#I've got MORE in the brain
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A 9-year-old Julian Bashir who has had nightmares about evil doctors in an alien hospital for as long as he can remember. He doesn't tell his parents though because "he's a big boy now" and nightmares are for little kids, so he knows he should deal with them alone. And even if he'd like a hug sometimes, his mum only gives him hugs for doing well, not for doing badly, so he figures there's no point bothering her
A 15-year-old Julian Bashir who realises that the nightmares he used to have were based on the apparently very real alien hospital his parents had taken him to as a kid, and spends hours trying to figure out what were real memories and what his mind had made up over the years as he slept. The nightmares come back with an intensity, but they're nothing compared with how he's feeling when he's awake, and pretty soon they become a normal background noise of his life.
A 19-year-old Julian Bashir who's finally been moved into a solitary room after his third roommate in as many weeks complained about the almost-nightly screams. His advisor asks if he wants to speak to anyone: he claims they're just night terrors and he doesn't actually remember them. Besides, even if he could talk about what was in them, he probably wouldn't, because he's fine - he's used to them by now.
A 24-year-old Julian Bashir who gets woken from his nightmares by warm hands and gentle kisses, and learns what is like to be soothed back to sleep by the soft voice of Palis Delon
A 32-year-old Julian Bashir who has a different nightmare every night. The last year's been difficult. But then, it's been difficult for everyone, and he knows he's far from the only one to be suffering from nightmares at the moment.
A 34-year-old Julian Bashir who can't stop dreaming about the torture he went through four weeks ago, who's missing Ezri and who Miles is increasingly concerned about. When the O'Briens offer him their spare room for a while, he warns them multiple times about his nightmares, and is pathetically grateful when that doesn't change their minds. "We have nightmares too, Julian," says Keiko. "We can cope with yours."
A 34-year-old Julian Bashir who is confused when, three days later, Miles remarks, "You are having a bad run of those nightmares, aren't you?"
"They've been better than usual, actually," he replies awkwardly. "It's been really nice being able to go back to sleep afterwards, for once -- you and Keiko have been so generous in coming and checking on me."
"Course we're gonna come and check on you," says Miles gruffly. "You woke up terrified. We're not letting you do that alone."
"I'd be fine, Miles," Julian reassures. "I'm hardly going to expect one of you to come in every night."
Miles pauses. "...How long are you expecting to have them 'every night' for?" he asks, with some concern. "I mean, after a thing like this, how long does it usually take them to settle down?"
Julian stares at Miles. "I... have nightmares, Miles," he replies, frowning. "Just like you. Nightmares happen every night."
"No, they don't," says Miles, equally confused. "Don't get me wrong, they can do: after something big then sure, they're like that for a few weeks - a couple of months, even. But eventually they fall down to once, twice a week..."
Julian is looking at Miles incredulously. "That might be how it works for you," he says. "I guess my brain's different to yours. Mine don't stop, they just... mix. Change. Get confused with one another, eventually. I've had more dreams about being genetically modified by Sloan in the Dominion camp than I care to remember, you know?"
Miles' concern has turned into abject dismay. "You're saying you've had nightmares every single night since the Dominion took you?" he exclaims.
"Well, maybe not every single night!" retorts Julian, a little unsure what Miles is getting so het up about. "I do have some days when I don't... But yeah, pretty much. I've had nightmares most nights since I was fifteen, it's just how my brain processes stuff."
"Fifteen?"
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A 34-year-old Julian who finds out that having nightmares every night for two decades is, apparently, "not normal" and something he should be seeking help for.
If Ezri comes back alive, he supposes he might take it up with her.
#Julian Bashir#Fic ideas#Although this has kind of become something of a ficlet in and of itself#I've got MORE in the brain#But now's not the time to start new fic#So... I wrote this instead#Which was supposed to be short 😅#Only took me an hour to write oops#Andi writes#My trek musings#wsb
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#yeah i'm not dead woo let's celebrate#my art#kuroshitsuji#kuroshitsuji fanart#black butler#black butler fanart#grelle sutcliff#grell sutcliff#anyway i didn't draw SHIT for a good while and when i got back to it i suddenly hated using the flat marker brush???#it's part of what makes my signature distinctive so i used it for that but yeah i switched brushes#oddly enough i'm not hating the more textured look? it gets very pixelated at times but it's not awful#back to the signature- it felt weirdly nice to sign things again#i haven't in a while#if you're one of the very few people who also follow me on instagram you'll know i don't use it on there#and the only art i've been doing these days has been original work so yeah nothing on tumblr#and thus the words 'brain exhaustion god stan' have not been written by this comically large hand in a hot minute#enough rambling this is just grelle art because i love her and i know y'all love her too so i thought it would be a nice comeback piece
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calling it right now that season 3 starts like this
#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all#there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season#they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else#and makes it worth working on their problems together#the problems are still very much there#both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up#ed doesn't know about stede's trauma#they haven't talked through anything#and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well#and those are just some of the internal issues#then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet#because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one#the crew are not “gone” they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately#again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire)#it's not a forever goodbye#ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of ✌️#hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!!#ofmd s2 spoilers#ofmd s2#ofmd#our flag means death
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Building Bridges by @maidenvault Found this fic again In my saved ebooks so I couldn't resist. Short fic I like a lot for portraying the "boys being boys" vibe of the early batch XD (I didn't draw the funniest parts 'cause my brain focused on the end but read it.)
