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I'm actually sick again...
3rd time in 3 months yay..
#I've had bronchitis in october#and in november#had a fever last night and now im starting to cough#I'm so tired of this#all the moms and kids and work are also sick though#and I went to the doctor with a 2 year old cause the mom was also sick so that was a lot of close contact#she wanted to be picked up which is understandable#she did cough right on my face though#bronchial hyperreactivity#asthma
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as far as i know i haven't been around anyone that's sick so WHY AM I FUCKING SICK
#man every time i get so much as a cold i end up with bronchitis#this is gonna fucking suck#im never just sick for a few days or a week. now i gotta strap in for being sick for at least a month#and right before october too! fuck!#this is probably bc i went back to work after over a year of being unemployed#text post#i had rsv as a kid and ever since then I've had problems with my lungs every time im sick#i used to have to use a nebulizer and take steroids every time i was sick as a kid#and even as a teenager#now as an adult they don't want to give me shit#so I'm typically in and out of urgents cares every time bc i get bronchitis and have god awful coughs for months on end#which by the way is EXTREMELY painful#this fucking sucks
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Wanna Make Something Of It?: A Justice League International Retrospective: Justice League #1 Review
Keith Ian Giffen 1952-2023 "I"m sick of Darkseid, Darkseid has been passed around the DC Offices like a Bong"
Hello all you happy people and happy birthday to me. Each year either on or around my birthday, or in this case a month later because the end of 2023 was a cold and carpal tunnel hellscape and 2024 opened with bronchitis, I take a look at something special to me, something that means something: From the first apperance of the Legion of Substitute Heroes, to the first volume of Scott Pilgrim, to Scott Pilgrim Vs the World , to last years look at the uncanny x-men's rebirth with Giant Sized X-Men #1, i've always set aside my birthday to reflect on my past and celebrate it with something I truly love.
This year I decided on that.. for reasons that still break my heart. On October 9th at the ripe age of 70 Comics Legend and personal inspiration of mine Keith Giffen.. passed away. He had a long, good life and created countless amazing stories and characters.. but his loss will be a void that can never quite be filled.
For those who hadn't heard of him, Keith was a comic book writer who's best known for his work at DC, having helped redefine the Legion of Super Heroes and Darkseid with the legendary Great Darkness Saga alongside Paul Levitz, created the main man Lobo, the fourth wall breaking before it was cool Ambush bug, the incomprable Jamie Reyes whose first arc I covered this year, and of course, the one punch, the only, the bwahahah-ey Justice League international.
If your asking why it took this long to eulogize him if I respected him so much, the answer is simple: I didn't know. In an age where if someone dies it's usually blasted onto my news feed, even if I don't exactly google that person every day, I had NO idea Keith was dead till reading an amazon review.. which is the kind of sick irony he'd find hilarous, so I have that, but not exactly the way to find out one of your personal heroes died. So I scrapped my original birthday review plan (Letterkenny's Three Wise Men For the Curious) and decided to start a project i've been mulling over for a while now. So welcome folks to Wanna Make Something Of It: A Justice League International Retrospective, an ocasoinal look at this long run.
JLI has an intresting history to it so if you'll sit down i'll tell you
The Not Really Secret Origin of the Justice League International
It was the late 80's and DC Comics had just undergone a massive reboot with Crisis on Infinite Earths, the first true big event comic as we know them with tie ins and a massive reboot in the end as Editorial had felt the various alternate earths had made things too complicated. So a big blue murder man named the Anti Monitor tried to wipe out all of creation, leaving only five earths: Earth 1, where most of the action took place, Earth 2 where the heroes of the Golden Age, the Justice Society of america and their various successors lived, Earth 4, where the recently aquiried heroes of Charlton Comics like Blue Beetle, Peacemaker and Captain Atom resided, an earth not concidentally introduced for this crossover, Earth S, home of the Shazam/Captain Marvel Family, and Earth X, a world where the nazi's won WWII and only the freedom fighters stood in opposition. Basically any heroes DC felt like keeping and their shiny new toys.
The result was a new one world earth with a fresh coat of paint to let in new readers. It wasn't without issues: several corners of the DCU got torn up with my beloved Legion of Super Heroes getting some of the worst of it, with every resonable attempt to fix the retcons or bring characters back.. being shot down AFTER the story had already been started or happened, eventually leaving such a giant mess they rebooted in the 90's, while many a hero was left without an origin or clear history, Donna Troy having to have her origin redone again now her connection to wonder woman was gone, Hawkman became a hawk mess in part thanks to this very book, story for another time, and much more I don't have the time or patience to get into right now.
There was a lot of good in it though, as the reboot left room for new heroes like self promotional himbo with a heart of gold, Booster Gold, the now DC flavored Blue Beetle, and more, and for some the fresh start was badly needed, revitalizing Superman, and giving Wonder Woman and out and out reboot that, while taking her history away, exchanged it for one of the best runs on the character ever via George Perez. And eventually, after some growing pains, it gave us room for an all new flash after a lengthy murder storyline left Barry running out of steam. For all the damage it did i've learned over the years, the crisis still did a LOT of good and helped a lot of characters find their place in this brave new world.
