#I'm still debating about it

[evewasheretoday]

Costume - Heathers Normal AU (Modern?)

“I hate you guys,” Veronica put her hands on her hips and sighed.

Duke covered her mouth with her hands, a burst of laughter threatening to escape as she looked away from the brunette.

Mac was grinning so widely at Veronica that it made her want to dig herself into the ground.

Chandler? Well, that bitch was laughing her ass off.

“Veronica, darling” She clutched her chest—gasping for air before laughing even harder. “H-H—Halloween is over, you can..” She wheezed out in between laughs. “..stop dressing like a nightmare now!”

“Oh haha, very funny Heather” Veronica rolled her eyes. “Go fuck yourself gently with a chainsaw,” She crossed her arms to her chest and looked away from the three of them.

“It looks good, Veronica!” Mac clapped her hands together. “You look nice,” She added.

That was it, that was the final straw for Duke.

“SHE'S A HOTDOG, HEATHER—” She started laughing uncontrollably. “S-S—She.. thought...that.. oh my god—” She threw her head back and laughed even more. “She thought we were going in costumes to Ram's party!”

Yep, It's official. Veronica no longer wants to be friends with Heather.

“I hate you guys,” The brunette groaned. How was she supposed to know clearly about anything? Heather, Heather and Heather were all vague about it.

“Just clean up nicely,” Chandler told her three days before today. “We have to be in costumes,” Duke told her the next day after. “Just follow what Heather and Heather said,” Mac literally told her before she arrived at where they were supposed to meet up.

“If it makes you feel better, I think you look hot—” Mac rubbed the back of her neck sheepishly, her cheeks turning a bit red at her words.

Chandler and Duke just laughed much more.

Wonderful. Veronica's life is wonderful.

[lazylittledragon]

ok someone please correct me if i'm wrong but am i weird for thinking those 'audiobooks don't count as reading' posts are ableist as fuck????

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4)

[egophiliac]

the lovers, reversed

(aka I'm still freaking out about Jou)

[crystallizsch]

Hey, prof. How are your classes? My new first-year students are quite behaved this year.

post-nrc yuusha brain worms are getting to me,,,,

anyways i finally figured it out- i want her to start working as the art professor at nrc probably a short time after graduation 👀

(so not really post-nrc since she's still there 💀)

[kaijuqgle]

[vaguely-concerned]

To the ‘themes I am picking up on in Veilguard’ list, let's go ahead and add what I have a sneaking suspicion will actually turn out to be The theme:

— the world has changed and can never be as it was again.

— I have been changed and can never be who I was again.

— in this simple unavoidable truth there is endless grief and endless hope.

And I… may be getting a bit emotional about it haha. Let me show my work a bit: 

if da:o is a game about people who are already dead or half ghosts in some form (through societal forces, psychologically, functionally, literally, in body, through the joining etc.) coming together anyway to save the world from being swallowed by total nihilism and despair (symbolized by the blight) through the power of love and friendship and also this sword/potential heroic sacrifice that I found, da2 is a game about people who have lost their homes and been set adrift finding and building new homes in each other (while completely failing to save the world. also through the power of love and friendship. as well as years of petty bickering <3 we must imagine kirkwall if not happy then worth having been because the love was there the love was there and that's the only sanctifying force we can ever have in this doomed world and city of ours), and da:i is a game about old stabilizing-but-unjust comfortable lies vs. disruptive but potentially liberating uncomfortable truths, and the power of friendship to help us distinguish the one from the other and navigate through them...

folks… I'm starting to think that veilguard might be a game specifically about moving towards recovery and acceptance after trauma — about how even in this flawed, severed, scarred state, what is here right now is worth loving and worth caring for. even in an imperfect and impermanent world and self, there is worth and joy. and of course the first real tragedy — and threat — of Solas is that he just cannot find it in himself to accept this and move on, to let go of what was, the regret won’t let him go or he won’t let go of it. which means that even though on the surface it’s Elgar’nan and Ghilan’nain (and the will to subjugate and violate they represent) who are the main villains, the real antagonistic force in this story beneath that is the Dread Wolf’s despair. A despair Rook must make an answer to by the end of the game, one way or another, compassionately or with righteous fury, triumphant or pyrrhic.