Small spoiler for the end under cut
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#I wanted to draw more for it but I need to stop I've got stuff to do#But know I'm frustrated to be unable to storyboard everything#anyway#okay I posted for the month time to log off for a year now#yeah I know the picture 4 and 5 are the same but well my animation brain was locked#I need to draw layout or I die
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happy valentines day may all your love be monstrous and uncontainable
#almost done with my dmmd playthru again. yippee#my bf's big beautiful brain got him into med school so now he's stuck studying while im stuck drawing ppl eating each other. happy v day#dmmd#dramatical murder#someone commission me to draw more of these fucks i love drawing them but i cant justify doing it more bc#there's something else i have to be working on that ppl are actually paying me for lol#aoba seragaki#ren#fanart#artists on tumblr#tw gore#tw blood#i've been on here so long i dont even know how tws work anymore sorry. avert ur eyes
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"[..] but they’re not Etho. They can’t be.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“Because Etho never left my side.”
[the curse of deepfrost, ch14] by @capriciouswriter207
#JUST HAD TO DRAW !! THE B E ST REVEAL EVER#i couldn't get the image out of my BRAIN#first time drawing an etho whop#can u tell who my favorite etho version is?#spoilers it's yago's <3#BUT YEAH !! THIS FIC !! SOOOOOO GOOD#PLEASE read it#ethoslab#hermitcraft#decked out 2#etho#hermitcraft etho#lionsart#(i've got one more idea brewing but i might animate it so we'LL SEE)
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The beach! The beach! There's lots of stuff to find at the beach! 🪨 🐚 🏖
#doodles#pokemon art tag#pokemon#steven stone#gym leader roark#cranidos#aron#just restarted omega ruby so I've obviously got pokemon on the brain#and there's steven and I'm like. ok. time to draw the boys#i haven't drawn much these last few weeks so this was so so so fun!!#i hope the momentum keeps up wnd tbh i want to draw more of these two ehehe#put more ideas to paper#write something silly#something cute...#anyway there we go have some nice beach doodles#they're out in that area north of Dewford having a nice time in the water before heading down into that cave#on a nice date...
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thinking abt them sitting in my lap, riding me...
my lips on their lips, their jaw, their neck...
my hands wandering their body, trailing up their thighs to their waist, to their ribs, and back down to their hips...
holding them down as i grind up against them, both of us moaning and gasping at it all
#that's it that's all i've got#nvm my brain is finding ways to make this more poetic now but i don't really have the energy for it to become a whole thing#i'll save it for another time lol#queer nsft#queer ns/fw#trans nsft#trans ns/fw#t4t nsft#t4t ns/fw#mlm nsft#mlm ns/fw#mlnb nsft#mlnb ns/fw#nblm nsft#nblm ns/fw#trans mlm nsft#trans mlm ns/fw#gender neutral sub#gender neutral dom#my posts
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going back to gouache after about 10 years of leaving it alone 👀 here's Mariam as a kid
#the kitten's pose is an hommage to chickpea my own cat#who's letting us give her belly rubs now!!! it's only been a couple weeks#she's loving it#it makes her space out lol#no more brain behind these huge eyes of hers#anyway I've got a pdf ready presenting Birds of the Storm to make a graphic novel out of it#waiting on publisher's opinion...#URGH hadnt noticed the typo#living it alone lol#oops
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Have you watched Dungeon Meshi yet? I feel like you would LOVE dungeon meshi (see also: I think it would give you obsessive brain rot)
I uh... um... yeah I like Dungeon Meshi a normal amount.
#ask#I am so glad that I give off the vibes of someone who likes Dungeon Meshi. The brain rot is nearly a decade old!#I do recommend looking through the link on 'Dungeon Meshi' - that's the whole chronological tag of the art I've done so far.#Ryoko Kui is a huge art inspiration and I honestly feel like I got a *lot* better after drawing her characters.#Probably because I was looking at more references than I normally do but hey! Progress is progress!#Dungeon Meshi updates kept my deeply depressed ass alive in the darkest moments.#Now it's responsible for being something that got me noticed by the person who made Nico the catboy.#I think I might actually be a bit more known *for* the Dungeon Meshi art than the MDZS content at this point.#When season two comes out I *will* be back for Thistle Thursdays.