One property vital to DC that needed this was the Justice League of America. A few years before the crisis, DC had noticed the sales of the League were down, and tried to revitalize it: the result was a book I hope to read and cover one day.. still called Justice League of America bu tknown to most as Justice League Detroit. The IDEA was good: feeling the league was a bit scattered after a martian invasion destroyed their iconic satalite headquarters, Aquaman called for them to disband and only those who could commit full time rejoin, leaving it with just him, Martain Manhunter, Zantanna and The Elongated Man. They soon added some fresh recurits in the cyborg steel, the horribly named in hindsight but loveable for her father daughter relationship with the Martain Manhunter, Gypsy and the sterotype tastic Vibe, who'd later be heavily reworked for the better by the flash tv series.
The idea was good but even from what defenders I could find after googling the team, the book had the good IDEA of making the team more of a surrogate family like the Titans or X-Men, but simply didn't seem to pull it off. It's part of why i'd love to look at it some day: the roster is good, with even the rookies being intresting Even Vibe at least had intresting power, a low income background not really see in the Justice League at that point, and cool shades.. even if him break dancing was very much
So I do really want to read this run and possibly cover it and if you'd like me to, let me know. It intrests me.
But while it intrests me now, no one at the time was really biting so DC decided to pull the plut. It really didn't help that , thanks to the crisis.. DC now had a wide buffet of characters they could suddenly ad to the league like Captain Marvel, the Charlton gang, and Dr. Fate.
So the team got the axe in the ties ins for Legends, DC's next big event that was also designed to bring the new team together. Legends has another really cool concept: Darkseid, god of evil and dc office bong , wanted to break earth's heroes for defying him so he could finally claim it and thus came up with Operation: Humilation. He sent his lackey Glorious Godfrey to earth , becoming tele-evanglist and far right loon G Gordon Godfrey, inspired by the times and sadly still relevant. Godfrey lit up an anti superhero fervor, causing Ronald Regan to ban superheroes while Godfrey spread the message of hate, helped by Godfrey setting up Captain Marvel to seemingly kill one of Darkseid's minons who was in fact a robot designed to die and scar a 12 year old for life.
The problem is the series is a bit too fast paced for it's own good, taking a message on how hate movements like this spread oh so easily with the power of tv, and speed running it so we go from Godfrey using real life hate tactics that are chillingly relevant, to the point we get scenes with a crowd nearly killing a 12 year old jason todd or a cop killing his partner after said partner lets Black Canary go then blaming her for making him do it, to ... him making people into murder dogs and storming the captial. In three issues. You have to nearly burn the country down to get people to do a insurrection everyone knows that.
On top of that like many an event after.. a lot of it's about setting up tie ins instead of it's core story so we get stuff like Jason being saved happening off panel or Darkseid deciding to take superman off the board.. and then doing it in a tie in.
That brings us to Justice League where one of the biggest fallouts of this event.. happens entirely in it's own book. I'm split on this as on the one hand, the end of the Justice League of America should happen in it's own book.. but on the other given they brought in another writer to end the book, I don't see why they didn't just cancel it early and say "To be continued in legends" and have Godfrey tied into the league's ultimate end instead of Amazo.
Alas instead Amazo and Despero clean house leaving the league battered, demoralized and in the cases of Vibe and Steel dead. Everyone whose left leaves.. .everyone except the person it means the most to, the person who almost never left and whose the heart and soul of the league for the Martain Manhunter vows it'll live on.
Cue the finale of Legends: With things escalating quickly, Dr. Fate, DC's Resident Mysterious Magic Man, gathers a bunch of heroes together to put an end to this: Batman, Martian Manhunter, Blue Beetle (Ted Kord), Black Canary, Green Lantern (Guy Gardner), The Flash (Wally West), Beast Boy (Going by Changeling back then), Mister Miracle (Scott Free), Superman and Captain Marvel (The future Shazam) to put an end to this, with Jonn clinching the heroes return to legality by coming in the save and Wonder Woman making her debut to the superhero community post-crisis by jumping in to help. The day is saved , and a new justice league is formed from the ashes of the old.
So you may be asking: Why this roster and why aren't Wonder Woman, Superman, the Flash and BB on the cover? Let's explore that under the cut as we delve into why this roster, the creative team for the actual book, and the first issue itself shall we?
Roll Call:
So you'd probably think given how team books work nowadays that future writers Keith Giffen and JM Demattis picked this team themselves, with maybe a member or two picked by dc editorial. It's what I assumed.. but nope, DC picked the team themselves, which .. does kinda bother me. A creator should really pick their own roster as chemistry is VERY important to a team book. It speaks to Giffen, DeMattis and Macguire's talents that, even dropping a few members in issue 7, the book comes off as natural as it does and said drops come off less as "this person we were saddled with isn't working" and more "they simply didn't fit into the group so we used the big rebrand to shuffle them out". DC may of picked the roster, but to their credit they choose well. As giffen himself put in the introduction of a collection of the first few issues back in 2008 "That call was DC's to make and as it turned out.. not too shabby"
So before we got into the actual book and who made it, I wanted to take a second to explore this roster as I wanted to show WHY DC might have choose them as I couldn't find any info on why this roster was picked, and simply have my edcuated guesses to go on
First who WASN'T added despite being front and center in legends: Each of the four members cut from the roster so to speak have good reasons for not being in the team. Beast Boy is the most obvious: he was never going to be in the League to begin with, they most likely wanted a titan to represent their flagship book for the crossover and choose one of the most popular.
