#I. Spontaneously felt like doing this. For just fun haha

[morsobaby]

Dinner table words in finnish !

Haarukka - fork

Lusikka - spoon

Veitsi - knife

Lautanen - plate

Kulho - bowl

Kauha - ladle

Suola - salt

Pippuri - pepper

Pöytä - table

Tuoli - chair

Related sayings!

Hyvää ruokahalua! - wishing You a good appetite and a good meal

Älä puhu ruoka suussa - Don't speak with food in your mouth

Ruokarauha - peace to eat (you might request this if people are being rowdy or loud in the vicinity, or the table)

Kiitos ruuasta - thank you for the food

[mtkmsp]

THE RETURN OF COVID Horror/thriller movie style!! I don't think I could find enough words to express how much I love doing those posters............ For this one, I felt like the cast of "antagonists" of the movie would make for a pretty awesome composition and mood, and paired with the church setting I think I got something pretty interesting, haha. More below!

As it happens, a fandom friend asked if I could maybe some day record my process, and therefore I did! (and went the extra mile adding goofy horror songs to it...) Check it out if you're interested :)

I've detailed it in the YT vid description as well, but my process is rather straightforward. I tend to be a "lazy person" in that I like to, ideally, spend the least time possible on anything, and so far this process is how I've best achieved that while still managing some rather complex pieces. I like to be extremely rough with my sketches and prioritize dynamism and composition, and I usually take my time repositioning the characters until I'm satisfied before I go any further. I don't have the best mental visualization so I usually try to have a very rough idea of what I want before I directly jump to sketching and mostly ideate there. The lineart is very straightforward as well. I come back later to adjust line thickness here and there but otherwise I just "trust my brush". The fake fisheye perspective is entirely wrong and made up so I needed some custom perspective lines to know roughly how to position the background elements.

I do come back with composition guides after I'm done with the lineart, just to check how the illustration is doing. I prefer not to use them at first because it tends to "constrain" me a bit too much, and I like to remain very free as to maintain a feeling of spontaneity, which is why I will only fix the composition afterwards (when I do). Coloring is then fairly streamlined, with background colors/atmosphere guiding the overall color scheme followed by character coloring and additional details. The most fun part comes with the post-processing, where I go wild with additional fog and light shaft layers to add depth to the entire thing. I use a bunch of additional tone curve layers to adjust the colors and make it more uniform, as well as one blurred, flattened copy of the illustration with strengthened contrasts, in overlay mode, to add some vibrance, and a noise layer for texture. That's it! Thanks for watching, for those interested :))

[echotoyou]

Euphoria: Jungkook

Part of the I miss you Collection

pairing: boyfriend!jeon jungkook x gn!reader

what's inside: the cuddliest cuddle session of them ALL with your boyfriend (who is also your favorite weighted blanket)

warnings: kisses, allusions to smut but no actual smut, reader redirects when jungkook makes a move, all are happy and comfortable with the new direction

word count: 993

a/n: iiiii couldn't wait to get this one out haha this little drabble was definitely inspired by the line in seven "I kiss your waist and ease your mind" bc that IMAGE lol okay enjoy part two of the I miss you collection! I have ones planned for each member + an ot7 one -- any requests for who's next?

posted august 2024 (also on ao3)

It was finally Friday night. Work had finished for the week a few hours ago and you had a few fun plans already scheduled for the coming weekend days. You always enjoyed a good mix of planned and spontaneous activities and event and luckily your boyfriend wholeheartedly agreed with you.

You and Jungkook had just made it official a few months ago, falling into each other’s life like pieces in a puzzle. It always felt easy to be around him and he clearly enjoyed being around you too. 

With the Merry-Go-Round of Life and the end credits of Howl's Moving Castle softly tinkling in the background, you glanced down at where Jungkook had nestled into your side. You had somehow stayed awake during the film, likely because you were still sitting relatively upright, but Jungkook didn’t seem to fare as well – he had started the film sitting next to you, one hand in yours with the other holding your waist.

As Sophie argued her way into the Castle life and befriended Calcifer, Jungkook had pulled his legs up onto the sofa, becoming nearly horizontal and maneuvering himself so his head rested on your lap. Your hand had moved to soothe his shoulder, eventually reaching to rest on his waist. You’re not positive he started snoring, but it was definitely a possibility as the soft colors of the Ghibli film danced in your living room and you felt his breath even out. The night had been the perfect way to wind down from a tough week, held in the embrace of the man you adore. 

It’s perfect. And then it's not.

You're actually dying of thirst and for some unknown reason you left your water bottle just out of reach. You war with yourself for a moment, hesitant to disturb your incredibly comfortable partner when he starts to stir and stretch. You’re nearly certain he can read minds when he mumbles, “Mmm that’s such a good movie. I’m gonna get some water, do you want some?” 

Your “yes please” in reply is so quick, and his half-asleep-dark-fluffy-hair-gray-sweatshirt-wearing grin and nod make you feel like you’re falling in love all over again. Your eyes follow him into the kitchen, and you turn to sit with your knees against your chest facing the kitchen.

As he makes his way back with a glass of water in each hand, mischief glints in his eyes. He sets the glasses down on your coffee table and suddenly pulls your legs to rest on the long part of the sofa. Your small “oof” from the movement causes both of you to chuckle. He settles in the space between your legs and resumes his position from earlier, laying his head on your lap, this time with his eyes blinking up at you, a devious little smirk on his face. 

At your nod, he lifts the edge of your shirt, sliding a cool hand to settle on your hip, and kisses your waist, lips easily finding a spot that makes you sigh. 

You sigh into his touch and close your eyes, your work due dates and family conundrums floating out of your mind as you focus on where soft fingers are dancing along your skin. His hands gently grasp your waist, your hips, back to your waist, your left thigh, then your right, as he peppers kisses along your stomach. 

You feel a hand dance at your belt buckle and open your eyes, meeting his brown doe ones. His seem to have a hint of mischief today as he stares up at you. It’s been a long week though, and you’d rather not start something that’ll keep you both up late. You gently cover the tattooed hand directly on the buckle and give him the biggest pout you can muster, while whispering loud enough so he can hear, “I’m not feeling up to it tonight. Uh. Can we just…” your words die down as a bit of anxiety touches your thoughts at his potential response, “… cuddle?” 

You feel the chuckle rumble up his stomach before you hear it as he replies, “just cuddle? Baby, you know I love cuddling with you, especially if it’s what you want to do tonight. Anything else I can grab you before we commence operation: cuddle time?” His voice turns slightly terminator-y at the end of his sentence, making you laugh as you shake your head no. 

You reach over for the glass of water and take a quick sip as you feel him settle between your legs and lean his head on your stomach. His arms reach around your waist and interlock behind your back and he settles into you like a warm weighted blanket onto your body. His sigh matches yours as you gently begin to breathe in sync.

Your hand moves to stroke his soft, so incredibly soft, how the fuck does he get it so S O F T hair, pushing it rhythmically out of his eyes. It’s your favorite length right now, with little curls and a set of long bangs that you’re going to beg him to keep. With every stroke of your hand, his eyes start to flutter shut before quickly reopening. After a few minutes, his eyes slowly close completely and do not reopen. You continue for a little longer before you feel him squeeze your waist and wonder if he’s going to suggest you both move to your bed for some proper cuddling. Instead, you begin to hear soft snores as his hands relax. 

A small smile crosses your face as you take in your sleeping boyfriend. The tension drains from his face as he sinks deeper. You love that as simply as he can ease your mind, it feels like you can do the same for him. 