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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more doodles of this bc it's in my brain now
#my brain has been rotating the idea nonstop for a while now so i'm a little insane about it actuallyyyyy dont mind me :P#my arts#gravity falls#the owl house#stan pines#eda clawthorne#soos ramirez#ouagh im not typing out every character tag for these weirdos#my ocs#gravity falls oc#owl house oc#i haven't 100% decided on a name for the kid but i'm leaning towards Jacquelin? Jack for short lol#jacquelin clawthorne. jacqueline pines. the more i think abt it the more i like that actually#also in case it wasn't clear this is like right after Soos got hired so ~10 yrs before the events of gf#and idk how long before toh. when does that take place. 2020?? so 18 years?? huh.#idk if the timeline makes sense but i'll Make it make sense.#i've got a few Ideas. nothing super concrete just Ideas. :)
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Rendered some older sketches now that Silver and Nine have designs! Go check out the lineup done by @cherbearsz as Knuckles, Rouge and Whisper are there too!!
I have much more of this au I need to get posted but I'm really happy with how these renders turned out so have them for now. Finished vs initial sketch comparison for the S drawing below the cut bc I think it's neat!
#starrway art#image id in alt#sonic#sonic fanart#sonic murder drones au#sonic md au#sonic au#shadow the hedgehog#silver the hedgehog#nine the fox#sonic prime#murder drones#oh yeah babyyyyy finally uploading more#I've got some other silver pieces related to episode 7 I gotta post too hehehehe#And a whole ass comic page in the works with a potential other one I wanna make too???#this au is doing stuff to my brain man#unironically it's helping me so much in getting better at expressions and just drawing sonic characters in general
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a ton more @heartbreakgulch x @villain-coded-comic stuff because i have uhhh Problems It Appears. thank you @strangegutz for letting me play with your tuoys. and also featuring one zo by @dollie-hearts thank you bon i love zo forever &ever
#anonymous puzzler art#heartbreak gulch#strangegutz#dollie-hearts#villain coded comic#anonymous puzzler originals#long post#tw drugs#tw smoking#tw alcohol#tw bare chest#tw suggestive#tw blood#real fun collection of tags here LMAO#i've got like one more mini comic i could post but i'm on the fence it's like Very Lightly too blue for my usual fare. but i consider it#anyway enjoy these cowboys my brain is normal
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you're all tarted up and you don't look the same but it just gets worse [1] [2] [3] [4]
#this has been living in my brain for a while now#and i've listened to the clips so much and watched so many videos that now it all kinda sounds the same#but he gradually developed a growl on 'you're all' and it makes me giggle#he even got himself in the last one because it's so unhinged. you can hear his lil giggle afterwards 😭#notice how ALL the footage is late sias era when he really started leaning into hyping up the crowd and showboating a bit more.#there was a whole lotta pointing 🫵 and jumping off shit#i think it was also opening for the 'black keys' that the band had to work to 'win' the crowd over and he said he liked the challenge.#ANYWAYS. 'still take you home' will forever remain a banger#AND the transition from 'this house is a circus' into 'still take you home' will forever be a favourite#alex turner#arctic monkeys#sias era#arctic monkeys edit#still take you home#mine#daddy-long-legssss
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CHARLIE MAGNE from HAZBIN HOTEL (2019): Pilot - "That's Entertainment" ↳ "So, I've been thinking: Isn't there a more humane way to hinder overpopulation here in Hell? Perhaps we can create an alternative way to change souls through... redemption?"
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel edit#hazbin charlie#charlie magne#hazbin edit#requested#hazbin hotel pilot#that's entertainment#charlie#my gifs#god ain't she the cutest little thing!#not gonna lie i get a bit emotional seeing her do The Pose during ''wonderful fantastic new hotel''#it's the same pose she does in the S1 poster :')#okay actually im back here to say some things in the tags:#holy almighty LORD these gave me so much grief to color in a way i thought looked nice#specifically the one of her in the news chair. sorry i was NOT gonna let that hideous highlighter green color assault all your eyeballs.#did i lose nearly two hours of sleep getting it right because i still have no idea what i'm doing? yes. worth it? YES. ohh yes.#i liked the seafoam look so i made the cloud sequence match :] or at least tried to#there WAS supposed to be another one of her in the news room but i just hated how it kept turning out so i scrapped it.#coloring the main series was one thing to learn but the PILOT? never has it been so obvious to me just how much more bright and vibrant#the colors got during the progression of the world design. also. if by any chance one of those cool and experienced#gif makers happens to see these tags and wants a good laugh: i've been doing this for how many months now? and just last NIGHT figured out#how to use the fucking eraser in photoshop....... thing is... i also draw. i KNOW what program tools look like. i KNOW ppl draw in PS.#i'm just a really silly fuckin goose!! TEEHEE FUCKING HEE I GUESS!#so for months i've been like ''god i wish i could just erase this part from the layer'' and looking at the eraser tool and just being like#''nah it's probably different and weird i'll just stick to what i know'' -> said boo boo the FOOL#see i could be in the club but i'd rather be aggressively neurodivergent about the silly queer demon cartoon that altered my brain chemical
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