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐣𝐢 ↳ for @strawberrystepmom

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 4 months ago

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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst

#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back #but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my #normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all #tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK #and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never #had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do #nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses #some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad #i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out #and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels #i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that #w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry #i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's #dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes #and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts #anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain #chemistry is off #k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going #to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji

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jynjackets · 1 year ago

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I will forget my own name before I forget jyn caressing cassians hair in the elevator on scarif

#they’re so insane #this devotion and all of it paying off #they had each other do you understand????#i will never be over them #idk how you guys watch rogue one repeatedly when I have to pause every now and then #to throw up #nothing has such a chokehold on me #does the holonet understand that they’re together forever in the force???#do people in the star wars write fic about them???#chass na chadic totally did #there was the possibly they would die nameless #but no no legacy could compare to they way they looked at each other in that elevator #THEY HAD EACH OTHER #that’s all that ever mattered AND MORE THAN THEY COULD HAVE DREAMED OF #A LIFETIME OF PAIN AND THEY FOUND LOVE IN THE END #random rebelcaptain #so sick #rebelcaptain #rogue one

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