Your eyes also start to drift shut, the weight of his body on top of yours providing a comforting pressure similar to your beloved weighted blanket. Warm, soft, and cozy.

dividers by the amazing @strangergraphics!!!

[kanekoii]

Boo! Guess whos back with another request :3

Could you pretty please write kissing hcs of...guess. guess who. Kyo. also Vox, Sonny and mmmmmaybe Doppi?

ALSO KYO IS FINALLY BACK!!! I'm so happy to be able to watch his streams again I'm gonna microwave him!!!4!44!4!4

lyra’s notes -> KYO MY BELOVED EXPLODES EXPLDOES EXPLODES PLZ KEEP THESE REQUESTS COMING BBY I NEED AN OUTLET FOR THIS STUFF

pairings -> kyo kaneko, vox akuma, sonny brisko, doppio dropscythe

genre -> headcanons, scenario, fluff (i included a scenario of your first kiss with them too for fluff and shit)

song -> runaway baby - bruno mars

warnings -> a shit ton of kissing, kyo’s and doppi’s are in a highschool setting cuz their characters are highschoolers, strong language, some sad talk in sonny’s and mentions of food

KYO KANEKO •

his kisses are very playful in nature. he’ll pull you in a little roughly and press his lips to yours with a smirk as he mumbles something about how much he loves you. pull him by his tie into a kiss and printer man will be in HEAVEN. something about it is so attractive to him in a way he can’t explain.he just loves it nearly as much as he loves you. wait no, he loves you way more.

as for your first kiss with printer man (formerly printer boy before he got his glow up), it was really an accident at first. it had been a few days since you confessed your feelings for each other, and now you and him were working with the rest of the iluna gang to decorate for a school dance. kyo was hanging directions when he began to teeter off the stool he was standing on, causing you to run up behind him in case he fell. he turned around to say hi before the stool mysteriously fell (not like maria was standing right behind it and kicked it out from under him haha what are you talking about of course not). in true fanfiction written by a teenager fashion, he ended up on top of you with his lips on yours. it really was an accident. but when he pulled away, he simply looked in awe and asked, “can we do that again?”.

VOX AKUMA •

he’s a very passionate kisser. he doesn’t care where you are or how many people are allowed with your consent he’ll pull you close and kiss you like it was the last thing he’d ever do. of course our demon man loves just kissing your forehead or hands or cheek, literally anywhere lmao.

for your first kiss, it was by far the most romantic of the bunch. he had planned it out for sure, he wanted your first kiss with him to be something special, even if it was something you would go on to experience multiple times every day. it would be on a date, he would bring flowers, all that stereotypical shit. the moment he kissed you, it just felt right.

SONNY BRISKO •

his kisses are short and sweet. he’s a busy man, but that doesn’t mean he wants to show his love any less. he just simply doesn’t have time most of the time, and he really hates that he doesn’t know if he’ll come home to you some days just because of how dangerous his job is, and if that happens then he wouldn’t have been able to give the goodbye he wanted. but sad stuff aside,

i think your first kiss with him would be when you visited him on a less busy day to have lunch in his office with him. he knew he was in love with you but certainly not to the extent he realized right then. you had gone through all that trouble just for him and brought him lunch? he couldn’t resist pulling you into a slightly nervous kiss.

DOPPIO DROPSCYTHE •

oh doppino here we go. when it comes to kissing him, you never know what you’re gonna get. sometimes he accidentally pokes you with his almost fang-like teeth, sometimes it’s passionate and warm, sometimes he says something really fucking stupid under his breath. despite being the xsoliel student counsel’s disciplinarian, he had a fun side to him too.

his first kiss was probably a very spontaneous thing with you. just the simple question of ‘can i kiss you?’ mumbled as he was caught off guard by just how much he really loved you. he loves you a lot but he also likes showing his more silly side! here at doppino’s he’d mumble as he kissed you.

[good-beanswrites]

I wonder where Mahiru got the idea for "A Different Kind of Love". I'd say it's Amane because I'm biased. But more likely, Mahiru saw little acts of love from everyone, and she realized that romantic love isn't all there is to it.

Drabble request? *twiddles fingers* Or if not, headcanons work too.

Ough I was crying through that whole chapter, it was really beautiful ;--; (Haha, I'm biased and think it'd come from Fuuta! but) I ended up writing something with Amane and found a really sweet idea to run with. They both just want to teach one another...

“It’s not scary at all, because it’s love.” Amane gave a decisive nod, pleased with her explanation. She’d been at a loss for words lately, weighed down with exhaustion and pain, so it was nice to finally feel like she was articulating herself well. 

That is, until she got a look at the horror painted across Mahiru’s face.

“I… I’m not sure…” She shifted uncomfortably. “That doesn’t sound… quite like love.”

It was understandable that Mahiru wouldn’t understand. Amane had heard the way she talked. More importantly, Amane had heard how the others talked about her. Mahiru had a very rigid view of love. She wasn’t a narrow-minded person like some others here, but she certainly had some work to do in that area. 

Amane took a breath. She’d grown tired of trying to teach these sinful adults anything, but Mahiru was always a good listener. 

“Not all love is shown in the same way. A strong bond requires respect. Discipline.”

Mahiru still didn’t look convinced. Her smile seemed forced on her lips. She tugged absently on one of her colorful earrings. “I know love comes in all shapes and sizes. But… I don’t think it should be so… harsh.”

“Let us take Kajiyama for an example.” Amane folded her hands in her lap. It felt good to be speaking like this, as equals. “His behavior in the first trial was nothing but harsh. And yet, you’re the one who spoke up on his behalf, pointing out ways that he cared to the others.”

“That’s true. But Fuuta never hurt anyone.”

“Fuuta has hurt many people.”

“W–well yes, but I meant…” Her face twisted into the one and only expression Amane hated to see from her. A sad sort of smile. There was love in it – which is the reason Amane tolerated it at all – but so much pity, as well. 

As quick as it had come, it was replaced by one of her signature little smiles. “I’ll tell you what, will you play a little game with big sis Mahiru?”

Amane’s mouth was open to reject the idea until Mahiru hurriedly added, “I do love games. I don’t get to play as many, now that the warden didn’t forgive me…”

She huffed. Mahiru turned her round, brown eyes on her. Amane let out another noisy breath. “What is it…?” 

Mahiru clapped her hands together. “Yay~! It’ll be fun, I promise! Let’s pick out the ways that the prisoners show their love! We’ll keep track of it during the day, and keep score at night. You said it yourself, there are so many ways that people show it. Let’s try and notice them all!” She held a finger to her lips. “But we’ll keep it secret. And we’ll try to find something for everyone.”

Amane scoffed. “We’re not going to find one for everyone.” There were a few people who were not graced with the capacity for real love, she had found. 

“Well then, that’s what will make it an interesting game, yeah~?”

—

Mahiru bid Amane a good night. She kept the notebook open on her lap for a moment more. 

The two had busied themselves keeping a secret scoreboard throughout the past few weeks. Mahiru was worried the idea would fizzle out quickly, (as most of her spontaneous plans usually did,) but she hadn’t accounted for how committed Amane was when she put her mind to something. 

Each and every night, Amane would appear in Mahiru’s cell, picking up the notebook to add in the day’s entries. Mahiru would scramble to come up with a few of her own, as she’d forgotten to pay attention throughout the day.

Though she hadn’t actually noticed any decrease in game-playing, the warden’s verdict had hurt her in other ways. If Es rejected her love, what did she have left? If her love truly did hurt others, and Milgram thought she should be punished for it, wouldn’t it be better for her to never show it again? Now and then she’d be crushed under the weight of the verdict, the voices, the guilt. She considered withholding all the kindness within her – what if it got someone else killed? Hadn’t it already come close?