For the Flash, Wally's a bit more of an actual misdirect as given he hadn't shown up since his decision not to take up the mantle, this was his big coming out party as the flash, with Wally deciding to embrace his mentors roll. It's also why he didn't take it up in story and likely out: he just put on the tights and didn't feel ready for the league just yet and the character would need some time in his own solo before it made since to plop him in a team book.
For Superman and Wondy it's also simple: Superman was being rebooted: He still had a LOT of his history, but major parts of it like his time in the Legion as Superboy or his cousin Kara were cut out, major villians were revamped, and his world was reshaped for the 80's while Diana was flat out rebooted by George Perez after sales had pretty much died pre-crisis, with said run now being one of my favorite comics and one I can't wait to complete some day and share with you all.
So that left the All New, All Diffrent Justice League with a roster consisting of Batman, The Martian Manhunter, Blue Beetle, Captain Marvel (Now known as the Captain or Shazam), Dr. Fate, Black Canary, Mister Miracle and Green Lantern (Guy Gardner). So for those of you less familiar with some of these guys, let's get aquanited, as well as figure out why DC choose them.
Batman: Batman is here because he's batman.. I could end it there but that'd leave the question of why Bats was okay to go but SUperman and Wonder WOman weren't. The answer is simple: Batman.. didn't get rebooted by Crisis. Things were changed like Jason Todd's backstory, some villians erased, some bits of history tinkered with, but that was standard for most post crisis heroes. He'd have a new defentiive origin with Frank Miller's year one, but Denny O'Neil had already soft rebooted batman back in the 70's, so he wasn't in as big of a rut. Crisis took out weird shit from the silver age that I love but understand why maybe it's best reinstated as a drug hallucination, thank you Grant Morrison, and Earth 2 batman, but it really didn't change who Bruce was, his status quo etc. Batman was selling well, Dick Grayson was super popular over in New Teen Titans, it was something DC knew wisely not to fuck with. Granted I haven't gotten as hands on with just after the crisis batman as I have Superman or Wonder WOman, so I could be wrong, but most of the changes were to villian backstories, stuff that was necessary and handy, but not things that really shook up who Batman was or what stories were going on with him like Superman and Wonder Woman. And since Batman is a lisense to print money, for better or worse, they stuck him on this team.
Martain Manhunter: The Martain Manhunter is Jonn Jonzz, a cop from mars who got accidently kidnapped by an old man to earth and took up resdiense as a detective. Jonn would get a full mini establishing who he was post crisis I have not read by Giffen and Dematties but i'm now dying to now I know it exists. Jonn was a founding member of the justice league and a big hero during the silver age, and comes off as the JLA equilvent to the Avengers Wasp, not in terms of character, Janet and Jonn aren't like each other in the slightest but I do think they'd hang, but in being a hero who has a storied career almost entirely tied to one of their unvierses big super teams, but not much solo wise. The former has meant he's been bounced around a bit and even left out of the team in the new 52 for cyborg, but also means he's a treasured part of it, an elder statesman who gives the team a sense of a heart among a floating lineup. He also gives the team a power house, having most of superman's powers PLUS telepathy and shapeshifting. Jonn is one of my faviorite DC heroes owing to the justice league cartoon
Guy Gardner: Guy is an odd duck in that both John Stewart and Hal Jordan were wearing the ring, this being the first time all three earth lantern's wore it, so WHY Guy was chosen out of the three was a mystery given JOhn was, as far as I know, popular even then and Hal was the old reliable, back before everyone was sick of that and wanted them to remember they had 7 or so people more intresting. Guy was Hal's understudy. He literally didn't get the ring.. because Hal Jordan was closer, and thus was picked to become a space cop later. He was depicted intially as a school teacher before being resculpted into a jingoisitc asshole by Steve Engleheart, something that was cemented and fleshed out here. He also has a three stooges haircut, something I feel adds to his asshole charm and feel had to be brought up at some point.
Dr. Fate: Dr Fate is kent nelson, a vetran of the JLA's predecessor, the Justice Society of America. Originally the JSA was part of Earth 2, but was merged with Earth 1 so now they simply.. existed before our heroes, retired due to Mcarthyism, then came back into action when the new age of heroes launched, with deaging and such used to explain how their still around. Fate was chosen likely because he looks neat, they needed a magic guy, and they wanted a JSA rep on the team. He.. didn't really quite fit as it was clear DC didn't know quite what they were doing with him yet.
Blue Beetle: My boy ted, who I've already covered on this blog before, but this is his shining moment. For those less familiar or who missed the underated blue beetle film, Ted is an inventor who found out his uncle was planning to take over the world with an army of robots, and enlisted his close friend Dan Garret, who turned out to be the OG blue beetle and sacrificed his life to stop Ted's Uncle, passing on the mantle but not the magical alien beetle. Ted compensated by building a ton of gadgets, having plnety of quips and generally being plesant. Ted was part of Charlton Comics, a company DC had bought recently, and having his own series at the time, being fairly popular, and having an outfit created by Steve Ditko himself, he was a shoe in and a nice pick from the b-list. Grante di'm biased and this series is entirely WHY, but Ted's a fresh face in the dcu who comes in hot with plenty of experince and a cool ship for the group to fly around.
