#I'm slowly getting my life together
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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people
you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.
#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#fh class quangle#class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao#ask to tag#I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what#in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends#they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff#theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron#cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace#lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a#horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre#Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary#and now u just have a Cool Monster#its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao#sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy#well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont#they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch#I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face#it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be#tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to#really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things#it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are#flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best#but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic
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obligatory scott and scar posting
#smajor#goodtimeswithscar#last life smp#“wait have you only seen the very beginning and very end of last life”#yes#listen i get STRESSED#hc and the life series are slowly helping me make some progress about that though actually#see i've always had trouble with getting stressed over conflict in fiction#like it hits me way too hard#and that makes it hard to get into a lot of media let me tell you#then i started playing ttrpgs with some REALLY good folks#and that became my first practice area to work through some fears and have time to address some personal stuff#and it became easier to be okay irl over time#and now i'm watching these minecraft folks blow each other up and do death games and when theyre done theyre all still GOOD#not just fine irl but they still LIKE each other (or at least seem to be alright playing together again)#and that's just helping my brain a lot!#OOPS UNRELATED PERSONAL ESSAY IN THE TAGS I GUESS
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Not feeling it rn cuz idk how to disclose to my family (mom, really) that I have two very funnily misplaced random underskin lumps on my neck and and one on the back of my head, and that my mind immiditely jumped to the worst conclusion
#The constant fatigue migranes and brain fog ive had for a good year doesn't help#oh its the damned phone it's because you don't do anything all day it's because you don't see the sun#maybe#doesn't change the fact that they are there and I'm scared haha#had the one on the back of my head for a while#and definitely didnt have a panic attack over finding the third one earlier today when absemindedly scratching my neck#they're kinda hard to find but once you feel them boy oh boy it#sigh it just seems really idk. over the top?#like if I was suppoused to die couldn't it have been anything less mentally and money taxing lmao#why bother with cancer ffs it's not like I have anything in my life going on#and to think I was actually planning on getting it together#my mom has enough on her plate as she is#what with her work slowly killing her#why is she literaly the only one that would kinda care#only after telling me I'm definitely overreacting but still#whatver man#I can't sleep but my head hurts#it's just my period anyway#sorry guys I will be back to Joy and whimsy soon I'm sure#vent#like in amongus haha
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We are entering that weird part of the year where my work is slow af until there is An Issue and then I am sooooo busy until the Issue is Fixed and then I'm back to being bored again
#if it seems like I'm on tumblr a lot#it's because I am lmao#because I WFH but I am not confident enough to leave my actual work desk for very long#but tumblr is very easy to scroll through slowly all day and then spin back to my work desk when I need too#I DO clean the house a LOT when it gets slow like this tho#because cleaning 1 thing doesn't actually take that long and I can check back#you know what I mean???#cleaning the hosue together is a long time#doing a few cleaning tasks is less time#yes???#anyway. :(#If this million dollar job (a literal invoice for a literal million dollars) comes back rejected again because it 'doesn't match' i'm gonna#scream#hours of my life LOST because no one SENT ME THE THING I NEEDED#ooc#this is just me complaining about something I Should Not complain about to be honest#but sometimes you gotta
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I'm good there was a dreamie upload ^_^ wby?
i'm great!! i woke up briefly at 4am right after he uploaded but went back to sleep and good thing i did because that vid deserves full attention!!