But this little exercise with Amane… 

Originally, the idea had come to her as a way to prove that not a single entry in their notebook featured any harm – no screamed words, no contradictory rules, and certainly no physical pain. It would be a way to keep Amane from staying in her cell all day. Mahiru wasn’t sure if the others necessarily appreciated the nonstop surveillance from Amane’s single, bright eye, but Mahiru knew what a blessing it really was. 

To her surprise, she’d felt swaying within her own heart, as well.

Mahiru ran her finger across the chart, lingering on various entries. Some were as big and grand as she had expected: “held Muu’s hand when she was nervous after a nightmare;” “complimented Mikoto’s appearance after he’d taken a long time to style his hair.” Physical touch, gifts, compliments, it all made sense to her.

Other lines had surprised her: “changed the subject when Kazui started looking uncomfortable;” “explained a joke to Haruka when he didn’t understand it at first;” “left Yuno alone when she seemed too tired to talk.” Amane brought much more variety when she wrote down the things she’d witnessed

Just as Mahiru was teaching Amane something about love, the girl was revealing something to her about it. The mere act of picking out others’ acts of kindness, recognizing when they were trying, even imperfectly, acknowledging when the others touched something deep inside of themselves – it all proved something new.

Her finger paused over a recent addition in Amane’s neat handwriting. “Spoke to me like an adult.” 

It was in a column filled otherwise with Mahiru’s pen strokes. Shidou’s.

“Huh…”

[cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut]

How happy I am to see you 🥰.

❤️‍🔥💌🏥 if you want for the ask game 🤗.

Ahh thank you so much, wonderful anon! I’m happy to see you too 💛

❤️‍🔥 When and where was TK and Carlos’ first time? Are you a Bathroom Blowjob™️ truther? Do you have a different take on how things happened?

I feel like this is a dull answer haha but I am indeed a Bathroom Blowjob truther! I just love the idea of the spontaneity of it, of neither one of them expecting it to happen when Carlos invites TK to dance. Their dancing just sparks such natural chemistry between them that the notion of sneaking to the bathroom together, while their friends and loved ones are still locked in on dancing, feels like something cosmic between them, an agreement made with pounding hearts and very few words. I also feel that Carlos is not usually a casual sex guy, so it’s an Event for him and he’s nervous and excited, already knowing there’s something about this guy. TK is better versed in casual sex, but cannot fully ignore that he feels something for Carlos not just in his jeans but also somewhere surprisingly deep in his chest.

💌 What was Carlos’ first crush on a boy? TK’s?

Oooh I love this question. I feel like Carlos’s first crush might have sparked instant confusion and guilt for him among the joy of it — one of his sisters’ boyfriends. He saw him a lot, the boy was good with younger kids and made an effort with Carlos. Carlos used to blush about this attention, used to stutter and smile and laugh at his antics. He liked when he came over, once got caught by his sister trying to style his hair like her boyfriend’s, and she made fun of him in a kindly sort of way, but Carlos felt like he’d been caught out for something deeper. He didn’t see the boy so much after he broke up with his sister, but the boy would always nod hello in passing, even though he never really stopped to chat. TK’s first crush was a boy in his year at school, when he was maybe six years old. The boy was new at school, and part of a family that travelled around a lot. Maybe his father was in the army. The boy was shy but friendly. TK had lots of friends and invited the boy to play with them. TK really liked looking at this boy, and playing games with him on the schoolyard, maybe even after school sometimes too. Maybe there was a little bit of jealousy when TK’s friends liked the boy so much that they took up a lot of his time, but they still played together a lot. Then one day, without warning, the boy was gone. He lingered in the classroom after school one day and asked his teacher where his friend had gone. They told TK that the boy’s family had had to relocate suddenly, due to his father’s job. TK ran outside to the spot where his mom always parked to collect him, and burst into tears in the car. Just imagine little TK, inconsolable, telling Gwyn that he’d liked that boy so much, just really really liked him. (God now I want to write a fic about TK and Carlos as adults running into their respective first crushes).

🏥 Let us finally solve the mystery of TK’s first coma. How did it happen? How serious was it?

Oooh so personally I like the idea that it may have had something to do with his path towards addiction. Maybe he was spending time with some friends who were good to him and fiercely loyal to each other, but could be reckless sometimes too. He was a teenager at this point, and they all went out for a drive, and ended up racing another car or just speeding for the hell of it and getting into an accident. TK was the most seriously injured of them all, and ended up in a coma for a few days. Then he became dependent on the pain pills during his recovery, which really made his typical teenage angst spiral into something more chronic and life altering. Maybe some of his friends were too guilty to speak to him after the accident, and others were still there for him but he was beginning to feel increasingly lonely and grey inside. Maybe his parents were arguing A LOT about how to “deal with him.” The effects of the pills blocked it all out, became his escape. When the doctors wouldn’t prescribe them anymore, TK was restless and anxious and prone to spiralling. He knew he needed something else, and he quickly learned how to find it.

I didn’t mean to turn all of these into potential fics but there we go! Thanks again, anon! 💛

[doodlyreone]

Smiling Friends at Pony Town Memories ADVENCHA!!!

Part II

An experimental bit to compensate for my always delayed screenshottter phone and archiving ponytown instances to doodles. I roleplay as Charlie and these are the highlights of my interactions with a Pim kinner, @mellowvisions .

I have no screenshots because I had no time. I was busy like mad yapping against the dude that approaches us, pestering us about wars on bread. But see, this is the thing that ai chats could never give me. It would never annoy the living hell out of me and spontaneously create an episodable moment of Smiling Friends.

Dude I was livid when some rando approaches us and ruined the vibe of our hangout. See, me and Pim- Pim and I are doing our own thing, minding our own business and stuff and like I was really getting into our conversation when this guy comes to our spot, invades our space, pointing at us with his large finger and insisting on us joining the war. War on bread of all things. And man, I couldn't stand him and his voice and his reasons and I'm honest to God clenching my fist under the hand-warmer pocket of my hoodie. I shut my mouth and like internally hope that this guy just take the obvious hint that his presence is so unwelcomed. When he disregards Pim's words and keep insisting himself, I just know it's a sign I have to bark back.

(Although he was a pony, I turned him to a human and uhh pretty privileges revoked. Also he is gun shaped just because. He was chill actually and like let me know in whisper that he's sorry if he have gone too far but like it's all good fun and sometimes we need any excuse to just ramble and fight. Dude we're literally arguing about wars on breads wbahaha. Hatin on his character not the actual person)

I step into his personal space, nose to nose, eye to eye, we're breathing each others air and debating and I don't even care about the words he mutters back, like my brain filters out all his nonsense. My mouth is just running and like I just fucking exploded on him because I was so done with his attitude like he will literally never leave us alone because he doesn't see how unlikeable he is.

(I kept all the misspellings and missing words because it adds character and funnier that way-)

I don't even notice how much I'm clenching my teeth at the moment. I was seething with rage and just sternly looking at him to make sure he won't dare to come back. Adrenaline is running wild with me and I was shaking. I really don't know how to continue the conversation with Pim now and I was so frustrated at him. My mood felt a lot less heavier when Pim made a jab at the guy. Man, hindsight 20-20, that was stupid. Guy was talking about wars and he could've got a gun with him. Like I mentioned that to Pim and like we discussed how differently that could have gotten if that was the case. As much as I was so sure like our conversation would be dead by then, it did not. It seamlessly flows into another topic and I was engrossed again that I just don't care about the guy anymore.

