#it may be a bit cheesy but im a sucker for this kind of stuff

[good-beanswrites]

I wonder where Mahiru got the idea for "A Different Kind of Love". I'd say it's Amane because I'm biased. But more likely, Mahiru saw little acts of love from everyone, and she realized that romantic love isn't all there is to it.

Drabble request? *twiddles fingers* Or if not, headcanons work too.

Ough I was crying through that whole chapter, it was really beautiful ;--; (Haha, I'm biased and think it'd come from Fuuta! but) I ended up writing something with Amane and found a really sweet idea to run with. They both just want to teach one another...

“It’s not scary at all, because it’s love.” Amane gave a decisive nod, pleased with her explanation. She’d been at a loss for words lately, weighed down with exhaustion and pain, so it was nice to finally feel like she was articulating herself well. 

That is, until she got a look at the horror painted across Mahiru’s face.

“I… I’m not sure…” She shifted uncomfortably. “That doesn’t sound… quite like love.”

It was understandable that Mahiru wouldn’t understand. Amane had heard the way she talked. More importantly, Amane had heard how the others talked about her. Mahiru had a very rigid view of love. She wasn’t a narrow-minded person like some others here, but she certainly had some work to do in that area. 

Amane took a breath. She’d grown tired of trying to teach these sinful adults anything, but Mahiru was always a good listener. 

“Not all love is shown in the same way. A strong bond requires respect. Discipline.”

Mahiru still didn’t look convinced. Her smile seemed forced on her lips. She tugged absently on one of her colorful earrings. “I know love comes in all shapes and sizes. But… I don’t think it should be so… harsh.”

“Let us take Kajiyama for an example.” Amane folded her hands in her lap. It felt good to be speaking like this, as equals. “His behavior in the first trial was nothing but harsh. And yet, you’re the one who spoke up on his behalf, pointing out ways that he cared to the others.”

“That’s true. But Fuuta never hurt anyone.”

“Fuuta has hurt many people.”

“W–well yes, but I meant…” Her face twisted into the one and only expression Amane hated to see from her. A sad sort of smile. There was love in it – which is the reason Amane tolerated it at all – but so much pity, as well. 

As quick as it had come, it was replaced by one of her signature little smiles. “I’ll tell you what, will you play a little game with big sis Mahiru?”

Amane’s mouth was open to reject the idea until Mahiru hurriedly added, “I do love games. I don’t get to play as many, now that the warden didn’t forgive me…”

She huffed. Mahiru turned her round, brown eyes on her. Amane let out another noisy breath. “What is it…?” 

Mahiru clapped her hands together. “Yay~! It’ll be fun, I promise! Let’s pick out the ways that the prisoners show their love! We’ll keep track of it during the day, and keep score at night. You said it yourself, there are so many ways that people show it. Let’s try and notice them all!” She held a finger to her lips. “But we’ll keep it secret. And we’ll try to find something for everyone.”

Amane scoffed. “We’re not going to find one for everyone.” There were a few people who were not graced with the capacity for real love, she had found. 

“Well then, that’s what will make it an interesting game, yeah~?”

—

Mahiru bid Amane a good night. She kept the notebook open on her lap for a moment more. 

The two had busied themselves keeping a secret scoreboard throughout the past few weeks. Mahiru was worried the idea would fizzle out quickly, (as most of her spontaneous plans usually did,) but she hadn’t accounted for how committed Amane was when she put her mind to something. 

Each and every night, Amane would appear in Mahiru’s cell, picking up the notebook to add in the day’s entries. Mahiru would scramble to come up with a few of her own, as she’d forgotten to pay attention throughout the day.

Though she hadn’t actually noticed any decrease in game-playing, the warden’s verdict had hurt her in other ways. If Es rejected her love, what did she have left? If her love truly did hurt others, and Milgram thought she should be punished for it, wouldn’t it be better for her to never show it again? Now and then she’d be crushed under the weight of the verdict, the voices, the guilt. She considered withholding all the kindness within her – what if it got someone else killed? Hadn’t it already come close?

But this little exercise with Amane… 

Originally, the idea had come to her as a way to prove that not a single entry in their notebook featured any harm – no screamed words, no contradictory rules, and certainly no physical pain. It would be a way to keep Amane from staying in her cell all day. Mahiru wasn’t sure if the others necessarily appreciated the nonstop surveillance from Amane’s single, bright eye, but Mahiru knew what a blessing it really was. 

To her surprise, she’d felt swaying within her own heart, as well.

Mahiru ran her finger across the chart, lingering on various entries. Some were as big and grand as she had expected: “held Muu’s hand when she was nervous after a nightmare;” “complimented Mikoto’s appearance after he’d taken a long time to style his hair.” Physical touch, gifts, compliments, it all made sense to her.

Other lines had surprised her: “changed the subject when Kazui started looking uncomfortable;” “explained a joke to Haruka when he didn’t understand it at first;” “left Yuno alone when she seemed too tired to talk.” Amane brought much more variety when she wrote down the things she’d witnessed

Just as Mahiru was teaching Amane something about love, the girl was revealing something to her about it. The mere act of picking out others’ acts of kindness, recognizing when they were trying, even imperfectly, acknowledging when the others touched something deep inside of themselves – it all proved something new.