#it's so awesome it's so cool!!!#i'm good slowly getting my life back together#also volleyball is on which is amazing <3
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i haven't been this social & talkative in Years someone drag me out back
#rambling to myself in the tags just go ahead n pass by 🫡#u've been warned#i can feel the burnout(?) creeping up on me & its been. two days.#at least my friend is reassured i'm still in their life every few months 👍#even if i end up hating being dragged out places i know a little relief feels like a lot to other ppl#but i also just. hate being involved at all. esp if its pity but also when they genuinely want to talk with me. which sucks!#i hate thinking like that. however it just feels like the most logical path sometimes yk? after (gestures vaguely) everything?#i'm childishly obsessed with the aspect of destruction. me or them carrying it out it doesn't matter#any sort of socializing feels like grinding stone together whether or not their intentions seem as pure as possible#it feels like my socializing button is broken and my battery is locked at 2% 24/7#its not that i actively try to keep myself locked in self serving cycles to stay pitiful lord knows i hate being pathetic#i despise being miserable. it may not be Everything i know. it may be comfortable or familiar or whatever edgy shit#but it takes so much energy to have any emotion. i feel like i wrung myself dry in elementary school#ultimately i know i'm capable of Having Emotions. they're just all buried beneath 78 layers of static that don't seem to be there for other#i try to be social. even when i know Deep down i like them i end up hating every interaction. no matter how smooth or funny or whatever#i seem to have this blanket that makes everything heavier on me. i don't like being weighed down but sometimes i have to comply else#i know i'll just fucking crash out for the next however many years & end up being more hurt than i began with#<- metaphor doesn't make sense bc i ditched it half way thru but you get the point#be social to the complete detriment to my health & appease others or hurt other ppl (something i don't like doing bc i know how it feels) &#end up ''''saving'''' myself (trapping myself further. lose/lose). i wish i was completely exempt to people paying attention to me#i Hate wallowing in this fucking pity. this whole woe is me evvybody huwt me so now i feel nudding :( schtick makes me feel so weak#i like feeling strong by socializing. sometimes i get this litttlee inkling of maybe i should try & put myself out there More but it always#comes with the same results. one of these days surely it'll change (<- bearer of the curse) (<- but still has hope despite denying it)#yes i'm in therapy yes i'm working on my social capacity slowly instead of getting my boundaries ran over at top notch speed by my abusers#sometimes i need to say the self pitying shit out loud to knock me to my senses & be like 'if a friend said this i'd criticize them'#'if anybody else thought that you'd cringe so hard and be filled with That Specific Misery you feel & hate so much' ohhh right. my bad
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I really should have just put a note on my blogs to say I'm on temporary hiatus but I'm hoping to be back online somewhere around July, cross your fingers for me
#🛡 ooc#i had to go to my hometown to get my birth certificate and god.#anyway. taking care of adult things and getting my life in order. slowly getting things together.#im here and there on discord these days but dont expect a lot of activity until i get the major things sorted out#I've been late on rent for the past couple months and just struggling to pay my utilities#forcing myself to learn to drive and fighting my work to get a loan out of my 401k so i can afford the cheapest car possible#but I'm getting there. im slowly fixing my life.#the loan was approved after two months of fighting for it but now i have to wait for it. because they refused to direct deposit it.#my paranoia about stolen mail is going BONKERS#have i mentioned im also trying to get diagnosed with ocd. ANYWAY#that's probably too much personal rambling. see you guys soon maybe. hopefully. fingers crossed.
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I got my first income this month !!!!!!! I am beyond so happy !!! Me and my bf are organizing moving in together but it wont be until the end of this year or early next, but being down here where we see each other physically once a week or so after almost 2 yrs of long distance (6 years best friends ! we became long distance after covid:( ). I've been sooooooooooooo busy with life/adulting but I'm getting more and more cravings to draw again! !!! I need to wait at least a month of investing money exclusively into getting on my feet, but after that I realllllyyyyy want to get into oil painting again--I've been wanting to paint SO bad
#everything is soososososo good !! after being a dependent my whole life and working for this I'm starting to feel whole again#everyone is so kind at work and I'm starting to put more money into food tasting better (slowly. only so much rope I can give myself rn)#journal scrap#every single month that passes I'm getting more happy and more put together !!
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birth
#i'm in my mid-twenties now huh............................ and i have accomplished nothing :)#it's fine though i'm slowly but surely getting my life together. and i am definitely not coping.#riley rambles#anyways negativity aside i'm going to a fancy restaurant with my boyfriend tomorrow + shopping potentially. he's too good for me i swear.#AND ICE CREAM CAKE!! because normal cake makes me violently ill. not because i find it intolerable but rather my stomach does regrettably.#this art i got of my self-insert encompasses so many emotions that i specifically feel toward being in my mind-twenties now
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If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 3 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog
awesome, thank you!
i'm currently working towards a foreign language major with a chinese concentration
i'm a leftie! lowkey kind of interested in being ambidextrous but not really willing to commit to trying + i like being a leftie, it's fun
i love dangly earrings and patterned socks. they're on my list for gifts every single year, which i think makes me relatively simple to shop for, because i'm pleased with any cute pair of socks i receive
#star answers#lovely mutuals#frannabelle3#sharing my college plans since like everyone in real life knows but i don't think i actually talked about it on here#since it took so long for everything to come together and it is honestly in flux#but i'm working on chinese hw right now that's why...#wearing my cat bus socks right now#i also wear through my socks very fast. they get holes easily which is why i have slippers so i won't#you know run my socks into the ground with my daily pacing#i can write with my right hand just very awkwardly and slowly and it looks like chicken scratch#(like my brothers' handwriting lolllll)#but like i have a good right handed throw#OH and i just had a in-the-same-room-as-someone-famous experience at my work yesterday
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Fluff, Drama, Lighthearted or Dark
FMA, Wonderland, Ygo or anything in between
I wanna plot gdi.