(Charlie big scary dog privileges!!! Also yeah after that, we talk about how we are both simultaneously in character and out of character at the moment because his points are borderline iffy and you know how ponytown goes, specially in the 18+ server, they really be saying the wildest things haha)

UNTEXTED VERSIONS UNDER CUT:

[skibasyndrome]

Fingers crossed for a productive day and these as a little carrot for afterwards:

✑ (for your first YR baby), ✦, ♡ (for It's in the water, baby)

Now go be awesome and ace that thesis!

Joooo 💜💜💜 This one has been sitting in my askbox for a while, so sorry about that, but hey! I guess you can take some credit for being one of the dangling carrots that got me through it 💜 no we're not thinking about how that sounds

For It seems a place for us to dream:

✑ PROCESSING: pick a fic and I’ll tell you what it was like to write it!

kind of like... a very high-emotions-induced frenzy? 😅😅😅 No, but for real. I saw that first (three second? five second?) clip of s3 and it completely took hold of me to the point where I was like.... what is this strange feeling... I have nooooot felt this way in YEARS???? Am I about to..... write again!?!??!?! And after I'd realized that, well... clearly this isn't going to leave me alone anytime soon and I already have portions of sentences flying around in my mind I sat down and wrote half of it, then wrote the second half the next day (I think we got the rest of the clip the next day?). I was wildly typing away on my google doc in a way I hadn't done in yeeeaaars and it was like I was possessed by those couple seconds, lmao.

It's not necessarily a fic I still like a lot, but I'm glad that it was my way back into creative writing, so that's cool!

✦ what was your easiest fic to write & your hardest?

Hmmm, easiest is kind of hard to say! I think writing Close, Closer was easy in the sense that I just... started typing and didn't really stop and never looked back and it was a fic(let) that I wrote with the knowledge that it didn't have to be perfect, because it was so spontaneous and short. I general I feel like all those shorter snippets (like the not-5-sentence-fics) are easier for me because my inner critic isn't quite as loud for those. But another one that came to me like in a frenzy and felt very good while writing was Lavender Haze, my forever beloved. I wrote that one soooo quickly and I genuinely had so much fun doing it.

Hardest to write was without a doubt Never Letting You Go for a couple of reasons that made the process very difficult, frustrating and not a great time for me and my trust in myself. Took quite a long time to get back from that one.

For It's in the water, baby (I don't know which one of the heart asks you meant, so I'm answering both, haha)

♡ pick a fic and I’ll pick a comment that made me really happy

Easy! @purplehoodiesandclementines complimenting my Wille POV and saying "It all feels so THEM! So much so that I'm taking all of this as canon for now, until proven otherwise" made me smile for days and weeks and still makes me smile whenever I randomly remember it 💜

♡ SMALL THINGS: pick a fic and I’ll tell you my favorite minor detail from it!

Idk if this necessarily counts as a minor detail, but I like the way Wille still briefly thinks about the video and how it affected Simon, but Simon then proves to him that right there, with him, he feels safe.

“It’s just us,” Simon says gently, and shoots Wilhelm a smile as he unbuttons his pants. Wilhelm briefly wonders when everything turned out this way, when they arrived at this level of comfort and confidence. Wonders when Simon started being able to exist so freely again, out here, no curtains, no doors, no walls. “Are you worrying about me or is this you being uncomfortable?” Simon asks, reaching out his hands to grab Wilhelm’s. Wilhelm suspects Simon's got some sort of psychic abilities that he hasn’t come clean about yet. Or maybe it’s them . He sighs, feeling a bit of the tension leave his shoulders as soon as Simon touches him.  “Because I’m fine, you know? No one’s been here all afternoon.” Simon smiles warmly.

Ask me questions about my fics if you feel like! <3 here or here

[an-au-blog]

Thinking about Shuggy college au and got to thinking about the relative ages of other characters and now I’m thinking of end of High school aged Frobin. Robin is that loner goth girl turned popular goth girl that is still seen as a bit odd but she’s smart and helpful and has a slightly morbid sense of humor that just endears her to her classmates. Franky is that loud jock who comes to school in way too short shorts even when the weather doesn’t permit for it. You’d think he’s a huge dumbass from the way he acts sometimes but he actually knows a lot of stuff and gets decent grades and is pretty nifty with machines (Also sometimes babysitting his kid neighbor Usopp and teaching him how to not hit his thumb with a hammer). Both of them having this kind of „end of a slow burn“ relationship where Franky is trying to gather his nerves and tell his long term friend that he has feelings for her and it’s completely fine if she doesn’t, but also she’s going to move to college after the end of this school year and he’s afraid about what that means for them and not to mention he’s „smart“ but Robin is like „SMART smart“ and is going to study history and oh GOD what if this is the thing that makes them loose contact and Oh god, oh no, oh fuck.

… probably ends with her just spontaneously taking his hand and asking HIM out, completely oblivious that he has been fretting over this for almost an entire school year. Just felt like the right thing to do to her. A decision she made right that moment.

I... I never really calculated her years in the college au and at first I thought, pft, she won't be that old but then... like she IS around 10/11 years older than Luffy and assuming he's around 5/6 she'd be in her last years of school omg D:' I'm supposed to be good at math how did I not see this???

Also you have no idea how happy I am, this is my first frobin ask I was so happy when I saw it and then my happiness doubled because it's the college au hahaha :')

If I haven't given you a name, can I call you Franon? Or Fronan?? (haha cuz frobin + anon...)

(Edit: by the time I was halfway through writing this post, I realized I've written an entire subplot lol':))

Robin is definitely that weird kid in school that's a bit too smart for her own good and most teachers just think she's a smartass. The type that even though she moved schools and now she's pretty (and still a bit weird, just hides it better), she still has the outcast mentality. She doesn't know how to be herself and she definitely doesn't know what to do, react or even comprehend that someone wants to be friends with her. Let alone to be interested in her romantically.

Franky on the other hand is so outgoing because he's so weird. People will see him in a blizzard in his short shorts and sunglasses and go "how the heck are you not cold". He'd respond with "oh, I'm freezing! I have a parka and two cotton shirts under there!" and people would laugh along. The type to high-five and greet random people he's talked to once as if they've been friends for ages. I feel like he'd also kinda be the class clown but in a somewhat respectful way. There's a meme about someone calling Prometheus a mad lad and then Hermes a Chad, and I feel like that would be his vibe.

Also, I'm sorry Fronan/Franon, but I'm absolutely stealing the idea that Franky babysits Usopp and they have fun arts and crafts type of bonding. He'll need it for the stuff I've been planning for him and Yasopp >:]]]

Everyone assumes he's a moron, but it's until Robin sees him in one of his extracurricular advanced classes that she realizes he's not only smart but funny and fun to be around. It turns out that they also have a lot in common and quickly become friends.

Also him overthinking it and her asking him out is so on brand imo and I absolutely love it. And maybe here comes into play the fact that he's so friendly with everyone so he automatically assumes people like him so he doesn't know what signs for romantic feelings look like? And how she doesn't think anyone could like her in that way? I can imagine him trying to talk himself out of it because she's going places and what could he give her to make her be with him anyway. While she's sitting next to him already planning a schedule for their talks for their long distance relationship.

And of course, their long distance relationship works very well. They both love each other so much they try their best to have at least two or three nights to talk. In fact, their relationship has a very strong foundation of getting to know each other because of the physical separation.

Or so I'd like to think hehe :')

[leonard-cold]

I’ve been wanting to engage the coldflash fandom more and I’ve got some qs for you! — what’s your favorite:

Coldflash episode?