Black Canary: Dinah Lance was changed by the crisis, going from an immigrant from earth 2 to the daughter of the original. She was also made a founding member of the justice league to replace Wonder Woman because she as the only prominent dc heroine who who would've been active at the time. And yes she's wearing THIS for her time in the JLI
And honestly it's.. meh. I think they were trying to give her a less casual look, but the fishnets and black leather jacket just fit. Sometimes a superhero just needs something anyone could wear in the right order to have a super outfit. I'm not against civlian style costumes if it fits the hero and dinah's just.. fits. This one just dosen't suit her as it's a bit too bombastic.
Dinah's likely here both for her new jsa connection and new jla founder status. She's also here because the team needed a female member, alongside dr. light, who we'll get to later.
Captain Marvel: Billy is easy. While DC had aquiried their former rival Fawcett back in the 70's, and thus one of the best superman immitators there ever was and ever will be, Billy had been on earth S since they bought him, and like Dr. Fate is there to show off how the earths are all merged now. He's also another power house, and was someone dc was trying to push. DC.. never really knows HOW to push captain marvel and i'm hoping his current series by Mark Waid helps. If you haven't read it check it out, it's possibly the characters best that i've been able to have acess to (Since DC hasn't reprinted the golden age stuff quite yet). For those who haven't heard of him, Billy Batson is a ten year old who was chosen by a wizard to become his champion and thus can act out the movie big but with superman powers whenever he wants. I love him dearly and wish DC knew how to market him.
Mr. MIracle: Last but not least Mr Miracle is Scott Free. Scott is part of the new gods, Jack Kirby's big contribution to DC that also included bong of evil Darkseid. To keep the peace Darkseid and his counterpart Highfather did a son swap, HIghfather getting Darkseid's angsty son Orion and Darkseid getting Scott, who he gave to Granny Goodness, the God of Child Abuse, who gave him othe name to mock how he'd never be free. Naturally this strategy backfired as it only fired up young Scott to escape, becoming the escape artist, hero and wife guy mr miracle. The last part came courtsey of big barda, another one of Granny's charges who came to take Scott back, but was convinced that maybe hellpits weren't the best place to live, and married him in Kirby's last issue on the two. Scott is here to emphasis the new gods,s something DC was playing with more post crisis. His manager Oberon, a cheery fella with Dwarfism, is also here because Demattis and Giffen had a lot of material for the guy it turned out and Oberon is essentially the team's guy in the chair.
So with this motely crew assembled let's see what this dynamite creative team did with them as we begin the storied history of the justice league international... the international part comes later.
Starting with the cover. While usually i'll skip these in an analysis, it's both a habit I need to break and would be a criminal act here as the cover for Justice League #1 is my faviorite comic book cover of all time and my faviorite to see an homage of.
It's simple, but it's perfect. The group shot is well deisgned, showing everyone off, but in a way that's diffrent from the usual action poses we get. Their clearly ready to kick your ass then their gonna fuckin kick your ass, but it's in a way that's unique, shows the team's unity. It also is taken so seriously here.. that it makes it ripe for jokes later in the series. The wanna make something of it ffrom guy both echoes the tough image their going for.. but fits the goofy tone the series is really going to have as it settles in. This comic has been homaged to oblivion and rightly so. Even Keith's memorial image dc put out is this but with Keith and all his creations.
We open the issue proper with a declaration.
It's one of my faviorite opening pages in a comic: It's beautifully drawn by artist Kevin Maguire, sets up the setting well and sets up guy as having his head firmly up his own ass.. it's why he has the bowl cut you see, helps him get it up there nice and tight.
The issue smartly introduces the cast one or two at a time, letting each character get a proper introduction and seeing how they bounce off each other as they file in.
So first in is Black Canary, who marvels at their old headquarters recent reneovations. Our heroes start the run in the Secret Sanctuary, the Justice League's first headquarters built into a mountain in Happy Harbor Road Island. And if it seems familiar to some of you, it should as after the JLI were done with it the Doom Patrol moved in for a bit during Grant MOrrison's Run. Most famously and lastingly, Young Justice, another team I have to cover at some point, made this their main hq, the only team to really make it a home that wasn't a justice league. And to prove that point the JSA also stayed here briefly. It's this weird go to for teams who need a headquarters for five minutes.
Anyways Dinah remembers the good times and all the ghosts, guy's a dick about it humming the twilight zone theme, and assumes he and Dinah will have a sam and diane thing and not a "Stay 50 feet away at all times thing".
Next up is Mister MIracle, whose nervous about the gig, not sure if he belongs there. Out of the leaguers Scott tends to stick to the back, not shy or afraid to speak up when needed, but not as outspoken as his team mates. This nicely contrasts oberon whose all too happy for the box office as even if this lasts a cup of coffee. He's less happy when Guy makes a shot at his dwarfisim and Oberon's grumbling is hilarious.. as would've been him decking guy but we still got a few issues till someone finally does that.
Billy zooms in, shocked by all the press, showing his naivitie: even after all he just went through... Billy is still a bit shocked by just how profile this is and happy to be there. Enter the boys, Martain Mahunter and Blue Beetle, with Jonn not forgetting the whole LEgends fiasco so soon, and having a bit of a mope... though he soon makes a valid point to ted as he turns on the computer.. and shows the Detroit League. It's a nice reminder that even if the team wasn't like.. they were still close and still Jonn's proteges.. and most most of them are dead and those that arent quit due to the trauma. So doing this, while something he feels is necessary. Cue Guy banging a gavel and declaring the meeting started
We then cut to the offices of innovative concepts where we meet the heart and galbladder of this run, Maxwell Lord, a mysterious man in a suit whose watching a row of tv's. Max isn't evil like he'd later be retconned into being.. but he is VERY shady at this point, watching all the coverage on the league and in one of my faviorite subtle little things scratching the "of america' part out of the legue's name on a pad of paper.
