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crows-bite · 7 months ago

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Been thinking so much about Marigold specifically in the ORP universe so I’m obligated to come make a whole post to explain some of my thoughts.

I don’t knowwww I just think a lot about how Maverick was. Very clearly loved by this woman. Like they still carry that love with them in little ways, they’ve been marked by it forever you know? Like she was not their mother, and their relationship was very non conventional but she was like. As Good As a mother to them. I think she saw herself like a mother even if Mav never saw her that way. It kills me because their relationship in ORP is honestly much less complicated and a lot better than it is in canon. Marigold is like… well tbh I can’t get into it because spoilers but she is very morally questionable and kinda fucked up but like her care for Mav is still very much there.

I wouldn’t be able to say for sure but I honestly don’t think it’s out of the question that in ORP she died getting in the way of The Dread and trying to give Mav the best chance possible at running. But like MAV DOESN’T KNOW THAT and it’s fucked them up so badly. Because they never looked back, man. They just ran immediately and even if it’s what she would’ve wanted them to do they just fully believe they left her for dead.

Like. Ok. Atp Mav is just of the mindset of like. That loss hurt so badly because what do you do when you’ve got nobody else and the one person in the world that loves you like family dies and you think it’s your fault, you know? But they’ve just got this anger about the whole situation. Angry at themself but also angry at her because if she hadn’t died they’d still have somebody. It’s just really soured their whole perception of her isn’t that nuts. As if she did it on purpose. (THE THING IS SHE KINDA DID OUT OF LOVE AND THEY DON’T KNOWWWW THEY DON’T EVEN KNOWWW) and now all of those feelings have just been reinforced x100 being with the Brooks family because they don’t have that. And maybe they would if Marigold were still alive.

#ORP #Maverick Clarke #Marigold #Gripping my head and whatnot you know #Gestures madly #Like do you see do you understand #There are so many issues and diseases stuck in this relationship especially now that Marigold is dead but like #UGH. UGH.#Once I give her a proper redesign and fullbody it’s over #She’s honestly such a good person in ORP because she’s got a lot of love in her heart always but once you take away the [BLEEP] from canon #Like #She’s just very chill #I do find her more interesting in canon though because morally #There’s a lot going on #And her relationship with Maverick and the strained quality to it and like #Maverick’s anger is a lot more understandable and grounded #But ORP still kills me.#IDK MAN YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW #THEIR HAT LIKE THAT THING NEVER FUCKING LEAVES THEIR HEAD #THEY’VE BUILT THEIR IMAGE AROUND THAT THING #AND MARIGOLD MADE IT FOR THEM…?#It’s honestly kind of a childish design like who goes around with a beanie with horns on it like it’s intimidating or scary you know #But she made it for them and it’s the one thing they really have.#That shows that.#Spews blood

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tubbytarchia · 9 months ago

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Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

#rendoc #still thinking about them a lot #always #hermitshipping #sorry for the weird empty area in the first one. It was my attempt to make it take up less of people's timelines #this art is so embarrassing lol but man I like when Doc's drawn as a big goat man I have no defense I plead the fifth #or well at least it becomes embarrassing when its. shippy #whatever Tumblr people are usually cool so here goes!!#I am 99% a fluff and hurt/comfort person. Idc how frisky these guys get in fanon all I can ever think of is fluff sorry #Also contemplated implementing Doc's accent into the dialogue but I am forever paranoid of offending someone lol #idk how to write accents etc but you guys will make it sound fine in your heads I'm sure #hermitblr #tubby art

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teaboot · 4 days ago

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tranny freak :)

#Negativity #Transphobia #I don't know what to tell you buddy I'm not sure what your goal is here #I am genuinely so much happier like this #Figuring out that I'm a tranny freak has been the absolute best thing ever #All the loved ones who I've come out to have been so welcoming and supportive #I get to experiment with my appearance like I haven't done since my punk days in highschool #And I've always been a weirdo so freak isn't even hurtful that's been a point of pride for decades #What made you want to hurt a stranger buddy #What are you going through #Are you gonna read this and scoff cause I took a troll sincerely #Why are you so afraid of genuine connection #Why are you scared of people #Are you happy with your life right now #Do you like yourself #How much time do you spend doing this #Do you think the negativity might be getting to you #How much time do you spend feeling repulsed scornful and annoyed towards others that you gotta do something about it #I'm really sorry #I used to be a similar kinda angry and that shit taints everything #Idk man I just hope you can see the joy in things someday #There's so much cool and exciting stuff you can find when you start looking for happiness and good intentions #Kinda sad that you're missing out