Barry Allen Episode (could be from outside the flash too!)

Leonard Snart focused episode? (LoT or the Flash)

And also…

What’s your favorite fanfic? (Or list a couple)

What gifset do you always reblog?

No pressure on asking but I hope that these are fun questions ❄️⚡️

hey anon

my favorite coldflash episode is probably infantino street. it felt like the writers showing us a glimpse of what could've been in an almost painful way but i just love watching them work together and it was a beautiful farewell to a beloved character that acknowledged how important these two were for each other. we could've had it all... but at least we'll always have infantino street

my favorite barry episode is a tie between 'the runaway dinosaur' and 'the last temptation of barry allen' (tho i haven't watched the show beyond s6 yet so always subject to change)

my favorite len episode... hm. for the flash it's probably 'going rogue' bc i love when he gets to be an asshole and gets away w it 😂 i mean, i know it's controversial but i also love 'doomworld' bc its so fun to see wentworth give us his best disney villain acting 😆 i actually hate most of s1 of legends (big l for me that this is the only season my fave character is in and i can barely stand to watch it...) so if i had to pick one it'd probably be 'white knights' just bc it's low stakes fun watching len be his little con-artist self

there are so many great coldflash fics out there honestly, i remember saying i was gonna make a rec list bc i specifically wanted to rec more recent fics... but then i didn't 😅 so anyway, my fave fic is 'tell me what you want me to say' by giraffeter (here), i actually had to stop myself from reading it over and over again bc i was worried i was going to make myself sick of it which would be an absolute tragedy bc that fic is so amazing and addictive, i could gush it all day like a schoolkid with a crush 😍

bonus point for any fic crestfaller has ever written for the ship, i cannot pick one, her work always makes me go stare at the ceiling for a little while it is *that* good (edit bc i forgot to link them but you can find her coldflash fics here)

(and i know this was abt coldflash but my fave coldwestallen fic is 'that old switcheroo' by sandrine, which you can find here)

idk if there's a gifset that i always reblog in the way you mean bc i rarely reblog anything spontaneously haha, i schedule two posts a day and i pick them by looking through my bookmarks

these questions were definitely fun, not sure my answers were all that interesting lmao, but in any case thank u for your interest 😊

[moonstruckme]

Hi sweetness! How was your weekend? I’m gonna use your ask box to happy rant if that’s okay?

On Saturday I polar plunged for the first time! It was actually my first time in natural water period. I had never swam in a lake or pond or anything but I was at a lodge and some girls I didn’t know very well said they were gonna jump in the pond and I asked to join and they said yes!! It was a big step for me bc my mom was/is very controlling and never let me in natural water and it just felt so freeing. Anyways that’s it and I wanted to tell someone.

Are you in the U.S? Do you celebrate thanksgiving? If you do, do you have any plans?

-💛

Hi, absolutely that's okay! I've never polar plunged (doubt it's my thing, but I've heard for people who do like it that it's an incredible experience) but I'm so happy you got to try two new things in one!! I'm a big fan of lakes (they encapsulate basically all of my summer plans), and I'm sorry you've never had the pleasure of swimming in fresh water before but I'm glad you have now! That sounds so so fun, especially as part of a spontaneous vacation experience. Very coming-of-age of you babe, that could be in a book

And I am in the US, so I'm in my hometown for thanksgiving break right now. My plans are to go to my dad's house and enjoy the fact that after 10 years of being vegetarian, his family has finally stopped pressuring me to eat the turkey haha :)

Thanks for sharing your cool story with me! I hope it's the start (or, better yet, the middle) of a very exciting and fun time in your life <3

[atopearth]

Amnesia: Later Part 3 - Ikki Route

Honestly, Kent and Ikki have the best relationship and I just love watching them haha! It's so cute how they have spontaneous trips such as randomly going to find the biggest rhino beetle, it's just so funny to imagine haha! They're so silly, I love them. Honestly, I wouldn't go on a spontaneous trip that takes nearly 3 hours in a yukata but I'm not young anymore so what do I know hahaha. But I do have to admit, Kent driving and saying he'll make sure that Ikki behaves himself is very reassuring and that could convince me haha. When I saw the fan club again, I honestly groaned because I thought we were over that hahaha, no more fan clubbb pleaseee!! Anyway, imagining Ikki running to the meeting point so the heroine doesn't wait as long is so cute. I hate how he tolerates the fan club but I understand and I can't help but forgive him every time he does stuff like this. I'm so excited for them to be living together!! They're already so cute with the heroine being happy that they're sharing the same space and that the closet smells like him hahaha, I guess it's really settling in that they're going to be living together from now on. I love the CG of them in their pajamas looking through Ikki's childhood album, there's just something so natural and fun about sharing memories as you go through an album together, super cutee. I completely forgot and wasn't expecting Ikki to really tell her how much he loves her before she sleeps, and it's crazy to think that he plans to do it every night haha, my heart can't take this!

Ikki not being a morning person is so cute haha. Omg, I did not expect that half naked CG, I'm not complaining though, it was pretty nice hahaha. It's also really great to see Ikki without his spade hairclip, I like his hairstyle like this more than the usual. Honestly, even though I don't like the heroine's dad, I can understand his concerns, especially after seeing unfavourable aspects of Ikki with his fanclub. What's even better than Ikki and Kent acting silly? When the heroine joins in with their antics and is silly with them haha! It's so cute to see how happy they were when the heroine joined in with their game/roleplay haha. Lmao at drunk Ikki talking about how cute the heroine is, he's so crazy about her hahaha. I really love how Ikki respects her boundaries and understands that she's not ready so he won't push it and is satisfied just being able to share all these moments with her even if he does want more. Ikki and the heroine communicating and dealing with the fan club together is the best, it's definitely what I expected to happen in the original game but didn't haha.

Honestly, I was still kind of suspicious of Rika considering how she was in Ikki's route but I guess we can safely say she's the good Rika haha even if her methods are questionable. I'm glad Ikki was able to get through to the heroine's father about how serious he is towards her and their relationship. Seeing how much Ikki is willing to do for her and how much he cherishes her makes me really happy.

Overall, I really liked Ikki's route because I feel like they had so much more progress than with Shin's route. Even though the heroine was still as shy as always, I loved how they both spent time living together doing all the mundane things together like cooking and looking through photo albums. Maybe you can think of it as Ikki being pushy considering every night he would tell the heroine how much he loves her and wants to hold her, but I guess it was okay for me because you can kinda see that the heroine did want to do it but just felt shy and not ready yet. I think what I enjoyed the most was how everything that happened in the route ended up with the heroine having the confidence to step up with Ikki to tell her father together that they are serious about each other. I mean Ikki can probably get quite annoying with how much he says he loves her throughout the route and stuff but he shows it through his actions as well and that makes me think it's all good, he's just crazy about her haha. Definitely an enjoyable sequel after the main story haha.

[cuddly-asexual]

Okay @buffintruder and @allpurposepanda convinced me to do this fic writer asks post, even though I didn't write too much this year. So here goes!

1.What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year? How did it turn out and would you do it again?

I wasn’t consciously thinking about trying something new, but I did write a fic from the point of view of a child which was pretty fun. I think it turned out pretty well. I think most media tends to miss what kids are likely to notice and think about (at least based off the kids I work with), so I did try to make sure I included those things. For example a tall bookcase might seem towering to a small child, or how a relatively short amount of time can seem extremely long to them when they’re simply waiting. I would definitely do it again, it’s fun practice for getting into the minds of characters you like even when you never see what they were like as children.