I want to take a minute to point out macguire's facial work.. i'ts incredible, nicely detailed, realistic, but still cartoony enough to have tons of personality. Just looking at max you get his smugness, ego and sense of control all at once with him having barely said or done anything. There's been plenty of masterminds sitting behind a row of tv's, but you get Max's vibe immedietly while still wondering what his deal is and what he wants with the team, the latter being the main mystery of the books first year. Back at the Sanctuary, Dinah and Guy argue as SHOCKINGLY the experinced vetran with an eye for the teams legacy dosen't want sylvester calzone here running things. Oberon TRIES to intervene on Dinah's beahlf but get's literally brushed off and Jonn trying to be an adult in teh room.. gets Guy picking him up and making a green giant joke, both funny, both well done.. and enough to get even JONN pissed enough to enter a brawl.
Cue the goddamn batman.. and dr. fate whose here too. That's.. really fate's roll for their time on the team, their just.. here. While Giffen and Demattis did really try to work with most of the roster they were given, seeing who worked and who didn't, Dr. Fate just didn't fit this team. As you can see already.. a key part of this team is disfunction. Some become true companions eventually, but it's mostly a bunch of personalities that barely function together, fairly normal people who put on tights. It's the charm of the series: instead of just getting along or having the usual angst, these guys just make digs at each other and amble along, but DO get the job done and do deserve to be called the justice league. It's just a version of said league that dosen't take itself seriously and has fun with it, and that treats this group like people. Normally the Guy Gardner in the group would just be ingorned but because he actually DOES have the power to toss people around (and props to the creative ways he does), it leads to an actaul brawl.
Fate... doen't fit into this. Fate is an enigma, mysterious and distant. So they simply.. don't work well in a jokey sitcom. It's clear the duo LIKE the character, they'd reinvent him soon enough, but he just didn't fit what they were going for.
So that begs the question how BATMAN does.. and he answers it, cowing everyone else into stopping it and getting guy to sit down before dryly reading out the charter. Bats is the boss in this workplace sitcom, and he's a mean one, being an utter dick to dinah at one point.
This moment horks me off.. but it's also a perfect encapulation of batman's leading style: shut up do what I say. Even someone whose his EQUAL , and who founded the team before him and thus has senority, he just tells them to shut up when she's making a valid point: their fidgity because this meeting is nervous nad because they just went through some crap. What I like is that despite having BATMAN.. the dream team dosen't glorify him. He's still batman, he shuts down the room with a glare, is a tactical genius and thus great at leading in the battlefield.. but it's very clear even this early on he simply.. can't lead this team well. He has a barking "do what I tell you style" and expects them to be good soldiers, treating them like a group of sidekicks instead of experinced heroes.
It's not something the group pull out of thin air either: Batman used to have a team of his own, the Outsiders, formed after Batman walked out on the league for refusing to let him rescue Lucius Fox and turned in his badge when Clark wanted him to sit this one out as a league member. He found a bunch of other heroes along the way, and choose to make them into a team, but it was very clear that the outsiders were partners, and weren't treated as full equals, with the exception of Black Lightning who Bruce felt was on his level. He wasn't bad to the team, helping find the younger amnesaic Halo a home, setting them up with day jobs, but his style is very much "listen to me or there's the door. "
The problem is while the outsiders were mostly fresh faces to being heroes or out of practice like metamorpho or black lightning, Bruce can't let that guard down even whent he heroes have more than proven themselves. It popped up in a crossover with the New Teen Titans where he started ordering that team around, with Dick eventually having to tell him to shut the hell up and let Dick lead his own damn team.
So while it's midly grating here it fits: Batman is so determined to keep this league together he's treating them like his backup i nstead of experinced heroes, two of whom HE'S BEEN ON THE LEAGUE WITH BEFORE.
Anyways Bats does have ONE good point in his leadership so far: he wants the team to keep a low profile. While it's hard given the army of camera's outside, the team dosen't know each other, hasn't trained together yet, and needs time to be in full shape. After all they just barely got superheroes back in the popular opinon: while Godfrey DID juice up people's emotoins, it dosen't mean it won't swing back to negative easily if they fuck up.
Unfortuantely for them... someone else has other ideas.. and i'ts not fate because their in the room. At the UN Kimyo Hoshi is in the bathroom puzzled by receving a JL signal device from Max and not sure if she'll accept. Kimyo is the second Dr. Light, a hero unlike her predecessor and a scientest from Japan who got her powers during the crisis. She.. wont' be here long as while the issue plays her up as a member on the cover, she never fully joins the league. More on that in the future. For now she exits the bathroom.. to find herself a hostage. Terroists have taken the UN. THankfully she activates the device and while Batman's very confused dr. light has one, rallies the team to go anyway.
Naturally Brucey Boy is cautious, having most of the team get in the bug, while he sends Fate and Billy to scout ahead. Guy WANTS to but Batman's response to the idea of sending a human bulldozer who barely listens to him into a tense hostage situation?
The team enters and despite the disfunction so far... it goes easily: Guy seals the premiters and probably invents some new swears, beetle does his best as the guy in the chair in the bug
And Fate.. well fate left and told Billy batman would understand and left the ten year old to explain this.
