#I've been crushing on him for MONTHS

[the-bineapple]

wjats wrong wiht me

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12

[asgardian--angels]

there's meta to be had about just how much of viktor's arc is about loneliness and the blatant visuals they use in his evolution about metamorphosis, butterflies, cocoons, in utero, etc, as he molts from a soft, vulnerable larva who keeps getting hurt in his bids for love and acceptance, into a hardened final form complete with an exoskeleton acting as both physical and emotional armor. a shield keeping his emotions in and the pain of loneliness and rejection out, until it's cracked and his humanity is forcefully exposed. like. sorry if it's just the entomologist in me but this was blatantly obvious the very first time i watched the show and I've been continually surprised that no one's really pointed this out. as a certified lonely person it struck such a deep cord with me, when he accepted his fate, his path ahead, to be one he'd have to walk alone, finally putting up that last seemingly impenetrable wall around his soft parts (but keeping the blanket, this signal that he never asked for this, and that he's not unreachable). So much of his s2 arc centered around not just his desire to right his wrongs and help the world, but to connect with others and not feel alone, both of which got twisted by the hexcore. His attempt to create a hivemind where no one would ever suffer loneliness or rejection or loss, and he would feel their souls with him as well (even though that was an illusion in the end, he truly believed it). The whole 'I now speak with all their voices' but he's just floating in an empty space. And for the consequence of the glorious evolution to be eternal solitude, it just drives home how that's the worst possible fate imaginable for Viktor.

[k2ulhu]

hulu was doing live coverage of the election until 2:00am, at which point my power randomly went out and when I reopened the hulu app on my tv the election coverage was replaced with

[footnoteinhistory]

JOHN LARROQUETTE as Don Moore SUMMER RENTAL (1985), dir. Carl Reiner

[maddy-ferguson]

i'm actually not a lesbian yes the concept of heterosexual sex disgusts me on paper but it appeals to me with a few select men. and that's how i've always felt but the lesbian masterdoc which was written by a girl who turned out to be bi got me. and a lot of other bi women with a preference for women. it's crazy to have that much influence when you think about it

[canongf]

i wanna watch a qui/et pla/ce day 1 because eric <333 but i don't wanna watch it because what if i have to see him fall in love with someone else or die or BOTH. that is not for me <333

[silverselfshippingchaos]

this line is how i feel whenever i inevitably fall for ANOTHER y.akuza character

[violethursday]

It hasn't been a month into 2025 and yet so much has happened at school. First off, we get ANOTHER school threat. Two of my would-be school days were cancelled due to snow and 2 of my would-be school days are online. My crush has had the flu for the past 9 days and I've only seen him 6 times so far. TODAY I HAVE ONLINE SCHOOL BECAUSE YESTERDAY A WATER PIPE BURSTED AND EVERY STUDENT WHO WAS STILL THERE HAD TO STAY IN THE AUDITORIUM.

Oh and also I got into jazz band, though my band teacher says I'll actually be able to participate next school year since something something grades and credit but oh well :3

[slimeciclecock]

Forgive me for the person I'll become when Missa releases all his new music <- delusional

[icharchivist]

i was casually talking about a3 to someone who doesn’t know a3, and with whom i’m just casually acquittance with, and i casually brought up Hisoka’s songs, and *casually* mentioned it was ruining me, and the guy jumped to the conclusion “yeah he seems soulcrushing, but i get why you’d have a crush” because he knows me by my icon, and i slipped and went “oh no i don’t crush to him at all, i relate to him actually” and then he asked “oh, in what way?” and. Jesus. this casual conversation turned into the most “if i say even one more thing or even mention a bit of Hisoka’s story i’m saying ways too much about myself”, this casual conversation turned into a walking on egg simulator in one fucking instant 😭😭

[n0heart]

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[themagical1sa]

"i like you and i blame you for making me feel this way" he said

i still think about it

[silverselfshippingchaos]

SHUT UPPPP him getting the expert idea to throw a guy at his brother and then laughing about it is so...

[poseiben]

i'm so desperately in love right now

[scorpion-flower]

Okay, confession time that's gonna make me sound like a shitty person, but on my trip from Catania back to Athens, I sat next to that lovely Canadian woman and her mother and we were chatting during the whole trip and we went out last night, and we went out tonight again (I was supposed to meet them for dinner, but I got to the wrong place and didn't get to meet the mother, but I still got to meet the young woman). There's a slight chance that we will meet tomorrow as well because she's leaving on Thursday, but I don't want to be that creepy person that always invites themselves.

And she's cute, funny and kind and I didn't know what got over me, but I didn't mention that I have a boyfriend, but I also assumed that she would not be interested anyway, because she mentioned past boyfriends and men she flirted with on her trip to Italy, and she's not gonna stay here for long anyway.

And because there was a miscommunication between the two of us and didn't meet her at the place she originally invited me to, and the messenger app wasn't working on my phone, I gave my FB password to my boyfriend and asked him to tell her to text me because I didn't have her number and couldn't reach her any other way. The boyfriend knows about her and how we met btw (he doesn't know that I think she's cute and hadn't tell her that I'm in a relationship tho, I know, shitty me.) It felt kinda weird asking him to log on my FB and text her, and he of course mentioned that he's my boyfriend, but I couldn't do anything else.

And when we actually saw each other tonight, one of the things the woman told me was "I thought that was weird because you didn't mention a boyfriend." but she said it in a way that I couldn't make sense of. I wonder if she was trying to figure out whether I wouldn't have made mention of it because the relationship is bad or because I had other things in mind. And then I thought "But what if she was actually interested? Now she'll never tell me."

I know I am a shitty person because I shouldn't be thinking this way. It's not fair for my boyfriend. I am probably overthinking things anyway and again, she'll be leaving on Thursday, so...

I don't know, I hope we stay in contact even as friends anyway because I really like her and feel that I want to preserve that personal relationship. I asked her if it's okay to message her on FB just to casually chat, and she said she's okay with it.

Yup, I'm definitely an idiot.