2. How many fics did you work on this year? (They don’t have to be finished or published!)

I definitely didn’t finish much this year, but I chipped away at quite a few wips. I posted 3 fics. I have another unposted, but finished. I wrote a few paragraphs for one of my wildermyth characters. I rewrote a decent chunk of a school nurse files fic. Other than those it was mostly just a few words here and there on my various unfinished works. Surprisingly most of my creative energy this year went to drawing.

3. What’s something you learned about yourself as a writer?

I don’t think I learned anything new about myself as a writer. I’ve known for sometime that writing is a bit spontaneous for me. I guess I’m coming to realize that I’m pretty good at writing dialogue, which is always nice.

4. What piece of media inspired you the most?

Well if we were talking about drawing that would be one thing monkie kid, but for writing probably Wildermyth. Even though I didn’t finish any of the pieces I’m writing for it, the writing in the game itself was so lovely to read. It felt like someone was reading a storybook to me, kind of like a bedtime story, with a soft voice.

5. What fandom(s) did you write for this year?

I wrote more original stuff this year, but I wrote for A3! and Kamen Rider OOO. School Nurse Files as well sorta.

6. What ship(s) captured your heart?

Haha the made up ship in my brain of one of my Wildermyth characters, Ystral, and the star in the Minuet event, good LORD they didn’t leave my brain for weeks. In-Pyo and Eun-Young from School Nurse Files also dominated my mind for a while there too. I rewatched the series again this year and man those two are so AAA. They were on my mind more last year, but since I posted a fic about them this year I’ll mention that Goda Eiji and Ankh make me go insane. Also I haven’t started any fics for them yet, but I had lots of ideas for Alear and Pandreo from fire emblem engage.

7. What character(s) captured your heart?

Again, mostly oc’s. I worked a lot on one world in particular so my baby, Aurelius (full grown woman in her 50’s), took over my mind for a while there. I’m also constantly thinking about Juza and I had been missing him. I had lots of thoughts, for both writing and drawing, about Clayton and Al from The Deep.

8. Did you write for a new fandom or ship this year?

Wildermyth was probably the only new one this year. The only new things I was into this year were channeled into drawing more than writing.

9. What fic meant the most to you to write?

Ooh this is a tough one, but probably my Juban fic for Juza’s birthday. First, because I really wanted to write it for his birthday. Second, because I wanted to explore a specific aspect of his character, his thoughts on touch. Juza grew up pretending to be someone he wasn’t because of the way others treated him, but when he came to mankai he’s able to be more himself now that he’s surrounded by people that support him. One of these things being that he actually quite enjoys physical affection and it was nice to write about him rediscovering that part of himself.

10. What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?

Working on my Wildermyth fic made me feel giddy like a school girl, you have no idea. My heart fucked SWELLED for these 2D bitches. And it’s not even done yet.

11. What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?

My OOO fic for sure. I had been sitting on the idea for a long time and I finally kicked my ass into gear to finish it and boy that was a fun writing session. I just really wanted to show how evil I was for that idea hehehe.

12. What fic was the most difficult to write? Did you finish it?

My School Nurse Files fic eludes me constantly. I definitely like parts of it, but I’ve rewritten the beginning at least 3 times, I just don’t like how any of them came out. I have yet to finish it, but I haven’t given up on it yet!

13. What fic was the easiest to write?

Probably my Juban fic. I’ve written Juza and Banri enough that they come to me pretty easily. As long as I have a concept ready I can write anything for those two.

14. What were your shortest and longest fics this year?

Just going with the finished ones of course. My shortest was the first part of Ocean Memory, my original work about some oc's, at 734 words and my longest was my OOO fic at 1431 words. Pretty standard for me I think, a little on the short side this year.

15. Rec a fic you wrote or posted in 2023

My OOO’s fic please, I had way too much fun writing it. I love when a loved one gets body snatched by something that pretends to still be that person.

16. What were you go-to writing songs?

I usually just play my big instrumental music playlist that has everything from video game music to movie soundtracks to experimental ambient electronica, but this year was probably a lot of the Grindstone soundtrack.

17. What were your go-to writing snacks?

Don’t have anything specific, but I usually always have a coke on hand.

18. What was the hardest fic to title?

THAT FUCKING OOO FIC. This title eluded me that’s why I just said fuck it and picked something stupid. “A Wish Is a Dream Your Heart Makes”??? bro WHAT.

19. Share your favorite opening line

Opening lines are not really my forte, I’m not really sure I have a favorite, but I like the imagery in my Wildermyth fic.

He sees stars behind his eyelids now. Countless, warm and flickering like soft flames.

20. Share your favorite ending line

That he was happy and healthy and loving life brought endless joy to her heart. Pallas was truly a precious child.

Technically there’s a line of dialogue after this, but anyway, I love writing Aurelius being happy about baby Pallas expressing his feelings.

21. Share your favorite piece of dialogue

“Hey, Settsu. Do you wanna cuddle?” It’s an odd sentence, something he’s never asked someone before, but Banri’s name feels like it belongs there. He doesn't miss how the other perks up, then tries to disguise it as a stretch. Banri pulls out of his hold to face him. “Never thought I’d hear that from your mouth,” Banri smirks playfully. Juza lets out a chuckle.  “Never thought I’d hear it from my own mouth either,” his gaze finds Banri’s. “It feels…natural though. Saying it to you.” He can’t read Banri’s thoughts, but he sees the other make an expression that’s something between fondness and annoyance. “Ugh, you really just said that,” Banri falls onto his back, face in his hands, with a groan. Juza raises an eyebrow in response. “You gonna join me down here or am I supposed to cuddle myself?”

I really liked this exchange between Juza and Banri. The way Banri jokes to make everything a little less intense (also he’s absolutely flustered), and how Juza responds with genuine honesty. I think I captured the vibe I wanted super well.

22. Share an excerpt from your favorite scene

He sees stars behind his eyelids now. Countless, warm and flickering like soft flames. They bring him comfort. One of the many reminders of that night almost a year ago. Ystral's leg glows with a soft blue-white light. The tips of his fingers begin to show signs of it as well. A small smile finds its way to his mouth as he admires the way they sparkle. You wear it well. A familiar whisper circles around him. His smile fades. A pang of guilt makes him want to deny the statement, but the thoughts are gently guided away, replaced with wordless reassurances. The unpleasant thoughts could never win. Not when the very stars opposed them.

I had a lot of fun with this opening scene to my Wildermyth fic. Writing anything with stars gets my creative juices flowing and boom we get crazy poetic shit like this.

23. Share the final version of a sentence or paragraph you struggled with. What about it was challenging? Are you happy with how it turned out?

Gonna be real, I have no idea.

24. What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?

Every time I write Banri I somehow make him even more mushy and soft, so it’s a surprise every time.

25. What did you use to write? (e.g. writing programs, paper & pen, etc.)

Just Google Docs really.

26. If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

Finishing that OOO fic after watching it stare at me for like almost a year.

27. Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic?

Not really. They were all pretty short, not super life-changing pieces.

28. How did you recharge between fics?

Play games, draw, rewatch stuff to get back in the mood.

29. If this were an awards show, who would you thank?

My friends who listen to me rant about my crazy ideas all the time. Juza for being an unending font of inspiration.

30. What’s something that you want to write in 2024?

SO MANY THINGS. My Wildermyth fic for sure. I have some ideas for The Deep that I also really wanna write. I really want to write something longer for once. I think my goal this year is to write a 5k word fic. I have so many ideas I’m sitting and still so many more wips to finish. Good luck to 2024!