Look I love short n sweet interactions, quick asks and small threads they're all great but I'm going to be perfectly honest. I Miss plotted stuff.
I miss a single lengthy thread, or continues story beats and plots over multiple. I want progression.
Character Growth- for all muses, the world and story building, relationship growth/bonding. The good, the bad, the happy , the sad and everything else that comes with those types of threads.
Quite frankly that's what I want more then anything in regards to Kisara, future of the blog, general desire/rp interest.
This isn't to say I want to stop or won't continue doing small stuff, answering asks and sending that. I'm always for those especially as good buffers whether as a break from a current thread, a lull in motivation, life getting in the way of being able to focus on lengthy things you know whatever.
I'll always be 110% on board for any and every interaction nor am I discounting the enjoyment they've brought in the past, I love everyone one of you guys and everyone of our interactions has been a joy to do and always will be.
But I'm gonna be real it has been far to long since I last did like a properly plotted thread, a fun long continuous thread that didn't end up dying out or forgotten real quick.
Just wanted to let everyone know this is what I've really been feeling and really wanting to try and lean into more not just for her but in general with my rping as whole this year.
But especially here cause in part the fragmented one shot mini threads while always fun they kinda end up all over the place and I'd love to be able to start creating some kind of time line? do interactions that will actually carry over from one to the next, consequences for actions, lasting affects of things good or bad between threads (which I already have been trying to do that with some of her interactions and not just let them sit in a unconnected nebulous zone of their own heh)
#I hope this doesn't come off as rude or demanding or anything#I kept quiet but this has been on my mind for awhile#Was always afraid as coming off as pushy or potentially worse ungrateful for the rps/interactions#that have been done#because I'm not#I adore each and every interaction no matter how big or small they all mean the world#just knowing you want to interact with my little girl#but I fear that in part she herself has kind of become stagnant with all her interactions#being relatively brief and more or less the same nothing to push forward#and even if that wasn't true I just adore being able to essentially work together and write story for our muses#plus by plotting and giving more for the muses it may also make it easier/ add to even the small stuff you know#Gotta start small to get big but when doing big stuff still need the small now and then heh#so yeh small threads/short interactions/ask based on offs ect none of that is going anywhere#I've just really wanted to try and get into a more plotted/story proegression type of direction? focus?#I don't want to end up feeling like I'm in a rut of the same old things#and of course I understand life exists motivation or lack there of can come and go or be directed who knows where#and all of that#but even if it means having to slowly get that train going before it can head full speed down the tracks I don't mind taking the time#that's all okay#but let's work together to get it going then
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ok apparently 30 tags is the limit on tumblr and I'm putting it here because I couldn't put it in the tags
for my own curiosity, because my tragedy enjoying boggles the minds of a bunch of my irl social circle.
#poll is over but screw it i wanna rant#4 for me i think???#i don't feel like exposing my tastes too much but i usually need a good ending. or if not straight up good i need hope#like the few stories that made me unable to think about anything else for a while were all really dark#(by my standards i'm sure there's darker stuff out there)#with an ambiguous ending. but like. i prefer some closure. one book i read#it was very good and very famous but i will NOT name it here#had hopelessness as the whole point (specifically going against a system as an individual)#and it made me feel really bad for several weeks. like. i'm not mad about it. i think it was the point to make people uncomfortable#but also i kinda... need to be able to function in day to day life yknow. i can't be just thinking about amazing stories that broke me#i like angst. i'm finally in my emo phase. i want the characters to suffer but also win in the end. and if the suffering is really bad#that's probably the kind of dark fiction i enjoy. they don't even always have to win. i like it when something is basically#lost before you even start fighting#i guess it's about hope again (and having that hope crushed at the end)#but like. i still would prefer if it didn't end there and things slowly got better again#like i would say evangelion is pretty dark. but its ultimate ending was Good (I think. based on what i remember). things got Better#and then. sigh. euphoria is DEFINITELY dark and it ends just after they escape. the world isn't welcoming. they don't#have anywhere to go. but they are out and together. that's honestly one of my favorite endings ever#one of the reasons why i can't shut up about the gamd#game*#and my current favorite fanfiction has many dark elements but overall seems to be following the source material's progression#as in. things are Bad but they're not bad enough to stop trying. also it's set between two of the games#so like... no matter what happens i know how things end. which is comforting#and i guess i have to atleast mention this#kingdom hearts is light (ahahaahhahh) but also... it has a lot of fluff for sure. and i don't really like fluff for the sake of fluff#i honestly really enjoy it only in fanfics for stories where the characters don't get a break and you just want them to be happy for once#one of my guilty pleasures in fanfic is high school aus (i blame snk junior high for that)#it's stupid and the stakes are low but the characters are happy. and sometimes i need stuff like that#so like YEAH i guess i still prefer lighter stuff#but some dark stories are good. and others are good but i can't read them for my sanity's sake
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Imagine Gojo setting a condition to his Clan for him to give them an heir. "It's HER or no one." The elders aren't happy that he chose a non-sorcerer, but they reluctantly agree... that is, if Gojo manages to convince you.