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silusvesuius · 5 months ago

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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils #but it's ok i just needed a nap #something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me #wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas #something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh #i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn #(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e #i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real #i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel #also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay #is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level #when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU #look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it #at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal

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shithowdy · 3 months ago

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realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

#idk if ill ever open up completely about that shitshow but #i think 8 years is past the statute of limitations to vaguepost about it #late tag addition but man now i'm thinking about it all at 4am #how did in the good goddamn did i witness that and still not only let them make me an officer #but also let them put me functionally in charge of their guild IC #while those two fucked off and erped in instanced zones or played overwatch #and i and my then-rp-partner took the heat for the meandering plotline #until my partner vented to the wrong person about the abuse #and it got back to them #and we got to experience the surreality of an honest to god guild coup #all to salvage the image of some egomaniac abuser #certified fucking wra moment #its been 8 years and thinking about how i was treated in the end makes me feel sick lol #they made a new guild discord and invited everyone but us #and when i noticed the channel had gone quiet i asked what was up #and was met with gaslighting about how i'm 'thinking too much' about the channel being a 'little slow'#and it took pushing to get an early admission of what was about to happen #so we logged on and quit ourselves #which fucked up the narrative they had constructed #and they lied in the new channel that WE were the ones doing a 'coup' and that we stole the members who left with us #i guess i am opening up after all #i had to play the fucking villain of that scenario for the past 8 years #all to protect the mental health of people who hurt me #why #if you were there and know what i'm referencing with all of this... there's the fucking story #the person in question is a massively popular artist #i just dont have it in me to fight that fight

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gameboyhamazing · 2 years ago

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thinking abt the inherent tragedy of being in timeloops in a setting (game, franchise, etc.) where half the value is getting attached and sharing experiences with ppl but bc of the timeloops they never remember the experiences you had and may in fact never meet you again because it hurts you too much to try and relate to them again

#i was thinking about pokemon #and how in the context of a pkmn game #timeloops are esp. tragic #bc in pkmn when u reset thats just it. you will never ever see those pokemon again #you can find one with the same stats maybe. same gender #same everything. same name. same moves abilities etc.#but they will never be the ones you met first #no matter how long you spend with them they are still different beings entirely no matter how closely identical #idk man it kinda fucky #this applies to other franchise timeloops n shit but pkmn hits diff for some reason #bc every mon you meet is randomized and created on the spot and for that reason there's always something different #idk how to phrase it better but. yeah.

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pigswithwings · 1 year ago

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web weave of the ocean?

Ships and the Sea

Sources: Original Poetry 🌊 Illustration for "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner", Gustave Doré 🌊 "Storm on the Azov Sea", Ivan Aivazovsky 🌊 Original Poetry 🌊 @/maybe-itsforthebest 🌊 "Point Bonita Lighthouse", Frederick Ferdinand Schafer 🌊 Eragon (Inheritance #1), Christopher Paolini 🌊 Original Poetry 🌊 Illustration for "The Rime of the Ancient Mariner", Gustave Doré 🌊 Original Poetry

#my webs #web weaving #webweaving #poetry #oou... i love the ocean it actually took me a good while to figure out What Specifically to focus on... fun for the whole family:]#anyways thank you for the request!!! i hope the choice of poetry is ok and that. this is comprehensible !!!#ocean and sea #boats and ships #water #idk man you ever think about how going out to sea is willingly giving yourself over to the whims of nature? you run the risk of being eaten #shrugs #long post