Her finger paused over a recent addition in Amane’s neat handwriting. “Spoke to me like an adult.” 

It was in a column filled otherwise with Mahiru’s pen strokes. Shidou’s.

“Huh…”

[hansslut]

valentine's day with the yjs ୧ 💌 ୨

cw: pretty much just fluff !!! may have swear words included tho ??

a/n: made this for me and everyone else who's single on valentine's day too :l hope this make you all feel a lil better and ily mwah mwah, happy ( early ) valentine's day babes <3

NATALIE SCATORCCIO

- pretends she hates valentines day and everything that has to do it but deep down she adores it

- will stand awkwardly looking at the different kind of chocolates and sweets and being like "uhmmmm.....reeses are never a bad option i guess?" ALSO I FEEL LIKE she'd ask other people buying stuff for their partners what they're gonna get them cuz she's so confused 😭

- we all know she's a sucker for kisses, cuddles, holding hands, AAAANYTHING that has to do with physical touch but hates showing it so i think she'd use valentine's day as an excuse to be publicly affectionate a bit

- ok that's all i might add more later on

JACKIE TAYLOR

- she's OBSESSED with holidays and celebrations, whether it's valentine's day, christmas, anything

- waking you up at like 7am and being like "hi hi valentine hey you're my valentine it's time to wake up my valentine" while shaking you and smooching you all over

- she's never letting go of you on vday. always clinging by your side, holding your other hand while you're brushing your teeth, talking to you from outside of the door while you're on the toilet, hugging you by the waist when you're cooking

- wearing ridiculous matching outfits with her in PUBLIC. i feel like she'd have those shirts that say "their queen" AND YOU "her king/queen/monarch(☠️)" OR GETTING YOU THOSE SILLY LIL HEADBANDS THINGIES WITH THE JIGGLY HEARTS..

- knows exactly what to buy you and she's already gotten everything prepared😭 it's adorable cause she'll give you a gift of something you forgot you wanted and you're just sitting there standing like :O

SHAUNA SHIPMAN

- ditches you for jackie. end.

- JK. i think she'd just treat it like a regular day honestly

- gets you a chocolate and calls it a day but not in a bad way??? LIKE she already loves you and does a lot of things to show it so she doesn't really think valentine's day is necessary

LOTTIE MATTHEWS

- she's suuuuuuuuch a softie for showing you off and getting to shower you with gifts :(

- she wouldn't wanna go out too much, she'd probably have everything set out already. your gifts hiding in the closet, your sweets hidden in the fridge, everything prepared and on point

- i feel like since some of the yjs were mean to her and telling her to just stop talking and stuff, she'd be kinda closed off at the start and she'd be scared to show you how much she loves and adores you, but then when she sees that you accept and give her the same love back and even more she's SOOOO hyper

- writes you cheesy letters that you keep in your drawer forever and probably even little drawings of your favourite things or you and her 😭

VAN PALMER

- THE SILLY!!!!!MAI SILLY!!!DE SILLY!!!:DD

- arcade dates w them on valentine's day or going like on an amusement park☝️☝️

- they'd go print out some silly t-shirts for y'all... like "i love my van" with a picture of a van LMAOO and they'd make you wear it all the time

- if you want to do smth on that day, you BET you will. they'll never let you down i SWEAR they're the sweetest pookiest babiest to ever exist :(((((((((

TAISSA TURNER

- hates valentine's day more than anything... "what the fuck im NOT wearing that" when you ask her to match outfits with you but does it anyway

- she's miserable doing anything on valentine's day cause she thinks it's cringe but warms up to it when she sees how happy it makes you

- she's the girl that said "happy wife happy life" btw so she'll do anything u ask her to no matter how much she despises it which is.. a lot probably

- gets you a chocolate and takes 2 hours to decide if she should write you a corny letter with it and she scribbles down some ideas but then just puts :)

LAURA LEE

- as a christian we shouldn't be celebrating vday but im not really that religious so????

- but laura lee is so anyways she would be all like "im not going to sin, i don't want to disappoint my lord" 😭😭😭

- she'd still go on a date w you, well more like flower picking and stuff and she'd probably pull out the the bible and start reading to you but you love her too much to say no so you just listen

- ok yeah that's it end of post mwah mwah

[whorefordazai]

hi im weak for matchups so uh,, had to jump in the inbox (unless you're not accepting anymore- if that's the case im so sorry for bothering you)

my pronouns are mainly she/her but it depends on the day

im a taurus, specifically on the may side of that

im just barely 5'1, a bit on the thicker side so am just,, v small and soft and squishy with brown hair and blue eyes (i also wear glasses!)

my hobbies include cosplay, theatre and baking and i wouldn't say any of them are talents-

i like warm colours, anime plushies and hanging out with my friends and i dislike bossy people, family events and spiders

my love language is probably words of affirmation and quality time (and that's on being in a ldr)

my personality is uh,, loud, eccentric, dramatic- those kinds of words. just big and bold

my favourite colours are red, orange and yellow!

and date ideas... something fun like an arcade or amusement park!!

thank you so much in advance if you do this 💕💕

I match you with...

