#I'm tired and that always makes me emotional

[musette22]

Do you ever think about how when Steve was sick Bucky would be the caretaker, looking after him, and post-catws it changes to Steve looking after Bucky? It makes me feel so many emotions thinking about it.

I also wonder if sometimes neither of them saw it as that dynamic - I'm sure there were times when Steve was the one patching up Bucky after a boxing match (with Sarah as his mother there's no way he doesn't know some things). And I've wondered about a post-catws Bucky who has the instinct to look after and protect Steve despite all his trauma. Maybe that helps him in a way, helps him come back to himself. (I've thought about how caring for Alpine would be really helpful to him as well). Idk either way the idea of these two caring for the other even when they've both got so much trauma.

Another thing that makes me soft to think about is Bucky and baths. I hc that he can't handle showers because there's too many negative memories there, but he loves bath. I love in fics/fanarts when Steve helps Bucky with a bath. For one thing, the softness is almost unbearable - Bucky finally having someone do something nice for him, to make him feel good after years of the opposite. I also wonder if it would help him kinda deprogramme from hydra conditioning. If he has trauma from lack of consent with being washed/naked, he could get over that by having Steve help him, because he knows Steve would never hurt him or take advantage of him. Can you imagine how emotional Steve gets knowing how much Bucky trusts him to allow that? Same thing with shaving - Bucky trusting no one but Steve to have something sharp near his head and neck.

Sorry this got way longer than I intended, hope you don't mind.

I think about this so much and I am ALWAYS in for thinking about it some more. Absolutely always. In fact I'm just going to spend the rest of the evening thinking about this now ❤️❤️❤️

The ostensible switch in the "caretaking" role is so so precious to me (and so is the idea that actually, they've both been taking care of each other all along), and I also love the concept of Bucky just slipping back into that "must take care of Steve" mindset before he's even fully come back to himself.

And oh my god, Bucky and baths...... and Steve helping Bucky take baths..... the inherent SOFTNESS and the tender loving care of it all is just devastating to me, in the best possible way. I could read a hundred thousand fics about that same concept and never grow tired of it. Same goes for the shaving thing - if there's a scene in a fic where one of them shaves the other, especially if it's before they've confessed their feelings to each other, I just spontaneously combust 😩 OUUGGHH it’s SO GOOD. Give me all the post-tws recovery fics in which these two find ways to show their love and devotion by taking care of each other in the little ways... it's my favourite thing in the world 🥺💖

Thank you for sharing these beautiful thoughts with me, darling ❤️ Please always feel free to do so, I love this so, so much!

[yanderes-galore]

This idea has been stuck in my head for months. James Sunderland vs Leon Kennedy yandere rivalry in dbd. Please and thank you

I'm curious on if you had other reasoning for this rivalry other than they look the same....

Yandere! James Sunderland vs Leon Kennedy

Pairing: Romantic - Rivalry

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Manipulation, Jealousy, Delusional behavior, Violence, Mental breakdowns, Possessive behavior/Overprotective behavior, Dubious/Forced relationship(s).

Ah, yes, the traumatized blondes who were soon sent to an even worse hell.

One, Leon, lived through an outbreak as a rookie police officer.

Another, James, killed his wife and was sent to a supernatural town to find a way to cope....

Safe to say, one of them is indeed worse than the other.

I also feel like you'd be safest with Leon more than James.

Leon seems less likely to... snap around you.

A rivalry between the two doesn't entirely make the most sense... but let me see the possibilities.

Leon is a character that may be naive as a rookie... but has a strong sense of duty.

He's a cop, his job is naturally to protect.

Even if his foes are supernatural... and this realm has stripped him of his firearm.

He's more likely to protect his obsession more than... well... emotionally manipulate them.

Not saying Leon won't do some of that but...

James is much worse.

How I write James is much more selfish, delusional, controlling, and manipulative...

James sees his obsession as a coping mechanism he can use for his own benefit.

Leon is more likely to be around you and give you affection for you more than himself.

So... While they look similar, you could say their motives differ.

Leon is one who wishes to please you... James is the one who wishes to use you.

Due to this, it isn't hard to see why they'd not get along.

When Leon sees you, he feels like he needs to support you.

He protects you and tries to reassure you he'll get out of a trial with you safe and sound.

He offers to always be around for you... to always be yours....

All you have to do is accept him.

He wants to be yours... to have your attention... to be a good man for you.

James wants you to support him.

He does just about every dirty trick in the book.

He guilt trips you, he clings to you, he brings up his past if it means he gets more attention.

James uses you.

He sees you as a replacement for his past love.

James doesn't care if he needs to use sabotage.

He'll do anything if it means you're his.

That says the difference between them well enough, yeah?

Leon would be the protective one... while James is the possessive one.

They both can have pathetic yandere traits too, often wanting to please you to get your attention..

They're both manipulative, but Leon does it because he fears what happens if James is allowed too close.

Leon rarely leaves your side when he realizes what James is trying to do.

OH, If James snaps and turns on you due to his delusions, Leon just never leaves you alone after that.

Be that during trials or around the campfire... Leon keeps an arm around you as he watches you.

Leon loves you from a more genuine place.

Usually Leon is submissive with his obsession, always wanting to protect and please.

Yet with James around... He turns up the protective behavior.