The league clean house.. but Batman notices a problem: these guys are ameture, clumsy and their equipment is oudated. Something else is going on here.
Time for that is passed soon though as Guy dive sin and finishes the job quickly. It's a nice sequence overall that shows the team REALLY is this good: this is a setup sure, but they don't know that. The lead terroists plans to detonate himself and batman... tells them to clear the room and let him, knowing somethign we don't as the man prepares to fir eon him and after they exit we get a wrapup via news as Max once again watches
So yeah SOMETHING made the leader kill himself, and max is behind anything. not a MASSIVE twist as the batman conversation set it up, but still a neat one: Max has plans for the league. I also like the focus on optics here: it's something I don't THINK the league had done before, the idea of how the media views a superhero team. This verison of the league isn't bad.. but Batman's refusal to talk to the press allows them to paint the narrative they want instead of the league controlling it. It's what gives Max a leg up on slowly wrestling control of it and makes him a compelling character from the word jump: Unlike Batman, he clearly gets optics, having set this up to force the league into the spotlight bright and early and removing the of america part to give the team a bigger calling. His tactics for doing this are also brilliant but we'll get more on them as we go.
For now this issue.. is as good as ever. Amazingly drawn, sharply written and nicely snappy, setting up the team, the myth arc with max and the situation their in all in one issue while modernizing thigns a bit: instead of space monsters our heroes are now fighting terrorists. Not that I mind fighting a godo space monster, but I get trying to give the leauge something diffrent and more part of the world. And part of the world is a major part of this series: putting the League more into our world an dhaving to deal with things like the media, other nations, etc. It's a brilliant start
Next Time: The last heroes of a dead world try to save ours while a greedy bearded man wonders who he can exploit this and the team gets some gold.
#dc comics#blue beetle#batman#justice league international#maxwell lord#keith giffen#black canary#mister miracle#scott free#dinah lance#martian manhunter#shazam#captain marvel#billy batson#the 80s#comics
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Idk been weird about my body lately.
So I've been sick for the past week (bronchitis again). I had this in October and now again in March. My eating and sleeping (and pooping) has been weird.
I'm sitting at 58kg with poop in my gut and ~57kg empty bellied (and empty colon i guess)
Alternating feeling fat and feeling okay.
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Every October for the last 3 years I've had a horrible chest/throat infection; strep, then bronchitis, then covid. bronchitis was the worst feeling in the moment but covid really fucked up my lungs for weeks and I'm STILL recovering.. just started week 6 of post covid and I'm only now slightly beginning to feel better, I'm going to keep going to Jim and taking medicine and drinking tea and consuming vitamins and not smoking etc etc so I have very strong faith that my lungs will get better in time
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TW Mental Health/Self Harm/Suicide (In past tense)/Cancer/Covid
I didn't really plan for my future when I was in high school because I didn't think I'd live past 25. I honestly thought I would end up killing myself so I didn't really plan beyond high school.
I applied to colleges (and got accepted to almost every one I applied to) and applied for scholarships because I wanted to give the illusion that I was prepared for a long full life, but I wasn't.
I attended my freshman year of college (2014-2015) and then took off until spring of 2018. I worked a lot in between. I still didn't think I'd live to see 25.
I became absolutely terrified of going anywhere by myself. My brain came up with the worst possible scenario every time and I developed pretty severe agoraphobia. I started seeing a therapist about it.
I dropped out of college in 2018 because it was too expensive and I couldn't work full time to afford it and attend enough classes to also keep my academic scholarship. Plus, I was turning 23 that year and I figured I only had two years left so I decided to try to enjoy them.
I still struggled with agoraphobia. I changed therapists. My new therapist (Dr. M) described my thought process as "catastrophizing" and suggested coming up with solutions to any scenario my brain thought up. It helped a lot but I still had moments where I was too afraid to go out alone.
In 2019 I moved back in with my parents after my mom was diagnosed with stage 3 renal cell carcinoma. They told her the average life expectancy was one to three years, if she survived the surgery. She survived the surgery and started planning for treatment options. I figured they'd end up burying us around the same time.
In 2020 we went on lockdown for Covid. We had to be extra careful with mom because she was taking an immunotherapy drug to treat the renal cell carcinoma and they told us if she caught Covid, she would die. I thought neither of us would be around for Christmas that year.
September 9, 2020, my parents tested positive for Covid. I cried because my 25th birthday was 11 days away and they were isolating in their room. I didn't think I'd see them leave isolation before I died because I still thought I wouldn't make it to 25. I was in my last few days in my mind.
September 10, 2020, my mom received the antibody infusion for Covid since she was on immunotherapy drugs.
We put a small table outside of their room so I could put food and drinks and anything else they needed/wanted on it and avoid contact with them. They would text me what they needed and then text me when they were done. I sprayed everything down with Lysol and wore gloves.
September 11, 2020, I tested positive for Covid. I cried. I watched movies with my parents that night because I could be around them again. I thought I had a week left.
September 12, 2020, I received the antibody infusion for Covid since I have a history of chronic bronchitis and they were afraid of pneumonia. I thought it was a waste of resources because I only had six days anyway but I didn't want to tell my doctor that.
September 17, 2020, I tested positive for pneumonia and started steroids and antibiotics. I had one day left but I had five days worth of medications to take.
September 18, 2020, I turned 25. And I survived.
Every day since then, I've survived. I quit counting down.