The world will change again and again and so will you — BUT the crucial element is that so will everyone else who exists along with you, you are fundamentally not alone in this existential truth. all we’ll ever have is each other and my god that is plenty, my god that is enough!!! Which is the second thing Solas just can’t accept, he keeps himself separate and completely alone out of an awful mix of fear and pride and feeling himself unworthy of anything else. Rook and the player want to save the world of Thedas because it’s where everyone we love lives, Solas wants to go back to the past because that’s the only neighbourhood where he can still visit those he loved — and the person he himself was, before. A very sympathetic and human instinct/trap to fall into when touched by trauma, I think, if only it wasn’t backed by godlike power, a fundamentally oppositional personality, and a catastrophic lack of therapy to make it literally everyone else’s problem too lol. It’s varric and solas’ banter about the man on the island and where meaning in a life comes from all over again, writ large and with detail work — and the added idea of ‘what if there are also other islands out there, though. With other people on them that you could find if you reach for each other’. Rook with the best of intentions has to make choices to which there are no perfect outcomes and live with what happens — and not cut themselves off from everyone else around them even when there is regret or shame. You get back up every day and you make a life with other people doing the same and you do your best, and that’s the only victory this world will give you. In the end, that is more than enough, that is essential. And I um. I love that. So much. It’s why some of the writing clumsiness on top can’t hurt me because this thematic spine is so solid and so beautiful to me. It’s DA2 all over again that way for me personally — I forgive this story for what it isn’t and couldn’t be, and I love it with my whole stupid open heart for what it actually is. Thank you for coming to my TED-talk and goodbye etc.      

(For my fellow TLT heads out there — you know what this story is reminding me of most of all, actually? It has some big Nona the Ninth vibes down there in the deep. It’s about… the horror and unspeakable beauty that can only be found in liminality, and the role of love in making that basic fact of existence bearable. And also even more unbearable at the same time. I'm so sorry.)

[cecoeur]

How do you sleep at night? No one to hide behind Betrayed every alibi you had You had every chance to make amends instead you got drunk on bitterness And you still claim that you're innocent, it's sad

[madamemiz]

hi hello i like kerfur

listen i know the player character in votv is an actual character with a name and everything but consider: what if it was you tho

[redysetdare]

"This fandom is so queer friendly!" This fandom literally hates, bisexual, trans, nonbinary, and aspec people but ok.

[ratwithhands]

Read Right to Left (Manga Format)

I have returned to watching demon slayer after a year and it came up while I was having a serious late night talk with my big sister. I was talking about the relationship between Michikatsu/Kokushibo and Yoriichi and it turns out we both see each other in Yoriichi's shoes and ourselves in Michikatsu's place. Definitely surprising, but really relieving to know that we both worry too much and we are not so far apart in skill as we believe.

This is technically the first piece of fanart I've ever made for the characters in Demon Slayer, I have made OCs before but I never drew an actual character from the story. For context this is mostly just a fun "what if" scenario with them meeting in the afterlife. I like to think Yoriichi's love would reawaken Michikatsu's humanity.

[evewasheretoday]

Ghost Hunting - Heathers Peaceful AU.

San Lorenzo Luis Hospital; 11:05 PM.

“I can't believe this,” Duke muttered under her breath.

“Ugh, this place smells like shit” Chandler pinched her nose. “Are you sure this place is actually haunted or did your boyfriend just make it up to fuck with us?” She raised an eyebrow at Veronica.

The brunette sighed, adjusting her grip on her flashlight. “JD wouldn’t lie about something like this to me,” She said.

“Bullshit,” Chandler replied. “Didn't he once swapped our homework assignments just to see if we'd notice?”

Veronica winced slightly, memories of that day flooding her mind again. “That was one time,” She defended. “And he apologized for it after, didn't he?”

“I still don't fucking like him, Sawyer” Chandler shot back. “And dragging us into this creepy hospital because he claimed it's haunted isn’t really doing him any favors.”

“Can we pleaseeee just get this over with?” Mac hugged herself, teeth chattering. “This place is seriously creeping me out,” She told them.

“It's literally just an old abandoned building, Heather” Duke replied with a roll of her eyes. “We've been through worse,”

“Yeah, those parties Chandler keeps dragging us to” Veronica responded. “At least this place doesn't have puke stains and bad music”

“Haha, very funny” Chandler crossed her arms to her chest. “I haven't forgotten that shit you pulled two months ago at Ram’s party, Veronica” She glared at the brunette for a moment before sighing in resignation. “You still owe us big time.”

“Yeah, I had to be on the end of Chandler's rage for three whole days after that” Duke added, shaking her head. “Not fun.”

“Trust me,” Veronica replied. “I'd know, she was on my ass for almost a week after”

Duke snorted.

“I'll never forgive you, Sawyer” Chandler spat.

“I'm sure you won't,” Veronica smirked back at her. “Okay— let's split up and cover more ground,” She shined her flashlight down the dim hallway they were in. “Chandler, you and Duke take the left wing while Mac and I will check out the right”

“Excuse me? Who died and made you leader?” Chandler asked.