James often asks to speak with you, probably to vent in an attempt to win you over.

Leon is quick to cut him off though, reminding you that James is using you.

James would claim that's a lie, but who are you going to believe?

The guy who's a cop... or the guy who killed his wife?

This rivalry is definitely against James.

Leon would often have to be careful of trials since James will no doubt attempt to sabotage him.

After all... If he gets rid of that clingy cop... He can keep you to himself.

Outside of trials the two may get into verbal arguments, Leon often tired of when James tries to play victim.

It would not surprise me if James had an emotional breakdown in front of you as a way to earn your sympathy.

Leon might reluctantly have you comfort him... yet never leaves your side.

It's a very... toxic situation.

The two have probably gotten into an altercation once or twice, but Leon usually calms things since he has... well... combat training?

Overall, I see Leon as being the one who wins your favor the most.

He doesn't wish to use you and seems more capable of protecting you.

It would not surprise me if James was still able to sabotage Leon though.

In this realm, the two can not kill one another as survivors.

Even if they manage it, getting blood on their hands after a fight goes wrong...

Things will just reset again, making the rivalry continue no matter how much you fight.

It seems this becomes your own personal hell...

If the killers weren't enough...

Now you have two emotionally unstable blondes fighting for your attention... Neither of them are able to win... and you're unable to leave.

[coelacat]

the thing they don't tell you is that when you're depressed and poor that the food is actually what drives you most fucking insane

[spaceratprodigy]

kissing everyone on the mouth for being so sweet abt the new art btw I have real tears in my eyes

[emometalhead]

I write something like this every year. In all honesty it's hard for me to talk about Chester. I think about him every single day. It's now been six years without him, and it still doesn't feel real that he's gone. I still don't know how to cope with it. I still can't think about him for too long without crying.

Chester has been such an important figure in my life for as long as I can remember. I was raised on Linkin Park. They will forever be one of my favorite bands even if some songs are too painful to listen to now. My own mental health journey has been difficult. I'd be lying if I claimed to be doing totally fine, but I live each day trying to honor Chester's memory and make him proud. He's a big part of the reason I am who I am, and he's a big part of the reason that I'm still here today.

If you see this, please give someone you love a hug. Tell them you care about them. Cherish the moments you have with the people that matter. Listen to your favorite artist and keep them in your mind for a while. Do something nice for yourself. We all owe it to ourselves to allow some kindness in our lives. In words that Chester once sang, "when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind".

[gardensnakie]

How’s life? No pressure question ofc, but if you want to share please feel free to do so with this ask :3

Eh, it doesn't feel all that great right now. I'm tired and hungry a lot, but I just have to get a routine together. My sleep has been wonky, I've been waking up too early, but I feel fine then but it also feels like I can't rest completely- I have dreamless nights mostly. And I also just get annoyed a lot, but it feels better being around people I like.

[gxtzeizm]

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[navree]

the concept of having children being so tied into political ambitions and machinations throughout history means that a lot of people do seem to straight up forget that these people were, like, family, and likely acted as such a lot of the time

[petrichor-moss-and-lightning]

watching this clip again and thinking about girlhood and reflection and time and gender roles. like, i see my 7-year old niece, and it's gut-wrenching to watch her be pushed into the same eldest-daughter patterns of performance and forced perfection that i was as a kid, knowing what waits for her and yet not being able to save her.

[byanyan]

endearing myself to my own oc tonight thinking about lil baby 13 y/o byan who's finally switched to using only they/them pronouns and finally able to experiment more with feminine clothing and makeup, and they're really excited about it but don't really know what they're doing yet? they're learning most if not all of this stuff on their own with no real guidance, so they're clumsy and they stumble a lot while they're trying to get the hang of it all - there are a lot of poorly blended makeup looks done with an unpracticed, heavy hand, a lot of messy attempts at hairstyles as their hair grows out for the first time ever, and a lot of outfits that are too much or the colours clash or the styles just don't quite mesh... they look pretty messy a lot of the time, but they're having so much fun.

[heyitslapis]

Ok

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends

[silverselfshippingchaos]

the way I am so.. so so so down bad for this man..

[sschmendrick]

Maybe I should go back to seeing my therapist, he was a good person, à l'écoute, but maybe I should explain why I stopped seeing him (on top of work load becoming unbearable).

Same with my psychiatrist though I think it'll be harder to see her because of the summer.

[petiolata]

For me it's not the self-conscious part of my brain. My creations are not a product for consumption. I will talk about my works' flaws and my struggles with making them, those are parts of my creative process and I like to share those with others, and I like when others artists and writers do the same.

I don't have to pretend to be perfect, or that my work is perfect. Nor do my summaries, notes, tags, have to be designed with maximum appeal to a consumer.

I understand that some people have a problem with self-deprecation and shame about their works, but not everyone discussing the flaws in their work is having an unhealthy mental process at play. Some of us are objective in our observations, or at the very least, our observations are not being driven by negative emotions.

I would not advise people to pretend they think their work is good, if they don't. There's not really a reason to fake confidence unless you have a concrete goal it serves, like getting accepted into a college or job, or better selling products. Outside of that, it serves no purpose in itself.

Now, actually changing the way you think about or view your work--that can be good. But simply hiding the bad thoughts is doing just that--hiding them, sweeping them under the rug. They still exist.

you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life