#IDK MAN YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW

[crows-bite]

Been thinking so much about Marigold specifically in the ORP universe so I’m obligated to come make a whole post to explain some of my thoughts.

I don’t knowwww I just think a lot about how Maverick was. Very clearly loved by this woman. Like they still carry that love with them in little ways, they’ve been marked by it forever you know? Like she was not their mother, and their relationship was very non conventional but she was like. As Good As a mother to them. I think she saw herself like a mother even if Mav never saw her that way. It kills me because their relationship in ORP is honestly much less complicated and a lot better than it is in canon. Marigold is like… well tbh I can’t get into it because spoilers but she is very morally questionable and kinda fucked up but like her care for Mav is still very much there.

I wouldn’t be able to say for sure but I honestly don’t think it’s out of the question that in ORP she died getting in the way of The Dread and trying to give Mav the best chance possible at running. But like MAV DOESN’T KNOW THAT and it’s fucked them up so badly. Because they never looked back, man. They just ran immediately and even if it’s what she would’ve wanted them to do they just fully believe they left her for dead.

Like. Ok. Atp Mav is just of the mindset of like. That loss hurt so badly because what do you do when you’ve got nobody else and the one person in the world that loves you like family dies and you think it’s your fault, you know? But they’ve just got this anger about the whole situation. Angry at themself but also angry at her because if she hadn’t died they’d still have somebody. It’s just really soured their whole perception of her isn’t that nuts. As if she did it on purpose. (THE THING IS SHE KINDA DID OUT OF LOVE AND THEY DON’T KNOWWWW THEY DON’T EVEN KNOWWW) and now all of those feelings have just been reinforced x100 being with the Brooks family because they don’t have that. And maybe they would if Marigold were still alive.

[egophiliac]

I just realized it'll take the eng server almost a year to reach the 3D Cheka T pose model :' ) we're at book 7 part 6, and we get a new main story update every 2 to 3 months..

Anyway, do you wanna share some fun, spoiler-free shenanigans that happened in jp's server.? Just to have some crumbs to lick off the table until we get our own sandwich (my heart is empty and my soul is crying)

spoiler-free is pretty hard, especially considering. the, uhhh, particular turn that things take directly after 6. (like, the fact that the other characters are showing up probably counts on its own?) and I do think that if you can avoid getting spoiled, most of it is definitely better as a surprise! some of the genuinely best Twst moments are waiting for you. :D

if I may, however, present one of my favorite little throwaway bits with absolutely no context:

[tubbytarchia]

Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

[teaboot]

tranny freak :)

[rapidhighway]

people feel the need to mention aro and ace people before valentines day like it's a day of mourning for us or something or like you think we're gonna be sad and angry and jealous of everyone because we're secretly sad or something when personally I never even think about vaneltines until someone mentions to be how I'M going to be spending it as an aroace

[mamawasatesttube]

there is some kind of heartbreaking parallel to be drawn between clark after his first appearance as superman realizing what was happening with everyone clamoring for his attention:

"They all want a piece of me, Pa. And I - I don't know how to deal with it." (Superman: The Man Of Steel #21)

and the way ma and pa's guidance is what gets him through that, whereas with kon, we know:

"I guess that's just it, Martha... You didn't raise this boy!" (Adventures of Superman #501)

kon never got that kind of support or guidance. he didn't know any better about all the attention he was getting. clark saw the mob descend upon him and said, "Everybody had something they wanted me to do, to say, to sell..." because he had 20+ years of life experience and parents who raised him to be kind, but aware.

kon, meanwhile, within his first few weeks of being alive, had:

"...saw the Superman fly by an' wanted to meet him, so we just kinda thought we'd drive off the bridge, y'know?"

"The boy is my target?" "Hello? Yeah, it's done. Just remember - the kid's all mine!"

"Nothing happens that Lex doesn't know about almost instantly! Think how that could help you! Plus, we could work together every day! Wouldn't that be fun?"

"Before you get... too well acquainted, I'll need your John Hancock, son."

"You're using him, Vinnie!" "Simply following your lead, my dear. Or can he only be twisted around your finger to further your career?"

(all caps from Adventures of Superman #502)

just like with clark, everyone is clamoring to use kon for their own ends (aos 502 is a little hard to read because of it, honestly - tana, vinnie edge, rex (using roxy too), and mae and lex, one after another). except that kon never had parents to teach him what to look out for. kon is two weeks old and everyone wants a piece of him, and he doesn't even realize it.

[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

another day on tumblr reading another post that implies im a miserable racist bigot for thinking i would perhaps like some role playing variety in my role playing game

[silusvesuius]

nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

[shithowdy]

realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

[gameboyhamazing]

thinking abt the inherent tragedy of being in timeloops in a setting (game, franchise, etc.) where half the value is getting attached and sharing experiences with ppl but bc of the timeloops they never remember the experiences you had and may in fact never meet you again because it hurts you too much to try and relate to them again

[joshnekuu]

Sonknux thoughts

So like. Sonic is aro, to me. Potentially incredibly greyaro, and has just like, never met That Person that clicks into the romance zone for him.