[sanzu-sanzu-sanzu]

Fanfic Writer Questionnaire

woohoo <3

List all the fandoms you have written in:

blue lock, tokyo Rrevengers, haikyu!!, prince of tennis, katekyo hitman reborn, yu-gi-oh hahahaha

How many published fics have you written?

29 currently plus last time i checked i had 25+ on fanfiction.net so like, 55+

In terms of wordcount, in which fandom have you written the most?

i don’t have the exact numbers now ‘cause AO3 is down HAHA but most likely tokyo revengers

At the moment, which one of your fics is your favorite/you are the most proud of? (you can include unpublished fics)

my favorites, as well as the two i’m by far proudest of are cheesecake, smoke, and mirrors (my last sanzu fic) and my ongoing sae x reader, hungry hearts. the cheesecake fic felt like, that one sanzu story that i’ve always wanted to write for myself. hungry hearts is like, every single fun thing i’ve learned and experienced in the process of writing my other multi-chapter fics in the past, i’m able to appreciate those things more this time, twice as much. i can’t explain it any other way hahaha.

Which writer (fanfiction or not) inspires your own work?

i very very very much admire kazuo ishiguro’s layered and understated writing. i’m also inspired by the fearlessness and grace of carmen maria machado’s words (i try my best!!!). and i don’t know if this counts, but i am also unable to shake off the tendency to be as matter-of-fact and dry as david foster wallace...which i am usually wary of not because DFW is bad (it’s the opposite!!!!), but because it takes skill to really pull it off 😭😭😭 and i can’t!

What was your first fanfic about?

lololollll it was a katekyo hitman reborn fic. OC whose uniform ribbon gets askew, and hibari the prefect reprimands her.

Out of all the characters whose POV you have written, which one do you feel you identify the most with?

oh god hahaha. i think sakusa kiyoomi. it’s his being lowkey, just wants to do the best he can. results are not in his control so he derives happiness just from doing things well.

What do you feel is your biggest challenge when writing?

i have to stop rereading old fics/chapters and then coming up with ideas/ways i could’ve written certain portions and then regretting my decisions. i guess my biggest challenge would be letting go of the idea of perfection. 

Do you generally outline your fics or do you prefer to write spontaneously and then revise?

i do an outline, but sometimes the outline (depending on how inspired i am at that particular moment) could turn into a rough draft, and then i write the thing For Real on a separate document.

Which one of your fanfics has the most hits? the most comments? the most kudos? (if applicable)

just from what i remember since again AO3 is down at the moment 😭

most hits: i want to love you in my own language (which is basically a compilation of all my TR one-shots) most comments: songs about toxic people most kudos: freedomscapes (my sakusa fic)

What proportion, if any, of your fics are rated M or above (# of M-plus fics/ total # of fics)?

i think…like 80%.

Finally, tease us with the title of one of your upcoming fics:

hahaha no title yet, but i am planning on writing another sae fic. i could tease the next chapter of hungry hearts, though! the title is going to be In media res.

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yay, thanks for reading! 🕷 

[living-d3ad-gh0ul]

Tuesday 17th October 2023, 02:45am

I really should be asleep right now. But I can't seem to get comfortable and when I do, my brain just won't shut up. So here I am, writing to you. I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I don't know why. I think I've been missing you a bit. Is it strange to miss you? I don't know. I'm sorry if it is.

I really hope your blood tests came back okay and everything is all well with your health. Do you know when you'll have surgery yet? I was thinking about that the other day and hoping I hadn't missed it, so I could wish you good luck for it. I'm really glad to hear that you've found a job you can do that will turn into a career too and that you can get the training for it. Has that happened yet? Or are you still waiting?

I knew you were thinking of leaving the band, and that's okay. If it's ran it's course for you, then I'm sure your bandmates will be understanding, especially if they're your friends. I really hope the last two shows went well and that you enjoyed playing them at least and I hope the last show you do next month is good too. Will it be near your birthday? Because I know that's coming up really soon too. It's the week after I get back from another comic con, I go away on 17th November and come home on the 19th, so I'm just gone for the weekend. This time it's in Wales, I've only been there once when I was a kid.

Aw no poor Chonky :( I really really hope she's okay now. It sucks when our pets get sick, because they don't have a voice to tell you exactly what's wrong, so it can be pretty worrying. It's a good job that owners can usually tell though when something's wrong and what it could be, because they know their pet well. But it sounds like you did the right thing for her and I hope she's feeling much better now. I'm sure she loved having you look after her and care for her and make sure she was all okay.

Don't worry about streaming and stuff, you can come back to it whenever you feel like it, whenever you have the time. I look forward to the next time you do, I've missed chilling in your chat and just.. hanging out. I liked it before. I actually was playing some of the Cyberpunk DLC myself the other week, it was quite fun haha. But I definitely think I need to start upgrading my PC soon. Definitely a new fan and CPU and maybe a secondary SSD. I would upgrade my GPU but those are so expensive and my 1080 still serves me well at the moment.

I'm sorry it's been a little bit since I last wrote, I've just been busy with work mostly. I haven't had much going on or much exciting happening. Apart from going over to Belfast to surprise my best friend, that was quite cool. We went to another convention, I just booked a flight and a hotel and turned up. She had no clue I was coming and was really surprised when I got there haha. I literally just went over for like.. 24 hours. I'd felt bad cause I had to cancel a trip to go see her at the end of this month just due to work and not being able to get the holidays and stuff. So I was pretty upset and just wanted to do something kinda.. fun and spontaneous? Idk

Ian Somerhalder walked by me too and didn't even notice it, it wasn't until my best friend pointed him out and I was like "oh shit" hahaha. But I was more excited about Peter Facinelli and Jackson Rathbone from Twilight, I used to love that when I was like.. 14. I would have met Ian and Paul too, but it was far too expensive for me. Maybe some day I will. I recently started watching The Vampire Diaries again, since it's spooky season and all and I haven't watched it for years. So I've went right back to the start, I'm at the end of season 1 right now where Isobel is in it (I hate Isobel. And I fucking hate John Gilbert too)

It was also my dad's birthday on 8th October. That was a pretty hard day. I was quite sad and upset all day, but I watched a lot of my dad's favourite programs and stuff and tried to distract myself. Red Dwarf, Monty Python, The Mighty Boosh (which me and my dad actually started watching together) and some Billy Connolly. I also listened to some of his favourite music too. And I got a clootie dumpling from a local bakery (it's like a Christmas pudding kind of but not as rich), coincidentally it was the same bakery me and my dad and grandma and grandpa would go to, it was just down the street from my grandma's house. My grandma used to make him one for his birthday every year when he was a kid, instead of a birthday cake because it was cheaper. And he loved it. It was one of his favourite things. He'd always ask me to bring him some down when I'd go down and visit him in Nottingham, because you can't really get it anywhere in England and to make a proper one yourself, it's a bit of a pain and really easy to mess up if you don't do certain things right lol. When he was in the nursing home, I remember one day the chef had came to talk to him and asked him about food he liked and stuff. He was telling me that they'd asked him what kind of birthday cake he wanted and my dad immediately asked if he could have a dumpling. The chef agreed and said they absolutely could do that and I remember my dad being so so happy. His face was just.. completely lit up, big wide smiles, all excited. I think that's what made me extra sad, because he had been so excited for his birthday and his dumpling. He really liked the simple things in life, honestly.