“Do you want to get out here fast or not?” Veronica gave her a look. “Just go with the flow”

“Fine,” Chandler grumbled. “Come on, Duke— let’s find some ghosts or whatever” She dragged the other girl with her by the arm as they left.

“We meet back here in 20 minutes!” Veronica shouted after them, she watched them walk away before grabbing Mac's hand and leading them further down the hallway.

“I hope your boyfriend is just messing around with us,” Mac said. “Because I really can't stand being in this place more than I have to if his words turn out to be true, Veronica”

“We'll see, Mac” Veronica squeezed the other girl's hand reassuringly. “We'll see..” She trailed off.

Hopefully JD really was just messing with them..

[beaft]

anyway i'm always fascinated by the people who think that trans men transition purely to escape misogyny and gain social capital. idk how it is for other people, but since i transitioned i have not only experienced more misogyny than i ever did before but also lost access to the public spaces and support systems that might have helped me deal with it

[balleater]

something i've already posted about in the past but am thinking about again because of the conversations in this episode is that i still truly do not understand bells hells'(well, particularly ashton's) view on what is going to happen if the information about aeor gets sent out to the people of exandria. obviously, i'm not an average person living in that world and am instead a viewer of the media with fairly extensive knowledge of the lore, so i could definitely just be missing what the impact would actually be! but the insistence that it would be a world shattering revelation that completely turns everyone against the odds just... doesn't make sense to me?

unless ludinus has a way of editing the information he presents and can take away the context, which would basically make the "footage" even more strange, what they're going to be seeing is... the gods saving themselves from people with the active ability to murder them all and having a rather humanizing crisis of what they should do about it? i guess the working with the betrayer gods part could be considered the controversial aspect of it, but overall, considering everything else that was destroyed in the calamity, aeor really was the one instance that was closest to being "justified". i don't think anyone who cares enough about the gods for this to cause any sort of big disruption of faith would have as big of a problem with it as they are assuming, nor do i really think it's something that would cause mass revolts against the gods in people who aren't devout.

[sharkneto]

Fanfic authors, I have a question!

I've been thinking about how fanfic has become more mainstream in the last few years, and if that's affected how open us authors are about our fanfic hobby.

[tadpolesonalgae]

Hi! Is the master list a wip rn? It’s not working for me

Hi! Sorry to commandeer this post but there are a few things I want to say relating to this.

So over the past fortnight or so I've actually seriously been considering deleting my blog, or just stopping writing fanfiction entirely. Most of Two Birds has been deleted and I started getting rid of a few Teeth and Talons chapters, I think all the links to masterlists have been taken down and I've made most of the cbmthy chapters private.

I don't want to mislead anyone by speculating why I've been feeling the way I have, but I'm fatigued, exhausted, demotivated, and I feel used.

Fandom to me is supposed to be about community, not to be taken as charity. That means interacting with writers. Reblogging posts with more than just sorting tags. Commenting something other than asking to be on a taglist.

I want to stress there are over 3,600 of you following me, and yet only the first part of cbmthy, Unchained, and Stockholm Syndrome even a third of you have interacted with. Most stories I write now have around 100-300 hundred notes, a fraction of those being comments or reblogs, which is such a small percentage.

My problem isn't feeling there aren't enough likes/comments/reblogs.

My problem is when I now share a fic with you, less than one twelfth of you are even seeing/acknowledging it.

If you don't like my writing, I'm fine with that; there have been others who have been kind enough to express how much they do enjoy it, and sincere enough that I believe it.

But for anyone who doesn't enjoy my writing anymore, please unfollow me.

If you don't have the time to read the things I write anymore, please acknowledge that and unfollow me.

If you don't have the energy to enjoy fandom anymore, please unfollow me.

I'm more than happy if 100 or so of you enjoy a post, because that's one hundred people who have enjoyed something I've taken the time to write, but the remaining three and a half thousand of you, keeping quiet, not interacting, potentially not even seeing the stories I work hard on, just feel like dead weight.

A drabble, or a head-canon post takes me about two hours to write.

A 2k/3k word fic takes me around five hours to write.

A regular cbmthy chapter can take me up to eighteen hours to write. Not including editing.

So to answer your question: I don't know if it's a wip.

I haven't decided whether or not to fix all the links. I don't even know if I want people to have access to all the stuff I've written.

Hobbies are supposed to be fun, but if the discontent and resentment outweigh my enjoyment, then I have to take a break from it, either temporarily or permanently.

I'd love to write a book one day, and I think having this blog is a great way for me to practice my storytelling, but I can't do any of that if I don't have the will to write.