“Come here-...I’m far from done, kitten.”
God, Gojo still makes you nervous, with his mouth buried between your legs for longer than you can even imagine. Why are you still so nervous? Is it the proximity? Is it the way he leans in to make eye contact while he licks you? Is it those blue piercing eyes? Or that immensely amused smirk that twists his lips just enough so he can keep eating you out?
"Mmmmm... stop moving so much, (Y/N). We are making a mess of my desk..." he purrs, all too pleased to watch your eyes roll to the back of your skull. "That’s my good girl..." the man between your legs, praises, "my future bride to be...-"
"T-...that's still u-...under discussion, S-Satoru." Your quivering protests are sweet chords of music for him, "I already t-.... told you that I d-don't want to be part of the jujutsu world.... nor b-belong to a-.... any clan."
"Not any clan, pretty. MY clan."
You hear him slurp greedily at your folds and feel a warm trick of saliva run down your ass, and when your mouth is about to throw another protest-... Satoru Gojo makes a vacuum on your quivering clit with that annoying mouth of his. Your thighs tense and the muscles of your stomach follow, a quake that rakes your entire form, making you a pathetic mock of a human.
Both your hands fly to cover your mouth and Satoru chuckles deep, amused rumble that cracks the rest of your self-control. Your cheeks grow in the most adorable shade of pink, and your breathing hastens.
"So CUTE~"
Satoru whimpers, dumb founded, his broad chest puffing with so much fervor, so much blinding endearment that he feels like about to explode. He can see the doubt in your beautifully contorted features, and he dips his tongue inside you, fucking you with that fat tongue to try to make you agree to his terms, to be HIS.
Dammit! You feel… amaaaaaazing. Why? It’s like a flip inside you only he can switch at will—... even so, he’s dangerous, you remember. He’s a special grade sorcerer, you remember. He’s a mystery, he’s unpredictable—he’s invincible, unreadable, impenetrable and lethal with a playful smile, and you really know absolutely nothing about him.
Yet, he insists that you belong together. He insists on putting his child inside you, he insists that he will take care of you and his life will be yours. He insists that you belong in his world and if you're not there, he won't be there either. He insists on fucking you stupid every chance he gets, bending you over surfaces, of course! Always putting his coat or his shirt or any piece of his clothing, just so your skin never comes into contact with any unworthy surface. He insists, he insists and insists and insists...
“Fuck—” he growls, grabbing your hips, “—why are you... h-how do you manage to always have me wrapped around your little finger—?”
“I want you, Satoru-u... but I can't-”
He stops you with a soft but firm, squeeze to your waist.
“Not like this,” he pants, tipping his head to slowly lick a strip down your sweet cunt, a farewell caress, the whisper of a kiss to his last effort before lunch time is over and he can try again, later. “Let me pretend just for a little longer that you said yes—"
Your gaze drops to his trembling thighs and the warmth that settles in the pit of your tummy is intensified by the clear drop of precum shining at the tip of his gloriously thick and long cock, now achingly swollen and a mouthwatering shade darker in color than the rest of him.
“I'm yours, Satoru-” you offer in a quiet whisper and can feel him shake his head. “You aren't.... but I’ll make you change your mind. You, just watch me, kitten."
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On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.
I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.
It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.
I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.
My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.
Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.
It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.
I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.
"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".
Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.
"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.
Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.
It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.
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Ngl I feel like I'm cookin'
#this is... tech ni c a l l y spoilers? for the Twilight princess sequel i'm slowly piecing together?#but i couldn't get this image out of my head sooooo#the yuna cut just. came for my life with this guy. idk i think he rocks it
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#I'm begging pleading crying for good news from my last application#literally 3 days in a row I get rejection letters from two schools and found out about a friend's death#I'm doing my best to hold it together but I am NOT doing well#prayer helps#getting to work with my students today helped a lot#I'm so grateful for them even if I don't really know them that well yet#God all I want to do for the rest of my life is teach#is that so much to ask#the friend that died was from the neighborhood group I was really involved with as a teenager#it's been slowly falling apart since around the time I left and losing him feels like a last goodbye#so much of the best of us came from him#I think too many bad things happening at once can make it feel like the world is falling in around you#I'm so glad I have my friends though#I have such incredible friends and there's never a doubt in my mind how much they love me#it's been so good to lean on them
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