Nakajima Atsushi! ´ˎ˗

👾 atsushi is a sucker for your baking. it might not seem like a big deal, but it means a lot to him (especially if you make him stuff) cuz no ones ever made him stuff, okay? plus, all he eats chazuke 🙄 he doesn’t really know his way around the kitchen (barely knows how to chop veggies) so he’ll secretly wish for you to make him some sweet things.

👾 he understands why you don’t like family events—he only really enjoys hanging around with fun people but some can be toxic and it makes him feel anxious and worthless. really does piss him off. so he’ll comfort you if you’re in distress about that.

👾 you’re bold—he’s just kind of lost 🥲 he gets easily flustered when you’re bold with him. sometimes when you’re extra eccentric with him, he’ll appreciate it so much. atsushi gives the best hugs in bsd I don’t take any criticism—so if you jump on him, his arms will immediately wrap around your waist and he’ll spin the both of you around—and for a moment when you’re just hugging, he’ll pull back and have the biggest smile on his face.

👾 atsushi has never been to an arcade or amusement park before, so he’ll gladly go with you! he’ll be a hesitant at first because of all the people there, but once you grab his hand, he’ll ease into your comfort. arms looped together, you’ll both go on rides together. acting like a cheesy couple doesn’t bother him. In fact, he really enjoys it because he feels like he’s gaining back his childhood.

SONGS ´ˎ˗

- cupid’s chokehold | gym class heroes

- saturday sun | vance joy

- come a little closer | cage the elephant

- young and beautiful | lana del ray

- carolina | harry styles

MESSY LAYOUT ´ˎ˗

[arcenergy]

"Ok Arcetri, give me the 40 minutes rant you're holding yourself. I'm a sucker for torture. Talk about the potato."

roi you and i both know this is gonna be a 5 paragraph essay so im gonna keep this shit under the cut also im gonna wake up my sister because im fucking dying reading this

Yes, yes, I’m aware of you and Zevran’s relationship but you really don’t have to mention torture and other things like that in public. There’s probably fuckin’ kids around here Theon. Do you want something like that to fall on some poor innocent ears? Don’t get me started on all of the scandals that would happen in Orlais. But fine, since you asked, I’ll talk about the ‘potato’. 

Well, first off, don’t you think it’s a bit selfish to really only take your emotions into consideration when you’re discussing about Alistair? And I’m only saying a bit selfish because I’m trying to be nice here. I don’t want to see your feelings hurt, because I take other people’s feelings into consideration. It’s an interesting concept, don’t you think? But enough about you, let’s discuss Alistair. 

I know you think I’m absolutely nuts to think that I would fall for a guy like that, and, to be fair, I thought I was originally. I understood Alistair’s long-term grief about Duncan. I kind of went through the same thing. It’s..a long story. One you’re probably not interested in hearing, and, quite frankly, one I’m not interested in telling. That, and I’m also not drunk enough. At first I wasn’t too thrilled about the cheesy one-liners and all, but there was just something charming about him. I felt calm when he was around. He isn’t a headstrong kinda guy, but he knows what’s up. You just look at his smile and you just feel..assured. That everything’s gonna be alright. He’s the kind of guy that genuinely cares, ya know? Oh, please, stop looking at me like that unless if you like wearing two eyepatches. You focus too hard on just one aspect of a person. Nobody is perfect, Theon. Alistair is the person I needed in my life when shit got rough and I’m perfectly happy with him. He’s got a good heart and he knows what’s best for other people. I don’t really know what he sees in me but I see potential in him everyday. He’s a good fighter even if he isn’t always aggressive. Someone once told me that it’s better to be cautious than to rush in without much thought, and it’s served him well. You expect him to be able to carry the entirety of Thedas on his shoulders. Nobody can do that, Theon. I can’t, you can’t, and he can’t either. He’s always been there for me and he always does as much as possible for me and I try to do as much as possible for him. Alistair came from a secluded life in a Chantry and honestly can’t we both relate? We come from the same Alienage, after all. Get that dirty look off your face, you can’t deny the facts. The Alienage was a secluded, close-minded shithole. But it’s better now. I’ll make it better. But anyway, the Chantry is the pretty much the same but with more holy water. Alistair can handle himself just fine despite his upbringing and he’s better than me in a lot of aspects. I’m not sayin’ that for anyone’s pity, it’s just the truth. He’s got more compassion and tenderness in his heart. Something that doesn’t really stick around when you’re always fighting and stuff. You gotta hand it to him for that much. Still being able to care about people even if you’ve gotten your life ripped apart time and time again and still smile even though life sucks. That’s strength, right there. Not physically, but mentally. Alistair learned how to be himself when he joined the Wardens and I’m glad he’s happy. I only hope that I can make him happy. 

There, ya pleased now that I’ve gotten all sappy? Is someone in the corner writing this down? Are you taking mental notes to use this against me? Because I don’t really care. I love him, Theon. You can talk shit about him but just remember that you may not always have the full story.