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sunnykeysmash · 1 year ago

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Man of words

#s16 spoilers #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #parallels #I didn't exactly know how to name this thread but i had some scattered thoughts on it #dennis is the one mac depends on to define things. he's the man of words. but this situation is very limiting #firstly because mac can't read subtext. and dennis will rarely be open in his words. but he also doesn't know everything.#cant define everything. and by forcing the situation to have dennis speak for both. what actually happens is mac gets silenced #and when mac cant speak. no one besides dennis can ever possibly understand him. and that is very isolating. because den wont be open. cant #but they trust each other. theyre following each other's lead. and they're missing the right words #den defines his own self worth in the relationship by being able to have the right words. mac is the man of action! after all #but if mac learns to speak for himself. if mac doesn't depend on den (chokes). if mac is noticed for his appearance as den becomes insecure #(''what if my shirt falls off?'') what does den have left for mac? but mac will fall for him no matter what.#''make up or not you are the golden god! it's all about what's in here💗''#maybe words arent necessary anymore. dont ask just do. and mac's the man of action... OR IS HE.#mac doesn't really act now does he. they got it backwards. don't they? mac got a lot better with his words in time...#idk lots to think about let me know what u think lolll #threads

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i3utterflyeffect · 5 months ago

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What if one day, Alan came home early, insisted that Chosen would stay to dinner, and they have big family dinner together? And everything so surreal for Chosen, so when they come back home, Dark can't stop asking Cho why they look so stunned.

god yeah-- i don't think he'd insist on chosen staying personally but there's no way SC doesn't beg them to stay--

#tommy's foolery #he's just like. 'only if you want to hahh please don't force yourself to be around me'#but meanwhile sc is in the corner. with those Big Ol Eyes #they're too cute how is chosen supposed to refuse their little baby sibling like that!!!!!!!#<- oh man actually imagine if that's where they finally start processing that yeah actually sc is their little sibling huh.#and alan is treating them nice enough that it just causes some cognitive dissonance there........#idk man!!! 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥#tommy's stickmen tag #tommy's aus #tommy's stick!alan #selkie sticks au #i don't think alan would be comfortable with forcing anything on chosen but SC doesn't exactly get the Implications here #they're just a littol baby!!!! they want their friend here for dinner!!!#esp if sc ever hears chosen complain about there not being food back home. bc there's no way that dark and chosen eat on a healthy schedule #chosen tries to refuse but sc genuinely looks like they're about to start Fucking Bawling. they don't have a choice #just. aurrghhhhhhhhhhhh!! 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

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worstloki · 4 months ago

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Fortesa Latifi, We Were Young

#web weaving #kudos to @abby118 for posted the 3rd image up. it was very inspiring(TM) so i stole it #webweaving #i just. idk i just wonder if Loki genuinely felt unloved while being raised #''no matter how much you claimed to love me''#like they made claims. they weren't telling the truth #they didn't love him but they loved thor #why did they love thor so much that there was none to spare for him?#i wonder if he thought like that at any point #if he saw thor's banishment to midgard and considered for even a moment that maybe thor wasn't loves so much either?#that they both pulled the short straw #except loki knows why he knows what he did wrong and that can't be corrected exactly #but he can still taint thor #he can say to thor's face that banishing thor strained odin so much the old man passed away and have it believed #would loki ever believe such a thing if it was said to him?#that his parents cared to that extent?#did they ever #thor's humility arc too... he really had his brother lie to him. and then his brother was gone. no answers about why.#a father who would banish him a mother who wouldn't speak up when he was banished #he wasn't loved as much as he thought. he wasn't as perfect as he thought and that cost him his brother?#it cost him too much to learn an old lesson he should have known #do you think thor resented loki for that too #i think they should have complex emotions @ each other about how they were raised. btw

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chaoticlandworlder · 4 months ago

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What is with the practically psychotic hate for Lance Stroll? I'm not even his fan- more indifferent- but the hate he gets is sickening. Like just see the recent 'Never have I ever' vid- so many top comments on youtube, instagram etc. are just spouting shit about him (attacking his looks, calling him window licker wtf etc.) based off the 'Never have I ever stood up someone question' (and of course they conveniently ignore all the other drivers that also said they have because it's trendy to hate on Stroll).

Of course, standing up someone sucks but first of all we have no context at all, and more importantly, it's clear the commenters don't actl give a shit about that because they're only hating on Stroll. This is literally just one instance of the way these F1 'fans' are so quick to seize any opportunity to put down Lance. Honestly, it's so off-putting, pathetic and sad.