So even though he wasn't here, he got his dumpling. I went out early on the Saturday morning and picked it up, had a chat with the guy who owns the bakery (who actually weirdly recognised me and asked me who my family were, so I told him and he immediately remembered me from when I was a kid, telling me about how he remembered I'd come in with my grandma to get the rolls and the papers, how I'd come in with my dad for a yum yum or a strawberry tart lol. I unfortunately had to break the news of my dad's passing to him, he didn't know. And he was quite sympathetic. He was a nice guy, just as friendly as I remembered when I was a kid. I'll attach a picture of the dumpling to this so you can see. I stuck a candle in it and everything for him. Sang him happy birthday and cried while doing so. But I knew he'd be nearby. I knew he'd be standing right behind me hugging me while I did. God just writing this is making me tear up a little bit.

I've started some grief counselling too. I think they are really helping me. I'm getting it through the hospice who helped with dad's end of life care, even though the were only involved for.. well a few days.. they've given me more support that some family have (my mother included. I'm still at odds with her. She's done more horrible and nasty shit since we last spoke and.. honestly I'm just seeing her for her true colours now, realising that I've been gaslit, emotionally neglected and manipulated by her for a very long time). My boss has been more than happy to allow me to attend these sessions, because they know in the long run it's going to help me and isn't going to affect my performance at work or anything. I'm actually doing really well at work at the moment, even considering that it is incredibly stressful and emotionally/mentally taxing at times, but I've had nothing but good reports in my weekly catch ups with my manager so far. So I think it's safe to say they can see that I am more than capable of doing the job. I just wanna try get through my probation and then move to a different department. Something that doesn't involve talking to customers lol.

Gran also got out of hospital, which is a good thing. She's back home and still resting and stuff, trying to get her strength back. She was in there for like.. just over a month. Unfortunately we don't think shes gonna be able to get any more chemo though, which sucks. But we're hoping her oncologist will still be able to do surgery for her, we just have to keep trying to get her strength up and make sure she's eating well and we're getting her walking and stuff. Even if it's just to the kitchen and back or around the garden. Small steps. It hopefully will make a big difference. I've been making sure to go see her at least once a week, even just for a couple hours at the very least.

I don't have much else going on right now. It's just work and looking forward to next month when I go to Wales. I don't think I have anything incredibly exciting planned for Halloween, which sucks, but I'll be working this year unfortunately. Maybe I can just relax and watch some spooky movies after work, eat some terrible sweets and enjoy myself a little. Oh and I'm on some new medication too actually, I'm not sure if it's working yet, I don't feel anything different. This is for a physical thing, not a mental thing. But it's nothing too serious, just something I need to like.. manage symptoms of.

I really hope you're doing well, E. I hope everything's going good and that your health is good and Chonky is good and work is starting and surgery is getting scheduled and all the good things. I know it must be getting warmer there too, because it's definitely getting fucking colder here haha. I've been absolutely frozen in the mornings for a couple days now, until I turn the heat on again and warm up. I think it's gonna be a reaaaaally cold winter this year which is unfortunate.

I really hope to hear from you soon. And I hope I've got more exciting things to tell you next time.

N x

"I saw you in a dream then it came to an end, I wonder if you'll come visit me again"

(the selfie was me at the con in Northern Ireland. It was SO fucking hot, I was boiling all day. But I still looked cute I think.. maybe haha)

[pillow-anime-talk]

weirdo.

request​: gom scenario with fem s/o who kicks in sleep or sleep talks ⊙_⊙,（⊙.⊙）worthy weird things.

# tags: scenarios; current relationships; soft romance; fluff; comedy; sleep talks; cute!reader; sfw

includes: female reader ft. atsushi murasakibara, daiki aomine, seijuurou akashi, shintarou midorima & ryouta kise {knb}

author’s note: that’s quite a funny request, haha, thank you!

— ATSUSHI

That night, Atsushi awoke around three in the morning thanks to a sudden hunger and a rumbling sound in his stomach. So he quickly went to your small but cozy kitchen for a little snack (this time it was a coconut-flavored bar and three grapes), and as soon as he returned to the bedroom he saw that your body was hidden under the fluffy duvet. Under the sheets there were also some soft sounds and incomprehensible words that only after a while began to have any meaning for the sleepy man.

“Mmm... Corn... Still warm cookies...” You were muttering under your breath and your boyfriend slightly lifted the white bedding. At the sight of your huddled form, he only smiled. “I love... I love apples.”

Well... You loved food and cooking so much – your tall boyfriend sometimes thought you loved them more than him!

— DAIKI

“... Ouch!” Daiki opened his eyelids, then quickly rose from his soft pillow and looked around the bedroom. At first he thought he was dreaming about something really realistic, so that’s why he felt pain in the calf area, but then his body was attacked again and as it turned out it wasn’t a very realistic dream, just you and your right leg.

Well... Every night you had ‘certain moments’ where your body was moving spontaneously and very chaotically; you shook your head, you put your hands up, you kicked your legs. You were, of course, always unaware of it, so whenever he slept with you, Daiki understood it perfectly and was never angry with you. Nevertheless, he groaned again, the time you punched him in the stomach with your fist, and then as if nothing had happened... You just cuddled up to him, breathing gently and smiling to yourself.

And then he thought it was the end of his torment, but then you bit his nipple and you weren’t going to let him go.

— SEIJUUROU

Since you started living together, Seijuurou was the one who worked much longer – he often went to bed around two in the morning when you (at the same time) had been sleeping for three hours and dreamed of your favorite actors, being a star on stage or sweet puppies.

That was also on this cold, spring evening. Your fiancé was just filling out paperwork over a cup of strong black coffee, and you were just lying nearby on your huge, king size bed. There were a lot of pillows and blankets around you; as if you were sleeping on a colorful cloud. At one point, somewhere between filling out checks and writing a letter to his father, Akashi heard that you purr like a cat. You might not be talking while you slept, but you made sounds very often. You would purr, sigh, giggle and sniff often (depending on what you dreamed of).

Seijuurou found it quite funny, but he never had the heart to wake you up, unless he heard that your voice was disturbed – then the man knew that you were dreaming about something bad, so always stroked your head so that you wouldn't feel lonely or scared.

— SHINTAROU

I think you only talk in your sleep when you are comfortable enough with the other person to do so; therefore the only people who hear you at night are your boyfriend, your best friend and your parent. Only with them during your childhood or now do you feel well enough to release the brakes and simply talk to them at night. Midorima personally thinks it’s quite cute and very fun. He likes to hear interesting things or stories from you while you sleep.

“... I like himmm.” You muttered while you slept while your boyfriend scroll his phone and read the sports news.

“Yes? Who’s that?” He asked with a slight smile, not taking his eyes off the app.

“Shin-chan.”

“Do you like Shintarou?”

“... Mhm... I like him a looot.”

Although the green-haired man was still looking at the smartphone, on his cheeks in the light of the bright screen you could see slight blushes and an even bigger, very sincere smile.

— RYOUTA

I think here would be a so-called combo; you talk in your sleep and also move your legs/hands, giving your boyfriend quite contradictory signals. Why? Because your night often looks like:

“Mhm... Ryouta... I love you...” And then there is a slap/kick on the side or thigh. Your boyfriend frown because he doesn’t know how to react. Do you love him, but you beat him? While you sleeping so peacefully? 

“Y/N! Please stop, I will have bruises on the photoshoot!”

And the biggest problem is when you start biting him and saying that you will give your life for him, and in the meantime your partner can’t even wake you up. Poking doesn’t work here, talking to you, or even blocking your nose too, so Kise has to wait for your hands and feet to calm down and your dream will change to another, which will stop you from waking him up and disturbing him from falling asleep.