My October therapy appointment, Dr. M asked me if we could talk about the agoraphobia. I had avoided talking about it since the lockdown started. She addressed that the lockdown probably didn't help it any, and likely set back a lot of our progress. I admitted that it had. She asked about the catastrophizing thoughts and I told her they weren't as bad anymore. She nodded her head and asked, "Do you think that's because one of your worst case scenarios actually happened with a global pandemic and there is a clear plan in place to help lessen your risk?" I stared at the wall for 10 minutes because she was right and my brain had to process that.
I went to Massachusetts by myself last September. I hadn't traveled more than an hour away by myself before. I had the best time of my life.
I'll be 29 this year, and I'm excited for life. I plan on going back to Massachusetts in September. And I plan on going alone.
Dr. M is super proud of me for doing it once, and I told her at my appointment yesterday that I was going again and she said that was wonderful to hear.
I'm also going to New Mexico in June but I'm going with one of my absolute best friends.
And mom is in remission.
And you know what, there's no countdown to the end of my life.
And I don't have to have a plan for the rest of my life.
I'm going to do what I want and work just enough to afford those things without working myself into an early grave.
I always thought the "it gets better" people were lying and feeding me bullshit to make them feel better when I did finally kill myself. They could say, "Well at least I tried to help them." But they were right. It does get better. It's hard as hell and it hasn't fully gone away but I know how to address it and push it away instead of letting it get me thinking about suicide all the time.
#lost onpurpose#mental health#suicide mention#suicidal ideation#depression#anxiety#agoraphobia#covid 19#cancer#recovery#lust for life#personal
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Post from the future 12/30/2023
Now I'm back up and around, im starting to exercise again and i'm trying to be a person but im sleepy all the time and im coughing like crazy and I have so much gunk in my lungs and it replaces itself as soon as i cough it up.
I'm basically going to work and doing Jazzercise classes because i only have to the end of the month to get in 17 more classes to get my t-shirt and then i sleep and thats about it.
The bronchitis is sickness #5 in a row.
I've been sick since the end of the first week in October save about four or five good days and a day and a half i was in some denial and tried to be OK for Halloween.
I decide to write off the rest of the year and just work and get my tshirt. Also i end up with unexpected bills for having had to tear the shed down at the same time my vacation was happening and getting sick and missing work and the cat had a thing i had to take him to the vet for (hes fine) and i'm just eating a lot of junk and getting fatter and fatter.
When im sick i eat whatever im craving and im certainly not eating low calorie and exercising. When im sick 5x in a row for basically three months which includes the eating holidays... well I have definitely gained back some pounds i took off before Setzer to look good in my outfits.
December is diet sabotage month anyway so im eating the holiday foods without guilt and i'll get back to diet and exercise in January.
I keep exercising to get my tshirt through December so im flabby but im not out of shape. Hoping that gives me a head start in January.
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So i finally got to the doctor for the cough I've had since I caught covid in late October. (My doctor is usually booked about a month out). She gave me an inhaler since the cough pearls from urgent care didn't work. It's been 10 years since I was given an inhaler for bronchitis and it works so well. i already am coughing way less even though I'm not using the inhaler every 4 hours (it's every 4 hours as needed). it's nerd shit but it's nerd shit that works. so this is a reminder to myself for when I inevitably get bronchitis again in the future that the inhaler is far more helpful than the cough pearls. ask for the inhaler.
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There's definitely some nuance to whether or not I trust doctors to give me the care I need.
Most of the time, I go into the clinic? Yeah. I actually do trust that I'll get proper care. But it's also because most of the time I go in and tell the front desk that I've hit the two week mark on cold symptoms and need a check because I'm prone to sinus infections and bronchitis. I've always had folks be very understanding, even when it turns out that my allergies are just acting up. But I also have to go into the clinic about every six weeks from October through April.
Going to the ER? ...I used to trust that it's a safe place to go, but I don't know I do anymore. The ER department in the town I last lived in was, well, let's just say I wouldn't be surprised to hear of a malpractice lawsuit. Add in that I'm usually out of it enough that I'm really not the person who should be doing the talking if I need the ER, and it's really the question of whether I have someone with me or not.
Seeing my doctors? I guess it depends on if I feel like I need to bring something up. Having to discuss the possibility of an issue that's not already treated is nerve-wracking, and I never feel like I can trust them to just say "Okay, let's schedule some tests to get to the bottom of this"—even with the ones who I know are going to say that even if I told them something blatantly false! Most of them, I'm comfortable with and trust that if I say "this isn't working" They're gonna pivot and find something that does.
I know some of my nerves are related to the fact that I was the victim of malpractice as a kid. I still have MAJOR issues with dentists going on twenty years later bc of the bastard. But some of it's also just that even as my parents have tried to let me self-advocate, there's been a lot of times that my mom had to coach my dad through what to say before drs. got their shit together. (And times that my dad has decided that he's not gonna bother calling for translation help and just lectured the idiot trying for semester long fatigue)
Poll: Disability and healthcare
if you feel comfortable please share your choice as well as whether you have ever experienced medical malpractice
not to be that person but please consider reblogging this, my tumblr don’t have a ton of traffic and i’m genuinely interested in the results.
also please do my other related polls if you’re queer, trans, and/or disabled/have chronic pain:
neurodivergence/neurotypical healthcare poll
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Here's what it's like for a retail employee right now: So I want a covid booster, but I haven't been able to get one. From October through this week I've worked between 45 and 50 hours every week. No time for... anything. I've also had unreliable days off... I got so sick from the second dose that I 100% need to have at least one day off after the booster to recover. Haven't been able to get an appointment that works with that. I still haven't been able to find an appointment that works with that even looking through January.