Meanwhile Knuckles is like. Hi I’ll die before I admit to myself, let alone Sonic, that I have feelings for him.

So this isn’t exactly a relationship that just happens. There needs to be something that pushes the truth out of knux for Sonic to ever realize that Knuckles has fallen for him, and when it finally does, I don’t think Sonic would like… know what to do with this information.

He’s kind of touched. Like… Knuckles is his best friend next to Tails, even if they fight a lot. And while he’s known that Knuckles cares about him more than he likes to admit, there’s something… relieving? About knowing that Knuckles really cares about him that much, to the point that he’s in love with him.

But at the same time there’s this sort of… awkward guilt, of not knowing how to respond. It’s not like he doesn’t like Knuckles. He’s just… never thought of him that way. Never thought of ANYONE that way, but it doesn’t help that it never even crossed his mind Knuckles might have feelings for him.

He doesn’t want to reject Knuckles outright, but he doesn’t exactly feel like he can just say ‘yeah let’s date’, because he’s not sure he can really do that honestly. It’s a weird feeling. It’s different than Amy’s infatuation with him when they were younger, where he didn’t want anything to do with it. Sure, he never wanted to hurt Amy by turning her down, but it felt easier to run away from that. To avoid dealing with it.

But it’s still different. With Amy, he’s always known he just didn’t feel that way about her. She’s one of his best friends and he loves her dearly, just… not like that. He’s had time to consider it, to think about it, and the answer always remained the same- he just didn’t see her like that. He’s never thought that way about Knuckles either, but more so in the vein of, like… it never crossed his mind as a possibility. Why would Knuckles ever feel that way about him, when he’s always caused problems for him, when they’ve always butted heads, when they’ve always been so… opposite?

It’s a weird feeling. He doesn’t know that he feels the same way about Knuckles that Knuckles feels about him, but he knows that it doesn’t… feel Bad, knowing that Knuckles feels this way about him. It’s reassuring, relieving, comforting, to know that Knuckles loves him. And it feels nice, knowing that Knuckles isn’t expecting him to reciprocate, that Knuckles isn’t asking anything of him- he didn’t even want to tell him these feelings, it just kind of came out, there was never any belief that Sonic would respond in kind and they’d start dating.

… but at the same time that does stir up this ache in Sonic, a sadness. Because Knuckles genuinely doesn’t believe Sonic could feel the same about him. And it’s less because of who Sonic is as a person, and more about how Knuckles perceives himself. It’s not that Knuckles just doesn’t think Sonic could ever be with ANYONE, it’s that he can’t conceive of Sonic ever wanting to be with him. And Sonic can’t help but feel upset about that.

And it makes him realize that maybe he would. If things were different. If he didn’t struggle to stay in one place so much, if Knuckles weren’t so tethered to one spot. As much as Knuckles has always longed for freedom, Sonic has wanted that for him too. And Knuckles being honest about his feelings, confessing something like this, he admires that. He doesn’t want to just say no. He doesn’t want to just turn Knuckles down.

And maybe it’s not the same sort of love that Knuckles feels. But Sonic does love Knuckles, Knuckles is one of the certainties in his life that he’s come to rely on, someone he wants to see succeed and thrive and be happy. If that’s not love, what is?

And maybe that’s enough. Maybe their love doesn’t have to be exactly the same, for it to be there, for it to be enough. Maybe just wanting to be able to reciprocate can be enough for now.

[pigswithwings]

web weave of the ocean?

Ships and the Sea

Sources: Original Poetry 🌊 Illustration for "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner", Gustave Doré 🌊 "Storm on the Azov Sea", Ivan Aivazovsky 🌊 Original Poetry 🌊 @/maybe-itsforthebest 🌊 "Point Bonita Lighthouse", Frederick Ferdinand Schafer 🌊 Eragon (Inheritance #1), Christopher Paolini 🌊 Original Poetry 🌊 Illustration for "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner", Gustave Doré 🌊 Original Poetry

[sunnykeysmash]

Man of words

[skunkes]

i loooove when ocs unrealized development makes them feel like real people like no i dont know whether talon is genuinely attracted to women after years of both clinging to them for safety and years of putting them onto that untouchable idealized Perfect Protector Pedestal that must remain untainted by any bad experiences, so he doesn't even try to Be With any. He doesn't know either

[fenharel]

for the past month I've been musing about how much datv feels like as if someone at bioware was like "guys we are in the shit and we need a hit STAT. what's our most beloved game? mass effect 2!! let's make that again but in dragon age" and yet it's the most criticized da game I've seen

[i3utterflyeffect]

What if one day, Alan came home early, insisted that Chosen would stay to dinner, and they have big family dinner together? And everything so surreal for Chosen, so when they come back home, Dark can't stop asking Cho why they look so stunned.

god yeah-- i don't think he'd insist on chosen staying personally but there's no way SC doesn't beg them to stay--