But people who don't work in retail have had time for all that. And people who don't work in retail were swarming in my store without masks on, regardless of their vaccination status. I'm not allowed to tell people to put a mask on, and I'm not allowed to just... refuse to do my job. On Christmas eve there were 5-10 people shopping in every aisle, and I had to do my job around them for 10 hours.
So. Ok. Now I don't feel well. My store has at minimum 12 people out with covid at the moment, and a bunch of people have bronchitis too which is fun.
Thing is, I've literally gone to one social thing since October. And I had a mask on the entire time. I don't see anyone but my roommates, my coworkers, and you know... the swarms of customers. And yet it's the swarms of customers who are preventing me from being able to get a covid test. You see everyone everywhere decided they'd get to spend the holidays with their extended families and friends, and now they're all sick too, so there's no otc tests available, and absolutely no appointments for tests anywhere near me for at least the next four days. There's one walk in place near me, but I'm assuming their lines are going to be out the door. I'll probably try anyway if I don't feel better tomorrow, but who wants to wait in a two hour line when they don't feel well?
So everyone gets to fucking go party and do whatever they want, and me, the bottom of the barrel retail worker whose life clearly doesn't fucking matter can't even take basic precautions to keep myself and others safe.
I'm off the next two days, so maybe I just have a little bug and I'll feel better? But if I can't get a covid test they're not going to let me miss work just because I feel icky.
I hate everything about this. If you're running around without a mask on you can go fuck yourself.
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2020 Vision
Wow. This year -- well, technically, we're not even halfway through it, but -- it's been wild. Super surreal in my personal life and worldwide current events.
A breakdown thus far...
Start the year off with #WWIII trending, everyone worrying that the U.S. will be going to war with Iran.
All this, while Australia is on fire. Politicians and billionaires do next to nothing, but a sex worker admirably raises funds by selling nudes.
Couple weeks into January, I get a message from my former close friend, who had cheated with my ex. A little backstory: she and I met through my then-boyfriend, because she was the girlfriend of his friend. We all worked together and were buddies. She and my ex cheated with each other, leading to the implosion of all relationships involved. For years after the respective splits, even after she and my ex broke up, she continued harassing me and her former boyfriend (my friend), spread rumours amongst our mutuals, told people I made up the abuse I went through at the hands of my ex, and created all kinds of drama. Anyway, she hits me up to apologize for everything, takes full responsibility for her actions, admitted that my ex was also abusive/controlling toward her and she was sorry for diminishing my experience. Having the validation and hearing her take accountability was actually really cathartic. Finally, I got to say my piece and let go of the anger I had harboured toward her (not for the cheating, as that initiated my escape, but for her cruel behaviour afterward). I never would've imagined we'd be on decent terms with one another, again.
In February, a couple of my fiance's family members really showed themselves for how selfish they could be and how low they could go. I won't delve too far into details, but it has forever affected the way we both view them and we will steer clear of them, as much as possible.
The biggest hit of the year happened in March... COVID-19. I'm high-risk, due to permanent lung damage I suffered from an illness in my late teens. I'm extremely susceptible to even the slightest cold turning into bronchitis and then pneumonia. So, life has changed a bit. I mean, we primarily stayed home the vast majority of the time. We both work from home and are not social people. It has affected our ability to grocery shop, though. We've been using a grocery delivery service. It's an added expense I didn't anticipate, but I can't risk exposure and Starling can't, because it would absolutely spread to me. It's been impossible to stick to eating keto, due to the meat package restrictions they have in place. I'm worried about how people are pushing to open back up. I don't know how I fit into the world anymore. I am afraid. I am afraid of the medical cost associated with catching this. I'm afraid of dying.
During the start of the pandemic, I went through a health scare. I've had a herniated disc, since October of last year. I work from home, sitting at a desk for hours on end, so it never had a chance to heal. Well, that progressed into sciatica and I'd been dealing with the nerve pain for a while. We had a trip to visit my parents, which is a 5 hour round-trip drive. From that trip, due to the prolonged sitting, my back was destroyed. I could barely walk or move in general. It was excruciating. I was making my way to the bathroom sink, when the pain overwhelmed me. I overheated, felt like I was going to vomit, the room was spinning, my eyes rolled back in my head, and my legs went out completely. I fell like a sack of bricks to the tile floor. Hard. I couldn't move my legs or open my eyes. Roman had to come help me. I was terrified that I had caused irreversible damage and might end up paralyzed. Apparently, that is a risk associated with prolonged disc and nerve damage. Unfortunately, I couldn't go to the hospital, because I couldn't risk getting the Coronavirus. We just waited it out and I went on bed-rest for a few days, taking off work and hoping it would resolve itself. While I do still have the nerve pain and my disc is not healed, I can walk and get around pretty normally.
Since then, April has been a whirlwind of people losing their minds about being cooped up, imbeciles protesting lockdown by parading about with assault rifles to show their displeasure with the governor, family members not taking the risks seriously and acting like I'm ridiculous for wanting to protect myself.
It's May, and now we have murder hornets, so it's a lot going on.
I wonder what the second half of 2020 holds.
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